#live your life leave me alone

[kaiidos]

being trans is so funny because you can be the tiniest fucking twink known to man and still have the voice of a 36-year-old radio announcer

#i sound like im about to start a horror podcast #move over nightmind #im coming for your throne #/j obviously #nobody can top our lord and savior #trans #transgender #trans humor #trans man #transmasc #transmasculine #trans ftm #ftm #why are half of these P*RN TAGS #LEAVE ME ALONE #bro im just trying to live my life without being a phub category #voice #trans voice #funny #maybe #maybe funny #its funny to me at least #like #hey simon! come here? #*batman voice from upstairs* #YEAH? #lgbtqia #lgbtq #lgbtq community #lgbtq humor

[areyousanta]

Now I remember why I don't draw in front of my family, I get yelled at for it!

#stfusanta #had to shut down a lecture from my grandmother this morning #she was so disappointed in me for not making art my career #'no i wont accept that its your hobby' #'hobbies aren't real! you need to make it your lifes work' #like damn i just like drawing my little silly blonde men #leave me alone #but seriously #the reason i dont is because drawing is the first thing that gave me pure joy #like i get warm and tingly when a drawing turns out the way i want #or mastering a skill ive been working on #and im not harping on people who do art for a living! i think that shits awesome! #but i just dont want that #some people read a book and get lost in it to have their me time #i draw #my moms the same way #both of them say 'i never had a hobby why do you need one!!' #its not my fault you made you life all about work #my grandmother and my moms siblings shame my sister for her hiking #like they think she is insane and irresponsible for working for a few years to save money #and then quitting for a year to hike the AT CDT etc #because she loves it so much and shes lucky that the company she works for will take her back for her job everytime #cause its kinda niche and shes really good at it #but were shamefull for having a hobby that doesnt really run a profit #shame on us i guess

[bonefall]

Why doesn't Blossom just. leave? Idk if that sounds weird since you have talked about how the clans essentially function like a cult (although this was in reference to starclan), but if Blossom feels so completely isolated and shut off, why not just. Run away.

Blossom literally gets told 'no one cares about you, why not just disappear?", and the clan does NOTHING to say otherwise, and their silence is basically agreement. Suicide tw, to someone who is already at their lowest, or just climbing out of it at least, that line could have horrible implications- you dont matter, just fade away, no one would notice, etc. Idk if that was intended (ashfur seems like the kind of asshole who would intend it but i dont think you intended it), but. yeah its horrible.

Since im believing it wasn't intended, maybe change it? Emptycry could work (instead of 'no one cares, you're a waste of space' its 'your words are empty, be quiet'), or maybe naming her Rottedpetal- the flowers have been shredded, and now they have begun to rot instead of growing anew. Or, if you want to keep the name, Blossom snaps and decides that he's speaking the truth- so she leaves. Maybe she becomes a loner (does the lake territories even HAVE any loners that function similar to Barley, Ravenpaw, Smudge, etc???), or joins another clan (i highly doubt this since the other clan would eventually learn of 'clearface' and start calling her that again, or worse kick her out for breaking the code), OR she becomes a kittypet, completely willing to trade freedom just to be loved.

...forgive me but I feel like a lot of people are missing the point of Dishonor Titles and why and how Ashfur uses them.

Ashfur is picking the cruelest possible names he can think of exactly because he wants the people who oppose him to be broken. He is finding a character's deepest insecurity and putting it on full display, forcing the other cats in the Clan to join in on his mental abuse to set them against each other.

This serves the purpose of showing that Ashfur is even worse than Bramblestar, and that he is very perceptive of people's insecurities.

The cruelty is the point. These titles from the Impostor aren't meant to be petty, they are meant to be gutwrenching.

Why does Blossomfall not leave? Because her entire family is here. Father, siblings, three children, any friendships she's finally started working on. She had to beg to come back in on their grace and she will not get another chance. Random humans aren't an option. It hurts but she eats it, knowing her only options are to take it for the next two weeks or be exiled forever.

If she was going to leave because of the name, then that is something Bramblefake can use as well. "Codebreakers are weak cats. She couldn't handle having her disrespect thrown back at her and cared more about her pride than her Clan. A traitor twice, now a traitor thrice."

But things were just finally starting to get better for her, and she's not willing to leave her entire life behind for the exciting opportunity to... live alone in the woods. Not yet.

She becomes a rebel later, but not yet.

#better bones au #Also she is not suicidal and I never even implied this #I am not fond of how quickly people jump to 'why do they not simply leave everyone and everything behind' #And live in the woods alone?? #Blasting a missile from my blaster: 'THE CODE ALLOWS ABUSIVE LEADERS TO LEVERAGE POWER AGAINST THEIR VICTIMS' #'OPPOSITION TO THE GOVERNMENT IS A MORAL NECESSITY IN TYRANNICAL TIMES' #'AUTHORITARIANS ARE BAD' #Staring at me instead: 'wow! you probably didnt intend for this to be so mean' #I'm going to start a swear jar for 'why don't they just leave' #Jessy COULD leave. She had somewhere to go #Tallstar could have too #The vast majority of the Clan cats don't #They live in a theocracy #And in the cases of Jessie and Tall there is a huge point I'm making about how hard it actually is to leave your life behind #There is something good and worth salvaging in Clan society but its structure leads to tyrants by its very design #And TBC is an arc about addressing that #Bristlefrost gets merc'd early and I did that on purpose to set the tone #That's why I kicked the thing off with something so brutal

[linnea-bowiesversion]

Autism is honestly the best thing this world gave me, but also I fucking hate it and please make it go away.

#like its so good #But also just fuck off please #I’m trynna live my life here and you’re making in unreasonably difficult #I just don’t see your point mate #you just make me find it hard to socialize and make friends and learn about stuff that’s not in my interest FoR fUn??? #i mean cmon #leave me alone #BUT IT NEVER DOES #ITS ALWAYS THERE #LIKE DAMN MATE YOU CAN TAKE 5 #ACTUALLY PLEASE TAKE 5 #actually autistic #autism #relatable #autistic problems #autistic feels #i’m autistic #autistic experiences #love/hate relationship

[junejasprose-addict]

Some fucking ghouls on twitter just misgendered me and called me a chaser and a cross dresser and an agamp because I have an nsfw account where I retweet porn. Why do these kinds of people exist? Why are there trans women that just love acting exactly like terfs? I am so fucking tired of this shit and I'm not out to anyone irl so I have fucking no one to talk to about this! I'm not a docile little house cat so that gives people a free pass to paint me as a predator

#safe to rb #god i want to kill someone #i want to claw my bearded face off #i fucking hate how there is nothing i can do here. nothing i say to these freaks will phase them or make them regret their actions #these fucking bullies #GOD #if you have ever in your entire life called someone an agamp or a passoid or a theyfab or an autogynephile or a luckshit or a transtrender #or any of the other assanign bullshit terms coined by irony poisoned 4channers that passionately hate trans people despite being one #die. rot in hell. block me. go live in the woods alone for 30 years until you learn how to be anything other than a hateful little demon #i am not joking. if you have ever been this kind of person and you are anything other than deeply apologetic and guilt ridden and regretful #then leave me alone. go away you fucking husk of a human #rambles #tw self harm ment #tw suicide ment #ask to tag #btw im not even gonna do the ''oh pwease dont harass these people'' shit if you are able and willing please torment these evil bastards

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Housemate is letting one of her rabbits walk around at night again :/

#girl he's cute but that means i gotta leave the lights on #i can guess she's not asleep because there's light in her room and her smart tv was still pinging my phone with the casting notif #but like. you can let your own pet rabbit wander around the house with your door closed! #he's your bunny! you didn't say anything about it! #not even talking about the risk for the lil guy because this is in spirit a student house #like i'm the only full time student but we're all at that student-ish age and living consequently #by which i mean there's lots of crap on the ground that doesn't get cleaned often #the bunny is not safe walking around. he isn't. also i keep almost tripping on him #and it stresses me the fuck out personally to have to keep the lights turned on all night across the house #just because jasper's out and rabbits don't have night vision and i don't want him to be alone in the dark #but also there are for real screws on the floor of the bathroom just hanging out #like. this is not a house that is safe for rabbits to roam free around. it just isn't #and she's filled the only shelf in the bathroom with more hygiene products than anyone else #and and and and. she's a shit housemate i won't miss her when i leave to go back home #man i can't wait for the day i am not sharing living space with her. i like my other housemates! #mostly because they pick up after themselves #and they're aware that when they make a mess they have to take care of it afterwards #she just kinda does stuff and then doesn't think about it #if she lived on her own i would not give a shit but it's impacting my day-to-day life as well! #ARGH #anyway #wow i have a ramble tag now #england adventures

[bpdohwhatajoy]

My abuser needs to leave me the fuck alone and keep my name out of his UGLY DISGUSTING VILE FUCKING MOUTH that he just uses to hurt people

#ryan.txt #cptsd #ptsd #abusive ex #fucked up people #trauma #traumatized #stop fucking lying about me you’re disgusting #literally like just live your life and fucking leave me alone #you did so much to me just leave me BE #die already why isn’t he fucking dead why can’t he just die

[sigilmint]

at a level of being fat where other people unsolicited will strike up a conversation about their ~weight loss journeys~ and all I have to say in response is "yeah I've actually been working really hard on unlearning all that harmful stuff" and then out come all the excuses for why they 'actually need to' lose weight and the whole time I know that nothing I say is gonna make a dent for them and apparently just existing (eating lunch on my short lunch break, headphones in) is all the free pass they need to include me in their self flagellation. ugh.

#leave me alone I'm deep in unlearning fatphobia and loving myself and i do NOT have time to stabilize your complex emotions around fatness #be fat or don't i don't care don't involve me (but i personally think you should just let yourself be the size you are when you're living #the way you want to live your life)

[hypnofantasma-asks-and-doodles]

Like that you went to your server to whine to people because clearly, people asspatting you on here isn't enough for your fragile ego, huh? Have to leave out the render you did this year that has the specific problem I referred to just to give your argument more footing. Kinda pathetic. I also never misgendered you. I never sent any asks that refer to your gender in any way, but sure, blame me for what other people say to make yourself look better, honey. You're just a skinny person feeling threatened by a fat person's critical stance on how you draw certain "chubby" characters, but sure, cope harder.

ohhh my god stay mad i don't care. either show me what the fuck you're talking about or piss off if you hate me so much lmao. literally who am i hurting by simply existing here. go after Victoria's Secret if you wanna actually do good

#junoposting #i have a feeling i know who this is #it would be GREAT if they would leave me alone #go to school or something. play video games #live your life dude #and leave me alone

[ruralcat]

am i jaded or do men really just fucking suck

#so unbelieveably tired of men claiming their love for me when they do not. even. fucking. know me. #they do not even know me #leave me alone #i hate you #why do the women in their lives need to be their Sunshine or their Soulmate or their Caretaker why cant women just be fucked up gross humans #who probably dont even deserve #.. or want!!! #your attention #women can not exist without them being a character or a doll in a mans life #women can never be individuals #without being lusted or loved after

[gammija]

only tangentially related to this ep, but - i have an Avatar concept around the cold/freezing water/hypothermia and drowning, and Ive discussed before which Fear that would most closely align with. A lot of people said the Buried or the Lonely, maybe the Vast, mixed with Dark.

Water and cold can be hard to categorise, even aside from how the categories are arbitrary lines drawn between fears etc etc. Cause these motifs have shown up with the Vast, Buried and Lonely, and probably others on occasion too.

But I think the cold an sich, and cold water especially, are most closely related to the Dark. Just like how Manuela describes the darkness as not the opposite of light, but the absence of it, the universe's natural state; so too does she talk in today's ep about how cold is not the opposite of warmth, but the lack of it. Cold is stillness, quiet, numbing. Dark.

...and also;

109, Nightfall: "As soon as my foot hit the water, I fell into it completely. It was colder than anything I had ever experienced, and the torch slipped from my hand as my vision immediately went dark."

140, The Movement of the Heavens: "I gripped the head of my foul adversary, and forced it down, into the dark pool before us. There I held it, the water so cold upon my skin the marks have yet to fade."

143 Heart of Darkness: "... I began submerging the first of the sacrifices in the brackish water it had blessed with its stillness."

143 ,, : "There is another world, a world of still and quiet darkness, where no heat touches..."

Other Fears statements occasionally also feature water, sometimes even cold water (though it's always accompanied of a mention of how dark it is, too), but it's not as much of A Thing as with the Dark. And I think it's a cool motif which they should get more credit for!

@a-mag-a-day

#idk if this is even something people disagree about #but i often find i interpret the fears a bit differently than common concencus for some reason /shrug #tma #a mag a day #mag143 #tma s4 #tma theory #the dark #also if you'll permit me a leetle bit of saltiness... its cool how basira is the one saying #'lets just leave this alone and not risk your life' while Jon goes ahead with it of his own accord #come to think of it she also didn't want him to go into the coffin recklessly #almost like... she doesn't actually want him dead or anything like that #at least not before she finds out about the extent of the live statements. i havent relistened to that chunk of eps in a bit #so that'll be a good refresher on what exactly she says and does #but her not being nice to jon is sometimes conflated with her not giving one iota if he lives or dies #and thats just evidently not the case #for the first half of s4

[procrastinationaccount]

I'm going to lose my fucking mind

#For context: I was going to make a post complaining about how lesbians don't have enough good musical theater duets #(like we have the love songs from 'The Color Purple' which're alright but doesn't match the passion or desperation present in the book imo #'Changing My Major' which is a great love song but doesn't hit that sweet duet spot #'Dance With You' and the last verse of 'You Happened' from The Prom are sweet but the girls barely get to actually sing about each other #Honestly 'Oh Well' from Love In Hate Nation comes closest to what I want but it ends on a bittersweet note unless you see the show live #If only Elphaba and Glinda were canon... #But anyway. I can't believe that there's an adaptation of The Color Purple coming in the year of our lord 2023 and this is #how they're talking about Shug Avery. Her *role model*. Lock up your *husbands*. Ick. Pfaff. #I mean they're going to be gay. You can't get around that. But Shug is the love of her life. Can we please talk about that in the character #Don't mind me I'm just over here overreacting #From what I've read one of the biggest adaptational changes in the musical is her reaction to Shug's affair. #Like in the book Shug is the one light in her life. I sobbed myself to sleep over her nosedive in self-worth when they took a break #In the musical she's just...fine with it? I get why that's more satisfying emotionally but I still think it undermines their relationship #I don't get the curse thing either. I'm a little fuzzier on this part but in the book doesn't she just leave him and she's able to thrive? #Then when he asks her to get back together she's able to just know that the worst with Shug or alone is better than the best with him? #This book man. I hate that there isn't an adaptation as devoted to the Celie/Shug relationship as the book is. #Hate that the only recommendation I've seen calling it a sapphic book was from someone who thought that Celie's letters were to her lover #I remember watching this steamy adaptation of a Shakespeare play in soph Eng and seething because they only kiss once in the 1985 movie #Ig I can't expect too much from 1985 but...it was in the book! It was one of the most important parts! They don't even live together in it! #This was all to say I wast a lesbian 'Green Green Dress' a lesbian 'Home' a lesbian 'Natasha & Anatole' a lesbian Legally Blonde finale #The list goes on #I'm sure The Color Purple (2023) will be a good adaptation and movie. I will not pop blood vessels while watching it. #Maybe I should just avoid press releases and the movie will surprise me in a good way.

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just heard someone say that getting married is the hardest thing they've ever done.

I'm sorry but if getting married is the hardest thing you've ever had to do, I don't think I can talk to you. That's fine, that's totally okay if that's hard for you. I just need a long moment of silence for my misjudgment of the average amount of suffering that any given human experiences.

#and obviously theres shit like forced marriage and things #however #if you are choosing who to marry of your own volition. that shit should be easy #i cant even count with all of my fingers and toes the number of things that have been harder for me than getting married #for one. the reason im not yet legally married which is that im disabled and im in a very intenese match of Do I Deserve Rights #with the government #after that weve got recovering from an ed. not sure how im managing that. plus i couldve easily died #you know from malnutrition. not only from me starving myself but also due to severe malnutrition in my entire childhood #due to neglect and abuse. its tge reason i never grew properly. i have a hole in my jaw. its also why my jaw is underdeveloped #ive got severe insomnia and anxiety to the point that i wont sleep for days without strong meds #and cant really leave my house alone #i lived through untreated hypothermia and likely heat stroke as well and those were both MUCH harder than getting married #i experienced child labor and escaped what was probably a cult given that i had to run away to an undisclosed location #cut off contact with everyone i knew from it and remain anonymous #i ran away from home because of the abuse and when the cops were called on me i had to sit thete #with a straight face and listen to social workers and authorities tell me that what i was calling abuse was ok and that i had to go back #i had to fight for an education that i never really got. same for medical care including emergency medical care #anyway point being i will be very relieved to spend the rest of my life with my favorite person after all of that #there are no regrets or uncertainties about that. my life is the best its ever been and she only makes it better

[shieldherostuffs]

The Shield Spirit telepathically sings "Kiss the Girl" from The Little Mermaid when Naofumi is alone with Raphtalia. Partly because the spirit ships them, partly because the reaction Naofumi gives is funny and partly because the song gets stuck in Naofumis head which is hilarious

well the spirit is wrong then

#THIS SOUNDED LESS MEAN IN MY HEAD IM SORRY IF IT WOUNDS MEAN #ask #the rising of the shield hero #rising of the shield hero #naofumi iwatani #some of my few hate ships are naofumi x any of the kids #(this includes raphtalia) #sorry to those who ship it I will leave you alone and let you live your life peacefully just please don't come at me #Like I Always Do: Just don't interact with the things I don't like

[pepprs]

doing really bad in ways i can’t talk about which is making it worse

#just cancelled a meeting so i could cry in the office LMAOOOOOOO 🥰👍 #purrs #the mortifying ordeal of my therapist being on her honeymoon rn 😹😹😹😹😹 #i think i am just a bad person and my needs hurt people who need me. and it’s not fair to them and idont know what to do with that. #i think i may have to move out sooner than i am ready to and not listen to anyone telling me to keep waiting. this is not sustainable. it’s #not sustainable for my family because i hurt them with my needs. and it’s not sustainable for me to be unable to need and get what i need #without hurting them. i think what’s so hard about this is that i have to do it alone and everyone is against me doing it but i have to do #it anyway. i don’t know. i don’t want my sister to see this and get hurt. if you do see this im sorry i can’t be what you need. im sorry my #needs hurt you. but they’re needs. i have to be selfish even though my brain is screaming at me in your voice that i don’t. i just need to #escape it all. i am allowed to need independence and alone time and im sorry i was cruel about asserting it but i need to assert it and no #one at home understands why but I need to. im not talking coherently i just feel so wretched and sick to my stomach with guilt and grief and #frustration and shame and i have to facilitate a huge session in an hour and a half. #delete later #like my friends / mutuals / mentors / etc can tell me until they’re blue in the face that i am not a bad person and i deserve to live an #independent Life etc etc but none of you are actually in my house and you don’t see how it is and how i am the cause of all of it and how im #stuck and making things worse. and i can’t summon my strength or calm down or anything. i don’t know. i have to get ready for the session i #just can’t even think straight. my family is right and i am also right and i can’t assert my rightness over theirs. so im stuck forever. #if i could i would leave work early and go home but there’s no one to take me home and home is actually the worst possible place to be #right now LOLLLLL. i just need to curl into a bed and cry. also im about to get my period so thats probably why im like this lol

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes