#just idk it seems very quick

[pro-sipper]

What do proshippers generally believe about shipping real people? Stuff like creator x creator or celebrity x reader?

That it falls under the umbrella of "you should be allowed to write anything you want". Once again, it's not my personal thing. There's no real life pairing I read for, and the whole "blank x reader" is not appealing to me at all.

But I have no problem with people writing that stuff, or knowing it's out there. I saw someone a while back say that it's basically just writing about another character, and I agree with that. No matter how much a creator posts or how open a celebrity seems with their personal life, we're still only seeing a tiny snippet of their lives. We have no clue who they are when the cameras aren't recording because we just don't know them. And whatever someone chooses to write about is mostly stemming from that particular persona that they happen to put on for the world and that's it. It's completely separate from our reality because they're basically just writing about another made up character

The problem I have, and it's what I imagine most proshippers also take issue with, is when people start blurring the lines between fiction and reality. To me, there's a world of difference between posting something on ao3, and speculating on secret relationships in the comments of someone's youtube video. Or between talking about something on tumblr, and tagging the person directly on twitter.

I just don't understand people who condemn rpf and talk about how gross and invasive it is, but think it's funny to tag celebrities on twitter to bring up (what they think is) cringe-worthy fanfic tropes that people have written them into. Or people who print out fanworks to shove into an actor's face at a meet and greet and ask them what they think about it. That's where the lines get crossed, to me.

I think ao3 and tumblr still have an air of mysticism to them. A little secrecy, a little privacy. In the sense that someone in the public eye would have to put in a little work to find this stuff for themselves. They'd have to go to the site and search themselves up to find anything. As opposed to just about anyone in the world being able to force this content in their line of sight with a simple @ on a site like twitter.

So to me the problem isn't that this content exists. The problem is when people don't know how to keep fandom stuff private. Write all the rpf you want but remember at the end of the day these are real people, not your blorbos. You don't know them. It's inappropriate to say these things to them personally (which yes, also includes tagging them on twitter or in the comments of their videos). But it's also inappropriate to run up to them with other people's content just to say "look what these FREAKS wrote about you!!" And I think people either forget or just genuinely don't care about the latter.

#proship #proshippers #pro ship #proshippers please interact #proshipper #proshipping #rpf #real person fiction #asks #anonymous #sip rambles #i know its so much crazier in this day and age than when i was a kid #with social media and stupid stuff like tiktok basically being a requirement of the job it seems #and celebs posting constantly and having a quick way to interact with fans #or content creators whose entire brand exists on social media apps like tiktok #who seem to be posting 24/7 and broadcasting their whole lives #and i know most of those types of creators mostly have younger followers who probably do very easily get sucked into #feeling like they know that person like thats their friend #and i also dont think that type of creator really discourages those feelings bc... they want followers and $$$ #but idk just write your fic and read it or dont do either and just leave celebs alone irl please please please

[lurking-latinist]

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#I also keep seeing modern au aubrey-maturin art #that makes me wish I could draw and thereby contribute #unfortunately I can't even *write* modern aus generally. but I like transferring character dynamics from place to place in my brain #and I feel like I could do a university AU very nicely if I could do AUs at all #because I have had rowers in my class with as far as I could tell jack's exact personality #(unfortunately it has to be a US university AU because (a) that's what I know and (b) afaik nobody else does randomly assigned roommates) #(and I cannot pass up the opportunity for randomly assigned roommates. #OR RATHER #for 'you seem more or less human - quick let's request each other so we don't have to go into potluck' #I think that works best) #(but maybe they are both international students anyway. that works fine. & therefore extremely alarmed by potluck [can't say they're wrong] #sophie is a sorority girl. english major I think. and I can see her so clearly #(she's the part I want to draw) #she's not that into the high-octane social schedule her sorority expects her to have #but her pushy mother was a member and it is Unthinkable that sophie should not be #and a lot of the other girls are sweet :) so it's fine :) she says #feel like she has roommate issues (unlike her original self she is able to live away from mrs williams so this makes up for that) #so she's always over in jack and stephen's room. people who know her tangentially sometimes gossip about which one she's actually dating #(at that particular moment it is actually neither of them she's just hanging out with stephen) #diana freed from the shackles of 19th century womanhood creates even more and weirder drama than in canon #idk I just want to see the plot of post captain played out over text message #don't ask me HOW idk HOW i just want it #stephen is a biology major/pre-med obvs. if he can survive organic chemistry #jack is some kind of engineering major. I think he'd enjoy that with the math. diana has changed her major 7 times #(I don't know whether to put jack in rotc. I don't think it Actually actually fits - he's in the navy in canon because he's in the navy #not bc he's Inevitably Military In All Worlds. he would not want to do that if he didn't get to sail #but at the same time I find it hard to picture him not belonging to Discipline somehow. #it's more than a disinterested passion for cleanliness that drives him to wash stephen's mug for him that has had coffee and ramen in it #(and NOT in that order) #in the bathroom sink

[lilbirdblu]

maybe its because i was really into kpop & a part of the community prior to QSMP so i always feel the need to wait for context, clarification, or an explanation before deciding how i feel about something a non-english CC says

i truly hope i can say this in a way that makes sense, and in no way do i intend any offense with this, but i feel as though a lot of people within this community, from all sides, need to truly understand that they are consuming and engaging with content and creators that speak a different language than they do. yes, majority of the CCs do speak a common language but the QSMP community needs to realize that they still come from a different part of the world so there are going to be things lost in translation and cultural context that we, as outsiders to that culture, are most likely unaware of until we learn otherwise

so it is even more harmful to immediately jump the gun and harass creators prior to any clarification

should we hold creators accountable? 1000%, absolutely

should we immediately dog pile them for something they said? no

if something makes you raise your eyebrows and instinctively go into 'cancelation mode', its perfectly okay to instead go "hey, what did this creator mean/what is the context?"

as the consumer it is up to you to acknowledge that at times, you will not have all the context, whether situationally or culturally. as the consumer it is up to you to acknowledge that at times, you will be ignorant. while not entirely impossible, it would be incredibly rare for any of us to completely understand the complexities of ALL of the languages and cultures involved at all times.

which leads into why the QSMP is so important: it's bridging the gap between cultures/languages/communities but that gap will be infinitely harder to close if we dont have the patience and humility to acknowledge other viewpoints and experiences of the world and to admit when we dont understand something outside of our own, whether its positive or negative

just because you dont understand something does not mean that your character or allyship is called into question--it simply means that youve encountered something outside your own word experience and is a good opportunity to learn about other parts of the world, other experiences and viewpoints and cultures

and at its core, qsmp is about learning to understand people that are different from you despite any sort of barrier, but you will not come to understand one another if you do not allow the time to ask questions, listen, and allow yourself to be educated on things outside of your own culture & experience

#small rant #*stares at only english-speaking side of QSMPtwt* #tbh ive mostly seen this come from twt & not tumblr #but that.........seems to be an issue across any fandom not just QSMP #twt is VERY quick to immediately jump on the criticism bandwagon without any sort of context but ESP for non-native english speakers #but idk dude #it just bothers me a lot cus to me it just...seems obvious... #'this person grew up in a culture that is not my own and their native language is not one im fluent in' #so yeah im gonna wait for context/an explanation before criticizing them and even then its probs not my place depending on whats goin on #to me thats just 1+1=2

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

cell block tango but it's the ace attorney women who killed men (who deserved it to varying degrees and in some cases not at all)

#like mimi could have an EXCELLENT solo about dr turner #and you really feel for her #dahlia is the same but at some point along the way she starts to sound a little insane but it's unclear where that point is #bc one thing led to another for her and the more people she silenced the more other people she had to silence bc they knew something #and she can't seem to decide if and when she started to enjoy it but she wants you to think she enjoys it bc she wants you to be scared #bc actually SHE'S scared she is very prey animal rage #you're left unsure how to feel abt her by the end of her solo but you can't say you don't sympathise #cammy meele is there but behind the mask of haha funny sleepy girl who gets away with slacking off bc she's hot #is a woman who just wanted some quick and easy cash and planned to just do one crime one time to get rich quick #and then quit this stupid job and live comfortably for the rest of her life #thinking it wasn't THAT big a deal and it was very unlikely for her to get caught #but then it turned out this smuggling ring went way deeper than she thought #and now it's either her or the interpol agent. so she does it. she just wanted to live deliciously was it too much to ask #dee vasquez is there too of course #april may is there bc she didn't get to kill a man but boy did she want to #and then there's calisto. who fucking knows what her motivation was. does she even know? all i know is her solo is gonna be INSANE #idk what to tag this as im just gonna not im so burned out rn lmao

[brainworm-blitz]

happy ace week to all the aces that were actually horrified/devastated to realize they were ace. btw.

I love u.

#asexual #asexual week #aegosexual #demisexual #i am speaking to all under the umbrella im just at work and have to be quick with tags sorry loves #if u got euphoria or validation or happy emotions on ur discovery congrats!!! super glad for u honestly #personally though i legitimately wanted to kms lowkey #like it was so incomprehensibly devastating to me #gritting my teeth and learning to accept myself whether i want to or not #idk it just seems like everyone else was relieved to hear it or something to that effect #it was just the 'first' (read: first one to be recognized) lgbt identity i ever found myself in #and yet even with everyone i see talking about experiences that ive never related more strongly to i still feel very Othered for it #i simply cant share in the joy. or at least im trying very hard to. #idk. im whiny. #brainworm posting

[fellhellion]

the 2099 timeline is wonky as hell (without even talking about retcons), but there's something very interesting to me abt the implication that Miguel torpedoing his relationship with Xina and Gabriel feasibly coincides w George and Conchata's divorce (plus her subsequent institutionalisation).

#coupled w the catalyst of xina meeting her parents and miguel bailing from that trip (and the implied seriousness that kind of meetup would #have for their relationship imo) #ALSO the very interesting implication that george's death may have happened almost instantly prior to the begining of 2099 #and what connections we can draw between that and miguel's own rebellion against Stone (even before being spidered) #all of this is based on Dana's line that she first met George just after the divorce and considering her relation to Gabriel I just think i #makes the most sense for him to have not met her before if these events happened in quick succession #while Miguel has no love for George - his comment about the 'type' of women Miguel seemed to date (as a teenager is the implication) implie #he at least would know about those relationships? even if they werent serious and he didnt really care #i mean. all of this gets complicated by retcons and other wonky timeline implications but idk #this idea is very interesting to me #there was plausibly a lot of background destabalisation happening in miguel's life even with just #his own agency when it came to nuking those relationships #tunes talks 2099

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 15: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should purchase some new shoes for himself while he's in the city...

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It costs quite a bit of coin, but in the end he decides that having a new sturdy pair of boots will serve him well on his travels. After he's done in the shop, he rushes back to the local inn before nightfall, eventually settling into a somewhat restless sleep..

The next morning, he orders some cheap vegetable stew from a food stall, then lounges in a park as he has his breakfast, watching the squirrels weave through flowering trees and birds pecking about in the dewy grass.. When finished with his meal (and sufficiently recovered from the emotional turmoil of burning his tongue on the soup), he quickly sells his old pair of shoes to a sketchy pawn shop before finally getting back to his journey...

By his calculations, if he he walks all day, it should only be two more sleeps before he gets to his destination, so he sets out to travel as efficiently as possible. He doesn't have the money to rent a cart, or the skill to ride a borrowed horse, but, he does have some fancy new walking shoes and a renewed sense of purpose. No more meandering through fields looking for flowers, napping in the shade, or scanning the ground for cool rocks.. He's going to focus this time!

......After a few hours, he comes across a broken down carriage in the middle of the road, with few people surrounding it, seemingly stuck trying to repair a wheel or something. It's hard to discern from afar..

Maybe if he helps them, he could get a free ride.. or some coins.. or make a new lifelong friend! Who knows? Possibilities flood his mind, this is what adventuring is all about! Wandering into interesting situations and making the most out of them!! .. But, then he recalls his previous oath.. he's supposed to focus today and not allow himself to sidetracked.. And who says he has the skills to help anyway? It could always just be a waste of time... Hmm...

What should he do?

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Additional Information

the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #poll #polls #choose your own adventure #GHWOOPPPs yeah it's been an entire month basically since the last one ghj.. I said I was trying to get back on schedule.. idk what happened #I guess I initially thought that april would be a less busy month but then it actually ended up being MORE busy with a ton of appointments #and stuff so then I had like no time. on top of trying to get a lot of other stuff done... so.. eughhh #I DO STILL want to keepon track of this more though. I want to at least get him to the abandoned castle so he can complete #his quest. I think like. the first poll a lot of people seemed to like and care about and participate in so it was kind of like 'oh! cool! #it can be a fun collaborative story with a lot of people!' but then gradually less people participate or care so then I kind of allow mysel #to slack with it as well liike 'oh its fine if I miss a day or two here and there' which then turns into a month when I have other stuff #to do lol. Because it does still take time. like maybe 2 hours to put a post together. even if the art and writing is relatively rushed and #quick. Especially since polls are not editable once posted so half the time is just proofreading the post and tags 15 times #just to make super sure there's no errors or etc. lol.. But trying to clear two hours of time during an already hectic day for something #that generally speaking very few people are engaged with or care about at all when it's meant to be interactive (like with normal art #or costumes or other stuff I do - low interaction doesnt bother me since that's not the point/it's not as relevant. but with an actual poll #you do want like.. the most poeple possible to vote on it etc. lol) so it's like.. ehhh #I was originally thinking like 'oh i could do this for an entire year and tell like a whole story and it'd be cool to see where it ends #up eventually after so long and the community kind of choosing the direction of everything!' but now its like 'well people care significant #ly less about the following polls than they did the first one so maybe not As Big Of A Thing but I do at least want to finish the current #thing going on' etc. I mean if in the next few posts it becomes More Of A Thing then it's very fluid. I could do it for longer #but with the way things are looking it's like. is it worth the time investment when i ALSO have 800 other creative projects I'm meant to be #working on?? etc. etc. ANYWAY though.. Still there will probably be at least 10 or however many more since there's still like 1-2 more days #before he even gets to the castle plus then doing things AT the place. #I want to continue his journey!!!!! I also have just felt sick and weird and so unfocused for a while eughhh.. sorry #OO I almost forgot about his injury from the fight. i had to just add it in the last moment lol.. SEE this is why I proofread 100 times #I can't edit polls so they have to be Correct the first time.. ueghhh

[seagullcharmer]

DREAMS MAY BE COMING TRUE

#libra.txt #went to a con couple weeks ago. got johnny yong bosch to sign some abyss art #i sighed wistfully thinking abt the other abyss vas i would want to sign that art (twas the full party) #(i think i posted it here but can't remember for sure) #anyway. going to another con in may #been planning this for months but the guest list is constantly being updated #BUT!!! JADE AND LUKE VOICE ACTORS WILL BE THERE!!!!!!!! #for now at least. things are always subject to change #BUT!!! IF THEY'RE THERE. I'LL HAVE HALF THE PARTY SIGNED #then i will have to hunt down the girls' voice actors. and mieu #idk if they ever do cons. BUT HOPE IS ALIVE #it was so funny. scrolling the guest list absently #sees kirk thornton's face. squints. does a quick search. HEY #like i don't really care all that much abt celebrities. i don't like keeping up with people i don't know #but tales of the abyss is so special to me.......... #and getting to meet the vas and tell them how special that game is and hopefully hear them remember it fondly as well....... #like jyb was just super busy that night. he wasn't supposed to be signing again but he was very nice. didn't get to talk much but #he seemed happy that abyss fans are still out here #anyway. tentatively keeping hopes up

[maedaze]

leighton murray you will always be trans coded to me .........................

#ms “im really good at hormone shots” #its ok................ #like her explanation being the fact that she “did her moms botox injections” does not!! make sense!! u cant just do that at home!!!!!!!!!!! #very much seemed like “heres a quick on the fly explanation for my knowledge without telling rhe truth” #she was horrified of the way being publicly gay would change who she is !!!!! #if people knew she was trans itd damage her chances of just being who she is. she'd be terrified that itd turn into all she is #/all headcanon #but #idk maybe im just evil and biased #not putting fandom tags on this. i fear my life. #cope with it #i love u leighton murray come home soon

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about #but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were #and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat #as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like #a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain #it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot #i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds #i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh #political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore #they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get #but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk #i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers #here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now #it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths #i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how #burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that #i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up #could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan? #to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me #coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage #you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao #i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now #bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will #i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail #also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e #no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it #i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course #idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do #anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand #shai speaks

[lanshappycorner]

Yuuroro has such a silly funny relationship because Yuu really just marches to the beat of his own drum 💀 like he is down horrendous for Rollo, but he would not change any major aspects of himself or bend to Rollo's opinions if he disagreed. Like yeah he would let's say dress up more if Rollo requested that he idk dressed up for formal occasions even though Yuu normally hates dressing up.

But if Rollo starts spouting shit like how mages r bad magic is bad Yuu is being badly influenced blahblahblah Yuu will ABSOLUTELY rip Rollo a new one. He would also as a matter of fact throw hands if Rollo pissed him off enough (which never happens once they start dating bc they r past that by then, BUT during the beginning of their friendship Yuu has 100% started AT LEAST one or two fist fights with Rollo💀💀 like on the ground kicking screaming both of them tugging each other's hair punching throwing profanities at each other fist fighting)

Further into their relationship I would assume that Yuu has helped Rollo move past his ideologies, but Rollo still does not fully regret all his actions from the past and Yuu never fails to give him shit and acts snarky about it 💀 Yuu is down bad but he is not a pushover. He can be very opinionated sometimes too and that's why they clash but also why they work well together

#i think it would take a long time until Rollo truly repents for what he did or for him to completely change his ideologies abt magic #given the fact that he even came up with all of it due to a trauma inducing scenario #yuu is very careful about it can he sees why rollo is the way he is but he cannot and will not excuse the flaws in rollos beliefs #if yuu feels like rollo is about to start up on his bs again he WILL shut him down. or fight him 💀 #i just think their dynamic is interesting like that #rollo seems like someone who is very stubborn and very ?? idk whats the word dominant?? like he would take charge in a relationship because #its his way or the high way😔 so unless the person that he's with is just as stubborn or somehow more powerful #he wouldn't yeild to them #BUT THE GOOD PART COMES WHEN HE STARTS YIELDING... #i talked about this before but once yuurollo get past all the stuff Rollo becomes much more vulnerable #and very quick to apologize because now he realizes that yuu is someone he holds dearly and CANNOT afford to lose #its the character development.... #sorry for not shutting up i will do it again #yuurollo

[bugflies00]

i just think the beeduo updates account going FUCK TUBBO was too much. but maybe tahts just me

#i will not sya htis on twitterlmao #but like. ok so im not 100% i got it right. but my understanding of the situation is. #this old friend of tubbo once in high school copy pasted a copy pasta with slurs & just horrible shit in it bc he'd been sent it and #he wanted to show it to his friends? and then tubbo brought this friend back on stream and apparently thats a horrible thing? #like at first i was genuinely kind of like. anxious & disappointed bc from the echo it got on twitter i'd gotten the impression tubbo was - #-like reinviting a horrible bigot on the internet knowingly so naturally i was kind of like. Bro #but unless i've gotten the wrong info it appears the guy didnt even ?? approve of the copy pasta in any way?? #and like. ok i won't lie i did genuinely think ranboos tweet abt the no apology vague reasoning was shade at tubbo but- #-i deleted the post bc i think its silly now. and people in the qrts of the tweet reminding peolpe of ranboo litearlly saying to - #-Not Speculate abt him hating his close friends and ALL the replies are saying shit like who cares or 'yea but he said CLOSE friends' #like its just weird. and the beeduo updates account falling apart over THAT is a bit ? #especially bc they were so aggressive with it idk. going FUCK TUBBO for that seems excessive but maybe thats just me #srry i have a tendency of rambling in the tags when i am. very conflicted over something such as this #and also people Still calling tubbo a tory when its clear to me the queen comment was a fluke and he's genuinely like. willing to learn? #like idk just bc those 2 controversies happened in quick succession does not make him this like. irredeemable villain all of a sudden #like boobers talking abt 'getting the right parent in the beeduo divorce' just doesnt feel right to me💀 #but again. this is very confusing its hard to understand what actually happened #alex.rambles.txt #discourse

[pizzapizzadickz]

Tired, in pain, can't sleep at all. This sucks.

#oh eggs are simple! #diary #personal #disordered eating #so like. i want to eat better. but. the amount of work i need to achieve that seems impossible #like. i need things to be easy and fesible for me to do. #buuuuut i have all these hidden limitations like. i just hate touching/dealing with raw meat or eggs or anything #its bc my moms germophobia transfered to me 💀 #and like. i wont use x machine bc 1. im scared of where its placed it might have splatter from *something* #and 2. its loud and 3. its complex to use/clean (its a blender) #and all pans are just hard to predict when theyll be clean and it bothers me so i dont try to cook much lately #bc i can never plan when ill have energy #and theres too many meals in a day!!! and i refuse to do anything without hyper research!!!!! #LIKE I MAKE THINGS SO DIFFICULT FOR MYSELF THAT IT STRESSES ME OUT A TON AND IM TIRED. really tired #and looking at quick recipes are all like no they arent!!!! its stressful!!!! #whats super annoying is i make more complex things regularly bc theyre just something simple to me. #...tho not necessarily. just. ugh. its annoying and contradictory #idk how to eat well and keep myself alive #i like trying new things but i also eat very VERY selectively #why cant i just have a pill or something and never eat unless i wanna #its infuriating and stressful and idk what to do about it. #rules rules rules rules rules rules rules. so many arbitrary horrible hard to understand rules. #pls give me suggestions if u want. just fyi im also super picky with fruits n veggies... honestly how am i still alive???? #probably bc i live with my parents haha... ha. #i think id be on disability or homeless otherwise. #or something idk. im a mess. send help pls.

[starshapedpetals]

does anyone else get insanely hyped when listening to the carla & shin songs? idk what about their energy always gets me pumped up & smiling like crazy but i love it. keep it up guys <3

#their va’s are so good too 😫 #they will be saying the most sadistic shit & you’ll see me grinning ear to ear over it #i just love their energy in the songs idk man it’s mwah #they also sound so cute??? like i don’t think it’s very in character for them to be singing these rock ass songs #(i’m not 100% if that’s in character or not since i’ve barely done their routes yet) #(but i’m just gonnna go for not in character at least for carla since he seems so proper) #but they are & i find that adorable as fuck #look at them go ♡ <3 #they most probably will beat the shit out of me for it but let me call them cute real quick before they do <3 #that goes out to all the diaboys tbh #diabolik lovers #carla tsukinami #tsukinami carla #shin tsukinami #tsukinami shin

[recallback]

Do you know how overwhelming it is, to constantly be able to sense just how much everyone hates themselves, each other, everyone, and you?

This was a pretty experimental piece, I just got the idea of tryna visually represent Nihil's ability to passively sense negative emotions, and how overwhelming the experience is for him. It's something that'd break any normal person.

#original character #monster oc #my ocs #eyestrain #laid out in lavender #nihil tornincasa #recallback draws #think thats all the tags i need or can think of #but yeha i wasnt initially too confident in this but everyone seems to like it so :) #idk why im always surprised people Love art w lots of colors and eyestrain #should do more stuff like this #the anatomy is a bit weird bc it was just a quick experimental sketch i didnt think abt much but still looks p decent i think #but yeah :) my little blorbo and his eels and everyone elses eels hes aware of.... #technically how emotions translate in his head is as a taste more than anything else bc he eats them #so imagine that second layer of overwhelming in ur minds eye for a second #hes having a very hard time.

[thebeautifulfantastic]

i've made several attempts at watching season 4 of the marvelous mrs maisel, but i can only take so much because every character has started to become a little too annoying, and at this point the only arcs i’m still invested in are midge & joel & somewhat lenny, so there’s really no motivation in me to watch the whole season. and yet at the same time i want to say i watched it all the way through so i keep making my way through it in little bits and pieces

#don't get me wrong i Loved the first two seasons of this show #they made me laugh so much and it was a good brand of comedy #lots of swearing but i got used to that pretty quick #it was just a very tongue in cheek and somehow endearing journey of this cast of slightly broken messed-up people #and especially with midge. how she learned to find herself again and cope with her separation through humor and laughter and comedy #but after season 2 it just started going downhill #idk it seems less genuine after that #season 3 was tolerable and had some good moments but then there was that ENDING #so of course i have to watch season 4 to find out what happens #but honestly it's the constant on and off relationship between midge and joel that started to put me off it #because yeah of course their relationship is messy (understandably so) but they've made no attempt to actually communicate #that's the main problem for most of the characters here actually #it's a show about stand up comedy but ironically everyone has the most difficult time communicating in their personal relationships #and ok. i don't even ship midge and joel. BUT it seems disrespectful and rather flippant to treat a divorce/separation so lightly #especially without ever delving into the underlying issues and causes (they explored this a little bit in season 1 and 2 which is why those #seasons were stronger and more compelling in my opinon) #anyways. character arcs wrapped up nicely in season 2 so that's where i want to say the show ended #i like my comedies deep and insightful as well as funny #meta finding tag #the marvelous mrs. maisel #belle speaks