#like lmao if I’m going to die a lonely mentally ill lesbian might as well just speed up the process :

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

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#like lmao if I’m going to die a lonely mentally ill lesbian might as well just speed up the process :/ #if the middle is the same as the end why the hell stretch it out lol #I’m so so miserable tonight #I want to not have a broken head #I can’t emotionally or physically maintain anything the way I want to because of my stupid head #I don’t say I don’t understand or get gay people my age #and that’s true #and I know I just want people to be who they are and it’s not their fault I’m like this #but if I’m being honest this whole thing is making me so frustrated at the world and myself #I don’t LIKE most people #it’s not just an understanding thing #I just flat out don’t like them and I get uncomfortable around them or sad or frustrated #and I hate that I don’t want to be that person #and yeah I don’t treat people differently and I’m still supportive etc etc #but I hate the fact that I just don’t like most other gay people my age #makes me feel like a judgmental douche who thinks she is better then other people #which I don’t #I just don’t get them or feel comfortable and it’s like I’m having all my oddities and loneliness thrown at my face and I HATE it #I don’t want this to be my life #I don’t want to be this way #I hate how lonely I am I hate how misunderstood I feel #I just want someone who gets me and loves me and WHO I LOVE AND WANT TO BE AROUND AND AM HAPPY AROUND #god I hate this