#lmao just something i thought id share with the fandom

[aria-ashryver]

my introverted ass gets a lil shy about participating in fandom events sometimes lol, but I wanted to give some folks some love for ✨Choices Fandom Shoutout Day!✨

Firstly, to all my moots, but especially @pudb1e @alleykatart @icanmakewords @honeyinadream @scrumptioustimemachinetragedy @aces-and-angels @zhoras-bitch @lilyoffandoms and anyone else i've missed! (chemo brain is a bitch)

ngl, every time you guys like something to do with the Starlight blorbos it makes me giddy. You make this such a warm and joyous place to be with every little interaction -- your joy is my joy, and I'm so glad our shared love of ID and Choices fandom stuff (and hopefully, my writing too!) has brought you all some happiness.

I hope something makes you smile today. You deserve all the happiness in the world and I appreciate you all so much 🌻🌼🌷

I wanted to give an extra special shout out to @jerzwriter for making this fandom such an inclusive and welcoming place -- you are just straight up lovely! I know I barely know you, but you have a generosity of spirit that I really, greatly admire.

[Skip this bit if you want, as I'm touching on heavier health stuff]. I realise I haven't actually got around to posting the fic in question yet (writing takes a lot out of me atm), but I have been frittering away at a piece based on the ask you sent me forever ago, and I really wanted to thank you for taking the time to send that ask in the first place. Not only did it make me feel like I really was a part of the community here, but you actually sent me that ask right before a meeting with my oncologist where I was due to find out whether I had been responding to chemotherapy or not. (I am getting better! ✨🎉) It was a pretty rough morning, and through some truly serendipitous timing, you swooped in and offered me the perfect distraction. I immediately found myself imagining all these soft scenarios and trying to cobble together little plot points instead of fixating on my anxiety; you gave me an escape when I really needed it.

And for me, that's exactly what fandom is all about! That's what fanfic writers and fanartists are so wonderful at achieving with their works; is bringing this refuge of joy and levity and beauty when we need it the most. So, truly, thank you -- not just for the ask that day, not just for all your hard work with @choicesficwriterscreations, but simply for being you and for sharing your stories with the world. You really do bring a light 💛

And through all of this, my OG reader and wonderful friend @freedom-kitty ✨ You've been there since the beginning bringing so much enthusiasm and eagerness and leaving some of the most wonderful comments on my fics that I have ever had the joy of reading. I would be remiss if I didn't tell you that you are an absolute GEM and I'm so glad ID brought us together 💖 I have so many of your comments saved to go back and re-read when I'm doubting my own skills, or when I just need a smile (I'm still absolutely cracking up about the Aria the Great saga when I "joined you" on holiday lmao). You are the best ever, and I hope you know it.

Thank you for cheering me on, both in writing and in life with all the bullshit going on this year. You kick ass, lovely, and you should feel awesome about being you 💕

Lastly, thank you so much @choicesfandomappreciation for your hard work and thoughtfulness in hosting such an awesome event!! 🧁🎀 I love seeing events like this!

Sending you all hugs (if you are the hugs sort) and sunshine and warmth (if that's more your jam)

You are loved

You are brilliant

You are capable

You are enough 🌻

all my love,

aria xx

#choices spread kindness #shoutout day

[dwarfsized]

things that i would like to know about my fellow writers!

tagged by @aevallare thank you my looovveee

i will tag @simon-says-nothing and @raccooncrimes!

Last book I read: 

i am stalled on The Witch King by Martha Wells, not because it isnt good but just because. lmao. If im reading, i cant be writing. or sewing. or or or. The last one I remember finishing was This Is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone, and i loved that.

Greatest literary inspiration: 

I put part of a Mary Oliver poem on my graduation cap. Also genuinely quite inspired by Tamsyn Muir.

Things in my current fandom I want to read but I don't want to write:

I dont know if I'd ever try my hand at a modern au but i adore aevallare's pour one out.

I certainly wont write no-magic or all-human aus (I like tieflings a normal amount, she says, lying) but I'm sure someone could do something cool with those.

Things in my current fandoms I want to write but I think nobody would be interested in them but me: 

:') i already think this about my work but i write it anyway. who wants to read astarion stuck in a druid grove when he's [redacted]?? well, i do, so now we have eldath's mercy.

i am working on a story rn where kira is a ghost haunting the szarr palace. do i think very many people will be interested in that? i dont know! but I want to write it, and at least one other person probably wants to read it, so. eventually, it will go up onto ao3.

id love to do something with a focus on minthara. she's going to matter in true colors but that's not going to happen for a while. for now i rotate her in my brain.

You can recognize my writing by:

7000 word chapters where fully half the words are the characters thinking sooo hard, mid-chapter pov shifts, asides about tiefling/druid culture that i've made up whole-cloth, tail mentions.

My most controversial take (current fandom):

if you mod anyone in the game to look younger/more conventionally attractive i am putting you in the oubliette in my mind-palace. why cant you like these characters as they are. i thought we enjoyed this game

if you mod gortash clean or mod away a character's scars, i am putting you in the oubliette inside of the oubliette in my mind-palace.

Current writing mood (10 – super motivated and churning out words like crazy, 0 – in a complete rut):

2 babeyyyy, but if i could instead shelve all the current wips and start wip #15 id be at an 8. alas! i cannot do this.

Top three favourite tropes:

in no particular order:

when a character's specific past experiences lead them to a wrong conclusion that is soooo wrong but like, ohhh sweetie. of course you think that.

magic that has a cost, even divine magic, and cannot fix everything

you were not selected for this. anyone could have been the person in this position. but you are here now, and you have to do the task. get to it.

are these even tropes? do i know what tropes are anymore. help

Share a random frustration:

I USUALLY AVERAGE 700 WRITING WORDS A DAY BUT IVE BEEN EDITING ELDATH'S MERCY CH 2 FOR ALL OF APRIL AND IT HAS BROUGHT MY AVERAGE WORD COUNT DOWN TO 26. 26 WORDS A DAY. BITING. BITING AND YELLING.

#tag game #thank you alex now i return to documence for real #all i want to do is write the regency au now but. em ch 2. i need that out. i want it done. please. crying. #leetlewrites

[japeneselunchtimerush]

How about 4,5,8,13,14,15,16,17,18,19 and 20 for Akashi and 8, 11, and 15 for Momoi

Aww you spoil me(≧◡≦)

This is going to be a very very long post so Ill continue under the cut

AKASHI

4.If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

Ok Ive been thinking about this for a while now but The disastrous life of Saiki K. Here me out

Saiki would take one look at Akashi and be like hell no. Appears to be perfect like teruhashi?No Has another person inside their head?Double No Wears his school jacket like a cape?Triple No

Akashi would be way to extraordinary for Saiki and hes friends with Kokomi. I also think it would be really funny if Saiki used telapathy and heard Bokushi and Oreshi conversing in his head. He would be flabbergasted imo

I also want to see the showdown between Kokomi "gods favourite" Teruhashi and Akashi "I am absolute" seijuro. Akashi would definitely be the perfect pretty boy of the school. He would have a version of the Kokomins as well lmao.

People(aka Nendo) would mistake Akashi for Saiki and Saiki would be pissed lmfao.

Ok Im invested now, Ill continue talking about this AU in another post.

5.What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

Literally every MARINA song. But If I had to pick Id say "Oh no!"

This line from the song Things to do resonates too though.

"You are just a boy, you are no man and nobody you know will understand"

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

I already made a post compiling everything I hated about fanon akashi but Ill say it again.

People make him out to be some psycho who is obsessed with kuroko and hates everybody else. They give him no other personality other than scissors, tetsuya and being absolute as if he isnt so so much more than that.

Oreshi doesnt even exist in the heads of people who do this. But it has gotten much better over the years and most of the fandom has finally gotten a good grasp of hos character so thats nice.

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

This came at the perfect time cause Im actually working on a GoM as emoticons thingy(maybe a few other characters) so I might as well share my akashi emoticons. You can guess who is who.

𓈊 𓈊

∠🏀(●‿●)➃ ∠🏀(●_◉)➃

(They are supposed to be holding the basketball under their arms but its doesnt look like that but I spend 30 minutes on each of them so it doesnt even matter)(maybe I should have added a tea cup)(eh)

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

Either Dark Academia or Light Academia he fits both tbh. But I think he looks good in dark colors so dark academia.

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

I have a lot of akashi ships(by that I mean a lot) I have to go with MayuAka, NijiAka, MibuAka, and MidoAka(I cant pick one Im sorry it fluctuates)

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

AkaFuri tbh I see them more as best friends(Furi giving Akashi a taste of normalacy)

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

Romantic AkaKuro. I just feel like their relationship is so much more than romance. You cant describe their relationship with the word romance. I see them more as queer platonic partners.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Again cant decide between Nijimura, Mayuzumi and Mibuchi so Ill explain my thoughts on all.

Nijimura was one of the only people who treated akashi as what he truly was, a child. He took him out for snacks, guided him actually cared for him you know all the reasons why niji is the best senpai. And Akashi really did look up to him and enjoyed being vice captain under him.

Reo is another person who treats Akashi(both of them) with so much kindness and love. Even If Mibuchi didnt(probably) like akashi romantically he would still care about him just as much. Like Akashi is his baby he loves him so much. And Akashi loves Reo just as much which is obvious given how he comforted him for the foul during the RakuSei match.

MayuAka is defo one of my favorite duos in series. They are the canon light and shadow duo for Rakuzan. Mayuzumi brings the much needed normalacy in Akashi's life like lending him his light novels(on multiple occasions might I add). But he also encouraged Akashi(in his own sarcastic way) even if he wasnt obligated to for how akashi treated him during the match. He forgives Akashi when he apologizes even though he could have rejected it. And Akashi likes Mayuzumi too. He frequently invites him to matches and outings(more like doesnt give him a chance to say no)(this was in cross colors btw) and quite literally tricked him into spending time with the other shadows(takao and kuroko). I think their relationship is very unexplored in the bigger sections of the fandom. Ok this got way too long Im sorry.

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

His relationship with his father leaves a lot to be desired. Now I dont think that masaomi is a bad person per say but he is a horrible father with or without meaning to. He blatantly neglets Akashi during his childhood and in his teenage years. He doesnt allow Akashi to mourn the death of his mother and only pushes him further. Akashi is forced to live up to his unreal expectations his entire life.

Now I dont think he doesnt love Akashi, I think that Masaomi is a man who loved his late wife but does not know how to give his son the love he needs and deserves partly because it was also how he was raised. Their relationship is overall pretty toxic and I can only hope that they talk through their issues when Akashi is older.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

Honestly? Either Momoi or Takao.

Momoi is an insanely intelligent girl and If this wasnt already said this enough they would overthrow the world. AkaMomo friendship wasnt shown in the show because they knew it would be too powerful.

Takao is a positive and funny person. He is optimistic and one of his greatest strenghts is being able to make any situation funny. I know this has been mentioned before but both Takao and Akashi want to improve on something the other has(being a point guard for takao and being approachable and funny for akashi)

I think they would bring out the best in eachother. They would also make Midorima's life miserable which is a bonus.

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MOMOI

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

There's nothing in the fandom that I particularly hate other than the people who hate her tbh. In all the fics Ive read she is pretty badass and cool.

But her haters istg. They either hate her cause they find her love for kuroko annoying or because she gets in the way of their gay ships or whatever(I absolutely despise when female characters are hated because they " get in the way of m/m ship")

They also dislike her because she body shamed riko but tbh her calling riko's boobs small is 100 times better than aomine kneeing his teammate in the gut dont you think🤨🤨

11. Would you date this character?

One word. Yes.

Momoi is such a sweet person overall, she is so nice and caring and kind. Yes her cooking sucks but I can cook well enough for the both of us. I know for a fact she would be a super affectionate girlfriend. Id be getting cuddles 24/7.

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

AoMomo no competition. The childhood best friends to lovers. Momoi literally being Aomine's ideal girl, Momoi not realising that she likes Aomine because she liked kuroko. Aomine always protecting her no matter what. The two of them being throught thick and thin with eachother.

I just love their relatioship whether or not it is platonic or romantic.

#akashi seijuro #momoi satsuki #whew that was a lot #Thank you for sending me so many questions #I loved answering all of them #Guys please read this this took me forever #ask thingy

[ectology]

I have a genuine question, why didn’t you just message the artist from the beginning? Like I understand where your comment came from but I feel like fandom is supposed to be fun and if you genuinely felt a micro aggression from their art you could’ve educated them. The reason people are hating is because of how you personally handled the situation from doubling down to not taking peoples criticisms seriously. I think if you weren’t interested in talking to the artist why bother posting the art? Maybe make a text post to gripe instead of including the actual art. You’re blog is your own and you have a right to your opinion on your own blog and yes their art was cringe (although v cute style!) BUT it’s better to be cringe than mean. And I say this as a follower of your art and not a hater but some of the twitter replies you left were mean and unnecessary. I think that you got dog piled enough and don’t deserve all this negative attention but I think that people are struggling to see your remorse in the situation because you keep replying and restating your og opinions. Anyways I hope this dies out for both you and the other artist, seeing all this hate can’t be good for y’all’s mental health.

i didn't message the artist from the beginning because my comment wasn't a callout post. there was nothing wrong with the art, it wasn't a microaggression or problematic or whatever. i said a pretty mild thing about their art on my own twitter specifically so the artist WOULDN'T see it because it wasnt constructive criticism, it was literally just me noting that i didn't like something. going to the artist and being like "HEY I DON'T LIKE THIS THING" would have been pretty stupid and pointless, which is why i made a separate post. but fsr this was taken as condemnation of the art/artist or me calling them evil or something?? i dont get why my opinion on it even mattered or why that shit blew up the way it did

and no im not remorseful about what i said, i didnt say anything wrong. my regret is that by posting publicly and having that many people share it, my post got around to the artist as well which i definitely didn't intend. ive since deleted the tweet and spoken to them to apologize and clear up any hard feelings. so yeah lesson learned, if i ever have a thought about anything i should just shut the fuck up or talk about it privately. but for real ....like........... it is Not that serious. i didn't say anything particularly mean or hurtful. there are a ton of ppl who directly messaged and qrt'd the art saying way worse shit than i did so idk why im the one who got dogpiled like that lmao.

i think if i actually said something insulting or genuinely rude id be happy to apologize for it or wouldnt have said it in the first place. but yeah no shit i was being mean to the hundreds of people severely overreacting in my replies lol. i dont think i really owe anyone an explanation either other than the og artist, since they're the one actually affected by the situation, and i've already done that. so im moving on. this is a non-issue

#ectoasks #anon

[whetstonefires]

hey I was the one who asked about ao3 I'm sorry if the question came off as odd, I love your takes on mdzs and was wondering if you ever wrote any fics because you have really great diction on your posts and I thought 'This person could make really great fics' so I thought id ask, that's all

it's fine! lmao it just really looked like i was potentially getting set up for some weird anon hate game.

thank you! and the answer is i do have an AO3--i used to link it here a lot--but it's only got two mdzs fics on it. despite my having struggled to focus on any fandom besides mdzs for like two years.

because what happened when i got stuck in this fandom like a suction cup directly to the brain is, i wound up reading a lot more smut than i usually tolerate, because of the nature of the novel and how their relationships with sex are meaningfully integrated with their characterization and development as people and relative to one another. so a lot of the smut in this fandom has substance in a way i care about.

and my writing always reflects my reading material in a 'ooh i could do that like this' kinda way, so i started generating my own fic concepts with a sex element that i wanted to explore.

and then i got really invested in this new form and its tricks and affordances, so the only fics in this fandom i've actually been finishing are E-rated, because i'm inspired by the learning process.

(also because it turns out this shit is so easy to write, like you can cheap out on so many structural and narrative elements if you put sex in there, i'm so mad about this still. cheap!!!)

and having finished them i want to share, you know?

so i got a different ao3 for that, since mostly i like and write gen stuff, and i didn't wish to subject my existing subscribers to my learning to porn. i'm not sharing it here though, sorry, because everyone i've shared it with (upon request) has been weird about it.

the fic isn't even particularly outre! i'm remixing stuff that's done a lot in the fandom, according to my own artistic sensibilities! i do not know what the Weird is and what private conclusions are being made about me as a person on the basis of my very ace sex pollen remixes and shit. but it makes me anxious so i will Not be doing it anymore.

anyway as a reward or something for the guts to come back with your name out and take another shot and for the compliments <3, which of these not-sexy mdzs fic concepts do you vote i thwack into a postable form over the next month or so, and put on my main?

post-canon wwx gets amnesia back to the yiling laozu in burial mounds era and his current life explained very badly by lan jingyi, and concludes the lan have coerced him into a very creepy situation

funny wangxian modern au incorporating the height thing i was talking about earlier this week, where the main plot is ripped off from an autobiographical anecdote the singer told at a concert i went to and i was like, this would make a great one of those modern aus people keep writing. oh no now i want to.

time travel fixit outside pov, where wwx and wen ning get physically catapulted back from the qiongqi pass to before the war, and go and intervene just before lotus pier can be destroyed, wearing a mask and spooky cloak so no one will know the yiling laozu is wei wuxian (and a weimao so no one notices the ghost general is wen ning but let's be real that was less likely to happen for several reasons)

thing where the misunderstandings go off in a different direction early on, and wwx thinks lan wangji and mo xuanyu were actually an item and his impersonation has been tragically successful. very funny dramatic irony concept that is in execution going to be like 70% angst. some of it very funny angst though. (this one is the least developed because it doesn't really suggest its own plot.)

find what already exists at Kieron_ODuibhir lmao.

#ask #hoc est meum #appleblondie0397 #fanfic #writing #mdzs #other people can share their opinions as well lol

[eggsmuses-a]

30! And/or maybe 27?

munday talky talk (friday edition) / accepting

30. your choice !

i never thought i'd become selective with certain rpcs or even have trouble with them, yet here we are

i'm not really gonna be (or try not to be) negative or nothing but it genuinely surprises me that i would have problems with a community (especially since i was so convinced rp would be smooth sailing since im pretty casual). that might just be the price that comes with multifandom multis though, you get dirt and problems you otherwise would have never encountered if youd been single JVSJSV

another thing about being multi is that its really upsetting when i am fixated on a specific fandom and its muses and im expected to have high muse for my other fandoms during that fixation (especially request muses). a word of advice: muse does not work that way. i work on what im motivated for, which is why some threads will take a long time to get responses to. which is why i gave precautions on muses that are set to tertiary and request; i cant guarantee they will be active

if people have problems with that, so be it, but id really appreciate if both my confidence and motivation in a portrayal was respected. just something ive noticed in the rpc

im just not gonna give people the time of day if they cant respect i am human and cant operate to the same standard all day every day and not equally to all my characters

27. an old muse

i miss my first rp blog a lot if i havent made it clear LMAO

fn.af rpc era during security breach was fun, and i enjoyed portraying roxy a lot but the usual story happened. bigger, better blogs that had more detail to how they looked etc and that was it

i left bc it was just too much, especially when i was being shun and treated as lesser for seemingly being behind

id love to write fn.af again, ive been wanting to put michael here on my blog again because he was a muse i was passionate about and wanted to share my interpretation on a lot but theres something thats holding me back, and i just dont wanna go back tbh

i miss the sense of community from the time i wrote roxy and the feeling of the times, but i just dont think i could slot myself back into the rpc again. who knows bc i might make a private mutuals-only blog for old muses id love to write again LMAO but yknow, thats it. will forever love how it was though

#/this turned out a lot more negative than i intended i think oops KGSKSVS #/but yeah just a lil bit of thoughts #askthekirbysquad #( out of eggs ) -- ooc #( eggs benedict ) -- ask #neg // #/sorta not really tho #/at least not traditionally

[the-cabin-complex]

I posted 996 times in 2022

580 posts created (58%)

416 posts reblogged (42%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@the-cabin-complex

@clever-and-unique-name

@themarimosystem

@subsystems

I tagged 945 of my posts in 2022

Only 5% of my posts had no tags

#tony’s tag - 171 posts

#esrah’s tag - 139 posts

#jon’s tag - 97 posts

#cabin complex talks - 68 posts

#martin’s tag - 68 posts

#banner’s tag - 62 posts

#cabin complex art - 56 posts

#crowley’s tag - 53 posts

#osdd - 53 posts

#ari’s tag - 48 posts

Longest Tag: 135 characters

#literally i was like “wtf you’re putting my diary under the projector??” and he was just like “hmmm “clean as a whistle”… that’s cheesy

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Another positive introject meme

[ID: epic handshake meme. The shared space below the people’s hands before they connect is labeled: Introjects who were enemies/against each other in their sources but are now on good terms and value the bond they have. /End ID]

96 notes - Posted January 12, 2022

#4

[ID: expanding brain meme. The first blank panel says: figuring out what gender you are in the mornin. The second blank panel says: figuring out what combination of pronouns you want to use in the morning, regardless of gender. The thirds blank panel says: figuring out who you are in the morning. /End ID]

This meme is brought to you by the day-specific multiple pronoun users in this system who get blurry in the morning

107 notes - Posted January 8, 2022

#3

Yes this is based on someone else’s post, and yes Esrah really has used this excuse before. No one knows why they seem to have made so many friends over quarantine lmao

[ID: a picture of Esrah at a table, talking with someone. They are wearing a mask, glasses, an unbuttoned shirt with a pronoun pin, and a plain shirt underneath. There is a cup to one side of them. They are motioning and saying to someone: Yeah that actually reminds me, one of my friends— Beside the speech bubble is a fainter thought bubble reading: They don’t know my friend is a traumatized millennial living in my brain. /End ID]

112 notes - Posted February 2, 2022

#2

[ID: the “You wouldn’t download a car” meme edited to say: “You wouldn’t tag an unrelated Moon Knight post with “DID.” Below it, in smaller text is written: No seriously I’m this close to blocking the Moon Knight tag unless I’m looking for Moon Knight stuff, because I keep seeing y’all’s unrelated fandom posts when I’m looking for posts from the DID/OSDD community, or about DID/OSDD specifically. Try not to tag fandom posts with the names of disorders unless it’s actually relevant to do so. (like, I’d hope you wouldn’t tag every post about a depressed character with #depression. Don’t do that for this either). /End ID]

218 notes - Posted April 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Going from “I don’t deserve this love/care” to “I don’t care if I don’t deserve this love/care, I’m accepting it anyway since it’s freely given” as a step in undoing self-esteem issues is something I don’t see that much, but I think it’s a really powerful thing

265 notes - Posted June 5, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#long post #cabin complex talks #thanks for the year everyone! :) it’s not over yet but we enjoyed it

[cobrrastyle]

It's not a request, I just came to tell you that I love your headcanons! <33 It's great to see something about Billy again after so long.

Honestly, if I have to say anything, it's that Dtmg was a series that had the potential for a good plot! The writers had the opportunity to give us a mystery and clues about the world of ghosts and what could have happened to Billy, but they only gave us chapters with absurd plots that only entertain thanks to Billy's charming and narcissistic personality. I know this series has been canceled for years now... but it still leaves me unsatisfied, I need answers but I only end up getting more unresolved questions :/

Anyway, it was just a simple opinion that I wanted to express since I agree with you on many things about this show (The amount of theories and headcanons I have about Billy and his family is starting to worry me...)

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Pd: Sorry for the bad English I still have a lot to learn x((

EEEEEEEEEE i just happy stimmed, thank you so much!! it makes me very happy to hear that someone enjoys reading my stuff! tbh i was very surprised to see that there was rarely any billy content (or any other dtmg content for that matter) being made within the fandom—save for a few accounts out there 😭 i rly hope fans can start talking abt dtmg again!!

and omgggg yes!! dtmg had such a good premise and yet the writers did absolutely nothing with it! and i just—?? how could they let this happen!? there's so much to discuss and explore surrounding the very core of the show and its baffling how much of it they just swept under the rug! ive got so many questions about billy's past, spencer's life before moving in to the mansion with his fam, what it truly means to 'die' in the world of dtmg, the dealio with madame x—and we can only assume! i love dtmg, but it's frustrating to see something with so much potential just burn to the ground, i. am. CRUSHED.

AHHHH LMAO I CACKLED, SAME HERE!! ive got a ton load of thoughts, theories and hcs for the show too 😭😭 i even thought abt altering canon (CRYING. IM WAY TOO IN DEEP). i'll be sure to make future posts abt em! i'll go insane if i don't 💀 and oh!! id really love to hear more about your theories and hcs! pls, if you're comfortable, feel free to message me or continue sending em in forms of asks! i really gotta thank you for sharing your thoughts, this was amazing!!

note: you don't gotta apologize for a language barrier here. you're trying your best and as far as i can tell, your english is far better than most who have it as their first language, you're doing great! ♡

#dtmg #bjc #billy joe cobra #dude thats my ghost

[juneviews]

youtube anon here!! omg thank you!! sorry im so late with this i was busy bc deepavali + wanted to make sure id thought of everything to ask ahsjdjdkf and ofc if you decide not to reply to this i understand as well, so really no pressure at all, okay? 😊 what software do you use to edit your videos? what made you decide to start making videos? do your videos get taken down bc of copyright? how do you deal if/when that happens? what are some of your favourite kinds of videos to make, and why? how long do you usually spend on a video (idea conception, filming, editing etc)? and since i know you from this blog, even before you started making videos: do you have any advice about putting out content in fandom? bc you make gifs + write + make videos and like. idk im just wondering if you ever feel shy about posting? (not that you should bc for real everything you put out is great- including all the off pictures you keep posting… thank you for that btw i dont have social media so thats the only way i get to see his beautiful face) i guess it sounds stupid but IM really really shy and the thought of putting anything out there for anyone at all to see makes me want to hide forever sdjfhskjg but like. i kinda want to make video edits too. mostly for myself as like a visual journal thing? like its a personal project. but i thought okay since im putting in so much effort why not share it with other people too? and id love if people discovered new music + shows bc of me yknow? but yeah anyway like. how do you deal with it if you ever feel that way? thats all i can think of for now, wow this got LONG. i hope its not too much rip. and again thank you for letting me ask you these questions ❤️

hi, OOF you really had QUESTIONS lmaooooo

I use the free software shortcut to edit my videos. I hate it & it's very slow which makes my already least favorite part of the video making, editing, even worse (:

I decided to start making videos bc 1) I saw a gap in the youtube market where people who talked about bl either did reactions or short analyses without showing their faces. 2) there were many topics that were easier to tackle in a longer video than a blog post. 3) if I were to be able to make a living off of youtube (which will not happen but wish I had known that then lol) it would solve most of my problems & allow me to combine pretty much all of my interests at once.

my videos ABSOLUTELY get taken down bc of copyright, if you look through my community page I've talked about that many times.

when that happens, I always appeal but most of the time it doesn't work, which means I spent 30+ hours MINIMUM on something that will never see the light of day (: it's in big part why I'm switching to thailand focused content instead of thai series content tbh, it was very heavy on my mental health for a hobby that takes so many hours out of me every week. not worth it.

my favorite kinds of videos to film are definitely my ranking ones or reaction ones bc they demand very little preparation & scripting and are just about me rambling for 2 hours, but my ranking ones take FOREVER to edit so on that part any non scripted video is the worst haha

the time spent on a video really depends, but usually the writing of a video takes me between 3 to 6 hours, the filming takes me 2 hours & the editing takes me a good 20 hours (funny bc I hate editing so much lmaooooo.) but some videos have only taken me 10 hours (short reactions), while others have taken me well above 50 (longer commentary ones.)

about putting out content in fandom, you're right in saying that I've basically done every kind of content LMAO. honestly the faceless one like giffing, writing fics, making fanvids, etc. is easy? like it needs to come from a drive of wanting to do it but bc your personal image isn't really attached to it, I feel like the trial & error is easier? if you wanna stop tomorrow no one will really care? but when I started making videos that demand significantly more time & that have my face clearly attached to it, that's when the doubts started creeping in. I never feel shy bc I just haven't been shy in a while, but I do feel ashamed to talk to irl people about my videos bc they aren't successful & I've invested over 2 years of my life in them so it's just kinda pathetic LMAO. but about you being shy, you can focus on the fact that it's the internet? like if you really don't want anyone to know it's your fanvids, create a new username & post them under it, bc then literally NO ONE will know it's you. to be honest it's taken me years but I've gotten rid of the notion of "cringe" and "embarrassment" out of my vocabulary. just do what makes you happy bc people will hate on you no matter what. I just know I personally want to live my life authentically & not filter it just so MAYBE I'm not as hated. so yeah, I hope you DO get to create the fanvids you want & good luck with that! thanks for the support as well, it means a lot <3

xxx

#answers #video making #those were really good questions #you should've been there for my q&a haha

[zimithrus1]

Uhhhh lets do 3, 74, and 75 <3 (always other's id liek to see but like lmao)

3. Do you share your fic ideas or do you keep them to yourself?

This one is quite a toss-up for me lol! Generally they stay tucked away in my head just for me as sometimes I feel like if I were to share them or ask about them it would be annoying 😅 But when chatting with my irl and my online besties about my ideas they usually hype me up to do the ideas in the first place, which is how a lot of my fics actually come out XD So, both? 😂

74. Do you have a fic you wish you got more love?

Ohh man, to be honest that'd be either of the two Hades fics I wrote; Spilt Ichor and On the Beat of Butterfly Wings. I know it's writing for a fandom that isn't 7 and I'm practically an unheard-of writer in there, and it's not the hit or kudos count that makes me feel a little downcast, but I feel like it didn't get much interaction lol! I love comments - they're my favorite form of interaction, the community, you know? Feels disheartening a bit when you spend a long time writing something and only have 1 or 2 people say what they thought. Especially in a brand-new fandom. I try not to let that get to me, that my writing is good and valid even if there's not a lot of interaction, but it can still be a struggle sometimes 😔 I do think that's something we all struggle with though - interaction with what we create, and we always want our creations to be noticed, loved, and well-received. I just hope mine doesn't come off as whiny and ungrateful ahaha 😅

75. Is there a particular fic that readers gravitated towards that you didn't expect?

Yes! That'd be Discipline, a heheh, pretty explicit A/B/O clack fic of mine I wrote like 4 years ago lol Like it was my first time writing that trope and I was mainly just throwing things in there I thought would fit the genre. It was for clackweek and shippy so maybe that had something to do with it (but thb ship-focus fics tend to get more interaction than gen fics - at least in my experience 😅). And checking it for fun to re-read it the other day I got jaw-dropped at the amount of interaction with it. I was like "Holy shit you people are naughty, you liked this that much!!?" 😂⬅ (is also naughty cause I wrote the thing lol)

But yeah! Those are my spiels! Thanks so much for the ask~ I had a ton of fun answering them! 💚💚

#writing ask game #fic ask game #zimianswerz #again thank you I love doing these little things XD #Makes me feel a little closer to the wonderful people in this community 💚

[trashlie]

Hi!! No!! I have to thank you for taking the time to write out your response to my question I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE WORD OF IT 😭😭💗 honestly so grateful for your elaboration on all ur thoughts because it appeased my impatience to return back to the present of Nol & Shinae and literally the longer the ask got the more happier I was i mean SERIOUSLY i've been purging and indulging in all your ILY analyses because they're all so so good and well-written and it gives me the same feels of screaming into my pillow late at night like when Quim drops a tense scene on us SO THANK YOU and whatever you predicted thats honestly 10000% what I want to happen now and nothing else because it sounds so perfectttt ♡n♡ argghhh I'm a big fan T–T 🌟💖

AAAAHHHHHHHHHH nonny I cannot overstate how special this message is and how much it means to me! I was online when you sent it but I wanted to let it sit there so I could soak up all the good feelings from it, huhuhu!

When I first started to shout into the void about ILY on tumblr, it was because I felt like MAYBE I was an annoying presence over on reddit lol and frankly I didn't think I'd have a lot of engagement on here? I know sometimes I have less popular takes on things or I don't regard certain characters the way others do, and I was fine with that! I was happy if anyone would read my takes and reconsider their stances! But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hoping for engagement - that's what's so fun about this story to me, being able to share my thoughts and theories and play off of other peoples' ideas. Sometimes I'll have a vague thought or ide, or I forget a detail, and someone else reminds me of something or builds on it and suddenly I have this whole new thought train! There's so much depth and layers to ILY and it's soooo fun to just.... really analyze all the details. Obviously it helps that we have a writer who takes great care in the details she uses!

But at the end of the day, I just! Enjoy engaging with people! There's something SO... idk... validating? about knowing there are people who enjoy reading my lengthy responses, that there are people who enjoy my takes and wait for me to deliver them? I'm trying to figure out how to say this without sounding like I have a big head lmaooo it just feels so comforting that the energy I spend on my lengthy responses or thoughts is met favorably, you know? I don't pretend that I'm the best at analyzing anything - there are better people to go to if you want a deeper understanding of color theory or uses of art in the story and stuff like that - but yeah, there's some kind of reassurance that hey, I have some fun takes lol

But god to compare my gushing and thoughts to quim dropping a really good, tension-laden episode is AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH peak compliment, how do you ever top that ahhahahahha! I think, and maybe this is very weird to say about myself lmao but I think I am a person who really gives off a lot of passion when I feel strongly about something and it translates into what I write and talk about. Everything I write about over here is due to my immense love for the story and the characters, so even if I'm talking about characters fandom doesn't like, maybe my passion is what sells some of my ideas? Hahaha.

Thank you so much for appreciating my posts and for taking the time to share such kind words with me! As much as I was prepared to just shout into the void so that I had a record of my ideas and how they change as the story develops, it's certainly very gratifying to know that my words do not, in fact, go into the void. I get really excited when people tell me that I've changed how they think about this character, or how I've changed how they thought about a certain event! As readers we will always be subject to our own biases, to what we know and have experienced, so the best sum of the fandom experience is being able to share a take that maybe you or I haven't yet thought of, that hasn't yet occurred to us because of the limitations of our own bias.

But yes, gosh I also hope at least PART of what I'm hoping for comes true, aaaaaaahhhhhhh! I'm very eager to see where Nol and Shinae's friendship is going to go, and how Dieter and Soushi will feel, and how everything will evolve in time!

#i don't actually know how to tag this! it's not really ily brainrot is it lol #Ask #sweet sweet words from a sweet sweet anon

[simeonscloak]

So i just got my second dose of the vaccine and suffered a bad case of the chills as i went to sleep and while my dreams were about the om boys taking turns taking care of me (wow the mc dream), i remember i literally had to do signs of the cross in the air every few turns to be like, "hey, no actual demons come get me ya hear?"

Lmaoooooo being raised catholic amirite

#lmao just something i thought id share with the fandom #obey me #shall we date obey me #obey me shall we date #my life ramblings #when i tell yall simeon and mammon were so warm ugh i was in heaven (pun intended) #if only i wasn't waking up EVERY FIVE MINUTES #it's currently like 3:50 am lmao rip my chills are gone at least

[inkykeiji]

I'm the age gap anon. Just.. thank you so fucking much. That's all i can say. Thank you Clari. it means so much to me, to us both really. i just couldn't help doubting everything and myself since so many of the people i consider important seem to be against me and my boyfriend. We're considering moving for work since the first lockdown because it's very tough where we are to work from home. I didn't want to move because I didn't want them to feel like they won or something but now i see that it really doesnt matter. We'll try to look into buying a house if we can in his city or maybe in my dad's homecity which is ridiculously far but oh well. Can i ask what your favourite flower or plant is? Preferably something that can be potted. I got into gardening and general florist things during the lockdowns so id like to get your favorite one and name it after you. it may seem silly but I don't have many people close to me anymore even if we dont personaly know each other. Sorry if this sounds creepy btw, i know it's a weird habit to have. I have my boyfriend's fav succulent plant named after him and my dad. So yes again thank you so much clari. Everyone who gets to know you is lucky and blessed. you are an inspiration to me seriously. Thank you. and please never stop writing even if it isn't something related to bnha or another fandom. Your works are truly gifts to so many of us. I've been reading the latest touya nii fic over and over to feel comforted and calm whenever my man has to work since he can't take breaks (which is very stupid but his boss is a jerk) and it's my absolute favorite now. Please write more touya nii if you feel like it of course (:

And to the anon with the awful first time experience and the shitty bf.. you do deserve better and i hope you won't feel overwhelmed by us. thank you for sharing these worries and thoughts with us. you deserve only the best and that guy is certainly not even good enough for you. Stay safe and keep going, you're really strong even if you might not think so (:

hi sweetpea!! <33

aw luv i'm so so SO glad to hear it helped!!! i received this message while i was on my run yesterday and it literally made me tear up!! hahaha <3 that's understandable :( but you're 100% right!!! it DOESN'T matter!! all that matters is that you are both happy, safe, and comfortable <3

OH MY GOSH IT ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT SOUND CREEPY AT ALL OH MY GOSHHH I'M LITERALLY GOING TO CRY AGAIN HAHAHAHA please you're so sweet!!! and i think that naming plants after people you consider important is super super cute!! i do that with stuffed animals LMAO hmmm, my favourite plant...... ah that's so tough!!! i'm not huge into gardening or flowers or plants aside from like,, vegetable gardening hehehe so i had to look some stuff up!! i think number 11 (purple beauty!) on this list is so so sooooo pretty!! but i also think it would be super cute n cool if you picked one out for me!! so really it's totally up to you!! <3 i am honoured to share a name with one of your plant babies!! <33

aw bb you're welcome, and thank you so much for your incredibly kind words!!! they mean very much to me <3 i plan to write for as long as i live!! hehehe <333 it's such a special and important passion of mine, so!! rest assured, i will never stop writing <3 i'm super happy to hear that you're liking my newest touya-nii piece and that you're finding comfort in it!!! <3 and i plan to!!! don't you worry!! <33 i have about a billion things planned for touya-nii, but in december i'll have a lil fluffy smut piece coming out for him <3 so i hope you enjoy that as well!!

i love u so much anon and i'm literally overjoyed to hear that you're feeling better. thank you for your beautiful support for our fellow anon that's going through such a rough time!!! i think that's so sweet, and i really appreciate you expressing your love and concern for them as well <33

#stay safe anon bb!!!! #just aaaah so HAPPY i was able to help alleviate that anxiety a little <3 #sometimes i think it helps to get the opinion from someone who's completely on the outside you know??? #because sometimes they have a different insight that maybe you can't see becuase you're so entrenched in the situation etc #it can be helpful to get advice and opinions from different points of view!! #tbh that's why i'd love to start my lil monthly sleepover thing aaaah 🥺 #maybe in december or the new year eeeeeee #i'm so busy rn HAHA #anyway anyway i love u lots!!!!! #i hope today went well for you and i am always sending u health n happiness <3 #inky.bb #clari gets mail

[literaphobe]

that sounds like fanfic material, id like to see it pls 👀👀

oh it’s 3am so why not. here’s the (short) story of the first girl who ever told me she liked me. i don’t like her anymore now but i suppose i do look back fondly on select few moments. uh. i quite frankly must have repressed some of what i should remember and maybe i’ll remember it one day but hopefully none of it is too important

we met on tumblr through a shared fandom (surprise surprise) and we became friends! she liked a fic i wrote n i think i told her a lot about it in the planning stages n she was good at hyping me up i suppose?

we got closer through...... idk. i’m pretty sure it was because she got a crush on her best friend (same fandom, whether they’re BEST friends is debatable but this is what she called her at the time) and im like some fucking matchmaker i guess i wanna idk help people get it all the time n i was like oh she PROBABLY likes u back :) u definitely have a chance :) but also there was a possibility she was straight (this girl actually came out to everyone as bi like a year or two later so LMAO)

anyway! idk how but! things started to get flirty? i think? i genuinely cannot remember how or what the fuck i was saying to this girl or what she was saying to me. BRO I WAS TRYNA HELP HER GET W ANOTHER GIRL. the pivotal moment in this story is when i was going on a cruise. this was like december 2017 or something i think. people who have been following me for a long time might remember this. i think my followers might have shipped us a bit or something or asked us if we were dating? i can’t remember much about that

so i was supposed to go on a cruise and there is no mobile data on cruises. i told her i might have to not talk to her for 5 days and i think she was very sad. but when i was getting on the boat i found out u could buy WiFi for the whole time. AND i realized i was able to directly charge it to the room without having to pay for it myself. and there’s no way i could’ve paid for it myself because i was 18 then and still like. had zero financial control over my life n was still using a phone w restrictions n all that

i knew.... my mom would get mad if she found out i bought WiFi,,,, but also,,,,, i didn’t want to go offline for 5 days and i DEFINITELY did not want to stop talking to HER. so i asked her “should i go for it and buy the WiFi” and she said. “please do it i can’t breathe without you baby” and uh. idk how accurate i was for the first half but im PRETTY sure im right about the second. i think i will always remember it because no one had ever said something like that to me before

AND I. STRAIGHT UP DIDN’T KNOW SHE LIKED ME. I WAS LIKE. DEEPLY AFFECTED BY IT. IM P SURE I WAS. I CAN’T REMEMBER IF I KNEW I LIKED HER THEN YET OR NOT BUT IM P SURE I DID. AND YES I REALIZE HOW DUMB IT IS TO THINK. DAMN I WISH SHE LIKED ME /SAD FACE/ AFTER HEARING SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I CAN’T SAY I’VE CHANGED. I’VE ACCEPTED THAT IM P OBLIVIOUS N ALSO THAT I HAVE SEVERE ESTEEM ISSUES I GUESS

anyway uh. don’t really remember much else. i know we talked and flirted a lot n she sent me really pretty pictures of her. OH and during this i was texting her best friend a substantial amount because i STILL thought i was fucking helping her get with her. BUT what i DIDN’T KNOW. was that she was now texting her best friend to GUSH about ME and her best friend was helping HER deal w her feelings for ME

like wtf that’s so crazy what did i even do. anyway she kind of admitted she liked me. during this cruise trip. i can’t fully remember how. i think maybe she said it randomly like ‘u know i like you right’ or some shit like that and i was probably like OH GOD ME TOO. because. i would never tell someone i liked them unless they said they liked me first. again yes that’s one of the reasons why i’ve never officially been in a relationship. also my mom did find out i bought wifi! and she did get mad. but then she got over it and we shared the WiFi. sorry for typing so much this objectively isn’t even a long story i just go on for days

#ask #i hope this was entertaining #i overshare so much it’s the adhd #and also i am very bored #eh whatever #anyway #i got two more asks about this #who wants more stories from my terrible lousy weirdly funny non existent love life past ❤️ #i hope u guys like reading my asks #i know i have really long ones sometimes n i wonder who reads them #if u do. thank u

[ablednt]

OH MY GOD in your text post abt being called problematic as a teenager, I had the same thing happen to me. Everyone complained to a moderator about stuff I did (I'd say the worst of it was constantly forgetting things on the blacklist, but I would always go back and spoil it when reminded and I mostly forgot squicks because i shared triggers with a lot of the people in there) instead of taking it directly to me and when I got removed (in the middle of the night without warning), the mod told me I had to apologize to everyone if I wanted back in. Would not tell me what I had done wrong to who specifically, I was just supposed to remember. And when I asked for their discords the mod wouldnt give them to me because I "might make them uncomfortable". How the FUCK was I supposed to apologize to them???

Anyway. On the list of things I did wrong were two "personal gripes" equating to "you talk too much" and "you manage to throw yourself off track during conversations" and I like... half the people in the gc also did that. It was full of people with ADHD. I gave up lol

NO BUT TALKING TOO MUCH WAS FOR REAL ONE OF THE BIGGEST ISSUES THEY HAD LMFAOOO I was also called annoying for infodumping about the fandom the discord server was dedicated to IN the channels meant for discussing or posting about canon. Like literally just "yes you're in the right channel we just think it's annoying when u post specifically <3"

Anyway the ableism of it all was so bad that I wrote out a google doc for myself with ideas on how to mask what I soon learned was ADHD, autism, and trauma lmao. Here's a fun excerpt

[Image ID: a cropped google document in dark mode with a black background and white text. It reads;

If you’re upset and want to vent, consider going to your vent blog, or going to a more private place! Before venting something ask yourself the following questions: will hearing your upsetedness leave others feeling burdened or guilty? Is this something you can work out on your own? Is this a topic that others can comment on without feeling like they will insult you? If the answer to any of these questions is a negative, then consider venting in another place or directing your energy to another activity! 

Is there something you want validation on? It’s okay to seek validation, but you need to be thoughtful of where, when, and with who! Try to find people who would find enjoyment in whatever it is you created, or who share similar experiences! If you still can’t think of anything, it’s okay to try and validate it yourself! You need to work on loving yourself, instead of making others feel responsible!

Instead of thinking the worst of yourself (and by extension people’s treatment or opinions of you) try and think of something positive! Instead of brooding over something you dislike about someone, try complimenting them on something you do like! If you feel uncomfortable with this, you can always send them a nice anon if you know their blog.

End ID]

Like I really thought this was the epitome of health and not toxic positivity at all and on one hand it's sad because I was a kid just literally being abused and gaslit at this point on the other hand it's so fucking funny.

#ask to tag #a lot of it was just so fucking weird too like #they were all 'if u don't talk for a while you can stay in the server unless the secret person in here disapproves of you' #'then you're out' and I was so lost in the abused kid sauce I never asked if that was a joke or there was someone in here deciding my fate #or not in secret lmfao #also one huge gripe they had was I was roleplaying a kid (our syskid but i didnt know that yet) and she was an abuse survivor bc [gestures #to me being a whole abuse survivor coping through media lmao] and like whilst theres been a lot of very valid criticsms over the unnecessary #amount of things i put her through cause i was unfortunately in the wh*mp community at the time #by this point she was literally just vibing and recovering and stuff like it was all cute found family content #but they were like 😭 i know children irl. i even have children in my family knowing child abuse exists is so hard on me emotionally #please note they made jokes about child abuse on multiple occasions and were also pr0ship like lmao what #their other problem was 'when our characters are mean to her she gets sad and it makes us feel guilty' like??? ok????? the point of roleplay #is to give a genuine reaction this is a you problem lmfao??????? it was all so wild

[yeoldontknow]

❧ check in tag

tagged by the sweetest angel @propinqxity to do this little tag. this is such a cute list of questions, and some of these i dont think ive been asked before. thank you so much for the tag and the tumblr crush mention lovely. you truly are a bright spot on this website and i mean that sincerely <333

going under a cut because im certain i will ramble ~

1. Why did you choose this url?

its sort of like a pun between yall dont know and the fact that, hopefully, sincerely, chanyeol does not in fact know that i run this blog lmao i changed to this after a long time of being bread-jinie and i wanted to rebrand. i will, however, do my best to never change URLs again because the masterlist switch over was a complete hassle

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them

i have a fic recs blog called @yeoldontknowiread. as to why i have it, i know it hasnt been updated in ages since ive been kind of on hiatus, but i think reading and sharing work on this platform is immensely important. i actually read quite a lot of fanfiction, and i try my best to share the things i read. im very very behind on recs at the moment cause i try my best to write something substantial for every recommendation i make. as a writer, i know exactly the kinds of thoughts and feedback on fics that make my heart soar so i try to put in the same energy to my recs. community is only fostered when there is reciprocation

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

hmmm since april 2017. i actually had my 4 year anniversary this year and i did have plans for things but i got roped into real life things and couldnt celebrate the way i truly wanted to :(

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no but sometimes i think i should. i view tags as a library on top of my knee jerk response to things. most of my tags are just my initial thoughts or feelings at any given moment, so those take precedence over a specific queue tag

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

when i was getting into exo, i was reading fanfiction like crazy. i used to write fanfic quite a lot in other fandoms, but at that time i hadnt written anything in about 2.5 years. exo was the first re-introduction to that feeling of excitement and inspiration. after about 3 weeks of straight reading, i decided i wanted to write again. i wrote the prologue to hero in about two hours and tried logging into AO3 to post it. sadly i forgot all of my log in information because it had been years, and was getting frustrated. i really wanted to put it somewhere out of fear that id lose interest if i didnt do something with it, and everything id read had been on tumblr. so i made a tumblr just to put hero lmao i didnt have any mutuals. it was a blog with straight 0. i hadnt even created an account to interact with writers before that moment, i really thought id be a silent reader forever. but exo woke me back up and for that i am eternally grateful.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

the yours music video is...so stunning? like the colour theory throughout the whole thing is truly so inspiring and gorgeous. and this shot of chanyeol looking at the painting took my breath away, truly. tulips and the color of peach, like do you know how evocative that is? ugh

7. Why did you choose your header

my header was made by @jamaisjoons for my birthday this year because shes literally the most talented person when it comes to graphics. and this was so kind of her to do, i cried a lot

8. What's your post with the most notes?

uhm....either the body through time or truth i cant remember which but i checked recently and its one of those

9. How many mutuals do you have?

honestly at this point im not even sure. i know ive lost a bunch while i was on hiatus because i was basically a dead blog, and some people do dash cleanses. and im certain others have left, too, for their own reasons. still, i have a good core of friends though who are active and that is enough for me

10. How many followers do you have?

more than i probably deserve

11. How many people do you follow?

399

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhm i guess? there was a time when nng was not updated and every wednesday id post the days go by music video in sadness and grief but im not a big shitposter. if i make a text post its usually a life update or me crying about chanyeol, theres no inbetween lmao

13. How often do you use Tumblr every day?

tbh i havent used tumblr that often, not since march i think. i used to use it many times a day, checking in on friends and stuff, but once i started focusing on my phd applications i was only here sporadically. i didnt make an announcement either, just let my blog run on queue so i wasnt totally gone. i think i was checking in twice a week or maybe once every two weeks to refill my queue and check mentions etc. but now that my interviews are done im trying to get back on here daily to reconnect

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

ive had my share of disagreements with people and any details about those situations shall remain as they are meant to: private

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

in what context? like, you need to reblog this or your wish wont come true? or like, please reblog this to spread the word/spread awareness, etc? in the case for the former, i scroll right by. in the case of the latter, if im around and see someone raising a go fund me or some major event is occurring and i find a post with good sources or charities i will reblog. mostly though, the full extent my activism isnt really on this blog. its my escape from reality. my activism is usually placed on other platforms.

16. Do you like tag games?

i doooo!!! theyre so fun i love learning about my friends

17. do you like ask games?

i love those too! theyre so cute and usually a nice way to have interaction immediacy with people in the community

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

no one. can we please abandon this notion of fame on tumblr? arent we all here to write about some dick and some smut and some fluff and then hang out together and log off? lmao tumblr isnt reality and followers/fame is so arbitrary on this platform, no one has any control over any of it

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in love with so many people here. let me name a few:

@yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @inkedtae @kookdiaries @yoonia @dulcetvk @kithtaehyung @imdifferentshadesofpurple @ditzymax @sugaurora @sahmbtsficrecs @junghelioseok @yeojaa @augustbutwinter @joonscore @btssavedmylifeblr @cutechim @sunshinekims @kimtaehyunq @ouvuo @delhyun @exo-stentialism @sooibian @softyoongiionly @jinseunie @zibermuda @bratkook @1kook @luffles424 @xjoonchildx

and so many other people and mutuals that i am certainly forgetting. love is such an expansive feeling, and it encompasses platonic ardor and creative desire. i admire every single person listed for so many different reasons, and cherish and treasure them or what they provide to the community. love is such an important and broad experience. truly, i hope they feel adored every single day x

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