#like legit the last time I posted anything at two am it was borderline throwing a wedding down

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Sorry for doing it this way, I think OP deleted their post or blocked me like a mature, balanced person would, so I have to tag you in

@mr-laugh

Oh boy, lot to unpack here.

So you didn’t even know there were that many subgenres of fantasy, one of the most popular classifications of fiction on the planet... And you think you know enough to tell ANYBODY what classic fantasy is?

And where exactly I attempted to do that, huh?

If you don’t even know the most common subgenres of this vast pool of fiction, why are you jumping into this discussion? You just admitted you don’t know anything!

There is no discussion, there is a stupid ass post. Don't flatter yourself, you don't know jack shit.

Me not knowing what exactly are the precize subgenres of a genre of literature, which, btw, are completely arbitrary and for your information, sword&magic is a legitimate category, has absolutely nothing to do with what that post you were so keen on agreeing with above. It was you who said pretty much any classic fantasy is like that: some poorly written, self-indulgent and borderline racist.

Did ya read the link, buddy? Howard talked about knowing what burning black man smelled like. He was quite approving of these things! And the books are pretty racist, it’s not hard to see, unless you ain’t looking.

Yes, I started reading and by the end of the first paragraph I was convinced he was ahorribly racist man. And? Still doesn't change the fact, that for my 12 year old self, there was nothing racist about it. I definetly wasn't looking for it, that much you got right. If I'd read it again, I'm sure I'd catch on to it now, that I know what kind of asshole he was. So the implied racism would be there. You got a point for that.

Rugged individualism? It always amuses me how that argument always pops out of the mouths of guys who are aping what they’ve heard their buddies say. If ten thousand mouths shout “rugged individualism”, how individualistic are they?

Then you should amuse yourself by looking up why this thing crops up as of late. It's coming from certain, supremely racist yet unaware of it publications that claim ridiculous shit like "rugged individualism" is a hallmark of white supremacy, among other, equally laughable things, like punctuality. It's a joke.

Again, I will give Howard to you, if someone that racist writes a black man saving the hero of the story, I bet there was something else still there to make it wrong.

Conan’s not some avatar of rugged individualism.

Uhm, yeah, he pretty much all that.

He’s as unreal and unrealistic as the dragons are,

It's called fantasy for a reason, buddy.

but more dangerous because White Men model their ideas of reality on Big Man Heroes like him;

Glad you are totally not racist, yo!!! It's such a relief that White Men are the only ones with this terrible behavior of looking up to larger than life, mythic superpeople and nobody else. Imagine what it would be like, if we would have some asshole from say, hindu indian literature massacering demons called Rakshassas, by the tens of thousands, or some bullshit japanese warlord would snatch out arrows from the air, or a chienese bodyguard would mow down hundreds of barbaric huns without dropping a sweat, or some middle eastern hero would fight literal gods and their magical beasts in some quest for eternal life.

it's a poison that weakens us, distracting us from actually trying to solve the world’s issues, or banding together to deal with shit.

This is what you just said. It's up to the white man, to get their shit together, be not racist and solve the world's problems, because those poor other people's just can't do it. If we would just not be oh, so racist, then China would surely stop with the genocides they are doing now, or blowing more than half the greenhouse emissions into the athmosphere, the muslims would stop throwing their gays from rooftops or ramming trucks into crowds and would just start treating women as equals, India's massive rape problem would be gone, subsaharan African would be magically bereft of the host of atrocities committed there on a daily, yeah, you sure have that nonracism down, buddy!

A rugged individualist would be smart enough to realize that even the most individualistic person needs others; no man’s an island, and a loner is easier to kill.

Individualism doesn't mean at all what you think it means, it's a cluster of widely differeing philosophies that puts the individual ahead of the group or state, it's ranging from anarchism to liberalism and is also has nothing to do with my point.

Central Europe?  What, Germany?  Because let me tell you, historically they are SUPER concerned about race!

Germany traditionally considered western european, central europe would be the people stuck between them and the russians, to put it very loosely. We are equally nonplussed by the self-flagellating white guilt complex and the woe me victim complex of the west. We did none of the shit those meanie white people did to the nonwhites and suffered everyting any poc ever did and then some. We don't give a shit about your color, we care about what culture you are from and if you respect our values.

I’m an American from a former Confederate state; trust me, race is everything.  It always is.

No it really isn't. How old are you? Asking without condescension, genuinly curious, because if you are in your low twenties at most, it's understandable why you think like this.

See that hike? Do you know what happened at that time that made virtually all american media suddenly go all in with racism?

Occupy Wall Street, that's what. It's a brilliant way to sow victimhood and hate and desperation amongst the people who have one common enemy, the powers that be, the banking sector, the politicians, the megacorporations.

Can't really blame you if you are in your early 20's at most, you grew up with this bullshit hammered into you. If you are older, step out of your echochamber please!

If you actually believe, that mankind doesn't progress naturally towards a more accepting society purely on the merit of there being more good people than bad and sharing a similar living with all the hardships in life, seeing that our prejudices inherited by our parents are baseless, that's how we progress, not virtue signalling courses and regressive policies. I was raised as any other kid, I had a deep resentment towards the neighbouring nations, I said vile, racist shit against people who I actually share a lot of genes with, of which fact I was in deep denial about, and then as I gradually got exposed more and more actual people of these groups, I started to realize I was wrong and everybody should be judged by their individual merits. It works throughout the generations, my grandma was thought songs about Hitler and how all jews are evil in school, she legit thought all black people at least in Africa are cannibals and shit, my mother stillsays shit that would get her cancelled in the USA, and I will probably have a mixed race kid as we stand now.

This whole racism is an eternal problem is laughable and disingenuous and I am actually sorry for you that you feel like that.

Moving on. As for Dany, the “noble white girl sold to scary dark foreign man” is a very popular trope, especially in exploitation films, which Martin draws on much more heavily than most authors do.

No, he fucking doesn't. I already wrote a bunch of examples from the books you seeminly ignore willfully. First of all, she is sold to those olive skinned savages by a white man, who is a terrible, increadibly evil man. He want's to fuck the then 11-12 ish Dany so bad, she picks his slave most resembling her and rapes her repeatedly, "until the madness pass." He also maimes children and traines them as disposable slave spies by the hundreds. There is no boundaries colour here, GRRM prtrays all kinds of people as reprehensible, evil and disgusting. Just like you can find plenty of examples to the opposite.

What is he drawing from your exploitation movies exactly? He writes about the human anture, he writes about the human heart at war with itself, that's his central philosophy of writing.

ASOFAI is basically just a porn movie with complicated feudal politics obscuring it, which is probably why it worked so well as an HBO series (up until the last two seasons or so.)

There is no gratuitous sex scene in the books, the rapes are described as rapes, they are horrible, they are very shortly described and usually just alluded to.

The people commiting them are not put into generous lights and one of the single most harrowing stories hidden behind the grand happenings of the plot is a girl named Jeyne Poole, whose suffering although never shown, is very much pointed out, along with the hypocrisy of the people who only fight to try and save her, because they think her a different person.

Honestly, if you actually read the books and they came of to you as porn, you might want to do some soulsearching.Btw, the HBO series was a terrible adaptation, it immedietly started to go further and further from the books with every passing season and the showmakers made it very clear to everybody, that they didn't understand the very much pacifist and humanist themes of Martin. And neither did you.

We also get no indication Essos will eat it when Winter comes; hell, they seem to not know Winter exists, given the way people act, even though that is also unrealistic and weird.  Essos was just super badly designed, and Dany is a terribly boring character.

to be continued

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The interview ; draft

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long attem[ted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered? Or some histrionic borderline gone wild?

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show where she was asked to do a series and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. Been asked too many times and it was this dichotomy beteeen lack of need to get attention and having a story that would that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that wity great hesitation she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

I ask,

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen. Did you contact PBN.

No. KC had messaged me months former to the call from PBN but I never received it under I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learned of his celebrity status.

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail so it truly was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

It’s not fir lack of want. It’s having been stuck for so long tried everything and getting no where so I am just … stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog and sorry though , radio is still government owned. I didn’t realize this until afterwards. That they had truly taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out:

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a profression life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases.

What made you decide to interview . What motivated you?

After a decade of not being believed due to the fact that it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month and year after year what was happening.

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When that inured.

Because the stigmatization is too great and I was labelled and addict without a medical diagnosis and dor seven years they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found it was extensive and too late…I was truly disabled. Smart enough most wouldnt think but I have no memory and things are different. It’s changed my life; ability to deal with it

The elements to this sorry are many but the stiryLine is one that is all to pervasive within this country

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent and they arebecoming even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because according to her? She COULDNT. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her making note of this to the officers at certain times did acrually change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent prior to taking her back OUT THE BACK door.

There were so many juxicxusuons yet the consistencies. How she’d come back to, say, a small detail, that was far back but what one who made it up Would not be capable remember let alone refer to. Given I recorded her statements I can assure you she said what I be wouldn’t be able to recall and many would even say were insignificant, several times within several contexts.

And I haven’t even gotten to her story

Or rather she hasn’t. She has told it repeatedly in different forums over the years be it Podcast, blog, documents etc, but this offet to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

Both. Exactly par for par she said decicisly. To make public what she had a decade former had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard in regard to the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct and the sevre head injury untreated as a result.

Instead she lost credibility and friends for it, harrassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep my mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truky a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time thst had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed . If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most sgockecked by was how they simply throw awayvturvinnocejt when they are wrong.

What did they do?

In short? Subject me to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harrassment misconduct, surveillance , false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

Instead of make reparations and move on instead they subject the person they've already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation and a make preparations for a third transfer. To WHERE? No one to this day knows, but what is known is that those merely suspected of domestic trrrorism can be taken to black sites where their Geneva Rights aren’t active. And these days it takes NOTHING to be called and enemy of the state. The local and state Pd have spiked my person AMD reputation to make me out as I am not in the least so she wouldn’t consider a legit complaint from me.

About what? I ask

I think they are most concerned about what happened in 2015. The solicited attempt on my life. If it had not been they wouldnt have falslfied the report, given me disability without my applying for it , lied to the detective whom when he spoke to me asked first off

Who would want to hurt you AJD who would want you dead

The relief of finally someone asking for the source of al the injury false charges and terror in my life was substantial. But the state discredited me completely and I was again taken serious. I hold all elements and they know it. Motive. False incarceration ruled as such the year before...evidence, direct statement, that his insurance paid out...

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been to had they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later told them I was not payment no way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it.

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start...

. to absolute horror misconduct drfanwtion, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

I and am taken with her not needing t9 to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn't easy to decipher what caused what and when.

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years.

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long.

Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn't know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn't show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32 year old who had just completed the peace academy after two masters degree out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can't get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal love epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.

Because, she said, the matter of factly, as though she had no more emotion to breathe any longer, no one believed her. Why? Because the officer had falsified the report. She later learned he did this so he could bring her to jail instead of admitting her to ICU. He stated she laughed at 18mpyh when she, in fact, crashed at 48nph. In a ditch., The chiropractor told heart she was lucky she didnt break her neck; the hoots show in the severity the injury and how close she came to becoming a paraplegic,'

BUTShe was told by a DHMC Sven years later when she finally git an MRI, she should Not be alive She should have died in that cell, And that night was just the beginning of her nightmare. She began with a brain suddenly stripped of all defense mechanisms, ability to thing, recall or be as she had been and people blamed her character for symptoms she had no control over.

In 2011, in the small née England town of Newmarket, NH, a young woman was subjected to a warrantless search and seizure based on informant misinformation alone.

We have heard too many stories of the inequality of incarceration rates when it comes to race to go out of their way and commit immense resources to without warrent arrest a wealthy white woman? When the liability on their end is so great, that for a judge to hear the evidence which would prove the damage and incident as it occurred beyond a reasonable doubt would have the federal government charged with solicited attempted murder. There is no other explanation. ANd this isn't her imaginative iOS, nor some rational yet unevidenced sensical happening after the fa, she incarceration the year before. That in and itself was merely ONE element to prove it did not happen as they had falsified. But they also had great motive, opportunity, concurrence, deliberately, the false incarceration Just the year before which was ruled AS FALSE BY A FEDERAL JUDGE HERSELF. All these elect together with the three years before of nothing But a pervasive pattern of harassment and misconduct on the polices end> It was safe to say, She wasn't jumping to any conclusions.

A perspective or opinion is that of a hypothetical character. But an idea or perspective backed by hard evidence>? That brings it into the legal arena TRUTH. And The Truth that happened was and is not what everyone else made it, but what indeed Did happen and WHY.

The Whys that have been missing have kept people skeptical as these events make no sense without context. And frankly they do sound paranoid and conspicuous. To have a truth less belieave than any lie you could tell? That wouldnt be easy, But she refused t9 oi8e t9 be believed,

so systemically when I went to research this, the events that occurred to this young woman happened to coincide precisely with what happens to those who end up 'disappearing'. Black sites. And her paperwork sites a third transfer. Even though they found nothing. To where? I researched further and came across what is referred to as black sites. To my horror, I realized that given what she had been suspected of without any evidence they could have brought her to a location in or outside this country in which her amendment rights would have been suspended.

She would later tell but show me the report, as she did with several when they were handy. The four boxes were there. That was a lie. ...On the document she reviewed with me, I saw where it ordered a second transfer even AFTER it was proven the problem was not her mental status but the fact the DEA had acted rashly a double transfer. Given she was already at NH State, the principal and only hospital for mental health commitments, and I was only designated to the first floor, so had Lots of room for crazy before going anywhere….Where would they have brought her had her fiancé not come every SINGLE day to ensure they knew they would be accountable. My parents had left the country after signing off on a prayer request. Many would later ask her how she could forgive her mother for this. She didn't have an answer then and didn't give me one. I didn't push.

Eleven days after her mother did this the judge ordered her to mandated therapy and discharged me with an absolute. And DX f NOTHING. She has said so many times she wishes to write this all out, then attach the documents she generously shared with me but for whatever reason, self-sabotage, or maybe deep down inside of her she realized that what was happening to her now and had too many times before, would have had she said anything then,

Because not that she had, having been asked to be on a show for six episodes the state and feds acted swiftly against her I'm the ONLY way they could, by going to her medical providers and making false claims so they would for op her or change her treatment to justify their misconduct. This last time, she said she knew enough it having already occurred several times, to realize the reason he cal;ed on her;ast RX as he did was to ensure it appear she was in a state of mind and on drugs she was not. In the lands of the the supposed justice system legally, this would give EVIDENCE to mere OPINION or perspective and a judge reason to grant a warrant to look into it, rather than write it off as something of an unsound mind,

The reason I decided to do a story about a somewhat controversial topic and a woman of uncertain sanity, If I may. She spoke in what seemed a most honest manner,m neither attempting to embellish nor upset nor angry. I wondered whether her rather robotic way of retelling the events was an indication of credibility and accuracy or not.

But as the episodes progressed I noted that's not once, no matter the context or how it came up, did one detail she mentioned changed,. SHe told me how it was only after she learned that it was a Warrebtless search as opposed to Unwarrented but she figured thirty fgir grew necessary ,

SHe said she had hesitated to do rthwe show, almost as though she knew if she did she would have to brace herself for another i\mpact, explaining any and every com[lait about major violations or resulting injuries were met with unwarrented outside police harassment, whether it be two weeks of being told my tail light was out, to being stopped and given a sobriety test without reason. THere was a;was lash back and the more i spoke out? THe ore they heard i told? The more they made her pay. I realized as she spoke, her having to take sips of water and catch her breath every so often, that she reminded me of an older adult. One who appeared about 25 despite being 43. So I understood when she said that more disabling that her seven conditions over the past seven years was that she was treated as though she wasn't telling the truth when she was. NO matter what. SHe had no reason to lie.

SHe told me for seven years she had tried to get medical help for a severe head injury obtain three weeks after she was released fro her elven day stint at NH state for the search and seize. They'd found nothing in , on Her nor in her apartment. Becuase she ad not association with the activity they had associated her with. Though she understood why they may have thought w2at they did. It didnt help that she tried to explain howrever, because it was what got her committed fro the ointerrpgation. The admission of knowledge of what they were referrrinh.

She though whe was being So wise

This was because the pervasive pattern of abuse she suffered in effect of what happened to her, continues. People are aware of the 70s when it was routine to withhold evidence whuch wohkd have exonerated death row inmates?

The here oremeidcaitrf murder and happened all the timeS as do narendra Still where peolle go to jail fir lifr when they didn't do the The tie

Of course this galena to African American at a disproportionately erroneous rate relative to caucasuinsS equally is the cases. But pardon my objective factual disruptions. This story isn't about keZ or them but I figure it may give some context. Or at the very least remind The American public that the system has been corrupt for a very long time.

But here's the odd thingS the woman I interview is neither black ke poor: she is white, some would say weakthy, highly educated and an internship away from a MLADC licensure. To target this woman? The DEA, state, Feds had to be SURE of what they suspected which she alleged could have only been one thing judging from the interrogation and the fact she engaged in nothing but research writing biking and reading ...

. It wasn't a one stop shop and perhaps by airing the truth of her story, others will receal their own in like. Maybe they do not have the case she does regarding the DEA and state that make her the liability she is today. But she had planned to move on until this last year they made it clear , they wouldn't allow it. And so she seeks jow formal closure after a decade of the false incarnations, charges, entrapments, even a solicited attempt on her life. Something I never would have believed if she hasn't shown me the evidence which made it so I wasn't able not to think what I like many before me; chose not toZ because it's far easier to believe what we are do dbtooned to than know the world is not the safe bubble iwe've all made it out to be.

At least not to those whose truths threaten to shed a light on the myth of governmental infallibility / also it's becoming increasingly known that court isn't equivalent with justice. If anything it's become an Avenue to incarcerate those we choose . Or those they choose. As the laws C the statue, the judges and all the variability in betweeen makes it so any judge can impose any sentence for any crime these days. As easy as it is to set someone up for life in jail. Three incidents in which you touched or assaulted someone whether you did or didntX , if they want you chargedZ

Her example was telling. She was arrested in her own home for stalking she explained S how they accomplished this?

And how fate intervened to safe her from a fraudulent transfer to federal where she would become a number with another 'crazy story'.

How did she have parents who said… when the jail called after a life of As good to have in class and not one issue all her life?

There is no hierarchy of humanity. There isn't even one self or one way to be, or even two, but many. As many as there are yous and mes. As many as there are she's. And what she went through split her in half ij more ways than one. She became like a walking slogan for

'Why to stay silent after youve beej f**** with by the government'

Literally. The before and after was shocking and permeating from every cell: she wasn't the same person and yet she was. Constitutionally and psychologically. So should we ask to whom will I be speakingV that is irrelevant. What is? Is her story and the need for those in like situations to know others have been there and speak out .

I asked her to speak after hearing her on a five part podcast series with KC Armstrong...

Repeated traumas crashed the identity She had become comprised of through genetics upbringing and integrated experiences and severe brain damage had been shattered she said

But it wasn't in effect Igbo longer knowing whom she was but the reflection of others in which she lost herself over a long slow period, a painful AJD perhaps ce pattern of devaluation

Amd when that devaluation is based on assumptions akd lies, one is still reflected as they are not, and it gets to them. It takes character to realize you aren't who others have made you

But that took ten years of shock, realities too quickly denied in favor of believing the world was still as safe as it was

As it was before what, I asked

It wasn't a simple question

Before she realized he government would take out its people, even learning their innocence if their liability were involved.

Has it been an instance or two? Perhaps we could call her conspiratol but it was ofer a ten year period of whuch she began to research the systematicf way the givers e t takes liabilities out, Silences them. Offers state employees big bucks to white wash the likes of someone who can prove a federal case against the federal, government like solitude attmepted murder, they want HER GONE . Snuffed out. For good. It's happened before and is happening now yet few are talking about it,

any attempt to tell s met with surveillance or harassment that eventually the person gives up. Worn Doiwn, Bug what they can Cibtrik and didnt predict? Was her being asked to be on a radio show that would broadcast to millions so that they would know and she could finally say what really happened to her, And given the show she was asked to be on was well known and loved, be again credible

If ones physical constitution including the structure of their brain is no longer the same, is that person the same

She says she struggled with this question indefinitely on some existential level until the answer stood starkly before her. She wasn't her physical being. As Descartes woukd himself have had ir, I'm more comprised of my spirit in identification than my body as it is the 'thing' that has been passed on, that which has survived . And If such things are not authentic I decided whether she was or was not the same anymore didnt matter as nothing would to her in a world without God

A co founding statement coming from someone with a story which would onky push someone no longer to believe than to believe more. But it was in the details she says, not the larger picture that was always going to be embedded within her dates that she could not rscaoeD GodV allowed her to survive what those of the state and DES, those whom tried to take her life, were confounded by.

WHen I herd of this woman's story i thought to interview her if only to see how i could catch her in lies or perhaps reveal a path to truth She had been online for years attempting t9 tell what had happened to her. If she was sensat9ojao9sa9jyntuej what she was saying needed not only to be heard. She needed to know she was not alone and that someone Heard her and related to what happened , We all have a breaking point and it was clear she was close to hers.,

Where, when why, how, whom , what

Who sky

What WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to subsequent ongoing pattern of abuse and misconduct

Where in the state of NH, mainly portsmouth

Why; due to suspicions raised by a young woman i told to leave me alonie

When in 2011 until today

In= the state of NH, un theb state of NH, Sky was subjected to a WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to to a pervasive pattern of misconduct in the form of NH, due to susinionw firm 2011 until today

I heard her on the KC Armstrong show 8in which she did a five part series and briefly went over what happened to her., But She skimmed quite a but and much of it wasn't clear. I wanted to learn whether she was telling the truth

I didnt even know what i liked to do until I was able to do one thing at a time;l Before then i was racing from one thing to another. When I was put on adhd medication And could focus those interests of hers became something more easily read about,., and the more she read about what she was interested in? THe more she became curious.

Granted before being able to focus she would have not lose interest but lost the ability to pursue the appeal further than her focus of the hour or day would allow her. Now?> she confessed , she was able to lean in, no matter where she dropped off. And she found herself winding into information on the internet she may not have been supposed to need privy to .

But this isn't about her interests, This is about what happened to her. It made her realize she wasn't as she had constructed. But that those around her determined more her composition. It was only after some time she realized she was the same person as the one who had become devalued over the last five years due to circitmstaces beyond her control. But those which appeared to others as a criminal mark on her person that was unforgivable. What she had been charged with in her own home with an order placed on the neighbors below, was a mark on her character, to which she would have preferred murder.

She confessed to an obsession in high school with a man who represented a father figure Ana's gave her what she needed. A man she subsequently had an affai with and while he could move on after his children of her same age found out, she found it mr9oe difficult. Her only mistake. Two iPhone calls. THe last thing she did was drive by or to his place. The last instinct she has when she was wound up with this one person was to stalk him. A fruitless endeavor that would get one no where when it came to reconciliation or getting back together in some way with a person you love. So to be charged with this and have others come to know this though she was never asked about it so she could never explain it.

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After a year at home following a failed marriage, a new town an ironically genuine need to get an order on the other party whom it was alleged put me in prison in 2014. She mentions an accident the following year though um certain he is confused Guinean she has already mention one in 2011. The one obtained due to a falsified police report and not being in ICU where she by law belonged had the officer put the correct speed of 45..

But why would he do this? Becuase he had been solicited, she said., Now I was getting skeptical > The state is getting involved, I was on board with the false charges but,.,,I decide to listen. SHe seems unexictavble as though it is an unpleasant task to tell what happened. Again, That is what intruguiges me i supposes. The combination of her lack of sensationalism together with what sounds like an impossible story.

But the things we do not hear of often nor hear of often do sound unreasonable or impossible just like new hypothetisis formulated after we have already become set on a former one. It's far easier to keep believing what we knew, so we dont have to chance anything, so we can still stay comfortable and safel dont I think she had that option. She had to reconcile what was happening to her, as the facts were indisputable. Each incident her then fiancé insisted they obtain the report, Four boxes of original pieces, not reduced falsified or omitted entirely. That is evidence most never have at the end of a decade of what she alleges she wentthrohjgh

She begins , It happens. And I suppose it does. SHe mentions her attorney did say it does and the fact a couple employees who worked for the state did mention the feds pay state employees big bucks sot white wash liabilities like her

[dragonswithjetpacks]

I think I’m finally figuring out how to tag fanfiction. Strange Fates is legit the first piece of fic that I’ve written start to finish (assuming I’ll finish) without taking breaks and without writing big pieces at a time. This is also the first fic with multiple chapters that has gotten this much attention. I know it’s not a lot. But it has been a really awesome little journey for me. And for it being my first time... I’m kind of excited. This is the first thing I’ve written that feels like I can actually finish it. And to have support just feels awesome.

A little background... (cut because it’ll be long)

*trigger warning for mental abuse*

I’ve been writing since my parents got their first fancy computer. I was typing 60 wpm before I was ten. But it was because I was writing. Fantasy, science fiction, horror. I wrote all kinds of stuff. And I wrote my first fan fiction when I was... oh, I don’t know... twelve? Thirteen? We had a PS2 for about a year and my cousin gave me a bunch of cool PS1 games. And I became obsessed with Legend of Mana. I legit wrote everything out on paper. Then I typed some of it out. I just saved it in folder on the computer on my account I had on there. I didn’t actually see fanfiction or know it was thing until I was fifteen. That’s when I started playing FFXII. At first, I found a fan page. Submitted a few chapters. But back then, I was so embarrassed and didn’t have anyone to talk to that I just ignored it. Let me just add here real quick my parents, mostly my mom, were never supportive of things I actually enjoyed. She hated I liked video games.

I didn’t go back to fanfiction for years because I legit had no idea people did this. I thought I was weird. I was already getting bullied at school. Also, I found out my mom was reading everything I wrote. Like everything. And the way she made it known was just that she liked a part I wrote. Nothing supportive. Just hey I like you wrote this. I was humiliated. I also finally made some cool friends so I just hid my love down deep. Deep. Deep. Like I didn’t talk about video games or books or anime or anything until like six years later when I got into college. It was awful. College was about the time I started feeling comfortable gain. And that was when I found Fanfiction.net.

To be honest, I don’t remember if it was DAO or Fable 3 that got me hooked on Fanfiction.net. I had starting writing little ficlets. Like little one shots. And I found some fanart on deviant art. Then I somehow got lead to the website. It was wonderful. Fast forward to like 2012. I met a guy. And I still had this fanfiction. I would write it in secret because I was still ashamed. I decided I was going to just get rid of it. Because I had this set in my mind that I was using it to substitute fake relationships for real ones (thanks mom). I had no idea I was just enjoying a friggin hobby. So I made my first account on fanfiction. Posted my ficlets of F3, because I had an attachment to them. And I didn’t want to just throw them out. But some of them... I did. And I wish I didn’t.

A few months later and for many months after... I kept getting notifications asking when I was going to finish my fic. It inspired me. And I finished it. And it got me on a kick again. But I knew I had to be careful, because my boyfriend at the time was super nosy. He got mad at me for writing a very explicit piece. One, it was practice because I was horrible at smut (even back then) and two, it was a super old piece I wrote before I even met him. So I got a flashdrive and kept everything on the flashdrive. I felt horrible keeping a secret from him. But he also made me feel like shit.

Then I found Tumblr. And then Inquisition came out. And it all just... fell apart. It was like Inquisition was the only happiness I had left in that shit life I had. My boyfriend was awful. Controlling. Manipulative. Narcissistic. Dragon Age and fanfic were all I had. He even got me a laptop for Christmas so I could write... but then got mad because I would sit in my room and write. It was password protected and he was pissed he couldn’t read it.

I was writing a lot back then, though. I was also drinking... a lot. It was like the only outlet I had at the time because he had isolated me. I still have stuff I need to go through that I haven’t touched yet. There is SO MUCH. But needless to say, thank the Maker, we broke up. But I didn’t write again afterwords. It was a weird time for me. I just kind of stumbled through that year and drank myself away and made bad choices.

That was 2015. And I picked back up in 2017. I had made my Ao3 but only so I could just throw some stuff up I was never going to finish. I had some decent fluff in there so I didn’t want it to go to waste. I don’t think I wrote again for quite some time. And that was because of Aeva. It was just bits and pieces here and there. I guess I just recently started taking my writing seriously again.

Now, I have a very supportive boyfriend. And he wants to read what I’m writing. And he gets excited every time I talk about finishing a chapter. I don’t let him read anything because.. well... I’m still embarrassed (shit relationship left me with borderline PTSD, trust issues, and a multitude of other mental disabilities). But I feel better knowing he’s not going to get mad because I wrote about kissing a guy or anything. He understands writing this makes me happy. And it isn’t always romance, is fight scenes and plot twists and getting involved in a universe I love with a fandom of (mostly) cool people. He even wants to play the games! And I love him so much for that. And that all of this is coming together for me.

So I guess... I’m not new to this... but at the same time I am. I still don’t know how to tag. I still don’t know about all the drama. Who’s good to follow and who’s not good to follow. All I know is I love Dragon Age. I love all it’s characters. I love my OC’s. And I love my mutuals. Even though I don’t communicate with them... it’s still hard for me. Because the last time I did... well... my ex had made a fake account and called me a slut. So... yay more trust issues... even on the internet... But I’m trying! And I’ll get better! And I support all of you, too!

#kay has spoken #personal post #hello feels