#like i have friends but i dont since we only talk here

[lovelybrooke]

well lets talk of Yandere Gortash !

Like i said i think he would be second to fall for reader, i'm not sure if he would be more platonic or romantic but since i dont really like him i will mostly think of the platonic version

(I will spoil à little his past ?)

We know that he dont have à good relationship with his parents, they basically hate him and he use the tadpod so they act like if they do live him

So this Man is clearly in need of familial love. Since he would meet reader because of yandere Ketheric, he would little by little also think of Reader like someone of his family

I think of a sibling, lets say younger, someone who need him, who look up to him and who be proud of him unlike his parents

I think Gortash would be the most delusional of the three, but also the most tactical. Ketheric could be reasoned, Gortash ? Not really. He would give the impression he can be but he would NEVER let his only "true" familial love go.

I think he would not respect Reader and their opinion, cause in his mind he his the big bro, the most smart, and really Reader dont know anything from this world, so what if he did some bad thing to Karlach our friend ? That was ages ago and à need for his plan to work. Really we shoudnt stop at some old thing like it

He would gaslit Reader,

The only reasons that reader is not at Baldur Gate with him is that he want Reader to stay away from Orin and cause Ketheric dont want to be appart of Reader cause he's paranoid

I've had this brewing in my inbox for a while and now that I want to write more about Baldur's Gate I'd thought now would be the best time to answer this.

I think the thing you got right on the head is Gortash not respecting reader, since he almost infantilizing them in a way. You aren't from this world and seem to be willfully ignorant on how everything works. I haven't talked about this, but at a certain point I honestly think that reader just can't care less. Like they understand that dying is always right around the corner but they can't seem to care anymore, it's not like anyone back hoe is going to believe any of this anyway. I think Gortash is drawn to that sort of behavior in a way because it not something you see often.

He's one of the characters that just doesn't believe you for a long time about the whole "being from another world thing" but honestly he doesn't seem to care. Where you're from doesn't matter now that you're here, and you aren't going anywhere.

Gortash's feelings on reader is very complicated and isn't something even he can put into words. He doesn't love reader, but he also doesn't despise them like most, it's strange, but not enough that he wants to get rid of you. It's why he's so drawn to you, because he wants to learn more and more about you until he is the only one you have.

#yandere x reader #soft yandere #platonic yandere #yandere baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 x reader #baldurs gate x reader #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #yandere bg3 #bg3 x reader #bg3

[cherrysnax]

havin the weirdest crisis of my life

#this is like. did related so im gonna sound completely uh #what’s the word. odd and shit for a sec okay? okay #so I’ve been here. hi im cheri silver yknow me for about 20 years total but jay used to front for years when we were in middle school #im not the. original host I guess but I’ve been around since #we were in the early single digits and never left #so im the host right? I existed to go thru the Trauma #but. it’s been my life for so long. my parents don’t know Her #they’ve only known me #but like. we’re finally starting to let go of that trauma #errr not let go but make peace with it. and we’ve been holding onto it for so long. I’ve been holding on to it for so long #but.. who am I without it? like yes that’s my trauma but also. is my purpose over?? is that why we haven’t been able to draw? #I’ve been the host for 20 years this is my life #my friends my gf my life my hobbies it’s mine not anyone else’s #I let others take the wheel when I can’t (or they forcibly do it for me) and jays been gone for like 3 years he only came back because I’ve #been being traumatized everyday recently. but like. will I have to go too?? #reintergration is not really our goal. never has been but like #if we do. will I be here or will She come back? we’ve had false alarms before but it’s mostly been decided that it’s my front my life #maybe im just triggered all the time and that’s why I feel extra out of it #less myself #New Traumas are happening to us everyday #but yeah. I dont talk abt this aspect of my life much but it’s so scary to think about #I’ll talk to Chevy when they get off of work tomorrow abt it if it’s still like. freaking me out #I am me. we are a bunch of niggas but I am me. #did niggas when the identity disorder makes them dissociate smh #😫

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me? #i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭 #ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

[camptw1nk]

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#not 2 be like. negative but i just kinda got hit hard by the way my relationship w my best friend has changed #dont get me wrong i understand that her girlfriend will be super important to her esp bc she lives across the world and is only physically #here for another 2 or so weeks #but my best friend just got back from a trip to another city to see an artist she loves and as she came in i got up to go see her and ask hl #how it was but she was in her room w her gf before i could and thats fine i get it and like she hasnt done anything wrong i can not #emphasize that enough like i hold no bitter feelings to her she is excited to talk to her gf understandably #it just hit me that like. oh yeah. i have no one else that i go to about literally anything but she does #and its less ab her so much as its. its just hitting me that i dont really have? friends? #i have one or two people but like. i only have One Person thats my go to fave person always tell them everything #and i just. I've realized that its not reciprocated the way it used to be #and that i think is just like a part of growing up #i dont have a partner i dont have someone my life is intrinsically linked to #like a best friend is great but its not. relationships are placed to a higher level you know like its jusy more important #and i just. ive nevr Had a partner really. unless u count a like 2 month thing when i was 12 which i dont count #not to be depresso but i am just not the kind of person that people want or desire #and thats been the case long before i came out as trans but its extra complicated now since i dont. Fully pass #idk not 2 sound sad i just wanna be loved #and i think theres only so many times i can hear the most important person in my life come home and talk excitedly ab things thru the walls #and then never actually get told anything myself. not just ab things shes excited for but just in general #we were meant to go to a house viewing together a few days ago and it was only half an hour before it was happening when no one else was #home that i messaged them to check in and they were like oh yeah we're not going we have this and this going on #which like. fine whatever but i dont drive and getting anywhere fast is hard so it just. was stressful #but it just seems like i am constantly out of the loop. everyone i live with is in a relationship w each other and i am just here #in every aspect of my life i am Just There and im tired of it #not to sound desperate or needy but i just would like to. be noticed? or feel prioritized? or even wanted #idk this is. i just needed to rant i think im emotional bc my hormones r a bit wack #im due for my testosterone shot in a few days but i dont have the money or time to go to the doctors lately so its being pushed back #a few weeks and its just. i think its messing w me a bit #i mean i feel this way literally all the time but just the like. the being upset and emotional and posting ab it i think is bc of that #idk i needed to get it out idk it this will stay up or not

[drysauce]

i feel like withing next few months i might completely fall out with my best friend help

#each day we only argue more and more #im annoyed she doesnt do anything and shes annoyed i do things in my own way #which leads to constant arguments #and it's been only a month since we started leaving here #after cleaning the whole kitchen for the 3rd time this week i asked her to help me finish stuff and start the dishwasher to which she told #me how to do it myself and like girl no i asked for help with cleaning not for instructions #so i said i won't do it and that she's going to do it #and now the dishwasher hasn't been started for 3 days in a row because of that #and now do i break and do it myself or still wait for her to do it #if by tomorrow it's still dirty i'll start it myself because it's like 3 seconds of work and im annoyed by no clean dishes but mannnnnn #living not leaving* goddammit autocorrect #anyway the worst part is that i dont have any other friends so i can't fall out with her negdhdvd #okay correction: i have 4 more friends but i hang out with them in the process of hanging out with ny best friend #if she's not present those people don't talk to me hdhdh #if anyone's reads it then just ignore it i had to write my thoughts somewhere or I'd explode lmao

[tonycamonte]

#went 2 a party + i feel like dirt like idk i feel so ugly + gross + at the same time i feel like ive gotten less ugly since i came out + #i look better as a guy but i still feel. not good + also party was at my family friends house + we were lookin @ pictures from when we #were kids like 8-14 ish and ughhhhh im so weird looking + also i was so skinnnyyy then i wanna die........................................ #like theres a photo of me + two friends + ummmmmmmm i just want to die im sorry this is majorly stupid idk what im talking about #+ i just feel like me + my best friend have nothing to talk about + i have no friends + it has 2 be my fault because im like. the only #common factor in nobody liking me + i just feel like shit!! and i dont want to be like whiny and annoying and ugly and unfunny but im #not doing it on purpose............ ughhhh like ive changed so much in 2 yrs bc i was like whatever im doing is making people not like me + #i felt weird so i was like im just gonna change rlly hard + like i dont think its that easy but i am different bc i keep my mouth shut more #+ now i feel like i was more likeable before i hated myself + tried to be someone else but its like an endless cycleeeeee #whatever im just so miserable + at least when i was like more suicidal + fucked up i felt smart + less ugly #and also i hate my family + i dont want to live here + i hate my town but i dont want people to not like me but i do + i just feel like i #ruined my life............ #ANYWAY IM FINE THOUGH. im goin to bed + everythings gonna be ok in the morning 🕊️ #✉️

[kindnessoverperfection]

wild how the more i'm working on recovery. the more i realize how fucking bad i miss her.

#which still feels kind of insane and embarrassing since i didn't technically know her myself #(my alter did. i however barely interacted with her.) #but she knew me. she fucking knew me and saw me. i've talked about this in earlier posts but that's still the main thing that hits me. #i feel like nobody else has ever ever known me like she has. i've never felt that seen. and she loved me. she cared about me. she knew what #was underlying my outwards appearance and behaviors. she saw it and loved and cared for it. and because she knew it so well she didn't take #anything personally. (again. not douchey behaviors. just like... bragging for example. or being guarded. idk) #also there's so many things we relate on? felt like i could connect with her better. i think she and i would have been friends. #i dont know it's just #with everyone else it feels like a fucking obligatory social game i need to navigate #say the right things. act in the right ways. present yourself in ways they'll understand and interpret well. blah blah #i'm not even going anywhere with this i just miss her so bad and i'm fucking lonely and want to be seen like that again but i don't think #it can ever happen. because i got to be 100% myself but it was in a safe way and that's how she grew to know and love me #but it wasn't ME who made that decision to be vulnerable. and it was through a specific way that can't be done again because i'm here now a #an alter so it's guarded. and i can't be selfish and demanding and fully myself here because system morals are too strong for that. #even if the aforementioned thing COULD happen again. i haven't seen anyone who cares and understands and sees so deeply like she does. #it's just #i don't know #i just want to be myself and loved and seen for who i am. #but instead it always just feels like i'm having to navigate and manage social expectations and That's It. #maybe i just need to be friends with another narcissist. so i dont have to fucking mask anymore. only concern is if i'm actually being #myself - i have a high pitched voice and talk fast and talk a lot and am kinda obnoxious and high energy and #attention-seeking and dislike being alone and. yeah. that's annoying to the majority of people. which is why i am Not myself around anyone

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

👀 :3

doodle i am holding your shoulders. i am staring directly into your eyes. run away now i am going to talk about danny phantom at you.

i have. ELEVEN. YEARS. worth of danny phantom headcanons built up in my brain. canon is nothing to me i have written and rewritten the show like 4 times over. but also i love canon so it gets to stay. im just improving upon it. i allow myself to be pretentious about ONE (1) piece of media ever and it is danny phantom . so im the only person in the world who is correct about this. ok. shaking you.

do u want to know the backstory of nearly every ghost . what they were like when they were alive/how they died and how it relates to their role in the afterlife. I GOT YOU. do you want a full rundown of dannys powers and how they work. I GOT YOU AGAIN. DO YOU WANT. an ESSAY on the MYTHOLOGY of the ghost zone. do you want me to talk about the way the ghost zone royalty system works. because my god. ive got you.

trips and falls and like a bazillion sticky notes and pictures and papers spill out of my coat and scatter in the wind. oops sorry that was just my in depth analysis on Danny's relationship with nearly every character in the show. teehee <3

NOT TO MENTION popular fanon aus that live in my brain forever and i have my own versions of. i love you ghost king danny. i love you ghost hunger. hey can we talk about ghost hunger? i think the fact that i discovered ghost hunger the same year fall out boy released the young volcanoes music video did something irreparable to my brain. did you know i also like hannibal. these facts are completely unrelated.

FUCK torture fics FUCK dissection fics. fuck anyone who says the fentons are not good parents. the fentons are EXTREMLY good parents and i WILL die on this hill. every time someone in the modern dp fandom writes about how horrible the fentons are i lose like 3 years off of my life. how can you be so wrong. they are not evil they are not horrible they would not dissect their own son . i will die on this hill. im in the fucking trenches out here. someone recently posted a fic series (series!!!!) of oneshots specifically about jack fenton discovering dannys secret by accident and also being a good father and i swear to you i almost started crying on the spot. i havent even read the fic yet.

hmmmmm. what else is there. theres so much. i could go on about danny phantom.for so many hours. i havent actually read a glitch in time yet its been burning a hole on my nightstand because i KNOW as soon as i finish it we are going to be in 24/7 danny phantom lockdown for like a month and i want to do that when i have energy to make art. now that i have my new laptop this time may be sooner than you think. beware!

#yes i am ending this on beware solely because. hee hee funny box ghost joke #i HAVE to stop talking here because there are so many other things i can say and we will be here forever if i do that #hi :) i like danny phantom a normal amount. #did this even answer the question. i havent physically written a dp fic since i was like.. 14 . #and it was like 200 words cowritten with my shitty ex and its ABSOLUTE hilarious garbage #but at the time we were like. my god this is the work of genuises. its so funny. #the only comment on it is someone being like. passive agressive asking for an update. absolutely hilarious. #where was i even going with this! i dont know! #im gonna make myself a shirt that says ask me about my 12 year old danny phantom headcanons. at your own risk #that last thing in my pinned post is so true all the time. thats so mecore loke 24/7 #anyone says the words dp to me . you arw in the danger zone #asks #friends!!! #strawbie-doodle

[arthur-r]

genuinely how does someone succeed in college when you’re so terrified of being incorrect or looking stupid that you can’t even say anything to begin with???? i was trying to go into this year brave and everything but i’ve already been laughed at multiple times by a class full of people older and scarier than me and i already feel like i’m being judged and underestimated for so many reasons that i don’t want to give anyone another reason to look at me that way. but it’s gotten to the point (in the less than one week that classes have been in session; maybe it’s always been at the point) where i’m failing to submit assignments because i know that my teacher is going to see it and think i’m stupid, and never listen to me again, and i’m going to lose all the credibility that i’m trying so desperately to hold onto. and i know from a logical standpoint that it’s the teacher’s job to meet people where they’re at and lift them up from there, but honestly is that much even true anymore?? isn’t college about figuring out who has what it takes and who is going to get left behind???? why did i enroll in fucking honors classes of course i can’t do this???? i’m really not feeling well and i stayed in tonight and missed dinner and i miss home and i miss being able to talk to my friends and not be actively ruining my future. i feel like i’m always good until i’m not, and i don’t realize i need help until i’m too far in and by the time i get it, i won’t need it anymore but i’ll have ruined everything back when things were worse. i’m isolating from my roommate (who hates me because he thinks i hate him) and losing every friend i’ve started to make at the same time as i’m losing all the real friendships that i already have. and my roommate is across the room right now as i’m quietly fucking crying. and i want to go home and i want to be safe. and why is everything so unfamiliar and simple and wretchedly complicated.

#im really not feeling well. i want to go home and im not used to that at all #i miss my little sister. i miss my teachers and i miss my friends. im not used to this #what prompted all of this: i was trying to do my linguistics homework and i made it about an hour in coming up with faulty hypotheses #and i realized that far of the way through. that the only dialects i’m fucking familiar with are all fucking variations of north central #‘whoa somebody talks similar in anchorage as they do in taylor’s falls?? it must signify a deep linguistic thread traceable over generations #they’re just both right next to fucking canada???? of course they fucking sound similar???? the fact that i don’t know anyone from the east #or the south and even the people i know in the west are still the same fucking thing we all talk the fucking same #i know village english that’s a little fucking interesting but it’s not like i have any INSIGHT i don’t KNOW anything!!!! #told my french teacher i’m learning latin he asked me if it’s fucking ecclesiastical because once you’re in college it’s just normal i guess #i just feel like. yes i’m here because some part of me stood out from my peers. but in this group of special people?? i’m nothing!!!! #so i’m really struggling. and i want a hug and i wish things were different. i want to be here but i don’t feel like i deserve it #and i’m not going to get anything done if i keep feeling like this #i dont know. i hope everyone is doing well. sorry for the extra stress it’s just really difficult and strange #i hope everyone has a good night - i’m heading to bed soon #me. my post. mine. #friends only #vent cw #delete later #and everyone here speaks fcuking MANDARIN or something and all of a sudden my five years of french feels fucking basic. #kids who have been in advanced programs since birth. the imposter syndrome is fucking PALPABLE!!!! i want to go home and i want to forget #okay i’m done. im done!!!! everything is fine. hope everyone is well

[cibome]

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#delete later #i went away to the mountains for the weekend and i had a lot of fun and i feel calm and relaxed from spending time in nature and hiking #we also went to see the starts it was so much fun #BUT #i went with my mom and her friends from work and its very exhausting for me to be expected to be sociable 24/4 i just cant do it #i cant be friendly and talkative around people i barely know for THREE DAYS #plus on the first night i accidentally broke my thumb ring which ive had for 3-4 years #i rotate it around my finger all the time to keep me concentrated it calms me down AND it also helps me reduce my skin picking #its not a big problem since i can just buy a new one (if they still have them which idk) but at the time when it broke ... #mind you i accidentally dropped it to the ground and it fragmented into like 20 bits it overwhelmed me so much i almost cried on the spot #im back home already which is good but im so EXHAUSTED emotionally and socially and im working all day tomorrow... #which means i wont be able to buy a new ring until tuesday when i usually cannot even leave the house without it on #rn it just feels so wrong i even feel a bit sick from not having it on #ITS JUST A FUCKING RING... why do i depend this much on a fucking ring idk #but like i had a lot of fun we saw lots of beautiful sceneries i have pics ill probs post them later #i took my reflex but i forgot to charge it or bring the charger so i could only take pics on the first and last day #also the hiking we did was in places that were kind of physically straining so i dont think bringing it wouldve been a good idea #RANT OVER if you read all the way to here i love you thanks for reading my stream of consciousness quite literally <3

[pixiesfondlingmyballs]

i think everybody should have a hand craft. something where they sit and create with their hands. preferably something physical simply for the pure joy of getting to hold ur creations. fucking. get back into perler beads like you did when you were 7 bro, go make shit with ur hands!

#finishing crochet projects makes my brain release all the good happy accomplishment chemicals #its like stupid. here i am holding the roundest lil creature known to man. and brain becomes sparkles and glitter #like any nd person. i have trouble completing projects. but the reward is so wonderful #with crochet. i just dont allow myself to take the project off the hook. cant start a new project if my favorite hook is occupied #i also have monkey brain but some kinda bonkers obsessive issues. so i make it a /thing/ to finish the project and make it /good/ #the only think keeping my monkey brain from being debilitating are my obsessive tendencies #all my isms run in my family. and. the final outcome is always addiction of some sort. but my dad and i have made it work #i should clarify that im not currently addicted to anything. it's just like. what the pattern says will eventually happen #technically. have been addicted before so. already happened. but itll prolly happen again #look. the point. the point is. that everyone deserves to have really good physical hobbies that they get to commit to #commitment is hard but committing to your crafts. even one that only slightly intrigues you. is so worth it #i actually hate crochet half the time. and then i finish a project. and its like the lil animal crossing sparkle emote #i feel as passionately about this as i do the importance of one weekly irl friend interaction and daily outside time #which. ik i havent talked about here before. but like. brain and body will appreciate all of it #if u can go more than a week without seeing ur best friend and feel fine. then you are a stronger man than my bff and i #it's like 5 days for us and then we both start to get antsy. which. u wouldn't think happen since we talk 24/7 anyways #and and! outside time. daily outside time. i walk around my house perimeter if i have nothing else outside to do #its stupid and i hate it but ooga booga brain needs to be in sun otherwise brain shut down #i quite literally hate getting the motivation to do it. but then i go back inside afterwards and feel so happy. and its so stupid #brain and body so complex and also so not all at once. trials and tribulations

[ace-dodo]

Why does he only seem to love me when we talk?

#THIS IS NOT ROMANTIC AT ALL ‼️‼️‼️‼️ #NO ROMANCE HERE #I CAN NEED SOMEONE AND NOT LIKE THEM ‼️‼️‼️ #but yeah #thats on online friends 😁😁 #it seems like he only remembers my existence when we talk 😁😁😁 #but he then proceeds to ghost me and forget my birthday 😁😁😁 #BUT ITS FINE #i just gotta do better so he'll like me better 😁😁 #(i dont have the balls to cut him off) #(its been like this since 2021)

[wlwreader]

hi yall :3

#lil random update cause this is like my personal public diary #one of my lil cousins friends almost od’ed here #my youngest cousin found her blue and passed out in the snow #we went to grab her and papa (he’s a big can corso/pitbull mix) attacked her…. #i was the only adult at the house at the time and i literally could not get the dog off of her it was genuinely terrifying #i thought i was going to watch her get mauled alive #he let go eventually tho! and she’s….i guess okay #she came back over for the first time since it happened #and she was high again… #AND SHE WAS LAUGHING ABOUT IT HAPPENING #me her and my youngest cousin were talking about it and i was literally shaking remembering it and shes LAUGHING #MY COUSIN FOUND YOU DIEING IN THE SNOW AND I ALMOST WATCHED YOU GET TORN APART AND YOU THINK ITS FUCKING FUNNY????????? #papa has attacked like 7 people before this incident (some of them bitten multiple times on different occasions) #so he was put down recently #its weird cause ive always called him a big ol lover boy #when i first moved in i used to wake up with him cuddled up on the bed with me #and then seeing him like That #ive seen him bite other people #but this was different #i have never felt more…useless? in my entire life #everyone just left her down there like #i dont even like their little friend and im terrible in situations like this but i had to try to help cause i was the Only one down there #to even Try to help #like im glad they all ran #theyre my cousins and theyre all like 17 i dont want them to get hurt #but like fuck i really thought she was going to die down there cause i couldnt fuckin do anything #new trauma unlocked yay! :) #boo.txt

[itsays]

the way i see it, atom ruined boston's reputation and his chances of graduating college all because he rejected him and cheum (and mew too once he finds out) doesnt care because she thinks he deserves it and she thinks she's above him so she and her brother do not need or deserve to face consequences for this. it's like i said that one time, mew and cheum have ALWAYS thought they're better than boston, him sleeping with top is just what made them act on it. like you guys do realize boston's innocence never mattered to these people right? in the eyes of cheum, mew and maybe even atom, boston is simply being punished for being bad aka being promiscuous so it doesnt matter, and they arent promiscuous so that's none of their business. this plot makes sense to me actually, boston is dirty and untrustworthy "he deserves it".

#ofts #did you guys expect cheum to scold atom and apologize to boston? LMAOOOOOO #all we can really hope for here is for boston to graduate somehow #and all that being said this all makes perfect sense and it's realistic #like. since when are the characters here good why are we expecting good actions from CHEUM be so fucking fr .... #'they cant wrap this up in an episode' which is why we need a second season which you fools who have never watched friendzone dont want😒😒 #mind you im getting into this discourse while i get ready for work #i could literally be late because im talking about only friends on the internet #this is the problem when you people try to watch messy shows with the whole moral lense and try to point out what's problematic like girl...

[zemnarihah]

i mentioned this on here before but i have a friend who is abt to get married and like i just realized thats probably the death knell for our friendship

#we've been drifting apart for a while and i feel like. i mean maybe i dont reach out to her as often as i should like its not like im #texting her everyday or anything but everytime that group does smth #she seems to have some excuse not to come or to leave early and like it only got worse w the boyfriend and now theyre getting married #and like. they JUST got engaged and the date is set for may 20th #and like i could sit here and kid myself and be like well we can still be friends! but i just know she is going to have no time for me when #shes actually married if she already has so little time for me now #we're not best friends rn obviously but there was a couple years in high school where like. she was the one in our group that i was closest #to like i think we spent some very important years as eachothers first confidant or whatever and we used to like. laugh so hard together #idk #like i think ive laughed the hardest in my life w her yk. and maybe i should have accepted it earlier bc it has been like this for a while #where she just doesnt seem to care to make any time for me but man. this moment its just rlly getting me. #i actually saw her today for the first time since my birthday which was in december. which is what cemented it. i found out abt the date. #i met him. i saw the ring. and then she left early. with him. after not seeing me for months and seeing him every day. idk #i maybe kinda guilted her as she left or like idk just told her i thought she should stay since we havent seen eachother in so long and she #told me oh its ok well hang out soon! its spring break next week we can totally hang out! and i just told her straight up well ok you text #me because im always the one trying. and i think idk maybe its not fair ik at a certain point if ppl dont want to be in your life you cant #force them. but its just like. idk i miss her. like thats it literally i miss her. i feel like a little kid i just want her back i want to #laugh and talk and tell her abt every dumb little thing going on in my life i want her back! what the fuck! #anyway well see if she texts me over spring break. i dont have my hopes up #im gonna like. go to her bridal shower and bachelorette party and the wedding and everything obviously but after that. idk i dont have my #hopes set too high. well i kind of do. like in the back of my head i keep being like maybe! im moving a little closer so maybe! we wont be #as busy over summer break so maybe! im trying to see more of our mutual friends so maybe! #but. i dont think i can keep reaching out it makes me sad every time. i hope she does reach out to me and all i can do is keep a place in m #life open for her if she wants it but. if she doesn't theres nothing i can do #thats what i have to accept. its so hard though. im just really sad like thats it. i miss her and im sad. it really feels like grieving not #to be dramatic like obviously shes not dead but grieving the friend i had. i guess thats a thing. but i um. hate it. #ok. well. #gn now actually i was supposed to go to bed and then i realized that and then i cried and then i had to scream it into the void. idk if #i feel better but. i do feel tired. goodnight #zem diary

[the-nsr-family]

Well hopefully you find them. I have honestly kinda forgotten about my NSR ocs Bc it’s been so long since I worked on them -Hunter

Me too. As for the ocs- They've all been rotating in the back of my head even when I haven't been into nsr. I like to look at the one drawing Abboh made awhile back bc its just so pleasing to me. I like looking at it and going "Wow. What silly guys. I can't believe we all contributed to the silly guys existing together."

#haha what if I woke up all my nsr mutuals and we just went back to roads to recovery posting #we should return to our roots #quick somebody go find abboh- #thats a joke btw dont bother them I don't wanna drag anyone into anything they dont wanna do atm jiodfssfdijo #the only reason im trying to make contact with HB is bc I haven't heard from them at all and im worried #ik abboh has rb'd a goncharov post recently so im not too worried abt them #if it had just been like oh I havent heard from em in a few days #I would assume its work bc. y'know. that usually what it is #but its been a long time since hb has sent me an ask ANYWHERE #maybe they're just taking a break and I'm worrying over nothing but #just bc I don't talk on here as much as I did before doesn't mean I dont worry abt my friends #like we dont have to talk nsr to talk you guys can message me whenever you want lmao