#like let me breathe first

[swordheld]

do the silly thing. if you do not do the silly thing time will pass and it will not be the same silly thing it could have been. it will still be silly, and it will still be yours, but it will not be the same. this is both a blessing and a curse, but so is living; and if you do not do it now when will you? who will? it has to be you, it was always meant for you, waiting for you.

#this is about writing for me but could be about anything (that is not hurtful to urself or others. very important) #that's why it is silly (affectionate) or cringey (affectionate) like u gotta just let yourself go sometimes. you have to do the thing. #even if it is terrible horrible (not what you want) bc at least then it EXISTS. at least it holds space in the universe and it lives outsid #you can let it sit and rot and gather dust but at least then you can go back to it. even if it's horrible there is at LEAST at least - #one kernel of it that you can bring into the next piece. at least one shining pearl of something. #even if it needs work or months in those lil funky rock tumblers for geodes and gemstones and all. even if needs SO much work. #at least it is there!!! and it is yours!!! #it's your call to action if it's something u want w/ all your heart. #or even a piece of it. if it's something you want? well - it's already yours. it always has been. #you just have to take the first step / the first breath / and begin. #scribbles.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[lyss-butterscotch]

Convincing yourself that everything will go wrong and everyone hates you is such a horrible way to live. Like whats wrong up there brain? Why are you so scared of everything? Now im paranoid >:(

#someone super nice can breathe the wrong way at me #and my brain jumps 10 ft up in the air lile a cat #shaking my brain like marracas #vent #sorry this is supposed to be a serious issue but i literally do not have the time to slowly wind it down #yes brain i know im behind i know people will mention it #do you want to be MORE behind??? make me feel worse than i already do? #let me take the first step out of here

[frenzymutt]

Here's another art post of Cragger and Crooler! I'm a bit nervous about how active the Chima tags are right now but also really happy to see people get into the fandom! Welcome everyone, I hope it hasn't been too chaotic for you guys.

Also this took an annoying amount of time, for something I feel is simple but oh well, I'm happy with it. All follows/reblogs are loved but I'm not forcing! :D

#In all seriousness how is it that the very first time I pos art on here stuff goes up in flames with other Chima fans #Like damn let me breath #lego legends of chima #lego chima #crooler #legends of chima #lego fanart #lego #chima cragger #cragger #cragger the crocodile #chima #Frenzymutt's art #digital art #anthropomorphic #anthro #anthropomorphic character #anthro character #ok bye <3

[invinciblerodent]

Replaying from the beginning, I don't think I'll ever get over the fact that Astarion actually expected us to not immediately clock that he's a vampire. And I know this has been said before, but it's so hilarious.

He's over there, thinking himself suave and secretive, with such decor as...

A clearly bloody glass cup sitting right in front of his tent, in a puddle of blood, as the very first thing you see

another bloody goblet at his feet, with stains that do not look anything like wine on his white carpet

jars of blood inside his open tent, complete with a very clear bloodstain on the pallet under his bedroll

this clearly labeled bloodbank jar, covered in bloodstains, just on the table right next to him

this veritable dinner table napkin covered in blood, and of course, the pièce de résistance,

the fucking mirror in clear view, angled perfectly so that if he wasn't a vampire, you should be able to see his ass in it in premier plan when approaching from the campfire.

Not only is he very clearly a vampire, but he's also an excessively messy eater, which honestly makes the fact that he is only revealed on the third night a downright humiliating admonishment of the party's collective intelligence.

(Though, armed with the knowledge that he cannot seem to keep blood in his mouth, there is also some real potential here for the first act of physical tenderness he experiences in centuries to be the player character just... absently wiping a drop of their blood off his chin with their hand after a feeding.)

#not the first feeding of course but like the third maybe #i think i'll headcanon that iona did that #just an unconscious action; a very simple and natural expression of care #he jerks back ofc like she slapped him #like he had just lifted off her and they're both still slightly dazed #they're looking at each other for a moment from like... three inches away still; catching their respective breaths #and she just said “here; let me just--” and... did it. without thinking #and it's weirdly intimate and kind of awkward the next day but they both decide to not mention it #baldur's gate 3 #squirrel plays bg3 #(yes I know Astarion doesn't need to breathe and I've said so before) #(but I still have decided that I like to think “faking” it comes as naturally as... well as breathing should) #(I do think he is prone to temporarily forgetting to breathe in emotionally charged moments though) #oc: iona raedir

[gunsatthaphan]

first and khao for deling magazine.

#firstkhao #firstkhaotung #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #gmmtv #😩😩😩 #????? #can they like???? let me breathe????? #just for one second??? #im losing it once again #first knocking over the jenga 🥺🤏🏻 #little first wants to be picked up from daycare #hes being rebellious #skjhfkds #theyre so dear to my heart

[lord-westley]

I saw that Mass Effect Legendary Edition was on sale for 9.59, so im like, yknow! ill give it a try. It looks interesting, theres romance, one of my favorite blogs @deep-space-elf posted about it and likes to play it. So lets try it!

Tell me why

WHY

did i have to get my heart broken within 15 minutes?

I saw Nihlus, I met Nihlus. He's a cutie patootie, i loved him, i was excited to continue playing and interact with him more

and that cutscene

that mOTHERTRUCKING CUTSCENE

#HOW DARE #I THOUGHT ID BE ABLE TO GO TO HIM #AND YKNOW SAVE HIM #NO #HES JUST DEAD #DEVS DIDNT EVEN LET ME TALK TO HIM AS A DYING LAST BREATH #WHAT THE HECK MAN #like #yes i know you couldnt romance him #first thing i did was google who you can romance in the game #BUT LIKE #WHY DID THEY HAVE TO KILL MY BOY NIHLUS #mass effect #mass effect series #Mass Effect Legendary edition #nihlus kryik

[abtheb]

April 28, 2023

Despite everything, it's still you.

#me #ive cut back on lifting a lot due to injuries and struggles with my joints and instead picked up lane swimming in march #i had never used a public pool in my life and never swam with intent before #it was new and kind of terrifying but i needed to move my body again in a way that didnt cause pain #the first few times were pretty rough- i couldnt swim well or hold my breath and struggled with the repetitive motion and breathing #one day beams of sunlight shone through the airy space and large windows and cast shining watery reflections on the pool's bottom #i had been learning water caustics for 3d art and i loved to watch them #its gotten a lot easier now and i can let my mind wander and enjoy the sensations instead of worrying about drowning #the cool water on my skin #the muffled amniotic sounds of bubbling fluids #the mosaic tiles and patterns #the sunlight and caustics #every time i go its a social stress test- but I've gotten better at handling it and it helps me connect with other people in a tiny way #i dont know what the future of my body's training will look like as i plow into middle age #but im proud of myself for doing something totally new and finding joy in it

[amee-racle-ofmyown]

I AM GOING TO POST THE HEIST DUO BEING SOFT AND DOMESTIC AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME‼️

bye I reached the tag limit💀

#the power I wield as a mediocre artist is insane #I have been. Thinking about this specifically for so long ok #just imagine with me #perhaps day after a heist #maybe he offered to take first watch again. but ended up staying up all night to let you sleep. again. #and so maybe now he's super tired #you're just cleaning dishes or cooking or something #and he slowly sidles up behind you #tightening his arms around your waist #he just stands there #breathing in your closeness #there were one too many close calls for his liking #feeling how solid and warm you are is comforting. the even rhythm of your breaths reassuring. #maybe a kiss pressed to your neck #he's just glad you're okay :) #and happy to have you here with him. to share everything you do with each other #OK WOW DAMN I JUST MADE MYSELF ALL🥺🥺🥺🥰 #my art #ahwm #partners in crime #heist mark x y/n #heist!mark x y/n #mark iplier #heist mark #heist!mark #ahwm y/n #yn sona #a heist with markiplier #markiplier egos #markiplier cu

[idk-bruh-20]

Irondad fic ideas #93

Peter gets kidnapped. Tony is chained up nearby.

The kidnappers do their usual speech, tell Peter if he acts up they'll hurt Tony. Peter acquiesces to torture, takes on beatings, witnesses Tony getting beat to within an inch of his life just because Peter talked back, etc. It goes on that way for a while.

Then, one day an alarm sounds. The kidnappers, who had been about to torture Peter in front of Tony, with Tony struggling against the chains and Peter unwilling to let him take his place... suddenly this alarm sounds and the kidnappers stop. They toss Peter back into the cell, unchain Tony, and rush away. Peter is too injured to get up, even though he's crying and calling out for them to bring Tony back.

Then, Iron Man bursts into the room.

It turns out, Peter was the only one kidnapped. They'd set it up so one of the kidnappers was using face altering tech to torture Peter psychologically and also to keep him compliant. Peter has spent all this time sacrificing himself, agonizing over the man's pain, in terror over his wounds, enduring torment so he wouldn't have to, for one of the men who kidnapped him in the first place.

Bonus:

Peter now has SEVERE separation anxiety, PTSD night terrors about Tony being injured in ways he has personally witnessed in real life.

Meanwhile, Tony gets to unlock fun new levels of guilt. Blaming himself not just for taking so long to find Peter but for being the reason Peter is so hurt (physically and mentally). Tony finds he has zero (0) problem with Peter staying close by.

Eventually they have to talk it out. Peter tells Tony he can't feel guilty that Peter loves him, that they're family. Yes, the kidnappers exploited that, but Peter's glad Tony didn't actually have to go through all those things.

Tony says he wishes he was there, so Peter wouldn't have had to go through it alone.

Peter: I wasn't alone. I had you. Even when it's just someone pretending to be you, that's what you mean to me. Protection and hope. A reason not to give up.

#peter: and I'd do it all the same every time #you can pry my willingness to be tortured to protect you out of my cold dead hands #tony: ... #peter: ...too soon? #irondad fic ideas #they develop secret codes to make sure nothing like this EVER happens again #not that tony will be letting peter out of his sight long enough for a kidnapper to breathe near him for at least 5000 years #are these fic ideas getting longer over time or is it just me? #hope y'all don't mind oops #this one just showed up and I found myself logging into tumblr yet again v_v #the first step is admitting that I have a problem #thank you to those of you still submitting fic ideas!!!!! I will get to them soon!!!!!!!!! #irondad and spiderson #iron dad and spider son #irondad fic idea #fic idea #fic ideas #ironfam #peter parker #tony stark #kidnapped peter parker #iron man #spider-man #spider man #irondad #iron dad #spiderson #spider son

[petorahs]

me, gearing up to explain why the dragon prince's latest seasons have continued to disappoint me, that while i love the lore and worldbuilding and characters there are clear pacing issues that are so jarring it takes me out of the experience, and that i say all of this with great love for the series but there's only so much good concepts can do before animation has to catch up in order to retain the average viewer's attention. that although season 4 and 5 have been branded as "the mystery of aaravos" the titular character barely appears and that is a crime to me, that even if it's for the suspense and intentionally leaving the viewer/main characters in the dark it's not doing a good job at building up his character and i fear for the exposition dump that will inevitably happen later on. that i will be harsh in critiquing this series because i love it so much and want it to be the best it can be: *inhales*

also me the moment i actually finished the goddamn season:

#no fair viren i want a canon lovechild with aaravos too are u kidding. i'd do anything to let him manipulate me #AARAVOS<3333 #as mlm there is just something so lovely to me about aaravos like they put something in him that activates my neurons #aaravos #the dragon prince #the dragon prince season 5 #love them. love this hot elf bastard. i feel ill #my critiques still stand btw. but god its so hard to hate it when hehe elf man <3 #think im just grumpy they dont show aaravos more when hes literally the only thing keeping me watching at this point. #at first it was rayllum #but hmm.... #some of the emotional side plots are... cheesy at best.... i wanted to roll my eyes at a lot of points... its just so overdone? #is it just me being used to these kinds of storytelling?? like its good but its not anything im not used to so i just put it on bg noise as #as i wait for the season to finish.. #i hate to do this but not only is it avatar tla but also somewhat reminds me of RWBY. king i'm sorry to do this to you i really am.. #to be fair theres nothing wrong. with being any of this. i think tdp is still nice standalone #it just drags out sometimes it's silly #also those clumsy sequences where it wanted to replicate that 3D + 2D animation hybrid #that spiderverse pioneered???? i mean. there was an attempt and i respect that #overall though!! i really do love this series i think it's still charming and im def tuning in to the next season with bated breath #i have more good to say than bad tbh if i tried theres just so much about it :]]]]] i love <3

[fictionadventurer]

The Heir of Redclyffe is teaching me that what Little Women really needed was for the March sisters to have a clever, witty, sharp-tongued, disabled brother who was BFFs with Laurie.

#charles edmonstone my beloved #he's so much fun #and his friendship with guy is one of the best parts of the book #i'm shocked to see a victorian book where the disabled person is neither a monster nor a saint #the disability affects his life and the household but it's far from the only thing about him #he's a great character in his own right #he even has a plot-relevant illness #but the plot relevance isn't 'oh no he's near death let's have drama' #but 'he's having a flareup and can't write letters so someone loses a vital correspondant at an unfortunate moment' #(charles does later lampshade the lost opportunity for a dramatic deathbed reconciliation scene) #but anyway despite my continued comparisons of this book and little women #they are different books #aside from the laurie thing and the general family atmosphere and the moralizing mother figure there's quite a lot different #for one thing the male characters are much more interesting than most of the female ones #the girls are fine but certainly not the main draw of the story #i do like the religious aspect of this one more though #at first it was giving me anxiety cuz they agonize over teeny little sins #but once we moved from childish concerns to more adult ones the faith aspect became much deeper #still clunky and eye-rolling at times but also surprisingly natural in some places #and i'm still holding my breath for whatever made jo cry over this book #66% through the book; it's gotta be coming relatively soon #books #the heir of redclyffe #little women #charlotte mary yonge #louisa may alcott

[pawbeanies]

getting hit with the "feeling touch starved need to be Held" curse so hard like there is an evil wizard somewhere who hath set a hex upon me for all time . the only cure for such a powerful curse is like maybe a hug perchance

#boys who need like a hug So Bad. not even like touch in a s*xy way at this point im sure but maybe just little a hug #or maybe a hand hold i thjnk a hug would be maybe too much for me at once. maybe a hand hold... maybe a hand touch first we can work up 2 it #there is a BITCH ASS WIZARD and he cast CURSE OF TOUCH STARVED so bad i am shaking and curling up in a bawl. bawling even (not rlly) #whennn WHENN will someone hug me and put a hand on my back and shush me and tell me im ok and to breathe and relax when will it be my turn #(never is the answer actualy bc in the physical space i am terrified of people and letting them In My Brain . actually #its ok here tho bc like . there's space u feel me like. theres distance #ne way this blog is my diary and i can say whateva the fukc i want !! yeah!!

[cosmobrain00]

well🙂

#*visibly trying not to burst into tears* hey guys whats up #surprise surprise another absence bc my life can’t stop getting WORSE evry day it seems haha! #so. now who’s gonna tell me how u deal w the loss of ur fave person n the one person u were 100% certain truly loved u no matter what #who also inspired u to be an artist in the first place n who's been there for u ur ENTIRE life #like idk how to start dealing w it lmao. one min ill be basically okay n then the next ill feel like smthing just tore a chunk out of me #looked outside just a sec ago n thought “oh so she'll never see my progress in art. oh ill never get to make another painting for her” #n yk part of me just wants to pretend like none of it happened honestly #like “hey that was a fucked up dream oh well let me call [x] n tell them I love them” #n I dont fucking KNOW how to deal w this grief n idk whats normal n what isnt #no I havent cried rlly but almost every day I feel like I cant breathe n tht my chest is collapsing in on itself #no I cant talk abt it but i can’t draw like I used to n thinking abt my last art project makes me wanna throw up #< considering it was going to be a present for her tht she'll never get to see. Haha so funny right guys #fuck I need to get so entirely drunk over this now RELAPSING TIME BABY!! #anyways. will try to be normal tm n talk to ppl again instead of isolating as a way to cope n sorry to ppl who have msg'd me Ill be back

[aswaki]

matthew from today..... HE FUCKING LOOKS SO SCRUMPTIOUS OH MY GOD.... and he's hugging nicholas from &team....... i'm like this close to fainting.....

#aswaki yaps #zb1 #seok matthew #matthew let me breathe #he looks like the boss i'm about to have a hidden relationship with #nicho my first non zb1 idol mention here #smt.vid

[dylanconrique]

tim's nephews arguing over who gets to hold their new baby cousion first.

#*and this is icarly! #that is after they get over the initial shock that tim and lucy had a baby girl lol #they're like 'what the heck? a girl? how come it's a girl?' #tyler being the oldest would go first to set an example for his younger brother(s?) #OMGGG or could you imagine if he shyly whispered to his uncle permission to hold her?????? i would die #imagine tim and genny slowly and carefully instructing tyler how he should hold her from the armchair in the corner of the hospital room #genny would absolutely be holding her breath like 'please god don't let my kid drop her' #i will simply be passing now goodbye #the rookie #tim bradford #genny bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well