#levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

It's faking 0:12 on the 31st of december.. why the fuck is someone already playing with rockets in the neighbourhood.. i'm going to murder someone before the year ends..

#levynn cries about nonsense #levynn tries to think

[a-s-levynn]

Just so you know, if i disappear i either jumped off the roof or finally snapped and murdered my upper floor neighbours.

#every single fucking weekend starts off with hours of drilling and hammering #every day the kids are screeching well into to the night and stomping around so loud i can hear it even through good quality headphones #they had been asked to keep it down #multiple times #not just by me #at this point i do not give a fuck why it happens i don't even remember it has been so long i just want it to stop #i want one fucking weekend of quiet without a sensory overload first thing on a saturday #my brain is hurting #i already have problems focusing and getting chores and stuff done one the weekends on it's own #i'm so fucknig tired i have enough shit to deal with without this added to the pile #levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

Today is going great so far.........

👍

Gotta love when your roomate moves out and takes the metal sive and you cook something you've done a 100+ times and zone out and you completely forget you are supposed to W A I T for shit to cool down a tad before you proceed. Only snapping out of it when you've got about 2 liters of boiling hot grease going everywhere. 👍 👍

Sufficed to say, pakige time is postoned to either tomorrow or monday, sorry guys.

Edit: this is exactly the kinda shit why i'm saying i'm stupid as fuck

#levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

Today is long.

#and tomorrow i was hoping for a slower day but nooow #fucking workplace events T_T #i'm tired #i want to go home #but there still will be a publishing event in an hour so today is basically going to be a 12 hour day #and i'm not cut out for that #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

I am DEVASTATED.. i got the merch drop email an hour ago and this thing is already out of stock???

If you know my small offerings series (which most of you do) and seen my art style which is near and dear to my heart? Yeah.. this could have been soo perfect, given it's somewhat similar! TAT But alas.. i can still admire the artwork which deserves it because it is GORGEOUS. This is close what i want to achieve one day i think. I mean this level. Still have a way to go but i think i'm on the right track

#levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

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#fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck #i completely forgot that today was the last day when redbull had a discount in the nearby store #ffs.....................WHY AM I SO STUPID #uhhh #anyway #g'night y'all i guess i'm gonna anger myself to sleep over my stupidy i guess 🤦🏻🤷🏻😮‍💨 #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

I'm just complaining over nothing again(leg pain), feel free to skip i just had to write it down

l love days when my knee hursts no matter what and bends even less than usual. I love days when my entire thigh feels tight and on the verge of a cramp. I love days when my ankle clicks and stabs every step. I love days when my hipjoint decides that nope i'm not allowing your range of movement today unless you pay the tear tax for the pain. I especially love days when it's all at the same time.

#fuck i'm glad these are not too frequent #well not too frequent anyway #i just want to go home and lay on the floor forever #or just tear my entire left leg off #but than there'd be the phantomf pain to piss me off #uhhh #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

We are into the second day of the second week feeling like a forgotten piece of ham on a fridge shelf. Everything's fine ✌🏻

#my workplace's heating system broke down basically but not really #meaning the boilers do not heat the water up enough to allow the base temperature above 16 celsius #but technically it's working #levynn cries about nonsense #levynn tires to think

[a-s-levynn]

Somebody release me from my suffering. I should be on my way home but insted i still have at least 5 more hours ahead of me at work.

#don't mind me i'm just complaining over basically nothing #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

You've gotta be kidding me.. I felt much better today so i came to work but for what?! I have to stay until the evening for an event which of they only informed us just now. I love shit like this. [please hear the sarcasm, i hate my life right now]

#levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

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#starting the morning by hugging the toilet because of reflux is one thing i'm used to that #but appearently someone poured chemicals into the ventillation shaft on the waterblock side of the building #so i had the pleasure doing the toilet hugging while engulfed in something that smells like barey diluted hydrochloric acid #surprisingly it did not helped -_- #ffs.. the ventillations are cleaned twice a year by the company that upkeeps the entire block 🤦🏻 #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

please don't mind this, just a one paragraph mini rant with no point to it

Boy have i forgot what an.. interesting place fanspaces outside of this tumblr commumity can be. Especially on other platforms.. I usually only take peaks during workhours because of boredom and it certainly did not get better the past 2 to 3 weeks.. but some of the takes, opinions and especially reactions over basically unconfirmed rumors which i don't even understand why has to be shared are.. wild. Let's say wild. Someone help me bleach my brain. I'm not opening an other platform for at least an other few weeks again... ffs people personal shit is supposed to be personal for a reason.. 🤦🏻 why.. just why...

#i mean i know tumblr is in general much more chill than any other space now but i just got hit in the brain by the contrast again #levynn cries about nonsense

[a-s-levynn]

There is a very real chance i might have to put the small offerings on pause during the holidays which is quite frustrating. I got so used to doing them at least every other day and now it's just.. arrgghhh i want to draw. But i forgot small details like not having a desklight here while my room being unreasonably dark. 🤦🏻 I may be able to sort it out by tomorrow.. at least i hope so. I have an idea but we'll see if it's viable. Fuck i hope so..

#please ignore me i'm just fuming at myself for forgetting #maybe i'll have to stick to tiny token for a few days.. i don't need to see for that XD #levynn cries about nonsense #levynn tries to think

[a-s-levynn]

Why do i hate myself.. who in their right mind says "Yeah i drew a pretty neat looking thing, now i'm gonna attempt to draw water ripples all over it, essentially covering up the entire thing. With pencils." And proceeds with it? WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF... !! I don't even know how properly draw water. Let alone rippling water..🤦🏻

#why can't i go with the easier prompt.. . whhyyyyy there is no idea for that one.. uhhh #levynn cries about nonsense #levynn tries to draw

[a-s-levynn]

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#i may have broken two fingers on my left foot 👍 #i was rushing and kicked the doorsill/treshold (or whatever you call it in english) so hard i almost cried #and i have considerably high pain tolerance #it was ca 3 hours ago and it is still kinda throbbing #and if i try to move it.. it hurts a lot #i can't put weight on it #so it is a high chance i broke both #maybe even the third one as well? #it's the middle ones #well we'll see by tomorrow #it just so me.. like #my leg is fine it's finally in a good phase and all.. of course i manage to fuck it up 👌 #man i'm a disaster i cannot even begin #i'm just bitching i have broke fingers on my feet before it's not a big deal #just annoying #levynn cries about nonsense #levynn tries to think

[a-s-levynn]

If something sums up the day i had so far, my lunch is pretty much it.

I bought a sousage filled pastry.

Everything was in it except for the sausage.

👍

#and it's barely reaching 1pm #okay this probably sums up pretty much the past month actually but anyway #today can't end soon enough #levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense