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(Post as soon as possible / today (oct 11) if you can, MPC.)

Happy birthday, Euphemia. I hope you're doing well. I wish I could've celebrated your birthday more often.

Nunnally and I would often celebrate it without you being there, did you know that? Nothing fancy, we didn't want attention on ourselves. But we would bake a cake with candles and sing to you. Even if you weren't there, it was still at least something.

I hope the days are treating you well. Take care of yourself, sister. I hope one day you can forgive me.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive).

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I'm tired of the cishets in the code geass fandom. How more obvious does it need to be that I am a gay man. The reason why I was so uninterested in any of the female love interests was one, because I was busy trying to manage a damn war, and two, I didn't like women. Did anyone ever notice at all how C.C., Kallen, and Shirley were all the ones who came onto me, I didn't kiss them back, or how I was completely unphased by the shower scene with Kallen?

Besides, I had my priorities before my love life. Taking down my father and giving my sister the world she wanted was always first on my mind. I don't think it needs to be said that I'm a manipulator. At most I was manipulating Kallen and the others, pretending to care about them. (I did care. Just not in the way I made them believe.)

I am a gay male who had his priorities set on the war going on in front of him. I never had feelings for any of the girls.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia (Fictive).

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Post this on November 22, MPC.

I would say happy birthday to you but that would be a lie, wouldn't it.

I hope this day turns out horrible for you, Marianne. I hope you're suffering in hell.

- Your adored son, Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive).

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Sometimes I really wish I could front without the system's friends rushing to talk to me. I don't want to talk to people every single time I front, sometimes I want to be left alone. But of course I can't communicate that without coming off as rude.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive.)

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So far I've been kin assigned Goro Akechi, Golden Freddy, and The Onceler, and honestly I'm only acknowledging the first one. /hj

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive.)

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(Post this on July 10, MPC.)

Happy birthday, Suzaku. I hope it's a good one. A reminder that you are loved, and people do care about you. You are the best thing that could've happened to me, and I wouldn't regret a thing if it meant meeting you again. Please take care of yourself. If not for your sake, than for others.

I love you, my knight.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Tag fictive.)

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Why did the whole entire system just collectively agree that our safe food is this one specific brand of chicken noodles soup.

It's one of the only foods our alters with an e/d will eat too.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia fictive. (#🥀🌌🛸)

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(TW for described abuse and injury.)

Sharing a system with your abusive father means several panic and PTSD attacks as well as him gaslighting and manipulating you. Not to mention the several wounds (i.e. choking me until my throat is several shades of bruises.) :tired:

At the very least it's nice to hear one of my closest friends call him the Quaker Oats Mascot or George Washington ripoff. That usually makes me smile.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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Ignoring the other venty confessions I sent in here.

Suzaku my beloved

- Lelouch Vi Britannia (fictive) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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Sometimes I look back at the things I did in my source and I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like puking because of the things I've done to all those people, civilians, Nunnally, my friends.

And then other times I don't feel anything at all.

Everyone seems quite pushy that I have PTSD but I don't.. Believe it. I don't know why when I know they're right.

Today I had a panic attack because the sound of a ball bouncing reminded me of the gunshots that killed so many people I knew and held close.

What have I become, at this point?

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Tag fictive.) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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sometimes front is just a crying ghost because wind brushed against their skin and they got overstimulated and a dead emperor looping line without a hook while talking to his boyfriend

- mitsuba sousuke and Lelouch vi Britannia (Tag fictives) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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I'm tired of pretending I'm somehow better than my father. We both killed thousands, we used people. I essentially stole his role when I became Emperor, even if it was a ruse to make my people hate me on purpose. We were both such horrible people, but since I'm painted as the "protagonist" I'm somehow good and my actions were justified. I am just like my father.

I betrayed and used everyone and I deserve to die for it. I don't understand why Suzaku cried during the Requiem. I deserved that more than anything, even if it was stageplay.

I wish I had died so much sooner.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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A Lelouch fictive? In the age of 2020? How strange. :) Regardless.

Suzaku-- Whether a fictive or kin bear witness to this, it doesn't matter to me. I apologize.

There are a million things that I could say here but for private and shame reasons I will not. I'd consider them more than private, actually. I still consider you my friend, although I am unworthy. But then again we were both unworthy weren't we.

I would say more. I do have more thoughts on my mind than this, but I wouldn't know how to word it. If I had the choice to take back the mistake of killing Euphy, I would. As well as everything else.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia (fictive). #🥀🌌🛸

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I'm sick and disgusting.

What have I done.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia. (Fictive) (#🥀🌌🛸)

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[Dec 5]

Not me and Lelouch being in co-front and realizing ITS HIS BIRTHDAY FKDMDMDB HELP

- Host and Lelouch fictive #🥀🌌🛸

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(Post this December 5, please.)

It's my birthday today (Or, tomorrow it is. I'm sending this in on the fourth). I don't know what to feel or say. I don't exactly think I have the energy for a party but I have the lurking suspicion our host is going to try and hold one for me anyways. Suzaku's here to celebrate it with me, which is nice. But he's in a different system. Nunnally is here too, but I don't think I'll be able to see her. As far as I'm aware she's dormant. It would be nice to see her on my birthday though.

I never really liked my birthday. Hm.

- Lelouch Vi Britannia (Fictive).

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