#literally......they just did it again ........

[mumblesplash]

in honor of last season’s poem being called “”end poem”” (all quotes mandatory) this season i made one out of pieces of the actual end poem

#letting me just download the minecraft font? for free? a mistake #if you or a loved one have been suffering from RED TEXT you may be entitled to compensation #my art #god at this point i really do need a writing tag don’t i #<- will continue not addressing this #secret life #goodtimeswithscar #grian #secret life spoilers #sorry tumblr user livvi3love for not making one with all the deaths again #if you (or anyone) did want to illustrate this one as well you’re more than welcome to but i am not expecting anything #i can do an explainer thing again like i did last time but that is for tomorrow #right now i am just. very tired #but for now i will confirm yes the colors Matter #i literally made this on accident against my will #i was trying to DRAW

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

#nosebleed club #sorry stephen not ur fault #just like. thinking #writeblr #spilled ink #warm up #every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u #im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn #so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it #or you're going to BE mean #or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again? #and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u #lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner #literally changed the shape of my life

[girl-bateman]

I guess that this is as good of a time as any to remind people that WRITERS MAKE THE STORY!!!! I cannot count how many times I see posts praising tv directors for things that are simply not their doing. That iconic line of dialogue? Yeah a screenwriter wrote that. The characters you love? Screenwriter. The places, the plot lines, the developments? Writers.

A show CANNOT happen without a script because a script is necessary for EVERYONE to do their job right. It dictates what set to look for/create, the filming schedule, the casting calls, the costumes and so on. It's not just words on a paper, its the backbone for all of production and it deserves to get recognised as the integral part of tv and film as it is.

#i dont want to take away the praise for directiors and actors #i just dont want it to be misplaced praise screenwriters as it so often is #i cannot count the times ive seen posts like (x-director) did it again aaaaah i cant believe this #when they're not even the director for that particular episode #and a writer literally wrote the script theyre referring to #im starting to think you guys have no idea how the creative roles behind the scenes work 🥲 #wga strike #wga #writers guild of america #writers guild strike #wga strong

[romanovanatalia]

"There is no greater love than to give one's life for friends."

SOCIETY OF THE SNOW (2023) dir. J. A. Bayona

#society of the snow #filmgifs #filmedit #moviegifs #fyeahmovies #tvfilmsource #cinemapix #dailyflicks #dailyfilmsource #filmtvtoday #filmtv #mine #* #i literally won't shut up about this film #as an argentinian i've known the tragedy or miracle of the andes since i was a little child #i read alive! when i was about 7 yo watched the film and then read nando parrado's book when i was 10 yo #and this is the first time i've seen it perfectly capturates what they went through; it's the first time a film about the andes has a soul #it's just so masterfully done #congrats bayona he did it again

[thepiratearcinhamlet]

Dazai: let's make a new strategy called "GOODBYE" where you shoot me several times in non lethal areas, and then pretend to shoot me in the head, but use your gravity powers to slow the speed of the bullet so it stops right when it touches my skull so I can dramatically pretend to die, but I'm not actually dead. :3

Chuuya:

Dazai:

Chuuya: hell yeah

#literally how did they plan this #they had to PRACTICE THIS #chuuya and dazai are insane #HOW DO YOU EVEN PRACTICE THAT?! #the real reason Dazai's bandages get all bloody any time something touches his head when he's in the Port Mafia #just practiced “GOODBYE” and got shot in the head again hehe :3 #dazai osamu #bungo stray dogs #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd season 5 #bsd s5 spoilers #bsd s5 ep11 #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #double black

[magnus-rhymes-with-swagness]

running around in circles. nimona and ballister. do you get it. she wakes up from a nightmare and immediately calms down when he comforts her because she trusts him. he quite literally jumps off a balcony because he knows she’ll catch him. she tells him what shapeshifting feels like. lets him bandage her leg. he’s absolutely overjoyed when he sees her again at the end. he goes from rejecting her to accepting her to begging her to come back to rejoicing when she does. not only does she come back to life but she comes back to HIM. to her HOME. SHE FINDS HIM AGAIN IN ANOTHER LIFETIME. SHE GOES BACK TO HIM ON PURPOSE. DO YOU GET IT.

#nimona #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #nimona movie #nimona netflix #nimona 2023 #nd stevenson #my words #CHEWING ON PLYWOOD #sorry i’m incapable of talking about nimona in my inside voice it will happen again #all she ever wanted was a home and a friend and he was just that 😭😭😭 #they trust each other so much…… #i like the book ending too but the movie ending is just so much more soft and forgiving #how could anyone say it was anti-climactic there was literally adrenaline pumping through my body #heart pounding edge of my seat every nerve set ablaze barely keeping it together #anyway nimona clearly Did Something to my brain lmao #go read it and then watch it you won’t regret it!!!!!!!!!! #this is scheduled btw (i Think i have the best posting times for this fandom figured out) #nimona spoilers

[worstlovesong]

I am feeling totally normal about this

#golden retriever mascs who play guitar ruining my life yet again <3 #I just want to say I’ve seen this from another angle and juliens leg placement… I’m going feral #this and the Jo/Lucy kiss were literally insane #how did anyone who saw them live recently survive silk or salt tbh #Muna #josette maskin #boygenius #julien baker #munagenius #queue are the sunshine of my life

[disappeareddraws]

(text post source)

just a regular convo on the battle subway

#submas #nimbasa trio #ingo #elesa #emmet #pokemon #fanart #draws #i did not think my first post in ages would be submas again i literally only just got the brainworms again while replaying bw/bw2 #like i had a whole ass persona 5 fixation and just. didnt post abt it #bc work has been eating a lot of my creative energy #anyway this shitpost has been crawling around in my brain for a week so fuck it have late night doodles

[sporeclan]

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Leaf-bare again and we're already off to a bad start :')

#clangen #clan generator #warrior cats #warriors oc #sporeclan #my poor girl finchpaw cant catch a break ever she keeps getting ill </3 #btw with petunia. the reason it says he got better was because literally in the game his infection WAS cured #and then the literal message after that was that his wound got infected AGAIN. sigh #sc:fennel #sc:fennelacorn #sc:finchpaw #sc:fadedtuft #sc:petunia #sc:cliffthicket #sc:dawnpelt #sc:mousegrove #sc:spottedfrost #sc:puddle #sc:crowstar #yall im so sorry ive been so slow with the updates i wish i could say im busy but really ive just been gaming this whole time #ive blazed through like 2 and a half f!re embIem games in like a month and a half. plus i read all of dunme5hi #plus i did take a lil break to draw other stuff than cats for a bit just so i didnt burn out #ive been looking forward to the next moon for a while so hopefully it'll be up fairly soon #sc moons #tw blood #tw injury #tw illness

[eightyuh]

How does bath time work?

⟡ Story behind this special ask here ⟡ Read @wicksend here

#ask #WICK'S END #glendale goodwyn #harry #glen #oc #IT'S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE #do not ask for a fully colored / shaded / partially painted ask from me ever again !!!!!!!!!!! #^ another reason Glen is usually wearing his armor more often than casual clothes! Harry kinda sniffs out that he's insecure #it's 2:30 am -- i am going to wake up and find so many mistakes #this is literally all i did today. i just woke up and did this and now i'm going to bed at 2 am. #also haha if u thought this ask was gonna be me being thirsty SIKE it's wholesome actually

[jiiyawns]

yeah im normal. im very normal. so normal. shadow prime amirite guys

i like this one the most so close up (ironically, this is the color palette i was the most scared to deal with bc i don't usually use greens)

#sonic #shadow the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic prime #he's such a bastard and for what #smug bitch. he's literally 3 feet tall. im going to push him off the ark again #i think i like. i had a whole plan on how to do the bottom rectangle/i literally drew it first. but. #i think if i lineart something seriously. i lose the ability to color it the way i was planning. or something #visualized it completely and then just like it evaporated i don't know where the fuck the thought went it's gone??? #so now i think that coloring fucking sucks ass actually but i don't want to work on it any longer bc im like shaking my brain #and ic an't find the original THOUGHTS i HAD where did it GO i was COOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways. hi #fanart #draw

[moodr1ng]

EDIT: post no longer rebloggable not because i disagree with these statements or anything i said in my addition, but just because i dont want to deal with many notes and the occasional rude person!

i totally understand that when discussing the sex lives of gay people, there is a very large overemphasis on a top/bottom dichotomy to the point that many people (especially cishets and lgbt people w little experience in the subject) believe that all or at least most lgbt people are exclusively tops or exclusively bottoms, and i understand wanting to correct that misconception, especially because part of the reason it is so widespread is because cishets assume that in same-gender relationship one person must always be "the woman" (who therefore exclusive bottoms) and one "the man" (who exclusively tops). i understand wanting to make people understand that for many if not most gay people, switching is natural and enjoyable and that these roles are not usually so strictly defined.

but ive seen far too many people say things like "we take turns like normal people" or "im normal i just switch" - with that specific phrasing of "normal" or very similar wording - and i really want you to consider that that is a very hurtful thing to say. there is and has been a longstanding disdain for men who exclusively bottom and a specific disgust for men who bottom in sex with other men, as well as disdain for stone butches and stone fems, who are often treated as regressive, selfish, reproducing heterosexuality, or inherently sexually disordered. people (especially wlw) who exclusively top or bottom are often treated as if their sex life cannot be satisfying, as if they are sexually defective, as if their boundaries are unfair to their partners, as if they have some sort of sexual issue that they need to just get over. before you say something about how switching is "normal" unlike the supposedly immature or regressive people who dont switch, please consider that there is no "normal" sex, that it is not more progressive to put norms on how people may have sex, and that what is most unhealthy for all of us is to tell people that their sexual boundaries and the things theyre not comfortable or willing to do during sex make them abnormal. as someone who is a stone top in large part because of sexual trauma, some of you honestly make me feel like shit about myself for not wanting to be topped, and i dont think thats "normal".

#97 #sex m #long post #this is kind of a uhh vulnerable topic for me so dont try to start anything. #if you have something to say think about a way of saying it that isnt aggressive or demeaning. #i can take it on a lot of topics. this is not one of them. #i did just see a post similar to this but this isnt like a vague about this specific post this is rly smthing ive been meaning to say for #a while but again this is rly smthing im sensitive about lol #though i did make the mistake of looking in the notes of that post and it was full of ppl saying this exact shit #including literally saying people who only top have internalized homophobia 🤪

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you. I'm sorry.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin guangyao #lan wangij #jin ling #LWJ shifting into fight mode was so damn cool. He is always ready to start throwing hands. #It's in a way that befits someone with a bit more bloodlust that his calm demeanor lets on - but nearly always in defense of someone. #What a great synergy with his personal philosophies! see that he is a Genuinely Noble Guy time and time again! #Is is also way more hilarious and unhinged than most people give him credit for? Also yes. #Nothing and no one ever said he did not or would not rip off JGY's hat mid-fight. I think LWJ needs to snatch more wigs LITERALLY. #Yes I'm delaying the part where I have to address the emotional turmoil of Jin Ling stabbing wwx. It gutted me terribly. #What is worse that realizing that someone you respected has done horrible things #than discovering someone who did horrible things being a kind and trustworthy person? #What is more horrifying that realizing other people are extremely complex and cannot be categorized into black and white? #When people hurt us or our loved ones we very much want to make them out to be irredeemable monsters. But they are not. #It is not actually such a terrible fate to just be a person. To be forgiven and forgive is possible. To change is possible. #This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down. #And its *why* I love Jin Ling so much. He is the character who fights the longest and hardest to challenge social and personal beliefs #He gets a pass for stabbing wwx for being so deliciously conflicted and tormented by it. #And with wrists THAT limp I can't imagine the wound was particularly deep

[yasmeensh]

Little Skyward Sword doodle dump. very little

#loz #Skyward Sword #skyward sword hd #Just got din's flame... #groose helped me seal the darkness once again #he's literally a genius why did we treat him dirty

[hauntedpearl]

imagine if castiel (godstiel?) single-handedly created the omegaverse in real life because he's sick of dean's weird hangups about his sexuality. cas just omega-fies himself and is like. well. see. this way you are still heterosexual.

#idk what is up with me today i am thinking about castiel pussy #doe is talking again #maybe they should stop huh maybe they should shut up #BUT WHY I ASK THIS IS A FREE WORLD #anyway. patient zero castiel. #omegafication beam turned on whoever #patient zero castiel #i did not think about thr politics of this yet btw this thought literally just occured to me #also knotting? that is a cas kink. he added that feature. #cas posting #nsft. kind of.

[mattodore]

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

#river dipping #dionte duval #lykos #ts4 #i do really love how dionte and nicholas kinda have a b4b (bald for bald) thing going on.... but that first hair........ #he looks so good... the urge to keep it is gonna make me develop a twitch under my eye... #i love the shadows the locs add btw like i personally loveee when hair creators add shading #like the DRAMAAA it adds!!! #also don't look too closely at him here bc i actually haven't updated him yet hence no proper edit of him (tho i probably won't change much #i'm really just supposed to be cleaning out the hundreds!! of duplicate households in my library dkhjnkfgh i just. get so distracted #i also have to fix mattodore's households bc i think i accidentally deleted the updated version of them at 20... #like there are multiple other saves?? but they're all with matthias's old chin??? like literally WHERE did the updated version go #so i need to clean out my library from the top down and fix their sims #i really messed my sleep schedule up the day before yesterday when i was working on those edits of delphi btw #but i did enjoy rewatching secretary and watching charade while staying up all night to do them <3 #also listened to the first two chapters of freedom is a constant struggle! editing may take me forever but i do do other things as i do it #...........talking a lot in these tags bc i'm seriously procrastinating jdkhnf i do NOT ! want to clean through my library it's a mess #OH. ALSO GOOD MORNING I FORGOT TO SAY THAT ‼️ #seeing this again two days later and seeing the amount of notes....... y'all weren't meant to reblog this kjhdkfjhndkjgnh #now i'm like damn... is there any reason to make his intro edit like i did for ria and delphi 😭😭😭😭😭