#late night rambling

[fanvoidkeith]

sooooo i may have. spent my day binge watching dungeon meshi and here are my Opinions, having never read the manga ever (very MINOR ANIME SPOILERS ahead! nothing too in-depth but, y'know, for laughs):

laios is my autistic blorbo son boy and i love him and i want him to be happy. go find your sister, dude, but also eat monsters for fun and research reasons. this is the one context where i would say "eat monsters" like... ever

laios is also 1,000 percent a freak for wanting to eat monsters and study them the way he does. absolutely insane man. stop trying to be a martyr, you dumbass, and also stop poisoning yourself. both of these opinions coexist at the same time and i don't know how to feel about it because feelings (and social cues) are difficult

marcille is a lady who is so so SO smart and cool, but has absolutely ZERO street smarts. (babygirl you are JUST like me, except for the whole "being a woman" thing.) she's a "gifted" kid who now has burnout and needs to feel useful or else she feels like a failure constantly kinda girlie. she doesn't want to be abandoned. relatable. i'm concerned at how much i relate to her. stop being so relatable, dammit!!

chilchuck is INCREDIBLY emotionally constipated. lmao. he also has chronic young-forever face, which means he probably gets mistaken for a twelve-to-sixteen-year-old constantly, which... same, dude, same. i've heard (from the manga readers) that he's divorced with several children, but i don't know if that's true. i hope it is. i really want that to be where part of his issues come from. i want more angsty moments with his character. he'll be my new emotional punching bag when i finish all those other unrelated one-shots i'm planning on writing :)

senshi is a sweet man who just wants to feed and protect his new friends. i think food and acts of service are his love languages. he has a really fuckin' strong pot and knife for some reason lmao

i love falin. she's kind of a freak too, but she knows social cues better than her brother from what i can tell. sure hope nothing bad happens to her- oh gods. well, i sure hope nothing ELSE bad happens to her- OH GODS OH FUCK-

uhhhh. i like that the kobolds in this anime are dog-people. i love dogs. dogs are cool. very cute. 12/10 decision honestly

this anime made me so hungry but i still forgot to eat for most of today. rip. the food in dungeon meshi looks goddamn delicious though, so it's fine

sometimes these characters act just like a D&D party would. like. damn. this is just like that ONE TIME in dungeons and dragons when our party did [X action] and then [Y consequences] happened-

oh my goddddddssss there's ECOSYSTEMS IN THE DUNGEONS??? DUDE I LOVE THAT. CRAZY CONCEPT. FUCKING LOVE THAT. ADVENTURERS AND MONSTERS AND CREATURES (and senshi, who is his own category) ARE PART OF AN ECOSYSTEM. I'M CLIMBING UP THE WALLS AND GOING INSANE RN

oooohhhh shit politics. oh shit background politics that our main characters ignored. no wonder they focused on this other party lol

OH SHIT OTHER CHARACTERS FROM THEIR BACKSTORIES RRRRRAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

oh yeah i guess this is about whoever gets the big treasure at the bottom of the dungeon or whatever if they defeat the Big Bad or something? okay dude. it's only relevant to me when it's relevant to my New Blorbos honestly. but i WILL jot that down though :eyes emoji:

look. i am NOT calling it "delicious in dungeon". i KNOW that's the creator's intended english translation, but personally i think that title sucks. so DUNGEON MESHI it is, for me personally

PLEASE give me the second season right now i need MORE. i'm slurping up this show like soup and i'm fucking HOMGRY!!!

okay that's it that you for comjng to my ted talk

#void keith talks #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi anime #delicious in dungeon anime #late night thoughts #late night rambling #void keith rambles #anime stuff #show stuff #tv show stuff

[agent-jaselin]

“Oh it’s dystopian/horrifying when a kids toy is a mcdonald’s/grocery cashier set up.”

Kids love to mirror what they see adults doing everyday. Whether that’s the Walmart cashier, the doctor, or their parents cleaning up at home. It’s only dystopian cause you don’t respect minimum wage jobs YouTuber.

#i get so annoyed at innapropriate childrens toys lists #that include toy that mimics x job #or toy that mimics cleaning aupplies #the only thing that makes it bad is if a parent gets mad at there kid liking something gendered #also that idiot saying monoploy teaches mids to hate taxes #its a game they are nit connecting it to real life investments and money #late night rambling

[garfield-lasagna-maker]

Forever thankful that people did not start thristing for this character but I do know he'd have the thickest cock in his fanart

#Late night rambling #romeo and juliet #gnomeo and juliet #Gay

[sanddollarpoems]

Trauma always finds its way back in

After years of braving self examination

It still lurks in unopened drawers

Memories rattling in my mind's closet

All it takes is a family reunion

And a small amount of lack of sleep

I find every trigger waiting for me

"It's not you, it's me and my baggage"

Isn't really an excuse anymore

Maybe someday I'll be able to deflect

The comments and past wounds

Enough to feel okay in my skin

Or maybe trauma will hold my hand

And keep me company until the end

#sanddollarpoems #spilled ink #poem #poetry #quick write #late night rambling #family stuff #trauma

[whitherwanderer]

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I have so many fun and ultimately pointless projects right now and I’m excited about all of them but my concentration is Bad! It’s nice to be exciting about things! But it’s also bringing up a lot of anxieties!

I’ve got this custom xaela tribe that me and S&S have been writing since 2019 and I’m slowly throwing more and more information into it as a little worldbuilding exercise. But I’m terrified that people will try to claim it as their own or point out the obvious not-totally-real-world-accurate elements just for the cheap critic shots and I don’t really feel like I can entertain someone trying to give me advice I didn’t ask for.

There’s a Shroud-based horror anthology that’s been living in my head since early this year that I’ve considered fleshing out more and more but I lack the finesse for horror and frankly Shroud RPers can be defensive and I don’t really want to respond to unsolicited criticism about a project that doesn’t really involve anyone else.

There’s the Ala Mhigan V&C dungeon thing I’ve been working on recently too and I’m continuing to poke at it, but frankly I have no idea what to DO with it beyond making it a quick and silly carrd-based choose-your-own-adventure game that also tells a bit of Sif’s story but ??? Would anyone even play that knowing it featured my dumbass OC as the non-combat escort character? Will people be disappointed or mad if I can’t include every Ala Mhigan thing/person/place they want to see or choices they want to make? I mean it’s a CYOA, not a TTRPG campaign, but people sometimes have that “i want to seduce the door” mentality about stuff and you just want to shake them and be like. You’re missing the point.

Also there’s the fact that a carrd based CYOA based on an XIV game mode does not play to strengths of either medium and I would have to accept that either it’s going to be far different from the V&C dungeon structure and therefore more writing-heavy (and therefore more work) since there can’t really be combat, OR some of the choices will be lacking in depth because there’s no combat for choices to have an impact.

AHHHH I am so excited about all of these projects and I would love to DO something with any of them but I always get caught in the same “what will other people think/do and why are my assumptions always that I am going to be tarred, feathered, and dragged through town for the smallest sin” and it is so FRUSTRATING.

Edit: There’s also a five-year show I want to put on with nearly every song I’ve written for Sif since I started writing songs in 2018 but… jfc, do people even want to see that? Is that pretentious? Are people only encouraging me because they want to but they don’t actually care if I do it or not?? I mean, it’s not really a show if there’s no audience…

#[ ooc ] #late night rambling #may or may not be a result of having to take caffeinated meds to get rid of a migraine #i am so excited to work on THINGS #why do they have to come with SCENARIOS #i am a worst-case-planner bitch and this is just how i live tbh #i am overthinking all of this because that is one of my worst traits but #i want to make things GOOD you know??

[just-someone-online]

Ooh, it's time to ramble about robots!

So I've been thinking about this for a minute and a crossover I think would be interesting is one between Prime and Earthspark. Because up until Predacons Rising, the Transformers of Prime are completely incapable of creating new life outside of cloning. No building robot dinosaurs, no errant Allspark fragments to bring new life into the world, no sparked protoforms waiting to be found by either faction.

As far any of the earthbound Transformers know, they could be the last of their kind.

But then here come these five young - so, so young - Transformers, all brought to life after the war ended. All from a world in which Megatron, the bot who poisoned Cybertron to core in Prime, called the war off. Team Prime probably wouldn't believe it at first. They'd probably think the Terrans' Megatron is playing the long con.

And that's if the Terrans had ended up in the Prime universe. If an Autobot from Prime ended up in Earthspark's universe, could you imagine how much of a trip that would be? Transformers are a known entity to the human race, the war is over, Megatron is working with Optimus and humans. You'd have to wonder if they'd be tempted to stay, just for a little longer.

And yeah, they definitely would see that ES!Earth isn't all it's cracked up to be. They'd see the way Bumblebee and the Terrans are in hiding, or how the rogue Decepticons are forced to fight for scraps in Bot Brawl. And if the TFP gang falls in with ES!Optimus and G.H.O.S.T., at least one of them would find about G.H.O.S.T.'s experiments on the imprisoned Decepticons. It would probably start a debate about whether or not to stay and help the poor bastards before going back to their world.

#transformers #maccadam #tfp #transformers earthspark #tfe #this was longer than expected #idk i just think about this a lot #lowkey i might make separate posts about tfe in tfp and vice versa so i can go more in depth #late night rambling

[echo-s-land]

I need to have a friendship/situationship/relationship of any kind really i dont care with another trans person and for us to understand each other and how our genders are so vast and complex and-

#i just need someone to talk about my messed up gender with and have them want to talk back about theirs #late night rambling

[magsinhiding]

I will embrace my soft body

#late night rambling #photo from a surprise Central Park excursion Monday

[noonmutter]

yknow I really miss the days when it was completely normal to talk trash about something you love and for other people, who also love this thing, to talk trash about it too. It's an act of catharsis and bonding to do so with people who are doing it out of love for the thing.

you can absolutely love something very much and acknowledge, sometimes loudly and while cackling, that thing's negative qualities at the same time. This extends to everything from creative media to politics to interpersonal relationships to engineering to the human body's myriad wonders and everything inbetween.

it's pretty damn healthy to recognize the flaws in a thing you love and be able to articulate them without having to renounce your love of the thing or double down on that love like the flaws didn't influence you loving the thing in the first place. You do not, and should not, have to be all or nothing. Actual ride-or-die is really unhealthy; it makes it really easy to fall into a sunk cost fallacy where you can't bring yourself to detach once you finally accept that the thing maybe isn't so perfect after all, because you've spent so long defending it and making defending it a major facet of your identity.

my absolute favorite TV show of all time that has yet to be dethroned is Gargoyles, I think it's the pinnacle of children's programming, particularly in the 90s but also in general, but it's still very much a product of the time in which it was aired and there are tons of episodes that suck complete ass even before Disney started censoring chunks of them for re-airing.

I love my spouse very much but she's got some annoying fucking habits that make me want to strangle her sometimes and she can and does say the same thing about me on the regs. We make each other laugh like idiots over the dumbest crap, usually our flaws.

Being willing and able to talk about the problems your favorite toy has gives you a much better overall relationship with that toy than white knighting for it ever will, because you're not worshipping it. You're just playing with it, like you're supposed to with toys.

#late night rambling

[fanvoidkeith]

"what's your gender" uhhhh. there's a black hole. there's a chicken nugget in there. there's also a toaster that isn't related at all, but it's also inside the black hole. it's a "none pizza left beef" situation, except it's my gender- none gender, left boy. why boy? why am i not a man? i don't feel much like an adult most days. am i supposed to know the difference between boy and man? am i supposed to know what any of this is? am i actually a robot on the inside? i dunno. maybe i'm the black hole actually. maybe i'm the star being swallowed by the void within space that holds all these things. hope that helps 👍

#void keith talks #gender stuff #nonbinary #enby #silly gremlin thoughts #trans #transgender #transmasc #transmasculine #late night rambling #void gremlin ramblings #void keith rambles #gender thoughts #late night thoughts

[lemonluvgirl]

And now that it's 11pm I will begin my nightly self assessment.

Me: what are you doing with your life??

Also me: meh 🤷‍♀️

Me: don't you have like 30 WIPs that you could be working on?

Also me: 🤔 do I? I don't thinks it's quite that many...

Me: 😑 it's a lot.

Also me: It's 11pm. It's too late to work on anything right now. 🥱

Me: Fine. But we're gonna work on something tomorrow. Bright and early you lazy smuck. 😠

Me: go to bed and dream of answers to the plotlines you've been rehashing for months. 😴

Also me: sure, sure. 👍

Also me: Yeah,let me just check this one thing--oh! My email says the fic I love just updated!!! Yay! Late night reading session! 😃🥳

Also me: what?! NO! 😵 ☠️

#conversations i have with myself #late night rambling #lemon procrastinates

[weeeeeeeegh]

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Ragna my beloved,,,, my favorite character ever,,, man that needs love and positive reinforcement,,, needs to be told his food is bussin and he's an eleventy billion out of ten,,, I want to hug him and never stop

#ragna the bloodedge #blazblue #late night rambling #I am SICK with a bad cough and sneeze #Hugging my shiba inu plush pretending its him #you dont know me but im a duck #i dont know how to shut the fuck up

[femmespoiled]

When I think about love, I think of simple gestures, I think of beautiful smiles, I think of stunning eyes, I think of soft hair I play with, I think of arms to hold each other, I think of existing together.

Love is a multifaceted thing,

It is choosing each other every day,

it is reassurance,

it is communication,

it is shared strength,

it is kindness and gentleness,

it is feeling good together,

it is exploring life together,

it is making yourself vulnerable,

it is understanding the possibility of your heart being broken and taking the chance anyways,

It is learning that your insecurities aren't facts,

it is being held while you cry,

it is feeling safe to be yourself,

it is smiling and laughing together,

it is wanting to do and be better,

it is going through life together and making it the best you can for each other.

Love is flowers and sunshine, love is tears and challenges, love is everything.

#late night rambling #btexts #men dni #each day i wanna write more specifically about butch/femme love #some day

[vegan-heterotroph]

Anti-vegans will criticize vegan leather and vegans for it because its "just plastic" (as if it's the only material we wear) and then buy and wear acrylic and polyester.

#rant #vegan #clothing material #Cotton exists #late night rambling

[just-someone-online]

lowkey, I don't think I can ever watch the first Frozen movie again. I don't think it's bad or anything, but when I watched it for the first time last year, I felt like I was having war flashbacks every time one of the songs came on lol

#frozen #late night rambling #this isn't me hating on the movie btw #i know it *sounds* like i am but i actually like both movies #i think i like the second one more but the first isn't terrible #idk frozen and encanto have been on my mind for the last couple days #but like #remember how insanely *everywhere* frozen was when it came out? #i went into the movie - *nine years* after it first released - and i knew the whole plot without ever actively seeking out any info on it #i don't think that's ever happened to me before #like #take star wars for example #i know vader is luke's father and leia is his sister because *everybody* knows that duh #but aside from that i don't know shit about *any* of those movies. even after watching the family guy trilogy #but frozen? i knew that shit back to front because of 2013-2014 internet #i think it'll permanently affect my feelings on the first movie #and not for the better unfortunately #the marketing for the second movie was thankfully dialed back enough that i went in completely blind