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lukall705 · 11 days

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Hii!! Can I req Chuuya x SH reader? Can be both angst and fluff, you don't have to tho if you don't wanna <3

𝓒𝓱𝓾𝓾𝔂𝓪 𝔁 𝓖𝓝! 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻

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This is another thing i didn't expect people to request, and it brings me so much comfort when i find sh comfort fanfics:(

If you are struggling with sh please know i'm always open to talk if you want:) and i'll try to comfort you to the best of my ability! (i'm usually not on here during the day so you can ask me for my discord in dms)

I'M SO SRRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO MAKE I REALLY NEEDED A BREAK SINCE I WAS SO STRESSED FROM SCHOOL 😭

Also, English isn't my first language so please dont mind any spelling errors!!

TW: SH, gore? Talk about fresh SH cuts, Might be ooc😓 please tell me if i missed anything!

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sometimes in life things don't go the rigth way, is what people say, they say "sometimes in life things don't go the way we want, but thats just how it is"

But right now it felt like absolutely nothing was going the right way, you felt like the whole world was against you, like you were some useless peace of garbage that could be thrown out at anytime, like there was no one in this damn world that would sit down and listen to your pityfull problems. you were at your abselut worst.

And the only thing that could help the with it was the razor in your hand, which is cutting your thigh. you move almost like a robot, you don't even feel the pain of the razor anymore. everything seems like a dream, all the blood coming out of your cuts and dripping and mixing in with the water of the bathtub, your vision being slightly blury.

You can feel your heart pounding in your chest as you bring your razor to your Radial vein. you shake slightly as you look down at your wrist debating if you should cut it or not.

As you start breathing faster you look at the suicide note you left on the chair next to the bathtub. you wondered how long it would take for chuuya to find you, would he even care if you died?

you feel tears start to run down your face and you start to sniffle uncontrollably.

As you're about to cut the vein you hear a loud knock on the door, "[name]? baby are you in there..?" your boyfriend chuuya asks in a quiet voice.

You quickly wipe your tears and panic a bit as you didn't lock the door since you weren't expectinc chuuya to come home this early, "Y-yeah.." you say trying to not sound sad, but knowing chuuya he most likely heard the saddnes in your voice.

"Darling.. is something wrong..?" He asks in a conserned voice, "i'm just.. washing my hair" you try to come up with an exuse while your whole body is shaking. "Darling, you washed your hair yestarday tho? are you really okay in there..?"

'Damn i forgot about that' you think while trying to find a place to hide the razor. While you panic you some how bump into the soaps and knock them down making a loud noise. "Baby are you okay? i'm coming in" he says and opens the door, "NO WAIT!" but before you can stop him, he has already opened the door and seen your cuts.

.....

After a few moments of silence and staring at each other, chuuya finally makes a move closer to you.

"...Chuuya.. please i'm sorr-.." You try to explain but your voice starts to shake and you feel a lump in your throat. "...shh.." He quitelly walks closer to you and wipes the small tears that have started to for in your eyes.

"...I'm so sorry.. i k-know i said i'd.. try to stay clean for you.. i tried my best.. i swear.. i'm sorry.. please.. p-please don't get mad.." You sob as more and more tears start falling from your eyes. Your vision is starting to blur from all the tears, so much so that you can't even see chuuya anymore.

"....shh... darling.. i would never be mad at you.. what could ever make you think that..? i understand how hard it is to recover from something like this.." He whispers into your ear while holding you close, not even caring about the blood staining his clothes.

All you can do is cry and cry, you cant even manage to answer his question, all that came out if your mouth were pityfull sobs and 'i'm so sorry'. Chuuyas shoulder was becoming wet form all the tears but he didn't mind, he would do anything just so that you could feel better.

After some time of Chuuya trying to comfort you and trying to get you to tell what happened, did you finally calm down slightly, just enough for you to able to answer his questions.

....

Chuuya starts washing your cuts gently, you both sit there in silence with the only sound beinf your small sniffles and some small choked sobs.

After a few seconds chuuya decides to break the slience, "..Darling, please.. what happened that made you relapce..?" he asks with a gentle tone while holding your shaking hands in his. For a moment you stay slient, wiping your tears. "...i... i-i've...", you say in a shaky voice trying to break out into a crying mess again. Right at this moment you didn't know what to say, you really didn't know how to say what made you do it.

"...take your time..", Chuuya's soft voice snaps you out of your trance, you feel his thumbs rubbing on top of your hands in a comforting way.

"...its hard to say.... i-i don't know how to put it into words..", you whisper, hoping chuuya wouldn't be mad. You're scared he'll be mad at your answer, scared he'll force you to talk, force you like your mother would always do. You remember the first time you relapsed she got mad and forced you to talk, even when you were crying.

"..thats fine.. its not always easy to put something like this into words.." Chuuya caressed your back in a comforting way, making you want to just cry, cry so hard and let everything out, everything that has been bothering you, all your worries and troubles. You felt so comfortable in his arms, like you were safe. "would writing it help?", he asks and runs his fingers through your hair.

You burry your face in his neck and nod, feeling him pick you up and carry you over to your bedroom. He gently puts you on the bed and you slightly whine from the stinging pain that came from your cuts, holding back your tears. '..i'm sucha an idiot..' you think while watching chuuya leave the room to go get paper.

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Chuuya comes back after some time with a piece of paper and a pen. He gives you the stuff and sits down next to you while waiting for you to write on the paper.

You sit there for a second before starting to write about how you've been feeling really insecure about yourself and thinking that you arent enough for him and that he should be with someone else. Once you're done writing you hesitate to give the paper back to chuuya for a bit, but you decide to just do it.

Once its in Chuuyas hands, you look away embaressed about the thngs you wrote, hoping he wouldn't judge you for it.

After a bit of silence, chuuya finally says something, "Darling.. why didn't you tell me..? i could've helped you feel better.." He says quietly and you just look down ashamed feeling like everything is your fult. You knew you should have told him, maybe then you wouldn't be in so much pain at the moment.

You felt like you were about to cry again, you felt weak. You just wanted to lay down and forget about the world around you.

"...i was scared.. i'i was so scared you'd be mad at me..." Your voice breaks as you try to explain everything to him. Chuuya sit there with you in his arms listening to you with a worried look on his face.

"...darling i would never hate you.. you're the most important person in my life, i would never be mad at you for relapcing.." He says while stroking your hair and rocking back and forth slowly. you hug him tight, like your scared he'll be gonne once you let go of him.

For the rest of the night chuuya keeps you in his arms while he comforts you and tells you how much he loves you.

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Grr the end was rushed 😓😓

Anyways, pleae give me some feedback, it really helps me when people tell me what i should try to be better at.

Do not repost this on any other website without asking me first and giving me credit!!

Requests: Closed for now

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pray4saint · 9 months

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Can I please have a tall latte with a dash of cinnamon with a cupcake and fortune cookie on the side? Thankyou

For the 100 follower celebration (congrats)

guest of honour

masterlist & descrip. pg-13. 13+. streamer!reader. ted nivison x reader. jschlatt x reader. mentions of alcohol, bongs, vapes and implied mention of weed.

a/n. tysm! here's your order anon :] (i did do these separately but if you wanted them together you can send another request! also i picked the prompts since you didn't add one)

prompts: ”you look stupid as fuck right now.” / ”that could be us.” ”that is us.” / ”can you repeat that? i don't think i heard you..” / ”my kiss?” ”right, sorry.”

ted

your fans knew you had a boyfriend, they knew he was also in content creation, they knew you loved him, and they knew he was always texting you during your streams. since he'd always been faceless, voiceless, and nameless, it was a shock for the viewers to see the door open and someone walk in, head cut off by the camera placement.

it was planned, to a degree.. you knew ted would show up on your stream, in your office but you didn't know when, and that's what made it fun. ”oh my god, hey babe!” you spun in your chair and got up to hug him, the height difference clear to all. and now your fans knew he was tall too. before you were able to get back to your seat, ted pulled you back to him. ”excuse me? sweetheart my kiss?” you smiled and got up on your tippy toes, ”right, sorry about that.” hands flat on his chest when you kissed him.

you walked back over to your desk to see how the viewers were taking the small interaction, and from how you were positioned leaning over your desk, ted was able to pad over next to you, still out of view of the camera. when you realised how close he was you pulled a chair away from the all beside yours and you sat down. ”oh chat did i mention my boyfriend was joining today?” you gave the camera a cheeky smile, watching as chat was still trying to put the voice to a face.

ted leaned down into frame before he sat down, smiling at the camera with a wave. the moment he sat down, he started a bit. ”do you have audio listeners?”

”no.”

”what a shame.” you rolled your eyes at him before pulling yourself towards the desk to move apps across your monitors. ”shit, almost..” your voice trailed off, neither ted nor your stream heard what you said and while it's easy to ignore chat's pleas, it's a little harder when it's your boyfriend. ”what was that angel?” you hum at him, question in the sound. ”can you repeat that? i don't think i heard you.”

this wasn't a bit, but it sure as hell was clipped a ton. ”i said,” you began, voice louder than it was most of the time. ”'shit, i almost leaked our discord dms.', happy?”

”very.”

schlatt

your boyfriend's fanbase knew of you, but they didn't know anything about you aside from that schlatt loved you. of course it had to come sooner or later, but after a long talk about the consequences, you'd talked each other into a deal for you to go on his stream with him.

for awhile schlatt streamed and you sat just off camera, looking at your phone and back up at him from time to time. it was something that your best friend had sent you that made you scrunch your face up, and your boyfriend noticed immediately. ”you look stupid as fuck right now.” it was the first time he'd acknowledged you were around on stream and his chat was freaking out. of course it didn't stop you from getting up and slapping his arm. ”ow. you're mean.” he didn't mean it, yet it only made you hit him again before you finally pulled your chair out to sit with him.

once chat had gotten a good look at you and you waved and said hello, schlatt pushed his phone up to the camera before giving it to you. ”hon' that could be us.” it was a picture of two cats; one holding a bong and two vapes while the other held a case of beer. ”j, baby that is us.” now you show the camera the picture of the cats and schlatt takes the opportunity of being hidden to press a quick kiss to your cheek, making you gasp.

”chat did you see that?! did you hear that?!” they all seemed confused as you went off on your tangent, face making the :o while schlatt's mouth twitched up into a smirk, bordering on the grin as you tattled on him to his viewers. ”he kissed me when you guys weren't looking!”

oh boy did twitter have a fun time over analysing the clip of the short kiss sound, trying to figure out if it was true.

pray4saint© do not copy, translate or repost my work without my express permission.

#pray4saint #saint's 100 celly :o #saint's inbox !!#chuckle sammy #chuckle sandwich #ted nivison #ted nivison x reader #jschlatt #schlatt #jschlatt x reader #schlatt x reader #ted nivison fluff #jschlatt fluff #schlatt fluff #ted blurbs !!#schlatt blurbs !!#s.ted #s.schlatt

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gethimbackpdf · 5 months

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april • she/her • intp • minor • indian • bi • multifandom mess • bollywood enthusiast •

other accounts: goodreads | discord: april23.13

i don't do chain asks anymore, so please don't send them <3

prev urls: isnt-it-delicate15 -> timelessstv -> gxldrushh -> lovestrucklovelorn -> rachellelizabethhdare -> gethimbackpdf

artists I love

taylor swift • olivia rodrigo • sabrina carpenter • conan gray • halsey • gracie abrams • maisie peters and most importantly - random bollywood songs

movies

pride and prejudice (2005) • mean girls (2004) • the star wars films • legally blonde • little women (2019) • into the spiderverse and across the spiderverse • bollywood films like yeh jawani hain deewani, jab we met, dil dhadakne do, 3 idiots, zindagi na milegi dobara etc etc

tv shows

friends • brooklyn nine nine • modern family • how i met your mother • the good place • parks and recreation • gilmore girls • loki • ms marvel • wandavision • a series of unfortunate events • never have I ever • julie and the phantoms

books

keeper of the lost cities • the pandava quintet • riordanverse • grishaverse • the land of stories • hunger games trilogy • a good girl's guide to murder • the seven husbands of evelyn hugo • the inheritance games • the lunar chronicles • lockwood and co • daisy jones and the six • pride and prejudice • emma and too many more to count <3

currently watching: gilmore girls

currently reading: as good as dead

Other:

I may listen to and love taylor swift's music but i most definitely do not support the problematic things she has done, nor do i support her silence about the ongoing Palestinian genocide

dividers by @cafekitsune !!

you're welcome to send asks and interact :D DMs are always open as well!!

feel free to tag me in any post you think id like! (bonus points if its related to cats)

I tend to swear sometimes

DNI : basic dni criteria - creeps, racist, homophobes, transphobes, zionists, jkr supporters etc

I do not like colleen hoover and booktok. at all. and yes I will always complain about her shitty books and other atrocities that booktok (or tiktok in general) has unleashed upon the world

I make a lot of typos and it's up to you to decipher them <3

my biggest flex is that my birthday is on world book day <3

icon made by me 💞

english isn't my first language so please excuse me if I make any grammatical errors!!

moodboard by @skeelly <33

#intro post #pinned post

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cellysub · 4 months

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i love showing off my creations with my community!

i love it when they post fun stuff knowing that i'll react to it and be flustered by it

its so fun knowing im so easily accessible and easy to tease on my discord server

its good for me to meet my community i think! its always good for me to listen to their feedback very closely and watch all the things they ask me to see. its only good manners to focus on their input.

im being such a good content creator by letting everyone join my server! im being very good by letting my dms be open to personal and private feedback that helps me so much! im such a good listener when i sit and let community members tell me all that i need to hear and follow their advice! they're so smart and capable, im so happy to have so many wonderful peoplet to listen to.

id love it if you joined and provided me this valuable input too! its good for me to listen. its good to follow. its good to learn from my community 💕💞

please join and tell me all about your ideas for me! everyone tells me im a very good listener, and it makes me good <3

#hypnosis #hypnotized #mind conditioning #brainwashing #hypno fantasy #hypnok1nk #mindless #mind control #hypnosub

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actual-changeling · 8 months

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Hi, you can call me Alex or whatever variation of my username you'd like. <3

I'm in my early twenties, use mainly they/them pronouns, and there is a lot wrong with my brain (both affectionately and in a decidedly not fun way). I have memory issues, so I can and will forget things, including replying to messages. You are ALWAYS invited to send me a reminder—please, please do, I will not be offended, pinky promise.

This blog is 90% fandom, 5% personal shit and 5% misc posts that I like. My inbox and DMs are open, so feel free to message me and interact however you like! If there's something you want me to see, I don't mind getting tagged in posts either.

Please don't be an asshole, and you can find my opinions/rules about discourse on my blog right here. I'm incredibly bad at judging my own tone, so if I come across as overly intense or upset, chances are I am actually not—I'm just passionate about the things I enjoy.

Mulder and Scully have taken over my brain and body, and I don't think they will leave me alone ever again.

I will be tagging spoilers for any newly released shows and episodes. If there is something you would like me to tag spoilers for, just shoot me an ask or dm!

Currently following and tagging for:

The X Files: alex watches x files

Doctor Who: alex watches doctor who, dw spoilers

(PJO The Series: pjo spoilers) show is on hiatus

The Magnus Protocols: alex listens to tmagp, tmagp spoilers

I write fanfiction both here on tumblr and on ao3 under actualchangeling. Requests or ideas are fine, though I cannot make any promises.

Wanna chat with other people about good omens? I have a discord you can join, mostly angelfish focused but we talk about all our beloved idiots.

My other misc current active special interests are Doctor Who and Good Omens, but I dabble in a lot of other fandoms, too. Among those are Marvel/Iron Man, Lucifer, TLOU, The Magnus Archives, Welcome to Night Vale, Prospect (2018), and many more.

My tag system for original posts applies to all fandoms I am currently actively engaging with and follows the same patterns. I tag spoilers when I remember to for about a week, so consider this blog to be very much NOT spoiler free.

alex talks x -> meta, analysis, interpretation, or opinion posts

alex writes x -> either self-promotion or tumblr specific ficlets, without any fandom addition it's original writing of some kind

Any personal posts that are not fandom related are tagged as following; feel free to block them if you're just here for the fandom madness!! I really do not mind.

alex yells at the void -> misc personal stuff

alex gets personal -> potentially triggering discussions of my trauma or mental health, vent posts

Last but not least, the tag for my queue is I’ll follow queue anywhere you go. It's a TLOU reference for those who are curious.

#pinned post

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nezdiangelo · 1 month

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Hello! My name is Maria, and I’m looking for all 18+ Percy Jackson fans! I’m starting a server on Discord called “Camp Half-Blood” and I would love to see you all there! All canon and original characters welcome. My goal is to have it set up super easy, so if you’re just getting into rp, even if it’s just in this fandom, it’s a great starting ground. If you’re not new to this, I’d love to have a couple extra people to help mod! Feel free to reach out!

1: Everyone will be 18+ just to keep everyone in the server safe.

2: 18+ does not mean I want sexual content in the server. Dirty humor and such is allowed, but if you are asked to tone it down, you listen. You get three warnings before booting.

3: Absolutely no harassment of any sort will be tolerated. It will be cause for immediate booting. Be respectful and if someone asks you to stop something, listen.

4: In addition to rule #3, I ask that you be respectful when it comes to ships. Ask before doing. If you would like to involve one of your characters with someone else’s, ask if they would be interested in. Reckless flirting is allowed, but do not force a ship on someone.

5: Maximum of ONE major character, up to THREE minor characters, and up to THREE ocs.

6: My DMs are always open. If you have a concern, feel free to come to me.

7: Have fun! I’ve been in this fandom for 12 years now. I got into it due to the playful nature of it and the entertainment. That’s keep it that way for everyone!

#pjo #pjo fandom #pjo series #rick riordan #heros of olympus #pjo rp #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #roleplay #roleplay finder #rp finder #open rp #group rp #discord rp

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gu1lty-as-sin · 7 months

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⋆⁺｡˚⋆˙‧₊☾ welcome ☽₊‧˙⋆˚｡⁺⋆

about me

you can call me juno or astraea

im a cancer sun, libra moon and sagittarius rising

my pronouns are they/she (and my pronoun page is here)

i'm a proud bisexual (i am very sapphic lol)

im taken (you can hear about my love via the “them tag <33")

i am a minor (i won't immediately block people 18+ but if you're creepy i will <3)

australian!! also a bunch of different places, none really interesting

this blog is for me to dump thoughts, interact with people and just have a good time :)

i play the drums and im currently in two bands! i also love playing guitar and one of my 2024 goals is to get better at playing!!

currently listening -> 🍁☕️🎸 nyc

currently reading -> the odyssey translated by emily wilson

currently watching -> doctor who and rewatching gilmore girls

things i like

i love: literature, the arts, queer culture, astronomy, feminism (no terfs allowed!!!!), fruit flavoured drinks, flared pants, converse, dark red, nail polish, eyeliner, burgundy lipgloss, tank tops, tote bags, brie (always dreaming of cheese), pinterest, spotify, my headphones, the ocean, my grandparents house (im there rn i love it), spring+winter, very specific shades of pink and green, black <3, folklore and 1989 girl, fiddling around on the guitar, fantasising about being a famous musician, finding new music, snow, picking silly little outfits,

books: osemanverse, the hunger games, books by rhiannon wilde, tim te maro's subterranean heartsick blues, all the best liars, books by octavia butler (specifically parable of the sower and parable of the talents), the last true poets of the sea, acotar, the weight of the stars, the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, the picture of dorian grey, house of hollow, howls moving castle, harry potter (mainly marauders, FUCK JKR), i kissed shara wheeler, red white and royal blue, song of achilles

movies + tv shows: dont look up, little women (2019), scream (i like most of them but 1996 is my fav by far), ladybird, barbie (2023), some of the mcu (thor and guardians of the galaxy <33), spiderverse (itsv is my love), gilmore girls, stranger things, loki, heartstopper, arcane, scott pilgrim takes off, she ra

musicians/bands: boygenius, taylor swift, lovejoy, glaive, brakence, paramore, ricky jamaraz, melanie martinez, lana del rey, ashnikko, girl in red, billie eilish, doja cat, big thief, adrienne lenker, ethel cain, mitski, remi wolf, cigarettes after sex, ericdoa, tv girl, clairo, the neighbourhood, bon iver, deftones (getting into them just a little), maneskin, courtney barnett, poppy

my favourite colours are black, dark red, burgundy, denim blue, sage green, soft pink, glaucous blue, golden yellow (i love colour theory so all colours are beautiful in their own context but here are my favs to wear/see)

i really want to get into more poetry so if you have any recs lmk!!

i have recently begun practising some very simple witchcraft, so feel free to talk to me about that and i would love to learn more!!

i love learning about astrology and use my birth chart frequently

i write very, very infrequently and think of more stories than i even start to plot lmao.

i draw way more than i write and will occasionally post some!! its not good by any means but its fun ig

talk to me + dni

my asks and dms are open!! feel free to talk to me about anything and everything!! i love talking!!

i love my mutuals so much so if ur my mutual *looks you dead in your eyes* i love you

my discord is the same @ as here, i literally just got it today so idrk how it works but feel free to add me there <33 but please lmk if you do if your username is different

if we’re very close you can ask for my insta!!

i rarely follow people without an intro post/descriptive enough bio (with name, age group, pronouns) so if you want to be mutuals please have one!! if not just shoot me an ask about who you are and what you like so we can be friends <33

dni: rude, racist, homophobic, transphobic, zionist, terfs, sexist, ableist, antisemitic people

tags

#juno.txt -> ramblings, original posts

#asks -> asks ive answered

#ask bait -> hehehe send me asks <3

#tag games -> tag games ive participated in

#beautiful mutuals -> interactions with my beautiful mutuals!

#spotify -> my music obsession dw im fine fhdklfhdal

#them tag <33 -> posts that remind me of my wonderful bf <3

links + sideblogs

spotify

@likeasugarcubeinateacup -> my notes app poetry

@slowrotburiedinthepark -> a random sideblog i post art and occasional web weaving on

@stabbingstarsthroughmyback -> my writing sideblog (ask me about my wip!!)

stunning dividers by @chachachannah :))

here is a totally beautiful and amazing moodboard by @svnflowermoon that always makes me so fhadkfhakd

last updated: jan 19th 2024

#intro post #Spotify #juno.txt #asks #ask bait #tag games #beautiful mutuals #pinned post #them tag <33

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poppyandzena · 1 month

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I've found out that Poppy is vague tweeting about me reaching out to a couple people still on The Foundation. She has phrased it as me targeting the vulnerable and mentally ill to "spread nonsense". Here is what I've actually done (I don't want to out people, so I will not name names:

For one person I did not have any prior interactions with but was concerned about how they had previously interacted both privately and publicly with this whole situation, I sent a direct link to the published doc on Spawn. I also told that person I thought they were a good kid and wished them a good night.

The other person is someone I had more interactions with and am a little more familiar with their history and situation. Since leaving the server I had noticed I had been unfriended (potentially blocked) on discord and, in mid-March, I decided to reach out with my only interest being to see how they are doing. I know that specific person has had a rough ride in life and I only wanted to ask about those sorts of things. I had zero intent about trying to turn this person against Zena and Poppy, despite what they might believe.

I will always be willing to talk to anyone still on The Foundation and not make it an "me vs them" sort of thing. I will not force any sorts of conversations if anyone does want to talk to me but is scared to do so. If you are afraid of friending me on discord, I leave my DMs open to anyone I share a mutual server with and I am on a number of discords, including:

Demon Mama

Wugcord

Carl-bot Help

CassEris YT

BLASEBALL

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Kusogrande

There's more, but there are plenty of reasons to be on these discords.

I'm not a fan of ultimatums and "us vs them" mentalities. I will try to listen to anyone who comes to me with very, very, very few exceptions.

I wish you all well, and thank you Heloise for posting these messages in my stead,

Kriese aka Keira

^

#poppy #poppy and zena #zena and poppy #poppy diabolique #ladydiabolique #zenaandpoppyonyoutube #poppy & zena #zena #keira

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rxcya · 9 months

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003. 𝗡𝗢𝗩𝗢𝗖𝗔𝗜𝗡𝗘

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desmond69miles · 1 year

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Can you do ink bendy x reader who sh please I need so comfort

i've been letting asks marinate in my ask box and I apologize! I'm catching up on schoolwork and balancing my health class certificate and job is tricky--I've been super busy haha.

but hi, anon! i deal with self-harm, and get a lot of comments and backhanded compliments due to my scars. Multiple times I had to get stitches, and I've been in an inpatient setting many times. If you need someone to vent to, my dms are always open, and I can give you my discord. Help is such a hard thing to reach out for, and if I can help you or take a little bit of that stress away, feel free to reach out. I'm open, and deal with HI, so most things don't really phase me. I'm always active :)

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trigger warning for self-harm! (and I know that there are other forms of self harm, I was a burner quite often, but I used what people consider "the main form" of self harm.)

[-: The only reason Bendy hadn't killed you is because you didn't show fear, you didn't smell fearful. Bendy was confused, and decided to follow you around for a little before "befriending" you. He just sat across from where you were and stared at you until you spoke to him.

[-: When you told him you had dealt with self-harm, he just cocked his head and let out a slow trill.

[-: Bendy doesn't realize its a bad thing until you tell him. All his life he's been exposed to gruesome torture and manipulation by Joey, and other Gent workers. I feel like Bendy would also deal with some forms of self-harm, such as banging his head or hitting things until his hands bled with his inky blood.

[-: When you told him that it was a bad thing, and that it was due to depression, he nodded and held your forearms in his mix-matched hands, humming with an ink-filled throat. He still wouldn't grasp the full concept, and just kept a keen eye on you when you were alone.

[-: If you relapsed inside the studio, Bendy would know. He hears everything, every little rustle of paper and every little breath. He heard your crying, the broken weeps, and sulked towards a small closet type room where you were located. Not knowing to knock, he opened the creaky door, and paused. There was broken glass on the floor, your body huddled into a corner with a small piece of glass held tightly in your hand. One of your pant legs had been pulled up to your hip, inky blood beading at the slices on your skin. You store at each other a few seconds before you let out a loud sob, lungs constricting at a silent scream.

[-: Bendy would try his best, gently picking your shaking body up and transferring you to an infirmary. It took a little while to find non ink-soaked bandages, but once he did, Bendy gently bandaged your limbs. It was badly done, and ink from his hands got onto them, but you weakly smiled at the gesture.

[-: Once he knew what cutting actually was, he tried to keep you away from some sharp objects around the studio. He tried to keep a better eye on you, watching you through cutouts when he couldn't be with you, or keeping out for certain sounds when he was feeding.

[-: When you had self-harm urges, Bendy tried to redirect the best he could, offering you a pipe to go destroy somethings around the studio, or offering you his arms and a blanket, listening to a radio playing some old-timey song.

[-: While he can't cure your depression, Bendy can definitely help and provide an extra set of hands. He doesn't mind when you sleep in to long, but will remind you that you guys have stuff to do, and urges you to eat at least two meals a day. While you don't need to eat in the studio, Bendy wants to make sure your health is always full.

#bendy the demon #bendy and the ink machine x reader #bendy x reader #bendy smut #bendy #bendy and the dark revival #batdr #ink demon x reader #ink demon #the ink demon

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oraclekleo · 1 month

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Wanted: Brainstorming Buddies

Hello, my dear followers and occasional visitors to this blog.

Recently I have realised I would like to communicate more directly with people. My intention is to enlarge the little group of friends I talk to on a daily/weekly/monthly basis. I’m not a super sociable person but my interactions fall onto the shoulders of a few close friends and they kinda carry all the weight of my hectic brain functions. I love them and that’s why I would like to enlarge the list of my regular social contacts in order to spread the burden more evenly.

And naturally I thought of you guys, who are my support and sunshine for months and years here. So my first appeal is to be posted here. This is my plan A. I do have plans B, C, D, E, F, G and H but if it works out, I might not need to use them.

I have created a Discord group chat, which I would love to use to communicate directly with a larger group of friends. It’s not only tarot and astrology focused, I have many interests and I would like to share them all.

You can join the Discord by contacting me directly through DMs or my email [email protected].

Before you do, you should read the list below.

Why you SHOULDN’T join this group chat:

I’m an INTP MBTI type and it comes with some challenging characteristics. You can check the YouTube video 8 Weird Habits Of An INTP Personality Type for reference. I’m not always the worst case scenario of these but it gives a pretty good sum up.

I question EVERYTHING! Systems, rules, customs, traditions, beliefs… I’m not a religious person myself and if you present me with a problem with some rule, I will question the existence of the rule in the first place, I will probably bend it or find a loophole. I respect all beliefs but if you tell me that you have a problem with certain aspects of your belief, I will question why you stick to it. 😂 You can always tell me to move on and forget about the topic, though. I question my own opinions, rules and habits just the same so it’s not like I’m being unfair.

I’m not a shoulder to cry on or a hugging type, not even virtual hugs type. I’m a problem solver. If you share your worry or struggle or issue with me, you also have to add what reaction you want from me. If you don’t provide this information, I automatically switch to solving mode. You can tell me you just want to rant without me suggesting anything. You can tell me you want me to take your mind off the topic and cheer you up or entertain you or whatever. Just make sure you let me know what you want me to do with your issue because otherwise I will present you with one or more solutions. 😜

My mind is constantly open and I have a great respect towards diversity and freedom but I really don’t tolerate hate in any form. If you want to go for hateful rants or serious nasty complaints about people, this might not be the chat for you.

I like to keep the conversation flowing. If you are the type of person who prefers to only listen in and you are happy this way, not wanting to step outside the comfort zone, this is probably not the chat for you. If you are usually quiet but would like to start using your voice more, feel free to join, though. Effort counts with me.

I love dark sense of humour and sarcasm is my first language and I’m so fluent in it. If you are a very sensitive person, you might have a hard time with me. I’m not deliberately rude to anyone but I will test the waters and make brutal jokes now and then to observe the reactions.

I’m an adult person and I do include adult topics and language. If that’s something you feel uncomfortable about, you should avoid joining the chat.

I’m not a big fan of drama and overreacting. I can deal with occasional emotional load from my friends but if you are the type of person who truly goes nuts when it comes to emotions, you might find me cold and unfriendly.

I love to discuss a vast variety of topics and link them with each other and find patterns. It’s how my brain works. It can be confusing sometimes so you might need to bare with me.

Why you SHOULD join this group chat:

Because of me - there are not many people like me and you might actually discover some of my more intimate sides I don’t show on the blog

Because of yourself - you might want to start socialising a tiny bit more but you don’t have just one interest, you want to talk about anything and everything

Because of the fun - I have many negative sides to me but I’m not a dull or boring person and I will do my best to keep the chat alive and entertaining.

Because of the brainstorming - Are you a creative person yourself? You might need brainstorming buddies! I surely do need some. And when you brainstorm with me, I’m more than happy to return the favour and brainstorm with you.

Because by exploring and communicating our minds, hearts, souls and spirits grow and become more vibrant. This is your opportunity to take one small step towards personal growth.

Because you can leave anytime - if the chat isn’t your cup of tea, you can leave. My feelings won’t be harmed, I respect that each person is different and I don’t have many feelings to be hurt in the first place. 😜

If you have reached here with the reading, you might as well want to join the group chat. Feel free to contact me through DMs or email [email protected].

You surely understand that I don’t want to share the invitation link publicly as I would like to avoid trolls and spammers joining your little soul family.

I’m looking forward to your reactions and I’m gonna be delighted by your interest if there is any.

P.S. Brainstorming helps me to stay motivated so once I have my little circle of buddies, I’ll feel more eager to return to tarot readings and other fun activities for you. Just saying. No pressure! (Only I might feel motivated enough to open free readings and I mean all the readings, including fun tarot spreads like the Path of the Dragon and others 😉)

Thank you for reading this far.

Kleo 🦄

#oracle kleo #writer kleo #tarot #writing #adulting #intp female #group chat

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yumeleta · 2 years

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do you have any hcs on how lxm boys would act around a crush? like if theyre a gentleman around them, express their love or dont etc! You dont have to make this into an actual fic i would love to hear your ideas though ❤️

hey anon! thanks for dropping by my inbox <3.

as for the headcanons, i definitely have some in mind for the boys.

after realizing he had fallen for you, luca would be shy, sometimes clumsily fumbling with his words whenever he converses with you through voice chat. he notices that he finds himself staring at your discord dms a bit too frequently nowadays. despite being extroverted, he starts to enjoy it more when its only the two of you in a collab, or in a game playing together. he finds more ways to mention you in his livestreams even if it has nothing to do with you.

shu, however, is a different case, except he is going to be more bold with his actions. he drops little flirtatious remarks here and there, but at the same time he would treat you in a gentlemanly manner. he'll make time to hang out with you, whether it's playing on a separate minecraft realm or just chatting together during ungodly hours. he sends you pictures of baby penguins hugging together with a message attached to it, reading, 'us? nah i'm kidding. unless..?'.

i think we can agree that ike will be the sweetest one out of all of them. he would willingly be all ears for you to talk for hours, listening intently to how soothing your voice sounds to him. he'd write letters to you, describing how much he thinks you're amazing, but he keeps them away in a place you won't find them for now. if you complain about your broken gaming mouse, you'll suddenly find one right by your doorstep. hm, i wonder where (or who) that came from?

as concerning as it sounds, mysta would be greatly anxious around you the minute he finds out about his ever growing crush. he notices that he never seems to stop talking whenever he's with you. he subconsciously filters his words during collaborations with you, and not a single dirty joke slips through his mouth (which pleasantly surprises the mystakes). the detective's heart runs a million miles a second when you start complimenting him. he also shares random conversations you had with him with his chat. he sees you like an angel in disguise, so kind to him even if he thinks he doesn't deserve such grace. please tell him he deserves it.

vox would be the most open about his affection for you. i highly doubt that he'd even deny those feelings! he will become your number one supporter, immediately promoting your projects whenever they go live or dropping by your streams with an akasupa bomb. the demon is always the first to greet you in anything, whether it's staying up until midnight for your birthday or being with you during your first subscriber milestone. he never stops flirting with you on twitter, goofily teasing you just to elicit a flustered reaction. he loves how you accept him for him, and that was the selling point to why he even fell for you in the first place.

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mublerr · 8 months

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INTRODUCTION POOOOST (UPDATE!)

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ALR ALR ALR,

HIHIHIHI, IM PATRICK (YOU CAN CALL ME WHATEVER YOU WANT, BUT MUB OR MUBBY ARE COMMON IG)

THIS IS MY BLOG, MY LITTLE PIECE OF SPACE, POSTIN EVERYTHING I HAVE ON MIND

I WANNA MAKE SOME FRIENDS HERE AND IM OPEN TO NEARLY EVERYONE, DON'T BE SHY JUST HIT ME UP HEHEH

BOUNDARIES‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

-FIRST OF ALL NO KINKY STUFF

GET YO FANTASION'S OUTTA HERE ITS SUPPOSED TO BE SFW BLOG

SAME WITH DM'S. AT LEAST SAY 'hi wanna be friends?' OR ANY OTHER STUFF LIKE THAT!

ALSO EVERY BLOG THAT'S LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE MADE SAME DAY THEY FOLLOWED ME GOT INSTANT BLOCK

-DNI NSFW BLOG'S

idc abt like's

BUT DEAR GOD DON'T DM ME OR REPLY TO MY POSTS PLEASE

-No people above age 25

MY DM'S ARE ALWAYS OPEN

If you wanna meet me, be friends or just talk to someone, I'm here, Im looking to find people where i can chat and have fun. im posting this bc ik ppl are like

"what if he's busy or he's not gonna like me or BLAH BLAH BLAH"

NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, YOU CAN (unless youre creep)

IM NOT THAT MUCH ON TUMBLR SOOOO IF YOU WANNA BE FRIENDS JUST ADD ME ON DISCORD MY NICK IS

bumbackupowiec

STUFF ABT ME!!!

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THINGS IM INTO.....

LOT,

JUST TELL ME ANYTHING WHAT YOU LIKE, IM SURE I LIKE THAT TOO LMAO

Ig i NEED to do list

so yeah

-Music

I love music, all kinds, every songs its new experience Artists i listen atm are cavetown, radiohead, the drums, mitsky, gorillaz, mindless self indulgence and more

ALSO IM A YE STAN ALR?

U HEARD ME CLEAR? 💥💥🔥🔥📣📣📣📣📣🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

sorry.... lol

Dw tho, im not gonna say 10120312130 reason why he's best or stuff like that, swifties are safe here lmao

-Games

alr im a EPIC PRO GAMER,

Games i play/got are Don't starve together, TF2 (And other valve games) , Terraria, TBOI, GTA V, Gmod, Minecraft (im non premium tho :<) BTD6 Annnnd im sure i missed some

-Fandoms

OKAY FANDOMS OMG ERMMMMM

(no games bc i don't wanna to repeat ms, just games i play im in fandom)

FNAF, SCP, Undertale/Deltarune, Adventure time, Steven Universe, Breaking Bad/Better Call Saul, BFDI/BFB, TADG, Regular Show, MANY MANY MORE

-Hobbies

Okay, i got hobbie's, kindaaaaaaa basic but idc

Programming, Producing Music, Cooking, Playin games (i thought its gonna be longer list lmao)

ALRRRRR GUYS THAT'S ALL,

HAVE A GREAT DAY AND THANK'S FOR CHECKING OUT MY BLOG!!!

#sfw tickling community #sfw tickle #tword community #tickle template

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citizenstarlight · 23 days

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regarding the previous anon:

I was hoping I wouldn't have to go into detail, but March has been a very difficult month for me. A lot of it has to do with my disability case, being denied again, and being jerked around by my lawyer. It left me in a vulnerable place and in a severe depression. I didn't have the emotional or mental capacity to be on tumblr. When I am in such a state, I am hyper emotional - and easy triggered into a deeper depressive state or manic state. Because as it states in my rules I am bipolar.

I am sorry if during this time I didn't talk to you/talk to you as much. I promise it wasn't personal. I was just going through stuff, and found it easier to keep in contact with those who reached out to me bc it made me feel less annoying. If I broke promises, that was not my intention. And again I am sorry. I just had a lot going on in real life.

That being said if you are a friend and do have a problem my dms/discord is always open. I always want to work/talk things out. I always want my friends to feel heard and listened to.

My ships are not bland tho; I ship annie with men, women, nonbinary, cis and trans muses. We do not discriminate here. And that's all I have to say about that.

#★ ╼ i'mma ghost ( ooc )#tw depression #tw anon hate

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avatardarksrealm · 1 year

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Intro

Hello! It’s Dark and I am here to share you my personal guide/advice as to what i do to lucid dream. Please remember that what may work for me may not work for you. You are free to ask for any clarifications, questions, advice, etc. in the comments. Please do not claim this guide as your own. Remember to read this with an open mind, and an open heart 🧿💕.

Dream journaling

This is a common one, and although many people probably make a journal specifically for them to write down their dreams on it, it doesn’t work for me if i personally do that. Mostly because I will forget that I even own a notebook, and will probably lose it/lose track. What I do, is that since i always have my ipad near my bed when I’m asleep, I dm a friend about the dreams I had. If you don’t want to tell a friend, you can also use the notes app on your device.

Advice: Something I used to do is make my own discord server just for myself, where i organize my scripts. Every channel has a theme. For example,you can have a channel where you write down your dreams, and another one where you write down you lucid dreams, etc. since it’s discord, the date will already be recorded so no need to worry about when you experienced your dreams.

Meditating

When I meditate, I often sit down and close my eyes rather than laying down, mostly so that I do not fall asleep while doing so (unless I am doing a method that requires me to sleep). I focus on my breathing, and I try to breathe slowly and as quiet as possible.

What I do:

1. I sit in a comfortable position and I put some brown noise if my surroundings are too loud for me to concentrate. You can also lay down if you desire.

2. I feel my breath. I pick a spot, which can be nose, belly or chest. I focus on really feeling the inhales and exhales.

3. Every time you get lost in thought -which you will, many many times-you forgive yourself and you gently return to your breathing.

Tips:

-to help me stay focused, I count my breaths. You start at one, and when you reach ten (if you do) you start back at one. Every time you get lost or distracted, you start over.

-set a timer for how long you want to meditate. I’d personally recommend 5-10 minutes of meditation for beginners.

Subliminals

Listening to lucid dreaming subliminals whenever I feel like doing so has helped me a lot to lucid dream. I said “whenever I feel like doing so” because manifesting shouldn’t be treated as a chore. Below are two subs I mostly listen to that have helped me a lot.

1. My lucid dreaming / void state subliminal combo

youtube

2. This galantamine supplement

youtube

Reality checks

A popular reality check method is pinching your nose. I do this one sometimes. You basically take a deep breath in, and you then pink your nostrils shut and you try to breathe in. You can’t breathe in because your nostrils are sealed shut. My personal method is to touch anything (usually the walls) and see how it is solid. In dreams, my hand will usually pass through it or look blurry.

Methods

These are some methods I personally do sometimes

Using the hypnagogic state

I basically affirm to myself “i am sleepy, i am so sleepy” and relax my body as much as i can. I also try to slow my breathing down (basically I inhale for 4 secs, hold for 4, and exhale for 4). Once I feel sleepy or start hallucinating, I tell myself that I will lucid dream the moment I fall asleep.

WBTB (wake back to bed)

This method I have used it in the past, usually on weekends. I basically set an alarm in my ipad after 4-6 hours of sleep, to target my REM cycle. Your cycle may be different from mine, so you should experiment what works for you. If you just woke up from a dream, that means that you are in your REM cycle. I then do activities that do not wake my body too much-such as going to the bathroom, meditation, etc. I sometimes use my ipad to play some subliminals for me to lucid dream for 5 mins, but I do not recommend this if your device keeps you awake. I then go back to sleep, and I then start lucid dreaming.

Alternative to the WBTB method:

Idk how this method is called, or if it is popular enough to have a name, but I basically put my alarm to my REM cycle, and once I wake up, I stay still in my bed. I close my eyes again, and tell myself “I will lucid dream” and immediately go to sleep.

How i stabilize my lucid dreams

I usually try to touch the walls in my dreams (or the ground) and feel the wall with my hands. Sometimes spin around in my dream and I yell “STABILITY”. Another thing that I sometimes do (which I dont recommend for everyone) is to blink while lucid dreaming. Some people may wake up while blinking, so I dont recommend this to everyone.

Witchcraft

Sigils

This is not for everyone, but you could try using sigils if you need help in lucid dreaming. I personally made a sigil that will help the user get rid of any blockages regarding anything that may hinder them from manifesting (including lucid dreaming, shifting, etc).

You chant: “I break the chains of whatever is holding me back. My blockages don’t define me, and i let go of thinking otherwise.”

And you can look/stare at this sigil for as long as you want. This sigil is energy charged with the energies of my higher self and energies of my wr. Please do not steal this sigil and claim it as yours 🧿⬇️.

Asking for help

You could also ask help from someone you’re close to from your desired reality to help you lucid dream. I sometimes ask Zuko, Kacchan, or my deity for help. However, if you are new to deity work, please do your research and only do it once you are ready to work with them.

Crystals I use for lucid dreaming

-amethyst for relaxation and promoting lucid dreams

-celestite for easing anxiety when sleeping

Teas i drink/plan to drink again for lucid dreaming

-chamomile (for me to feel sleepy, as I struggle to sleep/remain asleep as i have a lot of energy)

-peppermint

-valerian root tea (with cinnamon powder)

Outro

So this is the things I do to lucid dream! Hopefully it helps some of you. Remember that this is my personal experience! You are free to experiment and see what works out for you. Have a great day/night

🧿🌸✨🦋💕

#Youtube #lucid dreaming #loassumption #loa affirmations #law of assumption #guide #loaguide #guide to lucid dreaming #shifting #manifesting #manifesting method

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freyanistics · 2 years

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Alright this is going to be a very different post, more serious based. This would probably be the second time I have to bring to light to a situation with someone who’s problematic, only difference is it’s in regards to a now ex friend

In regards of @/arwenson who was one of the main re8 writers on here, they were found out to be lying about their age. They are a minor, 15 to be exact.

I found out early today by my friend Max who showed me a screenshot of her admitting it in a discord server. To clarify I was not in the discord server, from my understanding it was 18+.

Now arwen has deactivated apparently, they claim they were going to tell everyone, I’m not sure if they did. I would assume not but I could be wrong.

Now to first address why this an issue with a minor posting nsfw content. It’s not only dangerous but also can get adults in legal trouble.

It’s dangerous because there are so many disgusting people and predators on the internet who likes taking advantage of minors. I speak from experience of this, I was groomed on the internet. I had adults take advantage of my naivety and how sexual I use to be online. And it can lead to minors getting sex trafficked, kidnapped, or killed. Look at how many cases of children getting snatch and not being found again. It’s a very serious thing, especially if you’re posting 18+ content.

On top of the fact when you lie about your age and get in adult spaces you can also put those adults in trouble. The stuff Arwen and a good majority of our mutuals who are adults could have been plastered as sex offenders had their parents saw what was going on. I literally paid Arwen to write explicit sex scenes of my character with Lady D, and I could have gotten in trouble for that.

“Oh but It’s not a big deal.” It is, people have gotten in trouble for that. And I’m very active of not wanting minors to fall into that trap from gross adults, I try not to be too explicit on here to prevent exposing minors to content. Whenever I post nsfw I tag it and now with this new update from tumblr I can switch the audience from general to mature. I don’t want to expose minors to stuff I got exposed to growing up.

It hurts me especially to find out my friend was lying about their age and willingly putting adults in possible trouble. It’s a trust that has been broken, and it really hurts. I’m not really mad, I’m more disappointed in them. I do hope they learn from this and to never ever do something like this again.

I know my other mutuals who were affected by this are just as hurting and to them I say my dms are always open if you need to vent or whatever.

I do want to also add in that a few mutuals are also mad at my other friend who told me about this in the first place. I want to say I understand that y’all are angry at them, you have every right to be. But I also think we should also hear their side of the story. I’m not going to go into grave detail because that’s not my story to tell, it’s his. However he told me that Arwen threaten to deny anything when he originally wanted to say something. And he had no evidence to back him up so she could have easily deny it and make up a wild story to make him out to be the bad guy. While yes, he should have told everyone with no proof it was their word against hers. I think we should all listen to his side of the story before we throw him out as just as guilty. But that’s just me

Anyway that’s all I have to say on the matter. I hope things get better for the people who were involved and that’s it. Be safe everyone

Edit: They still have 20 in their bio on twitter. I was also blocked by them (I never said anything to them)

#resident evil 8 #resident evil village #lady dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu #bela dimitrescu #cassandra dimitrescu #daniela dimitrescu #donna beneviento #bear posts #using the tags since so many people know them in the fandom #in regards of arwens situation #arwen situation

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