#like my fucking dude im a 2014 account

[izukusspirit]

IN RESPONSE OF WAKING UP IM INSTANTLY LIKE----DIBS FATHER ON FUCKING SHOOK CRACK LIKE ???? SON WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN LESS THEN 30 SECONDS TODAY??-

OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO HIM DID I ACCIDENTLY MAKE HIM A HUMAN ALIEN TO MESS WITH HIM MENTALY ABOUT EGG TOAST

NOOOOOOOOOOO I THOUGHT I GAVE HIM BLACK ADO CHAN MLG GLASSES BECAUSE I WENT TO 2014 BECAUSE OF A FUCKING OLIVE IN A JAR BEING SENT TO BE AS A GRAPE THINKING I GOT RAPED FUCK DEAD SERIIOUS ABOUT O.B.S BEING THE TWINSISTER GHOSTS HERE

AM I BACK IN 8TH GRADE AGAIN FUCK FUCK FUCK?? WHERES THE SHCOOL THEN IM LIKE AT HOME LIKE AREN’T I SUPPOSED TO CATCH THE BUSS FOR SCHOOL WHERE IS MY FUCKING MOTHER’S JEEP FUCK MY ANTI-VILLAN SUPERVILLAN ASS TRIED TO BOOK A HOTEL TRIVAGO WIGOUT TICKET TO TEHRAN BECAUSE OF MY AMERICAN DOUBLESPERM COUNTERPART HOO MY GOD HE’S TALKING ABOUT OBS BECAUSE HE THOUGHT GHOSTMONUMENT TOLD HIM TO FUCK OFF BECAUSE OF HIM CHANGING HIS BACKGROUND TO A MELTING CANDEL BUT JUST IN GENNERAL CHANGING HIS LAPTOP BACKGROUND ON THE FUCKING PHONE.LENOVO.AND HP EVNY :(. LINGO-JAM SMALL TEXT CRYING HHH GHOSTMONUMENT IS A SWEETHEART I PAINTED THEM SO BAD RECENTLY ;;;;;

https://obsproject.com/ https://www.deviantart.com/ghostmonument ngl they have core and honestly i’ve always loved the way they draw!!! i love their cat dragon character with those long evildregon horns but she/he fucking hates me i stalk because i find intrest in telling you i fucking looove you but you HAATE ME SO YOU’RE LIKE KIMIKO RAIUMONDO TO MEEE LIKE THE MONKEY EYE GLAREE FUCKK :(-

LIGHT IN DARKNESS FAIRY ANIMALJAM GROUND PENSIVE EMOJI IN RESPONSE TO ME SENDING THE LETTER H OR A KAT TELLING ME TO BASICALLY FUCK OFF WITH A SHEMJI KAT OF ERIC BUT ZIM IN THE SUMMER SERVER THAT I COULD ACCIDENTALLY SEE BECAUSE I SIMPLY GHOST LOOKED AT THE LINK IN DEATH LIKE HOOO MY GOD I DIDN’T MEAN TO MAKE A FUCKING SERVER DM LINK NOO THE FUCKING DSI ITSELF COULD SHADOWBOX ME INTO INFORMATION AND I CANT EVEN GO HOOOME ORIGINAL SOURCE OF GHOSTMONUMENT AND KATS UPSET :(

AND THE FINAL DEATH BLOW WAS THAT I KILLED LOKI ON PONY.TOWN IN A TRUTH OR DARE WITH FAYE THAT I COULDN’T GET OUT OF BECAUSE I HAD SO MUCH FUN THAT I FELT BAD AFTER!!! MERRY BAD END HAHAHAHA!

ORI AND THE BLIND FOREST CROSSWORD PUZZLE WOLF NUZZLE BOTTLE FROM TARGET PINKBLUE

THE PEPPERMENT CATTOFRICC WITH LOKIS ENDGAME DEATH WRITTEN ALL OVER IT LIKE FUCK GO BACK GIVE HIM MY LITTLE PONY VIBES IN HIS NEW SHOW SO HIS DANIKA CROWLEY ACTOR DOESN’T FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT THE FACT THAT I GAVE HIM LONG SPIDERMAN HAIR TO MAKE HIM FEEL LIKE A SEX SYMBOL BUT A WORLD DESTROYER AT THE SAME TIME-AND I’M LIKE CRYING IN MY FUCKING HEAD LIKE I FUCKING HEAR LOKI SAY “FATHER WHY HAVE YOU BETRAYED ME” IN RESPONSE TO THE LONELY OK? KEEP PLAYING FROM ANIMALJAM BECAUSE I NAMED AN ACCOUNT FOR MY MOTHER BISQUITLOBSTER AND HE THOUGHT THAT THE QUIT WAS KILL YOURSELF SO HE DID THE USEEWA AS THE ACTUAL ACTOR IRL AND THATS WHY IDRIS ELBA HAD TO KILL HIM ON-SET BECAUSE HE ALREADY DIED HE SCREAMED HE HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO ACTUALLY CHOKE HIM OUT LIKE MY NEW MOVIE JEWLS HOO MY GOODD

LOOK AT HOW MUCH FUN HE’S HAVING WHAT HAVE I DONE TO HIM?? HE TRIED TO TYPE THROUGH ME LIKE “DON’T DO THAT TO ME??” AND I’M LIKE WYDM “DUDE WE’RE THE SAME PERSON THIS IS PHILLIP LESSEN MADE TO LOOK LIKE MYSTERIO STOOPP” AND I’M LIKE DOES LOKI CANNONLY HAVE A FACE OR IS IT THE FUCKING DISNEY CHANNEL DISNEY XP ULTIMATE SPIDERMAN ONE I CONSTANTLY SEE AS LINEART INSTEAD OF ANYTHING ELSE” YES IT FUCKING IS LAMENTS PHILLIP BUT NOT UPSET “AND IM LIKE FUCK I SWITCHED TO THE FUCKING QUOTE INSTEAD NOOOOOOO LOKI PRINCE OF DARKNESS PHILLIPP JACKSPICER PRINCE OF DARKNESS SHAOLIN SHOWDOWN”

#cnn #vent #endgame #gameend #wadanodara #1bitheart #dell laptop #christy hui #furry #furryfandom #mylittlepony #freindshipismagic #harrystyles #onedirection #buildabear #how to train your dragon #bbc #iran #china #japan #korea

[angelmichelangelo]

As a fellow ex phan here for the drama, tell me why you dislike Dan hehe I want to see if it's the same reasons I have

oh ive been waiting for this lmfao

there’s an entire plethora of reasons as to why i now find dan rather unbearable. i’ll go ahead and say my experience in the phandom was not a particularly good one. and maybe that tainted my view? probably. but it also contributes in a fair enough way for me to go “yeah, this guy ISNT great”

one reason that i’ll start with is: his fanbase. this man is literally the equivalent to a wet yoghurt lid. flaccid and useless, literally nothing about dan is special in any way. he’s not funny, he can’t act. his style of videos is very outdated (hence why he probably won’t return to story times any time soon) and yet.. the phandom will suck his dick for so little in return. he wrote a mental health book? because he suffers with mental health issues? okay. once i was constipated so now i guess im a doctor of the bowels. his humour is… god. it’s fucking horrible. he’s literally stuck in 2014 with his “im a walking funeral” jokes and “i wear black like my soul” persona like damn you got the whole room laughing 😐😐 but of course, phannies will go feral for that shit and he believes he’s good at everything he does, so now we’re supposedly being cursed with a dan howell comedy tour so… thanks world, i guess. the whole class suffers mentality.

he takes zero accountability for anything and yet is often hailed as one of the unproblematic youtubers of his time. so okay, he didn’t fuck a cat or do any shane levels of terrible, but omg dan and phil ARE problematic. i don’t care or believe in cancel culture so like, it doesn’t matter, but dan and phil have done stupid, bad, shady shit in the past AND in recent years. they have bad management with their merch line, they fuck up orders and constantly rip off their fans and have never ever made a single comment about how badly it’s being run, or ever offered an apology to the people who have been ripped off. literally in the height of the pandemic phil was selling the most ugliest, most bland, primark looking ass pjs for like £50 or something stupid like that. and dan does the same. doesn’t give his fans any content but WILL charge you £40 for a walmart journal and some cards with loopy sparkly writing on it for your daily affirmations ✨✨ but phannies dismiss this because “it’s my money i can do what i like with it!!” like damn girlie get yourself a bank employee to help you it’s okay lol

he is a personality vacuum. this kinda ties in with my first point about him being a 2014 tumblr post in a white mans form but yeah. dude is straight up BORING to listen to. dnp worked as a brand, cool. alone they suck. literally phil is a buzzfeed machine that can’t stop making 😲 faces in ever thumbnail because god forbid he does something creative and original for once (spoiler: he’s not that funny either) and dan talks in this droll, monotone voice, sprinkling in a few edgy jokes then talks about sucking cock, then bitches about his sad, sad life (another spoiler: his life isn’t that bad like babygirl shut up) and then ANOTHER joke about how a dick in his ass (tasteful) and then tops it off with a joke about wearing black.. something something, he has depression and was closested so im not allowed to be mean to him. waaahhhh idc.

he also made jokes about having so much gay sex that he caught every disease possible whilst hosting a charity livestream for AIDS… and of course every phannie and their girlfriends wet themselves laughing whilst i was straight faced like. how is that remotely funny? but of course as it says in the phannie handbook of god: im now allowed to make comments about dan and his sexuality or however he decides to present himself on the internet because he has depression…………,,., even though Dan said in his depression video he doesn’t want it to define him. but alas, what do i know! im a bitter ex phannie who is mean and evil 🤧 he’s also made jokes about lesbians and also been pretty racist and never apologied or even acknowledged it. i think he just quietly deleted old videos and phannies were cool with it whilst in the same breath they were screaming about shane dawson for doing the same (and rightly so i hate his guts too btw)

he’s lazy, unfunny and pretty spoilt, imo. he has a “me, me, me!!!” attitude to everything and wants everything with very little effort on his end. and why do phannies go wild for it?? beats me. white skin and curly hair maybe? idk, i hope they find a cure for them soon ❤️❤️❤️

#i AM bitter and i AM evil and mean #this was long and rambly but yeah that’s it pretty much #idk he just grates on me #if you knew me when i was a phannie… no you didn’t #that emmy is dead 💔 #ask #anon #phannie #dan howell #Phil lester #dan and phil #phan #phandom

[tyrian-sexual]

ffs did some fucking new account just unsolicitedly mansplain pricing a dragon to me????? when i had an explanation that the price was that high just to avoid autobuys/advertise the dragon?????

debating on stopping selling this dragon just to spite this asshole for ruining it for everyone.

#uwu but this much better dragon is going for 5k yours it shittier and should be cheaper #like my fucking dude im a 2014 account #dont talk this shit to me when i know it like the back of my hand #just went full on #wow thanks tumblr for FUCKING MY TAGS

[ybcpatrick]

i was by @nerdangels thank u amanda i am holding ur hand rn <3333

1- why did you choose your url?

he's my boy. my fucking lad. my DUDE. my little guy. he is me and i am him. i was blessed by the whoevers to have snagged this url

2- any side blogs?

TOO MANY, BRO. i have a wrestling blog, a supernatural blog, a muppets blog, a poetry blog, a nostalgia blog, and an archive for the post!ybc au (which isn't dead, i promise, im so sorry to all the anons in my inbox i love you im just so tired all the ike akskajdskjf)

3- how long have you been on tumblr?

that april fools joke blog from a couple years ago says i joined on february 22nd, 2014. but, i did have another account before this one, so i'll just loosely say mid-2013 for that one

4- do you have a queue tag?

i've tried keeping a queue soooo many times but honestly i am just like. not the sort of person to use one lol. if i'm online you'll know it, if i'm not i'm not

5- why did you start your blog in the first place?

because i needed somewhere to get all the danny phantom stuff out of my system

6- why did you choose your icon/pfp?

bc he's ybcpatrick. i am Also ybcpatrick.

7- why did you choose your header?

oh it's still my halloween theme lmao, haven't had time to make a new one. my headers are just chosen to match my themes, i loooove makin pretty themes

8- what's your post with the most notes?

that GODDAMNED green day post. im too lazy to grab it rn but it's got over 100k notes. if u follow me u have seen it

9- how many mutuals do you have?

y'all are keeping track? ajdjejfjwuri i have lots of friends on here but idk how many

10- how many followers do you have?

1239 at the moment

11- how many people do you follow?

354!

12- have you ever made a shitpost?

babygirl that's all i do that's all i'm here for

13- how often do you use tumblr each day?

i will close tumblr and then by muscle memory i will open it again immediately. hotel california

14- did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

never with an actual person, but anons try to start shit with me REGULARLY. back in the day, some anon tried to accuse me of pretending to be canadian because i made one (1) post about liking the tragically hip. like HELLO?

15- how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

don't guilt people into reblogging shit; furthermore, even if it is important, tacking a "yOu NeEd To" onto your reblog is a surefire way to get everyone else to ignore it out of spite lmfao

16- do you like tag games?

YEAHHH i love them so muuuuch please tag me in anything and everything i don't care if we're mutuals i don't care if it doesn't seem applicable to me please. tag. me. anyways.

17- do you like ask games?

ALSO YEAHHH but i'm terrible at remembering that i reblogged one, so then i'll get distracted and forget to answer them in a timely fashion ajskajdwkndme

18- which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

bro i don't KNOW. possibly some of the fic authors? or some of my bandom mutuals? one of my mutuals (who doesn't have many interests in common with me so idk why she's still here but i think she's super fuckin cool) is probably "tumblr famous" bc like. all her posts get notes?

i think tumblr is great just bc you have NO IDEA who's "famous" and who's not. like, unless ur mutuals with fuckin setheverman or pukicho, it's just a mystery

19- do you have a crush on a mutual?

........i liked her long before we were mutuals and i'll say nothing fucking else thanks

tagging: @sleeping-dead-dying-sleep @greatesthitz @residentjoth @lunathemacron @softnsquishable @ibidflash and litchrally anyone else who wants to!!

#shut up kell #tag games #this was FUN!

[fairycosmos]

i read this dan howell book called you will get through this night about advice on dealing with mental illness and honestly it read so.... fake positive and .... maybe im too far gone tbh. he wrote it alongside an actual doctor but none of that stuff worked for me? it was like a huge tumblr text post about 'how to not selfharm!! how to calm your anxiety!' where all they list is a bunch of shit that doesnt help or you cant even do bc... mentally ill. lmao. thank fuck i pirated it at least

STOP no way 13 yo me is gutted to hear thisssss 😭 he was like one of the first ppl child-me saw verbalizing my existensial fears i was like god emo king..... then again it doesn't surprise me that much i mean dudes a somewhat commercialized millennial youtuber whose made millions, doubt hes got any substantial and fresh hot takes on mental health that don't feel at least somewhat buzzfeed tumblr 2014-esque. im glad he got an actual doctor involved and hey if it resonated with even one person then thats great like mission accomplished but it is a bit shitty to see the quality of ppls work go down hill or become like, an overly sanitized version of what they once had to offer :( i dont think youre too far gone at all btw my love, i just think different things work for different individuals and thats honestly alright. self help books are always a bit pompous and impersonal, it's totally understandable if it didn't click with you. doesn't mean other forms of help and support won't, alright? especially ones that are more specialised and tailored to your needs. and hey im glad your bank account didn't suffer for it!! X

#anon #talking

[dykeserket]

ARAVRIS 8TRACK PLAYLISTS ARCHIVE

this goes to the the three aravris shippers out there...i was honestly surprised to find more than one let alone 7 aravris playlists! makes me happy to know it isnt a complete rarepair :D

you can find the playlists on my spotify

and here is the accompanying playlist doc with all the playlists and songs listed out

if you want to learn more about this project check my pinned! other than that recommendations below the read more and happy listening!

8 o' clock - an absolute MUST LISTEN TO!!! holy shit dude it goes so hard and is my personal favorite out of the bunch and possibly my favorite 8tracks playlist ive listened to. its pitch aravris and has a good mix of different songs but not in a super garring way. like i think pretty much anyone can find at least one song in this one they like. Artists like The Boomtown Rats and Toy Shiny Guns

i hate you (but then i didn't) - for all my basic bitches !! <- JOKING. this is a nice pitch-flushed playlist, the majority of the songs are a genre i categorize as 'boy king' which is like. boy band but off brand. if you get what i mean. boy band but to the left. Artists like Mystery Skulls and Arctic Monkeys

Update: the creator of this playlist is still active, no longer into homestuck but transformers!! check him out @/seaquestions for some great art!! peace and love.

between roses and violets - another playlist by seaquestions lol i thinkn hes done half of these. anyway i gotta be honest dude im kinda emotional rn. like i dont think anyones gonna be reading this so fuck it

these are playlists. from. 2014, 2013, 2016. not just the aravris ones. all the playlists on 8tracks. these are all made by people, kids, adults, people who are Alive. or maybe not anymore. but they were and they left behind collections of music about stories that they went out of their way to put together. how incredible is that. sitting down and using music you love to create something about something you love and having the ability. to share it with others, to connect, even years after they were made. shit dude im crying lol

theres something really beautiful in that thought idk if thats stupid. and when going through the rosemary playlists. there was this one account that stuck out, not cause the playlist was great or anything tbh i dont even remember her name or the playlist she made but her pfp was of her and she was smiling and she was beautiful. i hope shes doing well.

its just playlists are really important to me y'know and i know i rag on people for having 'basic' or 'boring' playlists but like. who cares man if you really love what youve made and want to share it with people you love than who cares. theres just. yea. i love people, i hope anyone reading this has an amazing day, drink water, listen to your favorite song. i love you

#aravris #i dont feel like tagging characters #only my real ones (aravris shippers) can view this lol #8tracks archive project

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

y’know the wildest thing still to happen to me on this hellsite was my first experience of sexting, sans nudes, that was done in front of at least 250-500 followers because of those horny anons i had in early 2013 when i was 17. instead of being exposed to it on my phone privately with a partner at that age, it was done publicly for the internet to see lmao. i remember begging the anons to stop and “come off anon” because i was “losing followers” at the time too bc i was so insecure about my follower count lmao. and then yeah when they came off anon they were both 28 years old.

to write the responses, i just consulted cosmo mag sex pages for ideas hoping that the anons would like the options i chose. in one i detailed doing anal- a sex act i hadn’t even done yet irl- let alone every other thing i suggested in them (head, idek long, drawn out foreplay, some stupid fancy sex moves that cosmo was all like “use these moves to spice up your sex life 🔥🔥”, sex in a bath, i’m pretty sure i had some lines about tying or handcuffing them to a bed (????) etc etc etc)….

when again, i had never even done any of those above sex acts in real life. i was a naive teen who was incredibly shy in regards towards her love life because she’d “never been kissed” and had never had the “hot emo boyfriend whose in a band and is covered in tattoos” she’d always wanted, let alone even a boyfriend that she had actually fucking liked (ie clear braces boy, for like a month in year 9/2010 vs the popular boys that made fun of her, that she always had unrequited crushes on)…. hell, my blog title when i first started on here in 2011 was “the perfect epitome of being forever alone” because of these very reasons. but here she was, writing explicit sex acts to strangers like she knew what the fuck she was doing, to an audience of 250-500 people- and then to fucking grown ass men in inboxes. i was just parroting the shit i’d read in cosmo (both sex advice and sometimes excerpts of erotica/“sexy, steamy reads” they had some months) and also heard repeatedly in the porn that my high school stalker/creeper at public school loved to show (harass) me with to flirt with me, whenever we were alone together at school in 2012/2013.

like you could tell how naive i was….. because i used ridiculous lines like “like a gentleman entranced, you lead me to the bath for our next foray” and dumbass prose-y things like that. because what the fuck does that even mean 😂😅????

and this is why i think minors should be careful with their online experiences. like yeah, you could say that i wasn’t a minor anymore- more of a “young adult”- who should of made the smart decision to not engage with these anons. but i was a kid. i thought it was fun. and when the dudes came off anon, i thought to myself “it’s not like i’m ever gonna meet them if i ever go to the US or puerto rico at any point. it’s not like that they’ll ever recognise me in person or ever reach out to me again in the future. i might as well do it.” and i did eventually end up ignoring the guys in my inbox, due to my mental health kinda plummeting from the middle til the end of 2013 because of my end of high school exams and stuff… and also the puerto rican guy’s infamously inappropriate “hot PE teacher fucks HOT female high school student in the girls change room showers” fantasy which fucking disgusted me, when he full well knew that i was STILL IN high school.

and obviously again, there’s the point about using the “block” button function. but as i’ve stated several times over my years on here, back in my early days of tumblr, i never wanted to block or unfollow people (even if they were trash like these two men), because it seemed so “mean” and “final”. obvs now i have no qualms about blocking people, and actively encourage younger people on here to use the block button with reckless abandon towards creepy people or people who can hurt them in some way. but to high school teenage me, the whole “using the block button” thing seemed to go against me being a “nice girl/person” so i never used it, no matter which social media platform i was on.

this is why i’m hella scared for young teen girls on tik tok wanting to have onlyfans accounts: because it’s where they’ll be exposed to ACTUAL CREEPS AND PREDATORS incredibly quickly; all because they can make money off selling images of just their feet or eventually their body….. depending on what these creepy strangers demand from them….. and they’ll feel like they’ll have to do it…. but to do it before you even start experimenting properly with relationships and sex is even worse. like. yeah. i’ve admitted before that i originally started this tumblr to possibly post nudes, to see if i’d get the positive feedback that i so desperately wanted/craved from the boys in my year at catholic school- eg. to be called “sexy”, “hot”, “fuckable” possibly “beautiful”- like some of the so called “popular girls” got on their hella basic bikini photos back then (like i remember one girl i knew ended up with like 500 likes and a fair amount of comments on one of her bikini pics and i was INCREDIBLY BITTER because not even a pic of me with a nice outfit on, my hair done and makeup on could EVER get those numbers, let alone even break over the double digits).

but i decided posting nudes or other explicit images on here was an absolute no go, because i realised that i never wanted people that i knew digging up barely clothed/naked pics of me and sending them to me all like “hey, is this you?” and then possibly mocking me, all because i would’ve been dumb enough to put my face in them probably at the time. now when i take nudes and send them, i never show my face. because i know now, that even in relationships, your partner can use nude pics as leverage for arguments or to abuse you in such a way that they’ll upload your pics without your knowledge to god knows where on the internet probably as a way to get back at you in a horrible breakup.

this is what i sincerely hope some young girls who ever contemplate starting onlyfans accounts take some time SERIOUSLY CONSIDER. please know that if you share shit on onlyfans, it can shared and re-shared (i think idek how OF works tbh) to god knows who- and eventually end up in the hands of people you know. i don’t fucking care if it’s a “good way to make money!” or if people think that im trying to stop teen girls from being “girl bosses” and the other dumb as fuck internet memes you want to throw at me. because this shit isn’t “haha internet meme funny” material. it’s some fucking serious stuff. and also, i’m not saying “don’t become a sex worker when you’re older” or whatever either. you’re free to make that choice when you’re in your 20s (no i even mean 17-19 year olds in this post as “young teen girls”- sorry you’re basically kids to me at almost 26). just please consider where the fuck your stuff can be shared to. who it can end up being shared with or to.

this is why i was so fucking adamant with my infamous old follower mr adelaide fuckboy/MAF that i personally would NOT consider becoming a camgirl for him or just generally… because i had no idea where the fuck my images or videos would end up. and do you know the places i’d never want them to fucking be??? in the hands of my high school stalker/creeper. in the hands of those two 28yo men from 2013 (who’d now be in there late 30s or early 40s). i absolutely don’t want them in the hands the mid-to-late 20s and early 30s men that that girl i met at public school in 2012 who was pissed that i didn’t believe that were “adults” because we were finally over the legal age of consent (16) in our state of australia, and so we were apparently fine to “fuck” literal grown ass men because “just fuck them and they’ll be nice to you!!” which i knew was fucking bullshit.

i absolutely don’t fucking want explicit videos/images of me ending up in “why the fuck won’t you let me give you “sex lessons” in the back of my car as a “favour” and as payment for teaching you how to drive you stupid, stuck up & frigid, virgin bitch!?” guy’s hands from 2014 (when i was 18/19 at the time and he was 25… he ended up being the first person of many i’d EVER block on social media lol). or i don't want them in the hands of those weird early 20s dudes (one of which was trying to set me up with his friend) who hit on me at 16/17 (2012) who were angry that i didn’t like and watch porn as much as they did…. and who promptly asked me at the end of their period of harassing of me: “do you know any sluts we could add?” because i kept refusing their suggestions etc.

hell, quite frankly i don’t even want them to go to mr adelaide fuckboy/MAF either, but the very few and far between nudes that i sent on snapchat to him back in 2016 are some nudes that i’d rather forget lmao. hell. i don’t even know if MAF ever deleted my nudes or shared them somewhere else or not, after he fucking wheedled them out of me with “i’ve followed you for 4 years, don’t be a shit! you owe me nudes!” so he’d just shut the fuck up about my social life decisions and leave me the fuck alone.

i don’t want ANY ONE of the guys i mentioned above to get their hands on photos of minors either…. because i definitely know my hs stalker/creeper would… because his fave “make her jealous” tactic that he’s always used on me is that “hey…. i’m dating a *insert teenage girl’s age here*! be fucking jealous that you don’t fucking have me and feel guilty that you won’t fuck me like this girl does!!!” just like he did in 2015, when i ran into him on the home from uni… when i turned 20 the next week and he turned 20 that december. at that time it was a 14yo girl he used as an example of him “dating”/“fucking” to make me jealous. instead, i was completely and utterly fucking disgusted. like any fucking sane and normal human being would/should be at that horrible age gap. that is literally a fucking child that he was fucking grooming. and we were literal adults. back the fuck away.

just please. PLEASE CONSIDER the types of people that trawl these kinds of sites and their intentions. please consider that you are young. very fucking young. you literally DO NOT need to upload nudes to the internet because it’s apparently a “lucrative” business. fuck the jokey “boss babe” rhetoric around it all the way to fucking hell.

because if you’re a minor: i do not want you to have your first experience of sexting or sending explicit images literally in front of god knows how many total strangers for the whole world to see (okay i know only fans is like subscriber/follower based or whatever. but i don’t care)…… even when you (depending how good you are with relationships etc) haven’t reached the common supposed milestones of your “first boyfriend/girlfriend/partner” or “first kiss” or have even “lost your virginity” (which isn’t real anyway- don’t buy this fucking bullshit)…. just like i stupidly did with my exposure to sexting here on my tumblr back in 2013. these people don’t/won’t give a flying fuck about your privacy or safety. they don’t/won’t give a fuck about your boundaries either.

please don’t possibly scar yourself for life, just because you’re being told that it’s a quick & convenient way to make some money for weirdos on the depths of the internet. you will regret it in future. just like i do now with mine. it should’ve been something personal between me and and a guy i trusted and liked at the time. not to some random 250-500 random strangers on this hellsite (okay the notes on these posts were literally single digits or non-existent, but still… and also some of my irl friends who had tumblr saw these posts as well) for a show….. and then privately with two 28yo literal grown ass men…. who should’ve been fucking hitting on women their own goddamned age and in their own countries and NOT a 17yo high school KID (at the time) from australia; who, now in her 20s, needs therapy to sort this shit out lmao. mind you they both reeled me in with the “you’re so mature for your age” bullshit line…. which i fell for a little bit, even if it did make me feel kinda gross at the time, too. don’t fall for that bullshit either.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #relationships i guess #internet stuff #this went in a bigger direction that i thought it would lmao #but anyway

[heartate-aa]

good morning! raphael trying to blame me for this situation not being private is a reach and super shitty and they are clearly not sorry for literally ANYTHING with the way they worded their doc. they are literally unapologetic and it SHOWS. it’s so obvious that they’re not fucking sorry at all. this is literally just about trying to save their fucking ass and make me look bad lmao. lying and being like “well i never tried to silence her, i offered to talk to her and she refused, the door is still open” like that’s such a weak way to be like oh well im not silencing her as if you didn’t tell me to “shut up” and “shut the fuck up” or “let’s not do this” as if that gives me any room to speak. you constantly blamed me for “deciding when/where conversations ended” and constantly made me feel like i was being fucking punished FOR EVERYTHING THAT I DID. me not wanting to talk about something because i was getting very upset and then frustrated is a valid reason to not wanting to talk, but YOU would push me and guilt trip me by saying “oh, so when i want to talk, fuck my feelings, but you get to decide when we do/don’t talk” like. i understand how this might be hypocritical because i used to force you to patch things up with me immediately (which i admitted to in my first imgur) but i learned and stopped. i don’t think, at least from my perspective and im sorry if i’m wrong, that i continued this behavior. i really don’t think i kept trying to force you to talk. if arguments got strong on, i feel that it’s because you  brought them up. i literally did anything to avoid fighting with you at all costs but literally everything i did would just piss you off and i just can’t fucking win lol. 

it’s so unfair to fucking use caps from someone vent twitter where, by the way, a lot of the shit i tweet out of anger/being sad are???????????????? twisted out of context and it’s so fucked up because 85% of the time im having a god damn meltdown and im spiraling????? you’re so fucked up for this, especially you ki you’re literally like. the most two-faced snake i have EVER met like dude. you’re so fucked. up. how do you fucking sit there with a good and clean conscience without guilt for constantly capping people’s vents and sharing them around or talking about them to other people like? you’re so gross for this hello??? you’re a fucking adult and you shit on people for 2014 tumblr behavior but you literally capping people’s shit like this is so. 2014 tumblr. grow up. grow. up. you literally act so fucking nice behind ppl’s backs and pull shit like this and i feel so fucking stupid for defending you to raphael so hard when they shat on you about savage/extreme raiding and yes i have caps for this because i’m sure they didn’t show you everything lmao. you are literally. so childish dude. like dude??? it’s so fucking disgusting of you to pretend to be my friend and just like, sit in my vent account to what, just watch me??????? like no one ever made u fucking follow me on my private twitters and like it’s so gross that u’d take my shit out of context and and run with them and twist them and then not even fucking ask me like i get? you having avpd but that’s literally no excuse for how u acted or what ur doing rn like lmao man you’ve hated me for so long and it fucking shows and it’s so rich considering you admitted to other people that you thought raphael was treating me like shit and that you had your own issues with them. it’s so. rich. lmao i feel so dumb ever defending you when you like ?? just literally have done everything time and time again to do shit like this. like i don’t think im in the wrong for fucking ????????? venting about my relationship or wanting to seek out advice for it and you literally lying saying that i TRIED to make raphael look bad to you when i literally TRIED SO HARD TO DO THE OPPOSITE and that’s why i didn’t give you caps bc i didn’t want it to blow harsher than it TRULY was but yeah no i have caps and they’re yours. don’t worry. and like. you’re so fucking sick in the head to put this on me saying “this isn’t a new realization” AS IF ??????????? I WASN’T SITTING IN DENIAL OVER HOW RAPHAEL TREATED ME BECAUSE I KEPT GETTING GUILT TRIPPED AND MANIPULATED AND I GENUINELY. WAS SO IN LOVE WITH THEM LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. HOW MUCH SHITTY BEHAVIOR I TURNED MY EYES AWAY FROM AND ALLOWED TO SLIDE BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS NORMAL, I THOUGHT WE COULD WORK THROUGH ANYTHING. I DESPERATELY WANTED THINGS TO WORK BECAUSE I LOVED THEM AND I DIDNT WANT TO GIVE UP AND WALK AWAY BECAUSE IM STUPID AND SOFT AND I WANTED. THINGS TO WORK. WITH MY BOYFRIEND LOL. i was in denial. for so. long. even with so many fucking people trying to tell me “this behavior is shitty, it’s abusive” i didnt fucking listen and i stayed there so fuck you with this victim blaming bullshit and saying “this isn’t a new realization for her and her eyes aren’t just suddenly open” like. lol. that’s so???????????????? victim blamey you’re fucking sick for it. 

anyway that’s all i wanted to say for now. i’m gonna respond properly to everything and it might take me a few weeks bc i have to go through so much shit so. if anyone else has questions in the mean time feel free. but my spoons are sparse.

#ooc. #tbd. #abuse cw - #ask to tag

[wintermutal]

can you rec some good spooky videos? i too would like to drown my sorrows in spookiness

oo fucking boy okay holy shit what to pick from...ive been watching spoopy videos since i was 11 and first got access to the internet so really ive got a pool to draw from, like some videos stick with me in particular from like 2011 but then theres newer ones and shit too?? like okay let me think here

disclaimer: some of these are ghost videos that have since been debunked, eh im not checking them all, just sticking in whatever stuck with me

shit that stuck with me from when i was 11 at the height of the slenderverse and late 2000s creepypasta era

-body of a pig 

-the cat with hands

-there’s a man in the woods

-the Chonecom videos (these came to light in.....god, i want to say like 2007, by the youtube user Chonecom, who’s channel was taken down for reasons unknown. these have been circulated around various accounts since then, usually with clickbait bullshit titles. ive heard that it’s real, ive heard that it’s fake, but either way its pretty cool. i need to rewatch it tbh. the link is to one of the bullshit versions) 

-no through road

-the notorious youtube channel/video Username666, which can be viewed either as a single video or as an ARG. this is long past our time now but here is a wonderful video taking it apart if you choose the latter.

-lights out (this eventually got adapted into a full film, although i havent seen it yet. it fucked me up good when i was like 13 tho) 

-all the videos in the Creepy Gaming series by thestickypaddle. now i went back into my old middle school gmail account to find some of my old faves for this ask and this was in there, and i was like ‘o shit i loved those’, so i looked it up and found that he has done a full ass 6 MORE SEASONS of this. deadass when i was like 14 this was my SHIT but there were only like 5 videos so i remember just watching them on repeat and like....theres so many, literally HOURS of content i havent seen....i feel like ive abandoned something lmao

-now i would be absolutely REMISS if i did not mention my patron middle school horror fandom of youtube slenderverse series. you got ur marble hornets, ur everymanHYBRID (still my fave), ur tribetwelve, ur darkharvest00, and ur whisperedfaith. those are the five holy sects. if you must pick one, you are legally obligated to choose marble hornets, the series that birthed a genre that is held above all others in high quality and form. if you’re in for the whole squad of fuckery, u better sit the fuck down and settle in because ur in for a long haul of not only years of videos, but also years of painstaking ARG work and fantastic lore and worldbuilding. i would personally start with marble hornets and work from there

okay those are the ones that fucked me up as a young child. more recently i’ve been binge watching a lot of shitty youtube-published documentaries about serial killers and shit with a more informative overview of spooky events but there are a couple that have stuck with me in the past 6 months or so: 

-twitch stream ghost. this is a more recent one that popped up last february. i remember discussing it with some friends​ because it seemed very genuine, and we agreed that it really, seriously looks like a genuine haunting, which is rare on youtube. like look at the sheer fear in this guy’s reactions. like this is seriously some crazy shit that really sticks out to me from all the other supposed ghost vids ive seen over the years

-/x/ Thread Simulator- this is absolutely 100% something that still fucks me up whenever i watch it. it came out in 2014 but somehow i never saw it until earlier this year and i genuinely could not sleep that night. it’s an animated archive of a particular 4chan thread revolving around a very active and wild poltergiest/demon/whatever the fuck. still dont know if its fake or real, still dont really care. ive seen a lot of horror films less impactful then this 10 minute video comprised of animated forum screenshots set to bouncy music like fuck man 

-anything from the youtube channel Horror Stories. I found this really recently and have been binging everything on here. basically its a dude that does very neat, concise reports on fucked up things. these videos can range anywhere from 2 minutes to like, 10 minutes, and its seriously some wild shit. be aware that there can sometimes be irl gore on this channel. shoutout to this channel for giving me such high quality content as Man Falls in Meat Blender at Meat Processing Plant and Cavalese Cable Car Disaster. not so much classicly creepy as morbidly interesting, and you SERIOUSLY get exactly whats on the tin every single time. 

-Mapping the Las Vegas Massacre (New York Times Visual Investigations). again, less creepy and more morbidly interesting, done by the really solid journalistic reporting ive come to respect from the outlet. this is over the las vegas massacre a couple months after the recent florida high school shooting, and it’s currently standing as the largest mass shooting in american history. this account pastes a ton of bystander footage together to give us a solid look as the chaos unfolds, like, as someone who enjoys true crime, this is absolutely chilling. 

-leechnado. leechnado needs no introduction

uhhhh thats all the ones i can think of in recent memory have a rad ass time 

#i went through my recent youtube history and it seems like ive been watching more memes and documentaries than spoopy things in the past wee #asks #creepy #vandal.txt #Anonymous

[dannidalion]

How I joined the phandom / Phil appreciation birthday speech thing

In 2010 I saw my first Youtube video. I only remembered this recently when rewatching it once again. My friends at school told me to check out the sight so I did. Robot Death Machine by AmazingPhil was one of the first that popped up (Which is weird since it was uploaded a year prior). In 2012 I got on it a bit more and rediscovered him and this dude dani house fire or something and started watching them maybe once a month? In 2013 something pretty bad happened and that's when I got my first actual device. A white iPad mini (not spon). It came with Youtube I think so I finally made an account, which was a stop motion account. Got 9000 views on one and I was 11 so I was like woAh IM faMouS!!! Anyways. Subscribed to them and started watching a bit more. Then in late 2014. I think before Christmas we got evicted. Or near that. They shut off our water/power and we couldn't pay the bills. So we had to move back to our old house with my cousin and her, now, ex husband. We had no wifi, no tv and no data on our phones so all we could do is watch movies on the vcr and dvd player. I did art and cooked, but couldn't do my schooling. Basically I slept on a couch not being able to sleep till 3 and being woken up at 6 every morning by Michael who could not clOSE THE FRIDGE QUIETLY FOR SHIT. Until we got wifi we'd go to starbucks or target every week or something so I could talk to my friends, get on this game Onverse and sometimes watch Pewdiepie, Wassabi Productions, AmazingPhil and Danisnotonfire videos. We got wifi after months. Almost 8 I think? Honestly all I'd do is sit on my ass all day talking to my friend Angel and watch videos and play Onverse. Once I sat in my new room (Which was actually my old old room before I moved to another) and *cringe incoming* roleplayed for 8 hours. Not in a sexual way... Moving on. Slowly I sopped watching them as I began to focus more on school and having an online social life until last year. I logged onto my old acc (this one) to see I had a bamiltrillion (new word) of notifications from them. I decided to watch some of the ones I missed and slowly caught up with them. Only about 5-7 months ago did I properly join the phandom. I mean sure in 2012-2015 I saw all the theories in comments but I didn't really have any social media and didn't watch them enough to be considered a part of this great community. And in this short amount of time I've made many friends and acquaintances, joined at least 4 group chats and honestly grown as a person. They may seem like 2 plain youtubers with a crazy fucking fanbase but they've saved a lot of people. So personally. I would like to thank whoever decided to put a promotional camera in that box of cereal for this amazing man to find. Catch the pun? Sorry

Happy birthday @amazingphil

#amazingphil #amazingphilbirthday #phandom #phan #how I joined the phandom #2012 phan #2012 phandom #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #phil lester #phil lester birthday #Philip Michael Lester #Thank you #ladydoor #sorry time for generic ones #female exit #danandphilgames #youtube #youtuber #youtubers

[hcneylesbian]

abt me (tag)

i was tagged by @mememutual like a billion years ago sorry my dude <3

name: abby

nicknames: technically abby is a nickname, but also, abs, progressive grandpa (rarely) (only if i dont answer to anything else), idk??

gender: lady

star sign: gemini

height: like 5′3

sexuality: take a guess (lesbian!!)

cellphone homescreen, lockscreen, and laptop wallpaper: cellphone homescreen - my gf giving me heart eyes, lockscreen: pusheen the cat, wallpaper: all of it is stranger things-related

crush on a teacher: nope im gucci thanks

last text i sent: “cause im gay cubed”

where do i see myself in 10 years: mm probably practicing law or some other fulfilling job that i love, becoming financially stable so as to support a wife and family

if i could be anywhere else in the world where would i be: id rlly love to be anywhere fucking warm rn

coolest halloween costume: my cousin made it look like she had severed her own head and was carrying it on a plate once-that was the best (she’s also the other gay cousin we’re all so awesome)

favorite 90s tv show: mm saved by the bell probably

last kiss: my gf

ever been stood up: i do n o t express feelings easily unless i know theyre reciprocated i just suffer shdjkgsdfhgjh

favorite ice cream flavor: rocky road ? chocolate ? i also like blue moon

ever been to vegas?: no that would b pointless im like 12

favorite pair of shoes: i guess one of my vans? i like the red ones but they only go with some outfits :(

favorite fruit: pineapple?

stupidest thing i’ve done: uhh went on a school roof (i thought i was allowed!!)

favorite book: idk i dont read anymore im gay

my favorite loser: my closest of friends <3

hogwarts house: ravenclaw

favorite animal: i have such a devotion to cats. uhh. i also love quokkas (is that the correct plural form?)

average hours spent sleeping: in school: 6-7, weekends/breaks: 9-10

dogs or cats: cats !!! i love both but definitely cats

number of blankets i sleep with: at leAST three

dream trip: i rlly wanna visit norway? see the northern lights? probably just a trip around europe

dream job: atm i think i’d make a great lawyer but i change my mind so idk

when i made this account: december-ish of last year? i started my og tumblr in 2014

why i made this account: i felt really uncomfortable on my last one

i tag: @impharaway @communistanime @lamerghosts and anyone else who wants to!!

#long post #i havent done one of these on this blog i dont think #and this one had some unique questions !! #abt me #me #nobody has to do it !!!! keep that in mind no pressure

[ted-hyung]

So I hear you're a b1a4 supremacist, and I'm here to learn. I'm a bit overwhelmed by the amount of content so if you could help a sistah out and hit me up with some links or just a list of must watch variety show things or livestreams or reality shows or whatever that they've done, i'll be forever grateful thank youuu

jfc i’m fucking honored you came to me, anon-sshi ok wow.wow.

buckle up and listen it’s gonna be a messy ride full of keyboard smashing also caps locking is that even a word.

THE ALMOST ULTIMATE B1A4 VARIETY SHOW LIST, bc even as a supremacist, i have memory flaws but keep your faith in oppa amen.

1. MTV MATCH UP WITH BLOCK B aka THE CORE OF BECOMING A BANA

watch it here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTBLwEGG-Jw

praise the lord bc after 6 years and counting the gems are still up on that site. i’m telling you i have been coming back to MTV match up at least ONCE A YEAR. it’s that great, it’s THAT LEGENDARY i pity new idols who don’t get to experience variety shows with MTV i’m not even joking. please watch it.

* fun fact: do you know who invented being awkward on variety shows? CNU. broad shoulders? CNU, established 2011. long hair don’t care? shin dongwoo, blood type A.

2. B1A4 SESAME PLAYER (2012)

watch it here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPmDyLdeUxQ

 i said on my previous B1A4 post that 2012 was a blessed year for BANA. 3 albums and LOTS OF VARIETY SHOWS asfjksak listen oppa is old and was blessed with gods of variety shows that appeared on sesame player: INFINITE then MBLAQ (if you have time just google it with english sub they’re amazing). B1A4 was considered a super rookie back then, their popularity was still behind both infinite and mblaq yet there they were. it’s like the upgraded version of MTV match up, sans the humiliation lmao.* fun fact: who invented being a lazy scholar slash the original bear? CNU. did grandpa jinyoung make his first appearance on sesame player? YOU FUCKING BET im wheezing at the subway scene PLEASE WATCH THE WHOLE SERIES.

3. HELLO BABY (2012)

watch it here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJ8EdHl3m9Y

im fucking ugly crying dude what the fuck thanks to baro i understood that i have to level my body and eyes when talking to lil kids like—so they feel comfortable with us and not spooked etc. also if you’re handsome like jinyoung then you’re instant favorite. the babies are so pretty here I WANT TO KNOW WHERE THEY ARE NOW IT’S BEEN 5 FUCKING YEARS? THE FUCK?

* fun fact: what’s the best catchphrase in all kpop land? ask gongchan and his ellipunt. he knows dude, he knows.

4. MTV SELCA DIARY

watch it here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvBMgFobZe8

i believe this was a short series like 2 eps? and they were in japan and as they played hide and seek gongchan was locked out of their hotel because he went out to the balcony located in the hallway to hide and the door is locked from the inside. it’s safe to say i was worried af for his fate. spoiler alert: just watch it please lmao.

5. WEEKLY FUCKING IDOL

LISTEN WHO INVENTED DONI AND CONY’S STANDARDS OF BOY GROUP DANCING TO GIRL GROUP’S CHOREOGRAPHY? IT’S SANDEUL. trust me doni said so, unfortunately i couldn’t remember which episode that he said to a rookie boy group that had to do the girl group dance challenge and they showed sandeul’s footage dancing to… GIRL’S DAY SOMETHING JESUS.

here have some lq screen caps:

you can watch the episode featuring sandeul dancing to girl’s day something and my hyung 01 jinyoung stiffly dancing to sunmi 24 hours here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUVykgefD-Q&list=PLaN3K4K4nBGYzzy2Nq9eDm98SESmx8sco&index=10

(dude, thank me later jinyoung KILLED me).

6. MNET GO!B1A4 ROAD TRIP (2014)

SOLO FUCKING DAY ERA GOT ME

watch it here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGH8MG0qYm8 

tbh i haven’t finished bc i believe they weren’t properly subbed before? or maybe i was lazy? BUT IT’S ALL SUBBED NOW do you know who invented being unfortunate for the camera? it’s sandeul, bc his ice cream got snatched by a seagull and it just so happened to be filmed on camera.

ok i’m not sure how many eps are there but this one >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEuj066JVQI has ma bro CNU grooving with another bro. do they make you want to go grab your bike now? yes they do.

7. ASK IN A BOX (2015)

just watch it in 1080p i swear https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWDpnoN6xrQ

8. ????????

9. while we’re at it please watch them singing and dancing to their sister’s ultimate song ‘1 step 2 step/step by step’ composed and arranged by jinyoung here >>> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfh8okrsTnw

10. ok tbh i dunno their new stuffs fuck. there’s always their channel on V live app, but their videos rarely get subbed there le sad face. if you understand korean though, please subscribe to their channel lmao. i’m tagging the best B1A4 guru @cybercnu​ maybe you can enlighten us all? also my fellow BANA le liz @alizardbird

anon-sshi, i hope you will have a good time watching all of the videos above. the links should work and you can search the next episodes on each respective youtube channels. i hope you will laugh until you cry or cry until you understand why this oppa is a B1A4 supremacist lmao.

that being said, i would like to thank you deeply for showing your interest in my brothers. it’s been 6 years and counting so tell your friends about them too lmao. FIND THEM ON SPOTIFY - LOOK UP THE LYRICS TRANSLATION and if you’re into korean drama watch jinyoung and baro’s dramas. follow their instagram and twitter accounts. follow oh my girl and I (cha yoonji) and ONF and wm_ggumnamu accounts. there’s a post on tumblr saying self care is stanning WM entertalent groups and it’s true LMAO.

thank you have a great weekend oppa spent two hours compiling this.

# CREDITS: http://b1a4tv.tumblr.com/vs

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLaN3K4K4nBGYzzy2Nq9eDm98SESmx8sco

#B1A4 #bana #jung jinyoung #baro #CNU #sandeul #gongchan #wm entertainment #recommendation #* answered thank you #* le post

[jewpacabruhs]

tagged by @mew-poo ! thx 😊

nickname: shay is the nickname lol

sign: libra

height: 5'7

time: 10:05pm

birthday: oct 15

favorite bands: too fuckin many...by the posters in my room, fall out boy, panic at the disco, green day, nirvana, and arctic monkeys...gonna add the neighbourhood, beach house, brockhampton, linkin park, & pearl jam

favorite solo artists: FUCK ok the weeknd, eminem, tyler the creator, kendrick, 2pac, frank ocean, p!nk, beyonce, rihanna...fuck dude i have so many

song stuck in my head: fuckfuckdin oh hanukkah (ohhanukkahlightthememorahletshaveapartywell ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

last movie i watched: star wars the last jedi!!! it was dope

last tv show i watched: mr robot season finale, which was phenomenal

when did i create this blog?: i think around march? i created this account in january as a fresh start. but ive been on tumblr since june 2014

what do i post: on here, mostly south park fanart & sometimes commentary/analysis

what did i last google: idk smth related to star wars probs

other blogs: haha fuck. ok so my main blog @hallelujuh (i rb gifs of tv shows, movies, pics/gifs of actors, etc), my blog for stupid funny shit so it doesnt coutter my main @hallelujuhshits , an inactive slime blog @shaystims , and two others im not mentioning

do i get asks: not rlly but idc. tho i do appreciate the ones i do get!

why this url: cuz im jewish, i say bruh a lot, & its a sp reference, seeing as this is an sp blog?

following: 90 blogs that post various different things lol

followers: 126, which is not bad at all considering i post no original content whatsoever 😂😂

average hours of sleep: i didnt sleep much my entire life but lately i sleep a ton? i think it caught up w me. used to be 2-5 hrs, now it's 5-12 lmaoo

lucky number: 27

instruments: bass, guitar, ukulele, piano, & violin, & im intend to learn clarinet

what am i wearing: my pajamas, which consists of my 2pac tshirt & my fuzzy zebra print pants

dream job: director/screenwriter or bassist

favorite food: sushi!

last book i read: coraline

three favorite fandoms: south park, bandom, & percy jackson haha. that was like 7 yrs ago, but it was fun

tagging @briwookie , @cartoongirl26 , @p3t3w3ntz , @shortstackedkyman

#mine #txt #about

[asplashofvodka]

B.A.P. Party Baby NYC 2017 Fan Account

So it’s like 80 years late buuuuutttttttt I figured I might as well write down this fan account to continue with the tradition. I’m going to put concert, hi touch, and photo together into one. Gifs and photos included, pray for your internet.

Alright, so I came into the city late the night before the concert and met my 2 friends for a relaxing night. Sadly I had to work that day so I missed some of the earlier fun. We stayed near Grand Central for a change this year. We hung out in the lounge of the hotel for a while and just joked around most of the night, a much needed precursor from what was gonna be the day from hell.

So while we enjoyed our night for bit we actually had two of our friends lining up before us that we were planning to join a little after midnight. When we were just about to leave she actually called us and told us that security had made them all leave because it was too cold and they didn’t want anyone getting hurt or anything. It was nice because it was FREEZING that night, and if you’ve never been to Terminal 5 it’s right near an underpass and next to the water, not the best combo for camping out. 

SOOOOOO onto show day!!!!

We lined up around 6 a.m. … we gave our friends a break since they stayed out. Steph, Megan and myself were nice enough to bring hot packs for majority of the line cause everyone looked like a popsicle. After the line was split up we actually got lucky enough to be interviewed for the Fomo Daily video, thank god a lot of the awkward stuff got cut out. <_< 12+hours in line wasn’t so bad for the simple fact all of our friends were in line with us.

So fast forward to concert time.

Our view.

Real life right here. I’ve never been this close for a concert of a group I hardcore stan. So although we were in the corner of the stage we had… an eventful, let’s say, evening.

I have to give props to the DJ B.Shoo cause he just had to go and pull out songs we weren’t expecting. I honestly can’t even remember what the song was but all of the people in my section were LIT. There was actually a staff… possibly manager standing there and he started to record the crowd. Where that video went, the world may never know. So he leaves after he records and then another Korean staff member shows up and stays by the curtain we’re in front of. Normal enough… or so we thought. 

The DJ’s set ends and the intro video starts playing. Cue all the craziness and excitement. While everyone is going insane over the video, my friend Megan and I both notice people appearing one by one behind this curtain and we start to lose our shit. Honestly, it was like, “Oh, I think I see someone behind there… oh look two more… SHIT THERE’S 5 OF THEM…6 NOW!” All while this staff member is laughing at us. 

First song was the Hurricane Remix. I’m not a huge EDM/House person so I can go along and tolerate it. Lol 

Next was BADMAN. BITCH YES. JUST YESSSSS. This remix is still hands down my favorite. I was hoping they were all gonna hit the choreography flawlessly like last time but alas Himchan. First he was too early and then completely forgot what the hell he was doing and actually slipped off stage while laughing at himself. LMFAO Jongup and Zelo still killed that choreo IDGAF!

After that was No Mercy and BANGX2. I honestly couldn’t even tell you what happened during this cause I was too hype. The only thing I remember was the long ass staring contest Daehyun and I had for NO DAMN REASON. NONE WHATS SO EVER and none of my friends noticed it, but it is in photo.

I’VE BEEN WAITING MONTHS TO HEAR FINALLY HEAR THAT’S MY JAM AND DO WHAT I FEEL LIVE. I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED AT ALL. I FUCKING LOVE THESE SONGS. I was ready for it, my friends were ready for it but the staff member was surprised as hell at our enthusiasm. He was thoroughly amused by us.

Dancing in the Rain is always a cute song, you can’t hate it.

The dress code pick happened next. That was an interesting 5 minutes. So, Himchan is my bias, not secrets there. I was dressed for a Himchan pick is all I’m gonna say. My friends thought it would be hilarious to SCREAM AND SHOUT for him to pick me… from not only next to me but also in other spots down the front where others were standing. -_- Guys,pls. At one point they screaming so loud and pointing at me that not only was the staff member DYING AT MY SUFFERING but Youngjae and Daehyun started to look over to our area and I had to duck and hide behind people. Let’s not ever… nah no. It was a cute little segment though, I totally would’ve spilled my drink on Himchan too if I would’ve been that close too. Them feels are seriousssss.

NEXT WERE THE SOLOS AND BITCHHHHHHHHHHH…. WHEW LAWD.

I believe it was Jongup, Zelo, Youngja in terms of order but my feels were attacked so I can’t be sure. 

JONGUP. MOON. FUCKING. JONGUP. HE DID NOT COME TO PLAY WITH THE HATERS, BAND WAGONERS, AND DENIERS OF FEELS. TRY MY LUCK THERE’S NOTHING I CAN SAY ABOUT THIS THAT DOESNT INCLUDE AN OBSCENE AMOUNT OF SWEARING. Just know you guys got the tame and PG shit for TV promotions. FUCK IT UP, MOON JONGUP FOR LIFE. 

Zelo decided that the year 2017 he would return to his sweet and innocent appearance after fucking the floor last year. Thanks, bro. Appreciate it. The song is actually really cute though and I need the recorded version, get on that TS.

YOUNGJAE. 

YOO.

YOUNGJAE.

I have this deep deeeeppppppp LOVE HATE with Youngjae (mainly love but still) he didn’t have to come for life this way. I didn’t need it, didn’t want it, I just wanted to live peacefully that day. His solo…. I literally found the corner of the banister, rested against it, covered my mouth in amazement and didn’t move for the duration of his solo. He didn’t have to remind me why he’s bias 1.5 like that. Jesus. Also I need that studio version too.

Fermata, I Guess I Need U, and Body and Soul… Im not even gonna try and explain the level of I CANNOT reached.

Skydive, Young Wild and Free and Wake Me Up in a row… OT6 FOR LIFE. FUCK ME UP. They killed it and us.

Now for Wake Me Up apparently we did a little much. As if we didn’t go hard enough for the other two songs, us continuously doing the choreography got us recorded during Wake Me Up… by the staff… who also turned out to be one of their managers. At first he tried to sneakily record us but I caught him and laughed and he stopped. Then he did it again and didn’t care that we saw him. Which he then scurried to the backstage area as soon as that song was over. Yeah….

So after that Zelo came back out and take us the hormone increasing dance (2014 concert goers should remember that one). No one knew what the fuck they were doing it was hilarious.Check on starts playing and all of sudden my friends and I start to notice that BAP is gradually looking more and more to our corner, which for the most part went kinda unnoticed for the other half of the show. Now I’m not gonna say they saw it, but I can say for a fact that manager posted it on his instagram that same night. (which also took me a whole week to find ) But the next bunch of songs were the fun ones Spy, Feel So Good, Be Happy and Carnival.

They did their usual goodbye talk before performing B.A.B.Y *thug tear* That was supposed to be the end, but it wouldn’t be a BAP concert without an encore. They did BANGX2 again. 

Now it’s time for the Hi-Touch and photo op shenanigans. 

They had everyone with Hi-touch go first, they turned it into a whole damn exercise circuit. Just what everyone wanted to do, climb 3 floors, come down and go back up. But anyway…  So the panic was real guys. So the order I can remember was Youngjae, Zelo, Daehyun, Jongup, Yongguk and Himchan. Literally my death in the beginning and end.

So before we get to go up to the guys the staff is doing their annoying “phones away,” “don’t give them presents,” “hurry up” speeches. I roll my eyes and continue walking to the guys. 

Youngjae is first. Lord jesus I wasn’t mentally prepared, but my makeup was still in tact. *bless you Laura Mercier powder* He is the only dude I know that is ALWAYS ready before the damn fan that’s meeting him. He was already eyeing me before I got up to him. His usual smirk followed by a cute smile after I hi fived him.

I was actually proud of myself this hi touch cause I was able to look at and actually hi five everyone this time while still mentally dying.

Next was Zelo… he’s tall as shit… why? Anyway he smiled and I high fived him and went on to the next one.

JUNG. DAEHYUN. What’s your deal, bro?! So I get to Dae, I was prepared this year to feel close as fuck to him as always. Apparently he was not and made it obvious… VERY OBVIOUS. So I get to him and look him dead in his eyes and this boy legit goes O_O and looked shocked as al holy hell. I actually tilted my head a little and giggled at him and he kinda recollected for a second, but I felt victorious for once. 

Megan 1- BAP - 3 Years

Anyway… onto Rude Boy Jongup. So he was right after Dae and ISTG I don’t know what was going on that night but he too felt the need to look at me with a squint but from under his fringe so I was confused.

Next was Gukkie! He’s so cute and friendly at hi touches. He looked so good though, thank goodness I’m not a Guk stan. That’s like instant death.

So last but not least, Kim Himchan.

One question, just one. WHATTHEACTUALFUCKHIMCHANWHYTHEFUCK?!

We’re going to take a little mental journey to understand this. So Himchan is last but he’s not behind the table like everyone else. He’s actually at the outside corner, so if you’re walking towards him you can see him straight on not an angle. 

Ok so as I’m done hi fiving Yongguk, I turn so I can face Himchan, normal course of action right now. Would’ve been a quick go through had when I turned his hand be ready for a hi five and he would’ve been looking at my face.

Till this day this part gets me all flustered and gets my nerves going. *deep breathing*

So I turn slightly to see Himchan checking me out in the most shameless way. This man is a greaseball and I KNOW THIS. BUT NOTHING. NOTHINGGGG COULD’VE  PREPARED ME. So he’s checking me out, at least from hip/thigh area and slowly pans up to my face and then proceeds to bite his lips and smirk at me and then put his hand up for a hi five.

We’re gonna have seat for a minute cause LORD HAVE MERCY IT TOOK EVERYTHING IN ME AT THAT MOMENT TO CONTAIN EVERY OUNCE OF MY BEING.

For reference Himchan’s face was basically this Xuimin gif. 

Like… how does one act normal in this situation. Well if you’re me, you try to give off the most controlled shocked face and act dead inside so you don’t get arrested.

For reference

 Me:

So I high five him and proceed to high tail it the entire fuck outta there as quickly as possible. I made it to the hallway where I then had my breakdown, still couldn’t speak and explain anything then though. 

If you had photo op they made you go allll the way back up stairs and pick your groups. Two of my friends are Zelo bias so they weren’t even gonna attempt to take a pic with each other. lmfao So we found this other group of girls and I deadass went and asked any of them if they were Himchan bias and luckily no one was. Then this staff comes over and is like “Who wants to be line leader?” I was like fuck it i’ll do it. I get to be the first person to pick a spot duh! So I tell my friends to line up behind me so they can get to their biases before the other girls and they do. So we get downstairs and we’re dying all over again cause now we’re the first people they see in the line and as soon as the group thats with them leaves, Youngjae and some of them look over at us. Great,

I look Youngjae in face again, smile and casually walked and stood in between him and Himchan. My other friends got lucky and all got to stand with their bias too. *YAAASSSS* Now, I had made it a mental note to stand a little bit away from them cause I have a butt and didn’t want to bump into one of them. All I would need to haunt me forever. Despite all my attempts, I did end up bumping into someone… I don’t even wanna know who cause I’m traumatized enough from that day, lol But a girl was rushing to kneel in front of me and I scooted back just a tad and bam… leg or something. I’ve never readjusted so fast in my life. The picture was taken and I took off in a diagonal for the gift table cause we left our stuff over there. (One of the staff was not happy about it but we didn’t care) There was amusing shit that happened on the other side with my friends Daph and Megan but I can’t even begin to get that story correct. All I know is Daphne booked it for the table while I was waiting for her and had BAP in hysterics. 

Then as we were leaving we told the manager we would see him next year and ran out of there as fast as possible.

Also here’s Himchan’s face in our photo… which I conveniently compared it to the FSG face for you.

If you find the full i’m the one in the red. 

‘twas a hell of a night.

Fin. 

#BAP fan account #BAP #LOE NYC 2017 #party baby world tour #himchan #yoo youngjae #daehyun #zelo #yongguk #jongup #hi touch #jesus lord help #the feels are strong with this one