#like why is this making me lowkey sad

[motherfuckingbrad]

me when poppy li grew up feeling like she had to impress people in order for them to love her so now she chases success but at the same time her success is actively making the most important person in her life hate her because ian only values her as a tool to him and not as her own creator …..

#ow #can u tell i’m up late thinking about mythic quest again #TO CATCH A MOUSE WAS SO SAD #i know ian’s backstory was also sad and like yeah i’ll prolly talk about it eventually but #sjsjsnakkaja POPPY #s3 is lowkey making me anti ian what is this #why is he always tearing her down #why didn’t i realize this before #idk i’m just upset for my baby ig #she just wanted a partnership and his stupud fuckimg ego ruins everything #men (derogatory) #mythic quest #poppy li #ian grimm

[childaintit]

How I see Re zero characters as somebody who did not read the novel pt 2 :

NATSUKI SUBARU

#re zero #re:zero #subaru natsuki #natsuki subaru #hes just batshit insane but in a :D way #like #“Man i died cuz of u but its ok bro i kno u was feeling quirky” #this man lowkey terrifies me #but at the same time i laugh at him because hes just that pathetic #and then i cry abt him cuz his friends will never know why he's like this #makes me sad #thank god theres a fanfic abt it tho #where they react to his death #i think the title was “watching him die again and again” #its on wattpad #and ao3 #i think

[bambirex]

The way my dash was such a lovely positive place a few days after the new season came out and i was having so much fun hanging out here and now it's full of anti geraskier posts... Like... You don't have to suddenly hate on a ship you previously loved just because there's a new one... You can multiship... You can prefer one to the other and acknowledge they work for different reasons... Just... Why the sudden hostility in every second post i see

#i absolutely love radskier so far and i am so happy we have it #and it's very different from geraskier and i feel like comparing canon ships to non-canon ones is almost an apples and oranges situation #i do understand why people prefer it like it makes sense #but it's kinda weird to see people who previously loved geraskier throwing it in the trash and also lowkey making fun of people #who still enjoy it #can't we all just enjoy all the lovely jaskier ships #bambi says some bullshit #idk it just kinda makes me sad like the tone changed so abruptly

[hauntedpearl]

the trap is like. okay i have love for it bc i am in an abusive relationship with the cw show supernatural and it has rotted my brain to the point where i settle for scraps but BUT the way it could've been crazyinsanegood was if dean did a hamilton-esque apology instead of saying he forgives cas. like yes cas craves forgiveness in that moment but also. like. there is no reason for him to actually be. like. forgiven. everyone lost in moriah. and then AFTER that dean was just lashing out. which the og script fleshed out the apology soooo much better like getting to the root of their fight and dean admitting that he blamed cas because he just needed someone to blame and not because cas did anything wrong. but also. imagine "if i could save his life — if i could trade his life for mine, he'd be standing here right now, and you would smile, and that would be enough." like it would never happen BUT IF IT HAD. IF ON GOD ROBERT BERENS MY MORTAL FRENEMY DID THIS FOR ME??? i would've won. i would've had EVERYTHING !!!!

#the problem with deanjack is that they are father and son and they are bad at being father and son and also their closeness is like. #dependent on who is writing them #if EYE was in that writing room i would make them gokd father and son breaking the cycle of violence in the perpetuating cycle of violence #show #but my naive ass is not there sadly #anyway god hates me so i don't see more OBVIOUS dean giving jack importance scenes on the show #like i think the dean in my head is like. fully just his good father who committed atrocities but is willing to do a 180 about them #but in canon i do hate the way he is with jack like he is soooo mean and for what #also there's this. wall between them. it's verg sad to watch fot me personally. #like they're family but it's always something they SAY and not SHOW and it's like. well. act like it. #that one time he was dying that was good. also the birthday cake #this is lowkey why all readings of dean are valid to me because like. they give us a lot of contradictory shit lmao #anyWAY #IN THE GOOD SPN IN MY HEAD #this would happen and then cas would slap him and then they would hug and cry and be crazyinsanesad together #and sam would solve the plot problems idc #doe is talking again #OMG SPN POST??? ON MY BLOG??? OG POST NOT TWO YEARS OLD??? #just thinking about birthday boy #destiel #dad dean and jack #sorry for Hamilton reference in 2023 that song is just. good okay 😔

[silenthillbunni]

🌧️🫧💭

#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀 #like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

[twistedappletree]

One of the reasons I can’t handle extreme zhuiling angst is because I start thinking of situations like Lan Sizhui learning empathy and using it to try and find out more about his family/parents/history etc. but being unable to get out and Jin Ling desperately trying to bring him back through any means possible (his voice, his bell, LSZ’s childhood toys) but nothing seems to work so he exhausts himself watching over LSZ day by day and protecting his body until he figures out a way to save him because he refuses to let him go

#I TOLD YOU I LIKE TO BREAK MY OWN HEART #why am I thinking about this at 7:30 in the morning I even had good coffee I should be having HAPPY THOUGHTS WTF #😭😭😭😭😭 #mdzs #the untamed #jin ling #lan sizhui #angst #mdzs empathy #mo dao zu shi #zhuiling #mdzs headcanons #fic musings #apple babble 🍎 #it makes me so goddamn sad thinking about them being sad I CANT HANDLE IT #someone else write this stuff for me idt I can do it tbh LOL #ofc JL would eventually consult WWX lbr #and WWX would lowkey be disappointed in LSZ for using empathy but he’d do anything to save his a-yuan #I can only handle something like this if it’s a good ending tho pls for the love of god ajdbakndka #fic ideas #unfortunately #like I feel like LSZ would get stuck in some sort of limbo instead of getting completely possessed #bc he would have a hard time leaving after seeing his family #hence the empathy lasting days #IF that’s possible I’m not sure #but in fanfiction anything is possible bc we are all ✨unhinged✨ lmaoooo

[tfshouldidohere]

Ok yay !!! I'm finally back in the city 🏙🚗💨

#lowkey kinda sad its over so soon #but its ok cuz !!! #i plan to come back soon !!!! #also whats WITH the air in my hometown #like why does it always make me break out #the air is supposed to be better there cuz of the nature #plus the fact that we're near a few beaches #so WHYYYY do i always break out there 👹 #other than that #week was amaaazing !!! #tfshouldirambles

[paint-music-with-me]

PLEASE DONT TWIST MY CHANG INTO SOMETHING HE IS NOT PLEASEEEE 😭😭

#i love him so much #WHY DO U GIVE PURPLE GRAPE CHARACRERS SEVERE MOMMY ISSUES!?!? #first jiang cheng and now feng chang??? #whats going on!?!? #also lowkey me thinks he will fall for bai fengxi #i mean once he gets to talk to her and know her?? #she got all these men falling for her #i dnt blame them - i too am in love with her #i want feng qiwu to meet her and fall too but #with the way their story may line up i think she may not like her #which will make me sad #and like its a misunderstanding too! #ughhh #wrtw liveblog #blabber time

[clitfisto]

im very high and i miss having a cat

#cause fuckin. dotty has been dead and lola doesnt really seem to trust me anymore #cause she seems like she doesnt quite recognize me after ive been moved out for a year which is. sad. she was my little buddy #and now we dont have any pets at all here and i like to have a creature #thats lowkey why ive been wanting a venus flytrap i feel like the visible activity makes it seem more alive #and having an anthropomorphized ''mouth'' implies a head so in my heart it is dogy #idk. my sparse handful of squishmallows arent filling the void :/

[tchaikovskaya]

:/

#update on that car crash i posted about the other day: he hit an 18 wheeler at 100+ mph and died on impact #glad he didnt suffer and lowkey it was his own fault for going that fast lol but im also sad about it like damn #idk its just making me think about the Fragility of the Human Flesh Vessel etc etc etc #i didnt even know him or see the crash i just saw his car after the fact bc i happened to be on that road that day lol why do i care

[astrxealis]

sometimes i randomly remember things about my childhood! (neko atsume)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i miss the games i used to play as a kid !! on browser or mobile or whatever !! #there's this one. ps2 or ps3 game me and lune used to play a lot and we once looked for it years ago and found it again #but now. ever since then. we can't :(( i still remember jumping... and then that waterfall...... #kh is so special to me. only ever played a bit of 1 and then the full of 3 so i am very weird but. yeah! #i never got off the island! and then . that really stuck /pos and then i got into kh3 yeaaaars after #bcs my aunt (bless her. shes the one who gets us into a lot of games ngl) got kh3 but she didnt. really like it if i'm not mistaken #understandable but i still really enjoyed kh3 hehe ^^ even w its imperfections! game was kinda ya fr but <3 #and then i really just. realized. that oh! this is something from my childhood!! #anyways yeah most of all i probably miss ofc the memories #but also the games on browser. jmkit was smth i really remember LOL i was a roleplay kid fr lmfaooo #BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT. since uhh. that thing people used to do games n stuff on browser shut down #ig ever since then i've not played on browser as often! ig that's one reason why i really like gbf #it's better for me to play in the app on my phone but also browser is just. really nice for numerous reasons ofc #but also it reminds me of that !! anyways i rmbr the bartender game so well #and the one w the haunted house and the ghosts good gods the games i liked to play as a kid #lowkey really make sense LMFAO SOME OF THEM WERE REALLY. untitled goose game vibes fr #yeah i once got scammed on this one browser game. i was so sad LMFAO BLESS I NEVER USED MY ACTUAL EMAIL #<- back then my emails were random ones like. they always were to do w crystals tho #so you can see one reason why raha is vv special to me :] awh man i used to be a mlp kid. good times #mhm yeah ... !! i used to be super into lego too. movies games and ofc the toys and all. hehe #tbh a lot of these stuff i actually do want to get back into. its less... 'growing out of it' for me and more 'growing into other things' #as i age and having to actually manage my time now. and the reality of being an adult somewhat soon is. there #and i don't think peer pressure affects me as much as... some but it's also quite there. i want to fit in... kinda? not really? kinda? #whoops that took a turn. help. ANYWAYS BACK TO IT ARGHH I MISS THOSE WEBSITES !!!!! #wordguy or something awh man no wonder i was a smart and nerdy kid and until now. i was always into those stuff #fun fact kid me i liked to collect paper. mostly so i could write but yeah. fun fact i also was known as the jacket kid in like idk 6th #grade and 5th? bcs i always wore my jacket even w ph weather being the way it is <3 #yk change is scary. im a sentimental person! its so scary but at the same time so cool n interesting #sigfjsbdkdbskdn. interesting how all we come across in life (esp as kids!) shape and change us

[emometalhead]

After being back at work for two days, and having two horrendous shifts, I am one mishap away from quitting.

#dealt with so many ridiculously angry customers yesterday and was so busy I was scrambling #insanely busy today to the point of needing a manager to help me at one point because my workload was too much for one person #I was very very overwhelmed today #I felt good going into my shift and then immediately got chewed out by the other manager about something #got so anxious I thought I was going to cry and a co-worker I've barely spoken to asked why I looked so sad #set the tone for the whole shift tbh #working with that manager again tomorrow night and I am not looking forward to it #I hate closing in general but it makes it worse that now I'm like extra stressed around that manager #anyway I lowkey want to quit and/or die but it's fine #ashley rambles #work things

[d0llyrat]

I know better than anyone that gifts, objects, money isn't ever going to make me happy.

The only thing that is really going to make me happy, is spending my time with the people that really love me, and I can't wait for that. I need to hold on, because this just makes me want to give up, and I don't wanna because I don't wanna hurt my loved ones

#dollyblablah #lowkey sad because of irl stuff #why is my life like this sksbksksjssksjjskks #but im trying to be optimistic. i try to think this is just going to make me very strong

[othercrossee]

Tiktok filter r insane honestly

#z rambles #ik a lot of my mutuals dont use rhis app (thank god ❤ stay safe yall) but yall do NOT understand how awful it is #ik bitches be talking SHIT about SNOW but at least that app can let u turn it off and have actual good and cute filters #but tiktok? that shit WARP your shit BAD like BAD #it warp my face so bad that idk why theae people on there r like omg i csnt be this beautiful. WHAT R U SAYINF #did this fucking app and the people on there took cunts perception of their own beauty and drag it thru the mud #i saw it look cute on this girl and i tried it and tell me why its those cat eyes filter that warp my eyes #feels lowkey racially motivated but thats just me its weird out here bro #theres worse filter its awful #idk why they keep using filters like if ur UGLY in this fikter ur UGLY irl its liek those maskfishing trend #yall r jusr findinf creative ways to call someone ugly and make people feel bad for stupid reasons #the first thought i have when i tried those faxe warping filters was not oh i wish i look like this. i was DISGUSTED and disappointed #these kids r gomna grow up feeling awful of not fitting into how tjey looked/not having any pics at all (cuz theyre warped and edited) #which i understand a lot i csnr trust my past pictures umless ir was taken by others cuz it was heavily edited and whitewashed #it wasnt that bad but it def pulled my face and eyes to the korean beauty standard (SNOW) #but u can understand its worse on there cuz its not just a camera app. its a social media with a platform for many #literally a setup for body dysphoria etc no womder these kids r turning out awful theyre being exposed to so much bullshit #yall cpuld say oh its the same as our generatiom. ABSOLUTELY NOT #they csnt compare to our childhood lets be real here we had it bettee than whatever tf they got goinf on.....not a competition its sad

[rosesvioletspullman]

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#lowkey seeing peoples fics get reblogged while mine only got likes makes me sad #it’s the reason why i gave up after my rhett fic #i thought with that one i might actually get back into writing #but that one and my bob one did so bad i don’t see the point

[somekindafairy]

didn't qualify for peri :(

#referring to top surgery to be clear #changing my tags to say: #like idk even know why this is making me so sad #and i have nothing against DI and thats what most people have to get anyway #i don't like the idea of nipple graphs really #but its not that big a deal #and i knew i was an edge case but like honestly i think i thought i would qualify #like i think its just these lowkey plans I've had in the back of my head for years not working out and i have to reassess #but thats coming out as just being really sad about it idk #this whole process has been so emotionally fraught #like its been so hard (not even getting into the money) even though i want it so bad