#like everything else was garbage

[grim-echoes]

what all of these posts about the willy wonka disaster event aren't mentioning that makes it even funnier/worse is that the organizer of the event (billy coull) is a serial scam artist who had already done this before with a fake charity gala called gowanbank hub at the double tree hilton advertised at 95 pounds a pop that was supposed to feature gok wan djing and a bunch of drag race contestants doing cabaret that if you try to search for online only gives you results for the wonka scam because literally no formal information on it exists anymore, and on of top of that house of illuminati (the """company""" he used to organize the wonka event with) is literally just him and was registered in november 2023, with a previous company he incorporated under a website he formerly owned called empowerity.com having shuttered right before the wonka scam. also he's a conspiracy theorist who writes AI-generated self published books on amazon about antivax/qanon/child abduction shit and has multiple diplomas from unaccredited universities and the only reason i know any of this is because a friend asked if this was the same man that scammed my family over a july 4th event years ago and though i couldn't find any confirmation that it was holy fuck has this been sitting rent free in my goddamn mind the last few days

#idk if anyone has made a post about this on here yet but i needed to get it out of my system #things are constantly happening #also it looks like his amazon profile was wiped since i last looked at it #it was ai generated garbage along with everything else so nothing of importance was lost

[webcxre]

yuo're honor they're buddies

#the amazing digital circus #ena joel g #tadc caine #ena #doodle #my art #i came up with this as a joke but im rly vibing with the idea that spawned from it while i was drawing #like ena's world being garbage data out in the void. whatever the ram is spitting out while rendering everything else #sometimes caine visits to make sure it doesnt spill into the circus grounds and the humans cant accidentally stumble upon it #(also yes i hc both as autistic yes i am projecting 💖) #ena with her meltdowns and caine with not really picking up that his adventures aren't as fun to the humans as he'd think. and more #also WOW im rusty with ena #😔

[tomcart]

Sketch-y studies because i haven't drawn in over a month

#i do like these. everything else i did today? garbage #but thats fine. im aching to get back into arttt #acrylic

[meatmensch]

Music I think Roy Kent likes and why

Madonna. In season 3, episode 3, Roy said, "[Pre-Madonna] means before Madonna, female vocalists didn't have to work that hard." This implies a great respect for Madonna and her craft. Also, it's an example of a very specific kind of queer guy misogyny that I find very humorous and implicative (of him being queer).

The Sex Pistols (and other punk rock). Two of their songs are in the Ted Lasso soundtrack. One of them specifically plays when Roy is about to do some pundit work for the first time. I think it's meant to be his hype up music. They're also, of course, anti-fascist and anti-monarchy, which I think Roy would vibe with. He's giving punk.

The music of the Muppets. Canonically (not that I necessarily consider this kind of thing canon, lol) a Muppets fan, I think he'd love the soundtracks to the movies, as well as the numbers they do on the original show.

Rap; Salt-n-Pepa, Queen Latifah, and Beyoncé. I just think he would like them. In season 1, episode 6, Keeley mentions that he has rapped, implying at least some interest in the genre.

Leonard Cohen. I think Roy's Jewish, and he's a broody, sensual bitch. It adds up perfectly. Sidenote: while "She's a Rainbow" by the Rolling Stones was a great choice for the song he runs home to football to, I think Cohen's "Ain't No Cure for Love" would've fucking slayyyed..."I loved you for a long, long time / I know this love is real / It don't matter how it all went wrong / That don't change the way I feel / And I can't believe that time is gonna heal / This wound that I'm speaking of" "I've got you like a habit / And I'll never get enough" "I don't need to be forgiven / For loving you so much"

Klezmer. Again, if Roy is Jewish, and we know he loves and misses his grandad...it's simple. He HAS a record player and a dope sound system, and on his shelves there ARE old klezmer records that he remembers dancing around to with his grandad in their old flat.

Amy Winehouse. Again, if Roy is Jewish, and we know he is broody and bitchy, it is a given. "Rehab" is his anthem when his knee gets bad and he is reluctant to treat it.

Disco; Donna Summer and Jessie Ware. It's just great workout music, and it slays, and if he's queer, well, yes, of course he likes disco.

Pop rock; Elton John and Queen. If he's queer...it's a given. I think he particularly likes "I Think I'm Going to Kill Myself" and "Rocket Man", as he is suicidal (I can't find the interview where Goldstein said this) (it's just Word of God anyway), and the most rocket man motherfucker ever.

The music of the people he loves; Led Zeppelin, Cream, Tina Turner, and Stevie Nicks. Phoebe, Keeley, and Jamie like these musicians. He's a caring uncle, boyfriend, and friend. He is listening and learning. Also, I think Phoebe would be into some weird stuff, like outsider music - maybe some Tiny Tim. I think Roy would also enjoy the music of other friends, from plenty of other genres.

#also. i rly disagree w the term outsider music but it gets the point across so yknow. #also i have this hc that he plays the drums bc his sister wanted to play music at some point and he was like ok i will play toys w u fine. #and she plays guitar :) #my posts #ted lasso #i also think he is maybe one of those celebrities who is multidisciplinary. so yes he has released a few eps. under a pseudonym ofc #then again i kinda think he's one of those guys who is really good at one thing and THINKS they suck at everything else. so like he happens #to play music around people every once in a while and they're like whatttt u r amazing? and he's like shut up i'm garbage. yeah #I ALSO THINK ROY IS RLY INTO BASEBALL. why? um. if u ask him he'll say some shit like 'i'm a fucking athlete ofc i follow other sports. no #it's not weird that it's not a very british thing. get the fuck out of my face.' the real answer is he watch a league of their own as a kid #purely for madonna and a special interest was born #inspired #roy kent #also! jamie is a HUGE music snob. i just know this to be true #like. the only musicians we've heard him mention (i think) are tina turner and stevie nicks. whenever roy grabs the aux and bumps madonna o #any music from this century he resists the urge to reach over and strangle him

[acatalystrising]

Unpopular opinion: you can enjoy Andor AND the other Star Wars shows at the same time. Stories are great in that they are unique - not everyone will like every story, but every story isn’t meant for everyone. It’s okay to be respectfully critical, but you never know how a story could be impacting someone’s life.

#seriously I don’t want to sound like that person #but I’ve seen a lot of bashing of the sw shows lately #and don’t get me wrong #Andor is great and I love it #but that doesn’t mean everything else is garbage and deserves to be treated as such #every time I see someone trash TBOBF it pushes me further toward writing my essay #I’m not even kidding anymore #and the same goes for obi wan and mando #they’re all such great stories and they’ve gotten so many of us through life #we don’t need to be jerks okay #this is a love letter to boba fett #boba fett #book of boba fett #star wars #mandalorian #obi wan kenobi #the mandalorian #star wars: andor

[starlightandmagic]

Listen, LISTEN, what makes Kanej such a compelling and unique ship is that they IN FACT don’t need skin on skin contact to love each other. They don’t need what other couples have to feel how they feel or to show their affection for each other. They have so much trauma and issues they have to deal with but that does not stop them from being willing to try to be together despite their struggles. They can barely hold hands but that does not erase the yearning and the love and devotion they so clearly feel for the other.

Kaz is willing to try to put himself together for her. He shows he cares by giving her everything she ever wanted: her freedom and her parents and a ship to hunt slavers.

And Inej canonically states she doesn’t think she could ever have a normal relationship with anybody else, she doesn’t want that, she’s not made for that life. What she wants is Kaz being willing to try to open up for her. The “I will have you without armor” is not about her wanting him to remove his gloves for her and give her physical affection. SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW IF SHE COULD EVEN HANDLE THAT.

What she wants is Kaz being willing to try for her. If she was going to make herself vulnerable and open her heart to a relationship with him she needs him to meet her in the middle. She knows what she deserves and she was not going to try if Kaz was going to give her nothing but his usual emotionally repressed self.

That’s it. It’s not about skin on skin contact, it’s not about Inej needing a man without trauma to fulfill physical needs she cannot even handle just yet because she was the victim of human trafficking and repeated SA in the Menagerie. And I DESPISE the writers for completely erasing that aspect and daring to imply something between Inej and Tolya. Tolya who canonically states he has no interest in romance, who literally says his books and his poetry are more than enough! That one writer with their stupid IG post, I swear they don’t have even the most basic understanding of these characters and what make them so unique and special. LITERALLY NO ONE ASKED FOR A LOVE TRIANGLE WHERE ITS NOT NEEDED STOP THAT SHIT RIGHT THIS INSTANT!

#kanej #shadow and bone #six of crows #sorry for the rant but that ig post literally made my skin crawl #how dare they?! #even if it was just a stupid plot device to make kaz jealous like lmao have you met kaz?! do you even know him AT ALL?! #that man would 100% give up if he thought Inej would be happy with someone else #like we’re talking about the man who bought a whole ship for her to leave even when he desperately wanted her to stay in ketterdam #knowing damn well she might not ever return #if he thought Inej was happy with someone else #he wouldn’t even try he’d just brood from a distance and try to convince himself it’s for the better #he is so self deprecating he would instantly be like: you know what? yes she deserves so much better and he can give her everything I can’t #like srsly if that is the direction they’re going with I don’t want it thanks they can have their garbage bye #inej ghafa #kaz brekker

[tlgtw]

MGSV really is *so* misogynistic it is honestly hard to believe. It has ONE named female character, just one. And holy shit, the things they make that single woman do.

I don't know what happened. Or how Kojima thought what we was doing was defensible.

I could just link to the introduction of the SKULL snipers from Mission 28 Code Talker but even that I feel is so unbelievable to see with your own eyes that it would exit the mind as soon as it stopped playing.

Literally every criticism made during that era toward's this game is accurate. Every single one.

It might legit be the WORST example of "male gaze," literally literally ever. Out of everything.

If MGSV had outright no women in it whatsoever it would be better than what this is.

The cutscene for when Big Boss comes to Mother Base after not showering was what sealed it for me.

And the fact that there were people back then who thought they could defend this perhaps makes it even more deranged.

#mgsv #completely incoherent post #I love love love playing this game but holy shit #It is fucking unbearable. #Play it on your computer with the mod 'Take Me of the Grid + No More Timers + Free Deployment' installed #The game is legitimately hot garbage without it. #what the fuck happened to result in the difference between how woman are treated in this game and then... Death Stranding????? #Wtf??????? #its inexplicable #Kojima; as skilled a designer and director as he certainly is #is absolutely also a misogynist #I think MGSV is the hard fucking proof frankly #You can't make this. AND whine about how people refused to like it. That shit definitely counts augh my god #still a completely incoherent post #aough #i cant even put the words together #the actual moment to moment core gameplay is so fun its ridiculous #but oh my god everything else is SO so bad #how can I even like it? #I don't know. I do. but somehow maybe I should not ldjfjskjfsjkdf #dfjkbgjkdbflglbksbkfgbjkdsfbgbdfgbkjbjkdfbjkg #and it's still stupid as hell that you can't fulton yourself like you do in Peace Walker. Literally just to make you waste more GMP #to force you to depend on the online features. Which gives you millions of GMP at the drop of a hat #Evil game

[shikai-the-storyteller]

It's been such a bad frickin week man

#i talk #heard bad news about family stuff too on top of everything else #one of those weeks where it feels like things are just absolute garbage #hope next week is better #it should be better for at least a few things for me but man. I'm so worn out #and this tumblr ai bs is the final straw #I've been using this stupid website for over a decade #and I know there are apparently ways to back it up and download things but I have no idea how to do that #and I shouldnt HAVE to do that #why are CEOs so stupid why is everyone so up their own asses about ai and selling other people's info #its always money money money I HATE IT #I hate being angry but I'm just so angry and tired #I wish life was kinder

[moki-dokie]

day of dragons is finally coming out of beta this saturday after many many years. i've been extremely lucky enough to have been part of their journey for the vast majority of that time. not quite part of their team, but the team that supports them in the background that few people know or care about. it's cool tho. i get an exclusive glimpse into this stuff and get to laugh off all the people who spin conspiracy theories and try to write off the entire game just because of some bad behavior and utter ignorance about how the gaming industry works at all.

it's been a hell of a journey for them, and for us on our side of things too. our little company would not be in such a pivotal position right now about to change how things are done in the dedicated server world if we hadn't taken the risk and partnered up with this little indie game studio.

i won't sit here and say that all of the criticism is undeserved - some of it absolutely is. some of it i agree with. but the vast majority of it is just a load of ignorant horseshit at the end of the day and i'm incredibly proud of what beawesome has accomplished. they're about to push out a game that AAA and even AA studios wouldn't even have half finished in this same amount of time.

i've been lucky to have an advanced testing branch to play on for the past couple of days and it's absolutely stunning. it's the game i dreamed to be able to play five years ago, the kind of game i thought would be impossible 20 years ago. and yeah, it still has its flaws but honestly what game doesn't? it'll only continue to get better and better now.

anyway i'm just super excited and i can't wait to play the full release with everyone on saturday ^^

#day of dragons #if you like ark or the isle or any of those dino games you'll love this #the flight mechanics are unmatched #flight sims might be the only thing that come close at all everything else is garbage

[aq2003]

i'll start drafting long posts talking about how some people overblow ten's ego/arrogance especially dw dudebros who ignore his guilt/depression/trauma and how his thinking of regeneration as death has less to do with him super really loving being Dweeb Alien David Tennant and more to do with him not wanting to move on from the deep love and grief that has defined his identity . and then i will not post these drafts because i do not want to be more annoying about ten than i already am

#like i so so deeply do not want to come off as one of those 'stop criticizing him! hes traumatized :(' ppl but also are you guys like #even considering the fact hes traumatized at all #how a full season is dedicated to how his ptsd affects him and his relationship with martha #and how him trying so hard to push his feelings down and not let himself be helped ends up deeply hurting martha too #i really do feel like people forgo this and instead subscribe to. like. #'it's like he had a bad breakup w his girlfriend and gets a new girlfriend and treats her like garbage bc he doesn't really love her' #rather than 'it's like his gf died and hometown exploded and he doesn't know if he should even have a friend and accept their attempts #to help him through his grief because he's afraid he'll lose them like he's lost everything else. But also he cant survive on his own so #he will drip feed himself human connection while not considering how unfair this is to the friend involved that he doesnt know loves him' #this isn't even touching on his suicidal tendencies in s3. like god #dr who #Uh oh i read this post and these tags over and looks like i AM being annoying about ten once again. its not my fault he's worms in my head #10 era

[werewolfbarista]

yeah i think sketch comms are gonna be good for me. the more i think about doing that alongside sbux instead of hot topic, the like......lighter i feel. i just have to finish my current comms, then i can look at quitting hot topic.

#musings #takes a deep breath #several even #i think this is what i need to start feeling better #cause ive been feeling like garbage lately #and it's stifling my creativity #and uhhh my everything else #but resolving to change things is making me feel better

[elisedonut]

sudden itch to write a rare pair fic thats not Percy related

but like

the last time I did that it ended up becoming my top fic and lead to me deciding that you know... actually I hate that ship just out of spite so i'm not sure how good of an idea it is

maybe if i try like femslash or something super super rare with side characters or something

#using tumblr as a diary again #like is it healthy to feel that way? #no it's probably not but knowing that hasn't made the feeling go away in the months sense i posted it lol #like multiple people have asked for more for it but I'm ngl I'm likely never touching that ship again much less the fic itself #like if i even did decide to it would probably just be Percy and Viktor meeting #the whole reason it even became the ship it did was because I couldn't figure out how to write Viktor #But i don't think that's what people mean when they say they want more of it but maybe id be less annoyed if I did add a Percy/Viktor chapt #I feel like this is what those people mean when they talk about posting art you put your all into vs a doodle #because while i spent a hell of a long time procrastinating writing it i was never like actually happy with it #I just kinda wrote and posted it because I was running out of time and wanted to be done with it #which I think is part of why I find it annoying that it has like double the kudo's of everything else but it makes sense that it does #like it's a garbage fic yeah but its the main character and a fan favorite so ofc its going to get more attention #especially in comparison to the niche nonsense I make that I like more #will I ever delete it No I'm fire believer in not deleting things I've made because ive learned in my life i always regret it so #I just have to get better at writing so I can knock it off its horse >:) #or just keep adding extra chapters to Raspberry Muffin until it surpasses it lol #they only have a difference of 64 at the moment so its not impossible #I know im going to see this again in a few years and be so confused on why it bothered me so much i just know it lol

[mctives]

ooc // mood has dropped off a cliff today, so i'm sorry if i'm not very responsive.

#// ooc #it's the monthly extra dose of gender dysphoria on top of everything else~ #probably #trying to write through feeling like i'm a garbage writer lol #but idk if i'm gonna be saying much on discord or ims

[emometalhead]

I know job searching is bad all around right now, but it's incredibly discouraging as a writer to have to wade through tons of unpaid positions and AI training stuff before finding any actual job listings.

#I'm going to have my degree next month and I already completed an unpaid internship #I just want a legit job that will pay me and won't violate my ethics #I've gotten 2 offers but one paid garbage and the other had a ton of unpaid labor required before the start of another garbage wage #I'm not looking for a ridiculous amount of money. I just want something at least on par with minimum wage #I've applied for just about everything I've found that I'm qualified for that doesn't make me feel like scum but the options are so limited #to clarify on the scum thing. some of the positions I've applied for are entertainment news things but I refuse to write gossip #there's some sites that stray from gossip but others that's all they are and I don't want to be part of that #I love gossip but not as a profession. I'm not going to profit on that. #anyway long story short job hunting sucks and I'm wishing good luck to everyone else trying to find a job that won't cause them misery #ashley rambles

[hidefdoritos]

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#disordered eating and PTSD stuff in the tags #I think that eating is maybe a safe strategy for me #like I can assure myself that I'm at ease and my basic needs are met #problem being that now as I'm getting counseling and digging everything up #I'm having all kinds of nightmares and flashbacks and sleeping like garbage #so I've been eating. uh. a lot. #some days are better than others #but I've had some legendary binge days lately #which is starting to show on my body #got a pair of jeans that isn't buttoning atm #and I feel fan-fucking-tastic abt that tyvm #and the body image issues bleed into the trauma #(maybe if I was *ugly* he wouldn't have touched me) #(maybe if I'm *uglier* they'll never touch me again) #(and maybe if I'm the *ugliest* then I'll just die alone) #lots and lots and lots of body image issues #desperate to be attractive enough to be loved BUT repulsive enough to be feared #anyway I'm lying awake after a nightmare eating thin mints and noticing the handfuls of fat on my body #which I think is incredible and captivating on anyone else but still judge myself so harshly for #maybe this is a testament to how badly I want to be alive.

[autumnhobbit]

my parents house genuinely just makes me so sad

#and frustrates the crap out of me lol #my mom hates throwing away paper towels so if they’re ‘lightly used’ she just #leaves them crumpled on every surface for ‘later use’ #every single empty container is kept even though they’re never used and there’s no room for them #the cups haven’t been replaced since at least 2016 cause I was here the last time they were #they’re all scuzzy and sticky like plastic is when it’s been washed too much #rotting fruits and veggies litter the counters #honestly I wish I could get them to decluttering but both my parents have that deep-seated Great Depression #leftover guilt about throwing anything away or not keeping anything #even if you don’t need it even if you don’t want it even if it would better suit someone else #even if it’s taking up all this room and you never actually use it for whatever you’re ‘saving it for’ #mom fussed about clothes and shoes and books #but the siblings bedrooms are both clean and organized #and the rest of the house is a wreck #they need to take a stand on papers and garbage and unnecessary items #but they won’t and so the cycle will repeat #in a lot of ways my mom has gotten better but it still just makes me sad that they’re both this old and still can’t keep house #without it being agony for both or either of them #because dad remembers everything he’s ever owned and constantly demands them when he hasn’t known where they were since 1996 #and blames everyone else for not being able to find His Thing #and how we /always/ take his stuff and he spent his whole life providing for us worthless people and we pay him back #by taking all his shit i guess #just cause we all love getting yelled at. #sigh.