#just because i'm surrounded by kids who have been seriously pursuing art since grade school doesn't mean i'm behind

[mars-ipan]

we were talking abt submitting ap exam stuff this in art class and i got hit with. the Strongest wave of imposter syndrome. so i don’t feel the best rn

#marzivents #teacher was talking abt how we need to make sure our sketchbooks have good work in them #and how we need at least a couple good sketches mixed in with the rough ones #and like. this year's been garbage for my mental health right #so my work isn't the best i've done #plus i'm in drawing so i have to try to do a little realism #but i'm much more suited for stylized work which is. far from realistic #so i end up feeling out of place and like i'm not as good of an artist as my classmates #and it just. feels bad man. i just wanted to save 2d for later bc like. i love 2d i enjoy using the elements of art in creative ways a lot #but i'm now worried that because A. i'm not really a realism person and B. this year Sucked i won't get the college credit #bc my art won't be good enough for it and i just. i'm feeling invalid ig #blegh. perfectionism sucks this shit's so tough to overcome #i gotta give myself a break. i got into this class for a reason. my friends think i'm good at art and i trust their judgement #my teacher believes in me. i'll be okay. she's only here to help #and if i cry in front of her? it's okay. she's an art teacher for crying out loud i doubt i'd be the first #besides. plenty of people don't get into art until their twenties #just because i'm surrounded by kids who have been seriously pursuing art since grade school doesn't mean i'm behind #i'm technically ahead of the course considering i may earn college credit #i'm okay. or i will be. even if everything goes wrong i'll be okay