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Caving In [10]
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Pairing: Gar Logan x Fem!Powered!Reader, Jason Todd x Fem!Powered!Reader
Words: 17,220 
Chapter Warnings: Swearing, fluff, canon typical things, canon violence, mentions of blood, mentions of injuries, angst, there’s a mention of dissociation in a nonchalant manner, a mention of drug addiction, reader and jason share 1 braincell while gar gets to have his own, it’s the start of the deathstroke chapters so lol, kidnapping
Summary: ❝Tell me Atlas: What is heavier, The world or its people’s hearts?❞ You never expected your life to end up this way, turned upside down by an infamous Gotham villain. It’s been a living hell, every single day, until Dick Grayson brings you to Titans tower where you meet Gar Logan and Jason Todd.
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When Dick comes back to the tower, Rose is still with him. The four of you are collectively surprised until you find out it’s because there was a bomb in the jeep that almost killed the two of them. That’s a fair reason to have a second thought about staying at the tower. But, that brings up the perfect opportunity for you, Gar, and Jason to tell Dick about Deathstroke being Rose’s dad. Dick didn’t have a reaction you could read well but asked to see what you all found, completely choosing to ignore how you found out. That’s a discussion for another time.
In the comms lab, all of you gather around the computer where everything about Rose and Deathstroke is still pulled up for Dick to see.
“That’s Rose’s father?” Rachel asks.
“Yep. The one and only Deathstroke.” Jason’s voice has hints of amazement, the smallest of grins pulling at the left corner of his mouth. Of course, Jason would find it fascinating.
“Is that somebody you know?” Rachel asks, turning to look at Dick.
“Kind of, old Titans business.” Dick says, keeping a straight face and you raise your brows. Yeah, old Titans business as in he killed one of them.
“Check it,” Gar brings up another screen. “Former Delta Force Commando part of hive.” Gar says, the last part almost sounding like a question. “Select soldiers who underwent a series of experimental bio-enhancements.” Gar pauses for a second. “Huh, out of the thirty-five trial subjects, the only one to survive was Slade Wilson.” Gar pauses for another second reading the screen. “Interpol says he retired years ago after the death of his son, Jericho. I-I tried having the computer find something--”
“I’ll take it from here.” Dick cuts Gar off, walking over to him and exiting out of the screens with Rose and Slade.
All of the you watch him with suspension but before anyone can question him, the security alarm goes off. Dick pulls up the screen to the front door where three people are standing.
“So, I guess you changed the code.” The woman with dark hair says.
“Finally.” Rachel says, a large smile on display as she sounds relieved.
“Who’s here?” You ask, looking around the room, not able to see onto the smaller monitor in front of Dick.
“You’ll love them.” Rachel beams, walking over to you and grabbing your hand to pull you along. “Donna, Dawn, and Hank.” Rachel starts as the two of you walk down the hallway, the two boys right behind you. “Donna is Wondergirl.” Rachel starts.
“Sorry, what now? Wondergirl like THE Wondergirl?” Your voice raises, excitement flooding your tone.
“Yep! Dawn, the one with white hair, she’s Dove and Hank is Hawk.” Rachel explains.
“The original Titans, okay.” You nod your head and you are so excited.
The original Titans, that’s awesome, actually one of the coolest things that’s ever happened. They’re real superheroes and it’s Wondergirl. One of the coolest heroes ever. And to top it off, that means the tower is gaining two more women in the tower which is always a plus. Rachel and the boys, including Jason, actually seem really excited to see them which is all a good sign to you.
“You guys have no clue how much this place misses you.” Rachel says as she greets Dawn.
Dawn embraces her in a hug. “This place, huh?”
“Mostly just me.” Rachel says.
“And me, too.” Gar says before he gets his own hug from Dawn, you staying back and observing. It is weird that this is like a thing. They’re all
friends.
“Hey, you’re new.” Hank says from the back, looking behind Gar to you.
You nods. “I am.” You step forward awkwardly, Gar gesturing a hand out to introduce you.
“This is Y/n.” Gar beams.
“It’s nice to meet you, Y/n.” Dawn’s voice is sweet and soft. “I’m Dawn, he’s Hank, and that’s Donna.” She says as she jerks her head towards Donna who’s just finished giving Rachel a hug.
“You, too. Original Titans.” You say, a gleaming smile coming to your face. You’re nearly bouncing with excitement while trying not to make it seems obvious how cool this is.
“That’s us.” Hank says, a little exasperation in his voice. “Got any
talents we should know about?” Hank asks.
You hold your hands up, as if to be surrendering before your palms start glowing. That catches everyone’s attention. “Acid generation.”
“And combat clairvoyance.” Jason says from his spot near the fireplace. He doesn’t do the whole ‘welcome back’, ‘glad to see you again’ reunions even if he is glad to have them around.
“Well, alright then.” Hank nods, seeming to approve.
“Did Dick find you?” Dawn asks.
“He did.” You keep it short, not wanting to go over the play-by-play yet again.
“He has a thing for strays.” Donna says, giving you a quick smile.
“Noticed.” You laugh softly.
“Where’s Kory?” Rachel asks, looking to Donna.
You look to Gar for clarification. "The cool alien that sounds like a badass?"
"Yeah," Gar chuckles. "That's Kory.
Dick walks up from behind you and Gar, gaining the entire room’s attention. He asks if they were followed but it doesn’t seem like they were. You, Gar, Jason, and Rachel look around, confused by the question but none of you have the nerve to ask.
“Can you guys give us a minute, please?” Dick asks the four of you.
None of you question him and just do as he asks, Jason hanging back a second wanting to be involved but Dick asks him to leave, too. The four of you go off to your rooms to change for training practice. That’s more than likely what Dick wants you to do while he talks to the older Titans anyway. And it’s a pretty easy way to waste time as you wait for further information. So, you all get changed and head to the training room.
You run through a few drills before agreeing to start a sparring session the way Dick wants you to train. Blindfolds and wooden swords, preparing for the day someone tries to take your other senses from you. You have specific instructions to try and ignore the throbbing in the back of your head while you spar because ‘one day it may not be there and you shouldn’t rely on it’. You just roll your eyes whenever Dick says that. It always sounds so dumb even if he might be right. Whatever Jerry did to you, there isn’t any telling if it’s actually permanent. So, you do your best to ignore it.
The four of you get your blindfolds on, taking positions on the mat with your wooden swords and arm pads to protect yourselves. You stretch your shoulders while Gar hunkers towards the floor, Rachel moving her neck side to side and Jason preparing to attack the three of you. It’s never on purpose, but you do tend to gang up on him a little. Jason is just a force when sparring. It’s like the three of you don’t stand a great chance unless you end up working together. It’s never planned but it seems to always play out that way in the end, with you still usually losing.
“Ready?” Jason asks.
“Yep.” You say.
“Ready.” Rachel confirms.
“Let’s go.” Gar says, Gar and Jason the most serious sounding of the four of you.
Gar lunges forward first, his sword almost hitting Jason as Jason swings at Rachel. You swing your sword near Gar, tapping his arm. And the sparring begins. The throbbing in your head is annoying. It’s not painful but annoying. One of the good things about sparring with three people is everyone is fighting for their lives at the same time. You have a harder time figuring out where the throbbing is pointing in a situation like this because ignoring it isn’t exactly that easy.
When you’re just sparring with Jason or Gar, the throbbing is specifically located wherever they are. If they’re behind you, it’s in the very back of your head right at the base. But if they’re to the side, the throbbing switches and leans closer to whatever side they’re on. This is different though because all three of the others are coming from all different directions and it actually forces you to figure out where they are based on movement and the sounds they make, the sounds of their feet, the wooshing of the air. It’s not easy. The throbbing is still distracting.
Jason hits Gar in the back, sending him forward and in a quick motion, he gets you in the stomach, sending you right into Gar as you both fall to the ground. Before even taking a breath, Jason smacks Rachel in the head, sending her to the ground.
“Houston, we have contact!” Jason yells as he rips his blindfold off.
“You okay?” Gar asks as he takes his blindfold off, still on the floor with you.
“Yeah, you?” You ask, taking your own blindfold off only for you to see a cloud of black stringy smoke coming out of Rachel.
The two of you get to your feet, watching with a sense of worry and a touch of horror. You’ve never seen Rachel’s powers before but now you consider yourself lucky for that. You knew it was a little strange and it is dangerous. Rachel doesn't have much control over it and she tried to explain it to you in a little more detail but seeing it is a completely different story. It's a bit terrifying to say the least.
“Are we still sparring?” Jason asks, getting the sense that Rachel is definitely not sparring.
“That doesn’t look good.” You mutter to Gar. 
“Rachel?” Gar asks with caution but not daring to move toward her.
Rachel’s eyes glow red with the gem-like piece in the center of her forward while she gets to her feet and faces Jason. The slime-like sometimes surrounds her before she lunges forward and grabs Jason by the neck, levitating them both far above the ground. Gar and you watch in a sense of horror as the dark material circles Rachel and Jason.
“Rachel.” Jason chokes out.
Rachel looks to the side with the real swords, tilting them towards Jason. Your mouth falls open as you stand in a mix of panic and shock.
“What the fuck do we do? We have to do something!” You panic to Gar.
“I-I don’t know!” He says. “Um
shoot
acid at them, I guess?” The comment is more facetious than literal.
You narrow your eyes at him. “And make her more angry?!”
“Rachel stop!” Gar urges and that seemed to be all it takes.
Rachel’s eyes widen, the red fading immediately as she drops Jason to the floor. He lands hard on his back while Rachel lands easily on her feet. You immediately rushes over to Jason while Gar stands in the corner, almost too afraid to move from his spot. Jason brushes you off as he gets to his feet, storming over to Rachel.
“You stay away from me, you fucking freak.” Jason’s voice is ragged.
Rachel’s eyes are wide with the remark but you can’t exactly blame Jason. Rachel almost killed him. Just last night, the four of you were discussing if Rose should stay or she’d kill you all. But, Rachel, who does live here, actually did almost kill Jason. All you and Gar can do from your spots if give a wince.
“Everything okay?” Dick walks in just in time, seeing the four of you not looking so good.
Everyone looks to Dick but stays silent for a few seconds. Gar doesn’t wanna get Rachel in trouble or piss Jason off further so he stays silent. You’re right along with Gar, not wanting to make either one of them angrier. And you wouldn’t want them to tell Dick if you suddenly lost control.
“No, it’s not.” Jason breaks the silence walking over to Dick. “Look, I don’t like being left out of whatever plans you relics are cooking up out there, alright?” Jason’s voice raises as he points a finger at Dick.
Dick lets out a scoff, a humored grin pulling at his lips. “You didn’t miss anything.” Dick assures him. “Gar,” Dick jerks his head at Gar. “I need ya.”
“Hey, what about me?” Jason asks.
“Keep practicing.” Dick says before walking off, Gar giving the room an apologetic glance before following behind him.
Jason walks back over to Rachel, fire in his steps. “You need to have that shit looked at
by like a fucking priest.” Jason's words are venomous as he storms off.
Rachel stands there for a second before turning to look at you. You’re on your feet again, giving her an apologetic look. Jason might be your friend but he does hit below the belt sometimes. Of course, you get it. Rachel definitely could have killed him and that’s terrifying, you know from first-hand experience but he should know Gar and you would have found a way to step in if she were going to kill him. You would have shot acid at Rachel if you needed to. He was fine and he is fine, seemingly at least. He should cut Rachel some slack.
“You okay?” You ask walking over to Rachel.
“I didn’t mean to.” Rachel says, her voice filled of defeat.
“Yeah, I know.” You nod. “He was kind of mean.” You scrunch your nose. “I’m sorry about him.”
“It's not your fault. He’s just an asshole.” Rachel rolls her eyes.
“He is.” You agree. “He is my friend though so I feel I should apologize on his behalf.” You chuckle softly. “Seriously, are you okay though? I mean
with
.whatever that was?”
“Yeah,” Rachel nods softly. “I try to control it but it just happens sometimes.”
“Like the scratches?”
“Yeah, I don’t know what to do.”
“Have you tried meditating?” You question, Rachel furrowing her brows at you. “I mean, in theory, it should work, right? Calm you down, ease your mind of the bullshit. I guess
I don’t know. I didn’t meditate or anything but I dissociated enough that it worked, not that that’s a good example. But, maybe in the same sense that meditation could help you control it. It’s worth a shot, right?” You offer.
Rachel lets out a sigh. “Yeah, maybe.” Rachel nods softly. “Thank you.”
“‘Course.” You give her a soft smile. “I’m gonna go check on the little shit and make sure he’s not doing something fucking stupid.” You roll your eyes. “If you wanna talk more about it though, just lemme know.” You give Rachel a kind smile and Rachel nods.
You go to find Jason who’s made it to his room by the time you get there. He’s blaring his music, door shut. You roll your eyes as you make a fist, slamming it against the door so he can hear it over the music. You’ve come to figure out Jason listens to a lot of death metal a lot louder when he’s upset about something. It’s only a few seconds before Jason swings the door open, nearly pulling it from the hinges.
“What?” He asks, venom in his voice and jaw clenching.
Jason isn’t in the mood for talking about it. It’s a thing that happened and on top of that, Dick wants Gar’s help. Gar is his friend, but Jason has more experience with whatever the Titans are up to. He’s Robin, after all. He’s getting shoved to the side and every bit of it makes him want to scream and fight everyone in sight.
“Move.” You scoff at him, pushing past him and walking into his room. Jason stands there for a second as if to be processing what just happened like Internet Explorer.
“Sure, come in.” Jason huffs, shutting the door.
You pull the needle from the record, looking at him with wide eyes. “Death metal, really?” You cross your arms over your chest. “And this loud?” 
“Maybe you just need better taste in music.” Jason quips, leaning against his door with a sutble grin but his stance is still rigged.
“Because the thespian would know better music.” You tease, gaining a smirk as you watches Jason’s grin fall, steam nearly coming out his ears. “I’m fucking joking, calm down. Fuck.” You groan with wide eyes. “I just came to check on you.”
“I’m fine.” Jason mutters, looking to the floor for just a second.
“Mhm, yeah, being fine is definitely a normal feeling after being lifted ten feet in the air by your neck with several sharp swords pointed at you.” You quip. 
“I’m fine.” Jason grits his teeth.
“Well, in that case, you gotta cut Rachel some fucking slack, man.” You urge him, figuring if he’s not gonna talk about it, you might as well go on about Rachel. “It’s not her fault and I know that you know that.” You let out an exasperated sigh. Gar is normally the mediator between the two of them, on the account that you tend to take Jason's side a lot more than Rachel's. Gar is better at putting aside bias.
“She could have fucking killed me!” Jason pushes himself off of his door.
“I know.” You nod. “Which is fucked up, I’m not saying it’s not. It’s just
” You pause. “It’s different for people like us.”
“You don’t have any problems with it.” Jason huffs and he can’t believe of all people, you’re defending Rachel right now.
You pauses because yes you do but that’s not exactly easy to admit. But, this is Jason. “Okay,” You suck in a breath. “Promise not to tell anyone, especially Gar and Dick?” You ask.
Jason raises a brow at you. “Yeah? Okay.”
“Sometimes, I wake up from a nightmare with my hands glowing. I haven’t
burned or melted anything but they’re glowing and warm so
I don’t have nearly as much control as everyone thinks I do.” You chew on the inside of your cheek, dodging Jason’s eyes.
Jason seems to sit on that for a second. You’ve never almost burned any of them even when you get annoyed or angry. Your hands never even glowed once when you beat up Jerry, not once. Jason fully expected to have to deal with your powers but nothing. You seemed normal in that moment, no powers, no special abilities. He almost finds it hard to believe you can’t control your powers when you’re asleep. But, you also don’t lie to him.
“I also melted a mug my second day here by accident.” You clear your throat.
“How’d the hell you do that?” Jason chuckles this time, finding that more believable than the nightmares.
“I figured out Dick was Robin and Bruce was Batman. Long story short, I’ve got a bit of an issue with the two of them letting Joker fuck around and kill people, my mom included.” You shake your head, seeing Jason doing the math in his head trying to figure out if it was Dick at the time your mom was killed. “It was Dick, it wasn’t you. You took over, if my math is right, somewhere around six months to a year later.”
“Hadn’t thought of it like that.” Jason looks to his shoes before looking back at You. “Bruce not killing the Joker and shit, the consequences.” Jason clarifies.
He’s questioned Bruce’s methods, of course. He also thinks maybe some of those bad guys shouldn’t be allowed to escape Arkham. But, Bruce always said they’re there to protect people, not kill them. Killing the bad guys, makes them just as bad. It’s a line they can’t cross because it’ll be easier to cross the next time. But, at what point is enough enough when it comes to the Joker? How many people could be saved if it were just that one guy? Jason pushes the thought away though.
“Yeah, most don’t.” You clear your throat. “SO, I’m saying you should cool off and be upset about it, obviously, it looked scary from where I was standing, too but maybe don’t be a dick to her about it.”
Jason is stubborn but you bring up good points. Maybe, he could make an attempt to somewhat try and understand Rachel a little bit. Maybe.
“Whatever.” Jason huffs, caving in.
“Mhm, thank you, Jay.” Your voice waves as you walk over to him.
“Yeah.” Jason still looks displeased.
“Or pout about it.” You chuckle, getting a glare from Jason.
“I’m not pouting.” Jason huffs, but there’s a tint of smile coming to his face.
“Mhm.” You hum. “Well, I’m gonna wait for Gar, have fun being angry with your death metal.” You grin at him, see a full smile coming to Jason’s face.
“Yeah.” Jason shrug as you walk past him, leaving him alone.
You go back to your room, keeping the door open as you wait to find out what Dick needed Gar for. It still bugs you a bit that Dick picked Gar to help and not Jason but Jason was definitely not in a talking mood. You didn’t wanna push your luck with him. So, you hang out in your room and just wait with Ginny & Georgia playing on the TV.
As the second episode plays, a knock sounds on your door. You look over the back of the couch to see Gar walking into your room with a sappy smile on his lips. He walks over to the couch and plops down beside you.
“Whatcha watching?” He asks, chipper as usual.
“Ginny & Georgia, it was just added to Netflix.” You gesture towards the TV.
“How is it?” He asks.
“It’s good!” You say with enthusiasm. “I love Joe so much already. I hope he gets to stay happy.” You pout at Gar.
Gar chuckles softly. “Cool if I watch with you, then?” He asks, eyes filled of happiness and hope.
“Yeah! I’m only on episode two so you haven’t missed much. Georgia’s husband died and she doesn’t seem sad about it. They moved from Texas to Wellsbury which is on the east coast. Ginny and Austin are her kids and Ginny hooked up with her neighbor. That’s about it.” You laugh softly.
“Oh, well, okay then.” Gar nods along. “Is it
.a comedy?”
“Eh,” You shrug a shoulder. “It’s more of drama. Like it has some comedy but it’s more dramatic.” You explain. “I think Georgia killed her husband so like there’s that.”
Gar’s eyes widen. “Definitely a drama.” He laughs.
“Oh, yeah.” You laugh in agreement.
The two of you focus your attention on the TV and you move closer to Gar, resting your legs over his lap. It makes Gar chuckle but he just goes with it, putting his hands on your shins and you watch together, making easy conversation about what’s going on in the show. This is a comfortable thing you’ve gotten into the habit of doing.
Gar will be playing video games so you sit next to him, usually always touching him in some way or Gar will come into your room where you’re watching TV and he’ll just plop down to watch whatever has your interest. You always moves to sit with your legs over him. And the two of you always make conversation about what’s going on and you get really dramatic and excited when you talk about your shows, it’s how Gar thinks he sounds but you’re not annoying. Sometimes, he thinks he just gets annoying about it but hearing you ramble about why you love a character or hate another, he could listen to that all day even if he has no idea what you’re talking about. It’s so comfortable for him.
After a few more episodes, you both realize no one has bothered you in a few hours. Neither of you even have a text from Dick about training. The older Titans must be keeping him occupied which is definitely nice. Training isn’t actually all that bad and it gives you all something to do. But, Dick doesn’t really give you a day to break. None of you have anything else to do, so Dick just makes sure you’re training all the time in one way or another. The four of you get it, you have to prepare for the big bads, but having a day off here and there would also be nice. And right now, it looks like you’re actually getting the night off and you’re enjoying it.
“Hey, want some popcorn?” You ask, peeling your eyes away from the TV to look at Gar.
“Yes, please.” Gar beams. “Want me to get it?”
“Nah,” You shake your head, sliding your legs off of Gar. “I got it.” You give him a smile. “Just pause it and make sure it doesn’t shut off.”
“Got it.” Gar gives you a nod, grabbing the remote from the coffee table in front of him.
You rush off to the kitchen where you find Rachel making herself a glass of sweet tea. You move around her, grabbing a bag of popcorn and popping it in the microwave before you grab a large bowl to pour it into. You sit on the counter, opposite Rachel, as you wait for the popcorn to start. Just as you get situated and Rachel finishes making her tea, Rose walks in. Instead of gauze, Rose is daunting an eyepatch over the eye that’s now missing.
“Don’t think we got introduced,” Rachel starts. “I’m Rachel.”
“Y/n.” You chime in, with a half-wave from your spot.
“I’m Rose.” Rose says.
“Pretty name.” Rachel says.
“Yeah, maybe too pretty now.” Rose says. “Patch has a nice ring to it.” Rose finishes as you let out a huff.
“I still think you’re really pretty.” You let out a scoff, giving Rose a smile. Rose’s brows furrow at you and Rachel rolls her eyes.
“You hang out with Jason too much.” Rachel states, getting a confused and offended look from you just as your popcorn starts to pop.
“I don’t get this.” Rose starts, ignoring the both of yours and Rachel’s comments to each other while she takes a seat in one of the chairs. “The whole living situation, this some kind of euro hostel or something?” Rose quips making you chortle.
Rachel lets out a huff. “No, we’re just friends.”
“Dick’s got a thing for plucking strays off the streets.” You add in.
"I'm not a stray." Rose defends, but her voice isn't stern or annoyed.
“We saw what happened.” Rachel looks between you and Rose.
“Saw what?” Rose inquires.
“Dick has access to the city’s surveillance cameras.” Rachel explains.
“We saw everything. You fighting and escaping, the whole thing.” You finish.
“Guy with the sword?” Rachel asks.
“My dad.” Rose gains a sarcastic grin.
You give her a yikes expression before hopping off the counter and going to the microwave as the popcorn starts to slow down its popping. Somehow, all of you have fucked up home lives. Seriously, is that a requirement to even be here?
“I’m sorry.” Rachel says.
“Dads suck.” You declare, opening the microwave.
“No dad of the year mug for him.” Rose quips before looking to Rachel. “That thing in your forehead, bold choice.” Rose nods her head.
You pour your popcorn into a bowl as you listen to Rachel, you actually don’t know the story behind it. You never asked.
“Not my choice.” Rachel shakes her head. “My dad put it there for me.”
“He did?” Your voice is filled of surprise and confusion.
“Yep.” Rachel holds out the word a little.
Now, that’s also weird. You figured it has to do with her powers since it lit up when she levitated her and Jason earlier. You have so many questions about it but Rachel’s singular word about it is probably a good indicator that she doesn’t like to talk about it. You can’t blame her there.
“Where’s he?” Rose asks.
“I got rid of him.” Rachel declares.
“Got rid of as in
? Killed him?” Rose asks.
“Yeah, kind of.” Rachel tries to brush it off as she scoffs.
“What about you?” Rose looks to you who’s standing on the other side of Rachel.
“Drug addict who bailed before I was born, foster dad almost beat me to death though.” You state, an almost sarcastic tone coats your words. “Ligature scars from the ordeal.” You lift your arms just slightly so your sleeves fall down enough to show the scars.
“Shit.” Rose states.
“Clearly, the tower is filled with people who had outstanding father figures.” You quips, getting a slight nudge from Rachel.
“Is that what you wanted to do to your father? Kill him?” Rachel asks.
“I did.” Rose nods. “But, uh, I thought everything would be different if he just went away.”
“Doesn’t always work.” Rachel takes a drink from her tea. “Right, Y/n?”
“I know you want me to agree with you but
” You pause. “I gotta say, I’m pretty content with my actual dad fucking off somewhere and me beating the shit out of Jerry now that it’s happened.”
Was that night a mess? Yes. But, talking with Jason about it has made you feel a lot better about it. He's told you countless times he deserved it and because of that, you did save that kid. You got your revenge and now he can't do that to anyone ever again. It didn't help that night, and maybe the act of beating him up didn't help, but preventing him from hurting anyone else did.
ïżœïżœïżœSeriously?” Rachel voice is disapproving. 
You shrug. “I’m not gonna lie.” You laugh softly.
“Guess we’re all members of the bad dads club.” Rose gives the two of you a genuine smile.
“Platinum members.” Rachel scoffs.
“With a discount in endless trauma.” You quip.
“Benefits kind of suck.” Rose states.
“Members are pretty cool.” Rachel smiles softly, Rose matching the smile.
“What do you guys do all day anyway?” Rose questions.
“Train.” Rachel’s voice is flat.
“Listen to everyone complain about training.” You let out a muttered scoff.
“As if you’re not enjoying the night off with Gar.” Rachel quips.
“I am having a lovely time.” You grin. “Which is why, I’m going back to my room where he’s waiting.”
“Don’t do anything stupid.” Rachel mocks.
“We are friends, Rachel.” You defend.
“Okay, Y/n.”
You roll your eyes. “Okay, Rachel.” You mock her before walking off back to your room where Gar is still sitting in the same position.
You think about the conversation you had with Rachel about the boys. There was so much you couldn’t tell Rachel about Jason. Jason would kill you and Rachel would definitely tease him about it, even if it just slipped. You don’t want that to happen. It’s your thing and you kind of like that no one knows about it. You can’t really explain it, but it’s just nice not having everyone know about it.
With Gar, everything is out in the open which is also fine because that’s just Gar. He doesn’t hide things from people, he wears his emotions on his sleeve. It’s something you actually admire about him and it’s one of the things you like about him. But, in a way, there’s this pressure you don’t like. Rachel knew you liked him and she thinks Gar likes you, too. Part of it is on you, sleeping in his room, making him pancakes. But, you just wish you were normal because then it would be this normal gossip thing where no one knows for sure. In the tower, surrounded by people all the time though, everything is so fucking transparent. The tower might as well be wrapped in cellophane. So, you take a seat next to Gar and don’t say anything about how you feel because you like him but you like Jason, too.
“Talked with Rose.” You start, resting your legs over Gar’s as you get comfortable, holding the bowl of popcorn on your lap but close enough so Gar can have some.
“Yeah? What’s she like?” Gar asks, his left hand resting on your shins as his right plucks a piece of popcorn from the bowl.
“Daddy issues like the rest of us.” You chortle, tossing a piece of popcorn into your mouth.
"We knew that, though." Gar chuckles with you, finding you amusing.
"Yeah," You shrug. "I don't know, didn't talk long but she seems cool. Rachel is still in the kitchen with her."
"Think she'll stay?" Gar raises a brow and it worked out with you staying. He's worried about her being Deathstroke's daughter, which might put all of you at risk. But, if she's really in danger. Gar hopes she'll stay. It's safe here.
You scrunch your face with uncertainty. "Ehh," You shrug. "She doesn't seem too pleased with the place. So, I dunno. I hope she does. It helped me." You give Gar a sweet smile.
"Yeah, I think it'd be nice. We'll have to keep Jason off of her though." Gar chuckles.
You brush the comment off. Maybe Jason will be into her and it'll make everything easier. Choosing between the boys sounds like an impossible decision.
"Yeah, right?" You nod your head, agreeing with him but keep it short. You look to the TV and change conversation. "Do teenagers actually get together and do that?" The teenagers in the show are in a basement, a few of them playing instruments while the others are smoking on a couch.
"That's where you're questioning the realism of the show?" Gar chortles next you, grabbing a few pieces of popcorn.
"I mean! Hey, women have poisoned their husbands! They're even called Black Widows! But, teenagers all getting together to drink and smoke in a basement? Like regularly? Do they do that?"
Gar shrugs, finding your thought process a bit comical. "I wouldn't know."
"Right." You nod and laugh. "Forgot, none of us had much of a normal teenager experience."
Gar shakes his head. "Fine with me, seems..."
"Not as fun as they make it seem in the show?” You laugh softly.
“Yeah, exactly.” Gar nods quickly. “I don’t think it’d always be so cool, calm, and collected.”
There's a knock on your door, interrupting your conversation. The two of you turn around to see Dick, standing halfway in your room and half in the hallway.
"Gar, need ya again." Dick jerks his head towards the hallway and your brows furrow. What the hell is that about? Gar gives you an apologetic look as you move your legs off of him.
You spin around, resting your forearms on the back of the couch. "Whatcha doing?" You ask Dick as Gar gets up from his comfortable place.
"Locating Dr. Light." Dick answers simply.
You hum. "Can I come?"
It's Dick's turn to narrow his eyes. "No, I just need Gar for now." 
You groan. "Come on, Rachel is hanging out with Rose and Jason is in a pissy mood."
After the whole Jerry situation, Dick has been keeping a closer eye on you. He wants to trust you won't go rogue again but there is a part of him that worries about it. Dick went back and watched the security footage of everything, listened to the conversation. Jason did not try to stop you but it didn't seem as if you would have listened anyway. He doesn't need someone going rogue. But, if you’re with Gar, at least if you find Dr. Light, Dick can trust Gar to come and get him instead of you both trying to play the heroes.
"Okay, fine. Come on." Dick jerks his head and you beam, happy to be included.
You turn the TV off, practically leaping over the back of the couch and meeting the boys at the door. Gar's eyes widen and beam at the sight of your dramatics. Dick shakes his head but chuckles softly as the three of you head to the comms lab.
Gar slides into the chair and pulls up a map while Dick stands behind him and you stand off to the side, watching everything Gar is doing. You can only assume that with his time at Doom Manor, he had a lot of time to mess around with tech stuff. Maybe that's why Dick is asking for his help for this stuff instead of anyone else. Gar already has some background with computers and tech and he's a new Titan. Maybe it's a preparation thing. But, you’re also just happy to be included.
"Dr. Light will need to refuel if he's planning another attack." Dick starts. "He'll need a large electric power cell and a light source where he can absorb the energy."
Gar leans his elbows on the table in front of him, keeping his eyes on the screen. "So, monitor the power grids and keep an eye out for any unusual disturbances."
"We find where he's pulling the power from, we find him." Dick finishes before patting Gar on the back and heading for the hallway.
"Okay, got it." Gar's eyes scan over the computer screen.
"Oh, hey," Dick says, turning around before entering the hallway. "Everything okay with Rachel?" Dick looks between Gar and you. "She looked a little strange in training."
"She's fine." You answer quickly with the shrug of your shoulders.
Gar nods his head in agreement. "Yeah," He swivels in his chair to face Dick. "That was just...her..." Gar glances to you as if looking for help as he tries to think of something.
Neither of you are going to tell Dick Rachel almost killed Jason and then Jason called her a freak, then said she should be checked by a priest. Dick doesn't need to know everything that happens. You all can handle it.
"Training face." Gar gives Dick an awkward smile, spinning the chair slightly.
"Traning face?" Dick looks to Gar and then to you, completely not believing that at all.
"Yeah, she gets really focused and gets this look." You brush it off.
"Yeah, exactly." Gar agrees with you, the both of tyou lying through your teeth. You’re a bit better at it. "She just wants to be ready in case any of the old Titans wanna spar," Gar's eyes shift side to side for a second. "After, they settle in." He flashes the awkward smile again and you’re so sure Dick is going to call you out.
Note to self: Do not ask Gar to help you rob a bank.
"They're not gonna settle in." Dick states, this time his voice serious and stern. Your curiosity is piqued. Dick doesn't seem happy about them showing up which you find to be weird. Aren't they supposed to be friends? Is this because Deathstroke killed one of them? If it is, you can't say you blame Dick. It was probably really hard. "Hank and Dawn, Donna, they're not staying."
"I thought you guys were friends?" You ask.
"We are." Dick answers shortly. "But they aren't Titans anymore."
Gar's face twists in confusion. Everything was fine the last time they were all together, well, besides the whole Trigon thing. But, everyone got along afterward. "Did something happen between you guys?"
Dick's eyes go distant for a second before he drops it completely. "Keep looking." Dick states before walking off, down the hallway.
You look to Gar as he swivels to face you. "That was fucking weird." You say, shaking your head with wide eyes.
"Right?" Gar says dramatically. "What do you think that was about?"
"Uh...." You pause, shrugging your shoulders. "I mean, could be the death of that Titan, maybe it's like....a thing with them all being here?" You raise the question. "Everyone was there with Trigon, right?"
Gar nods before he turns back to the computer to get to work. "Yeah, I mean, besides....ya know." Gar jerks his head to the left with the quick raise of his brows as he starts searching the power grids. "But, I mean, after everything seemed fine. Dick was...actually in a good mood, actually."
You watch Gar carefully, taking mental notes of everything he's doing. "Maybe it's something with the tower then, everyone being here. I have no idea." You chuckle softly. "Bird boys make no fucking sense."
"Honestly," Gar shakes his head. "What do you think is up with that, anyway?" Gar glances to you.
You shrug. "Well, first full day here, I asked Dick about Bruce and he said that Bruce did the best he could which I always assume means that person sucks at parenting, without intending to." You chuckle softly. "So, could be Bruce."
"I think you just have a vendetta against him." Gar says honestly, giving you a slight wince.
You let out a sigh. "Yeah, a little bit." You move closer to Gar. "Can I sit?"
Gar's eyes widen as he freezes and you gain a smirk. A giggle escapes your lips and it's the cutest noise Gar has ever heard. He scoots back a bit and lets you sit on his lap, you mostly sitting on his right leg so Gar can see and maneuver around the keyboard easily.
"What do you think is up with bird boys?" You ask as Gar goes back to the power grids.
Gar shrugs. "I don't think they know how to handle their problems." Gar deadpans.
You let out a laugh. "Yeah, that's fair." You keep your head straight, watching the large screen. "How do you know how to do all this?" You decide to drop the conversation.
"Had a lot of free time at Caulder House." Gar states. "There wasn't much to do besides this and video games."
"Ah," You nod your head. "It's pretty cool, especially with how quickly tech changes and this is like...a Batcomputer." Your smile widens. Sure, you’ve got an issue with Batman but Wayne tech is cool nonetheless. Your problem is with his moral code about killing, not with much else. You don't even know the guy.
"Yeah, it's clearly coming in handy." Gar laughs softly.
Gar and you fall into a comfortable conversation as Gar explains what he's doing and how he knows what to look for. You follow everything he says, making sure you’re keeping up. The thing with Gar is that he's really good at explaining things without making your feel dumb. Sometimes, people have this habit of sounding condescending when they're explaining something they're good at even if they don't mean to. But, Gar explains it casually but in terms you understand since you don't know much about this tech. In fact, the way Gar explains everything, it makes you feel useful which is a really nice thing to feel right about now.
Over the next hour, you and Gar sit and look for signs of Dr. Light. You like seeing Gar here, doing this. It's clearly his environment, something he's good at and enjoys. He's also helping the older Titans by doing this and you can tell by how focused he is that it's something that also means a lot to him. He gets to be helpful with the thing he's good at.
The two of you share stolen glances here and there. There's something so warm and comfortable about it. While you’re more of a hands-on person, this is nice. You aren't really helping, rather than just keeping Gar company and learning from him. But, it's comfortable and if you’ve learned anything, it's that you should cherish the comfort while you have it.
Gar is so kind and soft and safe that feeling comfortable seems like it could be possible, every single day. He's energic and enthusiastic. You swear there's not a pessimistic bone in his body. And he has this smile that just put the sun to shame. You swear if he just gave you that open-mouthed toothy smile, you’d never get lost in the dark again. And sometimes he trips over his words if you get a little flirty and it make you so happy because he never knows what to do. It makes him that much cuter and softer. He is what you always imagined happiness would look like. If happiness were a person, it would be Garfield Logan. You wonder if you could ever offer him that same comfort and happiness. You wonder if you'd ever live up to that or if you'd just burn it all to the ground.
Gar finds something on the computer and goes to grab Dick. The two of them discuss, figuring the bundle of pings is actually Dr. Light. And then the power goes out as if to be on cue. You follow Gar and Dick out of the comms lab and into the living room. As you all reach the floor-to-ceiling windows, you see a stadium in the distance that's emitting light, indicating that's where Dr. Light is. You get the feeling that's probably not a good sign for whatever is to come next and by the look on Dick's face, he's got the same feeling.
Dick goes off to grab the rest of the Titans to hunt down Dr. Light while Gar figures the rest of you might as well hang out in the living room and watch something on someone's phone. You have gone almost entirely quiet since the power went out. He hasn't said anything, but he's kind of assumed you aren't a big fan of the dark. You usually have the TV on or the blinds pulled when you’re asleep so the room isn't so dark. Gar thinks maybe if he can get everyone in an open area, you'll feel a little better about it. So, you make your way to Jason's room first.
Gar’s assumption would be right. The dark wasn’t this big deal or anything before, but now it’s as if things are lurking in the shadows. You just feel so uneasy not being able to see in the dark. The great thing about the tower, usually, is there are always lights on. The hallway is always lit by small wall lamps so it’s never too dark. The rooms all have large windows that go from one wall to the other and the city does a good job of illuminating every room. But, the entire city is in a blackout and it’s almost completely dark in the tower. You hate it and with Gar’s offer to gather everyone up, you’re thankful you don’t need to explain it. He’s figured it out.
"What's up?" Jason asks as the two of you and Gar enter his room.
"The power's out." You quip, trying to not show you’re uneasy about the entire tower being dark.
"No shit." Jason shakes his head, his phone in his hand to use as a flashlight.
"I figured we'd all hang out together, just until it comes back on." Gar offers, his own phone’s light shining on the ground.
"All?" Jason questions, his brow quirked as he glances to you. Jason knows all does not mean all of the older Titans and he does not want to be around Rachel right about now.
"Well..." Gar pauses. "You, us, Rachel."
Jason lets out a groan before it turns into a dry laugh. "You think I wanna be around her right now?"
"She's sorry." Your voice is filled with frustration. "It was an accident."
"What about the other Titans?" Jason jerks his head up with the question.
"They're probably going to find Dr. Light. I found something on the computer." Gar brushes it off and Jason's eyes widen. You let out a sigh knowing Gar should not have said that.
"What? Why didn't you say so?" There's excitement in his voice as he runs over to his bed, getting on his hands and knees.
You eye Gar, as if telling him he should not have told Jason. "What the fuck are you doing?"
"I'm going with 'em!" Jason says, pulling out the case that contains his suit.
Gar gets the look now. "Right..." Gar nods his head slowly. "I'm sure Dick will come get you if he needs you, man."
"Seriously?" Jason puts the case on his bed before turning to face you and Gar. "I gotta show him I'm ready for anything. I'm tired of sitting around." Jason reaches over his head, yanking his hoodie off, you getting the nonexistent hint to turn around.
"He knows what you're made of, Jason." Gar lets out a sigh as Jason changes into his suit.
"Obviously, not." Jason argues. "He didn't come to get me, did he?" Jason gets a little snippy and all Gar can do is sigh.
Jason finishes changing into his suit, making his way to you and Gar. You turn around, feeling him close to you. Jason's head is held high and there's a brightness in his eyes. His entire demeanor changes when he puts on the suit. He's, somehow, even more endearing when he's like this. Filled of so much joy and excitement and determination. You know Dick won't let him go with and it's gonna sting him a lot more than he'll ever admit.
"Well, be careful then, Batboy." You state, knowing there is no stopping Jason.
Jason eyes you up and down, not even realizing he's doing it. A smirk pulls at his lips and he almost has a quip, almost but Gar is standing there, a little too close to you. So, he bites it down like a shard of glass. "Always am." He nods at you before quickly exiting his room, the cape flowing behind him.
"He's a dork." You look to Gar, a smile pull at your lips.
"It's the cape, right?" Gar laughs.
You nod quickly. "Yeah, yeah, something about the cape on him. It's like it swallows him." You laugh again. "It is bulletproof and fireproof though."
"At least there's that." Gar chuckles. "Let's find Rach." He jerks his head towards Jason's door and the two of you head out.
The two of you head down the hall where you run into Rachel. She had been on her way to look for the two of you. The tower is on backup generators now but the power in the tower is limited. This surprises all of you. You all thought, surely, Bruce would have a better generator for the tower. But, none of you say anything about it and decide to head to the living room and find something to do while you wait for the power to come back on and for the other Titans to get back. When you reach the living space, Jason is standing there alone in the Robin suit, the rest of the Titans in the elevator.
Jason's jaw clenches as he sees the three of you standing there looking at him. Rachel isn't surprised and she's actually pleased with Jason being left behind. Rachel doesn't think Jason is ready to help the rest of the Titans, and it's not fair to let him go but not the rest of you. Gar and you, on the other hand, you feel bad for him. He just wants to help and he's your friend. You also know that Jason will probably be pissed about this for the next week and you'll be the ones who have to hear about it. Dick should just let him help, they have the same experience.
Jason pushes past the three of you, not saying a word.
"He's such a try-hard." Rachel mutters as the three of you walk over to the couches.
You furrow your brows as you and Gar sit side-by-side, his arm going behind you as if to be an instinct. "I mean...he is Robin, though?"
"Yeah, but why does he think he should be able to help when none of us are?" Rachel argues.
"He has experience?" Gar questions, his expression matching the confused and defensive one you have.
"Not you, too!" Rachel groans out in frustration. She doesn't get why you and Gar almost always side with Jason.
"What?" Gar asks, unamused over this conversation.
"You guys defending him."
"Well, because we get it." Gar's eyes widen slightly, a hint of annoyance in his voice. The petty arguing and hatred between Rachel and Jason actually drives him insane. Sure, Jason deserves it sometimes but he's not even around right now. Why does it matter?
"Yeah, I mean, it's like important to him." You state, your eyes still slightly narrowed. When you told Rachel to talk to Jason about this, you did in fact mean it. You, too, aren't a fan of the petty arguments either between the two of them or about each other.
"It's important to everyone." Rachel urges. "Why does he think it's the most important thing to him?"
You and Gar stare at each other, as if to be silently communicating 'what the fuck'. Rachel is clearly still upset by Jason's words from the morning. Of course, neither of you blame her but you are Jason’s friend. You both defend Rachel when Jason gets all pissy with her and you both defend Jason. But, this is just annoying. The Titans have gone off to find Dr. Light, you're trapped in the tower without any power. Who even cares?
"You're not friends with him so you don't get it." You brush her off. "And not to sound a bit bitchy, but it's not our job to explain it to you." You shrug and pull your phone from your pocket. "I'm gonna turn my show on, you're welcome to watch with us." You pull up Netflix on your phone before handing it to Gar as he puts in the password.
You rest the phone on the ottoman, using one of the random books from the table to stabilize your phone. Rachel huffs a bit but moves closer to you so she can watch the show. She decides to drop it and maybe she is being a bit unreasonable. She doesn't understand Jason and she probably never will. But, she also hasn't taken your advice about talking to him yet. So, Rachel bites back the other comments she has about Jason and listens to you and Gar explain what she's missed so far.
Only a few more minutes go by when Jason and Rose come into view, the two of them heading for the opposite hallway. You’re the first to notice, followed by Gar. Rachel is too busy watching the show to even care.
"What's going on?" Gar asks, cautiously seeing the two of them walking side-by-side.
Jason looks like he's doing a bit better. "Going to train, nothing else to do anyway."
"You training, too?" You quirk a brow at Rose.
Rose tilts her head just slightly to the side. "Nah," She shakes her head. "I'm gonna kick his ass." 
"Fuck off." Jason huffs, but a smile is on his lips.
"Please, do. Someone's gotta kick him around now and again." You grin at Jason.
His eyes narrow at you. "Yeah, cause you never will."
"One day, Jay. One day." You wiggle your brows at him before looking back at your phone, trying to ignore the weird warmth in your stomach. That is not jealousy.
"When hell freezes over." Jason scoffs but you keep your eyes on the screen and there's a disappointment that bites Jason's bone. His smile falls and he thought you'd have some come back about beating his ass even when hell freezes over or something dumb. But, you say nothing and he's disappointed in that. "Whatever," He scoffs, jerking his head towards the hall. "Let's go." Jason and Rose leave the three of you to yourselves.
You think Gar doesn't notice the short banter that wasn't really banter. You think he doesn't notice the way your eyes narrowed and the way the grin turned stale. You think he doesn't notice how you are with Jason and it hurts Gar. He likes you but he thinks maybe you’re more into Jason than you'll ever be into him. Sure, you’re choosing to hang out with him more but you and Jason still do your flirty thing. It doesn't really make any sense to him if he's being honest.
After two hours, the power finally comes back on. Every light in the tower turns back on and the lights of the city start to shine through the floor-to-ceiling windows once again. The three of you breathe a sigh of relief, hoping that means the other Titans took down Dr. Light with success. You all move the show to the TV and wait on the edge of your seats for the other Titans to come back. Jason and Rose join the three of you just a few minutes later as if to also be waiting for the other Titans. Jason steals the remote and switches to the news.
"Well, you could have asked first, but sure." You quip but Jason brushes you off as he stands off to the side of Gar, arms crossed.
The news plays over footage of the Titans fighting Dr. Light and failing. Dick chooses to save a busload of people instead of stopping Dr. Light. Dr. Light takes off and he's completely out of sight. The news reports that he's nowhere to be seen but everyone on the bus is safe.
"And that's why they should have fucking let me go!" Jason complains, flinging one of his arms out.
All of you chooses not to argue or humor Jason. The rest of the Titans are probably going to be upset when they get back and Jason will have some sort of comment about it. It's not worth it for any of you to argue or agree with him. You'll leave that to Dick and the other Titans.
As soon as the rest of the Titans get back, you, Gar, Rachel, and Jason keep your places in the living area beside Rose who doesn't want any part of it, apparently. You all wait until Dawn and Hank head off toward the bedrooms, leaving just Dick in the living area. Jason takes the lead and gets up first, the rest of you following him
"Where's Dr. Light?" Jason taunts Dick as he walks closer to him.
"Jason." Rachel warns.
"A little stealth job on a guy who shoots what? Headlamps? I mean half the city's on fire and still no sign of Dr. Light." Jason is now about a foot away from Dick, Gar, you, and Rachel standing two feet behind Jason not liking where this is going.
"Not the time, Jason." Dick warns him.
Jason rushes Dick quickly, almost chest-to-chest with him. "Look, I don't take orders from you anymore, man. I do what I want when I want." Jason states, eying Dick with anger. You roll your eyes behind him and Gar sucks in a breath, knowing this is not going to end well.
Dick gets this smile that is almost his way of telling Jason how fucking stupid that is. He goes to walk past Jason but Jason puts his hand on his chest, stopping Dick in his tracks. Dick looks almost appalled. You thought Dick wasn't as great at hiding his emotions when you first got here but the more you watch him, the more you realize he's actually very good at it. He just has resting bitch face. But, it's obvious by the way his brows went up and his eyes widened just a little that he was shocked and appalled that Jason stopped him.
"Get out of my way." Dick's voice is stern and unwavering.
"I think you got it all wrong," Jason shakes his head at Dick, a little close to him for everyone's comfort. Jason hits Dick's chest again with an open palm. "You're in my way." The three of you behind Jason can feel this going south very quickly but none of you want to insert yourselves in it. You’re a bit interested to see where this will go and how Dick plans to de-escalate the situation. "Maybe you need a retirement package."
You and Gar glance between each other before turning back to Jason. You want to help break this up but how? This is not your battle and if you take Dick's side, you'll be hearing from Jason about it. So, you both stand back as Jason turns to look at you for just a second. He's got this determined look in his eye that makes you quirk a brow. He makes a fist and all three of you shake your heads slightly.
"Don't." Dick grits his teeth, his nose scrunching up. Yeah, tonight is not the night to pick a fight with Dick.
Jason tries to charge Dick but Dick is faster and takes an open palm to back of his head, pushing him to the ground. You let out a sigh, hanging your head and holding the bridge of your nose. Gar has resorted to looking down and running a hand through his hair, a look of exasperation across his face. Rachel leans forward, simply surprised.
Dick even looks a bit surprised. "Shit." Dick says softly as he reaches a hand towards Jason. "Here." His voice is flat.
Jason slaps Dick's hand away before getting up from the floor. Jason's heaving a few breaths as if the anger is consuming him from the pit of his lungs. He stands toe-to-toe with Dick but doesn't say anything. He pushes past him and heads off down the hallway. Dick looks at the three of you who all look like you're torn between second-hand embarrassment and yikes.
"What was that?" Dick asks, his eyes directly at you.
"Got me." You shrug. If Dick really can't figure out what Jason is upset about, he's actively choosing to be obvious or something because Dick isn't stupid.
Dick shakes his head and decides he'll deal with it later. "Gar, come on, need you again." Dick starts walking past all of you.
"I'll come to your room later." Gar gives you an apologetic look.
"I'm gonna check on Jason anyway." You roll your eyes and everyone goes their separate ways, leaving Rachel in the living room.
You head to Jason's room where his music is yet again blaring. You bang on the door and he doesn't answer at first. You suck in a breath and decide you’re just going to keep banging on the door until he answers it. It's a solid minute of knocking before the door swings open, Jason's cheeks red and his eyes wide, filled of rage.
"What the fuck?!"
"Move." You move past him and Jason wants to know why you do this? And why does he let you? You spin around. "What the fuck to you? What the fuck was that with Dick, dude?"
"Oh, this is about Dick, huh?" Jason yells, his face scrunching with anger as he shuts the door.
"You were going to fight him." You say through gritted teeth. "Why?"
"He thinks he fucking knows everything!" Jason swings his arm out. "But he got fucking beat by Dr. Light, a fucking dude whose power is a streetlamp." Jason scoffs, the very thought of this guy comical to him.
"Okay." You lower your voice. "So, why not let him wallow in his own mistakes then? Why do you gotta rub it in?"
"Are you fucking kidding me? You're taking his side?!" Jason’s voice goes up an octave.
"NO!" You yell at him. "I'll always take y0our side! Just..." You pause, letting yourself take a breath. "Just, fucking talk to me, Jay." You cave, chewing the inside of your cheek. He's never gone after Dick before. It's like all of them said, Jason gets mad and rants and raves, trains a bit, and that's it. He doesn't go after people, but tonight he did. You’re worried about him.
Jason shakes his head, looking to the ground and you have this way of calming him down. You’re just as hot-headed as he is but when he's screaming, you can just stay calm. It might take a minute, but you calming down and asking him such a simple question, gets him to cool off. It’s the way you call him Jay and it’s like it flips the switch. You call him that nickname, you’re the only one, and he knows he can talk.
"I just wanna fucking help." Jason scoffs, leaning against his door. "I feel fucking useless here and he won't let me fucking help. If I could show him what I can do..."
"Maybe he'll let you actually help." You finish for him.
"Yeah, Robin is like," Jason lets out a scoff. "It's the one thing I've been fucking good at. It feels like it's being taken away from me and there's nothing I can fucking do about it." There's a break in his voice and you feel for him.
It's the first time he's admitted any of that. The thing about Robin is Jason has always been a hothead. He's always liked attention. The world has been unfair to him his entire life. But, he puts on that suit and the hot-headedness actually comes in handy sometimes, dealing with these big bads like the Riddler and the Joker. The attention is on him because he's a hero with Batman. And he gets to level the playing field in the world that's treated him so poorly. He's so good at it, too and he knows it. But, it's all being ripped away from him. Sure, it’s his own doing but, maybe if Bruce or Dick offered him an ear every now and again, they would get why Jason does things like joyrides in the Batmobile and riding a motorcycle in the manor.
"Yeah, I get that." You nod and move to stand next to him, leaning against his door with him. "But, uh, for what's it worth, I would care to argue you're also a good friend. You're good at that."
Jason lets out a laugh. "Yeah, that's real fucking inspiring."
You shrug, laughing with him. "It's better than nothing, right? No, but you're a good reader and you are funny. You are a good Robin. You’re a better Robin than Dick was." You eye him, the laugh falling. "And I'm not just filling your ego." You give him a smirk.
"Aw, can't fill it even a little, babe?" Jason's brows knit together and he's got this half-cocked grin that makes your stomach twist. 
The nickname makes your knees weak. "Absolutely not, shithead."
Jason lets out another laugh. "Thank you."
"Yeah, no problem. You know I'm always gonna be here for ya." You give him a wink. "I don't think Dick's worth it anyway." You let out a sigh.
"Back to having an issue with him?" Jason nods with understanding. He's in a constant state of flip-flopping on having an issue with him.
"Nah, I just mean I don't think he's worth it. If you're gonna fight a Titan, at least make it worth it, ya know? Like, it's Dick. He's whatever and it's like tragic in a pathetic kind of way to watch two Robins fight each other. I mean how fucking cliche. Fight Hank or some shit." You scoff. "Or prove yourself in a different way, one that doesn't involve tagging along where they shove you into a corner anyway."
"I'd obliterate Hank." Jason chortles, his head is high and his chest puffed out with confidence.
"See, exactly!" You cheer.
Jason pauses for a second and maybe you have a point. Maybe he could find a way to show Dick in a different way. He doesn't need to rely on Dick to invite him out onto the field. He could just do it himself.
"Hey," Jason's brows furrow as he looks to you, an idea popping into his head. "Gar still helping Dick?"
Your eyes narrow at him, not liking the question. "Assume so...why?"
"We could help." Jason proposes the idea and you just know he doesn't want to sit in front of a computer as a way to help. Jason is a hands-on kind of hero.
"Mmm." You hum. "What's your angle?"
"You said prove myself in a different way." Jason give you an eerily innocent smile.
"Mhm." You hum. "Yeah, he's probably in the comms lab trying to locate Dr. Light again." You tell him, trying to figure out what exactly he's getting at. Jason is anything but innocent.
Jason pushes himself from the door, gesturing for you to follow his lead. "So, let's help. An apology to Dick, offer my help here."
"Yeah, I don't believe your intentions are so pure if I'm being honest." You state, keeping your stance against his door.
Jason has a cocked grin, eyes devious. "You gonna stop me?"
You should but he didn't stop you. So, you roll your eyes and push off of the door. "Guess not."
Jason has this triumphant smile that makes your heart beat a little faster. Jason opens the door and you follow him. Something in you is saying Jason doesn't want to help with this. Not in this way. You worry he's going this to hunt Dr. Light down himself. But, he went with for Jerry. He never tried to talk you out of it because he knew he couldn't and you know you can't talk him out of this. You needed it and Jason needs this, too. Plus, you aren’t completely sure that’s what his plan is.
You get to the comms lab, Gar quickly typing away as Jason leans against the table, facing Gar. His hands grip the edge as he waits for Gar to look at him. You stand off to the side of Gar's chair.
"Hey?" Gar questions, looking between the two of you.
"Hey." Jason greets a little too kindly.
"You okay?" Gar asks, this time his voice has a little bit of concern. He takes a quick glance at you and then brings his eyes back to Jason.
"Yeah, yeah, I've been knocked down before." Jason nods his head, looking to you.
"Look, uh, Dick just reacted he didn't mean anything by it." Gar says, his voice soft and you want to melt. He's so kind and sweet and caring. He never wants anyone to hurt anyone, physically or mentally. He is so good.
"Yeah, he did." Jason keeps his voice level and honest. He gains this tired grin. "Look, I know what I am. I'm a dirty little favor to Bruce. And probably why they reopened this place." Jason looks around the room. "Scrap heap for rejects." You roll your eyes at the comment before you go back to eyeing him carefully.
"I'm not a reject." Gar shakes his head, his voice displeased and hurt by the remark.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean you." Jason shakes his head before looking at you. "Or you." He looks back to Gar.
"Look, you're not a reject, either, Jason. We're...we're Titans." Gar gets this huge smile, one of accomplishment and pride.
You keep your eyes narrowed as the smile falls from Jason's face. He's manipulating Gar. It's the way he spoke with ease. The way he smiled that wreaked of bad intentions. And that's when you know for certain. He wants to find Dr. Light so he can go after him. Jason wants to help in a different way, meaning he wants to do it all himself. That's the only reason why he walked in here the way he did, saying what he said and how he said it. If he came in here, immediately asking to help, a red flag would have been triggered for Gar. 
Jason turns to look at the large screen. "Hey, can I help you?" Jason asks, gaining the smile back as he pushes off the table.
"Uh, sure?" Gar says, leaning forward and wheeling the chair closer to the controls. "You okay?" Gar asks, looking back to you. "You're really quiet."
"Oh, yeah." You nod, glancing between and Gar and Jason. "It's nothing, it's fine." You’re not gonna get in the middle of Jason trying to find Dr. Light and him going off to find him. Gar won’t let Jason help if you say anything.
Gar eyes you with a bit of suspicion but decides not to press. He moves back to the computer and looks at the large screen that Jason is now standing just inches from.
"I'm just looking for heat signatures. After Dr. Light absorbed all that energy, he's gotta be radiation hot." Gar explains.
"What's that?" Jason points to a blank spot on the map.
Gar zooms in. "Emergency exits on the Bayline train station. Underground, so impossible to read."
"Train tunnels must have underground heat sensors." Jason looks behind him to Gar.
"Good idea." Gar gets this interested smile as he wheels over to the right and starts typing. "I'm just gonna piggyback on the Bayline system." Gar says and just like that, where there was once a blank spot, it's now glowing red. A large smile comes to your face and this is why Dick should give him a chance. He is in fact clever. Jason lets out a single laugh, a large and proud smile on his face. "Holy shit." Gar beams as a similar laugh leaves his lips. Gar wheels back over to the center of the control panel. "You're amazing, Jason. I think we got him." Gar says, barely finishing his sentence before he pushes off the chair, immediately heading for the hallway.
"Woah, where ya going?" Jason calls after him, quickly catching up to Gar before he can leave.
"To tell Dick." Gar states as if Jason should have known.
"I got a better idea." Jason starts and you groan internally. This isn't good. "Look, why don't we go take a quick look to make sure." Jason offers and you’re shocked he isn't going off on his own. You definitely expected him to try and sneak out of here. "Cause if we're wrong, we'll look like assholes."
Gar nods his head, an unamused smile on his lips. "Yeah..." He stops nodding, snapping his eyes at Jason. "No." He quickly turns back around to the hallway.
"Gar! I need this." Jason pleads and Gar stops again. "To make things right with Dick, to show him what I can do. Okay? What we can do."
Gar walks back over to Jason. "He knows what you can do." Gar's voice is sympathetic as he shakes his head. "You're Batman's guy." Gar's voice is quieter this time but still drenched in the same sincerity.
"Was." Jason corrects him. You raise a brow. This is the first time he's thought of Robin in the past tense. "I'm not saying we go rogue." Jason explains. "We'll just do some visual verification, lay eyes on the guy and call Dick. Look, help me out Gar." Jason pleads with him and this time, it seems Jason is being sincere rather than manipulating him. But, you know Jason won't call Dick. "I could use a win."
Gar pauses and looks past Jason to you, your feet seeming to be glued to the floor. "What do you think?" Gar asks. "You haven't said anything."
You let out a sigh, Jason turning and his eyes boring into you. If you say Jason is right, that'll be it. The three of you will go and it could end poorly. If you say Gar is right, Jason will be mad and probably go anyway. At least, if all three of you are there, maybe something horrible won't happen. You kind of owe him anyway and you do kind of agree with Jason. But, you feel like you’re not choosing on if you should go after Dr. Light or tell Dick. Instead, you feel like you’re choosing between the boys with both of them looking at you and expecting you to agree with both of them.
"I dunno." Your voice holds reluctance. "I just..."
"Come on, Y/n." Jason pleads with you now. "You wanna prove it to Dick, too, right? You just said you're tired of being cooped up here. When we went after Jerry, as soon as you said we should call him, we did. It's the same thing."
You let out a sigh because you know that. "Stop kissing my ass." You roll your eyes. "I mean..." You look to Gar. "We could be heroes tonight." You raise your brow at him and there's a drop in Gar's expression but Jason's brightens. You don't want to sit around helping like this either. You want to do something and you do not want Jason to get himself killed tonight.
"Really?" Gar's voice is filled of disappointment. He thought you'd side with him, especially with how you were right after going after Jerry.
"I mean..." You pause. "I've fucked up with Dick, too and it does suck. If we could do this for him, maybe it'll prove that we're more than just those fuck ups. You haven't done anything, of course, but you're like...the responsible one." You state before looking to Jason. "No offense." You look back to Gar. "If we have you with us, maybe Dick will appreciate the three of us working together and being there for backup, ya know?"
Gar pauses and he's not winning this. He can tell by the looks in yours and Jason’s eyes, you're both a bit desperate to prove something. Jason just wants to prove that he is worth something. He's worth the time and the effort and the energy. He's meant to be Robin. You, Gar isn't really sure what you want to prove. But, it's the way your brows furrow and your voice quivers that he can tell it means something to you. Maybe you just want to prove you’re useful. You’re the only one no one who hasn’t been in some type of fight that isn't training. Everyone even saw Rose on the TV fighting. So, Gar caves despite his better judgment.
"Quick look, then we call Dick." Gar's voice is serious and stern, as if he's really taking the comment about being the responsible one to heart.
Jason smiles casually as he nods. "I promise."
"Let's get going then and hurry the fuck up." You walk past Jason.
"I'm gonna grab something real quick, I'll meet you guys outside." Jason says before walking past you, jogging down the hallway.
Gar gives you a look as the two of you head down the same hallway. "Siding with Jason?"
You let out a sigh. "I get it, ya know?" You shrug your shoulders. "Like...I dunno just wanting to be good enough." Your voice is quiet. "We all just want to be good enough for something, right? And I have these new powers and I'm going stir-crazy over it. I feel useless. I'm the only one who hasn't done anything. I beat up some basic ass psycho. He never even put up a fucking fight." You scoff. "I owe him, ya know?"
"You don't." Gar shakes his head. "And you are good enough. Dick knows you are." Gar urges and he doesn’t want you making bad decisions to prove something Dick already knows.
"It's different, Gar." You lick your lips. "Jason never tried to talk me out of going. He knew he couldn't do it. He knew I wouldn't listen to him. So, he came with to make sure I'd be okay and that I wouldn't kill him." You shake your head. "Uh....just...I don't want to get into the nitty-gritty of it all that night but," You look to the floor, watching as your shoes touch the floor. "He did a lot for me that night, like what you do." You nod at him and Gar gets it now.
Maybe you and Jason do flirt with each other and maybe there is something going on. He doesn't really know and a part of him would like to be left in ignorant bliss about it but ever since that night, something was different between you and Jason. Gar can't put his finger on it, but it seemed different. And now he knows why. You got to see a side of Jason no one else ever gets to see. Jason treats you like a person and you do him. Jason makes you feel like a person, an important person just like Gar does. It's just a little different.
Gar nods with understanding. "For the record," Gar lets out a sigh. "I think you're both good enough."
Heat creeps through your cheeks as your face softens. "Thank you, Gar." You feel the giddiness course through your veins. "You are also plenty good enough."
Gar chuckles softly. "Thanks, Y/n." Gar reaches his door, opening it. "Just grabbing my jacket."
"Yeah, I'm gonna grab a different hoodie." You jerk your head towards your room.
The two of you part ways to grab your different clothes. Gar goes with his red and white jacket while you grab a black athletic jacket. It's warm, jet-black, and it's a zip-up. You tie a belt around your waist, the belt lined with varying knives you’ve been given over the last few months from Dick. And you hide it under your hoodie. You know damn well this is going to get ugly and if Gar sees this, he'll back out and tell Dick. But, you aren't going to go unprepared. So, you hide it.
Once the three of you are outside, you head off to find Dr. Light. Jason, naturally showed up in his Robin suit. You and Gar aren’t even surprised. It's completely on brand. You think Jason would sleep in it if he could.
Once you reach the tunnels, that's when things start feeling a little off. You have a bad feeling in the pit of your stomach. Something just doesn't feel quite right here. A part of you thinks you’re just anxious over facing a villain. You know Jason isn't going to call Dick. He's going to put up a fight because that's just Jason. He's going against all odds to prove himself and this is a perfect opportunity. So, maybe you’re just anxious about that. But, you try to brush it off because you’re with the two boys who would never let anything happen to you.
"I thought this was reconnaissance only." Gar states as the three of you head down the stairs into the tunnels. "You're overdressed." Gar sounds tired and like he's done dealing with Jason's shit.
Jason laughs. "Exactly reconnaissance on a homicidal psychopath." The three of you stop walking. Jason leans against the railing on his side, facing you and Gar. You stand right in the middle of them. "Safety first."
"Yeah...that's why you wore the suit." You quip as you cross your arms over your chest.
Gar looks at the two of you before shaking his head. "I'm calling Dick." He says, completely through with now the both of you as he goes to head up the stairs.
"Gar, wait." You call but you keep your footing where you are.
"Yeah, come on, man." Jason whines. "Okay, you agreed to help me out. Please?"
"It'll be fine." You assure Gar with the easy shrug of your shoulders.
"See, Y/n’s on board." Jason points at you with an open palm. "Let's go." Jason jerks his head down the stairs.
Gar is so fed up with this already. He just gestures lazily out in front of him for Jason to take the lead again. The three of you walk down the stairs together, Jason feeling fantastic about himself, Gar wants to go home, and you’re stuck in between the two of them, literally and figuratively.
"Alright," Jason says as you reach the bottom of the stairs, all of you coming to a stop. "Let's uh, let's split up."
"Huh?" Gar hums, his voice high-pitched.
You scrunch your entire face at Jason, appalled. "Are you fucking kidding me?!"
"What?" Jason scoffs.
"Bad idea!" You groan.
"Man," Gar puts a hand on Jason's shoulder. "Don't you remember any of the horror movies we've watched?" There's a bit of panic in his voice.
"One of the easiest rules to remember is to not split up, Jason." You explain dramatically.
"You both wanna get out here fast, right?" Jason nods his head slowly and dramatically. "The three of us will get the job done in half the time." Jason says as he starts walking off.
"One of us definitely needs to go with him." You let out a sigh.
Gar's face is panicked but he manages a frown at you. "No way."
"Hey, I'm not going alone and you and I both know Jason functions strictly on reckless abandon. One of us has to be with him for safety measures." You gesture an open hand down the tunnel. "He's already left us." Honestly, you’re not happy about the whole splitting up thing but Jason seemed to make that decision for the three of you.
Gar lets out a groan. "Fine, okay." He puts a hand on your shoulder and squeezes softly. "I just, I got a bad feeling."
You nod but you choose not to put more worry into him. You don't like when he worries so much. "It'll be fine. You can turn into a tiger, I can melt people, Jason is very good at kicking ass and he does have the Robin suit which has weapons. We'll be fine." You rest a hand on Gar's shoulder and give him a gentle smile. The action was supposed to make him feel better but something about it doesn’t.
"Okay." He nods reluctantly.
"Meet you after." You give Gar a wink before turning and jogging down one of the tunnels to catch up with Jason.
You catch up with Jason, Jason hearing your pattering footsteps behind him. He knows it's you by the lightless of your steps.
"Can I fucking help you?" Jason quips.
"How-how did you know it was me?" You ask as you catch up to him, coming to a walking speed.
Jason lets out a laugh. "You're not fucking subtle." If anyone was going to follow him, it’d be you.
"Ha-ha." You mock him. "I came to make sure..." You pause as Jason looks at you, eyes narrowed and this is like when you went to beat up Jerry. Him in the Robin suit, you in street clothes, going to find a piece of shit. Maybe there's a bit of comfort in reckless abandon. "You don't kill him." You flash him a smirk.
There's a prideful smile across Jason's lips as he looks forward. He got the reference. He remembers telling you that that night.
"Gonna be able to pull me off him, huh?"
"Well," You shrug. "I was trained by the best, ya know?" You lift your hoodie so he can see the knives. "I, too, came a little overdressed for the occasion."
Jason lets out a laugh, his nose scrunching. "Yeah? And how's Gar feel about that?"
"Oh, well, he doesn't know." You let outa sigh, a guilty expression on your face. "He would have told Dick if he saw but I wasn't coming unprepared."
A triumphant smile pulls at Jason's lips as he boasts his chest. "Well, hey, I'm just glad you finally fucking admit I'm the best." Jason chortles.
"Oh, shut the fuck up." You roll your eyes. "Seriously, though," You let out a breath. "This is honestly stupid, like you know that, right?"
The smile falls. "No, he's a stupid fucking lightbulb."
"Uh-huh, yes, but the other Titans seem afraid of him. You don't think that's the least bit weird?" You raise.
"Could just be that Deathstroke is out there and his daughter is at the tower." Jason snarks.
"Fair." You let out a sigh, knowing that might be true. Everything you’ve heard about Dr. Light doesn’t sound too terrifying in terms of bad guys. "You don't seem to mind who Rose's dad is." You look to the ground for a split second, Jason catching it and a smirk comes to his face. Game time.
"Jealous?" He quips, looking at you and you think the mask makes him look a little goofy and he knows exactly what he's doing because you asked him the same thing last time.
"You fucking wish." You mock him and Jason lets out this laugh that bubbles your stomach. You wish he laughed more.
"If I did?" Jason continues and this time you look at him. He's looking straight ahead with a smirk that makes you want to kiss it right off his face. Shut him right up. But, you don't because you do like Gar.
You roll your eyes. "Alright, you fucking smartass."
"You always do that." Jason remarks, his voice drenched in confidence.
"Do what?" You glance to Jason.
"Deflect, backtrack. We go and back forth, and when you get stuck, you backtrack." Jason tilts his head to the right and then straights it back out with a shrug.
"Your point?" You raise, curious where he's going with this, but give him a teasing grin anyway.
Jason shrugs. "No point, just pointing it out." He is curious why you always do it. He wonders if it's because of Gar. Maybe you'd commit a bit more to the flirty banter, keep it going, if it weren't for Gar. Or maybe it's because it's him. He doesn't know but he definitely likes trying to figure you out.
"Mhm." You hum, not believing him. "Well? You and Rose?"
You don't even know why you’re pushing for an answer but you are. They've been hanging out a little more and you’re curious. Rose is cool and you like Rose. You swear it's not jealousy, that's not why you’re asking. You’re just curious.
"Why don't you tell me why you wanna know so bad?" Jason's brows are furrowed as he looks to you, his smirk turning taunting.
You wave a finger at him. "Why don't you tell me why you wanna know about Gar and me so bad?" You match the smirk with pride. 
Jason's eyes narrow at you, a smile pulling up as he licks his bottom lip and turns forward again. He wants to know but only if it's the answer he wants. He'd rather not have to hear that you like him and he likes you. That you're some sort of couple or you want them to be. You are Jason’s friend so he'd suck it up for you, of course, but he doesn't want to actively hear it. The idea of rejection makes his mouth grow sour. But, he's not going to tell you that.
"You first." Jason states and decides to throw the ball in your court.
You shrug. The issue with the two boys for you is that Gar makes you feel stable and safe, secure. He makes you happy and you feel...content. You feel this weird feeling of peace with him that you can't quite explain. In a way, you feel kind of like your old self, but a more mature version of it. It's not about the games or jokes between you, it's just very soft. It is warmth like a fireplace in a brutal winter. You feel like nothing bad or dangerous could ever be happen with Gar because of the peace that just radiates from him. You can't even figure it out which is fun. He makes you feel comfortable, something you really miss. But, then there's Jason.
Jason makes you feel like you’re on fire. Every part of you is bursting into flames around him and it doesn't even hurt, it's just exhilarating. It feels like the two of you could burn an entire city down together. And yet, you feel safe with him, too. There is not a single doubt in your mind that Jason would protect you against anything in the world. And you'd do the same for him. Jason has this sort of recklessness about him that you find intriguing. You don't know what he's gonna do or what he's thinking, something about that is endearing. Jason makes you feel alive with the fire in your belly and that brings you this sense of comfort you have craved for years. And you don't have to hide anything from him, not any of the trauma because Jason has already seen it all and went through it all. He just gets you. But, then you come back to Gar again and the idea of just being soft. The two boys have pros and cons, every person does, and you know what you want but you’re not sure if what you want meets what you need. So, you shrug.
"I mean, she's pretty and you seemed into her." You let the words roll off your tongue as if it's not a bitter sting in your throat.
Jason nods once. "Yeah, she is." He chuckles softly, it's fake though. "Don't know." Jason huffs. "Don't really know her, ya know?"
"Mhm, yeah." You nod your head. "I get it."
"You seem into Gar. He's definitely into you." Jason lets out a breath, deciding to make something up, piggybacking off your reasoning.
"Yeah..." You let out a huff, a sad smile on your lips. "He does sometimes but I don't know."
Your lack of mention about your feelings doesn't go unnoticed by Jason. But, he doesn't say anything. He doesn't want to know. "Oh, no, he does." Jason's eyes widen. "Everyone can fucking see it." He chortles a little more bitterly than he intended.
"Not to me." You scoff. You look to the ground and back to Jason who hasn't taken his eyes off of you. You look forward and that's when you see a little bit of light from the end of the tunnel. "What's that?" You jerk your head forward, Jason shining the flashlight in that direction.
"Found him." Jason smirks, more to himself than to you.
"So, we're calling Dick, right?" You raise a brow at him as you both keep walking.
Jason just looks at you and he knows you’re being facetious. "You gonna call him? Or you gonna let me fucking do this?"
You sigh. "I'm not gonna stop you." You shake your head. "By the time I go call Dick, it'll be over. Go do your thing, I'll be here if you need help and to make sure you don't kill him." You flash him a smile.
"Thanks." Jason's voice is sincere as he walks further ahead of you, ready to take out the walking, talking lightbulb.
Dr. Light is using his energy or taking energy from the tunnels, Jason and you can't quite tell. But, while doing that, it sees he also sucks the energy from Jason's flashlight, it dying while Jason bangs it with his hand. This gets Dr. Light's attention.
"What? The big kids weren't available?" Dr. Light asks once he's on his feet. "They sent Junior Robin." The whole tunnel goes dark and suddenly you’re anxious. Maybe you should have gone with Gar. "Maybe you're just a fanboy."
Jason throws his flashlight off to the side, clearly not having whatever bullshit Dr. Light is going to keep throwing at him. The back of your head starts throbbing, the throbbing echoing to the front. Dr. Light starts firing light bursts, you and Jason dodging out of the way quickly. The throbbing in your head gets louder and more aggressive. Dr. Light lets out a sinister snicker as you move to Jason, grabbing his arm to try and help him up. Dr. Light towers over you both until you get to your feet. You let go and Jason lunges at Dr. Light, punching him in the face with a yell. Dr. Light puts up a good fight and overpowers Jason, throwing Jason right into the wall of the tunnel. He grabs Jason by the collar and throws him to the ground before moving to you.
Your hands glow at your sides, eying Dr. Light. You have no intentions of fighting him today. This isn't exactly what you signed up for but hey, if Jason and you get this guy, that's bonus points for you.
"Some competition." Dr. Light cackles before shooting a light burst at you but you’re faster because of the throbbing. You were out of the way before the light burst even left Dr. Light.
"Maybe for you," You snark, looking just past him where Jason is kneeling, getting to his feet. "Not for us though." You shoot acid at him, just missing as he dodges and he laughs but as he's turning around, you’re already throwing a knife, the knife grazing his arm.
Dr. Light glares at you, feeling the blood trickle down his arm. He's not going easy on either of you now, he will not be beaten up by two little Tikes. But, Jason is back on his feet now, a look of determination and stubbornness that you can make out even in the dark tunnel.
"Hey, Lightbulb." Jason snarks, getting his attention. "Pick on someone your own fucking size."
Dr. Light takes the opportunity to shoot light bursts at Jason but Jason is also quicker and dodges them and blocks them with his cape. You officially think the cape is the coolest part of his suit. The light didn't do anything to Jason or his cape. It's actually really cool.
"Is it light like light beer light?" Jason quips.
"Shut the fuck up." Dr. Light yells, shooting more light bursts at Jason. You stand behind Dr. Light, letting Jason do his thing as promised and you have to admit, this guy is a fucking idiot. Jason and you have him cornered and he can't even focus on both of you. The older Titans are so scared of him...because?
"Fuck you!" Jason yells before he storms Dr. Light.
Jason starts punching him and Dr. Light can't get a single hit in. You stand back and let him just go for it. He let you go after Jerry, so you let him go after Dr. Light. You do, however, stand with a knife in your hand, the other hand glowing faintly as if waiting for this to go south. If Dr. Light suddenly gets this burst of energy, you want to be prepared to step in and help Jason. But, by the look of Jason grabbing him and pining Dr. Light to the ground, you don't think he'll need it.
"This Titan's back bitch." Jason snarls before going in for more punches to Dr. Light's face.
You move closer anyway as Jason's punches get more erratic and aggressive, getting the sense you'll have to pull him off. As you watch, you get a glimpse of how Jason felt that night. Based on things Jason has said, you know he views Jerry like he views any other villain, a waste of space. There is not a single part of you that thinks he was ever against you beating him up. He only pulled you off so you wouldn't be a murderer and have to live with the repercussion of that. And you get it because while watching him is actually pretty badass and, albeit, very attractive, it is worrisome.
He's aggressive and filled of fire. It's like he could go through this for hours and not get tired. You don't want him to be so angry anymore. He doesn't deserve to have so much aggression in him. He's better than that, he's worth more than that. And you want to stop him because there's this throbbing starting again in the back of your head. Dr. Light is on the ground, Jason has him, someone is coming. The throbbing intensifies, right at the base of your head and you know.
You spin around, only to be met with Deathstroke, holding his sword out a centimeter from your face. Your heart stops, your breath caught in your throat while time freezes. This is so much worse than Dr. Light and it’s only going to get worse. Jason is going to turn around and probably lose it. And Dr. Light starts cackling underneath Jason as Jason pauses for a breath.
Jason thinks he's just a twisted fuck for a second. Surely, this guy isn’t crazy enough to think getting the shit beat out of him is funny. That's the only logical explanation except that you haven't said a single word and you’re not in his eyesight anymore.
"Jay?" You call and your voice is so small, Jason's heart sinks.
He turns around slowly and there's Deathstroke with a sword to your face. Jason's entire heart feels like it's been ripped from his chest. It's nearly paralyzed him. He didn't prepare for this and suddenly, he's drowning in his own regret. He should have known better.
"Drop the knife." Deathstroke says calmly.
You suck in a breath, eyes locked on Deathstroke. Jason watches as his eyes are filled with panic and you drop the knife, the metal clanking against the concrete beneath you. You both are so fucked. Dr. Light gets the upper hand now, grabbing Jason by the cape and punching him. Jason lets out a yell as Dr. Light attacks him.
On instinct, you take a step back, turning around to face Dr. Light. You don’t make any further movements, knowing Deathstroke could stab you and kill you at any point. But, you’re not going to face Deathstroke while Dr. Light decides he can target Jason now.
"Just stop!" You yell out. "What? Guys can't lay a hand on the other Titans so you target us?" You yell to try and distract Dr. Light but it's no use.
Jason gets knocked out with one of the punches, Dr. Light considering it a job well done and before you can even process anything else, there’s a harsh hit to your head, sending you unconscious as well.
Gar heard Jason scream and you yelling something incoherent from the tunnel he went down. His heart and stomach drop right to his feet. He immediately starts sprinting to where the two of you went. He knew this was a bad idea. He knew the second Jason brought up splitting up, it would be a bad idea. And he had a worse feeling when you remained silent. It's unlike you to be quiet and he thought maybe it was because you agreed with him, that you should tell Dick. You just didn't want to argue with Jason and only agreed to it because you feel you owe him. But, now, he's thinking maybe it really was just that you wanted this, too and Gar is kicking himself because he should have known. He should have known the two of you going off together would only end in a disaster and his thoughts are confirmed when he reaches the tunnel you were in.
He finds Jason’s tossed flashlight, one of your knives, and two streaks of blood on the pavement. Gar is about to lose his mind in a fit of panic. You and Jason have been kidnapped.
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10 Comfort Movies
Tagged by @misskapris (whom for some reason tumblr wouldn't let me tag lmao)
Le gendarme de Saint-Tropez (1964) - my mother is a francophone and she loves the work of Louis de FunĂšs, so we watched those a lot when I was younger. I think I should definitely rewatch them, we have a DVD collection at home.
ИĐČĐ°Đœ ВасОлДĐČоч ĐĄĐŒĐ”ĐœŃ ĐŸŃ€ĐŸŃ„Đ”ŃĐžŃŃ‚Đ° (1973) - "Ivan Vasilevich Changes Professions" is a classic Soviet-era Russian movie, which, unsurprisingly, I watched with my family several times.
Hercules (1997) - This is also my favourite Disney feature film, and its rewatch value is endless. I love the animation, songs, and just about everything. The original and dubbed versions.
Mulan (1998) - This one doesn't get enough credit. It was one of the best Disney movies ever, and I think it was my brother's favourite, so it was one of the top choices for rewatching as kids.
The Mummy (1999) - I remember watching it several times as a kid with my mom, and we would always comment how hot Oded Fehr is, and honestly? He still is.
The Road to El Dorado (2000) - This one is still soooo fun to watch, the animation is fluid, the plot is interesting, and the characters themselves are hilarious. And the songs! (Dubbed and original, of course.)
Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002) - This movie had me fully convinced I could speak horse in kindergarten. Recently rewatched it and cried at how beautiful it is.
Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas (2003) - Look, if I say "Children's animation isn't what it used to be", it's because this movie set the bar. We used to have hot pirates, Thracian ambassador-princesses turned adventurer and the tension of choosing between loyalty and self-service, and sprinklings of adult humour that kids don't even notice. Let the animated movies be on this level again, please.
V for Vendetta (2005) - Chills lol. This movie still fucks so severely, nearly 20 years after it was made. I also own a V mask but that's for a completely unrelated reason 😂 I promise I'm not cringe
The Corpse Bride (2005) - This movie was my favourite when I was 8 years old, and when I rewatched it years later as a young teenager I cried, having finally realized just how beautiful and tragic it is. It's one of my favourite stop-motion animated films, and I can rewatch it always 💙
Tagging: @legallybrunettedotcom @lux-astralis @stonecoldslav @propalitet @cvvel @natache @ladjarica @dwarfsrule and anyone who wants to gush about their comfort movies ❀
Tag me so I can see what yours are, if you want to do it 😊
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lycanbucky · 2 months
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yeah dude the way caesar reacted to your ask seemed excessively defensive. i think that on some level there should be an expectation/responsibility for compassion when we are posting about violence like animal cruelty online (even as a meme), at least on blogs where it is not something you would reasonably expect to see. and i guess it is his choice not to, but it is definitely not ridiculous of you to ask. he said its your job to create your own experience, but if everybody randomly posted animal violence and then got angry would somebody asked for it to be tagged, then that would be impossible. his own logic relies on the (correct) premise that other people are less of an asshole than him.
Exactly! I absolutely agree that we need to create an online environment that’s safe for ourselves and our personal needs, and to expect some amount of deviation outside of our comfort zone.
But using tags is rendered completely useless if even one person refuses to use those tags, especially for commonly upsetting or triggering content. And like you said, in cases where it’s not something we’re expecting to see. So if I’m the one responsible for curating my online experience, but I’m not being given the context to do so, somehow I’m the one at fault for asking for the proper filters. Ok. 😂 I understand that we have no way of predicting what will upset those around us, but a certain amount of empathy and understanding is needed if we’re going to get anywhere in life. It costs nothing to be kind, and to instead react with purposeful and inflammatory misinterpretations (to the point of negatively impacting their own well-being, it looks like), says a lot more about them than it does about me. Plus, they literally told me to block them, since they would be refusing to use tags. So I did. And apparently that was an issue, too, lol.
It’s just wild to see how far they’re going to misinterpret what I wrote, and to project their clearly significant issues onto my words. I made a request, and was denied, so I followed their suggestion and blocked them while acknowledging that I wouldn’t be getting that kindness from them. And somehow that translates to (and I quote, because I just checked and they’re STILL going on about this, lmao), “framing them as a huge piece of shit,” “lashing out,” and “harassing them to all hell.”
Like, my post is right there. All I said was, “I clearly won’t get any compassion here, so I’m peacing out, and I hope nobody treats you in this way when you’re upset and need kindness.” And they’re making post after post about it, talking about how I’m accusing them of being a horrible person, how I’m in an echo chamber of entitlement, etc.
I don’t know who they are or what they’re going through, but they’re clearly in a rough place if they feel the need to latch on this strongly to a simple request and unfollow. They made the choice not to use the tag, so I acknowledged that and blocked them, yet they’re the one creating a whole ruckus about it. They didn’t have to post it publicly, but I guess they needed the validation. Who knows.
Thank you for your support in this, though! It’s been a while since I’ve been caught up in any internet drama, so I guess it means I’m managing to surround myself with kind-hearted people outside of this. 😊
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stormblessed95 · 2 years
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Why do you think hobi called JK September husband? Isn't it rude to portray someone as available for Y/N fantasies when he's already in a relationship?
Uh no? It's because Koobi are husband's? That's his September husband 😍 they would be an iconic couple honestly lmfao
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Every year for the members birthdays, Hobi posts a collection of photo/video memories from his archive. He always tries to post things no one has ever seen before and he always shares cute heartfelt messages, his own hashtag and then he joins ARMY in using the trending hashtags for that members birthday. He used the hashtag #/September_husband_picked_faster_than_anyoneelse as he probably saw it trended and assumed it was ARMYs bday hashtag. When he realized it WASN'T he laughed and apologized for using the wrong trend and picked new ones that WERE part of the birthday tag projects. It's really cute that Hobi does this every year with us! He really sees everything happening on ARMY twt. Lol
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^the other hashtag included here is "#/jungkookah thank you for being born"
There were lots of polls happening about ______ idol of the month happening and fans would vote for an idol in various categories. Aka, husband material, cutest, hottest, etc on various popular Hallyu websites. A lot of these sites tally votes through hashtags, JK won for September being the most husband-like idol. These are fan voted popularity contests essentially lol its really cute and it's why the hashtag in S. Korea was also in the ARMY trends and therefore probably led to Hobi's confusion. OR he was just complimenting JK on being the fastest idol to win husband material in September along with armys lmfao. But considering the first tweet above was followed up with Bangtans inside joke of an apology with "I'm sorry for my fault" and new hashtags too, makes me think he just got mixed up lol
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Hashtag translations....
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The last hashtag was in reference to what JK tells ARMY all the time "ARMY must be happy no matter what, okay?"
And to be fully inclusive for my Koobi loves, his other JKday bday tweet, which was the first he shared with us
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The last hashtag trans to "#/Because we can’t live without Jungkook so we been together for 9years" on that post.
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If you are going to try and read too far into Hobi mixing up ARMY hashtags by accident and being adorable for JK on his birthday, then the only conclusion you should be reaching for is Koobi married. You know, if we are reaching and jumping to conclusions anyway, might as well go all the way! Thanks for coming to my Ted talk đŸ˜‚đŸ€Ł (and yes, ending with saying this is something Hobi does every year for every member. He really recognizes ARMYs celebration efforts and joins us in them. Tae, Jin and RM examples of him using ARMYs bday hashtags below too)
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This has nothing to do with any of the members relationship statuses or any y/n fantasies. Sorry. Anyway. KOOBI MARRIED đŸ˜đŸ˜đŸ„°đŸ„°đŸ˜‚đŸ˜‚
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f0point5 · 3 months
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https://www.tumblr.com/f0point5/739776179187367936/acccidentally-sent-an-ask-unanonimously-to-a-kelly?source=share
Anon again đŸ«Ł
So the person just told me to fuck off I think? Didn't read the paragraphs 😭 but it's funny to make people literally attack me for saying they're jealous and bitter they're not in Kelly's position lol. At the end of that person will never even meet max so why waste the little time we have on earth being so angry (and I say this while I'm also defending Kelly and fighting a rando on the internet omg haha the irony)
But yeah defending Max's love life is so funny and it actually helps me vent when im angry and looking for pointless fights so its therapeutic
When I tell you this has spilled over into my inbox 😂😂😂
Said person came to the inbox and tagged you in the ask but I presume you’d prefer I don’t post it? Let me know, I won’t post it if you’re uncomfortable.
This is so wild 😂 I see why my generation has such high anxiety levels man we can’t mind our own damn business.
Gossip is like gambling - when the fun stops, you should stop. If you get drawn into the negative cesspool with actual emotions just put the phone down.
Not that Max knows/reads the nonsense people write but I do feel kind of bad for him and others in the public eye that doing what they love exposes them and people they love to that kind of vitriol. Like, if I were Max I would be so embarrassed that loving me comes with so many strings. I’d also be embarrassed that trolls like me tbh like “I did not invite you to be fans” 😂
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wibble-wobbegong · 1 year
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Hey wibble! I know you & @aemiron-main were talking about the eye thing recently, & how it may be tied to possession show that Henry’s being hurt by Virginia when supposedly he’d be using his powers. You guys mentioned that El doesn’t do the eye thing, and that that supports it being a possession/being-haunted-thing, i think? The thing is, El HAS—when she’s finding Will in the radio room at Hawkins Middle school in season one stands out, and a little when she’s channeling the Russian in her memories of Hawkins lab/papa, and even for a brief moment when she’s looking at the DnD board & setting it up/flipping it upside-down/pointing to figures as “will” versus “the monster.” Idk if that affects the theory at all, just thought I’d mention it! Hope you’re having a good day!
(Also, I was wondering about the grid theory??? Specifically
 what is it? 😂 i keep seeing it & i think its related to owens/virginia somehow but I’m still confused lol. Which tag should I search for to find out more about it?)
HI!! okay so i put a bunch of clips together comparing el, henry, and will and here’s the thing; el does close her eyes to focus her powers but she doesn’t engage in that same rapid eye movement we see with younger henry and possessed will. we aren’t give any close ups of her eyes in this state, but even when you zoom in it doesn’t seem that she rolls her eyes like that. the only time we’re ever actually given any similar shots of el to these REM shots are when she’s wearing a blindfold. either she does do that under the blindfold and for some reason that information needs to be hidden or it’s meant to show the contrast between what’s happening to henry and will vs what’s happening to her
em is coming up with a bigger theory regarding small details like this and how they relate to powers (specifically virginia’s)!! it seems as though this REM thing may not actually be a signifier of henry’s abilities but rather something else, because iirc he doesn’t do this as an adult and whatever that something is somehow affected will during his possession. i have my own theories about how the shadow and virginia are connected but em is doing a deeper dig than i am lmao
(there are a couple different theories surrounding grid imagery simply because it’s EVERYWHERE. the most popular theory, in a very simplified summary, is that it’s representative of henry’s childhood trauma with virginia (csa) and as a result we see it where he appears! i don’t have a specific tag for it, but i’m sure one of the other theory blogs has one. it’s a really interesting thing to break down because it’s everywhere from steve’s bedroom to the walls of the lab to max’s shirt when she gets vecna-ed to the dnd boards to owens’ shirts when he’s at the lab/running experiments. i’d like to do my own dive into it at some point)
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chdmeeksmartins · 6 months
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"why are the scream tags so
 abnormal lol" I would love to know what you mean! I love the movies but am not in the fandom. I do see people insisting Chad, Tara and Ethan should all be in a poly ship, but that's just Tumblr being its usual self lol.
they’re just filled with a lot of NSFW content and “x reader” fanfiction which is just the farthest thing from what i want to consume as a fan of the franchise lol — nothing wrong with people who like those things ofc but i wish they’d tag it a bit better so i could scroll character tags without having to see such graphic content lmfaooo
😅 i fear i am one of those ethan/chad/tara poly ship truthers so i really can’t say too much on that haha one of the best fics i’ve read in the scream 6 tag on A03 is literally something centered on the complicated dynamic between the three of them in a vaguely yellowjackets inspired concept lol
but it’s not like something i ship-ship, btw. it’s just a concept i like better than chethan or chara on their own. my fav scream ships are deweygale, samdanny, and minika by a SOLID margin đŸ€·đŸ˜‚
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rewordthis · 7 months
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Aw pals! What was that episode??? Pandemonium for real!
But first, let me say
 Dude, what was that squeal when Yuuji tore mechamaru from his ear??? đŸ„¶ I’m still confused if it was actually him or just a distortion in the sound. 😑
Well, at least the rest of the episode was nice

I loved Gojo’s disgusted face, as he asked to get boxed already. Like “dude if you’re gonna do it, just do it! Duh!” lol
Naobito gramps barfing up the six pack he downed
 He’s a freaking animal (derogatory). đŸ€ąđŸ˜ž Maki wasn’t kidding when she said she couldn’t stand living in that house. Damn~
Yuuji climbing that building like Spider-Man
 😑 Then the highlight: screaming “Nanamiiin!!!” lmao Here I must say that I so get him, though. For all the embarrassment I get to call up on someone I know on the street and usually end up creeping behind them (and scaring the f!ck out of them of course
), I have done that a couple times. Like, it’s mortifying to even think of doing it, but I admit I can actually be that embarrassing sometimes. If it’s gotta be done, it gets done. End of story. đŸ˜¶â€đŸŒ«ïžđŸ« 
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Also. That curse user that stabbed Ijichi is so damn annoying
 😠 He kept stubbing him in the same place, but that must be the point ig. I mean, it’s not clear yet — excuse me if I’m stupid and this has already been addressed — but assistants also have cursed energy, right? Like Maki said in the movie; the base requirement is been able to see cursed spirits (these people are windows, correct?) so being an assistant and being able to cast even the simplest barrier should mean that you’re able to manipulate your own cursed energy. Which logically should lead to Ijich being able to do what Gojo did when Toji stabbed him with the normal sword, to somehow strengthen his body enough so he won’t loose too much blood and not get a crucial hit in any vital organs
 right? Am I wrong? Uuuh, Nanami will find him approximately after 10 minutes, if I’m not completely off and he’s not dead by then, that is
 😒
By the way
 shouldn’t there be a 💱 on Jogo’s head or something when he was arguing with Choso? The characteristic squeak was there but the visual (💱) wasn’t. 🧐
Not gonna pass on Choso’s smirk, either. That was so funny, like
 why are you like this you little shit! hahaha 😂
And the twins
 Pff~ That rotting brain knew just how to manipulate them, huh? Tsk! Threatening to kill them with the body of the man they worshiped the ground he was walking
 that should have hurt like hell. 😔 It should also mean that they hadn’t had a say in the taking, right? It forced them to do its dirty job but they didn’t know how to make it into a binding pact to get the body back after helping it out with its plan
 Ah, Geto, you didn’t taught your girls right. Yet, you had the nerve to speak about Gojo not properly teaching Yuuta how to imbue a curse into an object. đŸ€Ą
Curiously, though, that ‘slime’ thinks (?) that ‘regret’ can’t be served to it? It sounded like ‘regret’ is a taste it has actually missed? Maybe from when it was an actual human? Like how Sukuna was a human? Oh! But if it’s never been a human, it could be from when it first got born into the world? (I’m speculating— because even with all the spoilers that fly around, there seems to be a lack of knowledge around this thing’s origins. I’m so fucking glad Gege has managed to keep things obscure af!!! CLOWNS CAN’T spoil what they don’t know! Meeeh~ *aggressively sticks out tongue* >:P Eat that! On that note, however, I WILL FUCKING BITE AND BLOCK ANYONE THAT POSTS ANYTHING ABOUT MY BELOVED SUKUNA-SAMA FROM THE FUCKING MANGA AND DOESN’T USE MANGA–SPOILER TAGS!!! EVERYONES LIVES WILL GET MISERABLE IF YOU DON’T PAY HEED!!! THIS IS YOUR WARNING!!!💱👿💱) I mean, as a genuine brain curse — most probably born from the resentment of humans toward intelligence itself — with all that this should entail. Like fear of the minds’ capabilities, understanding, adaptability (which also is part of the cursed technique of that thing: adapting and using the host’s technique), enlightenment even... Or, if we take it seriously from only the perspective of its main ability, aka: taking over a body, then we must be talking about nothing more than a parasite with intelligence. I wonder if that’s how a brain-worm would operate as a curse
 lol However, I still think it was once a human. Because regrets are humans’ privilege, in my humble opinion. 😗 Aaah~ I rambled a bit there, didn’t I? I shall put a full-stop here, then. Ok, I lied. Sue me! But I just remembered; what it said about the phenomenon of the memories flowing into it because of the soul so the soul and the body must be one undivided existence
 What? How about muscle memory? A body is perfectly capable of reacting to something in its own accord. If there is something to trigger the reaction, then the reaction will take place anyway. Isn’t the soul supposed to be interconnected to the consciousness? Is the soul unrelated to the mind? Huh? It could be argued that the consciousness, the mind and the memory all reside in the brain while muscle memory (essentially mechanical reaction) and unconscious reside in the body and are connected through the subconscious. So maybe that’s what this rotting brain goo is actually riding onto??? Because there is a possibility the subconscious is the only thing that doesn’t reside in the physical world, thus is what essentially and practically cursed energy actually is and where it springs from. Right? Eh? Ugh
 Yes, I might not have explained that correctly. Second language barriers you see. lmao Anyway, that’s all I wanted to point out for now. For real this time. đŸ€—
Also! Not to forget the man himself— Gojo is chill enough to find the time to play around in that box
 Like, dude! 😎😅 Be the menace you’re usually being for Nanami and Ijichi and break a deeper crater to sink in, will you? You’re already flexing in there. I’m sure you tried to open the seal from the inside and that’s why it overloaded. Because when a device overloads, it often gets short-circuited and overheats. From there it either bursts into fire, explodes or melts. That’s why the eyes melted— I’m so convinced of this. However, I don’t think the fact that the prison’s eyes turned blue means that Gojo can see outside. It feels more like during the processing the object reflects what it sees inside itself
? If that makes any sense
 đŸ€·â€â™€ïž (Yes, I will be calling that thing a device because that’s what I see it being. Thanks for not making a fuss out of this.)
All while poor Nanami is about to break down from the responsibilities that just got unloaded onto him! He literally told himself off from complaining, because he was about to!!! 😭 Stupid, Gojo! Don’t make this harder for him, idiot! It was already a lot of work before but now he has to save your ass, too! Baka!!! He’s practically carrying on his back the lives of a whole country’s people right now because he knows you trust him and he also knows his limits and how necessary you are to everyone! I will slap you for the troubles you put him through, Gojo!
Honestly though, I get that sometimes things are perceived a bit differently from me because ‘nuance’ is eluding me but

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Acting like he was nothing but leg below his nipples!
Wait
 WHAT??!
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imagineitdearies-old · 1 year
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Why the fuck did you like those posts? You're a shitty fucking person if you think that omega or fem Luke is homophobic and then write omega Aemond like it's not feminization in the same way. People defended your fic from the discourse and those same authors that are being critiqued in those posts read and supported your work but I guess its a one way street for you. I'm glad they took screenshots of your shit and posted it on twitter
Oooo the girlies are talking about me! Twitter really sounds wild.
I personally don’t think authors who write fem!Luke are inherently harmful or homophobic. I enjoy many of those fanfics, and might write one, who knows! And I don't know that any of the OPs were calling out specific authors, but if they do in other posts that'd definitely not be cool. Writing fanfic is hard and I'm not here to hate on any author for doing something they enjoy and others love. General critique in a fandom does interest me once I get in deep with it, like I have with lucemond, but in the end it’s all fiction!
If anyone's wanting further explanation and an opinion from me on this matter of fem!Luke, buckle in! Lol.
Everyone is allowed to have their own opinion, but I casually read a lot of lucemond so at this point I have a lot of casual OpinionsTM on the pairing lol. Most of which I keep to myself, because we're all just here trying to find things we like, not get nasty about the things we don't.
But yeah, ngl my favorite omega/bottom/fem!Luke fics involve him having some personality beyond being submissive and salivating for Aemond-dick. I'll rec a few: omega!Luke a/b/o paint me in your colours is a great one, modern!au a losing game is getting SO good, and just started a very fem cam!boy Luke fic you can be the boss that's been fun so far!
Also, I admit it, I appreciate when I find fics where he isn’t constantly referred to like he’s a girl in all but pronouns.
There’s nothing wrong with trans characters of course, that can be a great thing to explore—but I think it’s concerning when I open up this tag on ao3 and the “Luke has a pussy” fics are dominating over anything else that's posted, don’t even tag him as trans, and almost always involve him acting very submissive and still looking like a prepubescent boy. And yes, fem!trans men exist, can be subs, and can look young!! Fuck gender roles! But hey, trans men can also look masculine, be doms, and look like adults too, and I have seen zero representation of any of that with Luke. Please somebody point me towards any that I've missed, would love to read!
(Maybe I’ll have to write a one-shot of Luke being trans!masc đŸ€” seeing the lack of diversity in the a/b/o tag is what prompted D&S after all 😂)
So after enough of these flooding the ao3 tag, it starts to feel less like trans!rep and more like a trend we could analyze as a fandom whole. After all, if we’re just really cool and shooting for more gender diversity, it should make no less sense to make Aemond trans, you get me? Why are we so hung up on Luke as someone with a vagina?
Again, I don't as a blanket statement agree with the OPs of those posts in saying it's always sexist/homophobic to write Luke this way, or that there's inherent harm, but I did appreciate the discourse especially in the first post that addresses the trend as something to watch out for and think more critically about to avoid perpetuating stereotypes. Nothing wrong with portraying top/bottom and dom/sub couples, but it’s just as common with irl homosexual relationships for that dynamic to switch or even the one who through a 'hereto lens' seems more fem to be the top/dom. When a fandom as a whole is constantly putting a queer ship in gendered boxes (and the feminized one always seems to be very younger/an actual child, like Luke in canon), and also hates on any opposing portrayal, it’s just cause for reflection, ya know?
This ship is already problematic with one being underage and then also being portrayed by an underage actor—honestly when some of the more-nsfw art looks too much like a 12 year old next to an adult Aemond I really squick out—so I’m personally more cautious of how I portray his character just for that reason alone and appreciate when others are too.
Of course, I always stick with the “Don’t like don’t read” mantra of the olden days. Any harm in stereotyping/assigning heterosexual roles to lucemond is SO much less important than real-life stereotyping it's silly, and I’m personally never going to go hate on a story I don’t enjoy, just move on to something I do.
I'm also not going to pretend that I don't enjoy something! I literally just commented on a dead dove fic (derailed by theglitteringdark, the surprise CNC and babytrapping at the end really did it for me haha) with Luke as a trans!femboy because I enjoyed it. If you're looking through my likes, check ao3 too, okay? 😂
Last thing, but I have to add—writing someone unlikely as an omega is fun for me simply because I can then deconstruct the idea of it and, sort of like gender in real life, show that we are more than what is and isn’t between our legs. Idk if you’ve read D&S, but Aemond isn’t exactly a very feminine person in it. And this call-out is such funny timing, I have to spoil—in the very next chapter I'm working on, Aemond (an omega! gasp!) tops Luke! I've alluded to it in many previous chapters so some of you probably aren't surprised, lol.
Alright alright please cherry pick and tell me how I'm awful and wrong now 😂 I don't mind, like I said this is my opinion and it's all just fiction in the end.
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alatismeni-theitsa · 2 years
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Wordy rant incoming! Wondering how you feel about this, but totally feel free to ignore, its a bit rambly
I'm so conflicted about the American style of viewing race/race dynamics. Because on the one hand I understand with respect the particular focus on the black/white dynamic and colonization, considering Americas history with slavery, segregation and horrible treatment of Native Americans.
But on the other hand, I sometimes find that their analysis does not fit as well in other areas of the world that don't have that same history (naturally) Its just more complicated than that! To many Americans, brown+muslim= always opressed minority, and as an Eastern European, I must disagree lol
While we are very aware of our ethnic/cultural differences and see each other more or less as distinct peoples, Americans view us all as more or less the same flavour of whyte. I saw one of those ancestry test on youtube(must have been buzzfeed or smth lol) where one guy acted disappointed that he was a mix of north, central and south European. Saying "oh no, just boring white" As if those areas don't differ culturally from each other in major ways, as well as within their distinctive countries(not to mention all the smaller ethnic groups that exist regardless of modern national borders)
Its like when people think Africa is a country, and not a huge continent with wildly diverse cultures, customs, religions and peoples!
And they should google a little before they end up embarrassing themselves by freaking out about stuff like Sami characters in Frozen not being brown enough, as if most Sami aren't completely indistinguishable from the Scandinavian population. I've had an American white girl ask me if my Gerdan necklace was cultural appropriation of Native American culture
 My GERDAN :')
100%! These types of people say they support "intersectionality" until it's about other countries. Just because their own model works and empowers (I hope) it doesn't mean that the exact same plan will solve racism and xenophobia problems in other countries with very different history and lens. Maybe when these people say "intersectionality" they mean they recognise it only within their borders, because they don't seem to recognise it anywhere else 😂 (For example, this girl thought that no other people on the planet have used beads to create necklaces đŸ€ŠđŸ€ŠđŸ€Š) It is very myopic.
Even many sub-Saharan Africans call out this shit after seeing the way they are treated in the US by the progressives (aka, as if they are the same as every African American just because their skin tone is similar). And I'm only talking about the progressives here because it's the side that has the widest acceptance rhetoric, and they are supposed to be keeping watch about misdemeanors on cultural appropriation.
From time to time in this blog this issue is brought up you can find similar posts and asks from anons in the tags #race in greece #race in Europe #greek speaks and #uscentrism. We've been discussing this for years and I am clad more people in the US-centric western internet spaces join and express their concerns.
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darethshirl · 2 years
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fic author self rec
When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love.  
Thank you for the tag, @roguelioness and @rosella-writes! god this was SO fun to do đŸ„° I have a bad habit of not re-reading my own fics so this was a good excuse to refresh my memory :’) sorry in advance for the long post, I got wordy 😂
1) a body, a spirit (Solas & Wisdom, 1370 words)
He frowns. “You’re acting like free will doesn’t exist. Haven’t I proven that it does? I changed my path, because of a choice I made. You could have done the same.”
Wisdom’s voice resonates with undercurrents he can no longer decipher. “Solas,” it intones, makes his name sound like an omen, a divination, a fundamental truth. “We were never the same. All your actions did was illuminate the difference.”
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A philosophical debate, through the ages.
Honestly if I had to pick ONE and only one favourite fic, this would be it. I still remember how it felt to write it, easily and effortlessly and all in one go. :’) If only writing was so simple all the time lol! Anyway this is Solas and Wisdom, through time, in every possible (and angsty) permutation.
2) but I never had a name (and I never felt the same) (Merrill & Audacity, 7677 words)
“If you are lying to me,” Merrill said calmly, dreamily, considering, “then I’ll have to kill you. I can’t let anyone else come to harm, you see.” She stroked the soft fur underneath her hand, thoughts forming a plan even as she spoke. “I’ll follow your trail, find you, and destroy you.”
The spirit raised its head to look at her, eyes golden and unblinking, deep and depthless. “Fair enough.”
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Merrill keeps dreaming of a path. One day, she follows it.
My ultimate Merrill character study, in all her cleverness and vulnerability and PRIDE. I had an absolute blast writing Audacity as this combination of haughty Fey Creature and grumpy cat at the same time, and I loved having the opportunity to have Merrill interact with a spirit as equals. Also my Fade descriptions were super self-indulgent and I still remember those passages fondly. :’) This is probably my least popular fic stats-wise, but it’s the one I’m most proud of I think!
3) let me occupy your mind (as you do mine) (Teia/Viago, 5810 words, Explicit)
“Hey, Vi,” Teia whispered as they passed yet another gaggle of nobles and their pearly white smirks, “do you think the orgy will happen before or after the main course?”
“Hush.”
“I’m just saying. What if we need to participate to keep our cover? We should discuss positions just in case.”
“Teia,” Viago protested weakly, with the beleaguered tone of a man under siege from all corners.
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Teia and Viago attend a sexy Orlesian ball for work-related reasons. One hundred percent work-related reasons.
This ship!! This poor unappreciated ship! I will forever be hungry for more content for them, and when I got the chance to write them for BE I *jumped* at it lol. I had sooooo much fun writing them being Sneaky Spies and also Dorks In Love at the same timeđŸ„°đŸ„° also this is by far the most wholesome and romantic smut I’ve ever written lmao
4) i love you with open eyes (Solas/Lavellan, 2269 words)
“This will not last,” he warned, his voice uneven, regretful over a million unspoken inevitabilities that had yet to pass.
It didn’t matter. She was implacable, immovable as fate itself, strengthened by the fundamental truth of what she knew deep in her bones. “All things must end.”
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In the direct aftermath of the Fade kiss, Lavellan confronts Solas.
Obviously I couldn’t skip a solavellan fic for this! It was a hard choice (boy I sure write a lot of smut for this ship😂😂) and I do like my earlier solavellan works a lot, but I’d say this is my most well-written one. This is basically my Thesis TM on how I personally view this relationship: two lonely people, away from home, finding comfort in each other. đŸ„ș Also I worked hard on the prose here and I’m really satisfied with how it turned out in the end. :’)
5) rules of conduct (Dorian/Male Hawke/Anders, 6344 words, Explicit)
“Excuse me,” said Dorian, so scandalized he sounded horrifyingly like his own mother, “this is private property. You can’t just squat here!”
The other man’s expression switched from apprehensive to outraged. “Oh really! And what law says that?”
Dorian gaped at him, momentarily speechless. “...Inquisition law?” he tried.
Brown eyes flashed an unearthly blue. “Land is part of nature, and cannot be owned. Any attempts to do so are fundamentally unjust.”
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Hawke attempts to hide Anders in Skyhold. The ruse doesn’t last long.
I deliberated on what to pick for the last spot, and in the end I just had to go with a Dorian fic. LOOK HE’S JUST SO FUN TO WRITE OKAY he’s so funny and Dramatique and yearns so deeply and he’s just a delight to write!! :’) and because I’m a dork I literally laughed out loud at my own jokes when re-reading this lmao 😂I love this disaster of a man and this fic brought me so much joy :’) I’m glad I wrote it đŸ„°
tagging back (no pressure! 💜) @melisusthewee, @dreadfutures, @rakshadow, @cleverblackcat, @noire-pandora, @bdafic, @bogunicorn, @thevikingwoman, @glowing-blue-feathermage and anyone else who wants to do it!
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juneviews · 1 year
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I feel like you Re throwing japan under the bus a little bit.😂 They've been producing bl movies for a quite some time, long before thailand did. Imo thailand's bl series have only for the last 2 years started to improve their quality and for the most part were and are known for their high school/university setting.
i don't think they are that far apart in terms of "who makes better bl"
previous anon: I just saw your tags. It's true that japan focused and still focuses more on bl movies but they've produced series like takumi kun quite early (I see it as a mini series) and they set the path with these movies
hmmm... agree to disagree lol. I would say thai bl has produced some great series since the beginning, and to me has globally started to feel more lgbtq+ than japanese bl. I personally think there is a huge divide in between them, despite a lot of my favorite bl shows being japanese as they have undeniable great qualities, that simply comes down to cultural differences & filming styles. I personally find japanese media to be so anchored in its own culture, more so than any other country, that you can't really compare it to anything else. but personally I feel like thai bl feels more queer (yes, including most of the shows that don't even mention sexuality) than japanese dramas, which is why I'd tend to say thai bl is leagues above japanese bl as a whole. of course some shows are exceptions though, but about takumi-kun, I really don't think it should be stated to show the good side of japanese bl when they're more than mediocre movies, whoops :'))) but if japanese bl is what touches you the most & you prefer, all the power to you!
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tormie-tormie-chopper · 8 days
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typicalopposite · 3 months
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find the words
tagged by: @windwardstar
rules: find your given words in your WIPs and post a snippet containing the words, then tag others with their own sets of words :)
my words: top, stone, and glare
kiss the angel - spn
word: top
The figure puts its hands up, almost defensively, and the gunk begins to drip off revealing his father.
Not Castiel, which honestly Jack is thankful for; but Lucifer. He appears as Nick’s Vessel, dressed in the last outfit Jack saw him in, with a bloody stain where Michael had stabbed him just to *top* off the look. “Hey Buddy!” Lucifer —or rather the Empty as Lucifer — says with a wide, unsurprisingly devilish grin.
Jack doesn’t answer, but he does straighten his posture, attempting to give the impression of confidence. He feels like they are perhaps equal enough in power that the Empty can’t actually hurt him; however he doesn’t know this for certain, and there’s a small inkling in the back of his mind that this could go very wrong.
first rule of fight club - red white & royal blue
word: stone
Except they had only just gotten seated at a table before it took a nasty left turn, and from there everything spiraled into shit.
A group of men - big, loud mouthed, and hard as *stone* with their hateful opinions — spotted them and immediately began making remarks.
"Oh great!" One had scoffed loudly to the group. "Guess the owners found a new way to run customers off before closing..."
make it better - the untamed/mdzs
word: glare
Wei Wuxian also swears he hears Lan Wangji mumbling under his breath once they are inside the Jingshi. Lan Wangji — quite literally — places Wei Wuxian on their bed, and orders him not to move, while he scurries around gathering different things Wei Wuxian deduces are meant to mend his leg.
Things Wei Wuxian can make out from the hushed words are, "—if he would only be more careful
” and "I knew I should have accompanied him..." He listens to his husband's fuss but does as he is told and doesn't move a muscle until Lan Wangji stops in front of him with a tray and a stern *glare*. "Show me."
"Ah... heh." Wei Wuxian scrunches up his face and thinks about the probability of escape if he tried to run for it.
Low. It's extremely low. He sighs.
Turns out I had another mdzs WIP hiding in my docs 😂 but there ya have it! :) and for my tags I’m gonna cheat just a little bit because and give a different set of words to one person that the rest 😂
So @scripted-downfall your words are: hurt, try, leave because you are angst queen so I feel like giving you anything less than angst words will have you coming up empty handed đŸ„Ž
Also tagging @onthewaytosomewhere aaaand @hgejfmw-hgejhsf and your words are: laugh, tomorrow, and wonder. You know for balance :) unless you too give me angst lol!
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the1975attheirverybest · 11 months
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Ah I see. Some Scotland politicians I probably don’t understand as an American lol 😂 love that he’s being himself though
So I’m American myself and probably don’t quite get it so tagging @hereyeswerefilledwiththestars or like anyone who’s more knowledgeable can jump in. The way I understand it is that Scotland has wanted its independence for ages. They have their own parliament which has control over laws and local affairs BUT they still have to answer to British parliament on most bigger things, including, quite vitally, the economy. And national security too? I think? So, yeah. They’re not REALLY their own independent country but they’d like to be. So, Matty was basically saying it IS a country. And they SHOULD have the right to be independent. Cuz you know. He’s Matty and he’s gonna say it even if it makes the bbc a bit uncomfortable lmao.
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