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#kill me already this shit sucks
rasta-bot · 6 months
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Thinking about former timelines subsmoke and how they ran away from the Lin Kuei together only for one of them to be caught and automated. Thinking about DOTR Cyber-Smoke being forced to hunt down his friend and Kuai Liang refusing to fight him no matter what. Thinking about Kuai Liang being haunted by the fact that he couldn't save his friend. Thinking about Cyber-Smoke remembering their friendship and protecting Kuai Liang, asking him to run away and save himself but Kuai tells him he "won't let him down this time". Thinking about how, when Stryker asks him if he's okay after Cyber-Smoke left and declared they couldn't be friends anymore, Kuai Liang only answers with "physically" because his heart is broken. Thinking about how he swears he'll meet Smoke again. Thinking about Tomáš in MK9 and how his priority, upon realizing the Cyber Lin Kuei were after them, was to check on Kuai Liang to make sure he was okay. Thinking about Tomáš witnessing Kuai Liang being captured while being unable to do anything and how dejected he looked when he realized he had failed his friend. Thinking about how Tomáš ran to deactivated Cyber Sub-Zero and cradled him in his arms, refusing to abandon him despite Raiden's belief that his human soul was gone. Thinking about how Tomáš must have sat by Cyber Sub-Zero's side the whole time Jax was trying to fix him. Thinking about Cyber Sub-Zero's first sight being Tomáš upon finally waking up.
Thinking about them while listening to Never Let Me Down by Depeche Mode even though I have exams to prepare.
🩵 I hope he never lets me down again 🩶
It's my official theme song for them, I copyrighted it.
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mrsrookhunt · 10 months
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Imagine two enemies where one confesses
Enemy 1: "I've always liked you, bastard."
Enemy 2: "No fucking shit dumbass, I like you too."
Both: "....fuck."
Now multiply that by like 15 and square it by gªy² and you've got Bungou Stray Dogs
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diabratz · 2 years
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THESE OPTIONS PLEASE HELP ME
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running-in-the-dark · 14 days
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a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)
#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have#heart disease.#scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it#but it's been years now so I don't remember the details#just that that's a thing apparently#and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that#do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :)#it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week.#like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭#also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary.#like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and#yeah it sucks.#specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't#need to say it where anyone can see#it's embarrassing enough#though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about.#like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45.#it's so unbelievably exhausting.#but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :)#oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently#that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me#haha isn't that fun :) )#ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very#well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part.#and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for#this long. so. guess I'm just fucked.#personal
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kraeuterhexchen · 7 months
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sometimes I think I should just give up on art..
#tag rambling incoming feel free to ignore ✨#I feel so out of touch with art and creativity and I hate it so much#I want to do art again so badly and want to work on stuff and do things and feel happy about creating again#but everything is so stressful and I don't find time anymore#I still want to go to uni but the deadline for the uni I want to go to (and that has rejected me last year already) -#has its application deadline in the beginning of October and I have not made a single new piece of art#sure I made doodle fanart but that's not working for an application#and idk how I am supposed to manage to do things that are good enough in 6 weeks#when they basically told me everything I worked on in over a year sucked#and I want to quit my job so so badly because my boss is a fucking dickhead and it's so stressful and I hate it#the entire graphics department is kept running by me and my one colleague.#when I started there we were 6(!) people and there was plenty enough work for everyone#This job is killing all my energy..#I tried making art but I can't get anything done. I have no ideas and that demotivates me so much#I doodle a couple of faces and throw my sketchbook across the room because all I do sucks so much#I don't allow myself to make fanart for which I /have/ ideas but that does not help me to get to where I need to go#instead I just sit there and cry in front of a blank page that I desperately want to fill#I haven't made the good omens stuff I have super cute ideas for#or have allowed myself to do the bc fan week stuff I would loooove to work on#So I think about just giving up on uni because I can't get shit done and just suffer in my job for another miserable year#In which I probably also don't get shit done. rinse and repeat#I feel like I'll just be miserable until the end of my days and sit here in my uncreative depressive sad hole and feel sorry for myself#and I know. I know that this is my depression talking but it has such a hold on me that I actually start to believe this shit#And I hate hate hate myself so much for everything and I hate my brain and my thoughts and my art and my lack of art#I really miss feeling happy and I miss creating and doing stuff I love doing#My life really sucks currently and I just want to run away into the forest and disappear forever#I also cqnnot quit my current job because there are no jobs in the area and my anxiety couldn't handle going somewhere new#I just want to allow myself my own happiness again#in case anyone was wondering why I was barely here in the past weeks (months) this is what my brain was occupied with..#personal
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daz4i · 2 months
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apologies for being edgy on main and sounding like a broken record yet again but my god. i was not built for life
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un-pearable · 1 year
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anyone got exec dysfunction hacks this assignment is stupid long and my usual strats have run out
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strwbrymlkshake · 1 year
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ohh I do want to pass away why am I so stupid
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#mine#🎸#why am i such a terrible person 😇 genuinely what the fuck#me when i want to cry and tear my skin off over a minor mistake ufhdshdjfjg can i stop being fucking stupid for once#crying over a mistake right NOW actually everything is so difficult i dont know what im supposed to do in these situations!!!!!!!#i get in trouble for not knowing what to do in social situations then i have to apologize and i didnt know THAT either.#bashing my head against the wall violence maiming killing death torture bloodletting slicing tearing defenestrating murdering annihilating#me anmd my epic autism powers. shouldnt i know better why csnt you understand!!! who is at fault here! i dont even know#ashshsjdksjfklsfke im wanna cry so hard everything sucks right now im too busy for this shit. for Emotions#why are you punishing me do you hate me?! did you never even like me at all are you trying to make me mad!!! why#im so tired and frustrated i want everything to go perfectly but its not nothing can be perfect in this terrible world he is going to hate#me now. hell why do i have urges like this it always ruins everything im being so selfish arent i aren't i arent i !!!!!!!! why cant we#be FUCKING compatible and perfect snd everything what is the problem am i the problem?!?? why cant you understsnd what im trying to tellyou#maybe it really would just be better if i died nothing good has happened or is going to happen to me since he probably hates me and#my life sucks!!!!! my face hurts from crying i cant cry properly it hurts it feels so hot why cant it end already!!!!!!! why cant#we be perfect like we are supposed to why cant you UNDERSTAND it seems easy to understand to ME whwueh i am mortified my throat hurts#my head hurts i hate this world why couldnt i resist why did i have to be vulnerable id be better off if. well i dont know#i do want to crush bones and flesh beneath my hands to be honest i dont KNOW i thought it was going well i thought it was good#the thread i am hanging on by is quite thin actually why do i care so much why do i care so little im going to explode right meow!!!#my mood is so ruined i dont know if im even used to this whole thing i cannot get in particular moods im so. rgrhrhggr none of this post#is going to make sense i just need to say words while crying then itll be fine probably#this is just another one of god's little tests i think that everyone will hate me no matter what in the end so i have to enjoy it while#it lasts. no matter how hard i try everything always ends up the same way. all this started because of my mistakes and itll end with them
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godhex · 6 months
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the one time i wish the fandom was bigger
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bastardwhoisnamedrat · 7 months
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I feel so fucking bad man
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galariangengar · 4 months
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I was given today off while my schedule gets fixed for this week since I honestly can’t be on registers cuz I basically have no training… I’m still fucking mad and pissed off at everything with fucking Macy’s. I can’t even concentrate on working on stuff for my online class or bring myself to do anything else. I’m so fucking tired and stressed, and I better hear by the end of today about my new schedule for this week
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autistickaitovocaloid · 8 months
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Went to play the first Project Diva game because there were some dlc songs that aren't any other of the psp games that I had an itching for, so I go boot up 1/6 out of gravity and then in shock and horror I remember that Hatsune Miku: Project Diva (2009) only uses the action buttons for input.
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glitterhoof · 9 months
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i didnt like nightbirds redesign tho. maybe because im biased 4 my own design of her. leav me alone. im mourning air razor okay
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besottedlyyours · 9 months
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Said I'd never touch physics in the rest of my life after boards
Now I'm going for entrance coaching
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artekai · 9 months
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Honestly "I could give you the world but you'd poison the seas" is Frosscore enough that it could apply to most people who have ever cared about him. But also, it should clearly be about Lis. Combine that with Aloy's "Elisabet is the only reason you even have a planet to return to" for greater impact. Boom
#not to be obsessed with not only my own playlists but also my own writing but. man. poetic cinema#starting to think that the reason fross is always self-sabotaging is because he's already convinced that everything will inevitably go wron#and instead of waiting for it to catch him off guard he just. poisons it a little himself first.#and maybe then it won't hurt as much when shit does hit the fan!#(< look at this dumbass (me) having the exact same realization about my characters five separate times bc my memory sucks 😔)#but just look at his history. every time he tried to do something the right way in earnest it got fucked up for reasons out of his control#so. i could see it. why put in the effort to do things the right way if he's gonna get disappointed in the end?#it's almost like the hurdles that he himself creates are a test. and smth can only be worth pursuing if it can endure those hurdles first#it makes sense why his redemption arc starts once he's stuck on earth and he's like.#''ok now nemesis is gonna kill me for sure. there is nothing i can do to make this situation any worse. guess i'll wash the dishes fml''#lol#but i also think about pre-apocalypse fross practically begging tilda to let him have something that's uniquely his. even if it sucks#(putting a pin on fross's anxieties about being cloned and his disdain towards aloy and beta in that regard)#because he feels like he's always been pulled by external forces and he doesn't know how to break free. doesn't think he even WANTS to#because it's all he's ever known. and stepping outside of his comfort zone is scary :')#but of course he doesn't have the emotional awareness to even be aware of any of that lmao. pity#oc: fross#oc tag#ramble#anyways. sorry i put the meat of this post in the tags. i didn't expect to write this much lol
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todayisafridaynight · 10 months
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i think i would have gone loco if jo and aoki got to meet up just once after ichi breaks through to him like. the damage to my psyche id have wouldve been immeasurable, irreparable even
#snap chats#im at the vet waiting for my dog please listen to shit thats been tormenting me for months#finally releasing all of my drafted thoughts im ill and im free#srry i know i talked bout it already in todays ask but im still thinking about it#this is also inspod by one of my twitter mutuals saying aoki’s death was the only foreseeable path for him like girl i thought we were fam#but no 😭 ill stand by forever that him dying was legit so dumb and unnecessary idc idc 😭#anyway. let me begin. because its not as if aoki wasnt conscious of jo constantly tailing him#take a shot every time i quote the Lost Dog comment its just such a good line and just exposes jo its my everything ok leave me alone#but please just like. in the weird timeline where jo and aoki did get to be cellmates- or at least were in the same cell block right#id throw up and cry if aoki looked at jo differently that day. like it doesnt help that jo’s without all his flash and flair#hes just in slacks and his hairs all tussled and he just looks So Normal. like hes Not a murderer#as soon as that warden bring aoki in i know jo movin to see him with all the love and concern only a father got#aokid never say sorry i just know hed be awkward as hell in jo’s presence now#like if aoki really did take ichis words to heart and starts to actually see jo as his family and as someone who cares about him for him#id kill myself on the spot thats why they had to kill aoki#no id die and throw up if aoki just outright asks jo if he does care about him or something like that#jo gonna need to muster up every ounce of his will to say he does not because he doesnt but because hes Just Like That. hes a hard nut#but he loves his kid more than anything and im gonna tear my organs out thinking about it#jo your kid sucks but ik you still love him thats the worst part#i wanna write or draw somethin with them in jail together so bad but i always get distracted#and again i have comms to do today.#OH BUT SPEAKING OF MY DUMB ASS DOG GOT LYME DISEASE 😭😭😭#they said he should be fine in like six months if we’re good with meds but still.... this is lame.....#ALSO I FOUND OUT MY POM MIX IS PREDOMINANTLY A PAPILLON..... thats fucked up yo butterfly dog...#ok im gonna go be insane idk how much else i could elaborate on this bye bye
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