#let alone showing she did

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[seariii]

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#im gonna kiss the mental break down out of her #i love women... #hecho con amor #wife <3 #im not ready to wake up yet tho... nor to face the consequences of that message.... #i wanna hug Kotoko.... gently hold her in my arms while we lay down on our bed. ill run my fingers through her hair and place little kisses #on her head 'its going to be okay. im here with you' i whisper softly 'you arent alone. you did what you could' #i just wanna hug her so gently and give her the soft treatment she deserves... #heh .... im now imagining the full fledged scene... at the very end of it just a soft #'thank you for trusting me. i know it wasn't easy. im proud of you for trying' #because she would be so hesitant to say anything...barely able to show herself like thst in front of anyone..m she truly is making an effort #heh and after s couple seconds of silence after that thank you i can see her hugging slightly tighter #burying her face on my chest/neck area and sighing 'i dont like this' as in being emotionally vulnerable #'thank you for doing it still' i would whisper back to her softly #lets see if i can still sleep for a bit more

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Generally envy the bitches on twitter right now trying to insist Mace Windu and Martha Jones and Finn won't victims of racist hatred in fandoms, because what fucking reality are they in and how can I get in.

#like mace windu still gets hate sometimes nowadays #aka being made out to be the overall villain just because of how he treated anakin and such #when im pretty sure its the fucking empire whose the overall villain here #and finn literally touched rey's hand and reylos got pissed and racist #one even wrote a batb au fic where finn is gaston and called racist terms #let alone the non-reylo fans who were racist about finn #seriously did these people miss the shit fits those racists had at a black character when finn was revealed or #and martha entered doctor who after rose and the writers had her crush on the doctor and...yeah you can tell where the racism came from #aka alot of racist shippers #and both finn's and martha's actors suffered actual haressment from these people as a result #again reylos showed how they felt about john boyega alot and yet denied it was racism #let alone again non-reylo fans #and martha's actress a few years ago came out revealing the racism she recieved #like how did any of the people denying it happened miss this #and if anyone curious why they even denying it its because someone listed them as characters who were hated in #a forced manner

[asteria-argo]

correct me if I'm wrong but I was just thinking about the roykeeley in season two of it all, and that fight where Keeley loses it at Roy for being clingy because she can't handle how close they are now that they work in the same building but like,,, Keeley and Roy would have been working in the same building while dating for a good chunk of season one as well.

She started working at Nelson Road before Jamie was even sent back to Manchester. They would of had months working in the same building, so either Roy has always been that clingy and Keeley just didn't mind at first, which I found doubtful given that it only takes her like a week to blow up at him for it in season two, or Roy being clingy is an out of character thing for him to be doing that should've raised some kind of red flag to friends and loved ones that I feel like from what we know about Keeley as a character would've been treated with more empathy than she actually had in the show.

#i'm going off of memory so this might not be anything #but wasn't one of her complaints that he sat quietly in her office reading when they were on break? #girl how is that being clingy and not just regular levels of wanting to spend time with your partner? #I stand by that Roy wasn't in the wrong for that #I actually stand by Roy not being in the wrong for MOST of his relationship with Keeley #I don't even think he was wrong for breaking up with her #I will not ever view breaking off a relationship you aren't happy in as selfish #and I don't care how much the show tries to make me view him as selfish for it or like he threw something good away #no he didn't #just because Keeley was hurt by being broken up with (understandable reaction) does not mean Roy did the wrong thing by breaking up with he #he looked at the way their relationship was going and saw that he wouldn't be happy if he stayed so he left #and the show tried to frame that as a bad thing #“maybe i should've just stuck around and enjoyed it” #no sir that's not how these things work #staying in a failing relationship just because you don't want to be alone isn't healthy you did the right thing #your career and your love life aren't metaphors for each other #and let me be clear Roy and Keeley were 100% a failing relationship right from the start of season 2 with the fight that inspired this post #keeley's feelings about the breakup aren't more valid then Roy's just because she's the hurt party #and they clearly broke up amicably if Keeley is willing to sit down and tell Phoebe about it with him #she wasn't jilted or wronged in any way and the show framing it like that grinds my fucking gears

[couldntsave]

thinking abt gwen and hobie and what his community means and meant to her, how cool she thinks he is, how kind, how fucking smart. she ADORES hobie, dude. she thinks he's the coolest ever. he's her best friend, right alongside miles. she'd do just about anything he asked and considers him the best person she knows

#I JUST....I LOVE THEM #i know daniel kaluuya says that in his opinion he thinks 'something happened' between them #which is interesting 2 me and doesnt have 2 be romantic necessarrily #but i also think like #how could you not fall a little in love with the guy? #hobie brown is the coolest dude in the world at a base level #let alone if you've been made homeless due to ur dad rejecting you so wholly #and he gives you a place to be and calls you gwendy and compliments ur drumming and gets u shoes #lets u borrow his jackets cos you've got nothing but the suit on your back #i dont think she has an actual Romantic Crush but like. how could u not feel awe towards this person? #hobie vc dont feel awe towards me that makes me feel like a fuckin autocrat divine right bullshit #also i just cant imagine that even if feelings Did happen that either would do anything abt it #esp during the movies timeline #like gwen shows that she rly doesnt wanna be w a spiderman rn on the off chance she Dies #and hobie would never risk accidentally taking advantage of gwen while shes so dependent on him and emotionally fragile

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

me, playing tgaa1: ok so this stronghart guy is obviously evil-

stronghart: london is the centre of the modern world. objectively best city. we have AAAAALL the cool technology you WISH you had our technology and public transport don't you ohhhh you wanna be a londoner so bad aren't you jealous of our trams

me, a rural english bitch and certified london hater: well now it's personal. it is on like donkey kong. i am going to have so much fun obliterating this man.

#words cannot describe. my seething hatred. for london. and everything it represents. #they steal like 99% of the resources and infrastructure meant for the rest of the country and for what #to have a public transport system that is so overly punctual that it's hostile to human life?? #no i don't want your stupid trams. but an hourly bus that actually shows up on time or at all would be nice #london bus driver who closed the doors on my sister while she was in the doorway on purpose #bc you were mad that my sister knew you were gonna not let me on so she stood in the doorway to protect me #from getting stuck alone in my personal hell for the crime of needing a second to get my debit card out #all because heaven forbid you be 0.0000002 milliseconds behind schedule #and be humiliated by showing up at the same time as the 3:04pm bus when you're the 3:03pm bus #because londoners are that fucking privileged i guess #oh london bus driver how i loathe you #don't even get me started on london underground don't get me STARTED #every time i am offered to go see a musical or whatever but i have to make my way there alone without someone else to help me #i decline. i have to. me + london = recipe for disaster. i am not navigating that shit alone absolutely not #i only did that once when i was running away/being kicked out (it's complicated) and had no choice but to do it to get to my grandma's #(which is why i lived near london for a few years bc i went to live with my grandma) #and like. i barely made it. bc why are there two stations with the same name right near each other #and why is the international one the one i have to go to even though it's supposed to be for when you're like #going through the channel tunnel to france or whatever #st pancras international train station i hope you explode #with the rest of london #i am going to look at a map of england really hard so i can explode london with my mind #anyways haha oopsie time to tag this ''properly'' #text post #mael stronghart #sophia's soliloquies #tgaac

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[hella1975]

my sister is currently doing her nightly *douse myself in water for 5 mins despite it leaving PUDDLES EVERYWHERE BTW and then spend 20 mins applying imported skincare i spent all my money on* in SILENCE sans any form of music meanwhile she walked in on me having a party of one (1) at myself in the bathroom mirror to set it off of all things. it's a bit funny that we are related by blood

#she just looked at me with my hands still doing some dumb dance gesture and went 'what.... are you doing' SO UNIMPRESSED LIKE #mortifying but i had fun. was literally just jamming for a good 20 mins like acting out every song in the mirror #not even taking my make up off or anything like that no just pure vibing. and i think im in the right here #and then she spends a MINIMUM half hour EVERY NIGHT on skincare which is fine i WISH i had that dedication #but she does it IN SILENCE I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW WE'RE RELATED #my sister: even though im writing my thesis atm for my masters in chemistry im still excited for my dentistry degree i just got accepted on #me earlier today to my mum: LETS SEE IF I CAN FAIL MACROECONOMICS THREE YEARS RUNNING <3333 #it's a bit funny it's a BIT funny #we are just such different people in EVERY facet of our lives even the tiny things idk IT'S A BIT FUNNY #can u see how i got the shit kicked out of me from watching fleabag. can you see it #we did however sit on the sofa together just now and i was lying on it first #but she wanted to show me a dress so she came over and i didnt want to get up so i lifted my legs as a joke #expecting her to be like 'sod off and make room' but she literally just scooted under and had my legs on her lap and her arms on my legs #and yes it's v casual v mundane but we've never really... had that? like we are NOT physically affectionate at all #we're not affectionate FULL STOP let alone physically #idk it was nice. i was hyperaware of literally every single part of me bc it's still so new but. it was nice #i used to get really hung up on our differences but now i do genuinely find it funny more often than not #('used to' i mean last year. literally a few months ago. we move) #hella goes home

[sunscall]

just remembered "cat <3 mac 4evr" sighs charlie and mac are the only ones in the gang who have mutually said they love the other if im not mistaken..... feeling ill

#might be wrong bc ive only watched the show once #but like mac has said i love that guy abt charlie #and charlies cat love mac 4EVR which is like half canon at least #dennis told dee he loves her twice but like dee didnt say it back #frank did say when u love someone u dont let them go abt charlie #and charlie obv loves frank vv much but i cant rmbr if he ever said it outright #charlie also said ily to dee for valentines #oh thats interesting so dee is the only one who hasnt said she loves anyone in the gang i think?? #she does seem like the one whos the most independent tbh #living alone and she likes her me time #unless im missing smth which i probably am #charmac

[kennyomegasweave]

Top really wore not one, but TWO, different tucked in polo shirts to the bar in only the first episode and that's when I knew for sure he was the villain of this story. The narrative could possibly change that, but I won't care. A 23 year old man that wears tucked in polo shirts to the bar and still is THE alpha fuckboy slut with his pick of buss? No. That man is a menace and I need him to suffer and cry.

#only friends #only friends the series #my bestie told me to keep her updated on this show and I am only referring to him as Polo to her #she's like that polo shirt fucked you up #and it did #no 23 year old rolling up to the bar in a tucked in polo shirt should be getting laid #let alone having his pick of all the peen #and yet #he is a menance #I hope he gets positively WRECKED by Mew #I'm so here for this show already #I want him dead I want his family dead I want his home burned to the ground #regular clyde

[swagging-back-to]

the most unrealistic part of steven universe is that the zoomans speak and understand modernized english.

#ok so pink diamond was 'shattered' around 5000 years ago and rose/pink had the idea to save humans around 6000 years ago. #so that's a huge timeframe for the zoo to be made #let's simplify it down to 5500 years ago #around this time humans had barely even formed the wheel let alone a writing system. #it was literally the end of the stone age #going off this then the most likely languages the zoomans would actually speak would be greek egyptian sumerian hebrew sanskrit tamil #chinese arabic and aramaic. #notice how not a single one of them is even a romance language let alone a germanic romance language? #the zoomans would not speak english. PERIOD. #I can get behind even homeworld gems speaking English bc their bodies already adapt to the gravity of a planet automatically. maybe they #also automatically adapt to the main language of whatever lifeform is near them at that time #however. #english did not exist when pink was colonizing the planet or when she made the zoo. the *building blocks* for english did not even exist ye #so no #there is no explanation that actually makes sense even IF you give it the benefit of the doubt #it is not believably unrealistic either. #it's just plain unrealistic #bro imagine how cool it would be if they showed up and the zoomans spoke a combination of different ancient languages mixed WITH gemlish? #ik it's asking a lot but #:(((( i hate when aspects of fantasy/scifi are just so out of the realm of possible that it takes you right out of the immersion. #steven universe

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Lily Orchard still acting like her opinion on story driven/lore driven shows is a fact and not just what I called it, her opinion? Not even surprising at this point with her. Seriously, the day Lily learns she can just not watch these shows is the day pigs will fly, I swear, because this is the thousandath time she's gone on about this and each time, its the same take from her: her trashing all the story driven shows she dislikes and trashing the creators of the shows and acting like her thoughts are all facts, all the while demanding shows cater to her interests and her interests only.

#lily orchard #the thumbmail having steven universe alone promises more bad SU and rebecca suger takes #let alone the fact that lily is basically acting like all her problems means any ones story driven show will be bad #then again expecting nothing less from the women who confirmed she wouldn't watch moon girl and devil dinosaur if it did go- #-through with becoming story driven

[themthistles]

not even joking i would kill for some kind of beyond evil sequel focusing on jihwa. it doesn't even have to be a full time drama. a mini-series, a movie, anything is fine i just need it

#she has so much potential as a character but the show just didn't. have. time for her #and i'm always sad about it #jwds don't need to be there like they can be referenced or make a guest appearance idc #jihwa works in a violent crimes unit #you're telling me there can't be a compelling story about a woman with decades of unpacked trauma #encountering worst of humanity everyday but desperately trying to believe in the goodness of it and through it in the goodness of self #you're telling me we can't have an arc of her finally forgiving herself for leaving for doubting for wanting more for herself #there's so much that can be explored #literally do none of you ever think about you're better than me you're all better than me i hope jeongje did it i'm a monster right #do you never think about i'm sorry but what i wanted was to run away not to be consumed by your desires #do you never head in hands over i never got in your way once i let you do whatever you wanted and now you're telling me not to cross over #she's always delivering lines of all time and for what #actually i take it back #dongsik can be there #series focusing on jh&ds's relationship would slap #also kim shinrok and shin hakyun as leads #their sheer acting power alone would blast brain outta my skull please and thank you #have not had interest in watching anything recently beyond evil let me fucking go let me care about something else PLEASE #promise of upcoming shim nayeon thriller drama with two female leads is the only thing keeping me afloat tbh #whenever that happens

[timeandspacelord]

As a consequence of listening to Red read Dracula while I work, I am now thinking about Dracula and I've come to the realization that Renfield did more to try to prevent Dracula from feeding on Mina than any of the Dude Squad did

#also tho HOW did none of them realize she was showing the EXACT SAME symptoms as Lucy??? they all had access to those diaries #I get they were preoccupied with hunting Drac and his boxes of earth but like. guys come on #anyway yeah Renfield *begged* to be sent away so he couldn't let Dracula into the house (not that he could say that) and the Dude Squad... #left Mina alone at night? told her nothing? did not even think 'hey Dracula might be hanging around here and want fresh blood'? #smh my head

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm having a bad time at work rn

#im so pissed that they're complaining about me because i still went above and beyond at this damn place #for context i work in a gas station connected to a fast food restaurant #i used to work in the restaurant but i left because it's hell #but then the restaurant manager asked me to cover two days a week for a month while someone else was getting trained #i didnt want to but im bad at saying no #after the second week i asked the general manager if i could get out of it and he said yes #he said i can get out of the fourth week. but the third week was already scheduled so he asked me to do that #so i did the first day of the third week right #and the overnight crew didnt show up. no call either. so i was left alone. and a store manager told me to just shut it down and go home #so thats what i did #but the next day the restaurant manager yelled at that store manager because we should never shut it down #he said that i shouldve stayed until 3am because i was the shift lead #thats four fucking hours after my scheduled shift ended #so i said no. fuck it. shutting down by yourself is hell. and im not working where he expects an extra four hours from me #so i said i wouldnt be working the second say of that week. i was going ti stay at the gas station #BUT I said that if they needed my help they could come get me. and i would take care of the casb registers at the end of my shift #and i ended up working there for an hour so that they could take breaks. and i took care of the registers #and yknow what happened? the overnight crew didnt show up again. im so glad i didnt work there that night #the store manager let everyone go home. but she was told to never let that restaurant close. so she didnt #the lights were on. the doors were open. there were no staff. no one is putting up with the restaurant manager's bs #especially not me. not anymore. but i still fucking helped. and then he wants to go and complain about me? asshole #get staff that show up and be a better manager. then maybe people will be happier with their job there