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#like i didn't bother to look for CEB when i first had a crush on him because that's a quick way to get disillusioned
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lmao i am talking to ASB again BUT SOMETHING IS OFF
#gay struggles#i decided to apologize for giving him the cold shoulder for a new days#because he doesn't have to like to talk to me just because i think he's cool#and i don't like having bad blood with ppl who didn't actually do anything bad to me#and then he was like 'it's fine i just don't talk much i like to stay alone'#and i confirmed if it was like if i kept starting conversation and he said yes so?#but idk it really feels like he doesn't really enjoy when i start to talk?#not that he actively starts talk with literally anyone ever but it doesn't seem as bad when other people bother to talk to him lol#also he is sooooooo weird with one thing and i need commentary#every free moment he has he is on instagram but i haven't found his profile???#like i didn't bother to look for CEB when i first had a crush on him because that's a quick way to get disillusioned#but ASB is sooooooo averse to talking and so awkward that i just want to know anything?#why is instagram so relevant and yet he doesn't use his name nor does he have any of his woekmates and yes i did some csi-ing#he doesn't have facebook either#like if it was just scrolling the feed i'd just think 'burner account' and it would fit the 'hates talking to people' thing#but i am sure hr was DMing someone one time we were having lunch WHO are you DMing without using your name it's instagram not tumblr lmao#why did i crush on someone even more inscrutable than the previous ones my therapist must be like 'i am homophobic now'#also yes CEB is fine but i think he might have noticed i am less anxious around him now#and weirdly he seems to be a bit more awkward towards me these days rather than less? idk i might be imagining
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