#just cant do existing anymore

[jondoe279]

atp i genuinely doooon’t care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyone’s favorite girl nile freeman again

#its not even funny anymore WHERE IS ANDY AND NORIKO!!!!!!!!!!! it was supposed to be the year of dyke drama 😞😞😞😞😞😞 #like given the way they structured the first movie the second would have to be almost wholly original and differ a lot from the comic #like andy cant go thru the shit noriko puts her thru so im guessing the script would switch her out with nile getting tossed in the ocean #but that doesnt really work with norikos comic characterization (trying to get andy to see her point by making her go thru what noriko did #isnt something quynh will gaf about if andy isnt one of the immortals. andys become thr ‘vermin’ noriko hates!!!) #and given the end of the movie everyones chill with copley so joe and nickys whole subplot cant exist anymore…. idk maybe theyll switch out #copley with moose?? idc as long as we get their stupid car conversation tbh makes me laugh #honestly given the changes that would have to be made they probably just made a stupid movie and don’t want to release it. but I DONT CAREEE #its not exactly like the first one was that good i still mute it in preparation for every cringe needle drop like its a lame movie but its #genuineeeeee fun like i seriously do not care netflix give me my movie!!! #the old guard

[typheus]

been a few years since i outright killed a sai file but by god i accidentally did it again just now :/

#other #homestuck #my art #mindfang #redglare #rip to all my sketches on that file 😭😭😭 #i dont even remember How i used to kill the files its been so long #but whatever it is i just did it sdkfad #so yall get a sketch with some shadows slapped on it #i know it has something to do with when i save #but it corrupts the file so i cant open it anymore. n it just says the file doesnt exist #o well. im an artist. i can just draw the sketches again :/ it was all grimm anyways. i got lots of drawings of her :)

[love-songs-for-emma]

im actually amazed i cant find this;

SPN FRIENDS HII

do any of u know where i could find a gif of dean saying the iconic quote of "You know who wears sunglasses inside? Blind people. And douchebags." from s9 e5 "dog dean afternoon"

i SWEAR i had it saved years ago but i cant find it. pls help. xoxo

#yes theres a supernatural gif for everything and every moment #if it doesnt exist anymore thats okay one day ill make it myself #but i feel like this comes up a Lot and i'd love to be able to send this regularly #thank u gif makers btw. u literally make the world go round #i dont have an income rn but if anyone who makes fandom art (gifs fic etc) ever wants pics of my cat cas my dms are OPEN #always ready to send cas pics. always. #also for context. when watching the s1 ep ''faith'' my partner /immediately/ made fun of the faith healer for wearing sunglasses inside at #night and i responded so deadpan ''john hes BLIND'' #ajchskncksjx #thinking abt that always and whenever we see someone wearing sunglasses in a piece of media this moment comes up #i sent him the lady gaga gif where she goes ''incredible. show-stopping. never been done. completely original. [etc]'' and #he responded ''is she blind'' KAJXKSJX #for ONE: that is LADY GAGA so NO U CANT MAKE FUN OF HER EVER and for TWO: AKCHKSXJKD #he just had to make sure. just had to check. #anyway. im done now #spn #dean winchester #gif search #supernatural #may delete later if anyone ever finds it #thank u for checking if u do #<3<3<3 #much love to everyone ever. yk yk

[random-lil-illing]

so uh... vilesonas/team redsonas, huh

i couldnt resist the urge, i had to make a carmen sandiego oc 💔 anyway meet tabitha prey shes an ex-vile operative who used to date carmen's mom (with dexter's prior consent, ofc, we don't do cheating here). lore coming soon :]

#my art #art #finished art #fanart #is it technically fanart when the character doesn’t exist #traditional art #traditional drawing #yall havent seen that tag on my blog in a while huh. yeah im just as surprised as you are #i should do a traditional sketch/art dump soon... hmmmm... #carmen sandiego vile #carmen sandiego netflix #carmen sandiego fanart #carmen sandiego #carmen sandiego 2019 #carmen sandeigo #carmen sandeigo 2019 #carmen sandiego oc #oc #original character #team red #vilesona #tabitha prey #lady ermine #sir ermine #<- the 3 prev tags are her tags that im going to use on all her posts btw. you cant stop me #the outfit shes in is her current look (like carmens coat/fedora). when she was with vile her costume was an ermine #now she wears an ermine COAT to show shes not the prey anymore. its very obvious symbolism bc im bad at sublety #anyway #enjoy the burnt food #<3

[the-knife-consumer]

I feel lame for not having many ocs tbh. Whatever i do what i want forever

#idk i feel like my entire art is only ever used on drawing pre existing characters #usually from popular ips i feel so shallow. #any ocs i make i never get attached to. and if i do im too nervous to post them #or like with my fandom intrests i love them so intensely and then a month or so later #i dont give a shit anymore. i wish i wasnt so reliant on pre existing characters with pre existing personalities to draw #my attention. and draw in general. #bc when im not in an intense intrest phase i cant draw for shit. thatd be a perfect time to draw my ocs right? #but i need to be intensely intrested to draw in the first place. and they aren't fleshed out they dont have content #yhere is no book or movie or show or game. ive gotta do all of that. but that passion isn't there #i get no big ideas for stories of my own. no characters with compelling backgrounds everytging i do #just feels like a rehash or repackaging of something else. #and insult to injury. usually i can pinpoint exactly which pre exosting character im ripping from #which nothing wrong witg inspiration. if it was anyone else i'd be like fuck yeag dude thats awesome #but because its me it feels like stealing stealing stealing i cant think of anything on my own so i must steal #idk. whatever. #i mean i do have ocs but i havent drawn them in fucking forever it feels like. and i love them ig #for once i cant really pinpoint where i pulled them from. but too nervous to post them on #this blog and also again. drawing them feels like a chore because the obsession isnt there #vent #whateverrrrr my interps are baller my lines are swagular. im gonna make it whatever #and also i feel like a flake with my intrests and its not deliberate but sometimes i feel like im #pullibg people in from fandoms then pulling a switcheroo gotcha on them by being invested #in something else #which obviously im fucking not thats stupid im not doing this on purpose #but it still feels so yuuuuucky like im sorry ik this isnt what you folloed me for. sorry #SJATEVER i win at art wbatever whatever

[pinkeoni]

Speaking my truth. I think destroying the Upside Down would be lame

#it could happen in show but if it did… i wouldnt like it #the show about wierdos and outcasts ends with the mass genocide of a bunch of creatures who were forced into a hivemind…. yeah idk ab that #also if the ud is representative of trauma i dont think it would be realistic if the resolve is ‘no more trauma it doesnt exist anymore’ #its like the end of the babadook #the trauma doesnt go away but you learn to live with it #same thing goes for the ud as a representation for homophobia #you cant just get rid of it the roots go deep #so whenever i see the theory that el and or will need to sacrifice themselves to get rid of the upside down #my question is… but why do we need to get rid of the upside down #byler #<- target audience #stranger things

[sttoru]

im super inactive woops

#i do not have the motivation to be on here anymore #i open my inbox and see only requests #then i get stressed bcs its like 35 #and then i go to my following list and see thousand blank blogs #like they cant read my rules #mygod #thinking of moving blogs and only telling mutula #mutuals* #ARAGHHH #and the vibes in the jjk fandom on tumblr r so bad #the interaction as well - so lowwwwww and non existent #tw vent #cw vent #<- just in case

[risingsunresistance]

why did glowing mushroom mixins go up to 4.5m, the update literally changed nothing. they last exactly as long, do the same thing, and are crafted with the same materials 😭

#man dont make me craft all that myself just to save a few coins. i crafted one once. it is TEDIOUS that was horrible i hated it #at least i have 2 brewed god pots left but i wanna keep one if i can since they dont exist anymore lol #anyways i am going to bed soon i am tired and sore from work today so i cant stay up as late as i was hoping >:( #20% to fishing 45 SOON SOON GOOD ARMOR SOON !!! #im almost fishing 50... what the hell do i do after that- #FORAGE??? i'll die #back on that extremely slow dungeons grind i guess kjfhkg #ehh i always have lil things to do here and there. but i like leveling skills i miss it :'( #the pain of having nearly maxed skills #you couldnt pay me to start a new profile tho i dont like early game lmao #bingo is on THIN ice #chat #sb

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[caffeineandkerosene]

fucking. god damn i am SO fucking tired of masking. like idk what happened to me i used to be the fucking master of lying and pretending to be normal but now i literally can not, it causes me immense amounts of distress to even fucking try and i fucking fail anyway.

today has been fucking horrible, i cant even talk about it because talking about it will just make me more upset, just, fuck, i need need need someone to beat the shit out of me and/or to beat the shit out of someone

#i do not want to exist in society anymore please let me be terminally online until i die no one fucking gets it #whatever im just going to try to write more it's just. fuuuuuuuuuck i need violence but i cant have it so writing ugh ugh ugh

[gaminegay]

No horror story matches up to forgetting who you are, and to someone you love forgetting you. Aka alzheimer's is a horror story

#alda rambling #It killed me years ago to think that all my happy memories with my grandma are gone #As in. She doesnt know who I am.and that incredible woman who taught me so much is just gone bc all our moments together are gone. #She has no idea how she gave me pickled pears and let me feed the lambs and took me joy riding #Or how I always wanted to sleep in her bed bc ii loved her so much. Fuck I dont even exist to her anymore. To her I'm a rando #And shit I'm just the grandchild. She doesnt even recognize my mom as her daughter. She doesnt know how much she achieved #God damn fuck. I'm so emotional. This is the worst ii cant keep up the liquid intake #How the FUCK do ppl have emotions on the daily. This is killing me

[aintmyjewelry]

I do think i need to delete instagram

#i wrestle so hard with this bc i do wanna share my life #but also i am still mutuals on there with so many people i went to high school with #and i constantly see their posts #and everyone lives a better life than me!!!!!! #everyone has friends and relationships and look peaceful and happy and it sends me spiraling!!!!!!!!!! #and dont say like 'social media isnt real!' #the friends they have ARE REAL #the boyfriends they have ARE REAL #not all of it may appear real but the foundation IS REAL #and it fucking kills me bc i still wanna share my life #and the little fun times i have #but i just cant stand it to see anyone else #everyday i wake up and feel like a failure #i have a whole in my heart and soul and i cant figure out what to do to cure it #i dont want to exist anymore #i cant keep living like this nothing i do is good enough and I'm so far behind #i might as well skip to the end of the race

[nyxi-pixie]

i personally think the duffers should make all the queer ships canon for no other reason than to piss off people who think there were no gay people in the 80s

#like. it would be SO fucking funny #like byler get together first and they come out of the woodwork like NO GAYS ITS 80S EWEW NO GAY PEOPLE DIDNT EXIST THEN #(bc ofc we all know gay people were invented by mcr in 2010 to promote danger days) #but then they make steddie and ronance canon too #and the homophobic fans are rlly mad now #at this point theyre beginning to look like rabid dogs #BUT THEN #EL COMES BACK TO HAWKINS AND IS LIKE OMG MAX IVE HAD A REALISATION AND THEN THEY BECOME GFS #AND THE HOMOPHOBES ARE LIKE NO SURELY NOT I CANT TAKE ANYMORE #BUT THEN JARGYLE GET HIGH AND MAKE OUT. THEYVE ACTUALLY BEEN TOGETHER THE WHOLE TIME. #and when u think its over. hopper and joyce are revealed to be in a throuple w that russian guy. #just they dont even need build up literally just do it out of nowhere bc it would be funny #byler #ronance #steddie #elmax #jargyle

[sonknuxadow]

What do you think Silver's original future in the post-06 timeline is like? In Rivals, what its like is never stated, and his motive is just to stop Eggman Nega and bring him back to the time period he belongs in. Some things like the cookbook mentioning him defaulting to survivalist thoughts and him being significantly more aggressive than he is in 06 could point towards it being another apocalyptic one, but there's nothing concrete about it

ive never played or watched sonic rivals or sonic rivals 2 (been meaning to for forever just never got around to it) so i could be missing some important details here but ive always assumed that its similar to what it was before? i never really thought about it too much i guess

#though obviously it wouldnt be exactly the same #since in the current timeline mephiles and iblis dont exist anymore and blaze is from the sol dimension not the future #but i also cant separate silver from the idea of being from a place thats on fire all the time even if iblis isnt there #like every time i think of silvers future its just a burning wasteland you know #asks #if i ever do get around to checking out the sonic rivals games ill probably just watch a cutscene compilation #because. i dont have a psp. and im too nervous to try emulating it #who even has a psp i dont think ive met a single person who has a psp

[skunkes]

In the kindest of ways possible I'm grabbing you by the shoulders and shaking you brother you need to stop overthinking your art so much . . . You're an extremely talented artist there's too many horrors in the world to be getting upset every so often about your own craft. Like I don't mean to scold you I'm just passing you the ball and encouraging you to run with it because you deserve it.......

dont worry i understand what u mean!!

And also i get it, thats the Complex part, its double edged (??) right now bc im struggling so hard to pick apart a double standard (unsure if this is the right wording) or weird mindset i recently realized i have for myself wrt art compared to when i see other people make it, bc i dont understand how to get past it

but also this is contributing to the overthinking (see that one post about how sometimes too much introspection is harmful) I'm trying to climb my way out of it

#its not about Skill this time its about perception and im struggling sooooo hard #i recognize a warped point of view i have but idk what to do next. #id discuss it here further bc its not just ''i hate my work u_u'' dis time but im trying not to rant anymore #anonymous #skunk mail #there was a comment i saw on a post abt losing joy for art that was like #at this point i feel i make art just for it to exist #and thats been my whole life....! i feel really weird about intent and emotion in work lately. and subject matter. and Worth. #it feels really weird. especially since lately im even losing that...! #lately when i look at traditional art its like. i cant make art just for it to exist actually. feels like theres no point #⬅️ this is not the elaboration btw theres smthng else ive been grappling with

[cowboy-robooty]

one of the biggest mistakes of my life was not watching jojo rabbit in theatres swear to god... one of my top 5 movies

#i wanted to watch it actually but i didnt because i was a fucking loser with no friends and no car (too young for lisence) #and idc abt watching movies alone i love doing shit alone unironically but bc i had no car id have to go with my mom or dad #and i was like fuck no not worf it tf this movie think it is? the lego movie? #and now i finally watched it like a month ago and found it it literally is same level of amazing as the lego movie #shit makes me crazy you know that its good when i say its as good as the lego movie okay #cowboy robooty who was chronically obsessed with the lego cinematic universe for like 5 years #im still one of the strongest warriors okay but i cant be the strongest anymore bc the lego movie 2 should not exist and YES. REX DANGERVWST #MAKES ME A LITTLE CRAZY I LIKE HIM SO MUCH OKAY. BUT AUAGWHSHS THE PLOT AND AND THE MESSAGE AND THEY HAS LITERALLY ONLY HALF A SECOND OF #GOOD COP BAD COP. WHERE TF WAS HE?!? HES PART OF THE GANG!!!! #AND THE WHAT THEY DID TO WYLDSTYLE OHHHH MY GAWWWDDDEJNSKWLS #AND THE WHATEVRAWANNABI MARRYING BATMAN BULLSHIT.......................... JUST IGNORE LEGO BATMAN MOVIE... OKAY THEN. #Sorry. robooty crazy as usual u know me heehee! #but yes i fucking love jojo rabbit and i am still obsessed with the lego movie and... #well i think the lego movie is one of the greatest movies made of all time. #so lego movie is second favorite movie and jojo rabbit is swimming around in top 5 #number one is a secret ee hee hee!