#like it doesn't already happen with American music all year around

[fras-redacted-shapes]

Thoughts and ramblings about Zane and Filmmaking before NG+

Scratch is the only one of the Alan/Zane/Scratch trifecta that we know can manifest in the real world while still inhabiting the Dark Place. It already manifested as a real person in the shape of Barbara Jagger to Alan, for example.

Zane collaborating with the Dark Presence is a logical move which I think is what allowed him to change his artistic craft from Poet to Filmmaker.

The changes done to reality by the Dark Presence/Dark Place take time to become real, they have to be gradual. I wonder if being done very slowly would allow them to become "canon".

Let's assume Remedy is not gaslighting us and Zane was initially a Poet.

Zane's craft would've been changed between 1970-2019 (2019 being the latest we can assume given Jesse's interview with a psychiatrist, which can be found in Control and doesn't have a date as far as I remember). The change solidified between 2010 and 2019. 2010 being the first time we see poster for Tom the Poet film (the asset appears in the Remaster but the file first appeared in American Nightmare in 2012 as far as I know).

That's a time-frame of approximately 50 years for such a change to become "canon".

We know events in the Dark Place don't unfold in a linear manner parallel to time in the real world, as evidenced by encounters between Saga and Alan happening out of order.

One could also count the times Alan stepped into his apartment and was photographed by Alice's camera set up. The "haunting" started after his disappearance and by 2017 Alice had already photographs of these encounters. So, as Alan has been traversing the Dark Place, his actions have bled into the real world at different points in time.

Not to mention the unknown amount of loops he's gone through before the current game, and how (if) those loops bled into each other.

I'd guess this would also apply to anyone trapped in the Dark Place. In this case, Tom Zane.

We know the Dark Presence is Scratch when it tries to imitate Alan. But when it tries to imitate Zane it becomes the Grandmaster.

The voice files for the Grandmaster lines during Zane's Film are named ZANE_SCRATCH. No grandmaster or master. Zane-Scratch.

I'd guess collaborating or integrating with Scratch would allow him to place "canonical" changes in the real world. And it could've been done at his will, following his plan, unlike the antagonistic relationship Alan has with Scratch.

And let's be honest, Zane praising Scratch? That's exactly what Scratch is after. Encountering someone who would adulate him sounds like the perfect way to manipulate him.

I think that was a great chance to make a character based off of Dark Presence in a film by Thomas Zane. A character that can be conveniently played by Zane himself.

Why changing from Poet to Filmmaker?

Filmmaking is the art form where those that came prior to it can converge:

Writing/Poetry

Painting

Sculpture

Architecture

Music

Performative Arts (Dance and Theater)

Photography

So, if you're trying to change reality, one form of Art will not be enough. In a film, anyone can play anyone.

The director would have total control over a character. Not only by directing their actions and events unfolding around them. A film Director also has control over the character's face and voice. Re-casting power if you will.

And Zane calls himself an auteur, and here, I think that makes him a control freak. Forget collaborations. It's all about him.

Before he went into the lake, Zane already knew a few musicians, the Anderson brothers. He knew at least one architect - the one that built his manor, and with whom he was probably planning on building a Hotel and Spa on an abandoned bunker.

Given the Dark Place isn't subject to causality and linear time as the real world is, we know the following events happened - but not exactly in this order and maybe one didn't give cause the next event, and we're probably missing so many events and loops that could've happened in between, on top and below, all superimposed:

After being trapped, Zane decided filmmaking would serve his goals, whatever those are.

Alice Wake, a photographer, falls into the lake. We don't know yet how the Dark Presence made use of her craft - given Alice seems to be in control of her craft during the game.

Alan Wake falls into the lake, he meets the character Tom the Poet (light in a diver's suit). The Dark Presence feeds off of him. The Scratch persona takes shape.

Tom the Poet the film is made which mirrors Zane's disappearance. Zane's original craft now a movie title, himself a character. It appears in the real world sometime when it coincided with his existence as a poet. Let's say, before or around 1970? this way the title of the film can be confused with his craft. An understandable mistake.

Alan Wake is credited as the writer that inspired the film Tom the Poet.

Alan Wake sees echoes of a cult committing murders in NY subways. Re-writes scenes to traverse the Dark Place, unaware he's (retroactively) affecting the real world. The characters are echoes of real people (Professor = Tammy, Cultist = Ilmo, NYPD officers = Thorton and Mulligan, etc.) as well as seemingly appearances of real people (Ed and Casey).

Alan meets Zane, and Alan says they don't deserve to get out - assuming we believe Zane's words while he's tied to a chair during their second meeting.

Alan stops writing.

Scratch meets Zane and they decide to collaborate, somehow giving shape to the Grandmaster. Who turns out to be the Cult leader whose followers do a lot of killing.

Scratch writes Return.

Zane, in parallel, films Yötön Yö. This movie appears in the real world sometime before Tom the Poet. At least before 1965 which is the earliest we know Zane was living on Bright Falls. Actors are credited with Finnish names, even if they originally weren't (Alex Casey). This retroactively strengthens his Filmmaker persona. This film features a character named Writer Alan Wake (this is the only named character, everyone else is just a role, like Detective and Janitor). This would be the first appearance of "Alan Wake with Zane's face" in the real world. Veikko Alén appears in the credits as the author that inspired the film.

Nightless Night is the translated name. Alan Wake is credited as the writer that inspired Nightless Night. This would be the earliest Alan Wake is referred to as a writer in the English language.

Alan meets Zane for a "second" time (first ingame meeting), in which Alan has no memory of previous meetings.

Alan finds out Scratch wrote Return and confronts Zane.

Alan shoots Zane.

The "fictional character" Alan embraces the Dark Presence and becomes Scratch after finding out the Author (real Alan in the Writer's Room) was responsible for Alice being haunted.

Author Alan embraces the Dark Presence and is shot by Saga.

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If collaborating with Zane means he gets total control over a person's identity over in the real world then, it was extremely fucking clever to make himself a character in the first place.

And this makes me wonder. What kind of influence can he exert over paranatural beings?

Alan only ever encounters Zane in his film projector, therefore being an actor under Zane's direction. During that last meeting, Zane tried to re-direct Alan, swap their roles, but Alan resisted and took control over the scene.

As did Saga and Jesse on their respective nightmares.

Yet, Jesse corrects herself at the beginning of AWE. The changes are getting to her.

I don't think that bodes well for Ahti considering he's got dialogue where he feels lost and talks like a regular old human being while in Valhalla Nursing Home.

Now, we have not seen the Olds Gods of Asgard in any of Zane's film, yet we know they've met him and maybe were friends with him.

And it's such an interesting details the Old Gods have been performing in Door's show. And Alan has been, unknowingly, playing along, even if he sometimes seems to go out of script.

A lot of people trying to change, claim or appropriate other people's identities, and the former fighting back.

Scratch is the most straightforward doppelganger. I think he at least deserve some modicum of respect for his honesty, he's very clear about his goal to Alan, unlike every other person.

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On a more meta and speculative note:

The fun thing is, filmmaking cannot exists by itself. Most other art forms can exists more or less independently from each other. A painting can be viewed without the existence of writing. A theater play doesn't need music or even architecture in its barest form. Dance is tricky in this context and someone smarter than me could make an argument in favor or against it existing without music.

Point being: Filmmaking is in essence, Photography.

It's photography in motion, across of time.

I'm really curious if Remedy is going to make use of that fact in any meaningful manner in the future.

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Last thing to think about.

Let's forget for a moment that a recording (of either music or film) requires someone to press play to be enjoyed.

All forms of art previously mentioned are to be passively experienced. They exists regardless of the audience. No active input required.

However, Video Games do.

Welcome dear player. You're an essential part of the narrative. This experience cannot exist without you.

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Which makes me think. We should be very wary of Chester Bless attempts at making a video game about Alan Wake :')

#let's see if ng+ adds anything to these thoughts #alan wake 2 #thomas zane #tom zane #one draft complete #six to go? #remedyversetxt

[oh-my-damn]

No one asked for this but I am going to say it anyways because this blog is nothing more than my personal diary and nothing really matters

So, the truth is (this is not surprising to people who know me irl) that I was never really a huge Taylor fan. In fact, I used to side with Kanye in the entire Taylor/Kanye situation. I mainly sided with Kanye because I used to dance hiphop (fun fact, I was the national champion) and so his genre of music was what I had grown up with and was used to since its more hiphop dance-friendly.

What's even more embarrassing is that I didn't even become a true swiftie until after Taylor went on the Eras Tour in the US. I had no idea she was going on tour. In fact, the reason I turned into a proper swiftie was because I saw a clip on tiktok of one specific moment on her tour, performing one specific part of a song.

The clip was short, perhaps 50 seconds long, less than a minute, but it made me burst into tears.

My first throught was: what the fuck is this??? Is this Taylor Swift??? What the fuck is going on????

Because bursting into tears is not my usual reaction to music (well, it didn't use to be, at least).

I was never again able to find the exact clip I saw. It still haunts me to this day. I remember it so clearly, the emotion in it and how it made me sob in a way I haven't since I was a child.

All it took was fifty seconds.

I never found it again. But it looked a little something like this:

This is why My Tears Ricochet is my all-time favorite Taylor song. It mainly has to do with the fact that this song forced me to dig deeper.

That clip ended after 50 seconds and I sat there with tear streaked cheeks and asked the empty room surrounding me, "What the hell just happened?" And then I asked the hollowness around me, "Why? Why did it happen?"

None of the answers to the questions I once asked matter anymore. Because those questions forced me to listen.

It forced me to let go of my pre-conceived notion of who Taylor Swift was, and truly listen.

It resulted in me finding the album this song belongs to (Folklore) and listen to every single track, one by one, while reading the lyrics.

I desperately wanted to know that what had happened during those 50 seconds of watching a tiktok was an anomaly. That they would never happen again.

But then I listened to the entire album. And it kept happening.

Again. And again. And again. And again.

It happened with not only My Tears Ricochet, but also with Peace, with The 1, The Last Great American Dynasty and The Lakes. It happened with Seven, and Mad Woman, Exile, and This Is Me Trying.

So I had stumbled into a major problem. I had stumbled upon something that was due to rattle my entire belief system and the was I saw the world.

Because how could I love Taylor Swift?

She sings Love Story and You Belong With Me; both and more, songs that are just inherently not me.

It is impossible that she could possibly affect me and make me feel like this.

It just doesn't happen. It isn't possible.

But in my delusion, I moved on to Evermore. And that is when the old part of me died, for good. I was already dying, but I wasn't aware, not completely, until Evermore.

That is when I realized the only reasonable thing I could do, was to let go of my entire belief system.

Because yes, there is no way "You Belong With Me" Taylor Swift could have written this piece that made me cry and ache in a way that no musical piece ever has before.

I was right about that.

Because "You Belong With Me" Taylor Swift didn't write it.

It was written by the version of Taylor Swift who had evolved during the 10+ years I had refused to listen to her.

And she was and continues to be absolutely breathtakingly, earth-shatteringly beautiful. In a way that I wish she wouldn't be, because it makes me question everything about myself. Over, and over, and over again, with every single track I listen to.

I am now at a point where you could not play a single track she has ever made, that I would not recognize within the first ten seconds of listening to it. It's been about a year since I first truly discovered her, and this is where I'm at.

And I don't know whether that's normal, or right, or wrong, but I feel it. I feel her words.

And who are we really, to question ourselves in something like that?

Perhaps human.

#taylor swift #taylor nation #swiftie #kanye west #folklore #folklore long pond studio sessions #my tears ricochet #tiktok #taylor

[allaboardthevespa]

Ellie Headcanons!

I love she. I've been thinking about her a lot lately so I've decided to share some HCs. Both recent ones and ones I've been kicking around in the past.

Her full name is Elinor Madison Hayden.

She grew up on a farm, as I stated before. Her father is the farm's owner, while her mother is an animal carer. Ellie grew up among nature and animals and thus has a strong admiration for them, just like Gabby. Her family in general is utterly chaotic, but they love her and she loves them just as much.

Her mother named her for the titular character of Elinor Wonders Why - a show Ellie grew a strong love for growing up. Bluey is also a family favorite.

Her favorite food is pumpkin pie, especially when baked by her uncle.

She owns a lot of stuffed animals. Not quite as many as her girlfriend but still a respectable amount. Especially bunnies!

She's a very big pop-punk fan. Some of her favorite artists include Boys Like Girls, The Maine, Dashboard Confessional, Yellowcard and All-American Rejects. Her all-time favorite song is, as I mentioned before, "Only One" by Yellowcard. She's also someone who regularly listens to different pop-punk albums every day and thus she's had a lot of wonderful experiences hearing new songs and bands. In particular, "A Twist in My Story" by Secondhand Serenade is one album that had her in tears.

She happens to be an amazing singer, too. (wishing so bad we could have a DC musical season)

Though, she's not particularly a great dancer...she often needs Gabby to help her out lol. But with Gabby's guidance, the girlfriends have shared some amazing slow dances in nature.

Autumn and spring are her favorite seasons. Autumn for the general coziness, warm lattes, orange leaves and happy vibes. Spring because she loves when it starts to warm up again after winter, and also she loves the smell of spring flowers so much. Getting to know Gabby has her loving spring even more - seeing Gabby's energy whenever spring starts is always adorable to her!

I've already mentioned that Ellie's favorite flowers are peonies and lavender (if you count that as a flower lol) but she also loves roses, gardenias, lilies of the valley, hyacinths just like Gabby, jasmine and lilacs. ...Okay she loves most flowers lol. In general, flowers have always been something Ellie has loved. Whenever her jobs were stressing her out, Ellie finds some time to spend admiring flowers, and it calms her down. Gabby has taken notice of her girlfriend's love of flowers and thus uses floral-scented products to wash both herself and the girls' belongings, and Ellie finds it so utterly heavenly.

Ellie's interest in fashion sprouted when she caught some My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic on television as a young girl and really admired Rarity's eye for fashion. Her father also has an old friend who is in fashion school.

At school, Ellie made a couple friends, but was also picked on a lot for her looks and being too much of a "girly girl" for her fashion interest and love of flowers.

Ellie realized she was bisexual not long after joining high school, where she started crushing on two different people - a quarterback boy, and a girl on the soccer team. Her family accepted her the very nanosecond she confessed.

She ended up asking both suitors out, but neither went all that well. While the quarterback let her down gently, the soccer player rejected her pretty brutally, pushing her onto the crowd and calling her nasty names. Ellie didn't ask anyone out again for a while after that. Falling deeply for Gabby truly changed her life.

In spite of her enjoyment of fashion and beauty stuff, Ellie generally doesn't use make-up. It's not her style...and she's pretty allergic to lots of make-up products anyway.

She gives AMAZING hugs. (Might as well be canon)

Her dad has an old Gamecube which Ellie plays a ton, often with Gabby and a couple of their other friends outside DC. Her favorite game for the system is Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door. You can bet she turned into a squealing little ball of joy when the remake is announced, and now she has a Switch on pre-order!

As a kid she made friends with one of the pigs on her family farm, a girl named Amelia, and spent time every day going to see her and play with her. She loved that pig dearly. Sadly, Amelia ended up passing away not long after she returned from season 1, devastating Ellie. Luckily she did have Gabby as her shoulder to cry on in those tough times.

In general, being with Gabby has helped brighten Ellie up considerably in her daily life. Sure she's pretty cutthroat when it comes to high-stakes reality TV shows like Disventure Camp, but when she's not in a competition, she's a sweet and tender soul. Her family in general is grateful to Gabby for bringing so much happiness out of their little girl. 💖

I've probably forgotten some but whatever, these are just a few of the ones I have.

Yet again I depict Ellie as a soft cinnamon roll I need professional help

#disventure camp #disventure camp ellie #(ft some gabby) #ellabby #gabellie #headcanons #comfort character #soft ellie rights

[helyiios]

hi hi hi, i have a prompt 4 uuuu,

what if ethan, on the first MI movie, went by little goth benji on london, maybe while on the train! and then a few years later, both of them already dating go by teen pics, and after ethan shows his lil farm pics with his cows and dogs ( forever a ethan farm boy stan) they find a picture of goth benji, ON THE TRAIN, ON THAT DAY. IT WOULD BE SO SLAYYYY

He fucking hates it here. It's crowded, and smells like shit, and people are loud and God fucking dammit he wishes he was back in his comfortable flat. His mate Brandon is talking his ears off about something relating to his favourite band and how his game is soon and sure enough he finds that he doesn't really give a shit. God's sake, he rolls his eyes, if only he didn't to go on that stupid trip, seriously, he didn't have to chaperone his friend to each and every of his sporting events, did he now ? They weren't even dating.

To think he could be all cozy under his fucking blankets. Driving him absolutely mad.

Really, he wishes he was anywhere but here. Even in Brighton.

Suddenly his attention is drawn to someone trying to make his way through the crowded wagon, and soon enough he's face first with a man a little smaller than him, with short puffy hair and really, really green eyes.

Huh.

"Can you move ?" the man roughly asks, and his American accent is undeniable, "move ! I'm trying to g—"

"Okay well, no need to be so rude about it, mate," Benji annoyedly replies, still stepping aside, stomping on the floor with his heavy shoes. "There."

"Thanks," the stranger finds the time to say, going to start running again before seeming to change his mind and turning around for a few seconds. "Cool piercings, by the way."

And then he's off.

Benji blinks a few times, touching the silver on left eyebrow.

Cool piercings, by the way, the words echo in his brain, met with the charming picture of the American stranger.

What a lame line, he thinks, and then Brandon's taken his camera out and he shakes his head before posing for the flash.

—

"And this is Milshake," Ethan was telling him, sitting crosslegged on the floor, handing him a very delicate picture, "she was the first cows I ever got to name !"

"That's such a you name," his boyfriend giggles as he takes the paper, focusing on little Ethan's face, his bright expression and his small dimples. His hair was ruffled and looked a little greasy, and his overalls were covered in mud. "Look at you ! You're still as cute."

"I don't know about cute," the other grins, "but I've always been told I have a great smile."

"Oh, you do. Makes me want to kiss it all the time," Benji airily replies before leaving a peck at the corner of his lips, putting the picture down on top of the pile. "Oh, ugh," he then grimaces, catching a glance at the next one. "That's me."

"I still can't believe you were a goth," Ethan disbelievingly says, shaking his head as he choked back a laugh, "you !"

"I still think the black hair was a great move," the younger man pouts, staring at the photograph with squinting eyes. "Oh yeah, I remember that. I was on the way to Liverpool to attend a mate of mine's football game. He'd insisted I came, and I thought he was hot, so..."

His boyfriend now freely laughs, tilting his head backwards.

"The train was so crowded," the other continues, "and I'm thinking that I don't want to be here, and I don't even have music on me, it's super oppressing and like, then this guy is almost falling on me, and he's like," he puts on a very convincing American accent, "huh, dude, move, and—"

He halts. Frowns. Looks at the picture then back at his boyfriend. Then back at the picture.

"Hold on. Wait. Ethan," he starts slowly, very, very careful. "Do you happen to remember if, twenty years ago you were in the UK, on a train—"

"Wait. Wait, wait, wait."

"—and perhaps complimented a poor bloke's pierc—"

"Oh my God," Ethan breathes out, raising his hands so they were on the side of his head, "oh my God !"

"No way."

"I think, way ?"

"That was you ?!"

"I knew you looked familiar in that pic !"

"Holy shit," Benji says, staring straight ahead. "Now we have to put that in our wedding vows."

"I should've asked for your number," Ethan jokes, still looking at the picture. "I mean, not everyday you fall on the most charming British man eve—"

"Okay, moving on to you on the swimming pool."

#mission impossible #ask #anon #benthan #mission impossible fic

[the1975attheirverybest]

Hello I was summoned? Gosh I did just wake up from a nap fair warning.

So by all accounts the tour Is selling pretty damn well, I don't think people realise how ticket prices nd tour prices are done. So, let me give you the lowdown

(This is all based on work I did with my music business performance and tech qualification in college *the bit before uni for americans* and reseach and continued work so take that into account)

When a tour is arranged they consider a few things.

Costs, obviously they have to look at the cost of the tour and make sure they have more money than that by a bit to have emergency and contingency funds. This includes stuff like work visas, venues, set, staff. All of that is considered

Breaking even, most tours are only really concerned with minimally breaking even or making their money back. To do that most tours set their break even point FAR BELOW the max ticket sales. To ensure they don't lose money, they try to set it around half (give or take a quarter either side) so they don't have to charge too much while still making money.

Profit, so this, once you hit that break even point provided you don't have costs you don't have to front or invoices you still have to pay everything beyond it us profit. Profit is also generated through online interactions, merch sales (like the 10th ani. Which is why I'd wager it was so expensive)

Contingency, so this is money you usually leave to the side at the start but I don't trust Jamie so we are gonna assume that actually he'd take his contingency from the profits. I don't actually knwo who the tour manager is this time so I'm running on the assumption it's the company. But even then most of the time contingency doesn't get spent. Its just in case money. For any surprise costs.

These are the very very basics we need to talk about in regards to the 1975 tour.

First, it's their first proper stadium tour in a while. At least outside the UK. So it's not expected to sell out. Especially not considering the recent controversies the boys have been through. So one could argue the tour Is selling really well considering.

Second, they've chosen their areas for a reason. When your doing an expensive theatrical stadium tour you need to consider the areas your going to and how much of that venue your actually gonna fill. There's no point booking the O2 if all your fans are in Scotland. And while I can't personally look at the sales statistics and their demographic statistics I'd reckon they've picked their spots wisely (look even idaho likes music) based those stats.

Third, it's really early in the tours life cycle, as in its not even in full swing yet. So most people won't be buying this far in advance if they aren't hard-core fans dying for a ticket. A lot of people wait until its closer to the time (mostly financial reasons and psychological reasons) so it's not fair to judge on how the sales are right this second (still good though) a lot of casuals buy tickets fairly close to shows (insane I know)

If the tour were going to be cancelled. It would have been by now. Unless something extreme happens its unlikely because the boys should have broken even by now and maybe made a small profit. There's other more complex stuff too but this is already a very long ask so I'll stop here

TL/DR I promise they don't need to sell out to break even or profit. They've been touring a while they know how many they average at live concerts and stadiums so they've likely taken the average amount of attendees for a concert and halved it for their break even point. They're smart. They've done this 10 years. Have a little faith in them. P.s most of the twitter people saying that legit just want to see the band fail or stay small and indie for them.

THANK YOOUUUU!!!! yeah I think the statement “this tour is failing” is your equivalent of saying “Beetlejuice” three times. Like if anyone says that, you materialize with info hahahaha

No, this is super, super helpful and informative! For someone who doesn’t know much about music or touring and is just going off of common sense and vibes, like I learned a lot from this!!!

Here y’all go. Twitter do be Twitter-ing which is a surprise to literally nobody. It’s the least thoughtful platform out there and not at all conducive to…like…facts or rational thought haha. Everybody say thank you Ambrose.

[suuho]

I love Seventeen and think that they are way more talented than bts (as a group) and while I want them to extend their reach even more, I don't want them to become like bts. I especially don't wanna see Carats go crazy over streaming and mass buying and turn into a fandom that harasses anyone that doesn't buy into bts's underdog narrative. This is coming from an ARMY for whom the honeymoon phase lasted for a month before I realised that Hybe pushed them to do Butter mainly to get them that Grammy nod. Seventeen have so much potential and if marketed properly in Europe/LatAm have the power to rival bts. I just don't want to see that go to waste. So, Hybe, keep your dirty hands off my emotional support boys.

i think the main difference between bts and seventeen is that the bottom line of their talent is literally ... miles apart. seventeen, unlike bts, has always been a proper idol group and was formed as a proper idol group. the vocal unit has the most members, the performance unit has idol dancers (chan, minghao and hoshi that unlike many other idol dancers, really are first and foremost hip hop/pop/street dancers), and the hip hop unit has the heaviest focus on songwriting and production with scoups and vernon, and even wonwoo. unlike bts, seventeen was built around the concept of a fully rounded idol group. bts debuted as a rap heavy idol group that later switched to vocal focus but hybe never gave them the resources to support that switch. seventeen, all 13 of them, are some of the best vocalists in the industry, especially seungkwan and dk. seventeen's performance standard is the highest in the industry. bts cannot compare.

anyways, all of that is to say that bts fell off so hard because they lack the distinctive touch that seventeen has. they were never seen as a pop group either - meanwhile, seventeen has always only made pop music. jihoon has such a tight grip on their creative direction that i am pretty sure everything that hybe forces him to do, he does begrudgingly and while trying to maintain the essence of seventeen to his best abilities. is this gonna save us from hybe's marketing techniques? no, it won't. we're already seeing it happening. the amount of (seemingly american/western) co writers they added to face the sun, the lack of actual world tour dates for a heavily america focused world tour, that weird festival, etc. it's all there. on the other hand, i feel like hot is seventeen's try to establish them as less of a fresh/teen group and more of a mature, adult-pop group. they are turning 30 soon and we cannot forget that. i want to grow with them.

and i absolutely agree with you. seventeen should be marketed properly in europe and latin america. they are the heirs to the 2nd gen kpop that was huge in europe 12-10 years ago. i think they are, like .... what shinee was to 2nd gen, seventeen is to their gen/right now. they have a huge market in eu/latam. that's where i wanna see them and that's where i think they should be, besides asia. this is not that hybe wants for them, though, and i think pledis would treat them better in that regard. sigh. they could so easily take the entire world by storm.

#ask #anon #kaz talks svt

[jasper-rolls]

Media Roundup (March 2024)

i forgot to do this for like the first third of the month oops! life is hard. quite a little list of stuff i consumed

AD:TRANCE 10 - Diverse System

TRANCE MUSIC IS FUCKING BACK, BABY. man this was a real solid compliation, just some excellent stuff throughout. it never quite got beyond the heights of 2, but still a very strong showing.

best tracks: "Warrior", "Visiophanum", "Stella Walker"

X-Men: Days of Future Past

this is that good comic book shit. some really fantastic sequences although it left some stuff on the table - i kept expecting quicksilver to show back up and attach himself to the team and he just...didn't, i guess, despite what seemed like obvious interest. presumably a set up for the sequel

i feel a little disappointed the future stuff was just not at all prominent and the story focused almost entirely on the 70s. not that i'm opposed to the 70s but it felt like something interesting could be done with the future, and i was expecting some weird timeline flashing shit with new future realities being created and wolverine having to jump back again and that...doesn't really happen, he just starts thrashing the table and making hurting kitty for really no reason - they already had the sentinel ticking clock, they didn't need to attack elliot page too. also they keep fucking stiffing beast, he doesn't...really do anything here and his design kinda sucks. please write him good just once, i'm begging you

otherwise it was pretty great. love young erik and charles's dynamic. they really need to kiss about it that would probably fix the timeline for real

The American Dream - Tedrich Lendum

i wasn't expecting much from this, and it starts off feeling a little trite, so perhaps there's only so much to expect when you're chopping and screwing country, but then it ballooned into this nigh on apocalyptic feeling. weird yet cool.

best track: "Down"

Ahsoka

laughable that everyone involved was like "oh, i guess you can see this as rebels season 5, but it's really just its own standalone thing that you can enjoy on its own terms without needing to do homework" and then it was just rebels season 5. just name it rebels season 5, man.

is this what the people want? is this really what we're satisfied by? sabine can do force stuff now even though that was like, never the point of her character. we get no idea of what ezra's life has been like since the end of rebels S4 and his character has changed not one bit from spending literal years in exile on a mudball so, whatever, he gets to go home i guess. did ahsoka change, like at all? she had some clone wars fanservice in the middle there but like. she didn't have an arc, she never stopped doing what she was going to do and she ends the show the same as she started it but she's just in a different part of the galaxy. is this all set up for the mando movie? what is the point of doing any of this when no-one's going to go through any kind of journey? filoni, what happened? you used to be pretty good at this, sometimes even great!

when is andor season 2. good god

Guardians of the Galaxy

heartbreaking: chris pratt is the star of the best MCU movie thus far

i laughed AND i cried. much more enjoyable for feeling largely unshackled from the binding narrative that's starting to wrap around the MCU at this point, where the film can focus on its characters and their journeys. especially immediately after watching something so arc-less as the mandoverse, this feels like a bright star. wonderful stuff. looking forward to more

GioGio's Bizarre Adventure II: GOLDEN HEART/GOLDEN RING

not much to say about it - despite the title it takes place in the middle of vento aureo. still, some cool fights to enjoy. joy division is a fun stand imo.

Skizz - Alan Moore, Jim Baikie

E.T. by way of alan moore seems like it'll be interesting, and the original run is decent, but it doesn't do anything truly groundbreaking, and once baikie takes over writing it becomes pretty dull. still, a neat curiosity

The Bob's Burgers Movie

Crime Hole

just a good fun hour and a half, and also a tear came to my eye when they talked about louise's hat. the villain is kind of obvious but i like how they make his earlier actions make sense. my only real complaints are that gene and tina's subplots just kinda get left by the wayside, only remarked upon occasionally, and the dovetailing of bob and linda's plot with the kids just felt a little too forced to really work. regardless, great music. some genuinely wonderful animation, not just on the dancing, but there's these delightful little actions that are done so fluidly. teddy crying in the alley, felix trying to get the toothpick out of his drink with his tongue. its a joy to watch

Star Wars: Young Jedi Adventures

I Love Yoda's Indoctrination Camp For Kids

(it's fine)

American Gangster - Jay-Z

i've always kind of struggled to connect to hip-hop, and this took some close listening, but i think this is where i finally get it. learning that jay does it all off the top of his dome completely changed how i viewed it.

best tracks: "I Know" "Party Life" & "Fallin'"

Fullmetal Alchemist

i think what i liked about this i presumably attribute to the original story. the original story that takes up the back half i think has some genuinely fantastic moments, but it fumbles a lot. this did properly get me into FMA, though

From Hell - Alan Moore & Eddie Campbell

perhaps the deepest, most well researched dive into not only the whitechapel murders, but the entire society that surrounds them, and tying it in beatuifully with a genre transcending exploration of time and evil. moore does it again.

American Idiot - Green Day

the fucking album ever. more lefty than i gave it credit for: this isn't just stupid "ooh bush bad" stuff, this was a mediation on what it means to grow up being told your country stands for freedom, while it does something completely different. salient, even now.

best tracks: "Jesus of Suburbia", "Holiday", "St. Jimmy"

#media roundup

[gaykarstaagforever]

My DM got me to start watching The Blacklist on Netflix. It's pretty good, for what is utterly a NBC network television drama from 10 years ago.

If like me, you always wanted to see James Spader be Lex Luthor...well, that is 100% what this show is. And that's great. Kudos to Warner Bros for never making that officially happen, you dipshits.

Megan Boone is...a lady cop on a network TV show. She is entirely adequate, when she isn't being forgettable. Whether that is mid acting or just the material I can't tell.

It very much feels like the 10-season American blowout of a BBC show that would have gotten two series of 10 episodes each, which would have been way darker and focused more on the central premise and been more hilariously acerbic than this is. This is an original American series, but MAN does it feel like it isn't.

I would prefer the English original that doesn't exist. I don't like American network television. Even when it's good, it is bloated and sexless and thinks I'm stupid and old and is cheaply violent, when it isn't being boring. The Blacklist is better than average, but it is not immune from any of this.

5 episodes in, so far there have only been like two scenes of people typing real fast on Sony Vaio laptops while random windows of code open and close nonsensically on screen. And one was an episode about what I think they think hacking is. It's bad, but less bad than CBS would have done it.

There is a running subplot about how Liz's husband is probably a secret assassin, and she of course won't just confront him about this or call the FBI that she works for about it, because we have to waste time on this pointless crap for 15 minutes of every 45 minute episode.

I do not care. You have a great central premise. Just do that. You are taking away from it with this garbage 1970s failed pilot crap. This is already a show about a supervillain tricking the FBI into helping him murder people he doesn't like. Like, that's good enough. Just do that.

Also does EVERY American network show about a lady cop have to spend time whinging about the status of her uterus? This was 2013. Why do you assume I'm constantly yelling "WHY ISN'T SHE PREGNANT YET??" at the screen? Is it because I'm supposed to be 73 and hate books? Because I bet that's why.

Also half of almost every episode is someone doing some exhaustingly boring action in real-time while stock dramatic music plays, because that is cheaper to film than car chases and stabbings. I realize this is TV, but I am allergic to watching repeated sequences of people walking and getting into cars and going in and out of buldings to zero interesting end while the music pretends something noteworthy is actually happening.

I call it the "24 effect," because that stupid show from a million years ago was 98% that, and it was TORTURE. Please don't do that. Do anything but that. Just an unbearable waste of my life. It is the only thing worse than unfunny sitcom jokes.

So far I give it a 7 out of 10.

I will also not be watching all 10 of these seasons, because my policy is that any show on longer than 3 seasons is...well, don't do that. If you can't tell a meaningful story in that time and move on, you're just fucking around for money.

Yes I realize "fucking around for money" is all American television does, which is why you get these shows that have been on for 20 years and stopped being anything 2 years in. Like I said, I don't like American network television. I'm playing in a hostile playground, here.

Still. Good for what it is, for as long as I've watched it.

God, this promo image.

American network promo images are their own weird genre. Like, "We need to attract attention, but also...what if grey? Like if grey was a smell? Do that."

What emotions are on their faces here? Why is the answer "none"?

This image certainly lacks the flair and creativity what Midjourney would give you if you typed "cop show, for Nebraska" into it.

I am endlessly fascinated by such expensive mediocrity. Just amazing.

#the blacklist #abc #james spader #network television #tv show review #personal

[whreforlore]

trigger warning : alcohol, drugs (weed), domestic abuse (emotional) between parents.

GENERAL DETAILS.  

BIRTH NAME:    Lana (last name tbd) AGE:  tbd  DATE OF BIRTH:  tbd ETHNICITY:   tbd GENDER:   Cis Woman  PRONOUNS:  She / Her  SEXUAL ORIENTATION:  Pansexual , Panromantic.    OCCUPATION:   "between jobs".  SPOKEN LANGUAGES:   tbd. 

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE, ETC. 

FACECLAIM:  tbd HAIR COLOR AND STYLE:   tbd EYE COLOR:   tbd HEIGHT:     tbd WEIGHT:   tbd BODY AND BUILD:  tbd TATTOOS:   (view here) PIERCINGS:   Several piercings on her ears  SIGNATURE SCENT:   tbd

PERSONALITY.  

POSITIVE TRAITS:   Has good intentions (doesn't always work out that way). Independent. NEGATIVE TRAITS:  Argumentative, Stubborn, Selfish, Lazy.    LIKES:   American sitcoms, Pizza, Beer, Music, Drinking, Horror movies. DISLIKES:  Cardio, Early mornings. BAD HABITS:   Smokes cigarettes, Smokes weed, Drinks often, Poor diet. GOALS AND AMBITIONS:   survive. that's it. one day at a time. BEVERAGE:     Tequila (any brand). Whisky (Gentleman Jack). Black coffee with heaps of sugar. FOOD:    Anything but fish. LOVES pineapple on pizza. 

FAMILY, RELATIONSHIPS, ETC.  MOTHER:   Alive - no contact. FATHER:   Alive - no contact. SIBLINGS:    4 younger sisters and 1 brother. Lana is the eldest.  CHILDREN:    none. 

EXTRA.  PINTEREST:   here. SPOTIFY:   Music taste. Muse playlist. TAG: ch: lana

BACKGROUND. 

Lana's childhood was turbulent, to say the least. When it was just her and her sister (second born) Lana remembers being around 6 years old when her parent's marriage slowly crumbled. She was witness to many arguments, mostly when her parents thought they were sleeping but Lana was a light sleeper and would lay awake hearing everything whilst her sister slept and was too young to hold any memory of it anyway. She witnessed the fight that broke out between her father who was a pack alpha and her headstrong mother, threats were thrown out like it was nothing and it terrified her. This went on right up to their divorce. Her father was then in and out of their lives, only seeing him when their mother would allow visits. It confused Lana that over the years her parents seemed to put their issues aside and then they would get to see their father more often. Everything almost seemed whole again when their parents rekindled their love and even got married again, but things were never smooth sailing as there was always something the two would not see eye to eye on and then the arguments started again. Despite the fact that her parents were clearly very wrong for each other they then went on to have a son (third born) and a few years later twins.

Every time their parents argued Lana was the one who tried to shield her younger siblings from it all. They'd watch movies with the volume loud enough to drown out the shouting, distract them with board games and storytelling and when she was old enough she'd take them all out of the house. She'd take them to the park, the local diner, the movies. However, none of that responsibility should have been placed on her shoulders from such a young age. Her own escape came in music. Volume up, headphones on, world out. 

When she was able to afford to do so, Lana moved out, her sister (second born) would soon come to live with her, but they'd never seen or heard as much as Lana had and they were persistent in getting Lana to visit home more often than she ever wanted to.

When all her siblings were old enough to fully take care of themselves Lana made the choice to go no-contact with her parents, much to her younger siblings disapproval, but they'd never seen it the same way Lana had when she decided that they simply weren't the right environment for her.

The damage was already done, however, and whilst Lana never spoke much about what happened with anyone else, she instead buried it all and found her ways of coping by drinking. She may or may not have a problem there, but she'd never admit to anything. Sadly, very much like her parents she developed an argumentative personality, doesn't like being told what to do and values her independence.

#ch: lana

[grandhotelabyss]

This may seem like a random comparison, I saw you had a book called "Class of 2000", and it somehow reminded me of this super edgy "visual novel" parody satire "Class of 09", that uses the set up of these anime looking waifus to supposedly show how real higschool was, with all the sociopathy, drug use and backstabbing - oh and also most teachers being pedophiles.

Anyways, I thought it was just misanthropic humor, but many people in comments say things like "this is just like it was" - and then I though, wait Im not american, and bullies in american movies allways seem unrealistically cruel - but maybe thats reality.

So anyways, I wonder, does your book also adress this seemingly omni present "evil" inside and around the education system, and if not, do you think it really exist in the way it seems to be presented, or did it already exist in the time period you are describing, is it depended on social strata, etc.

Anyways I probably should just read your book and find out

My novel does depict some of these subjects. I don't think it's quite as bad as the movies portray, though. The book isn't autobiographical, but the setting is based on where I grew up. I went to a large suburban public high school in the late '90s. The school district in question was mostly white back then, but was not economically uniform; it encompassed everything class-wise from the lumpenproletariat to near-wealthy professionals—though not, I'd say, the truly rich. The school itself had about 2500 students and was not unlike a large city, with many different types and classes of people forced together and all the resulting friction. This also led to more open-mindedness than you'd find in a small-town high school, I'd imagine, just because difference was on display and undeniable. I don't want to romanticize it—the gay kids were still mostly closeted at that time, for example, though not in my circles—but it could have been worse. I sometimes presented myself in a way that would now be called "nonbinary" or something similar and nobody ever bothered me. (I was runner-up for "Most Unique.") There was bullying, crime, drugs, some violence, some sexual harassment and assault—though much of this didn't happen out in the open or even on the school premises. The hallways and lunchrooms on a given day were not a violent dystopia. It was a mixed-class environment, as I said, so, like in the rest of society, people who hailed from the lower classes tended to do their business out in the open, while the better-off kept their no less troubling (sometimes more troubling) violations discreet. I didn't get the impression that the teachers were pedophiles. There were certain male teachers who visibly eyed the girls; I myself had a very courteous and very chaste flirtation with one of my teachers; but I never heard of any sexual contact between students and faculty. That doesn't mean it never happened, but I don't think it was common. (In my novel—spoiler—the 18-year-old senior has sex not with a teacher but with a teacher's wife.) Mostly, I enjoyed high school. For three years I edited the school's literary magazine, so everybody always wanted to talk to me about getting their heartfelt adolescent poetry published. And high school was when I discovered Shakespeare, Keats, Hawthorne, Joyce, and so much art, and so much music. It was a lot of fun.

#high school

[mallahanmoxie]

some miscellaneous random music thoughts BC I've listened to these albums too much already to say it's a first listen rank

Olivia Rodrigo - guts

at first I felt very meh about this album and thought it didn't quite live up to her debut, even if I liked vampire a lot. now I've flipped around and think this is the better album, it's only that the singles on sour are better. there is also the thought that this is a somewhat childish album, but I think that's sort of the point and I've come to appreciate it for what it is. like Olivia says she knows her age and acts like it. once I sat down and tried to look at it from the perspective of my nineteen year old self, I warmed up to it considerably. I think Olivia is writing for her contemporaries and that's very respectable, despite the silly lines and sometimes overwhelming production. I enjoy the rock songs much better than the ballads (they're hit or miss for me tbh) but overall it's a good album. good for her!

standouts: all american bitch (looooove the ending), ballad of a homeschooled girl (awkward bitch anthem tbh), making the bed, vampire, teenage dream, love is embarrassing

car the garden - harmony

man did it again. flawless listen. I enjoy the chill rock influence he brings, it's always the exact amount I want in my songs. I put this thing on and immediately played it for hours on loop without noticing. Incredible work from him as always Mr car the garden and I are like this 🤞 my only slight draw is that it kind of blends too well with the rest of his discography so I don't feel as thrilled as a mini I think absence had better stand outs (my whole world gang rise up) but again. perfection from my one and only.

standouts: foolish world, my old friend, alone in the end

D.O. - expectation

this is his second album and I simply think kyungsoo's music and I will never vibe. it's not bad at all but it simply doesn't draw me in despite his beautiful voice. I couldn't explain to you why exactly that happens, given that the calm ballad is very much my thing only???? idk maybe it's not tragic and dramatic enough. maybe it's too chill. god knows. worth one listen at least! and the title is nice

standouts: somebody, ordinary days

haven't listened to the newest mitski yet it's been loossemble central over here <3

#first listen rank

[kingtwolf-fang]

It's All In A Name

So lately I have been really pushing the idea of going through with changing my name. Changing my middle name and last name. It all comes down my identity. I've never identified with my dads side of the family or even my dad for that matter. I've never liked my middle name because it's my dads middle name, and I hated my last name.

I've felt this way for years, but it all comes to a argument I had with my maternal grandmother. This will be the only time I ever address her as as grandmother because to me the only grandmother I had has already passed away, and I absolutely adored her. I told my dad's mother that I refuse to carry the family name and that it would die with me if I had a choice. I had never grown up being around my dads side of the family. Every birthday or major holiday was spent with my moms side of the family. My dad's mom is a bitter bitch who has always been disrespectful toward my mom and her side of the family. My dads side of the family are money hungry, identity scheming, heathens. I want nothing to do with them. I don't want them to attach themselves to me and any success that I achieve. I would like to tie success to my moms side of the family who is a endless serving plate of inspiration for about 70-80% of my creativity.

As well as I've harbored a lot of feelings about my dad when I learned about his affair he had on my mom. This wasn't anything recent I discovered my mom told me this years ago, but I could never let it go. I'm sure you are reading this and thinking "Taz nobody is perfect we all have something in our past we are ashamed of." I would agree however a motto I've adapted to my life this year is "Kids make mistakes adults make decisions." The affair happened before I was born but it doesn't matter it still happened. Why would I want to carry out the name of a cheater, and a manipulator, who from what my mom told me was really never sorry.

Talking to my therapist about this I told her that by changing my name it will feel as if a burden has been uplifted. I told her one of Taylor Swift's newest songs Anti-Hero I feel as if I the name I posess with my dads origin is the anti-hero. I feel as if the name I wanting to pick out is who I am, and who I've been rooting for.

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me At tea time, everybody agrees I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

The very last line of the chorus it's exhausting rooting for who I am vs who I want to be. If you watch the music video the time from 0:49-1:13 when the other Taylor answers the door introducing herself that is how I feel about changing my name. Who I am now I am running to the door looking for the version of who I want to be. When I open the door the Taz (Tyler) with my mom's maiden name is the one answering the door walking in and shaking things up in my current Taz's life.

Possible Names

Tyler-Tyawatha Chayton Gordon

Tyler Chayton Cyrus Gordon

Tyler Cyrus Gordon

(Tyawatha and Chayton are Native American names my mom's side of the family has deep roots in Native American culture we are of Choctaw origin. Tyawatha means silver horse and Chayton means young seer of the other realm. Those were my tribe names I was given.

Since it's all in a a a name I figured I would just list some other names I go by as nicknames

Taz

T-Devil

Tazmanian

Tazmanic

T-keys

T-Dub

#name change #anti hero #taylor swift #native american #new name #2023 goals #maiden name #Youtube

[girlscarpia]

This just in: the USA are the only country in the whole world with regional differences

#I'm so tired #I don't even care about eurovision that much but I know they're going to force this thing down our throat #like it doesn't already happen with American music all year around

[aggravatetheaxe]

hi I’m absolutely obsessed with your writing atm but also would you mind sharing any more info on your ocs if you have it?? I wanna know more about pris (and whatever tf happened with her and michael in the past)

YES i would love to tell you more about pris. this ask made me so happy, i cant even begin to tell you. i always worry people don't care about my ocs but they mean so much to me

she is one of my most favorite ocs of all time, it's just i've been so hyperfixated on house of wax i haven't gotten to write much about her and michael - BUT i really want to and i probably will eventually

tag

some quick facts about pris:

priscilla catherine tate

born in 1958 (im terrible at having concrete birthdays for my ocs but maybe she's a virgo? not sure)

5'6", pear shaped (& gains weight and keeps it on after giving birth to audrey), pin-straight dark brown hair (gray when she's older) and dark gray-green eyes, long nose

american of irish and english descent

not religious; raised non denominational christian

aromantic spectrum, bisexual, but not inclined to go out and meet people; puts more weight behind blood relative connections

when she was a child, she and her parents were involved in a bus accident and subsequent fire. she was 7 at the time and was one of the only survivors

early onset depression and mental illness because of this traumatic event, which eventually led to a dissociative disorder, specifically a form of cotard's syndrome

her illness was manageable through therapy and medication but she believes she can't die because she's already dead

was fostered longterm but never formally adopted. doesn't feel a huge connection to her foster family though

has been both an inpatient and outpatient at various mental health facilities in the area for years; the mental health community of haddonfield and the surrounding area knows her pretty well by the time she's 20

nihilistic, prone to shutting down and appearing "emotionless" because of her anxiety (but that also means she can Get Shit Done when she has to), actually could be a deeply caring and wonderful friend if given the chance despite being a wet cat of a woman

showers 3-5 times a day because she fears her body decaying, so some obsessive compulsive tendencies. if she can't shower when she wants her neuroses become exponentially worse, which is one of the reasons she does much better as an outpatient

has a sphinx cat named soup

doesn't have many aspirations for life, understandably, since she thinks she's dead; however, still needs to pay bills, uses her mental health community connections to get herself a job in the healthcare community, becomes an RN

bounces around from healthcare jobs to secretary work to cleaning jobs, etc etc

hobbies include: puzzles (esp word puzzles), board games, miniature model enthusiast but no talent for it, absolutely adores just sitting back and listening to some old country (her FAVORITE) or 40s-50s music

now when it comes to michael, it would all depend on what timeline we're talking about. and for the record I don't really like RZ Michael so this would all be OG

if we're talking Carpenter's reboot (Halloween 1978 -> Halloween 2018):

michael and pris knew each other in passing from some mental health programs when they were younger, when loomis was still Trying with michael. basically a classmate type of connection, so they recognized each other but didn't really know each other?

she was living in outpatient/government housing at the time of the babysitter murders

michael kind of staggered to her govt housing neighborhood after being shot by loomis. michael's a creature of instinct so his first is survive -> prey

wound up staying with her because 1. she didn't call the cops on him 2. she's dead, there's nothing behind her eyes; she wouldn't be interesting to kill. we see time and time again that michael doesn't kill someone unless he's interested in them/likes how they are and wants to see them die or if they are in his way and she was neither. there's nothing exciting or interesting about killing something that doesn't care about dying

life finds a way! audrey was conceived ~3 months in

they lived together for a full year without being detected. but michael likes halloween, so while pris was at the hospital giving birth (on halloween!!!) he snuck out and decided to kill some more people (fun)

he was caught this time, as the whole town was on guard

pris was thoroughly inconvenienced by this, and also a bit sad because he had been her companion and she had gotten used to him. anxious as hell because now she's a single mom (thankfully she's very experienced with navigating government programs and was able to help herself pretty well)

managed to finagle weekly or monthly visitation with michael by going over loomis's head; this became much easier after loomis died, and they got even more privileges. knows sartain very well at that point

because of this, michael never forgot who she was. she has a connection with him

they just seem sort of drawn to each other, almost supernaturally. it's like she provides some weird equilibrium...and she doesn't ask anything of him, doesn't want anything from him. he's just in her life now

michael's parents don't speak to her and audrey (and eventually they die)

she and michael are never technically married but she considers him her partner, probably the closest thing she will have (or would ever want, she's quite aro) to a husband; she refers to him in that way often

people who know about her and michael think she's fucking insane. how the hell did she even survive that? most people don't know, though, and audrey takes her last name. it would be very hard to be a myers in haddonfield

she and laurie do know each other. she has nothing in particular against laurie but she did need to get a restraining order against her. it's unfortunate that laurie hates her because i think they'd be friends in another life

she doesn't have anything against people especially and doesn't particularly want michael to murder folks, but she's smart enough to know she can't stop him

when it comes to other timelines, such as the thorn timeline... when the curse gets involved, i figure she has to have some supernatural connection to it, but i'm not a huge fan of the thorn timeline, so i haven't smoothed that out!

@waxhouse and I have a fun crack type au where all the slashers live in the same neighborhood and there pris is:

best friends with amanda, jason voorhees's wife

audrey's mom obviously

part of amanda's book club but she never reads the books and it drives amanda insane

gets her weed from bubba sawyer

bo sinclair's object of lust and fear (she hates him and his vibes)

on good terms with freddy and pinhead (she and the Girls go to brunch with pinhead all the time)

always the designated driver (she hates driving tho and avoids it)

that one friend that you're sure hates you but actually has deep deep affections for you, they're just quiet

#pris #pris tate #michael #michael myers #michael myers x pris tate #michael myers x oc #slasher x oc #slasher oc

[softsebnbuckystan]

Soul ties - Part 9 (Bucky Barnes au)

"If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world ?"

"Can I come in?"

It was Bucky's voice – of course it was. You tried wiping your tears away before speaking. A part of you didn't care if he saw you crying, but you still hated when you couldn't hold back the tears.

"Yes." Your voice was husky from the crying and you weren't sure he'd heard you until he opened the door. You were still on your knee, unable to even look at him.  Bucky seemed to understand talking wasn't really what you wanted at the moment. Instead, he kneeled next to you and unexpectedly wrapped his arms around your shaking body. You'd noticed how rare it was for him to touch people ; even tapping Steve's shoulder seemed to hardly ever occur to him. Your shaking stopped instantly as you gave into his embrace, leaning against his chest.

"He was about to call me a whore, wasn't he?"

Had it been Steve, he would've told you no in an effort to comfort you. But Bucky radiated blatant honesty when he talked to you, which you appreciated more than you would say.

"It doesn't mean he's right," he said.

"Maybe not. But that's still the word he wanted to call his wife. How did I even- fuck." You shook your head. "How did I ever fell for his tricks? I knew his friends were trash but...I thought he was the exception. I never thought he'd act like this with me."

"Act how? Rude?" Bucky asked, unsure about what you exactly meant.

"Yeah. The neglect has been going on for years, you know." You looked up at him and got out of his arms to sit properly. It didn't take him long to take a seat next to you, leaning his back against your bed. "I just put it all on his job." You grabbed Bucky's hand : you'd never needed to touch him as much as you did now. Something in the controlled way he breathed and the warmth of his skin helped you think straight and prevented you from spiralling.

"Is it the first time he insults you?"

"Openly? Yeah." You sighed. "He's been petty before but calling me names...never."

"I'm afraid to ask this, but I have to." He looked you in the eyes, searching for...what, exactly? "He was pretty violent when he grabbed your shirt. Was that the first time as well?"

The question made you look away once more. Inexplicable guilt flooded your body as you tried to think of some lie. You leaned your head back on the mattress and closed your eyes, opting for honesty.

"No."

You could almost hear Bucky's jaw clenching ;  his other hand formed a fist, whereas the one holding yours remained gentle.

"He's never been violent intentionally," you quickly explained. "It's just... We've had our fights, alright? And when we start yelling at each other, I always tell him we both need to calm down but that doesn't suit me so he tries to stop me from leaving the apartment and...well. It goes from grabbing my arm a little too hard or just locking the door and hiding the keys. He even threw them out the window once."

Recalling those fights didn't help your tears stop rolling on your cheeks but damn, it felt good to actually say it to someone. Wanda never needed you tell her things : she could just read them when she felt like you were lying. With Bucky, it was different. You actually wanted to tell him what had happened.

"What did you do when he did those things to you?"

"Not much. It only made me angrier so I would sit on the couch or even in my room and stop talking to him until he opened the door."

"You do realise how that's...far from right, yeah?"

"I'm starting to." You shrugged. "This might be stupid but, seeing how everyone here treats me, how you treat me, it's making me realise Darren is not this perfect husband I imagined him to be. He was the easy way, you know? We met, we liked each other and he had a good situation and I could already see the white-fence family every American movie depicts. I just didn't know it would turn into a soap opera." You laughed bitterly at your own not-so-funny joke.

Bucky suddenly got up, keeping your hand in his to help you stand as well.

"What are you doing?" you asked.

"It's still your birthday and I don't want it to be ruined by that guy," he let out in one breath. "C'mon."

He took a right turn after your bedroom door, walking you further away from where the party was supposed to be. You didn't walk for long before he opened an other door, walking you into his own room.

"What's the plan, exactly?" you asked again, more than confused. "I thought you meant we'd go back to the others, and..."

"Damn, I didn't realise how this looks." He let out a nervous laugh and you mentally slapped yourself for going blank over how cute it was. "Nobody even asked you to a proper dance on your own birthday and I want to fix that, if you'll allow me."

He looked back at you through his eyelashes, looking all anxious about your answer.

"What music choice do we have?"

His face lit up and he went through a box of vinyls on the floor. "I only have old stuff, I'm sorry. I believe this should do it, though," he said as he picked out one of the pockets. "It's from 1956, but it actually came out first in the 30's. Most people know the most recent, so..."

"I didn't know you were a music nerd," you said with a smile.  "How very cute of you."

He shrugged as he placed the disk on the record player. Piano notes started rising through the air and you recognised Louis Armstrong's voice.

"May I?" Bucky held out his hand and he waited for you to nod before grabbing yours, placing his left hand on your hip. Your instinct was to inch closer to him as you both started swinging slowly in the middle of his room. His blue eyes were sounding  you out.

"This was indeed a wonderful idea," you whispered, not wanting to break the moment as Ella Fitzgerald started singing her own chorus of Cheek to cheek. Bucky beamed and you enjoyed the view, returning  his smile before resting your head on his chest. His heartbeat became another rhythm to follow and be lulled to. "I can't explain how you make me feel and that scares me, Buck. And yet, it's the best feeling I've ever experienced."  The use of his nickname did something to him : you felt his heart skip, causing you to smile discreetly. "Talking to you is ridiculously easy," you continued, "and I'm not that muck of a talker. Just ask Wanda."

He laughed softly and you tilted  your head up as his chest shook from the movement.

"I know what you mean," he confided. "I don't feel all of the guilt I carry when I'm with you. It's refreshing. I don't feel like I'm being judged at every second."

"I couldn't possibly do that," you explained. "I know a little more about the things they made you do, now, and I'm more impressed at how you came out of this. You're still there whenever someone needs help, like when that fire alarm rang for no reason the other day. And when that thing went off in the lab, you took time to help me. How could anyone judge you negatively?" Your frowned. "Sorry, I interrupted you."

"It's fine," he assured you as the next song on the vinyl started playing (not that you were paying much attention to the music, even though Dream a little dream of me was an all time favourite of yours).

Your eyes scanned his face and when you noticed his own gaze lingering on your lips, you moved  your hand from his shoulder to his neck. You were still slow dancing effortlessly, and you could feel his breath slightly picking up.

"I want to do something," you muttered. "But if you don't want me to, I won't feel bad if you stop me." The last thing you wanted was him to let you do anything out of pity ; you didn't think that was the type of thing he'd do, but there was no harm in making sure. Your fingers fiddled with the short hair on the back of his head and you extended your neck a bit. You felt Bucky's breath on your nose and lips as you got even closer to him, closer than you'd ever been until now.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" he asked in a whisper. "Trust me, I do, but last thing I want-"

Those were the only words you needed. You pressed your lips against his and a whole firework show started in your belly. His hand on your hip pulled you into an even closer embrace as you kept playing  with his air. When you broke the kiss and rested your forehead against his, you couldn't get rid  of your smile. So it was true, what books said about butterflies.

--- I'm so happy to finally post this part!! This was definitely my favourite to write so far, even though it's a tie with the stars scene. :) I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it.

P.S. : the tag list is still growing and damn that makes me so happy!! Your support means everything.

P.S. 2 : I feel like this story will be wrapped soon. If you have any request/idea you'd like to see for a next one (short one shots or series), I will gladly hear it!

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second chances song (leak) analysis

we already knew the finale was gonna be really sad but this 1 minute long clip really had me bawling ✋

ok let's do this

I see this song as the full circle ending to the core four's storylines. Which is pretty obvious from the clip.

The way it shows where they were at the start of the series to make you realize just how far they've all come from then. We can't really make out much of the lyrics but what we can pull out from it just shows exactly what each character's plot was and maybe still is/will be in (the potential) season 3.

Nini:

"I'm finding who I want to be"

Ever since season 1, Nini's been trying to find her place in the world. Starting with "putting herself out there" after the initial breakup with Ricky, and being inspired to audition for the lead of the musical. She's always wanted to stand out and be someone rather than just someone to someone. After each of her breakups she's eventually gotten stronger in some way, but still she feels lost and sometimes forgotten. Her going to YAC at the beginning of this season and immediately trying to make a name for herself in a place where no one knew her shows us how badly she wants to feel known and loved.

Whatever happens in this episode, whether it be the music producing opportunity from Jamie or not, is giving her a second chance to find herself.

EJ:

"I thought I knew what I wanted"

This one is easy. Since season 1 we saw EJ being extremely sure of himself and confident on his future, everything went his way all the time and he felt he was set for life. Then he learned something, he's not always going to be number 1. Sometimes stepping back and making a re-evaluation of your life and choices is necessary to move forward, he discovers this during the musical, "I'm not the Troy you want" and "Some wonderstudies we are". In season 2 he finally realised that it's ok to not have extreme certainty for his future. For years it's been embedded in his mind that, no matter what, he's going to Duke and he is going to be just as successful as his dad. There was no question about it and he didn't know he could. With some help he found that things can change because people change. Maybe his dad accepted that he's not going to Duke, but is pressuring him to make a new decision immediately.

His second chance could be him finally accepting that it's okay to not know at any given point, and finally break free from his family's expectations and do what he wants to do.

Gina:

"I'm sick of when I'm on the run"

As we know, Gina is accustomed to her mom's job uprooting whatever life they've settled into, to start a new one elsewhere. This line could mean that she's moving again but this time doesn't have a choice to stay. She said at the beginning of the season that her mom is letting her stay with Ashlyn until the end of the semester. I'm not 100% sure how American schools work but I'm pretty sure the semester is ending very soon. East High was the first place Gina was fully accepted. The East High kids saw the best in her, even when she just came in planning on taking over and making her mark before the inevitable move. She's sick of having to move all the time but this one really matters because this is where she's found her home. She doesn't know what's coming in the future but she doubts that she may ever find another place like this.

Her second chance may be deeper than the others, maybe she wishes she had a second chance in another life where her mom doesn't have to move her around. That she can have a new start to her life where she is right now.

Ricky:

I don't think he had any unique lyrics in that clip so I'll just go over what I think the song in general means for him.

We all know that Ricky's been going through a lot. At the start of season 1 he made a big step in auditioning for the musical, except it wasn't for himself, but to show the girl he loved that he's willing to do anything for her. We've consistently seen where Ricky puts others' opinions, feelings, wants and desires ahead of his own because he doesn't think he deserves to to great things on his own. He wants the people around him to be their best, but stay with him. He's always been content to let the people have their thing and just watch from the sidelines. He doesn't see himself worthy of whatever his dreams were, maybe because everytime he's put himself out there, it's backfired on him. He hates change and just when he gets settled into a new rhythm, accepting new people close to him. Someone leaves. When he was finally getting into the musical in season 1, his parents announce their divorce. When he gets into the musical in season 2, he and Nini break up. When he makes a choice to put himself out there, it blows up in his face and pushes him further into himself.

He needs a second chance to get it all right this time. Start over. Learn to understand his self worth but understand that the people he loves can have their own issues, problems and moments that don't concern him. Understand that sometimes, things happen when you aren't expecting it and they may seem bad but at some point, you'll learn from it.

#i might add what the song might mean for the relationships but idk #i literally just got these lyrics that might not even be legit amd rolled with it #watch this entire thing be very off amd i just spent 45 minutes writing this for nothing #i will commit a crime if this doesn't get renewed for season 3 #likely arson #idk haven't decided yet💅🏽 #really wish ricky had a line for me to analyse too #they all look so sad in this #its giving me many ideas about what could happen but idkkk #hsmtmts #hsmtmts s2 #hsmtmts season 2 #hsmtmts theory #ej caswell #ricky bowen #gina porter #nini salazar roberts