#kinda easy to read and im liking that

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Ended up pirating all of Hazbin for the sake of my younger days (used to be a fan when I was around 14/15, before all the stuff with Viv came out) and I am so surprised by how I felt... nothing for the most part. Like a lot of the show's storylines feel like they was crammed in there with no real pacing. A lot of this should have been season 2 territory, which is a sentiment I've seen echoed around, but also... it feels as if the show is trying to be episodic while also having a long narrative thread, which just doesn't work with just 8 episodes. Especially not when paced like this. So I kinda ended up feeling nothing for the most part. All the events got a "Oh, great, so what?" reaction out of me because there was little to no buildup to most of them.

Sir Pentious was always a fave of mine so I was glad to see they kept him around and, though I think we should have had more episodes with him as a villain, I think how he ended up was fitting for what little of an arc he had. I am livid about what they did to Cherri and Mimzy.

I fucking loved Mimzy, I have no idea why they sent her away -- having someone like her at the Hotel would have been a blast considering how the others are already on the road to redemption. She would have balanced it out by being a regular sinner, someone who doesn't care about redemption and won't probably ever care unless it's in her best interests to. Plus her friendship with Alastor was quite cute, they bounce off of each other very well imo. Plus I could see her have a bit of a conflict with both Charlie and Vaggie because of her ways of acting. I'm so sorry they took that from you girlboss.

And Cherri... dear lord where WAS she? She should have been a lot more present. I used to like her relationship with Angel and I even think Cherrisnake is cute conceptually, but both these relationship had... little to no room to breathe imo.

#hazbin hotel critical #not putting this in the main tag #i wouldnt call myself a fan but i guess i can mourn what could have been #not considering viv and her controversities for a second... the pilot had a very nice feeling to it #that the series was not able to replicate #i think my liking of mimzy should come as a surprise to NO ONE LMAOOOO #i love evil selfish women im sorry ... sue me #we need to save mimzy sir pen and cherribomb from hazbin everyone else can rot #ok in all fairness i will give the show credit for ONE thing #i kind of enjoyed adam and lute as antagonists. adam is insufferable which is awesome #it makes it easy to hate him as a villain. and lute being his right hand woman makes sense #they read like a christian couple (term used loosely) where the man is a misogynistic asshole and the woman just kinda endorses it #which is perfect if you wanna make a critique of heaven and the humans who go in it because they repented or whatever #i always love dumbass villains who are easy to hate (mamoon from helluva being another example of a villain i enjoy) #thats it. thats all i have in terms of compliments #would love to adress the Angel Dust controversy because as a victim of SA (and CSA) myself I think there is nuance to be found in -- #-- having a discussion about how we see survivors and how we portray the abuse they endure #i was an unconventional victim too. i kind of see a glimpse of me in Angel which is why I was LIVID when I got the full picture of the -- #-- situation. but still

[gobstoppr]

hey guys am i allowed to say on main that i dont like metadad . am i gonna get beaten up for saying this.

guys i think we all took the term found family too literally and now everythings flattened into a boring nuclear family. guys can we stop. hello . is anybody there

#text #it was kinda charming at first but it feels like everytime i try to look at the mk tag its always the same shit . guys. guys. #we can do so much more w/ their dynamics than just dad and son ugh its so . ughhh. #every since i realized i was like . really really aroace. ive started to grow a bit of a distaste for shipping culture #this is relavant i swear. iwanna talk about metadede #like ok in fandoms right. theres often #the enforcement of specific roles onto characters for a simplified understanding of them for memes and drawing ideas #we want gay rep but we dont quite have it canonically so we make our queer headcanons seem more legit #by giving a char a same sex partner. ok easy we did it. gay people are real now #and we get awesome art and its wonderful bc people are wonderful #but its like . the relationships themselves feel flat a lot of the times. #metadede never seems to be about dedede. its about mk having a boyfriend. bc we need him to date someone. #and im not like . mad at anyone about this. i participated in it back in the day. but like. #ok so. gay hcs are the most popular in most fandom things bc its easy; hot; and sweet #but things like aro or ace hcs? its just. they. how can you depict that in a single framed drawing of a char?so theres none at all. #its not even that i actively hc chars aroace its jsut this is my world view; how i default to reading chars #maybe this rant in the tags is unrelated after all. #but idk. ive got lots of thoughts about things. #anyways as ceo of meta knigth im right about everything #i can talk more about metadad stuff specifically if people want

[ssstrawberryflowers]

well this morning as I woke up from a 4 or so hour night of sleep i had the brilliant idea of trying to fight Gabriel in 3-2 on Violent while listening to a youtube video, with no in-game music, relatively low in-game master sound and without having actually beaten him (on Violent) after having spent over three hours and a half exclusively trying to kick his ass a few days ago.

so. uhm. yeah. drew how it felt (while also remaining as vague as i could as to not upset anyone lol)

this was both surprisingly hard but also relatively quick? in a weird sort of way? idk girl

screenshots below if you care lol

the 3h30 hour attempt proof (i quit at fucking 3 am my wrists were sore as fuck)

the one successful attempt (was surprisingly quicker than expected)

so uh. yea. laughed really loudly when i did beat him and when he called me an insignificant fuck again. 11/10 will do again.

#my favorite thing to do in ultrakill (aside from bullying V2 into oblivion) is dying to my own projectile boosts <33 #really though i'm sorry this is yet another stupid post and not actual art i just thought this was kinda funny; art is being made i promise #shredding through his health in his first phase is actually really easy i think; it just gets real hard once he goes angy #like just send four coins in the air and hit them with the railcanon (except i was too dumb to do a proper railcoin because ah eto bleh) #but his swords dance attack when he enters his second phase as well as his increased speed are really hard to figure out #also his timings are so different from standard!!! somehow i could parry some of his slashes but almost none of his light hatchets!! #what the fuck!!!! aaaaaa #really though beating Gabriel again was actually fun as hell fr #oh yeah the video i was listening to was a woman commenting on a “healthy christian sex course” while also giving advice and stuff #chose it cause it was almost four hours long and i didn't know how much it might take me to beat Gabe (also cause irony) #(my sense of humour is busted as fuck and really bad and im sorry) #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #hb talks #dumb shit #shitpost #←i think. maybe #again if you read through all of this shit i love you <3

[variksel]

ron: autism. glenn: adhd. henry: anxiety. darryl: a different shade of autism. jodie: adhd as well. (a demon, a hell demon if you will)

#i love making glenn and jodie have the same traits #i think its so funny i think theyre super similar in many ways but most personality traits #(i say most bcs in fact they are also very similar when theyre mad jealous etc #(see the football match and when they tried to ceremony well actually) #and glenn just Has adhd also like. absolutely #darryl is so autism #ofc ron also but thats an easy one #darryl has dad autism #where his special interest is like. mowing the lawn and he only likes two different meals #and he does the same things around the house every day in the same order #henry i thought is also kinda autism coded but idk actually he reads not autism to me #he could have like add and is just rly good at coping with it #and sparrow and oak obvs have adhd #but what im CERTAIN of is henry anxiety #anyway im in class #glenn close #henry oak #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies s2 #dungeons and daddies s1 #darryl wilson #ron stampler

[yuridovewing]

As a fellow Dovewing lover, it's frustrating how the fandom watered her down into a whiny brat who never cared about Ivypool. I mean, seriously? Not only did Dovewing care about her sister (reacting in horror when Lionblaze, her own mentor and Jayfeather are willing to potentially sacrifice Ivypool's safety by employing her as her spy instead of trying to get her out of the Dark Forest's clutches, hiding a thorn in her nest to cover for her scarring from her training).

Heck, even the scene where she tries to feed Ivypool her catch during a hunting patrol was demonized because 'she was trying to make Ivypool break the code like SHE does, as if it doesn't matter' and because she got upset when Ivypool started arguing with her! But you guys said she didn't care, right? Plus, people act like being forced into a prophecy is something you should be grateful for, as if it didn't irreparably change her close relationship with her sister? As if Lionblaze and Jayfeather didn't still keep her out of the loop (and for all the fussing they made about keeping it a secret, Lionblaze confesses his power to Cinderheart and Jayfeather doesn't even care).

Meanwhile Nightheart is angry he isn't orange and hates his mom for being exiled and the whole world has to stop for him. 🤪 And Bramblestar is simply so tortured by having an evil father, the only choice is to train with him and his evil half-brother and hide this from his wife! (But remember, it's bad when that witch Squirrelflight hides the parentage of the three from him, even when Blackstar and Leopardstar were still around after being complicit in the torture and killing of halfclan cats.) Why are these male characters sympathized with, even when they actively harm people (Nightheart forcing himself into Sunbeam's life by lying to everyone about being her mate without even asking her if she would be fine with that beforehand), Bramblestar (we all know what he does), but when Dovewing or any other female character is upset, people freak out and call them whiny brats or abusive for (checks notes) asking her partner if he loves her anymore after they argued multiple times in a book. Really makes you think! (Sorry this is so long, you just have based opinions!)

dovewing being characterized as this flighty airheaded vain popular girl stereotype in fanon is like. one of those biggest "we didnt actually read the books" things in the fandom. like theres so much fanart where shes grinning and giggling over the prophecy and shes besties with the trio and shes got preferential treatment, and then in the actual books shes basically the autistic kid no one actually likes. people really, REALLY overexaggerate that one scene where she snaps at ivypaw and brags. (and i dont wanna shit on amvs but i am forever side eying how the animation community handled dove back in the day. more than one person animated her getting murdered. normal.)

i do think its gotten better recently at least. but wow does it feel like at least one person on the writing team has a bone to pick

(also awww thank you <3 no need to be sorry i love getting stuff in my inbox)

#it does also feel so insidious to me just how long the bramblesquirrel conflict was painted as ''equally kind of wrong'' #the ppl who put words in squilfs mouth sometimes which. btw ill get to that when i read the book #and tbf part of it is that sometimes abuse isnt as easy to spot if youre primed to the mainstream version of it #like. bramble isnt a born evil wifebeater everyone can see coming from a mile away. hes a complex guy with his own insecurities #and his own goals and people he openly cares about. and even in some fanon stuff i see ppl kinda erase that part of him #(which i wont pretend im above- ive been trying to walk that line myself) #and that doesnt match how abusers are usually percieved by the public. or in this very series. #like. the main excuse for clear sky is literally ''hes sad his sister died and tried to save her! no one changes THAT much'' #anyone can be an abuser. you could be an abuser. i could be an abuser. that doesnt mean that we ARE but we are capable of it #and the thing that catches ppl off guard is that abusers are really good at hiding who they are and theyre often charming #i often hear this account of abuse that goes something like ''my parent abused me but no one believed me bc theyre nice in public'' #you dont know whats going on behind closed doors. and ik this is about funny kitties at the end of the day but its quite telling #so... yeah bramble has his nice moments. hes got his GREAT moments even. i love his relationship with his mom for example #but those moments dont mean that hes not capable of being worse. of being a monster to his loved ones #its why squilf keeps getting sucked back in. hes not a one dimensional asshole. hes capable of being kind to her. #and thats what makes his disgusting moments hit so much harder #wow ok i got off topic in the tags but yknow. idk i got feelings abt this matter as someone who's experienced toxic relationships

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[buneok]

part 1

this drawing is so sexy i wish y'all could see it but not yet 👊🏼💥

#i gotta do the other part first #BIG ramble in the tags im sry i'm just proud of this piece and i just started reminiscing #before may i hadn't drawn since like freshman year of highschool and never progressed from how i used to draw in middle school lmao #i graduated in 2021 #i guess i lost interest bc i have a hard time staying focused and studying was never easy for me #especially with like the fundamentals of art lmao i still don't know shit im sry watching videos is so boring to me #i mean some of the videos have been helpful but it's so hard to watch them in full length sometimes cuz i just get distracted or bored #tell me if u can relate #kinda gave up on art for yearssss #until suddenly the sve hyperfixation hit this year ??? #i had never drawn a body or even a torso until this year LMAO it probably shows im ngl but we move #idk how i improved so fast like i look at my old art from when i first started posting and im like 🫡 #younger me would be happy #these silly pixels helping me improve my art hehe #also hi i've been sad for the past few days but im Ok now #sad for no reason at all idk sometimes i get this way #how are u if ur reading this

[fungiissad]

I'm sorry but if the only reason Yukio pisses you off is his traits of mental illness and depression then I don't trust you around any human person ever.

Seriously.

What the fuck?

#blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #aoex #yukio okumura #this isnt pointed to anyone in particular #but it also kinda is #look #i get it #you arent responisble for the mental well-being of anyone but yourself #but berating fictional characters for having these traits? #holy shit! #you're insane! #I've spent 9 years of my life like Yukio and that shouldn't be what makes it so easy to recognize hes just a mentally ill teen #please get yourself a counselor or therapist #its just a character with depression #well written depression #or just dont read what you dont like? #its not for me to tell you what to do but #i know that as a person with depression im happy to see a character like Yukio out there in the media

[boycaca]

If there is one thing i want from bsd that i know is unrealistic to wish for its for an au where clone chuuya survives. However the second au i need is the one where chuuya runs away with dazai and joins the ada. Because like…. Why would he? Like why would he betray the port mafia? My idea was that the “mori was involved in the arahabaki project” theory gets proven right and chuuya finds out about it and feels betrayed. But then i saw someone on twitter say “nah he’s too loyal to mori and the pm he’d still stay even if he found out about it” and i was like hm. I can see that possibility too. But then what would be the driving force to make chuuya leave??? Like cmon asagiri you brought it up yourself give me a reason as to why he would run away. WITH DAZAI of all people. It would have already been interesting if you just thought of it like it was in beast where they switch places with dazai staying and chuuya betrayeing the pm. BUT TO SUGGEST THAT HE’D RUN AWAY WITH DAZAI?? THATS A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY. Because not only does this make me question what happened to make chuuya want to betray the pm but also what happened between skk..

#i dont read a lot of ada chuuya fics and the ones i have i havent finished and don’t remember them #but i still remember that the reason why chuuya leaves is bc mori always sends him on a suicide mission bc he doesnt need him anymore #or something along those lines #and im like…. no?? #why would mori do that? #like when would chuuya stop being a useful asset to the pm #and idk i think making mori the big bad villain is tiring #but then again it’s understandable bc it kinda proves that nobody has any idea why he’d leave so most ppl pick the easy but ooc option #like this is why i need a story about this #no not even a story just an explanation on why chuuya would leave #bc this is a mystery not even ranpo can solve #chuuya #chuuya bsd #dazai #dazai bsd #soukoku #skk #bsd #bungo stray dogs

[elegyofthemoon]

reading springfest now after everything in nagazora is making me crave more fu hua and mei interactions. i feel like thus far in my go through, i've never actually seen them interact, but it's kinda fun that the person who made the recommended reading order put springfest after nagazora (though of course this is probably in preparation for whatevers going on with senti/fu hua rn in ch 19)

but the way that the empyrea isolates herself so she doesn't have any attachment to those who she will outlive and how she winds up becoming lonely as a result threw me back to mei isolating herself in world serpent so that she can protect kiana and just... idk..... i think the two talk about that isolation would be interesting

also. i love fu hua. she's still at the top of my list for best character so i'm just a happy little guy getting more fu hua content now in the story :> yippee fu hua

#idk who to ramble to about honkai so hi #avil plays hi3 #ill probably liveblog my thoughts as i read through springfest and UH #blade of the empyrean! #but im excited :> then after that i gotta go through the 7 blades visual novel ^7^ that one has sushang!! i havent met her in the game yet #but i do have her !!! #its kinda interesting though because sushangs ultimate in hi3 is yanqing's ultimate in hsr. or i guess yanqing as a boss??? #idk. so im like HMMMMMMMM WHATS UP THERE WHATS GOING ON #i wonder if theres a character sorter for hi3 actually #if i had to say who my top 5 are atm for honkai #its probably like fu hua mei kiana kevin and sakura ??? #kiana is so easy. like if i loved oz vessalius how could i NOT love kiana we sure love vessel characters LJSHDFLASKDHFLAKSH #maybe its also recency effect though for mei but also. characters who isolate thinking that its the best htey could do to protect #like NO YOU IDIOT GET LOVED!!!!! GET L O V E D #they kinda get me #AND WELT I FORGOT WELT HOW COULD I DO THAT...... #i feel like welt over kevin tbh #but thats super hard to say on my end alkdjfha #YOU KNOW i wouldve also said rita because i think rita is so fun #but i still dotn know enough about her #but personality wise i think shes so funny in a very stereotypical anime villain esque way LOL #also she is so catty too like what was she doing picking a fight with natasha LKAJHDLAFKJSDFH #OH I ALSO LOVE RITA AND NATASHA... #tbh i havent run into a character that i absolutely Hate in honkai yet.... #at least not that i remember #if i hated them i probably forgot about them LMAOOOOO #like even durandal? i love durandal in the manga. she doesnt really stand out to me MUCH yet in the game but i loved her a lot in the manga #but for me durandal is low on the list for now. but that doesnt mean i dislike her i think shes cool but just hasnt done anything in #particular that caught my attention yet alskjdfahl #rambling WHOOPS ASLKJDFA

[cosmicrhetoric]

the sheer amount of manga I read in middle school is rearing back up to haunt me. like the amount of truly awful illiad length shonen/martial arts manga i not only read but was caught up with was sooooo egregious brother i was reading weekly updates of fairy tail at like 13 why was i doing that

#and that thing was NOT GOOD #i remember catching up with IPPO and being like actually proud but then i fell off immediately cause its a million chapters long #ippo wasnt awful i kinda stand by ippo. kenichi was awful though and i still read 500 chapters of that #but around where i caught up was when it really started sucking/feeling pointless so it was easy to fall off #and thats just the shounen i read waves upon waves of magical girl manga. pretty much everything except utena #which came to me later in life when i was more ready to accept it #i was caught up on my hero before it got really big too but i was def in high school for that #but yeah idk ive been thinking abt how i only really consume anime instead which doesnt make sense cause reading all the shit that im doing #like. well. one piece. would be so much faster if i just read it

[risingsunresistance]

man i can't stop thinking about this part of elise's dialogue

[NPC] Elise: I crossed the breach a little bit after Dante's defeat in our world. [NPC] Elise: While I can't be sure if the Slime was there "before" his demise, the resemblance is striking. [NPC] Elise: The wizards believe Shen employed Dante, or perhaps even created him! [NPC] Elise: Or did Shen find a way into the Rift before us? [NPC] Elise: Did he find Dante here? [NPC] Elise: Best of luck battling the infection in the Colosseum.

shen either found dante here or straight up created him. do you think dante ever wanted to do all of that. do you think dante was just a weapon. what was his life like before he was sent to the hub to do shen's dirty work. did he even have a life or was he created just to win a war or die trying. has he ever known anything else. was he a good person. if he had the chance to run would he have done it. do you think-

#im going insane man WHAT IF DANTE NEVER WANTED TO BE HERE #WHAT IF HE HAD NO OTHER CHOICE #WHAT IF THIS WAS ALL HE THOUGHT THERE WAS TO LIFE #WHAT IF HE WAS LED TO BELIEVE THIS WAS THE ONLY THING THAT COULD HAPPEN. HOW THE WORLD HAS TO BE #WHAT IF HE REALLY BELIEVED ALL THAT STUFF ABOUT KEEPING THE PEOPLE SAFE #WHAT IF SHEN TOLD HIM ALL THAT #WHO IS SHEN #I HATE YOU MINIKLOON I AM TARGETING YOU SPECIFICALLY FDKJHGK #sb #sb lore #also yes i did color code the text just like elise's dialogue. for funsies #i was gonna screenshot it but then i realized that might be hard to read on mobile bc wiki screenshots are kinda. cramped #but i wanted to keep the fun colors yippee #tbh it also makes it easy to follow. for me at least. keeping up with all the names n stuff and who is the subject of the sentence

[starlooove]

If ur blaming bad writers for why you only read WFA and fanfic…boy have I got some news for you!

#girl just say u wanna read fun shit like don’t pretend it’s genuinely that #Like if I said I don’t read fanfic I only read comics bc of bad ooc writing… #c’mon yall #and the bad writing in question is Bruce being mediocre at parenting the JL being competent and not kissing the bats asses and tim actually #having a personality that’s not easily palatable insecurities and ‘flaws’ that the masses can relate to without feeling bad about themselves #cause It’s easy for y’all to say ur overworked or do too much #It’s not easy for y’all to say ur arrogant or petty in a way that’s not ‘girl bossing’ #like can we talk about that too when y’all acknowledge Tim’s flaws it’s always in a ‘haha so real’ kinda way #Like u can never sit down and say this dude is petty and at times narrowmined and it screws him and the ppl around him over at times #It’s always ‘he’s so petty he’s real asf’ but when you talk about how weird it is to hold THAT kind of grudge against a 10 year old #now we’re victim blaming 💀 #I wouldn’t dislike fanon so much it y’all weren’t so weird about tbh #OH and god forbid the JL being competent without Bruce #god forbid they can do their fucking jobs #shocker 😱 the entire JL doesn’t revolve around Batman #most of them are not super duper intrigued by what he and his kids are doing 24/7 #woooooah #started reading GL (FINALLY SORRY) and I’m never gonna forgive what y’all did to hal Jordan 😏 #Im not fixing that emoji 😕 #BUT IM ALSO NEVER GONNA FORGIVE HOW YALL TREAT OLIVER QUEEN

[ectonurites]

oughgouhggh love is stored in The Loser's Club. anyways

#doing one of my favorite ways to consume media: experiencing multiple variants of the same story to compare and contrast #finished the book last night & the 90s miniseries 20 minutes ago. debating whether to start the Muschietti films rewatch now or tomorrow #(its 1am so the answer is tomorrow but. hehe who knows ;3) #in general im usually a 'i like to read a physical copy of a novel' kinda person but gonna be real. #doing annotations/highlighting on a digital copy was Very Nice and makes referring to them very easy #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

[mementoasts]

jonathan sims head archivist of the magnus institute london

#IM JUST POSTING HIM RANDOMLY BECAUSE I CANNOOOOOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME DRAW ANYONE ELSE. I HAVE APHANTASIA MAN IT'S HARD OUT HERE #i just started season 3 and heard him mention the graying hair i was like hm.. what if i tried drawring some characters. #i'm actually super happy with how he looks... i had some prior inspiration bc i followed one artist who's posted fanart b4-- #(which is how i first heard of the series) and so i already kinda had a picture of him in my head bc of that (i love their art sdfghgfdjh) #so i was jus sketchin and i was like.... yeah this looks ok. i wanted his hair to be kinda just pokin up every which way in front-- #--because i imagine him constantly running a hand through it. otherwise it'd look nice n tidy. i just sketched til it looked good enough #the eyes were easy because i wanted sharp and tired. the color was just me testin shit out and being like oooo that looks pretty #the outfit..... i just googled some like business casual stuff LOL. i thought it looked nice #bag and flashlight because he's dungeon crawling #he's also filipino for no reason other than i said so #OHHH YEAH freckles. freckles are cute. also worm scars. #i gotta say i didn't wanna put glasses on him but i thought he looked nakey without em.. but also it might be bc i was strugglin w lineart #the glasses make him look younger i think. which is bad!! he needs to look at least 35!!! #i dunno if i have it in me to draw the others;;;;;;;;;; martin i can't figure out a color scheme for-- and tim & sasha.... waauugghhh.... #it's hhhhaaardd because when i'm like reading anything i cannot *picture* characters.... i just get like..... a feeling yknow..... #again i already had some vague images for jon (and martin) bc i saw fanart before lol so that's what showed up in my head #i have a good *feeling* of what sasha should look like but i cannot for the life of me draw it.... #i keep sketching and going “noo this doesn't look like her” <- i DON'T know what she looks like #i've somehow instead ended up with a sketch that really feels like melanie tho lmao #if you're somehow at the bottom of this long ramble i will send you $500. #the void given form

[famewolf]

if im being honest and allowing myself to vent a bit about it ... another red flag was when the DM went 'wow i love the detail of your backstory but idk what i can do with it tho ):'

#[static] #it immediately made me feel bad for trying to make a character work with the aesthetic she had given us tbh #i could already tell she didnt seem to be super character story driven so i just made a pretty simple drifter-type #for a post-apocalyptic setting n such and made a group that tied into the whole over-arching premise #i also literally just did bullet points cuz i could tell she wasn't gonna want to read one of the backstories i usually do #and as someone who has mostly dm'd in the past i did my v best to make a character that was super easy for the dm to incorporate in any way #like a solid reason for being there a reason for wanting to adventure with strangers a reason for seeing the mission through no matter what #made a whole small faction and connected them to the overarching theme and plot in multiple ways #wrote down lore and npcs she could use for the faction if she didnt want to make up her own #like all the works and all i got was two sentences back about it ... one of them being like 'cool but i dont like the extra details' #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh #ok im done yelling now i just need to vent for a second #i feel bad for feeling kinda bummed about the experience because this is the first time i got to play at a physical table in years #and i know how hard it is to DM #but also when you come to the table with zero notes for the first session its ... probably gonna be disappointing jkfghdf #i DID have fun however because the party banter was hilarious and it was fun getting to hang out with ppl! #but communication between DM and players was not great #also let me be clear she did like that i made so many connections and hooks into the story and it helped her a lot #she was NOT interested in my character's past like ... jobs or npcs #but also u could just Not say anything about it and just be like 'sweet cool thanks for the info' LMAo