Sat 8 May ‘21
Niall and Louis both got worked up and wordy about football on twitter as the season wraps up dramatically. Niall, really leaning into the ‘dramatic’ part of that, tweeted his beloved Derby “I’ll always love you even though you’ve broken my heart since the day I was born,” memed himself-- “do it for him” over a wee baby Niall at a Derby game- AND added “barely slept with nerves” and wished the team luck before their game, which was expected to result in them being knocked down to a lower division for next season after a rough year. But they hung onto their spot by their fingernails, to Niall’s joy- “I’ve never experienced anything like that in my life. The most intense 90 mins ever,” he rhapsodized and went into detail about the game (and then bro-ed out a bit with Piers Morgan, gross). With that emotional journey out of the way (after he seriously assured us that his football tweets were in no way sarcastic) he moved on to jokes with/ at the fans, imitating people who would like to know wtf is going on with the Anne-Marie collab he’s been actively teasing since January and talking about longer than that. Anne Marie posted a montage of tweets asking wtf is going on and Niall chimed in, “WHAT IS HAPPENING? are they actually going to collab?” WELL EXCUUUSE US for having some QUESTIONS when you say it’s happening for MONTHS but it never actually comes out!
Louis also had things to say about football, joining the accolades for player James Coppinger as he prepares to retire after 16 years with Doncaster (!!) following their last match of the season tomorrow. “Just want to say a massive congratulations and a massive thank you for everything you've done for the club. A true professional and forever a Donny legend!” says Louis, and “enjoy tomorrow mate!” “Thank you mate,” said Coppinger.
Today in MP filming, Harry is still on the beach but fully clothed this time, and we have pics showing post shoot cheering, clapping and whistling-- are they done? Just done for the day or with that location? Don’t ask me, IDK!
And Liam is looking at the fanart submissions he requested and answered a question from one of his UAs to say, “it can be of anything or anyone! I’d love to see as much of everyone’s artwork as possible! Keep it coming everyone!” Really Liam, anything or anyone? Be careful what you ask for sir but anyway I hope he gets some good stuff and has a fun time laughing about all the shippy stuff that will come in!
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I am the girl Niall made his album Flicker about
Hi I'm Lexi, (not my real name btw). *Warning Long post ahead*
I will be leaving out details here and there and only sharing what I feel comfortable sharing. I know a lot of Niall fans have a lot of anger, hostility, or frustrations towards me because he was (I don’t know if he still is) very heartbroken because our break up. However, there is more to the story than you know.
Niall and I met each other late 2012. At the time One Direction was still an active band. We shared a short sweet conversation together and from that moment him and I began talking more often. I didn’t meet him with the intention to date him. I was just a fan at the time and just wanted to meet someone who’s music I really enjoyed. The more time him and I spent talking to each other we became close.
At some point, Niall decided he wanted to introduce me to the members of the band he was in. Harry, Liam, and Louis were all very welcoming and kind towards me but Zayn on the other hand was not (more on that later).
We all started talking more often and I really clicked with Harry the most so much so that it looked like we could've been best friends all our lives. After some time passed of getting to know each of them Liam told me he had something he wanted to talk to me about. I never seen him serious until that moment so I had no idea what the talk could've been about.
I didn’t have a reason to decline so he pulled me aside and asked me if I had any feelings for Niall and I told him I did. I didn’t think my feelings would be reciprocated so I never said anything about it and I felt safe sharing that with him. I asked him why and he told me that Niall liked me too but he was too scared to share his feelings with me so Liam decided to play matchmaker.
He was so happy to find that out and after giving me a confidence boost he told me that I should just go for it and tell Niall how I felt. Instead of coming right out with my feelings first I asked Niall himself if he liked me and he said yes and wanted to know who told me or if I figured it out.
I never told him who told me but he knew it was Liam because he was the most obvious one that would've spilled that kind of secret. Niall asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. He was very shy and awkward about it but that made it all the more cute.
The relationship was long distance so you can imagine how hard it was to not always see the person you care so much about. Niall liked to keep his relationships private and for me it was beneficial. At the time, I struggled with depression and lived with my family who were both verbally abusive and manipulative (they still are).
Although Niall and I were happy the relationship between my family was not happy. After having so many people turn their backs on me because my family's manipulative behaviors it was hard to believe there were people out there who would really be there for me.
My relationship with him was a very honest one. We had open communication between us and we had no reason to lie to each other but after being manipulated by my family for so long I started to believe the things they'd say to me. Niall always called me his princess but to be honest with you I didn't feel like one.
I was scared to share with him what I was dealing with from my family, I was scared that he would turn his back on me like everyone else did, I was scared of getting hurt again, I was scared that he didn't mean all the kind words he'd said to me, and I was scared of loving someone who saw things in me that I didn't see in myself.
Back then Zayn was very cold towards me. He never said he hated me or disliked me but the tone of the way he spoke to me was very hurtful. I remember crying after my conversation with him. I asked the others if he hated me and they said no it just takes time for him to warm up to new people but he remained cold and standoffish towards me the entire time I kept in contact with them.
So if you add that to the mix of emotions I was feeling you now have a clearer picture of how I felt at the time. Niall listened to my every concern when I brought them up to him but it never felt like he really was listening to me so I would tell Liam or Louis my concerns and it felt like they cared.
I felt like I was a burden to Louis and Liam when I went to them with my problems so Harry stepped up to be the one to listen to my concerns. I felt like I could tell Harry anything and I really could. He was one of those people you just felt safe talking to and sharing every problem you have. He truly is a sweetheart.
During the time Niall and I dated I had a chance to speak with Perrie Edwards, Danielle Peazer, and Eleanor Calder. They were all very kind to me and I wish them nothing but the best. I do want to make clear that their relationships with the other members were very much real at least that's how it looked to me because I can't speak for them.
For a clearer picture, every member of the band at that point in time was dating someone except for Harry. The girls and I discuss that and hoped that Harry would find himself someone that makes him happy. He actually fell head over heels for a girl at the time but he didn't pursue her.
To many fan's speculation L*rry St*linson isn't real. I've asked both of them about it while Niall and I were dating and it's false so I'm sorry to break that news to you but Harry really was madly in love with a girl he met at the time but that's not my place for me to say who it is that's up to Harry and it's only fair I respect that.
To summarize who broke up with who it was Niall who broke up with me. To be specific, he ghosted me and the small problems we had when we dated went unsolved. I was very hurt over this break up and it sent me into a deeper depression that he wanted nothing to do with me from that point on.
When we first saw each other in person after officially dating it was love at first sight or at least for me it was so I definitely believe in that sort of thing but back then Niall and I were both young, dumb, and immature and looking back I don't think we were ready for a relationship.
I still care about Niall and we were both very hurt when we broke up. When he wrote and sang the songs about our relationship in Flicker I was going through a tough time and was in no sort of headspace to even be in a relationship at all which is why I didn't take him back. I cry when I hear those songs because they hold so much memories and emotions of our time together.
Even seeing the mv for Too Much To Ask was a lot for me as a biracial woman of color and for him to have another woman of color to represent me and for her be very close to what I look like hit me like a ton of bricks as the subway scene although not long it was enough to portray the kind of interracial couple we were and the kind of love we shared when we dated. (Click here for the clip being referenced)
Niall expressed so much about our relationship/breakup and how he felt in that album but that breakup hurt us both. I don't believe neither of us are to blame I still love him and I always will but the timing wasn't right. If he ever wanted me to wait for him so we can work things out I would. No person or relationship is perfect and it takes time to heal those wounds
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