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asimplysimpingsimp · 3 days

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someone plz make this bro I can't-

Ok so I was just animating or whatever amd then all of a sudden, I got a great idea. It's probably already been done before but like what if, hear me out, what if, there was a fanfiction, platonic, romantic, Idc, about Chuuya's pov when Dazai left. Like obviously it's been done but like what if it weant as such:

Chuuya usually goes about his day normally, doing normal pm stuff, and once in a while he'll run into Dazai because, he too is pm. They usually fight and squabble and it's totally a routine at this point but then one day he wakes up and Dazai just isn't there. Idk maybe he was busy or something. So the next day he still doesn't see him. Probably trying a new suicide method. The next day. And the next. And the next. And the next, he isn't there. Finally he starts wondering what the heck is going on and somehow, Idk, maybe Mori tells him, or he overhears it, or somethin, he finds out Dazai left the mafia or just dissapeared out of nowhere. Now dude's like totally mad and confused cuz he didn't get any news of this sooner and he has no knowledge of why he would leave like that. Seeing as Chuuya is an actually smart person, Idk maybe he can use some deduction skills to try and figure it out. Even though he's racking his brain about it, nothing comes up. Until he remembers how close Oda and Dazai were and how Oda just recently died. So he gets a squad to do research, and they find literally nothing due to Ango's deal with an organization. So dude's got no leads, no ideas, and one clue why Dazai left, which is Oda's death. So he just has no other choice but to live with that and be vigilant. Four years. Four. Years. Pass. And no signs of Dazai. Like he just stopped existing that day. So, this could go a couple ways:

One day, Chuuya's doing something, Idk, shopping, walking, working, Idk Idc, but he's doing something and then just hears the words Dazai and immediently freaks out. He goes over and is totally freaking out and asking a billion questions and stuff. The people who were talking about him then tell him that Dazai was in the detective agency. And Chuuya's response is honestly beyond me. Make that up, I have no clue. But then he goes to check out the agency, and then sees him and after that I have no clue. I don't imagine them talking about it though. I think maybe Chuuya's just like, dang he looks way healthier or happier here, that's weird. And just decides not to interfere and goes home, questions mostly unanswered.

Or the other ending:

Chuuya, once again, is just doing stuff and then hears a reaaaaaally familiar and obnoxiously annoying voice and just wips his head around so hard it practically snaps. Then there's Dazai, just talking with an ADA member and he just freezes. Like, my dude was gone 4 years, now he's here, out of nowhere. So he's just in pure shock. Then it turns into pure rage. Then it turns into pure confusion. Then exitment. Then rage again. He cracked the case, but it was still unresolved. After that, do what you will, my brain is empty.

#dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #bsd #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #soukouku

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sleepsucks · 1 year

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#05.02.22 #2890 #jean d'heure #idk where i'm at with all this exactly anyore bc #at this point i think it woud be dishonest of me to assume i could never pass . i've been gendered correctly by strangers often enough rly #but also it's not really that much about that anymore anyway #there's just still some confidence i've yet to acquire and shame i've yet to let go off #to manage to fully be myself in public without feeling anxious about it #whatever 'myself' would be anyway #i also have to figure out how to deal with an unconditional lack of self-worth infecting the very core of my being but #that's like a whole other issue that does not in any way rely exclusively on my physical appearance

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spaghettiandart · 2 years

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I'm not sure if you been asked this before but, what would Hunter's reaction upon seeing Belos again after "Disappeared"? Because we know Hunter knows what his uncle looks like underneath the mask.

so I drew this all at like 2 am but!!! Itd go something like this (I apologize in advance if it looks like a hot mess in advance)

he just keeps on seeing him like out of the corner of his eye but he can NEVER get to him. hunter is questioning whether or not that is his uncle because seeing the emperor in casual clothing feels like a fever dream but eventually it culminates into something along these lines

the idea is that hunter spends the rest of the day (after realizing phil = belos who lost his memory) trying to get his memory working and to get him to remember being the emperor but he keeps on being interrupted every time.

eventually he gives up and gets forcibly integrated into the house of owl

#this is all of course ooc for the sake of funny #old man phil au #cyno ask #thank u for the ask!#my art #fanart #toh #the owl house #hunter #emperor belos #eda clawthorne #i just want to say that aside from hunter the only other person who figures out who phil actually is is amity.#because i think itd be funny for these two to try to deal with that in two different ways #HOW does hunter live life after his character development got veered off path even before he was canonically introduced? uhhh idk #i like to think hes spending his time there trying to watch over the emperor (said sarcastically) and just keeping an eye on him #later on he starts feeling a little guilty about actually enjoying this time of repreive #especially when ppl start asking him details about the past #i am still unused to drawing hunter i hope i portrayed panic confusion and distress alright

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braintapes · 4 months

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Question for ppl who've read the Doom Patrol comics: Is the emphasis on fathers/fatherhood as prominent in any of the comic runs as it is in the show?

I'm on my...like, 4th or 5th rewatch now and I just got to the end of S1 and I'm sitting here like. Man. This show is so very deeply about fathers, specifically shitty fuckup fathers and their children. And I'm wondering if that's something like Jeremy Carver's Supernatural influence seeping and oozing through or if that's important in the source material too.

I love the show deeply and so I'd love love love to get my hands on the comics eventually but rn I have zero knowledge on them

#doom patrol #side tangent: i wonder. if this is primarily a Show thing i wonder if its why rita's writing felt off to me #not off as in like. egregiously bad or anything her writing is perfectly serviceable n i like her a lot #but it's just that. serviceable. just fine. where the other main characters get REALLY juicy moments and times to shine #both in the deepest pits of their self loathing and also when they Try to deal w/ their own shit n grow as ppl #but something also felt...Missing. to me. from rita's plotlines #i always got the feeling like there was some fumbling around trying to figure out What To Do w/ her #idk maybe it's just me. i could be way off base but its been itching at me #in any case im curious to hear ppls thoughts and learn more. i rly wanna learn abt as much dp stuff as i can

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sillybouquetoflillies · 2 months

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i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

#i let myself sit n accept that i did go thru smth.. maybe that i didnt totally remember or that i blurred out the details of n idk #i keep feeling like an imposter n like i shouldnt be feeling it. i didnt rly like how ive been acting #but like also i let a lot of stuff out of the box in my brain doing that n idk how 2 put it back or deal with it #so now i just feel like a half untangled mess with 0 stability bc in that 'growth n discovery' period i realized almost everyone in my life #wasnt someone i wanted 2 keep around #so now its rly just me n my bestie that r close n i keep everyone else at arms length #how tf did i get on rambling abt this omggg #ugh i am srsly such a mess n i cant find the root n i think thats whats freaking me out the most #i hate not being able 2 explain why im feeling a certain type of way or justify it in anyway #i just wanna feel okay n stable n be a fun person 2 be around again!!!!#i wanna be completely independent but like.... everything is so expensive n i have no interest in anything that would pay well #i wish my sw stuff would take off but i think im too messy 4 ppl 2 wanna stick around n also i dont think im super attractive unfortunately #I DUNNO #i dont have any answers atm n its freaking me out #i either wanna figure out how to be okay with not having answers or to get the answers and solve my problems #n i also dont wanna depend on other ppl 2 solve them for me #i just wanna be a whole.. well rounded person who can take care of themselves n do what i want #while also being a cute puppy thats rly rly rly fun 2 play with n is super helpful n supportive 2 the ppl it cares abt 🥰#i am so sick of these silly dumb messy fears n emotions that keep me stuck in boring ruts #i wanna go out n have my own fun n be my own person n stop being so scared of everything!!!!!#its okay if things go bad!!!! its just more stories 2 tell ppl!!!! ppl love my stories!!!! ugh i just needa put myself out there #i just needa find smth fun 2 do that keeps me around fun ppl #i just dont know what yet #concerts r fun but idk no one super interesting is touring here rn n i need smth more frequent #ok i think this ramble is ovr #im rly sry if ur reading this!!!! i love u vry much n hope ur having a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!

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polaraffect · 4 months

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#damien.txt #so listen. i've been kind of fucking depressed for the past 3 months ish #and im going to tell a story related to that in the tags so. if u continue to read. judgement free zone for me pls okay?#cool cool so im like. Really bad abt taking care of my self & my surroundings when im depressed #esp bc like. im in school & work so. literally ALL of my energy goes to those two things #and i will go. weeks upon weeks not cleaning my room #not throwing out trash. which i am AWARE is gross. but truly i would get home and pass tf out and then wake up and #start the day again. like i just truly was not engaging it in any way #anyways. so there's this library book that's been sitting on my nightstand for around a month ish #and ive also been using it as a place for other nightstand things- putting cups on. glasses at night. etc.#well. so i get an email that this book is due back tomorrow. so im like 'oh i should put this book in my backpack'#and i lift it up..... and fuck. there is literally spotty mold ALL. OVER. the back of this fucking book #i guess one of the cups i left on the night stand leaked liquid onto my nightstand and then it soaked into the book or something #and the book didnt move for a Month so like. it's had forever to just sit there and mold over.#and fuck. fuck! i was having such a good night before this too.#now im like.... what the fuck do i even do #i probably just need to go turn it in & pay the fucking expensive fee but like. fuck me. i wanna cry #it always feels like one thing on top of another. like things just are constantly going wrong in my life #and like i Know this is not. the biggest deal in the world. but it just feels like such a dumb fucking thing to happen idk.#anyways. gonna cry abt that and. i guess figure out what im doing with it tomorrow /:

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citrine-elephant · 11 months

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is there a symbolism behind the dog in resident evil 4? or wolf, unsure if they're a dog or a wolf.

leon comes across as very doglike. very much a cat personality, but doglike in his loyalty. it's kinda hard to explain, but i've seen others for sure point it out.

it just seems like the ability to rescue a dog and that dog coming back to help leon reflects strongly with ada rescuing leon and him coming back to help her.

or am i looking too deep into this?

#resident evil #this has likely been said thousands of times over the past... 18 years is it?#christ this series has existed long lol #in 2005 i was 6 and dealing with trauma so in a way he's just like me frfr #jokes aside tho lmfao i love symbolism!!!#in re6 with the whole cacoons and butterflies and 'rebirth'/'renewal' kinda vibes?#i see the theme of 'taking accountability' thing being a renewal?#leon working through his trauma + helena working to make things right #chris working through his trauma too and... uh i didn't catch piers?#jaking learning to forgive + sherry's regeneration abilities i think...?#ada's evil reflection and the path she could have gone down?#others for sure have this more figured out than i have lmao #idk it just seems like everyone has this sort of 'facing the problem' type deal and idk the full extent bcuz i am small brain

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cinna-bunnie · 10 months

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fictional or not, dragon lore is always so interesting.

#I'm watching a DS3 lore video on the nameless king bc i wanted to figure out wtf is the dragonslayer armor's deal #but the greater lore around the dragons is SO fucking good and now I'm thinking about dragons lol #i could watch these dark souls/elden ring lore videos by VaatiVidya all day tbh #i LOVE how deep he goes with it. these worlds and their lore already feel huge but #as someone who's only played the third dark souls it rly makes me appreciate how complex and interconnected it is as a series.#sometimes i wonder if the creators ever watch these vids and think “we didn't mean all that but that's a great idea”#or if they watch it and get super happy like YES that is exactly what our subtle storytelling meant.#either way i have So so much respect for ppl who go and put together these lore videos #going as far as to look at game dumps and early releases/cut content and ALL the dialogue and item descriptions #for any one topic the lore is so scattered about and piecing together any single thing seems like such a massive undertaking.#like lmaooo i can't even follow a single questline without pulling up the wiki #a recent rabbit hole i went down too is how there are different times/realities even just DS3 takes place in?#like how in Untended Graves you see a world without light where darkness rules - and in ringed city when ur fighting those #dragons in the base of that big tree that's supposed to be the original firelink shrine and then the shrine u use is maybe The Past?#the past relative to the other shrine from the world where the flame went out w darkness ruling.#idk how the transition works from being in that one dude's garden in ur world to just walking right into the other one but idc.#just say i got twilight zoned or somethn lol. always. very interesting stuff :^} I'm not smart enough to pick up on anything in the moment #but it's SO fun watching what other people pieced together whose whole thing is that they go thru these games thoroughly.#and in a way it makes me not want to stop playing DS/ER bc there's just so much going on here that's so rewarding??#like. on TOP of the suuper deep lore the gameplay is also just super fun and u get HELLA weapons and special moves #and the modding scene has made some hella streamline tools that are so good these have been the first games I've ever MADE mods for!#like i can't think of any other games that are like this where I'm really encouraged it make it my own with such a helpful and #engaging community. I'm sure there r other games out there that are similarly engaging with deep lore and streamlined modtools #and mod communities but (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) 1. where?? 2. DS/ER are very beloved to me.#it's funny how little u have to know or do to beat their respective storylines. I've played them both a ton and still know so little.#and when i walk away from these lore vids I'm always like Woah 😵‍💫 yk? anyways.. that's my lil rant :3 back to work now

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merriclo · 1 year

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my english teacher let me write a character analysis of tim and lex from jurassic park for my final project let’s fucking gooooo

#i think she’s expecting like. two-three pages max. it’s going to be a lot longer than that.#this is what happens when you let someone who’s mentally ill have fun in an english class #listen man they’re my faves ok?#plus. my teacher hates lex w a burning passion and i am on a mission to change her mind #she’s a little girl dealing with the aftermath of her dad leaving her #watching as this new father figure suddenly shows up only to leave her too #and then dealing with learning to trust in grant #she’s also meant to be a representation of the ideals her grandpa holds in a way to illustrate how childish they are #buut the kids also kind of stand in a similar spot as the dinosaurs so they represent the uncontrollable chaos that hammond tried to control #idk it’s really interesting #hammond + lex rep control #grant + tim rep change #and the dinosaurs + the kids rep chaos #the other characters obviously fall into those categories too but i don’t wanna type it all out rn #there’s also a rlly interesting theme of new v old v now #but i’ve rambled long enough for now #tl;dr jurassic park is a good book #also don’t let vry opinionated guys w hyperfixations write an essay on said hyperfixation without knowing what ur getting into

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aroaessidhe · 2 years

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2022 reads // twitter thread

Just Your Local Bisexual Disaster

YA contemporary about an aspiring music photographer who needs a date to her sister's quinceañera

dealing with a crush on her best friend, ex boyfriend, and the new girl in town

and trying to figure out her feelings while preserving her friendships

#Just Your Local Bisexual Disaster #aroaessidhe 2022 reads #also recommend!#i think the best friend relationship was concluded a liiiitle weirdly #like i actually love the concept of 'my friendship feelings for you are just as strong as romantic feelings and i got confused'#(bc romance isn't more important than friendship)#but the way it was a bit entangled with 'straight girl experimenting/messing with my feelings'...idk #i think it's funny how her 'big secret i have to tell her so our relationship isn't a lie' is just. hvaing a private instagram art project #where she talks about her feelings. girl it's no different from a diary except a couple other people r seeing it....#i mean i know teenagers r like that and also i'd prefer that than some other actually bad plot point written in #i don't. get why it's a big deal though? it' a private account which i assume meant it had no followers #but they keep saying 'telling the whole internet'#writing down your feelings about people to figure out your feelings seems like a perfectly normal healthy thing to do #anyway neither of these are massive criticisms its a good book just my specific thoguhts LOL

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xiaojaan · 1 year

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OMG YOUVE SEEN THE ECLIPSE!!! who’s your fave?

AYAN OF COURSE hes so gay lmao i love him

#look tbh i just thgt the whole plot was kinda kindaaaa just a lil bit overdramatic for no reason #but akk and ayan are just too cute #and thua and khan too #tbh i just cant choose i do like ayan more bc that guy is the only one who has his shit most figured out at least his own gayness #and hes just a cutie tbh w all that cool guy exterior my bro just needs a hug #and so do all of them bdkfks #as i said i just thgt the plot was like idk tiny bit dramatic and the twist at the end was supposed to be climactic and serious but #god i rmr laughing so hard they turned the whole thing way more unrealistic dkdjfksfn #the chemistry bw the others is so so cute tho so 10/10 to that #did i just give a u a whole review of the show when u just asked for my fave character? yes i did now u gotta deal w it bfjsks #my mutuals #otbnaga

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yarrowleef-babbles · 2 years

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(it case it needs 2 be said, when i make speculative live-blog thought posts like this, i Do Not want anyone to confirm or deny or give me hints about what happens later, unless i specifically ask plz and ty)

ANYWAY jumping off that last post, one of the things I consistently saw in fanart before i knew anything was a queer pairing involving...SOMEONE, couldnt say who since my memory is being filtered through a me that couldn't keep any of the names straight. I ALSO could not for the life of me tell if it was *actually canon* or if it was one of those instances of a fan pairing getting really popular and taking over fanworks, even though its just ""subtext"" in canon (which often translates to 'the characters hang out a lot'.....i'm not *mad*, i have simply been mislead and then disappointed by canon when it comes to fandom habits like this more than once)

but it felt so consistent that i THINK it may have actually been based on canon. so i have spent this reading wondering who and how it was going to manifest

like is Ronan having vaguley homoerotic nightmares about Adam but twisted up and colored through the Catholic Guilt(tm) filter or am i reading it wrong lmao