#lisel mueller

[apoemaday]

Monet Refuses the Operation

by Lisel Mueller

Doctor, you say that there are no halos around the streetlights in Paris and what I see is an aberration caused by old age, an affliction. I tell you it has taken me all my life to arrive at the vision of gas lamps as angels, to soften and blur and finally banish the edges you regret I don’t see, to learn that the line I called the horizon does not exist and sky and water, so long apart, are the same state of being. Fifty-four years before I could see Rouen cathedral is built of parallel shafts of sun, and now you want to restore my youthful errors: fixed notions of top and bottom, the illusion of three-dimensional space, wisteria separate from the bridge it covers. What can I say to convince you the Houses of Parliament dissolve night after night to become the fluid dream of the Thames? I will not return to a universe of objects that don’t know each other, as if islands were not the lost children of one great continent. The world is flux, and light becomes what it touches, becomes water, lilies on water, above and below water, becomes lilac and mauve and yellow and white and cerulean lamps, small fists passing sunlight so quickly to one another that it would take long, streaming hair inside my brush to catch it. To paint the speed of light! Our weighted shapes, these verticals, burn to mix with air and changes our bones, skin, clothes to gases. Doctor, if only you could see how heaven pulls earth into its arms and how infinitely the heart expands to claim this world, blue vapor without end.

#poetry #lisel mueller #monet refuses the operation

[luthienne]

Lisel Mueller, from Alive Together: New and Selected Poems; "On Reading An Anthology of Postwar German Poetry"

[Text ID: I know enough to refuse to say / that life is good, / but I act as though it were, / and skeptical about love, I survive / by the witness of my own.]

#lisel mueller #alive together #on reading an anthology of postwar german poetry #words #poetry #typography #...

[aemperatrix]

Lisel Mueller

#lisel mueller #poetry #what is left to say #poem #cuvinte potrivite

[sinligh]

In the name of healing I bite chunks of myself daily, spit them out in my hand with the intention to wash it away later

Eventually, i end up over analyzing them, like everything else in my life

grafts of all the causes I’m still here, glued together by my mother’s fears

be the Alpha female, she said. “feed on your most beloved, a cup of the moon’s blood every night before bed for you to run alone forever, run wild, never slip”

I Shower myself with self-loathing, lick my own wounds close Keep me sane, keep me safe

loneliness to me is just another insecurity that is dangling from my prefrontal cortex, dangling right in front of my eyes… for me to see the world through it.

I spend hours looking at the bloody chunks in my hand, thinking where did i go wrong ? how much can I hold on to this heartache ?

I've been running around it all my life, running around red lines, red lines circle me, i run in circles around myself I’m all that I’ve ever knew, yet, I only know myself in fading

A distant memory, a deja vu…

All I really know, is that the only stable in my life is the fact that I exist, and that it’s a temporary state.

jamais vu.

will the lines fade if i eat what i bit off of myself again ? if i chew and chew and chew… If i teach myself to stomach it will i be whole again?

is holding on to those pieces enough to satisfy my desire to be held ?

Or does it make me a feral rogue ?

Schizophrenic delusions ticking in my head…

Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault that I’m this alone…

then again I wasn’t the one feeding myself all the insecurities as a young child.

I wasn’t the one playing pretend.

It was never my fault, my mother thought faking happiness is the way to protect me, it was never my fault father wasn’t interested in the details, as long as I was his perfect girl…

Now, I can’t hold on to anything the way i hold on to the lunatic turmoil that makes me sway and laugh on my own personal misery.

Call it history.

Hide behind defensive humor, get my inner demons drunk on caffeine, mistake that high for happiness cause mama did too…

And wait for caffeine withdrawal to wake us up, both of us…

I’ve never been hangover, but I imagine this is how it’ll feel

The aura ? The migraine?

The urge to throw myself up to be reborn clean.

•••

•Quotes: Olivia Laing/Heather Havrilesky/ Olivia Laing/ Marya Hornbacher/Anaïs Nin/Camille Norton/ Alice Oseman/ eduardo C. Corral/anne carson/ Joanne Harris/ Hannah Green/Hannah Green/Lisel Mueller

•Original context: sinligh

•Art reference:

1. Sasha Hartslief, Late Night Shower, 2021. 2. Getting Up by Vincent Giarrano. 3.illustration by Owen Gent. 4. The Lovers on the Bridge, 1991. 5. "Beverly Edmier 1967' Keith Edmier, 1998

•song recommendation:

P.s: the whole album is a masterpiece ! Give it a try, thank me later.

#sinligh poem #personal writing #quotes #olivia laing #heather havrilesky #marya hornbacher #anaïs nin #camille norton #alice oseman #Eduardo C. Corral #anne carson #joanne harris #hannah green #lisel mueller #web weaving #word weaving #blotched words #compilation #parallels #art parallels #paintings #feminsm #feminine rage #feminist #fuck the patriarchy #dark academia #poetry #louis tomlinson #faith in the future #Spotify

[maeumsim]

#lisel mueller #글 #healing. #nature.

[havingapoemwithyou]

in november by Lisel Mueller

#Lisel Mueller #poetry #poem #november

[thensson]

I hear the cicadas in summer nights

Hosho McCreesh || Cicadas, Vincent van Gogh || Vespers, Louise Glück || The Complete Encyclopedia of the Animal World, Oxford Scientific Films || Salmonfly Cicada (Platypedia Areolata), Edward S. Ross || Cicadas, Lisel Mueller || Moths, Jennifer O'Grady || @nevver || The World in the Evening, Rachel Sherwood

#web weaving #poems and quotes #academia #dark academia #romantic academia #poetry #chaotic academia #vincent van gogh #louise gluck #cicada #jennifer o'grady #hosho mccreesh #lisel mueller #rachel sherwood #encyclopedia #oxford scientific films #edward s ross

[buryme-makeoutcreek]

Communication Error: In art people have things to say and they are important, they pound against their chest and they cry and music swells but here, here my words slide and scrap up my throat amounting in nothing. I want to tell you everything, but I can barely open my mouth to tell you my name.

Richard Siken// Call Me By Your Name dir. Luca Guadagnino// Margaret Atwood// Lisel Mueller// // Virginia Woolf// Richard Siken// Jeanette Winterson// Georges Bataille// Inside Llewyn Davis dir. The Coen Brothers // Mikko Harvey// The Rehearsal, Nathan Fielder//Hieu Minh Nguyen

#if someone knows who the yellow text is by please let me know! i screenshotted it months ago and can’t find anything #communication error #Richard Siken #web weaving #nathan fielder #the rehearsal #inside llewyn davis #mikko harvey #hieu minh nguyen #virginia woolf #lisel mueller #margaret atwood #georges bataille #luca guadagnino #timothee chamalet #coen brothers #poetry #quotes #art #my web weaving #call me by your name #miscommunication

[firstfullmoon]

Lisel Mueller, “Daughter” [ID in ALT]

#w #poetry #lisel mueller

[lokumgibayanlar]

#evli cift #dul bayan #sohbet #guzellik #sissy cd #cdrama #lisel mueller #liseli

[everywriterneedsfanart]

Because the story of your life // becomes your life 

- Lisel Mueller 

Phoebe Bridgers, I Know The End / Augusto Boal, Theatre of the Oppressed / Lisel Mueller, Why We Tell Stories / Sleeping at Last, East / Pat Barker, Silence of the Girls / Brandon Melendez, How to Write the Quantum Mechanics Uncertainty Principle into a Promise to Return Home / Lisel Mueller, The Story / Richard Siken, Litany in Which Certain Things are Crossed Out 

#web weave #webweaving #poetry #Lyrics #literature #Phoebe Bridgers #sleeping at last #pat barker #richard siken #lisel mueller #brandon melendez #augusto boal #storytelling #writblr

[more-than-ideas]

#more than ideas #so many fragile things #poetry #lisel mueller #quote

[luthienne]

Lisel Mueller, from Alive Together: New and Selected Poems; "Heartland"

[Text ID: We want to hear someone say, / "I give you my heart," meaning, / "summer and winter," meaning, / "all my time in this world,"]

#lisel mueller #alive together #heartland #words #poetry #typography #mon doux clair de lune #...

[asoftepiloguemylove]

정국 Jung Kook Decalcomania* // Lady Bird (2017) dir. Greta Gerwig // Phoebe Bridgers Garden Song // @petrichara // 青い春 Blue Spring (2001) dir. 豊田利晃 Toshiaki Toyoda // Taylor Swift Never Grow Up // Lisel Mueller Sometimes, When the Light // Mitski First Love / Late Spring

#on self #on growing up #web weave #web weaving #poetry compilation #poetry parallels #bts jungkook #bts #jungkook #decalcomania #lady bird #greta gerwig #phoebe bridgers #garden song #blue spring #blue spring movie #toshiaki toyoda #taylor swift #never grow up #lisel mueller #sometimes when the light #mitski #first love late spring #poem #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #writing #dark academia #dark academia poetry #spilled ink

[dawn-the-rithmatist]

Okay the FIRST POST I’m making about this book is about El and Lisel. Spoilers for The Golden Enclaves ahead!

So I read somewhere online before the book came out that the two main bi characters ended up cheating on their partners, and it was such a stereotype and bad rep and-

It’s,, not that.

Lisel and Alfie are described as being in an open relationship. He’s cool with El and Lisel doing things together, and at one point it’s implied he might be interested in joining if she wants. Lisel isn’t cheating on Alfie. Don’t diminish poly rep by calling that cheating.

I don’t think I especially have to go into their first time as to why El isn’t being a Stereotypical Bisexual Cheater considering (as far as she knew) Orion was already (practically) dead. She was going to have to kill him herself. She couldn’t be cheating on her partner because she… had no partner. She was hurting about that, but she wasn’t. Cheating.

The second time I could see a bit more of an argument for but imma invite you to consider things from El’s POV. She had Orion back, offered him that future that they had talked about, explained the Shady Shit going on in New York. She gave him every reason to stay with her and every reason not to go back to his mom. And then he left anyways. No promise of coming back or seeing each other again, just gone. When I read it, it felt like a breakup- the future they had planned together down the drain. At that point I really don’t think that casual sex was cheating considering he had just walked directly away from her and that future.

Well that got late. I stay thrilled that (I think?) every canon relationship between Scholomance students is queer and I stay ready to fight people who come after these wizard kids ✌️

#the golden enclaves spoilers #the golden enclaves #the scholomance #el higgins #lisel mueller #dawn speaks

[havingapoemwithyou]

there are mornings by Lisel Mueller

#Lisel Mueller #poetry #poem #summer