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angrybatart · 1 month

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"Say pal, you don't look so good. You better find something to eat before night comes!"

The past few times I tried to play as him resulted in me dying in hilarious ways, but I haven't tried playing the updated version of him yet. 😵 Too little health, and I remember his shadow servants being dumb as rocks.

#fanart #sketch #wip maybe #Don't Starve #Don't Starve Together #DST #Maxwell #DST Maxwell #William Carter #The Puppet Master #if his health wasn't so low he could almost be op when it comes to managing sanity #you could do endless darkness/night runs with him #or underground runs #TRIED to not make him a Hazbin Hotel style twink #I COULD just draw him with normal hands #but I like him having the clawed shadow hands #next time I draw him I'll do normal hands. I promise. maybe #wish there were more text options! this is freaking Maxwell ffs #he NEEDS fancy spooky text!

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storfulsten · 6 months

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my silly viera wol alt bc reasons uwu

#very messy tablet doodle could be better but eh it's something lol #anyways ye this is my edgy bunboi alt whom I like very much #it's about the vibes #I guess #if you don't get the vibes then congratulations I envy you I wish I wasn't so hung up on them tbh geez #ye he's silly af but I'm just having fun so lol #and really he doesn't look all that silly ingame I'm just projecting nonsense quite a lot I guess ha #his hair is actually black with purple details not all dark purple but I improvised and it ended up like that so eh #it works I suppose #he ninja'd his way up through hw danced through sb and is now reaping his way through shb and beyond yeehaw #shame his favorite facemask is bound to ninja only though bc the one he has to use as reaper is so clunky but eh it works #and there's always the bandana options for variety I guess ha #gonna continue through shb with this guy soon when I get the time #catboy's 'bout to ruin this poor bunman's life even more letsgooo #anyways enough random rambling sorry #enjoy or don't it's whatever #ffxiv viera #wol #idk if I should tag the finger flipping but eh let me know if I should I guess idk lol #I draw what I want #also unrelated but go stream DISDAIN on your platform of choice or don't I'm not your mom but either way yay music highly recommend yessir #anyways next artpost will be bombeep or at least fnf related in some way I swear to jeebus #fingers crossed something'll be doodled soon yeehaw

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stuff-diary · 3 months

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I think this week's episode of PJO might be my favorite one yet!

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sysig · 13 days

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One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax!#Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!!#It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!!#Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u;#Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to -#Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/#It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :')#Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone?#''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔#That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :)#I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol)#I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers!#Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

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beesinspades · 9 months

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i'm very :3 because the dark urge being fully customizable might be thanks to my very enthusiastic suggestion as a playtester.....I mean maybe other playtesters who came after me (my group was apparently the first to try the dark urge out, at least in gent, because the group before us didn't even know that origin existed) suggested it too, I don't know, but :3 even if I'm just one of the people who suggested it, I'm :3 because HELL YEAAAAH!!!!

I loved the dark urge so much (even though I couldn't finish my playthrough with them, since they were my second playthrough of the playtest) that i was like "this is too good, since they're not a companion origin story u guys need to make it possible to play them as any race not just the dragonborn variations"

AND THEY DIIIIID i'm so happy!!!!

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bee talks #I legit screamed when they said it during the last panel from hell #finally i can talk about this #me playing with my customized dark urge character: HEHEHEHE THIS IS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTEEED #also insane to see my name in the credits like wow #also idk maybe it was always planned for the dark urge to be fully customizable but #during my playtest they could only be a dragonborn #and all the promo art/etc is the dragonborn #so I assume it wasn't??#wish my memory wasn't so bad because i suggested it at least twice but i don't remember if i did it only in written form or aloud as well #in which case they didn't tell me 'oh yeah we were already gonna do that' because i would've remembered that at least #ANYWAY ANYWAY #I'M JUST EXCITED #also i might have something to do with the alchemy window #because there wasn't any and i was the idiot with no healer in my party whatsoever so i was relying on potions and so on day 2 or 3 #I complained that alchemy wasn't intuitive enough and the dev looked at the other dev like 'oh yeah we could ask to add that'#'shouldn't be too hard'#and then two weeks later they asked us to focus some of our feedback on alchemy specifically #but tbh i doubt i was the first and only one who suggested an alchemy window because god crafting straight from the inventory was HELL #it was all trial and error digging in the inventory trying to find the components #and there was no alchemy pouch. and no 'automatic' recipes. pain and suffering #lastly: if we get an ace character / ace romance options in the next divinity game: you're welcome #anyway sorry what are these tags god i can't shut up can i #i'm just so happy i got to have a small tiny part in this amazing game!!!#it's wonderful seeing everyone enjoying it so much the devs are so passionate and worked so hard!!!#and I'm having a blast too playing it without all the bugs and unfinished cutscenes bahahaha #BG3 GOTY!!!!!

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sonego · 3 months

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can i complain about my life again promise you all won't hate me

#(i know everyone already does most likely so i'll do it and just feel bad about it but)#it's not that i don't love my family and i'm not happy to go back home to have dinner w them and all but #god after like 3 hours i'm already exhausted #i feel bad about it but they're just SO exhausting and this house is SO suffocating #i did it i left i did it. why do i still feel trapped #quite literally can't even stomach watching football rn bc i just wanna sit in the dark under my blanket and fucking. idk. cry maybe #and it makes it all so much worse that it's so painfully obvious my mum is tired and probably sad and surely fed up w my father (and my #brother to a lesser extent)#every time i come home i just wanna say sorry. sorry i left you. sorry you're alone. you're not alone but you're alone against the world #and she dismisses my worrying bc ofc she does and i do the same with her worries we've played this dance all our lives #it's just. how do you let someone worry about you when you both know there's nothing you can do to make it better #when you both know the source of the misery and exhaustion is inescapable #god i wish it was. like. i wish this was a movie. where people actually help you in these situations. where there isn't that BIG big big #obstacle that feels wrong to even call an obstacle but it will always forever make it impossible to do anything about the problem #i wish the people who said they'd help gave even half a shit and actually did (it was their fucking job)#going from sad to angry to hopeless to exhausted every 4 seconds i'm so #the thing is i'm not gonna stop coming back home you know? i'm not i can't #i don't even want to #but i wish it wasn't so fucking soul crushing every time bc i don't wanna keep having tiring tiring weeks #and then go back home on weekends and feel the opposite of rested #ok. i should shut up. sorry. i really don't know why i'm even alive atm #delete later #i never remember to delete these (when i remember to tag them in the first place)

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merevide · 8 months

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#this song is SOOOO serious to me like there was a time where it wasn't even on spotify #youtube and soundcloud were my only hopes and every day i wished for it on spotify. and then it came<3 #like. all my life i've been so lonely. all in the name of being holy.#and still you'd like to think you own me. you keep buying stars.#and u could buy up all the stars but it wouldn't change who you are #you're still living life in the dark. it's just who you are. it's just who you are.#btw if u even care. this song needs 5 billion streams stat. one of the songs that are integral to me. unfortunately #god i still get the melancholy moods when i listen to it like i need to find my nearest window and just ponder. hope for rain #marina atd #my text

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sensitivegoblin · 5 months

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Vent

#unsafe vent #I really wish I was dead #my dad is putting so much stress onto me to 'make up' with my sister #which means I gotta apologize to her because SHE read MY personal PRIVATE journal #my family doesn't want me to kill myself and I don't know why #if I was dead no one would be around to make all of you upset #God I'm losing people left and right all I wanna do is go to sleep and never wake up #my dad said such nasty things that night when I needed him #what is the point of therapy if he's just gonna shit on it any chance he gets #I love my family but I wish that they would understand #I told my dad that I was so upset that I wanted to bang my head into the ground #and he said 'you gotta control that.'#what a fucking smart cunty bitch you are!!!!!!! yes I do!!! if only I had someone I could trust to help me!!!!!!!#if I wasn't so scared of Hell I would've been dead by now #I can't even cut cus my stupid razor sucks ass #I get why people do hard drugs now lmao #I would never but the urge to snort and swallow random shit to feel something is rising #I would drink but it gets me so sick it's not worth it #I'm in such a bad mental health spot all I can think about is how easy it would be for someone to take advantage #I dunno how to describe it but it's very dark :(#the only way I can make this all go away is if once again I take the blame #I wish I was more confident I was going yo heaven so I could just end it

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magentagalaxies · 10 months

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touched grass today!! was very delightful 10/10 recommend

#by which i literally mean my improv troupe held practice outside today bc even tho it was super hot outside #we wanted to take advantage of being able to go outside at all (air quality fluctuating. plus winters here are super bad)#so any time i wasn't in a scene i just decided to completely lay down in the grass #and honestly? great sense of whimsy i wish i remembered to do that more #i got a lot of bug bites today but i don't think most were from that (i'd guess they were from staying to chat after it got dark)

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aw-bean-s · 1 year

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My friend came back from uni for a bit so we had lunch and she's been struggling a bit w body image and I was trying to be a supportive friend without telling her how many crisis I've had over her being hot

#Like. Issa problem.#Litcherally caught myself thinking 'she should date women bc she's like catnip to lesbians'#She's tanky and short and plays football and has sparkly dark brown eyes and she takes care of her hair so it's super soft and smells nice #She's just?? Stupid hot??? In like the carabiner on the belt loop kinda way but also in the oh my god her smile way #And ALSO in the 'I saw her wearing a dress one time and could not get over how good she looked' way #She also has all of these funky earrings to the point where she packed a 1kg bag of them for uni and that wasn't even all of them #She's going to major in astronomy (has to do engineering first) so she can point out constellations and tell you cool space facts #Literally like THINK of the observatory and/or stargazing dates potential???#She can also COOK so so soooo well #This woman is a DREAM nd ppl were so mean to her in high school and all I have to say is that ladies need to take note okay #Typing this all out I realise makes me sound like I'm in love w her and. Yeah yknow what I got no comeback to that #I don't think I am but girl is a catch and so fucking hot and DOES NOT see it! Which sucks! I wish she could!#Because she is so cool and wonderful and amazing and it sucks that her self esteem has been affected by other people's bullshit!#But yeah anyway anybody want a girlfriend like I can set you up w my friend

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humanmorph · 10 months

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also I really don't go enough to the movie theater I mean it's cuz it's expensive and/or not showing that many movies I wanna see but oooohhh I love. A big fucking screen

#It's always so funny to me when they show advertisements I'd like roll my eyes at or simply skip online #But sitting in the dark with a big screen it's like waaaahh. Wooah (seeing an extremely cheesy ad for a health insurance company)#And then a big screen with great visuals & sound like spiderverse. Just hits different #Rosa rambles #Ughhhh that movie was so good for real #I wish it wasn't only showing the original version 1 more night (Wednesday) ... I wanna show my sister #I lent her my DVD of the first movie today

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tarraxahum-ish · 1 year

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one would think I'd be glad to be potentially offered my old job back in the midst of a crisis and having absolutely no job perspectives

but I've been crying (I'd say full on whailing) and trying very hard not to throw up for 6,5 hours now

and I'd very much like my fucking body/psyche/nerves/whoever the fuck is doing this TO STOP

#it's not even for certain i haven't even actually said yes MY EYES HURT #I've ate all the variants of sedatives we have at the house but they are all non-prescription so they don't do shit about my nuclear anxty #I've drunk alcohol and stabilized for like an hour tops before that got burned out from my system by this hysteria as well #I should go to sleep but the thought of going to lie in the dark and silence with THIS hell in my head makes me nauseated #god you idiot just stop ALL YOUR OTHER OPTIONS ARE MOSTLY WORSE #also not to mention that maybe it won't even happen maybe we won't agree on conditions NOTHING HAS HAPPENED YET #but my everything is throwing a tantrum like I'm starting tomorrow jesus fucking christ #the thought of waking up tomorrow and having to potentially continue this discussion makes me wish to never wake up at all #AND I'M USUALLY NOT THE ONE TO HAVE THOSE THOUGHTS #it wasn't even THAT bad (although I quit for a reason and they SEEM to be aware of that reason #allegedly #anyway this is not the time and place to be fucking dying over yet here my ass is #freaked out beyond measure by the slightest possibility that her comfy-ass remote homey life can change back #god and the fucking position would actually be so easy if I was able to 1. establish firm boundaries and 2. not give a shit #BUT I WILL GIVE A SHIT AND DESTROY MYSELF ON COMPANY TIME AGAIN #I KNOW I WILL #FUCK FUCK FUCK JUST SHOOT ME #nothing happened yet you absolute MORON #SHUT UP #uuuh #tw suicide ment #kinda??? better save than sorry lol #i don't wanna die i just want to Stop Existing it's too different things #*two

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nightingaletrash · 1 year

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just doing some assassinations, don’t mind me :)

#oblivion #aerrun #man the oblivion dark brotherhood has such good contracts #just wish the gameplay wasn't quite so... floaty? i dunno a better way to describe it #stealth in these games is never as good as it could be. yeah they're not dedicated stealth games #but hey if tesvi ever comes out i'd like to think that maybe those systems be more indepth #probably not but eh i can hope

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eggmeralda · 8 days

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i'm lucky my obsession with remembering everything peaked from late 2013 - early 2016, bc the phone i had during that time hasn't been able to turn on for years and i'm still in denial about it

#the light doesn't even come on when i charge it #my sister had the same phone at the same time and her one turns on so it's definitely a my phone problem #i got it to turn on once a few years ago? idk when though. it was definitely like in my 20s so at least 4 years ago #or maybe i was 19. idek. 18 even? it was recent enough though #in fact no i really have vibes it was 2021. but it hasn't turned on since #and i swear to god if it ever gets confirmed i've lost everything on there i'm going to die #schrodinger's phone data i guess #but yeah so luckily i made such a big deal of remembering Everything in the first half of my teens bc that's the only time of my life i #can't access #i just wish i could read my notes from when i was 14 though #they were awful bc i was so cringe by default. bc i was 14.#but they were Historical #i remember when i read them a few years ago there was the bit when i was gonna see the who in december 2014 but then it got postponed #bc roger daltrey was ill and it was like 2 days before i was meant to see them and my life was depending on it bc i was already so depresse #and in my notes it was all like ''my mind has reached the absolute bottom my soul has become dark eternally'' or something like that #it wasn't worded like that it was probably like 70% more incoherent bc i basically spoke a different language at that age but still #it was SO good like 14yo what are you actually on about #after i die i'll be able to access it #along with swag and bitter's fully readable tflu blogs and every 60s episode of coronation street available to watch whenever i want #i mean when i die i'll be able to go back to the actual time and witness my 14yo self being Like That #so there's that to look forward to i guess #but anyway #does anyone know anything about an htc wildfire s btw #ramble

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cinnamon-notes · 1 month

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my own father referred to the time where i was with my ex as my "dark year" i can't say it didn't hurt :')

#he's right though #and i WISH it were just a year #it was a year and several months more #also- it makes me feel so sad that even he cant say out loud what did happen #not even my father can say “when you were with her” and i cant either cuz when i tell people about something that happened around that time #and they ask me more about the circumstances and i have to say that i was in a relationship i get hurt because i dont wanna remember or talk #or not even mention it #it WAS my dark year #i officially extended my second lukes dark day to a whole year lmao #and ofc im watching the lukes dark day episode of gg cuz i mean- today's the day my dark year started and last year i wasn't aware AT ALL #that that date was going to be the beginning of my dark year #cinnamon notes #cinnamon diary

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aitsuheart · 2 months

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I never played the mobile games but I watched the cutscenes

I think a lot of people do that

but I remember watching them for all those hours straight no break

at one point I was getting tired from reading and staring at my screen for so long that I almost fell asleep

but I had to skip it back 10-30 minutes because of this

I'm glad that one group who is dubbing it though it makes it easier to watch

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