#lofi because it’s nice to chill from time to time

[arvensimp]

Hello! Can I make a fluffy request where the reader calls arven’s name when they are sleeping/dreaming? And arven heard it? I just want arven to feel that he is loved by the reader!

Hello! I hope this is nice and fluffy enough!

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A Wish Your Heart Makes

Arven x reader, pure fluff, no gendered pronouns are used to describe the reader

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So... Arven is a little jealous. Not in like a mean way, or in a way where he gets mad about it, but he's definitely jealous.

You fall asleep so easily!

It's not that he has sleep problems, per say, but he's absolutely spent a good amount of time in the evenings counting mareep before sleep eventually takes him. He'll lay there on his phone for ages, scrolling through blogs and social media, willing his mind to calm down and be tired, and you're already passed out and softly snoring beside him.

It's infuriating! Not the snoring. Just the falling asleep. Besides, your snores aren't loud, and he'd never tell you about it because it's not like it's something you can help anyway.

So he usually just puts on some headphones to block out the soft, even sound from you, and he goes from there. Sometimes he listens to lofi, sometimes it's ASMR sounds, really just anything chill and calming.

Tonight though, he's quietly seething to himself. He'd forgotten his portable charger back at his place, and his headphones are dead.

So he's laying next to you in your campsite berating himself and trying to concentrate on anything but you next to him.

It'd help if more pokemon were around even! Just a flock of murkrow softly chirping or some yungoos scurrying around the cave, but they're too far away from you both.

He tosses and turns in his sleeping bag, getting more frustrated with himself. Maybe it's just him being tired (it probably is) but he can't help but think about all the stupid shit he did today.

Like, he fell over during a battle again. Why does he do that?! It's not like he gets hit by the moves himself. He just falls over!

Ugh, you must think he's so lame.

Then he dropped a whole tupperware of deli meats! Now, in fairness, that was 'Raidon's fault for purposefully bumping him to get at the food, but still. He should know better.

He's just been fucking up lately, and it's stupid. He's stupid. Why are you traveling with him anyway? You're a stupid Champion rank trainer. You'd be better off hanging out with Nemona or...or like Geeta even.

"Arven..."

Your voice pulls him from his negative thoughts.

"Shit. Sorry." He whispers, turning to you. "Did I wake you?"

But your eyes are peacefully closed with no furrow in your brow to indicate you'd been woken. You're just softly smiling, still breathing slowly and evenly.

He whispers your name.

You just sigh happily.

Are you...still asleep? For real?

"Arvennnnn..." You sleepily say again, drawing out the 'n' in a little giggle.

He raises an eyebrow. "Y...you're sleeping, right?"

"Mmm...." You respond, still smiling.

He doesn't know why he does this, but...well he does. It just feels right.

Arven reaches out a hand from his sleeping bag. It trembles just the tiniest bit before he's resting his palm on your sleep-warmed cheek.

"Mmm.... Ar...ven..." You respond, nuzzling into his touch.

He lays there with you like that for just a moment, heart melting, then silently dares his thumb to rub gentle circles into the smooth skin of your cheek.

You hum a tiny little laugh. "Mmm..."

Then your soft snoring starts back up again, but Arven can't bring himself to move his hand from you.

He ends up falling asleep just like that, and when you wake up, he doesn't say anything about the red palm mark that he unintentionally left behind by leaving his skin on yours for so long.

It'll fade before anyone else sees it anyway.

#arven fanfic #arven x reader #trainer arven #arven pokemon #rival arven #arven

[mint-merriment]

things about the rhythm doctor act 5 update

just some stuff i noticed/liked abt act 5 !

note: this covers the new content added so there Will be spoilers! also i Just bought the game (despite knowing the prior levels through youtube hee hee) so this is from the perspective of someone playing seamlessly through the acts :)

misc pre-act-5 stuff:

i dont know if the 'simulated' option was there before, but it is very cool actually!

after playing 1-xn (act 4 boss), instead of the credits playing, paige suggests the intern take the day off. the screen fades to black and we are implied to have had a restful day before coming into work the day after and starting the cutscene with hailey and logan

from the steam page, i noticed that you have to play 2-1n in order to start act 5, so i purposefully didn't play 2-1n to see what they would do. (now that i think about it, this definitely is because the boss level uses the 'skip a beat' cue that is introduced in 2-1n's tutorial.) in order to let you know you need to know about skipped beats on svt patients, nicole blocks the doorway to the physiotherapy ward and asks you to go check on cole because he's got a bit of writers' block. it then cuts to 2-1n immediately so you can play it!

before you play 5-1, the ward takes the appearance of the field (which confused me a lil). after the level finishes, the illusion of the field dissipates to reveal the actual ward :0

5-1 & 5-1n:

in the level itself, the background sign counts your hits! other things are also displayed on the lights of that sign when its shown (such as the 'ready get set go' from the nurse, imitation of static during the rainy part, etc)

whenever you have to hit a "two" or "three" or etc, the lights that orbit the patient have that number of beams. nice visual cue there

the beat right before the cutscene where paige is startled awake by lucky, the ball is flung at the screen. even if you hit it perfectly, the animation that plays is lucky's early/late animation- ie, the one where his rotator cuff is tearing :(

speaking of. paige was sleeping/dozing off next to lucky to be startled awake in the first place, and throughout the level and after she notes that he might be feeling anxious

whenever you're cued for "four", lightning flashes in the background. this is just cool to me

in the second half of the level, the hospital ward actually glitches in and out! good foreshadowing for what the actual ward looks like on a first playthrough

5-1n actually starts with ian's hand as a fakeout- you might think he'll take the first few beats, but it immediately fades into the dream where our hand is taking the procedure, and transfers over to real life too

the miner actually has a single held beat in this level, with a unique running animation! foreshadowing his appearance in 5-3 intermission :)

"one slip, too late, three strikes, for me" I LOVE WHEN THE LYRICS COUNT!! AND ALSO IT COINCIDES WITH HOW MANY BEATS YOU HAVE TO HIT THAT TIME. (these lyrics also show up on the sign in the background!)

when logan says 'my hero would never hesitate to take his shot!', hailey joins in from the word hesitate. to me, it reads like he's said this a lot before and she knew what he was going to say, which is quite cute

the second chorus was from the trailer! which. is where they got it from probably lol.

5-2 & 5-2n:

5-2's tutorial has new tutorial music :0

the song itself is called lofi beats for patients to chill to, which is obviously a reference to 2-1 lol

speaking of 2-1, in the level proper, the part after the short cutscene between ian and paige includes that one piano part from it (specifically the part synced to the samurai's heart that ian is doing)!

ahh the classic 'i thought i was getting better so i went back to normal and made it worse' :(

i do like the snickety snick sound of the freeze cue! as well as the texture of the ice, it is very... cool B)

the tutorial (of 5-2n) shows the continuing friction between ian/paige vs edega, focusing on ian. edega is trying to push the rhythm doctor program to be something it's not really, which is just a tasty lore bit (i talk more about the story below)

...okay so 5-2n is sooooo hard for me, specifically me, but maybe also some of you. but it is a banger! and the burn/freeze beats are a very cool concept. (also the burn cue sounds very.. blacksmithy? it reminds me of that one forging minigame in patapon.)

the 'stage' thing is cool, introducing us to the individual concepts, before we get thrown off the deep end. very difficult, very fun. this level will haunt me.

i also liked the background ! oh yes and also: the mythical "5" cue :0

5-3:

5-3 is an intermission! one revolving around held beats haha, fittng for our second character- the miner! i liked the miner's reintroduction, and how his philosophy and views on life and his own health ended up greatly affecting lucky's viewpoint as well. as we see in the future!

the digging through bag to find things and multiple other random things being thrown out was very funny :)

samurai being at the other end of the bungee cord lmao

its nice that miner doesn't even know who lucky is, it makes their interaction a lot more genuine without the veil of 'fan' and 'guy who has fans' :) (even if it is a bit of a hit to lucky's ego oof)

i also really enjoyed the conversations overheard! cole not knowing anything about baseball players was funny, and mr and mrs stevenson reunion was so touching,,,(and also the birds hehe.) i love how they conveniently narrated it so that someone who isn't physically there can know almost exactly what's happening

this also really shows how much the hospital is a community of its own now actually. paige calling everyone over to see the reunion, even wondering where we, the intern finger, are. the doctors work very hard to make everyone's stay comfortable, and i'm glad that everyone's comfortable enough to be reaching out and finding this moment touching.

also speaking of which. its very funny and very in character that the reason mrs. stevenson wasn't moved to mr. stevenson's room earlier.. was that everyone involved forgot about it oops. at least the birds are there too!

annnd as evidenced by 5-x's pre-treatment notes, the miner's words seems to have really helped and affected lucky! good job!

(also. i got an s- on this the first time. dunno if you can get an s+)

5-x:

now. 5-x. the BIG ONE. god its so good but you already knew that

a preface for everything: the window movement is IMMACULATE. IMMACULATE I SAY.

the crunchy guitar chord coming in right as the screen pans up to the sunset-sky and the 'boss stage' fading in was PERFECTION. BY THE WAY.

i like the window moving like a clock! and sometimes, each tick actually ticks over to a different scene at a different time, with different people in the hall (but edega watching from that observation room at all times. unnerving)

the snapshots of people hanging out is also really nice, i like seeing that most have come to visit :) and also in multiple combinations! they are all hanging out :D

i cant get the blast beats perfectly, but i like the timing and occurrences of them- syncing really well with the lyrics/song!

"it'll never be a hundred percent. you have to make peace with that" this line hit me so hard. i have nothing else to say. its a good quote.

this scene is just good actually. it shows that the miner and lucky have spent enough time together, and when he responds to that quote with "i know... it's just..."? that speaks of understanding! and he was also spontaneously willing to share why he strives so hard, which lines up with all of his previous behaviors perfectly.

this cutscene also acts as a checkpoint; if you fail after it, restarting quickly returns you here! (during my initial playthrough i only failed twice, once before and once after)

SAMURAI COMING IN CLUTCH WITH THE "CAN YOU TEACH ME BASEBALL" thank you samurai you've done us all a great service

i really like how when the running sections start up again, everyone who was shown to have been roped in shows up in the next one (ie logan and hailey joining after the box of beans part)

also. the return of beans hopper! nicole's coffee throw being repurposed for baseball! cole and the samurai (who are of course friends since at Least 2-2n) texting each other! cole's "X" response before immediately after being shown running with the rest of them! (interestingly, nicole doesn't show up in the next running scene. maybe because she was designated as pitcher??)

also, lucky is running Behind everyone, the samurai is rolling/skating/thats his run animation apparently, hailey and logan are running together, and cole is running ahead of them all. fitting!

the team!! the people who were roped into this impromptu team include: samurai, logan, hailey, cole, nicole, lucia, hugh (farmer), miner, and the insomniac. thats... almost everyone lol. besides the birds, the stevensons, and the doctors

lucky's 3am thoughts were portrayed really well. imo, even though it doesn't seem like it, i believe that this game does mean something to lucky, though maybe this isn't realized until after the game. the virus kicks in here, and the screen movement is very intense here

glad they included him brushing this negative mindset in the morning to focus for the game though! late night thoughts can be very mean...

the lil graphic of the game playing out under lucky's heartbeat was really cute. glad they didn't go the 'intern, you must now treat Every Patient Here while they're playing' route (though that might be what is implied actually happened storywise rather than gameplaywise? through paige and ian's convo). ayo, hailey scored!

THE BALL BOUNCING AROUND THE SCREEN WAS SO GOOOOOD AUGHHHHH . fun fact the first time i saw it i was so entranced by the ball richocheting that i forgot i had to hit it. i think thats where i failed here lol. also, the parallels between the samurai and lucky here are quite thematic

ahhh lucky's final speech to the team! it resolves his feelings about his coach (whom, as we know, didn't think he could succeed in the role he wanted to play, but from whom lucky still sought validation from), and also helps him portray his own thoughts about his stepping away from baseball for a time to recover.

fun fact: if you fail between the game's start and the final speech, lucky expresses doubts about this being worth, but the players are still ready! they aren't backing down yet!

and of course. they win!! lucky refuses dr. edega's treatment, preferring to stay at the hospital for an extended period of time for his physical therapy :)

fun fact: i talked to the janitor after this (the janitor has some surprising insights actually) and while he was tempted to join the team, he ultimately didnt, instead deciding to cheer from the bleachers! thank you janitor

(also. this poor, poor local university team. they got beat by a cobbled-together team consisting of *checks notes* patients at a hospital who literally All have some sort of heart problem, ranging from some teenagers to people who have been doing hard labor or been incredibly sleep deprived for years. f on their part. but also a big name baseball player was coaching them, so that softens the blow haha. still tho. teenagers. thats gotta suck for them. lmao)

and! even though lucky hasn't been added to the credits (which perhaps the final release might change?), the roof where paige sings still has the net and baseballs strewn around :)

bonus 4-4n because it was also added:

spoiler: it was very cute. im glad they added it, it's very fitting!

the 'skip' cues were quite underutilized before, so im glad that they used them here (especially to signal that the characters were going to speak a short sentence, hehe)

NICOLE ACOUSTIC GUITAR!!! from all the way back in 2-4!! glad she's trying it out again :)

also its SO cute that she dusted off her skills because she was thinking about cole, perhaps wanting to make a song for him.

can't believe that when asked if they were thinking about playing for someone, neither cole nor nicole answered properly.

also. their hearts are beating in sync here. there is no one else to call the other heart's cues, the nurse is enough for both.

((sorry, i love act 2. they are so good.))

logan doesn't have heart eyes on hit, because hailey's out of town :(

leitmotifs!! i like the guitar from 1-2 coming back in for logan and hailey. and also the samurai's part threw in a bit of 1-1 too !

about the story+misc thoughts (this one is WAY more rambly):

this act is about lucky's struggle with his hospital stay, and also brings edega into the spotlight a bit more with the overarching story.

actually, this act is structured a lot like act 2 (which is. my favorite act actually)(all the times is SO GOOD OKAY) but only one person; it uses mostly two-beat rhythms, the first night level is a song with lyrics and the only lyric'd song before the boss, including an intermission, and a moving window final boss (with lyrics!). it also focuses on a singular (2 patients in act 2) patient's struggles for multiple levels, rather than multiple recurring patients for the levels, which i think really fleshes out said character a lot.

and i really like lucky's story! he was so impatient to get out, worrying about losing everything he had built for himself, but through the efforts of everyone at middlesea hospital, he realized that he could take it slow, that he won't suddenly be nothing if he takes the recommended amount of months to heal, and even if he steps away from the game. (i think his friendship with the miner was so good for him, im glad they brought the miner back)

as for the overarching plot, it brings the question of 'if the rhythm doctor treatment is really effective, does this make traditional medicine more obsolete?' and... the answer is actually no. in 2-4n, paige brings up that the rhythm doctor treatment only stops the symptoms, it doesn't treat the cause. and that's what she and ian are actually there for! (although paige does start to wonder if it'll ever get to the point where the rhythm treatment Can solve such things. shelve this for now)

we, the intern finger, are merely throwing a rope to a drowning person. paige and ian (more prominently paige bc ian is splitting his time working on the rhythm doctor program) are the ones actually pulling them back to safety- recovery takes time, and while some problems can be solved with a bit of rhythm defibrillation, Not All Of Them Can. in my mind, the ideal scenario is the rhythm doctor program supplementing a full hospital staff, but...

worryingly, edega doesn't seem to have picked this up, or if he has, he's deliberately ignoring it. as seen before and also in 5-1's tutorial, he's allowing the hospital to remain understaffed while pivoting towards the rhythm doctor program. he's pushing ian to make the rhythm doctor program do more things than what its meant to, as evidenced in the 5-2n tutorial, and in the pre- and post-5-x conversation. (and possibly more but those are the ones i remembered fastest.) ian has actually figured out what's causing the connectifia abortus (and what a shock that was, to learn that the program itself is dealing with inherent glitchiness), but edega making him work on other things is stopping him from being able to fix it. (ian also mentioned edega's plans for a 'miracle cure' which is. hm. worrying to say the least.) i am intrigued about the plan to distract edega long enough to let ian do his job tho...

also. edega's theme is very unsettling. make of that what you will.

if you're down here thank you for reading! tl;dr rhythm doctor act 5 update Good :)

#haha wow this was a long post :3 a REALLY long post O_o; #rhythm doctor #rhythm doctor act 5 #rhythm doctor spoilers #anyway. mayhaps i shall do this for the rest of the game. just little things yknow? buuut not right now (i have spent hours on this) #i was initially gonna put this in a single thing of bullet points with no breaks but alas. there's a 4000 character limit for a single list #hope this is coherent! #rhythm doctor tag

[lume-nosity]

JFDSJFLDSKJF LUME HAVE I EvER MENTIONED STRAIGHT UP HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU LIKE YOU WERE THE FIRST PERSON I ACTIVELY FOLLOWED AFTER MY FEW DaYS ON TUMBLR AND I WAS SO SCARED TO ASK TO BE YOUR MOOTIE BUT YOU WERE SO NICE AND I AM STILL TO THIS DAY SO HAPPY WHENEVER I GET A NOTIF SAYING THAT yOUVE SAID SOMETHING COMPLETLEY UNHEARD OF ABySYmAL IMPROBABLE AND PROBABLY SOCIALLY UNNACEPTABLE BUT I STILL LVOE YOU BECAUSE YOURE JUST BEING A SILLY GOOSE AND WE ARE ALL SILLY GOOSES ?!?!

this made me have the biggest smile ever and the day hasn’t even started yet.. that’s something. basically i just woke up and smiled really big :) it’s a good feeling but ahem. this’ll be quite long so bear with me.

MELONNNN MY SWEET FELLOW (NORMAL) XIAO SIMP LOVER I LOVE YOU TOO SOSOSOSO MUCH I’M SUPER GLAD I WAS THE FIRST PERSON YOU ACTIVELY FOLLOW WHEN YOU FIRST STARTED HERE!! DON’T EVER BE SCARED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING, POP IN MY INBOX, OR WHATEVER ELSE BECAUSE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE IS MY FORTE (NOT IRL THOUGH THAT’S A GIVEN BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN)

I LOVE MAKING NEW MUTUALS SO NOOOO DON’T BE SCARED TO ASK IF YOU WANT TO BE MUTUALS WITH ME THIS GOES FOR ANYONE TOO BECAUSE I LIKE MEETING NEW PEOPLE HERE REGARDLESS OF WHERE THEY STAND IN THEIR PLATFORM <3 JUST PICKING MUTUALS UP TO BE ONE OF MY CHILDREN PLATONICALLY BECAUSE SOME SEE ME AS A PARENTAL FIGURE (MAKES SENSE BECAUSE I’M OLD AND WRINKLING ALREADY MY INTELLIGENCE LEVELS ARE ACTIVELY DROPPING) OR JUST GOOD FRIENDS TO MESS AROUND WITH AND HAVE A GOOD TIME I SUPPOSE, SEE ME AS A PARENT, COOL, A NICE FRIEND, COOL, A TALENTED WRITER EVEN THOUGH I RARELY WRITE NOW, SURE YEAH, A CRAZY PERSON, FAIR, AND MORE

TO HEAR THAT I’M NICE AND ALL THAT JAZZ ESPECIALLY SEEING THAT PEOPLE ARE COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY WITH JUST A FEW WORDS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH MAKES ME HAPPY AND GIDDY INSIDE THIS IS SOMETHING I REALLY NEED TO HEAR, ESPECIALLY THIS ASK, SO THANK YOU MAN!! I’M NICE I DON’T BITE I PROMISE THOSE WHO KNOW ME CAN VOUCH

IT MAKES ME HAPPY TO SEE HOW MUCH YOU’VE GROWN DURING YOUR TIME HERE BECAUSE I REMEMBER YOUR BLOG BEING GREEN AND CUTE AND ALL THAT! AND YOUR BLOG IS MORE ORGANIZED (MORE ORGANIZED THAN ME THAT’S FOR SURE) AND PRETTY AND COLORFUL AND YOUR WORKS GETTING A FEW NOTES BUT NOW YOU’RE GETTING THOUSANDS!! WHICH IS VERY MUCH DESERVED!!! LOVE YOUR WORK!!!! I FEEL LIKE A PROUD PARENT/MOM/DAD NGL IT BRINGS A TEAR TO MY EYE TO SEE MUTUALS GETTING THE LOVE AND ATTENTION THEY DESERVE FOR THEIR TALENTS

I KNOW I SAY THE MOST WILDEST, SOCIALLY UNACCEPTABLE, UNHEARD OF AND OTHER BIG WORDS THINGS AT TIMES (we love being silly) AND TO SEE SOMEONE BEING HAPPY OVER THEM IS JUST FHAHFHSGSDHSH???? WOOO SOMEONE ENJOYS SEEING ME BEING GOOFY AND OVERALL A MENACE TO SOCIETY LET’S GOOO

WE’RE ALL JUST SILLY GOOSES YOU’RE RIGHT, IT’S THAT NICE FEELING OF SILLINESS THAT YOU CAN’T SEEM TO GET RID OF (IT HAS TAKEN OVER ME AS YOU CAN SEE)

ALSO I SEE THAT YOU WERE STUDYING THE OTHER DAY AND STRESSING OUT GOING APESHIT ABOUT IT I WOULD’VE MADE THAT COMMENT LONGER HAD I NOT BEEN IN SCHOOL AND THAT DUMBASS CHARACTER LIMIT (WOW LOOK AT ME BEING SNEAKY WITH IT, DON’T TRY THIS GUYS UNLESS YOUR SCHOOL IS CHILL) SO I CAN SAY IT HERE!!! #LUMESTUDYTIPSFRFR ANYONE CAN USE THEM

IF YOU’RE STUDYING, TAKE BREAKS FOR LIKE 10 OR 30 MINUTES MAX BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT I DO WHEN I STUDY FOR SO LONG! DON’TTT EVER STUDY FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME WITHOUT BREAKS THAT’LL HURT YOU A LOT (TAKE IT FROM ME, DON’T DO THAT IT’S BAD. 2020 ME WAS STUPID)

EAT A LITTLE SNACK BECAUSE YOUR BRAIN AND STOMACH NEEDS SOME FOOD TO FEED OFF OF TO FUNCTION, A DRINK TO HYDRATE FROM IT CAN BE WATER JUICE OR WHATEVER AS LONG AS IT MAKES YOU HAPPY! MAYBE EVEN PLAY SOME LOFI OR A STUDY PLAYLIST IN THE BACKGROUND FOR A COMFORTING VIBE :3 IF YOU’RE STRUGGLING ON THE MATERIAL THERE ARE VIDEOS OUT THERE, INTERNET IS YOUR BEST FRIEND IN STUFF LIKE THIS, MY GO-TO IS ORGANIC CHEMISTRY TUTOR AND BRAINLY!

OH AND SLEEP. I KNOW PEOPLE SAY STUFF LIKE ‘haha i’m not sleeping this exam is important’ BUT NO. SLEEP IS ESSENTIAL AND LOSING THAT SAID AMOUNT OF SLEEP COULD AFFECT YOUR WORK ETHIC THE NEXT DAY, I DID THAT ONE TIME AND MAN WAS I OUT, SO GET SOME AMOUNT OF SLEEP IF YOU’RE ABLE TO IS WHAT I’M SAYING. IF IT’S A REALLY SERIOUS EXAM THAT YOU INSIST YOU HAVE TO STAY UP FOR THEN I USUALLY TAKE A NAP AS SOON AS I GET HOME IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT TIME. THEN AGAIN, WHAT TIME YOU SLEEP IS THE TIME YOU SLEEP AND I CAN’T CONTROL THAT, I WAS JUST A LITTLE WORRIED IS ALL

SO UH YEAH THAT’S ALL I WANTED TO SAY IN THAT COMMENT! (IF YOU WERE WILLING TO READ ALL OF THAT LMFOSJFIE I WOULD WRITE MORE BUT I WON’T BORE YOU OUT AND SOUND LIKE A NERD) I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY AND AFTER THAT AND AFTER THAT AND WHENEVER THE DAYS PASS BECAUSE IT’LL GET REPETITIVE AND HAVE I WISH YOU A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF GOOD LUCK (YES YOU GET TO HAVE A SHIT TON OF LUCK NOW BECAUSE I BLESSED YOU NOW SO ENJOY THAT, I’M APPARENTLY THE EMBODIMENT OF GACHA LUCK AND NORMAL LUCK SO YEAH YOU’RE VERY WELCOME) LOVE YOU MAN TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF 🫶✨

#📬 lume answers #💛 lumes mutuals #🤍; melon! #finally answering asks here since like??? months???? but anyways onto the w h o l e s o m e #you don’t understand how much i needed to hear that #makes me cry irl tbh but in a good way #(it did make me shed a little tear but HFHDHF) #I LOVE YOU MELONNNNN #SO MUCHHHHH #MWAH MWAH MWAHHHH #AGAIN PLEASE DON’T BE AFRAID TO TALK TO ME ABOUT WHATEVER #EVEN IF I SEEM LIKE I DON’T CARE OR DRY AF I GENUINELY LOVE PEOPLE TALKING TO ME OR RAMBLING ABOUT ANYTHING #ALSO MELON IF YOU SEE THIS IT HAS BEEN MONTHS LAST TIME YOU ASKED BUT YOU CAN HAVE MY DISCORD IF YOU NEED IT #<- IF YOU WANT OF COURSE I’LL DM IT TO YOU BECAUSE I’M COMFORTABLE IN SHARING IT AFTER THESE MANY MONTHS #(WE LOVE REGAINING TRUST AGAIN) #AAAAA THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND #A FEW WORDS SIMILAR TO THIS CAN AND WILL MAKE A PERSON’S DAY (TRUST)

[outivv]

— Streamer au! —

Synopsis: characters as streamers!

Warnings: cursing, and not proofread

Game/ fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: kaeya, zhongli, and shenhe

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

A/n: hello! I really liked writing the first part of this, so I thought… why not do a part two! I hope you enjoy, and have a lovely rest of your day/ evening!

— kaeya —

Kaeyas streams are all over the place. You have the chat going fucking wild, kaeya’s losing his shit as he’s most likely playing a horror game (and losing) and then you have his roommate in the room next to him losing their shit because kaeya keeps screaming

His chat is all over the place by the way. It’s full of people simping over him, and also people who are just there to chill… in a chaotic way.

Definitely plays a wide variety of games, but I wouldn’t put it against him to play first person shooter games.

Mostly has just chatting streams, or streams that are meant to be a video on YouTube (he definitely posts his stream highlights, and sometimes vods on his YouTube channel). Like a try to not laugh challenge, or something like that.

His name is either Pavo Ocellus or just ocellus. (Based off his constellation :D)

His setup is very blue and purple based. He definitely has led lights too, and probably a nice ass computer (the guy spared no expense.) also has a ton of… stuff in his room. Like just a ton of merch from his favorite games, and shows, as well. (Also probably has those vines that people put on their wall. Ngl he’d do that)

I think if he had a partner they would be a regular part of the stream JEVSJS. Like the chat would see them every stream and go nuts, Luke “OMG [NAME]” and just spamming emotes

Definitely has drunk streams. Like all the time.

Has a higher average viewer count, but it honestly probably shifts a lot.

— zhongli —

Absolutely… <3

His streams are the best, like absolutely just… so sweet. He’s so sweet to his chat, even the people who go overboard with the things they say (unless it’s discriminatory because zhongli would not tolerate that. Throw a rock at his camera.) like he’s just so kind <3

His chat is pretty cool, but the moment zhongli leans towards his mic to say thank you to a dono (as a joke you know like “pscabhahs thank you dono I appreciate it oHMYGOD”) they just go wild

Probably has sub goals, and they’re mostly decided by chat. For example, zhongli hastes horror games, specifically five nights at Freddy’s (“I hate that stupid bear.” - zhongli probably) and so a sub goal that chat decided was that he’d play security breach. He actually enjoyed it but the moment Monty showed up he was panicking. “WHYS THE GATOR CHASING ME??”

I pray gor whoever his partner is cause he will not shut up about them during his streams. Like the chat may not have been introduced to you exactly, but they know you, just from how much zhongli talks about you.

His setup is so bland. Like he has a nice pc, and spent a fair amount of money on it, as well as a mic, and camera… but his room is literally, a window, bed, and a bookcase full of books, and his chat makes fun of him sometimes. “Ok fine chat I’ll get like a poster or something.”

His username is morax,

— shenhe —

Either streams calming games with heavy metal playing, or intense games with the sound low and with lofi playing. No in between

Her chat is so interesting, cause it’s mostly full of like chill people, but they can get really toxic if someone insults shenhe.

She’s fairly quiet with her streams, like she talks but in a quieter tone. Definitely nice to fall asleep to, if it wasn’t for the heavy metal playing as she’s just chilling im stardew valley.

Stream setup is probably very minimalist, very clean too. Its actually pretty peaceful, she doesn’t have much im the background, so the focus is only on her and the game.

If she had a partner she wouldn’t necessarily introduce them to the chat, they’d just show up in her room one stream to bring her maybe a snack, or tell shenhe something, and the chat would be like “WHO IS THAT??” “IS THAT YOUR PARTNER???”

Probably called something very simple, like four letters kinda simple, but hard to pronounce. I GENUINELY DONT KNOW WHAT THOUGH SHES KINDA TRICKY :’)

only streams at the crack of dawn. Good lord, she streams at like 5 am her time its like… damn. GIRL SLEEP IN ONCE AND A WHILE?!

#genshin impact #genshin headcanons #genshin x reader #genshin fluff #genshin x gender neutral reader #genshin kaeya #genshin zhongli #genshin shnehe #kaeya #zhongli #shenhe #kaeya headcanons #zhongli headcanons #shenhe headcanons

[a-moth-to-the-light]

Songs of the Summer, 2023: #10

[intro & rules]

Blister by Clara Cava & Kaeve (May 4, 2023)

this is an ode to having Our Table, at the coffee shop, (and to the drives I know so well, the ones I could—and do, perhaps inadvisably—make while crying, or while half-asleep at the wheel because the depression would like us to not exist anymore, please, the ones that take me home before I even stop to think about where I'm going) it’s nice to have favorite things, I think “Having a favorite person is overrated,” I say, lighthearted, and ask what kind of drink you’d like. “Instead, I have a favorite macaron.” (the thai iced tea ones, in the box of thirty-six from the big freezer at the grocery store by our old school)

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Clara Cava keeps winning, which is good because it’s an absolute crime that I hadn’t done a proper review of any of the many songs I love from her on this blog yet—no “No Vaya a la Fiesta”, no “Cosa Suya”, no “Protagonista”, no “Te Pense un Monton” (or the 8-bit version, which is awesome, too!!).

So, I’m very happy about this addition, but I still kind of can’t believe a song that’s basically a Mario Kart OST—every time I hear its instrumental, I can’t help but think of that water park racetrack from the mushroom cup??—became one of my favorite songs of the summer, and of the year for good measure. Hell, this song technically came out a couple of weeks before my summer started, but I’ve loved it enough this summer to make an exception to my own rules and put this on the main list. I’m obsessed with “Blister”—even after four months of leaving this one on repeat, I still find myself craving it—and, by some miracle, Kaeve’s voice hasn’t even started irritating me yet.

The atmosphere of “Blister” just works. It’s yet another embarrassingly chill addition to this list, but it’s such an easy song to like—the Mario Kart nostalgia & my emotional attachment to Clara Cava’s voice (which you can thank “Cosa Suya” and “Protagonista” for) certainly help it out, but even without my personal reasons to love it, “Blister” has this sweet, genuine innocence to it that combines unexpectedly well with its produced-in-a-garage aesthetic. It’s just messy enough to balance out the sugar-sweetness of Clara Cava’s performance and the fluffiness of the instrumentals, so the whole song comes out irresistibly charming. I have no idea if this got any traction at all on TikTok, its my bedroom-pop TikTok hit of the year. I didn’t put Clara Cava Mario Kart lofi on my 2023 bingo board, but you’d better believe I’ll be putting it on next year’s in the hopes we can get something like this again!

#muppet hair dye from the music video is my favorite moment of the year btw #mágica intuición by la piba berreta & anyi is also definitely up there on my imaginary bedroom-pop-tiktok-hit of the year list #fans of supalonely or aespa’s lucid dream will def like that one! #songs of the summer 2023 #my fave songs #clara cava #kaeve

[timeturner-jay]

For the ask thingy: 2, 13 and 18! 💛💫

2 - Where do you get your fic ideas?

Usually when I analyse canon and do a deep dive into the lore (or sometimes just when I'm rotating a blorbo in my brain at high speeds). Which probably isn't surprising, since my fics tend to mostly be explorations of canon-divergence and/or worldbuilding!

13 - Do you listen to music while you write?  If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

Yes! It helps me stay focused and on track. Usually, it ends up being some sort of game soundtrack (anything with lyrics would be too distracting), or a compilation of Ghibli music. Sometimes though, I just put on one of those "ten hours of cozy jazz" videos, or something like that. Whatever fits the tone of the scene I'm writing! It helps me immerse myself.

For the most recent Quantum Certainty chapter, I listened to this Guardians of the Galaxy lofi remix. It has a nice, chill vibe, which really helped me get the atmosphere right!

18 - Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?

I do, when the things I need to know aren't too difficult to find online! But if it's hyper-specific things from a different country, it can get frustrating, because you really won't get far without speaking the local language.

Case in point, the fic I did the most research for was probably (definitely) The Guardian Deity of Karasuno; I really wanted to do Japan justice, so I did SO much research about all kinds of things every time I wrote a new chapter. Terms for architecture and specific furniture items, specific alcoholic beverages, foods, yokai mythology and history, local plants and their seasonal cycles, school uniforms, school traditions, first errands, and the list goes on. xD It was just non-stop research.

I gave up when I tried to research if there's official volleyball tournaments for Japanese primary schools. I know middle schools and high schools have them, but without speaking Japanese, I couldn't find anything conclusive about how seriously primary schools take this sort of stuff there. xD

49 - What fic of yours would you say is the best introduction to you as a writer?

Hmmm... An introduction shouldn't be too long, so that probably excludes my multi-chapter fics. In that case, I think I'll go with New Hands on Ancient Hilts. I still really like the atmosphere and prose I built in that one, even if it's a few years old now. And I think it's much better than my other LU fic.

#Thank you! 🧡 #Ask game

[tornadoyoungiron]

What are the engines fsvoirite music?

GORDON: He likes 'cultured' music like Baroque, Classical and Romantic. He will go on at length about how not all music is 'classical' but is separated into different eras and his knowledge of music in general. He's also a fan of Neoclassical music. Opera is also a favourite of his and he has a great appreciation for singers like Joan Suthurland, Alicia Botti, Enrico Caruso and Pavarotti.

HENRY: He loves lofi and chillhop. Anything thats soothing and nice. Like him. He befriended Ryan because of their love of this. He also has a great affection for Indie bands and Drum & Bass.

JAMES: He likes Punk Rock, Alternative Rock and R&B. He plays the Bass in his human form. He also loves the occasional Pop song.

EDWARD: Loves Jazz of the 1920s and later he grew an affection towards Jazz Fusion and Funk. Learnt to play a Baritone and Alto Saxophone from one of his fireman. James was so impressed that he wanted to learn an instrument.

PERCY: Didn't really listen to music until he got to pull Alicia Botti's train. After that he went to Gordon to learn and talk about it as he felt embarrassed that he couldn't really appreciate her work. It caused Gordon and Percy to really cement their friendship after sharing a common interest.

THOMAS: Is all over the place. He doesn't really like one genre, more he listens to certain things depending on his mood. He does tend to lean towards a lot more Pop music and current trends but he also really like Latin Music. He doesn't like Gordon or Percy's taste in music and tends to scoff at them for it.

DUCK: Really likes Jazz and hangs out with Edward when he has the time to listen to him play his Saxophone.

MAINLAND ENGINES

TORNADO: Likes Metal, Old School Rock and Partycore music and her favourite band is MUSE. Learning to play the drums in her spare time.

FLYING SCOTSMAN: Folk music, Indie bands and Neoclassical music. Since there were so many instances of people playing Bagpipes around him he grew to love them. Absolutely loves the Royal Edinburgh Military Tattoo and won't miss it for the world.

BITTERN: Electronic Dance Music and hip hop much to the dismay of his brothers. Gets into heated debates with Tornado that usually ends with them screaming at each other and Tornado threatening to use his cylinders as her new drum set.

GREEN ARROW: Really loves Lo-fi music, post rock and Vaporwave. Anything that's chill and helps him concentrate on what he's doing.

CITY OF TRURO: Loves old school rock but really loves Glam Rock. His favourite artist is David Bowie and loves not only the music but the culture around it. Has a few costumes he occasionally wears to the delight of Tornado and the complete confusion of Flying Scotsman.

#my asks #ask answered #ttte young iron #ttte au #ttte humanized #ttte #ttte flying scotsman #ttte gordon #ttte henry #ttte headcanon

[imagines-from-the-pit]

Flowerboy Character Analysis

Type: Character Analysis

Requested by: Anonymous

TW: N/A

Author's Note: Time for Flowerboy! I'm gonna try and get a couple other things posted today so stay tuned!

-Mod Sam

Personality

Flowerboy is a very chill and laid back kind of guy. His events on a day to day basis follow a "go with the flow" lifestyle, so any activity or experience that intrigues him will be woven into his schedule for that day. It should be noted that there are some things that remain structured in his day such as when he works and any errands he needs to complete. Flowerboy is quite often seen as a mediator between disputes because of his unbiased approach to conflict that provides his own opinions and criticisms to both ends and helps to find a reasonable resolution. He is also one to lend an ear to anyone that needs to vent about something. Though he might not give advice 100% of the time, he will definitely reassure them and understand where they are coming from.

Hobbies

Flowerboy tends to enjoy the outdoors, but is indifferent on preference of being inside or outside. He loves taking in the fresh air and all of what nature has to offer. Parks and botanical gardens are usually hot spots for him if he feels like being outside. Speaking of gardens, despite loving flowers, he isn't particularly interested in growing them himself. When it comes to indoor activities, he is more invested in the quieter activities such as reading, sewing, and playing board games. Though most of these activities he is okay doing by himself, he is always open to doing things with friends. Coffee is a pretty big fixation for him. He works as a barista in the local bookstore's coffee shop, so he already spends most of his day making the stuff. Make no mistake though, his relationship with the stuff is a healthy one, and is definitely able to go through a day without drinking it.

Fears

Flowerboy has a rather large fear of needles. The idea of things piercing through his body is horrifying. Any time he needs to be vaccinated, he usually brings a stress toy or a friend with him in order to help him relax, and during the actual injection, he usually covers his eyes with his cap so he doesn't accidentally look at the needle.

Things He Likes:

-Pastel Colors

-Fountains

-Pine Trees (They have a nice smell according to him)

-Hip Hop/Lofi Music

-Cool Temperatures

Things He Dislikes:

-Yelling

-Snowstorms

-Lattes (Not the biggest fan of them)

-Neutral Color Schemes

-Tank Tops (Arms feel exposed)

#character analysis #bear* roblox #bear* #roblox bear #bear alpha #flowerboy

[madokamagicasecrets]

@telltaletypist tagged me to talk about albums I've been enjoying recently! I may need to cheat a lil and add some individual songs and stuff tho since I'm kinda bad at finding the albums songs are from lol

RAMONA by Kill Bill: the Rapper

Ramona is an absolute classic, it's one of the first projects by Exociety I listened to and was my favorite for a really long time, it's got this really chill energy and is so personal.

Smokey and Miho: the 2 EPs

A follower recommended this because I talked about getting into bossa nova but had trouble finding albums, and the groovy and relaxing vibes of this one definitely didn't disappoint. I can't help but smile when I listen to it while driving, I've got a slightly worn down CD of it and it has such a lovely aesthetic, I love it.

I'm Onto Me by Rav

I'm Onto Me is a very aggressive, raw album that isn't afraid to sound grating on the ears, which gives it a lot of character and genuine creative merit behind it. I remember Rav spending over a year working on an album, giving up on it, and then making this in a month, and I think the refreshing passion really shows.

LOW ROAR

I don't have a specific album in mind because I've mostly listened to assorted songs but I'm really into the energy of them, they have a primal feel but in a very relaxing way. Like it feels like early people enjoying making music using rocks and sticks and shells, but with this nice, relaxing synth attached. It's all just very fun.

SNOWGLOBE THEORY by Kill Bill: the Rapper, again

Snowglobe Theory, in contrast to the raw but more relaxing energy of Ramona, has a lot of character and is definitely an absolute banger, I love how grungy and grounded the tracks start and get more floaty over time as it progresses, mirroring the theme and story of the album, it's really neat!

Assorted vibey Brazilian music from the 70s YouTube recommended me:

Youtube recommends stuff to me sometimes and a lot of it is pretty vibey, so I'm gonna put down Brazilian Skies by Masayoshi Takanaka, as well as All of Me by the same. They're very uplifting and make me very happy.

Potsu

I don't have any specific songs but please just listen to Potsu for the love of God he's like the only lofi producer on the planet who uses weird samples no one else is using and actually learns to use a variety of instruments for his music, it's all just very relaxing and vibey and I love it

Time by ELO

Time has been one of my all-time favorite albums since like 2012, almost exactly 10 years ago on the day in fact. It has this really groovy and high energy synth beat that makes you feel like anything is possible.

I'm tagging @technicolorxsnova , @jambambles , @hikari-ni-naritai , @oneweebtobringthemall and anyone else who's interested!

[7uminous]

▹ …   𝐉𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐑 𝐈𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆 ‘ 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 ’ ! birthday stream | i play childhood games while answering questions and more. 20220716 | 2:30AM - LIVE NOW! CLICK TO VIEW.

jr: good evening, polaris... or well, morning. sorry for coming online so late. i did come on here after celebrating for a bit with the members, and i couldn’t sleep after drinking so here i am. i thought it would be a good idea to celebrate it with polaris too by doing a gaming stream. it’s been a while since i did one, right? 

[stares in silence and awkwardly into the camera]

jr: it’s been so long that i feel awkward doing this now. how about some childhood games for the nostalgia while i answer some of your questions so it'll feel less like i’m talking to myself? everyone, what kind of games did you use to play in your childhood? [more silence as he scrolls through the web] i have no clue how to play it all, i’ll be honest i only ever played games like habbo hotel and runescape... with some pokémon on the side. [squints while he reads a chat] you played among us when you were little? were you perhaps... just born yesterday?!

[screen shows that’s he’s opened up a web game called ‘barbie fashion’]

jr: this one looks manageable! my noona used to play a game similar to this one, but she’d never let me play it, said it was for girls. i’m old enough now so i can play whatever i want and no one can stop me. that’s one of the best things about being a grown adult. i keep seeing comments saying ‘among us’. look, i know a lot of you like among us, that’s why i’m playing this instead. you’re just going to have to deal with it ‘cause it’s my birthday. okay? deal with it [😎]

[5 minutes later...]

jr: i’m bored now. what other games should i play? [reads chat] thanks for the birthday wishes and nice comments, everyone. i never know how to respond to compliments so i’ve been pretending i don’t see them but i do, and i appreciate them! just don’t expect me to read it out loud ‘cause it’s kind of awkward for me [ㅋㅋ] you know that feeling right? 

jr: ‘would you ever start your own fashion line or work for your family’s business?’ i mean, i like fashion but i’m not all into it or high fashion brands, i have no desire to get my name up there if you get what i mean. i could see myself doing games or music for a long time but not fashion.

[two hours into the stream and he’s played different other childhood games including super mario, neopets and space cadet. now he’s onto ‘need for madness’]

jr: ah, so this is what it feels like to be a racer! i didn’t understand why people were into games like this before... but i kinda get it now. it’s so satisfying to waste the other cars, but getting my own wasted makes me want to pull my hair- NO! [instictively throws keyboard away as a reflex from losing, leans back in his chair as he stares at nothing for a long silent moment before finally picking his keyboard back up and closing the tab]

jr: i’ll stick to answering your questions. [turns on some dmca-free lofi music in an attempt to seem ‘chill’] ‘what variety show would you want to appear in?’ variety isn’t my strongest suit but if i really have to pick one, maybe ‘law of the jungle’...? i want to challenge my survival skills and learn about surviving in most extreme cases. ‘what’s your comfort food when you feel upset?’ anything home-made and made out of love is my comfort food. don’t mean to be a cliché, that’s just how it is. ‘with a headset like that, you would think he’s playing some cool action video game’ you sound disappointed... good. ‘what's the best birthday gift you've ever received from the members?’ i can’t think of a physical gift to be honest. mostly because i’m not about the birthday fanfare for myself that is. i do however love having my members all make a fuss. cake. candles. singing. that does it for me on my birthday.

jr: alright, polaris~ it’s already almost 5am and i have a schedule in the late afternoon, i should probably try to get some sleep. you should too! sorry for keeping you up if it’s late for you. on the bright side it’s the weekend so i hope you get to sleep in and rest well through the day. thanks for keeping me company and again thanks for the wishes. i will enjoy the rest of the day. until next time!

■ …   𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐃 - 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 !

#ₓ ⭑ 𓂃 ⴰ 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 ▹ edit﹗ #ₓ ⭑ 𓂃 ⴰ 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 ▹ jr﹗

[vitaminwaterreviews]

Girls' Generation - Forever 1

Well I sure did learn a lot from this album. First, PRODUCTION MATTERS. Like, this album sounds 100% different from 2010’s SNSD, and miles different from their debut album. You can tell that SM has gotten better production since then. It feels really samey after the first few songs, but it’s produced well enough that I kind of don’t mind. The lowest score is a 7/10, that says something. At the same time, only one song got above an 8, and that one was a 9. That says something too. It was an extremely safe album, but I’m sure fans loved it. I could hear their voices so clearly compared to earlier albums, I think it showed all of their vocals off really well. Average score of 7.7.

I don’t know any songs off this album and I find the title kind of ironic because they are not in fact forever 1, unless they were 1.125 when they debuted. Sorry, my Jessica stan is showing.

Forever 1

This sounds so much more modern than their other stuff

Just like, in terms of the production

Still got the group chorus though

Actually this feels like something Twice would do for their 15th anniversary lol

The MV feels kind of generic, but then, the song itself is kind of generic

Can’t really argue though. It’s celebratory and anthemic and it just feels Good to listen to

Not sure I buy the English lyrics. “Just like a love bomb, we are one” like huh?

8/10, it’s pretty good. Not their best title track, and I think I prefer Knock Knock if I want that kind of anthemic encore feel, but it still feels good to listen to

Lucky Like That

Their “L”s are so clean

This is exactly the same vibe as Forever 1 haha, maybe this was a contender for the TT?

I think I actually prefer the vocals in this one

Bridge is kinda boring and uninspired

Oh okay, I guess we get a guitar solo now

This totally fits haha

8/10

Seventeen

Oh okay, it’s not a ballad, it’s dancey

The piano is serving two roles here and that’s super nice

We haven’t heard much vocal flexing yet though, maybe we are due a ballad

Post-chorus is mid

The rap section is actually really nice, love how they’re interspersing sung vocals

7/10, good song but not totally for me

Villain

“GG805” haha wtf

The bass here is nice

I like their vocals in this range too

Haha okay, you can tell from the chorus that this is SM post-aespa

Actually this would be SO good as an aespa song

Doesn’t seem like the producer has worked with aespa, but he has had a bit of work with SM

8/10, I like the feel of this

You Better Run

You can’t be SNSD and release a song called “You Better Run” without me having Expectations about that song

Mkay, I buy it so far

Woah that vocal thing was cool

This album in general is actually not what I expected. I was expecting bubblegum all the way through, but no

Woah this chorus Hits

This is good. I’m glad SM gave them Good music for this comeback

9/10

Closer

Alright, bubblegum time

This is definitely more like the type of song I’d expect from SNSD, but again, the production is just sooooo much better than their original stuff

This isn’t pure bubblegum though, it has this tinge of sadness to it

Woahhh I love how the instrumentals just dropped out there, good stuff

8/10

Mood Lamp

Mood Lamp?

What’s a mood lamp?

Very quiet, vocals and acoustic guitar and muted drum samples

Okay, we’re a bit louder now, adding snaps and a synth and some snare

Ohhh this is a slow jam in disguise, I see

It really doesn’t Sound slow jammy to me but it totally Feels slow jammy

“I would fit you well” woah okay now

Oh my god it ends with “Turn on my light” lmao

7/10

Summer Night

What is this, lofi?

The vocals do sound So good though, with the minimal instrumental

This is honestly so nice

Just like, strip back all the instrumentation, give us a nice chill track to vibe to

I quite like the default sound of this album

8/10

Freedom

Bass is doing a bit more here than the other voices

What is that in the background? A flute maybe? I didn’t get a good listen

Mkay, we’re a bit funky now

I dunno though, I kind of want more from this. If I wanted a chill song I’d listen to Summer Night, gimme something more from this

Oh, the flute is back for the bridge

Can’t say the bridge does much for the sound though

This kinda reminds me of Red Velvet - Look for some reason

Nah these ad libs are not earned

7/10

Paper Plane

Not to be confused with Paper Heart, the other final song I just listened to haha

Yo this entrance is also kind of Look-y

The bridge is kinda wild lol

The thing is, it’s not like, an Anthemic ending to me

The chorus is a bit too quiet, the instrumentals aren’t powerful enough

Also we’ve stayed in a very similar volume-space the whole time

7/10

#album #kpop #Girls' Generation #SNSD

[acefaun]

Have you seen a therapist?

Oof 💀 That again. I did... Twice.

The first time I gave therapy a try, she somehow only made me feel worse about myself?? Almost to the point of making me drop out of college.

I wasn’t being treated for anxiety at the time and she would send me home with little assignments like “Go order food at a restaurant”, “Compliment a stranger”, “ask someone how their day is going”. All simple easy things when you don’t feel like the world is ending.

And at one point, I was going to college for education and she told me “It takes a certain kind of person to be a teacher…” so me and my low self esteem switched majors and did art. But her words haunted me and I switched to liberal arts where I could learn a little bit of everything in college, because I wanted to take fictional writing classes too.

But now every time I’m asked about my career choices and why I decided to not be a teacher/artist/other career path, I go “It takes a special kind of person…” and no one knows the horrible difference in my life that lady made.

That was just minimal advice she gave me when she would give me a chance to speak. Most of the time it was me listening to her talk about her times in college. As if knowing her route to drive to and from school was important to me. Or why she likes Harry Potter. Or why she has a cat instead of a husband. Or why the other therapist in the building is her best friend(they should get married, therapist-OTP. They go together. The other dude couldn’t help my brother either. My brother quit therapy after one week.)

Then about a month after dropping out of therapy, I found out her and the other therapist actually gossip about their patients when no one’s there???? Breaking rules much???

Basically, They’re not there to help, they’re there to be nosy and collect insurance money(because it was one of the only place where I live that the insurance would cover therapy.)

Soooo I decided never to do therapy around where I live again. Until my 2nd/3rd year of college where I was exposed to a traumatic event that dragged out over the course of a year. And so I went see a student therapist in training during that time and he was really the best thing that ever happened to me. He’d listen and give me real genuine advice. “Don’t kill that guy, call 911 for help if he gets out of hand.” (The situation was bad…)

I even told him about my past therapy experience and he was super nice and supportive, assuring me that what that lady was doing wasn’t what therapy was supposed to be.

Anyway, he was great. Got me into meditation and Lofi music to calm myself down. He’s probably the reason I start cloud gazing when I’m not doing anything else. When I was stuck on a problem he’d help walk me through it in baby steps. I love that he was never put off by any problems. He was so chill and just “let’s try and figure out a solution that works for you”.

I was sad that he was graduating college a year before me, but I did really well after seeing him for a year.

Best guy. 🙏🏻 I would’ve remembered his name for the rest of my life if I wouldn’t have had so much trouble spelling/pronouncing it. Long non-American names throw me off. 😵‍💫

Those were my experiences. Lady-Therapist and her Therapist-boyfriend traumatized me as far as getting help is concerned.

All I’m imagining her saying is “It takes a certain kind of person to walk this earth-“ NOT ME. NOT. ME. I’m by far, NOT a certain kind of person. I didn’t ask to be here as much as my parents didn’t ask to make me! Plus, I grew up sheltered in my adoptive family so now the real world is absolutely horrifying and I can’t handle a stable relationship because I end up self-sabotaging them with my trust-issues like “You can’t hurt me if I hurt me first!!”

Anyway, my point, I’m not seeing another therapist just yet. Not around where I live. I’m going to cope with a good game of Genshin Impact. My big brothers Diluc and Kaeya will take care of me. As well as my boyfriends Alhaitham and Kaveh. And my newly wedded husband, Neuvillette. ✨ All the therapy I need can be found in whacking monsters to death and harassing NPCs.

#my asks

[themockingcrows]

actually more on the hallucination thing

sometimes when i'm least expecting it i'll just. see shit watching me. wherever i am, there's some ghoulish thing just fucking staring at me and its gone when i try to get a closer look at it or stare at it. it's like... edge of vision, not clear enough to see details but instinctively know what it looks like type thing.

sometimes i'll see things sprout from the corners of my ceiling when there's shadows and they'll start taking defined shapes. and i'll have to just sit there, with the walls breathing, and focus on youtube for a bit till it chills out, because i ain't got time for that rn and it makes me dizzy anyway.

the music... i kinda miss the music, most of the audio stuff went away when they changed my meds to my current lineup. when i've been having paranoia episodes on top of stuff tho sometimes i'll hear it and it'll be really soothing honestly. other times it'll be the sounds of someone trying to break in, or some other scary noises that aren't there no matter how closely I look for a source, and it keeps me up.

but the music was nice. it was catchy, something I'd want to listen to on purpose, even the 8bit stuff. it didn't sound familiar, but i also couldn't repeat it if asked because it's fleeting. sometimes i still hear music and stuff, like when i'm starting to drift off to sleep i'll hear different tunes or memories of music and it'll all be out of sequence and jump between parts till it tunes together into some vague harmony I can synch up with enough to get unconscious to I guess like some kind of hindbrain lofi.

idk man.

hallucinations can be scary sometimes, yeah, there's been times I'm absolutely petrified. but like... majority for me is just kinda "oh this is happening now i guess" or positive, actually, even if they're usually a sign I've missed my meds or I'm under severe stress or not feeling well or something.

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Other advice posts that may be of interest:

All About Procrastination

How To Study When You Really Don’t Want To

Common Study Mistakes

7 Strategies to Improve Concentration

Tip 6 - Set Timers

Don’t just launch yourself into a task, because that again can make it seem daunting and feel unending.

Rather, set a timer for a specific time because you’ll know that you just need to focus for that  length of time and then you can go take a break and do something nice.

For timing your study sessions, you could use the Pomodoro technique.

Tip 7 - Allow for Breaks (but try to avoid long ones)

You are not a machine. As much as it would be great to be able to, you can't study for hours on end without giving your mind a break from focusing. So schedule in break time for yourself, particularly for times that you know your motivation dips, and do something nice.

But be very careful that you don’t accidentally slip back into procrastination habits and keep breaks short. Unless you are very disciplined, it is unlikely that an hour-long break will stay just an hour. This is why the Pomodoro technique (or a modified version of it) can be useful because each session is separated by short breaks within the larger structure.

Tip 8 - Know How You Study (but don't be afraid to mix it up)

Everyone studies differently and so there are going to be some study methods that work better for some than others. So try to make sure that you are studying smart and that you aren’t wasting your own time because that can be incredibly unmotivating.

HOWEVER, if there is anything that I’ve learnt from online school its that doing the same task all the time, every day is mind-numbingly boring and you just want to do anything else. So try to switch up what you are doing.

If you usually just type notes from the textbook, maybe try doing it in a mindmap one week, or on flashcards. You could also do some practise questions to keep your mind engaged.

Tip 9 - Play Music

Now this one really depends on the person and how you study. Some people need absolute silence and that is fine! But others need something to fill the silence or maybe cover up background noise (for example if you live in a busy household).

However, try to pick music that is not going to distract you. The key tip for this is to pick music without lyrics.This can be classical music, video game music, lofi, or general ‘chill’ music. Luckily, there are now so many playlists out there for you to choose from!

Tip 10 - Stay Hydrated, Well-Rested and Not Hungry

This is part of eliminating distractions because if you are thirsty, you are going to be thinking about how you want a drink. If you are tired, you are going to be thinking about how tired you are. If you are hungry, you are going to be thinking about what you want for lunch. When you need to sit down for a study session, make sure you are hydrated, well-rested and not hungry so you can focus solely on your task.

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