#like its not fair

[euryvices]

WHY IS HIS . VOICE SO. HDSJKJSKKSKKKSJSSKKSJNSJ

#like its not fair #I want to die

[trans-estinien]

its so incredibly frustrating that my school district is so. outwardly supportive of queer youth meanwhile my partner's school district would rather post about national police day or some shit

#i mean. its texas but still #like its not fair #its not fucking fair!!! #that other queer youth have to live in fear meanwhile im privileged enough to be allowed to simply exist. #sorry im mad about it #reasons i will not leave bc ever: government doesnt want me dead

[hwanswerland]

hello good morning WHYYYY is kim hongjoong so goddamn pretty???

#i think this every single time i see him #like its not fair #???????????????? #fio.txt

[buddyhollyscurls]

My mom and I got into a fight bc she told me my sister is probably moving back home after she has her baby and she just got in a car wreck so she's going back to using my car and she got mad I was like I think it's time u guys finally use it to let me learn to drive smh

#i feel like both of them have taken advantage of me having that car #like ofc since i don't drive they can use it but neither one has like given me a chance to practice with it for myself #like its not fair #and my moms all well u been taken around a few times u should have been knowing how to drive #i have been taken out to drive a handful of times sporadically over the years its never been consistent with any means #definitely not enough to be like yea i think i know how to drive #and shes such a hypocrite about it bc she says that and then is like do u think driving easy #no its a lot of work #LIKE I LITERALLY KNOW THAT THATS WHY I KNOW THAT THE FEW TIMES I'VE BEEN TAKEN OUT HAVE NOT BEEN SUFFICIENT #i literally want to get rid of this car but when I'm like let me just put it under one of ur names they're both like no its urs #smh #i'm annoyed #me #personal

[louisarmpits]

When will it be my turnnnnnnnn

#I’m happy for the people in my life but. when will these things happen to me #:////// i hateeee hate hate hateeeee #like its not fair #I’m tired #ughhhhhhhhhhhhh #rip #i wanna *** #like whats even the point anymore #i wish i ****** ** **** when i was 16

[cadaverkeys]

You guys rlly don't realise how much knowledge is still not committed to the internet. I find books all the time with stuff that is impossible to find through a search engine- most people do not put their magnum opus research online for free and the more niche a skill is the less likely you are to have people who will leak those books online. (Nevermind all the books written prior to the internet that have knowledge that is not considered "relevant" enough to digitise).

Whenever people say that we r growing up with all the world's knowledge at our fingertips...it's not necessarily true. Is the amount of knowledge online potentially infinite? Yes. Is it all knowledge? No. You will be surprised at the niche things you can discover at a local archive or library.

#rambles #if you are a person who is into delicate skills #like lacemaking or printing or sewing #you will know fair well just how non expansive the knowledge online is in comparison to written guides from like the 50s #there was a time where at least one person in the household had to know a constructive skill #but in the modern day there is just less ans less demands for comprehensive guides #library propaganda #im stuck doing an essay rn but bc i have covid i cant go to the library and its totally fucked me #i want to source a lot of the stuff i read irl but i just cant go and get it and theres no online ver

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[names-neriah]

still wishing i was a 90's kid so bad

#you guys making the 90s feel so much more special than i can imagine #like its not FAIR

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[haunted-xander]

The rebirth demo has me so hyped how DARE you make me wait until the end of the month for the full game

#me & my dad literally finally bought a ps5 purely bc of the demo #we HAD been considering buying it for a while now especially since its getting to the point a lot of newer titles are only released there #but we watched the state of play trailer and was like '...okay so how much does a ps5 cost again?' #anyway the demo was fun as hell and i cant wait for the junon part to drop so i can continue to go crazy #cloud strife #tifa lockhart #barret wallace #cid highwind #vincent valentine #yuffie kisaragi #cait sith #aerith gainsborough #red xiii #nanaki #zack fair #sephiroth #final fantasy #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy vii #ff7 #ffvii #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[bowenoke]

in scott's pov (ep7) he refers to scar as grian's husband. no one tells him this is not the case. this is because traffic!scott decides who is and is not married like some sort of contractually binding arbiter of love. to me anyways

#he never learned how to do divorce so everyone is just stuck like this. #trafficshipping #craftie art #third life #bo's lpcu (lonely people cinematic universe) #the answer to my question about tagging seems to be 'is it even ship art if its in the desert?' which is fair #grian #scott #'op this is not shipping' the problem.is to me tl!g+s are together in a way that is so inextricable to their characters that any depiction #of them is shipping. sorry. it makes it hard to judge if its actually ship by tumblrs standards lmao

[fandom-fae]

i need to figure out how to screenshot on crunchyroll again

#like literally #i fundamentally disagree on a moral level that apps should have to right to know and the ability to restrict when i take screenshots #like its not fair #this is my device and im paying for ur stupid premium let me screenshot #LIKE i understand prohibiting screen video recording okay #but SCREENSHOTS?!?!?! No #just NO #:( #moi

[satelliteduster]

oh my god i forgot to post my absolute favorite strip from gay comix (issue #2, 1981)

#this collection is full of so many hilarious vignettes #between the fictional and biographical they range from hilarious to saddening but theyre all candid looks at #lgbt life in the 60s 70s and 80s #id recommend it if you're interested in older underground work #edit: for ppl who notice the opening blurb i will say this: #1. Many artists in the underground comix scene (yes the lgbt ones too) delighted in being overly provocative for the sake of it #hence the cringeworthy 'political unity is not the goal' line #2. i worried abt this too when i started going thru the issues but there are quite a few strips and comics focusing on the trans experience #that said. there are unfortunately not a lot of transgender artists involved in this collection #3. given the preceding two points i think its fair to say that a good chunk of the strips in gay comix just. Suck #but like they actually said it's important that we're capable of recognizing that a full 40 years down the line #so we can actually learn something from the life experiences the mistakes and even the lack of perspective tht sm of these artists displayed #nocturnal writings

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[aerequets]

#to be fair a cap is arbitrary #like what if its one of those flicky caps huh what then #anya is valid #my art #spy x family #loid forger #anya forger #sxf #my comic #spy x family art #spy x family comic #sxf art #sxf comic

[allgremlinart]

"superbat is boring" uhm nawt if you know the real and intrinsic truth about them which is that they're both insane emotionally constipated martyrs who so happen to be coworkers. putting them in a room together is an inevitable time bomb of emotion and quite frankly I've never not been invested in the outcome. not psychosexual but something adjacent. they're like if two horrible gym buddies got divorced and also held the fate of the world in their big warm man hands.

#they hate me for calling Clark as insane and weird as Bruce but its ok because I'm right #superbat #but like also you dont think superbat is boring you think fanon superbat is boring. and thats fair.