#like dream walking sort of

[foundfamilynonsense]

Mace Windu said fuck the rules fuck the law fuck tradition the Chancellor is a Sith Lord and has made himself an emperor and I’m not going to sit by and let it happen.

Mace Windu said if I do nothing I’d be betraying the democracy I thought I was fighting for this whole time, which means more than the crimes I’ll be charged with when this is over.

And yet people try to praise Anakin or Dooku for “leaving a corrupt system”. As if that was why Anakin left. As if Dooku did anything but make it worse. People praise the Mandalorians for only following their own rules. As if we’ve ever seen the Mandalorians truly stand for anything.

As if we don’t already have the most metal anti-authoritarian, badass character for people to praise.

And yet these parts of the fandom hate him. I wonder why 🤔

#p.s it’s because he’s black #and it’s because they don’t actually like Anakin and Dooku for ‘seeing a corrupt system’ #they like them bc they like the evil dictator vibes and the fact that Anakin is emotionally unstable but they don’t want to Say that #the don’t like the mandalorians bc they force their own path or whatever #they like them bc they walk around with fifty guns strapped to their body and that’s some sort of American wet dream #mace windu #mace windu appreciation #pro jedi #star wars #in defense of the jedi

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 165

Danny is rather bemused but honestly with how his life is, this might as well happen. Apparently he has seven more siblings now, and a whole second dysfunctional family. And apparently he, Ellie and Jordan are the babies of the family. So. 

Could Clockwork have mentioned that one of his variants had children before? Maybe, but this gets him out of becoming ghost king at the age of fourteen, which is a baby to the Realms anyway. 

Well, hopefully their new siblings will be fine with them… 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #The Endless #Ideas for the Dannys second name include: Defiance; Discovery; Determination; Desolation; Dichotomy; Dissonance; or Discord #Together they are Duality or something idk lol #The Endless treat Clockwork half like their stepdad and half like their uncle #Different timelines can get confusing and no one wants to think about it #No one wants to be ghost king and are voting to abolish the monarchy #Clockwork is the Realms half of Time & has his own siblings such as Chaos #Variants are sort-of duplicates & sort-of clones & sort-of timeline versions #It gets confusing REAL fast #the dannys are Death's favorites #Dream is interested in the fact that Danny can dream-walk #ALSO CAN I JUST SAY #All of the Endless are pale with black hair except for two redheads #They fit in so well lmao

[runraerun]

there’s just something so juicy about those early seasons 2008-2010 Destiel fics where everyone is still writing Cas as this creepy, cunty, alien weirdo who has this psychosexual obsession with Dean. Like his whole personality is just intensely observing the righteous man as if he’s a really really really interesting bug that for some inexplicable reason gets his vessels’ pee pee hard

#I could quite literally spread it over a piece a toast and eat it up #like I love all cas’ #this is a cas positive space #I’m just showing my appreciation for creepy alien weirdo cas who wants to lick Dean’s face and sniff his boxers or whatever #like I write Cas as sweet and neurodivergent and deeply caring towards Dean in the most unselfish sort of way #but DAMN I love reading creepy early seasons cas #inject it directly into my veins #I just found a really good one and I hnnng #bless the fanfic writers who still write cas like this honestly #I like all walks of life cas but that one stirs something in me #I just love it #like him turning and being like what do you dream of 🤖🤖🤖 #LIKE CHEEZUS #you should show me some respect version of cas #SHIVERS #SO CREEPY AND YET #PEE PEE HARD #can’t explain it #I pulled you out of hell I can throw you back in #AND THEN AGAIN I LOVE LATER SEASONS CAS #I love I’m your huckleberry cas #dadstiel #castiel #cas #deancas #destiel #supernatural #spn #Dean Winchester

[a-s-levynn]

So i had a dream last night which wasn't a nightmare and i even remember most of it! which is super exciting. I barely ever remember dreams that are just simply that so this is a fairly rare occasion for me.

It was weird tho

But it was.. i don't even know what it was so let me ramble about it in the tags a bit

#there was this bioluminescent and also biotoxic creature in a city at night #it was bipedal sort of humanoid shaped but with definitive deep sea features #it had that transparent skin and flesh and body with bioluminescing highlights #which i have no idea how it worked because the entire dream took place in a city enviroment on very much dry land but it's a dream innit #the face was definitely not human more a jumble of fishy features #it was gorgeous btw in a humanoid monster sort of fascinating way #it had this weird feel to it that it's something very old that should not be here now.. some sort of reminiscence of a bygone era #i might try to draw it but i don't know how successful i'd be to be honest #anyway so i was part of a group (don't know what kind exactly) and i never seen any of them i just knew they existed #and there was this innate knowledge that the creature was kind of hunting or more like luring us but we also were hunting it #i don't know if it did something to us before or we just had this unexplainable pull towards it but we definitely were fixated on it #and it was supposed to be a big threat even just by existing and walking around but also would have been bad if it was dead #but i don't know why was it so bad because the “toxicity” of the creature wasn't lethal it just made you stuck in a blissful delirious stat #just by being too close to it and which in most cases would fade when it moved away so the other alternative felt way worse #cuz if it would die something else would have gotten loose which would have been worse than the delirium #it was some sort of unstoppable deadly madness i think.. at least that was what i felt the dream eluded to #and i think we wanted to neutralize it somehow but we had no idea how to avoid disaster that surely would come if it dies #but it would have also revitalize nature on a basically divine scale by giving it's body back to it so there was this dilemma the whole tim #but none of us would have any answers so we just followed this inner draw regardless of the uncertainty #and the entire dream was basically us lureing the creature somewhere but simultaniously it was somehow luring us in as wel #to the same spot #it was a vast moonlit fieald outside of city bounds surrounded with tall dark trees and the sky was littered with stars #and a sharp cliff to one side #so we arrived there and we were standing on opposite sides and look towards each other #but looking into the creatures eyes literally woke me up #there was a noise it made and i know i understood it as words inside the dream but i can't remember what it was after waking just the noise #and that was it #it wasn't long i think tho it felt that way

[ectonurites]

SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR KEVIN PHILLIPS

#tragically had to skip the 'are you afraid of me' exchange i love at the start bc. this scene is Long #super dark times #josh templeton #zach taylor #sam edits #btw i'm firmly in the 'Josh didn't kill John' camp. bc to me THIS scene is the point that... makes the most sense as Josh's breaking point/ #'villain turn' if that's what you'd want to call it. because this is really when Josh... sort of 'officially' loses Zach. from early on in #the movie it becomes clear how much Zach is like... an anchor for him—the way Josh is just fucking *chanting* his name in distress during #the Daryl accident. The way Josh begs Zach to believe him that it was an accident. The way Josh turns to Zach for answers/clarity/direction #Like even if we want to take a cynical approach and think of it as Josh just latching onto Zach in the Daryl situation because he was There #rather than that being an established thing w/ them... in the aftermath of that same incident Josh is still looking to/depending on him! #Josh self isolates at first... but after they talk & Zach tells him they shouldn't act weird Josh goes back to school. (yes #he lashes out there because He's Dealing With The Crushing Guilt but *all* of 'em are acting off then—Charlie specifically calls attention #to the idea they all probably are) Josh goes to the party just like Zach said they should and is *visibly confused* when Zach seems mad to #see him there. He goes to Zach's house to talk and you can SEE how caught off guard he is by what Zach says. Even though the script version #of this scene is VERY different from the final version I do think this one bit of description from it is... insightful: 'Josh seems sincere #almost vulnerable. But Zach is too focused to see it.' LIKE in this scene Zach is already convinced Josh has lost it! He's trying to act #more neutral about it (claiming they could just 'draw a line') but we saw his phone call with Charlie. Because of his own guilt-fueled #paranoia—something shown pretty clearly through the assorted dream sequences and like tht scene of him walking in the hall hearing people #gossip about Daryl—it seems like everything lines up too well! that '*of course* it's Josh and what if it's *been* Josh all along and well #then the role *I* played in the situation really isn't *my* fault because it was all *Josh* and...' etc. even if that's more subconscious #But like... this scene is really when it hits Josh! from the moment he asks if Zach's afraid of him now like... there's a shift. although #Zach says he isn't... i mean he fucking stumbles on the word 'afraid' (like... he hangs on the 'f' sound a moment too long to sound natural #its very subtle but like Noticeable). But Josh sees right through him. Zach doesn't trust him anymore. Zach thinks he's the bad guy. the #monster. Josh feeling like he lost the last person he had in his corner feels like the most realistic thing to... push him over the #edge. like that's a compelling tragedy to me—the idea that these two poorly coping with the Daryl situation in these separated ways where #they *aren't* talking/communicating ends up CREATING the feedback loop that makes everything get worse and worse. #But for that to be the case... it wouldn't make sense for Josh to have just randomly killed John before this scene. I think it's a more #interesting story if certain things really ARE just coincidences but it's that Zach's paranoia won't let him see that 🤷

[bumblingbabooshka]

If the doctor were a woman they would have written her and Tom together (ultimate sitcom married couple duo)

#st voyager #Tom makes a joke about how with a new mobile emiter he can't hide from her anywhere and she quips back about how with a new mobile emiter #she can walk away from him when he's going on about captain coupon or whoever (it's captain proton-!) ah. A perfect chance to demonstrate. #<- she then gets up and walks away as Harry chuckles and Tom shakes his head #there's also definitely a scene where he Harry and Chakotay want to do a Boys Night and Doctor insists she tags along and it's a whole gag #I understand the 90s tv gags. I see them in my dreams. They haunt me. #there's definitely some sort of implied sex joke about the doctor being able to change her appearance #OH it's something like Tom talking about a sexy nurse outfit and the doctor saying she's a DOCTOR. Not a nurse. Now if YOU were to wear it.. #<- trails off as they walk out of frame

[chirpsythismorning]

☎️🎲 🤼‍♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️

Don't Dream It's Over by Crowded House

previous ⏪︎ now playing back to playlist

#byler #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #mike wheeler #mike’s pov #this just feels like a really good song to end the playlist #it fits well with mike bc he just reassured will in the cabin that they would kill vecna together #and now they're standing here together #'there's a battle ahead. many battles are lost. but you'll never see the end of the road while you're traveling with me' #'now i'm walking again to the beat of the drum and i'm counting the steps to the door of your heart' #yeah idk about ya'll but i'll take a door/heart reference any day of the week #'only shadows ahead--get to know the feeling of liberation and release' aka shit is about to go down folks....... #'hey now hey now don't dream it's over' #sort of reassuring from a byler standpoint that although this ending might have felt hopeless in a lot of ways... like a lot. #mike is telling us through his actions as we near the end (reassuring will/choosing to stay by will's side): 'don't dream its over' #'they come they come to build a wall between us. we know they wont win' #this feels poetic bc a large chunk of the audience might still be in denial about the possiblity of mike and will even despite this shot #but the writers have made it clear with literally everything thats built up to this point that 'we wont let them win' #whether it be vecna or denyers #other lyrics in the song just fit really well with the overall ending of s4 in general #'there's a hole in the roof' was one that was a little too on the nose #'my possessions are causing me suspicions but there's no proof' reminds me of will telling mike he senses vecna again (superspy encore?) #'in the paper today tales of war and of waste-' #again trying to emulate going out on this sort of hopeful note with the doom of apocalypse right before us #4x09 #gif

[tellme-o-muse]

I’ve had MANY dreams about being a cis guy but this one was by far my favourite

#The last two were horrid where I had a male body #No thanks #Do NOT want #this on was a dream about the social side of being a guy #A woman I know dropped her sons off at our house to help watch a poodle yk like a dog sit #The boys were people ik actually from my sisters theatre and my choir #And church yourh #So they all got clumped in to curly haired boys one family lol #And I was in swim team with them! #And I caused the death of half of the twelve members 😬 #Bur it was satisfying in a whump sort of way #I ran off and two of my mates chased after me because I jumped off a tree in a dive into a bog #I suevived ofc its my dream #People and the headmaster of the school was concerned 🥺 #I wasn’t unnoticed and I was grieved bexause rhey thought I was gone #There was a time skip and I came back years later for rhe reunion of the swim team #I donated to them floats and life saving devices #They were shocked and fucking tackled me practically 😂 #We walked down the halls and looked at the stupid memories of the past #I do wonder what I’d be like as a guy #Probably insufferable in a non joking way #But I suppose in another life I was a guy #But in this one I’m contwnt with what I have here #And my friends #dreams #my dreams

[lulubeanie]

Had a dream about Eliot finding a big abandoned library that a giant spider person has made into their home. the spider person was very not nice and the experience left Eliot afraid of spiders even though normally he likes them (the spider person was also in control of all the normal spiders that lived there or something)

#duck speaks #ocs #Eliot #there were other people who also found the library and sort hung around Eliot. but none that he knew already #and also I'm pretty sure they didn't make it out of there. so also none that he'd see again later #the only person who was another one of my ocs was Sage. and they showed up in sorta a flash forward thing #like. a scene that would happen a while after this #they were walking together somewhere and a spider was hanging down from a web in the path where in front of them #and Sage was about to tell Eliot to move it out of the way (put it in a bush or something) like he usually does #but Eliot jumped and looked all scared when he saw it #and Sage looked concerned and went '.. you ok bud?' #very compelling concept I think. Eliot solo adventure where he gets scared and experiences the horrors #at some parts of the dream I would even stop and think about how I could draw it out as a comic #I remember going 'oh we're gonna need to put a big arachniphobia warning at top of this one huh' #it's not even a comic normally.. it only exists in my head rn really

[selvepnea]

A strange shirt sort of dream?

#Sel talks #dream journal #I'm pretty sure that's the trash I used #Anyway! #I can't remember the dobby of the dream too well #But for some reason I had 2 bibis (bibii?) But I end up picking both of them up and walking up to the bathroom mirror; like I'm filming a o #Something; saying like “wow! Your mom lets you have 2 bibis??” And I see myself in the mirror (strange!) #And I have a funny little stash growing (along w a weird mullet thing going) #I start thinking something like 'oh its growing in well!' And start to remember my grandma commenting on it? Implying I should shave it? Ca #Shouldn't have mustaches? And then thinking how ridiculous that was cause I really liked how it was looking? Or something? #I didn't really have any strong gender... connotations? To my facial hair? #It's especially strange cause I can't really remember a time where I've seen myself in a dream? #But besides that; I remember using the bathroom a lot. I think I was in some sort of class at one point? I think we were sharing plant #Stories? And I was worried cause I only had a dill plant and I didn't like dill all that much #I also remember putting off planing some herb plants until the end of my dream (right after the fun 2 bibis scene) where I really wanted to #Get that started? But there was strange dream magic that prevented me from starting that. #Anyway! I'm sure the lesson here is I need to get another bibi and I'll finally have such gender

[todayisafridaynight]

at this point i just dont know how dreaming works

#snap chats #this sounds depressing as hell no its not im just CONFUSED #i posted bout daigo and mine for like. months everyday 24/7 #and in that time ive had one Utterly Peculiar dream with daigo in it but like. on a technicality #and ive never had a dream with mine yeah. probably for the better #but i swear last night i had a dream where i was watching something with tsutsumi and nakai in it #make it make sense brain. do you know ill be mentally unwell if i see daigo or mine in my dreams. #trying so hard to remember what it was but its been lost to the subconscious #im gonna blame it partially on me having read those arasawa fics right before bed #i mean it was objectively not arakawa and jo in my dream but yk. same face #i just wanna remember what it was even about... mightve been a comedy of sorts... #OH YEAH SINCE I MENTIONED THOSE FICS im gonna throw up they were great #ooohhh i love sad/tragic fics oooh the guilt on both sides was so real and potent #im gonna think of jo helping masato walk until i die #the vision of jo in the rain with masato’s burned in my brain actually i might. draw it if you will #but im going to the mall in a hot hour so. hm. we’ll see #maybe i’ll do it before i leave for the mall... shouldnt take long... #not unless i also wanna include a shot of arakawa and turn this into a two-panel comic ig.... #IDK POINT IS everyone should read those fics. both sides theyre so good #there is no happy thought and if there is its incredibly fleeting and im injecting it right into my veins #these tags are damn everywhere but i treat tumblr like a Blog blog so im updatinng everyone on everything #plus its related ok. im valid. #alright im gonna snake to my computer and crank out that drawing then #mall wont open for another two hours anyway and i dont wanna be a mout breather standin at the door as it opens so

[knifegremliin]

accidentally got up later than intended today because of a Vivid Daydream, but tbh it is perfectly okay, because it allowed me to see! deer!!

#🔪.photo #deer #i have seen plenty of deer in my life before #but i always go !!! when i see one #and i hadn't seen any at this job yet when i normally do see them here #deer are cute i like them #it was a rush to get my camera and put on the appropriate lens and just hope it wouldn't walk or run away #also the daydream was about some sort of really strange artist(?) cult #was actually a decently compelling story for being a dream #if you ignore the dream weirdness and funky time jumps #and lots of plot holes and whatnot lmao

[angelsdean]

the struggle of wanting to plop young dean down in new jersey like literally where i live for a fic but not wanting to say where i live sjkdfjsf 

#john rents out a cheap basement apartment and leaves them there for like almost a full school yr #while he takes on cases up and down the east coast #i'm thinking dean's like 17 post-nun burning and is gonna have a lil coming of age movie arc #they live close enough to the local schools that they can walk bc dean doesnt have the impala yet #and dean also takes the train (nj transit babeyyy. horrible awful transportation system) and goes to like asbury for punk shows #ends up at a gay bar and has a good honest eye opening chat with an older man (who may or may not be time traveling cas idk yet) #if it's Not part of my series of sort of interconnected time traveling cas one shots then maybe it could be an AU where cas is the same age #idk tho. im not rly that far into the details. just a broad dreamy sketch of the story #oh also they live close to a horse farm (there are. many around here) and dean goes for walks and passes it a lot and waves to the horses #and one day the guy who works there gets to talking w him and invites him to meet the horses and walk around the ranch (a girl can dream) #maybe he ends up getting a little job there cleaning the stables idk #and all throughout there's also this longing to go to the shore. and it's. very close by like they are not far from the beach #but it feels untouchable it feels like a place he can never go and it's all in his head and he's holding himself back and its a metaphor ofc #anyways yeah. i think putting him in jersey could fix him or give him new issues. one of those #vic.txt

[aenhanse]

people weren't lying those crossroads of twilight can really slog

#this is the longest it took me to finish a wheel of time book #i haven't been really posting my thoughts as i read through this series but i am an old man staring out his window rn #wot book spoilers #once i hit egwene pov chapters it definitely got better in terms of me actively wanting to sit down and read it #but the parts before... idk if it's because i had my usual break before picking up this book specifically but man. #tragic to me because elayne and mat povs are usually my favorite in the books but alas. #at least i got the “but she loved aviendha every bit as much as she did rand”. much to think about #but yeah it very much feels like a sort of filler book #i feel like a lot of the events could've been shortened? #but i do find a lot of what happened in the back half of the book interesting. like the introduction of so habor #and whatever is going on with mat seeing dead people?? yeah i'm kicking my leggies and am interested to see what's up with those things #although all three boys now getting in some ways alligned with the seanchan... :| not looking forward to that #and i find tuon intriguing she is interesting to me i just wish there was no romance plot here #overall i enjoyed the egwene chapters the most #egwene povs my new best friend #(i'm saying this as if i haven't liked them in previous books. i very much did but there were always povs that i enjoyed more in comparison #anyways. live randland reaction the book goes to the bottom of my list. i am walking off into the sunset with knife of dreams in my hand #olga talks

[katyspersonal]

It just will forever baffle me how unfair he has been. He kept constantly blaming me for all that was going wrong in his life, he could get upset to the point of wanting to hurt himself or worse over things as little as me disagreeing with his creative ideas or not wanting to listen to something he wanted to share at the moment, he abandoned his friend he knew for two years because he got interested in me too much to give her enough - and then because he convinced himself she didn't care for him anymore.

And I knew, all along, that I was not right for him. I kept telling him to keep reaching out and seek friends that he'd actually like and actually get along with. I kept insisting that he was doing it to himself by clinging to me where clearly he hated me to the point I could've hurt him by as much as setting up boundaries, having different opinions or having limitations as a human being. I told him that that friend he abandoned still cared for him and he could not just decide FOR her. But over and over, he denied everything and begged me to stay, saying how much he wanted to have future together, how I was like a sister he lost a chance to have, how we were supposed to share life experiences together and how I was the only one that felt "real". I kept sticking around despite the abuse, despite how much he was ruining my mental health and my social life (being abused distances you from even close people), all because I could not stand seeing him so hurt and alone. And the last deceit hurt especially bad, because he made me truly believe him. He said something that made me lose my guard, my focus on the fact that I was just a placeholder in his life until he finds someone fitting.

And just like I kept saying, as soon as he got enough money for good life, his mental health improved upon switching meds or something, he met a new friend and reconnected with that exact one he abandoned earlier - he declared me a dead weight on his life that has only been "killing" him and declared that the almost two years he spent with me were just a bad dream he was happy to finally forget.

I knew all along that the best thing I could do for him was to leave him, but I never did. I should have before he stopped caring for me entirely out of blue, because now he didn't even learn anything. He lost nothing of value in his eyes, just a person that "wasted his time". So what if his current friends """fail""" him again? He'll just seek an outlet in new ones, until they prove "useless" and he'll ditch them too, and so on. Some people just can't appreciate someone's personality, they only value people for what they can give to them. Or.. is it just me? At times I am genuinely annoyed when people tell me I am a valuable person and anyone who can't love and appreciate me is an idiot, because on the contrary, in my life all people that despised me and saw me as a waste of their time the most were all high IQ, very well-read and educated, very sophisticated individuals. Clearly, there is a correlation between being very smart and deeming me as human garbage - in a way jealous haters, hypocritical control freaks and callous ableists I've met online never could.

Honestly, sometimes I should decide for someone else. I always knew he hated me and splitting with me was to the better for him, but I let his tears and clinginess force me to feel bad and go back every time. And to doubt that maybe I was the delusional one and could not be sure of someone else's needs. Honestly, guys - when you are given every single indication that you are hated and only kept around out of their fear of loneliness and low self-esteem... it is all there is. It is not a situation where you should listen to your heart, to hope or to give benefit of the doubt. Being abused is something you can only comprehend with mind and knowledge, there is no bigger story and no intricate matters.

Still, I hate how as painfully stupid and naive for my age as I am, I've been able to understand things way more correctly than a much older, much more mature person with high intellect and tons more of life experience. I was right all along, but I hate being right sometimes. And I hate always being discarded as soon as people's lives improve. I hate always being just a placeholder. Apparently, no one whose life is good would ever want to burden themselves with me.

#/vent #personal #I should have left while he'd still delude himself that I was someone important for him #maybe that way he'd take a good look at how he treats people and why he loses them #on the other hand maybe he won't mistreat anyone now that he has money and mental stability #honestly I am just cursed with some sort of cosmic injustice #every single person that harms and mistreats me walks away their merry way thriving and happy #i sticked with the bastard through his worst times and not just when he got stable and nice #yet all I got is accusation of 'wasting his time' and having been ruining his life and getting- #-forgotten like a bad dream #us in Russia believe that true friends are known in times of pain and advercity #that true friend is the one who stays with you through your WORST and not just when you're good #i guess westerners have different ideals. maybe rightfully so. he hated me all along after all. #I guess me wanting to stay with him and help no matter the cost did not matter for him since- #-that was coming from someone that wasn't his taste in people (platonically but still) #if I had someone who stayed with me despite abusing them due to poor mental health and- #-trauma I'd never ever ever just discarded them simply after getting my mental state fixed #I guess I was just a waste of his time because I still showed pain and anger in responce to abuse. #this summer was a mess #he and A that backstabbed me and my friends were the biggest self-esteem wounds on me in years

[nekofantasia]

The sound of her pounding heart is what woke her up this morning, and then a very heavy feeling was made aware as soon as she aware of herself.

Feeling tired after sleeping is not all surprising for her. She’s always had trouble sleeping and then were even nights where she couldn’t get to rest her eyes at all. For a youkai like her, having most of her nights like that might not kill her…but even she had to admit that this is something she would love to get rid of it as soon as possible. It really made a difference when she was able to sleep soundly, even if she would wake up all groggy for no reason.

But today was…different? Let’s go with different.

She couldn’t recall the moment she got back on her feet. In fact, her whole body ached, as if she repeated her master’s training sessions so many times. And why was she so drenched in sweat too? Sure it’s still warm out there, but even the morning air felt chilly around her. Her heart was still pounding after a while…There’s not much she could recall prior to all this–Except for an intense sense of dread.

Was it a nightmare again? No, she could’ve recalled it easily. Besides, nothing would’ve gone as far as making her jump out of her mattress so violently like that. Her mind was too foggy to recall anything, but she was sure that such experience could only be compared to those where she had run or fight for her own survival. Whenever she encountered with something that really really terrified her. And just like in those situations, her body would cool down and her aches would start to become more unbearable by the minute. She looked at her own hands, her knuckles were pale and the palms of her own hands were slightly injured as what it seemed to be from her own nails digging into her skin. Her own clothes looked rough too, as if she braced for a very bad fall at the mountain. Did something attacked her while she was sleeping in her…

Wait.

Was she…was she even in her room at all?

Thankfully she was still inside the household, she was only a few steps away from the sliding door that separated her room from the hallways. Confusion transitioned into dread again, a few pieces surfaced in her once unreliable memory.

Something appeared in her room, she was sure of it and it must’ve been very dangerous with the way she acted. With a second surge of adrenaline coursing her body, she could feel a heavy presence still looming within her bedroom. As much as she wanted to run for help, she couldn’t get her eyes off the sliding screen. No, she can’t risk it–If the intruder is still there then it’s her only chance to make sure it leaves her masters’ home. She was trained for this kind of situations, she MUST be able to do it.

Yet, her hands were shaking to a degree she’s never done before. She couldn’t even breathe properly, afraid that any movement could give it all away to the threatening entity that invaded her room and mind. She gave herself just three seconds, and in one swift movement she pulled the screen to one side.

Only to find nothing.

Except for a chaotic mess in her room, which might’ve done it herself considering there were no obvious signs of intrusion.

But it still felt difficult to make the first step inside. Her body still felt tense from all the stress she just put her body through. She would check one side to the other and found nothing to be afraid of, everything looked normal. Despite that, she hesitated when she tried to close her room. She couldn’t bring herself to relax yet.

She sat on her futon, still wondering about all this. Is this something she must report to Ran and Yukari? Well, there’s no evidence of a trespasser…No, that would look bad. Truth to be told, it would be hard to share such thing. She can’t bring herself to make them worry. Maybe it’s best to just sleep it off.

Yes…sleep sounds good, she thought.

Her master might scold her for sleeping in, but at this point, she was feeling too tired to care. She couldn’t even tuck herself properly either, the nekomata just couldn’t wait to forget all this as if it was nothing than a bad dream. Her once erratic breathing would become steady and quiet as her eyes never dared to open for a while.

The world can continue without her today.

#drabble #more like a vent drabble lmao #based on something that happened like earlier this week #I remember feeling scared and got into super panic mode as I felt stuff crawling on my body like a giant spider of sorts #and then I remember having a dream of running away from it or so I thought it was dream #but I found myself standing outside my room completely drenched in sweat with my heart in my throat #I couldn't even get back to my room bc I was so scared of it for some reason #but my room was a mess like I knocked everything out of its place #everything was on the floor #and I had bruises like I bumped into shit #it took me like at least 20 mins to get back inside #I was still unsafe but eventually I slept #and I'm just worried it could happen again #what if I trip down the stairs and injure myself? #I never had issues with sleep but after getting sleep paralysis and this...I dunno #I just hope it ain;t bad #if it was sleep walking then...