#like idek if it was stress related or just anger from not having free time

[non-un-topo]

Uhhh I think I might finally be hitting exhaustion mode this ain’t good

#i've only got a few days before both my assignments are due and it seems like the work just never ends #it's just more and more every day??? #i've been working on both of these for upwards of 6 hours straight every day for the past week #today i almost fell asleep at my desk and randomly cried a few times?? #like idek if it was stress related or just anger from not having free time?? #i want to read my own books and plays ;_; or just laze around ffs #seriously my mind and body are so tired i didn't think i could learn this much in a week #it's honestly a miracle i've been able to pay attention to anything at this point. this work requires constant full attention

[vrishali29]

Complains

Since you're probably not even going to open tumblr without me asking you to, here are the issues which i can not contain within me anymore :-

1. YOUR ANGER

2. Fraternity excuses, yes you heard it right. I still feel there's something more about the hickey story that i should know but you aren't telling.

3. I'm done with being taken for granted.

4. I'm done with you not making time for me but just giving me your "free time" if it coincides with IST.

5. I'm done with putting my anger aside and putting my patience forward.

6. If me putting my patience before anger is not even being noticed, then why the hell should i keep trying when it's got no meaning to the person I'm doing it for.

7. I have stopped opening up to you completely, if this is the Vrishali you really like then i have my doubts on whether or not you're falling for the real me.

8. Sad that you've not even noticed that I've stopped doing the small things like email, ppts, word dox and stuff like this.

9. I thought we'll fight the odds together and get through everything, but if i am the sole person you want to fight with all the time for petty issues, then congratulations to you for not seeing how badly i want to make this work even when we're not dating.

10. The Arnav i knew never slept off while someone gave constructive feedback, but i guess you do. If you think you're that cool and superior to everyone then I'm sure this will cost you a lot someday.

11. I am NOT the sweet Vrishali you talk to everyday. I am a fucking badass bitch who gets into the sweet phase just to pamper you and to make you feel better. And since your anger makes gets you so blind that you don't even see it anymore, i guess you aren't seeing the real me then.

12. Do not fucking think that i will always take your wrath trying to character assassinate me just because i love you.

13. You get irritated by the name of Vatsal right? Well, i hear you work with Tanya, you meet Zoya, you probably still talk to Simran even after promising me to apparently block her and shit and idek who else you meet or work with on a daily basis. Does that not piss the fuck out of me?

I wonder when you will actually realise the fact that there is neither any means of communication between me and Vatsal, nor do either of us want to see each other's faces.

Unlike you of course, accepting sweet gifts and business cards from your new bestf Zoya, who just crashes in your apartment whenever the fuck she feels like doing so.

14. I am not going to take the fraternity bs related to random girls jumping on you kissing you, using their force to give you hickeys and shit like that anymore. Yk why I don't buy the hickey story? Bec: (1) you say using force is allowed but not on your face, oh well then isn't neck almost a part of the same region? (2) hickey is not force, it is sucking onto someone. HOW THE FUCK IS THAT ALLOWED WITHOUT CONSENT, SIR?! (3) If there were 8 girls pinning you down to the extent that you were physically affected, how was your pin not taken?

You see? Something or the other keeps contradicting the other fact that you mention.

15. Love love karke don't treat me like your stress toy who can be disrespcted anytime, who can be shouted upon anytime, who can be character assassinated whenever you're angry.

16. I fucking want the red heart back on snap, just because i don't say it like i used to earlier doesn't mean you forget about it.

17. I don't even know why the fuck do I still love you so much and care for you even more than i love you. Yes, that does validate as a complain to me.

18. I hate giving options but now i have to:

You can choose between your anger and me.

(if you choose your anger, well then consider me gone. If you choose me over your anger, we will sort the anger issue out together)

When i had a choice to make between patience and anger, i chose the former (just letting you know).

Let me know what you choose. I love you.