#like please fuck off 😭

[ahalliance]

qétoiles n qbagz’ convo about his code arm + fun banter from last sunday :] english subs + transcript below da cut

[Video transcript:

Etoiles: But yesterday when he [Forever] talked to me, he was so frightened, basically he was like, ‘But one day won’t you lose your shit and want to kill the Eggs with the Code, and everything?’ Though I was telling him, ‘But the fact is, I know the Code very well’—

Baghera: Oh, so you told him you joined—?

Etoiles: No, no, no, not at all. It’s just that he has these assumptions that I’m really allied to the Code because—

Baghera: I think it’s due to your Code tattoo, also, it gives off the impression you’re in the process of transforming into a Code, Etoiles, let’s not lie.

Etoiles: That’s it, that’s it. But, basically I told him that I’ve had it since—

Baghera: But you don’t give a shit? You’re taking it well?

Etoiles: Well, yeah, I don’t give a shit because I know he’ll never beat me. Basically I—

Baghera: But you don’t give a shit about the code literally popping up over your body?

Etoiles: Well, yeah, because it’s a part of me now. It’s normal.

Baghera: How?

Etoiles: Well, after— after fighting someone 17 times, you start— you start creating links. But those links—

Baghera: But— you know that’s not how things work. Like— look, we cross paths. Right now we’re crossing paths. You see? We’re crossing paths. I kick your ass. Like, for free. You see? I see you, I’m like, ‘Bro, I don’t like his face,’ so I kick your ass.

Etoiles: But no! Because if you tell me ‘Good fight’ at the end—

Baghera: I see you again— wait, I’m not finished. I see you again like 12 times, and I tell myself, ‘Hey, I’ll do it again,’ I kick your ass again. After a while, Rayou, I won’t get diabetes!

Etoiles: Well, maybe you will, huh.

Baghera: Yes, but it’s not— it doesn’t work, like— there’s no correlation, you see!

Etoiles: You know you won’t have those cells anymore, you know, it’s possible.

Baghera: But— no— what I mean is— Etoiles! That’s now how it works! It’s worrisome! It’s normal for us to worry!

Etoiles: Well, yeah, but, uhhh. Basically, you’re all used to talking with me on the island. And you understand very well that there’s nothing able to corrupt me.

Baghera: That we don’t know, Etoiles! Because— if it’s— I know that your morality, and your enormous brain, and your big body, won’t get corrupted. But if there’s suddenly— well, what I mean is that we don’t know what all the possible systems of manipulation on the island are.

Etoiles: It’s true. No, it’s true. But for the moment I’m doing well.

Baghera: Yeah, well, so much the better. But—

Etoiles: For the moment I’m doing well!

Baghera: If you feel any change, Etoiles, mention it, okay?

Etoiles: Oh, I’ll talk about it. But for the time being I’m doing very well.

Baghera: So I can understand peoples’ fear upon seeing you LITERALLY transform into a Code and who tell themselves, ‘Oh, strange, maybe there’s a thing with the Codes.’

Etoiles: It’s true but who can better know the dangers of the Code than someone who’s confronted it his whole life? Instead of someone who—

Baghera: I’m well aware.

Etoiles: No but it’s— it’s— it’s for that reason that I told Forever. I totally understand the fear and everything, it’s normal. You see a dude turning into a Code, you ask yourself, ‘What’s the guy who sent him doing?’

Baghera: Well, yeah, there you go.

Etoiles: Like, ‘Who sent him?’

Baghera: But you don’t feel any different? Nothing?

Etoiles: Absolutely not, no. Everything is going well. I still hate the Code whenever I see him, I still want to kick his ass. Everything’s fine. Even if right now I want him—

Baghera: But you join up with them when he suggests it, yeah. Well, it’s to get the shield back.

Etoiles: It was just for the shield, believe me. Believe me, if I run into them again- if I run into them again and they don’t offer me things to save the Eggs and everything, it’s goodbye. And considering what I’ve prepared— considering what I’ve prepared, I objectively think that 5 Codes won’t be enough to kill me. There’ll need to be 10 of them.

Baghera: They might bring 10, huh.

Etoiles: Yeah, well, then again, we have time.

Baghera: Well, in any case, they don’t want to kill you anymore since you’re working with them.

Etoiles: Well, in fact, we’re not really— actually— I don’t really know what he’s thinking. Because the last time we talked I told them, ‘But if you lay even a finger on the Eggs, I’ll kick your fucking asses, you sacks of shit.’ And they left, and they didn’t answer me.

Baghera: Then again, they’re a bit cryptic, the Codes, you know.

Etoiles: Yeah, but normally they— I managed to talk with them a bit, so— so I don’t know. Personally, I’m telling you—

Baghera: Okay, no, what I mean is that I understand why when people see you they think, ‘Maybe it’s possible he’s getting a little bit corrupted by the Codes.’

Etoiles: No but yeah, yeah, I totally get it. But honestly, never. Never in a million years.

Baghera: I believe you! I trust you. But if there’s— if once you feel any difference or something of the sort, you mention it, okay? To whomever you want, but you mention it.

Etoiles: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (10000x)

Baghera: You know you’re not very reassuring when you say that, as an answer.

Etoiles: That’s true. But I’m telling you there’s no problem. And— actually. The moment I start feeling strange, I’ll put numbers. And so you’ll have to come get me.

Baghera: Okay, okay. I’ll remember that.

Etoiles: Just that. But I— I— yeah. I whisper in the Code’s ear.

Baghera: The day you start talking to me in binary, there’ll be an issue, basically.

Etoiles: The day I say, ‘10001’, that’s it. But actually, I’m telling you, I could never be corrupted because I have AVAST, my wool block which blocks viruses.

Baghera: That’s real, that’s real.

end video transcript.]

#qsmp #etoiles #baghera jones #étoiles #jay clips #jay rambles #8/10/2023 #please reblog this it took so long . #my fault for thinking transcribing and subtitling a 4min clip was a smart idea tho tbf #lmk if there’s any like . orthography errors in the transcript or whatevs i’ll correct em #i clipped this from étoiles pov but bagz’ pov was so fucking good too #the absolute side eye she gave him as he said the code ‘was a part of him now’ 😭 love the energy #these clips r just gonna serve as her I TOLD YOU SO evidence if smth happens #^ see idk if he’s actually gonna get corrupted (cubito’s chad enough to stave it off let’s be fr) #but i think it’s more of a question of whether the admins (and étoiles) will be able to resist the call of dramatic irony #bc it would be so good LMAO #anw shoutout to the part where he says ‘j’ai envie de lui [le Code]—‘ (I want him [the Code]—‘) #im well aware he just cut himself off before finishing his sentence but ty for furthering the codetoiles agenda king i appreciate it #saying ‘en ce moment j’ai un peu plus envie de lui’ about the Code is CRAZY kabdisdbsidjs

[keekeenuggets]

We don't talk enough about how well ALL of the Vees know and care about each other so much, like--

We first see them when Velvette is calling Vox about Val being upset in ep 2, but there's no way he would have asked for the help himself. Like he's not gonna be like "hey get Vox for me I need him" because that seems too vulnerable, BUT he was expecting Vox to come.

He literally says "Fuckin' finally!"

Which would either mean that Velvette told him Vox is on his way, OR Val knew Velvette would tell Vox to come. (It is possible he expected it because of the cameras, but Vox didn't seem to know Val was throwing a tantrum until Velvette called him, and Vox's plan for the day seemed to involve multiple meetings, so I don't think he watches the cameras often enough for that.)

Also Velvette knew how to calm Valentino down. She was busy with a fashion show and needed to focus on that, and she was mad that Val was wrecking her shit, but even after he was out of her hair and not a problem to her, she repeated to Vox that he needs to go take care of Val.

"Take care of the piss baby!"

I 100% believe she could have done it herself (she probably did partly?? considering he stopped the tantrum and was in his room before Vox got there-- unless her telling Val that Vox was on his way was what did it, but that would still be something she knew to do), but she had a show to run. Still, she wasn't going to leave Val alone to be moping around.

Also the fact Valentino seems to have some level of control over his smoke implies he wanted to be dramatic as fuck or wanted to hide himself and sat in a cloud of smoke on purpose.

Vox obviously knows how to talk Val out of shit, and canon makes it more clear that he understands Val well.

But overall there's obvious intimacy between all three of the Vees in that they care for each other and know exactly what's needed and/or what will happen in situations like that.

#the vees #valentino #vox #velvette #hazbin hotel #like seriously if Velvette's goal was only to get Val to stop wrecking shit she would have brushed Vox off when he got there #Val wasn't fucking anything up anymore #BUT she knew he wasn't feeling better so she told Vox to go up there #(more like she ordered him around lmao) #and obviously Vox canceled his appointments to go take care of Val instead #which Velvette couldn't easily do with a show because if you're putting on a show in about 15 minutes or however close it was #that meant people paid and were waiting for it and canceling would make them lose money #Vox didn't seem to have urgent appointments though #and like Velvette KNEW Vox would go help Val #they're all so perfect for each other please #also this is why Velvette as the 'daughter' of the other Vees makes no fucking sense because #why would you tell a parental figure 'fuck you' and refer to the other parental figure as a 'piss baby' #be serious 😭 #Val is the child actually #(half joking) #posts by 📲

[uncanny-tranny]

You know how some clay artists make a little kiln god to protect their pottery? I need to crochet a little yarn god to make sure my projects always have good omens near them because I think I need that 😭😨

#crochet #art #if anybody has ideas for a yarn god PLEASE i think that would be cute #context: using a thin acrylic yarn (oh no) for a new project (fuck) that uses a stitch i'm okay with but not an expert on (SHIT) #and the only way to access the pattern is by video (thankfully the video maker is alright 🙏) #you know how people say that chunky yarn is hard to work with? i'm the opposite #i'm finding this acrylic yarn to be really fussy and i'm not sure i like it as a yarn at ALL #and some people make CLOTHES out of this yarn? i think i fear those people the most in this world #fiber art #holy shit this yarn is also a navy blue and this pattern is classed as intermediate #you know how they say to 'trust the process'? well i'm not trusting the process rn!!!! let me off!!!!!!! 😭😭😭

[skitskatdacat63]

I would commit murder to see the interview these pictures are from

#im feeling very monza 2011 today i guess!!! #nah but seriously PLEASE I WANT TO WATCH THIS SO BAD #I NEED CONTEXT FOR THEIR INCREDIBLY AWKWARD HUG #let me describe these photos for you bcs they are all just peak vettonso: #the first one where theyre smiling and looking at each other 🥰🥰🥰 #and the second where theyre both smiling at the interviewer(?) #third and fourth i describe as: twink about to pounce #like seriously seb what is he talking about that is making you look at him like you want to eat him #fifth is sending me like ITS SO AWKWARD AND I LOVE IT #just my fav thing about 2010s vettonso where seb is so excitable and touchy and etc #and nando is like: i dont want to be here rn get him off me DJKFLGL #stop it Fernando. i know you want to. #and then last one idk i really like it. you guys know how i feel abour chairs. #i guess to me theres something about how differently they're sitting #like seb is more open and relaxed and Fernando is a lot more curled up and small #ANYWAYS WHERE IS THE VIDEO OF THIS 😭😭😭😭 I NEED IT #this actually adds to my bafflement abt their dynamic at this gp #bcs this is how the race wknd starts off and isnt it truly wonderful? that fernando then says 3 days later: fuck u my boy #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #2011 italian gp #we do a little bit of f1

[ashkii-0]

I hate people so much.

#artists on tumblr #like bro please just leave me alone #I’m not doing this right now. #this isn’t directed to anybody on here but like- #FUCK OFF?? #😭😭🙏🙏

[lemongogo]

hi

#yall ths art block is so bad its actually making me so stressed out😭😭😭 #its been awful plenty of times before BUT THISSS???IT FEELS NEVER ENDINGGG #so fucking frustrating-__- and i was finally working on smth i had started to like yday #but i hit this mid point where i didnt know How 2 break thru from like .. rough > finished #and im like T__T . brah . head in my hands #IDK WHAT TO DOOOOOOO . < lamenting . < woe is me . #sry i luv talking abt it . its therapeutic tbh . what do u guys do when u are in this position #i also try to go back to basics and j do gesture studies until i feel more capable #but im like shakig the bars of my cage . let me do smt fun again. please ❤️ PLEASEE ❤️ #i think part of it is also imposter syndrome whre like .. u see so many people u look up to doing so many cool things w their art #and its like . falling back into the trap of comparison and feeling like nothing u make can replicate the feeling of seeing those other #things ykwim🤔 #sick in da head . i think its also a twt issue #like ever since i started posting on there ive been feeling like i have 2 make . quote unquote good things which . obviously dookie sentimen #bc any art is objectively good art there isnt like . U CANT BE BAD YKWIM HELP #but when i j posted to tumblr it was like . u send it off like slapping a horse on the ass and u see it ride away and its so lowkey #and fun.. the community here is so muchc fun .. j dont feel pressured here #smiles sweetly #<gi influence #maybe ill delete the app 4 a while until i feel normal again #guys we need to kill all social media #guys we need to go back to drawing sheep on rocks (<giotto ref( #if i had 2 elaborate ig it feels like . i am following the path of most resistance -__- like wading hesdstrong in2 waves that keep pushing #me back . theres so much i want to do Wish i could do but its like damn i can barely draw like two complete things over the course of 2-3 mo #from how HARD IT ISSS🚶and my aphantasia compounds it . fumbling arnd in a dark room hoping smth sticks #graa.. i think its the realization that i couldnt ever do art professionally bc im such an obstinate artist T_T #tbh saying all this now its like looking up in2 the eyes of all my art insecurities looming over me #CASTING 100 FT SHADOWWWW🧍 #whteve . check back on me in 2 months hopefully i feel normal ab it then

[tsuchinokoroyale]

Enemy fellatio’d

#don’t ask me how I was playing for the other 2/3s of his health bar this clip is definitely indicative of the whole attempt okay #I’m very much Not Good at Elden ring but this was soooooo satisfying I actually quite like the bell bearing hunter’s moveset #I just wish he didn’t hit like a goddamn TRUCK like that sword throw does WAY too much damage for how fast it comes out and combos #I understand the desire to punish panic dodges but please ease up a little I was so clenched this whole time 😭😭😭 #I keep telling boys to come fuck me whenever I play cuz I’ll punch their dicks off but apparently that’s not very appealing 🙄 #tsuchi plays games

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[starscelly]

oh the flow is So alive and well !!

#shave maybe though? just a thought? #also #miro 🤝 roope #want to like. fuck dicaprio so bad??? #i assume they’re asking favorite actor based off other responses in the video #dallas stars #miro heiskanen #viima i love u for all the summer content but whoever takes videos for social media. please get a better camera 😭

[apollos-boyfriend]

were never fucking getting persona 6 😭

#icarus speaks #like. u guys know me. u know i love p5 #those are my kids. my children. i would die and kill for them #we have gotten like 40 thousand fucking spin offs and additions 😭 #CAN WE PLEASE JUST MOVE ONTO THE NEXT BATCH

[fxckton]

lee moods that start feeling like this

#the way i wanna be tickled fucking mercilessly is insanity #i’m crazy #i’m fucking insane . #and just for it to be so bad you can barely take it pleading and begging for it to stop #but the ler just coos at u like ‘aww that’s not the safeword <3’ FUCKING CHRIST #no i need my brain to shut off please. #and when i get into silent laughter for them to just tickle harder till i finally start wheezing back into laughter😭😭😭😭😭😭😭PLEASE #and then them calling u out on how much u love this #OR EVEN . teasing u abt how wet this would get u😭😭😭😭😭 #me if fantasizing abt a million different tickle scenarios a day was illegal #her <3

[willowser]

the tag “he’s not having sex!!” is killing me im trying so hard to keep it together in this coffee shop rn trying not to cackle

also yeah dabi probably considered the time that you helped him take a fully clothed shower (because he wasnt comfortable at the moment even if he was by himself to be naked) to be third base. maybe even a home run idk

LMAOOO okay okay, not to get on a serious note, but your shower bit 🥺 i genuinely think dabi would be so, so fun for friends to lovers. because a totally platonic relationship with him must be hilarious; this man is a smart ass, okay? he will always have you cracking up. and i think if he views you as just some acquaintance of his, he's more prone to like. just chatting with you or shooting the shit or drinking or walking around at all hours of the night when neither of you can sleep. it's not until things start to get a little...softer, i think, that he pulls back—but that's what makes it so good !

because it could come out of nowhere, for either of you. one minute you're sharing a bottle in a brown paper bag under the bright city lights, talking shit about pro heroes, and the next—

"fuck, i'm freezing." you laugh as you say it, but your teeth won't stop chattering and your legs are starting to feel like they're made of lead. you have to come to a stop, leaning against some abandoned shop in this lesser part of town.

"should'a dressed right," dabi murmurs, having the audacity to tell you such a thing even though he's in pants with holes in the knees, without a jacket. already he sounds like he's sobering up, but you suppose he can't help it; his metabolism probably eats through everything.

"can't all be so h-hot-blooded."

tired, his mouth stretches in a lazy smirk, and he rolls his eyes like you're being dramatic—despite the fact that it's snowing. "ain't that bad."

you beg to differ. "feel my hands!"

he watches you carefully as you offer them, like he's putting too much thought into it, suddenly. it's not often that you two really touch, not if he can help it, because there's never been a need. not before now.

the facade of his nonchalance is readjusted, though there's a tension lining his mouth that you've never seen on him, not with you. he tucks the bag underneath his armpit so that he can use both his hands, and then he folds your fingers down into fists and covers them with his own.

entirely, the long and rough expanse of his palms dwarfing you. it's hot, immediately, and the sensation has you shuddering in relief, letting out a grateful little sound as your body sways closer to his on instinct. neither of you say anything, and you're too tipsy too notice the grit of his jaw or the bob of his adam's apple.

been a long time since he touched someone, just 'cause. with the intention of helping instead of harming.

you don't care, only let out another teeth chattering whine before pressing your cheek into the back of his hand. yours is icy, but his own heat at the sight of you nuzzling into him like a fucking kitten.

it's weird, but only lasts for a moment before you're pulling away and turning to wobble down the sidewalk, back in the direction of the hideout. you almost slip once and the screech you let out is enough to make you both laugh, for now—but neither of you will be able to sleep tonight without thinking about it, his skin against yours.

#i just want to love him PLEASE 😭 #i cam absolutely picture you both coming back one night after having had too much to drink #and you know how you come up with all these shitty dumb plans when you're wasted ?? and they all sound like a good idea in the moment #flash forward fifteen minutes and you are both tumped over in the shower LAUGHING #his hair dye is washing out and staining your clothes and his and you're like YOU'RE SO DIRTY. LEMME WASH YOUR HAIR #and he's like FUCK OFF DON'T TOUCH ME #but you're both just playfully fighting with each other #and then you actually DO wash his hair and he's just kind of. subdued. letting you. #bc when was the last time someone did this for him ?? #BYE BYE 🥺🥺 #this is definitely a home run in his book LMAOOOO #✿ willow writes #✿ ask willow #✿ thoughts: dabi/touya

[skitskatdacat63]

Contemplation on Seb's hair:

#canon or not? we'll never know 🤭 #i blame cofi for this idek why we came up w this but i had to draw it #please forgive me for not shading. i started working on it too late :/ #but its a joke so i dont feel TOO bad #his hair is like lego hair.... #yeah idk if this is canon 😭 like yeah historically he and nando would be wearing wigs bcs that is the style and practice #BUT I LIKE THEM NATURALLY HAVING SUCH BEAUTIFUL LUSCIOUS HAIR YKNOW :( #alternate situation: fernando tugs a little too hard on seb's hair in the throes of passion and rips his wig off #divorce era 💔 #anyways this made me shriek with laughter to draw so i hope you enjoy 🤭 #i wanna make more misc comics like this theyre very fun! #if only one could draw chibi por- huh what who said that #OH ALSO i always meant to ask!! how do you guys feel abt my handwriting? is it legible at least?????? #sebastian vettel #vettonso #catie.art. #i want someone to stumble across my art and be like ooo what is this historical art! and its fucking f1 fanart.... #boy king au

[vilsoo]

oooh this shit just pissed me off

#like what the fuck is y’all’s problem #super disrespectful to fanfic writers #im a writer myself that still has unfinished fics #if this happens to one of my fics im haunting ur ass down #and would probably delete some works #but please dont do this shit #no writer deserves this #the girl in this tiktok is pissing me off #like does any smart thing run through ur head??? #ig not if you have to rely on ai 😭😭😭

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

what do you mean my disabilities disable me 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they aren't just funny little things that make me quirky and I can joke about 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they're actually delibitating and prevent me from doing things 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟

#and at the most inconvinient times like please 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ please stop i have so much to do #this is about my autism cfs and depression all ganging up on me at the same time #im struggling to get out of bed and stay awake let alone go outside #what do you mean time keeps going when im like this????? #wdym i cant pause time so i can rest for like a week and go at my own pace and there will be no consequences wdym thats not possible #im also recovering from covid #i cannot stay awake for more than a few hours and my entire body aches #i feel like ive gone for a marathon yesterdsy except i have done nothing but sit up sometimes #this is bullying my own body is bullying me #and my joints are fucking killing me i feel like im 50 #specifically my wrists and my neck #i wanna snap my head and hands off i feel like that would help actually #and i have absolutely no mental energy at all the thought of going outside is horrifying #and trying to do anything but idk watch tv is virtually impossible #BUT I HAVE SO MUCH TO FUCKING DO 😭😭 #autism #cfs (chronic fatigue syndrome) #depression #disabilities #wooo i love having a non functioning everything #doesnt effect me badly at alllllllll

[coffee-bat]

big boy hours continue

#yesterday i was soooo brave #bc in p.e. (technically self defense class bc thats what i chose) we had to spend a solid few minutes running at the start #like in a circle as warm-up #and i fucking died. i have marfan syndrome (which affects the heart even if you dont have the severe heart variant) AND anemia i cant fuckin #g run #i cant do fucking stamina-based shit i loose feeling invmy legs and get black spots imnediately #so after that i had to sit on the mat for a few mins and do my best not to pass out💀 #and i was absolute shit for the rest of the class bc i was exhausted and dizzy #so i decided to be a big boy and after class went to the trainer (who im a bit scared off) to ask if if i have a genetic illness that me- #*makes me #-have no stamina then can i just. not run please. or do i have to change my p.e. class (please no) #and it went very well! i dont have to change classes and im allowed to just do my own warm ups while theyre running #i was so scared of trying to ask for that😭 #im unreasonably happy with myself for doing what technically is a normal adult thing but. shh #ramble #personal