#ju rambles

[cineju]

So like I never talk about my personal life on here but I NEED to be gay about this because I'm soft and I wanna gush about my partners so 

I never thought I'd have a tight knit friend group when I was a teen and now I HAVE that group and I'm dating -all- almost all of them and it's so fucking amazing I love my partners so much 

There's something so cozy about feeling kinda sad and texting "hey are any of you free I'm feeling kinda shitty" and just. ending up in a cuddle pile of reassurance hugs and comfort

Or trying on a risky new outfit and walking into the room and all of a sudden there's four people saying "damn you look so hot" and I'm blushing like a dumbass and giving them all a little kiss 

Or just hanging out until it's late and I'm too tired to drive home and someone saying "hey wanna sleep over" and being the middle spoon so I'm warm and cozy even if they want the fucking ac to freeze over the room 

I love hanging out with my boyfriend and asking "how was your date with [our girlfriend]" and being excited for them, I love going on a little date with my partner and seeing something that reminds us of someone else in the polycule and telling them all about it later, I love cooking dates where we all help make dinner and then take turns washing the dishes, I love laughing at the absolute worst puns and making up the most insane inside jokes that end up needing five minutes of exposition to try to explain them to someone else, I love playing TTRPGs with the craziest characters we end up loving way too much

Just. I'm so happy I met them I love them all so much and I love having them in my life

#ju rambles #idk if im gonna use that tag a lot i dont post often but i guess having it might be useful so here #polyamory positivity #polyamory #ethical non monogamy

[charlotte-of-wales]

in one of those moods (someone is getting punched tonight)

#is it normal to feel rage and sadness and anxiety and all the pms symptoms right AFTER ur period? asking for a friend #ju rambles

[brasiliangp]

I’ve been trying a new effect on photoshop which means sitting in the same spot for at least 4 hours and I got a total of one (1) gif done I am about to start murdering people

#the worst part…..I wanted to make a set of 4 but can only think of one idea rip #ju rambles

[juwnbi]

I already upload to Tumblr whenever I please but

Currently struggling to draw digitally and working on a fursuit for a convention in a month! Hopefully I'll have pics of traditional work soon enough

#ju rambles #juwnbi #just some talking

[ryann-44]

#hang on imma ramble for a sec #the fact that malenia still has her arm the miquella made for her during her boss fight (even tho radahn was an #asshol and broke it during the battle) #means that finlay took the time WHILE BEIMG ATTACKED BY RADAHNS ENTIRE ARMY #to pick up the pieces and bring it back to the haligtree while carrying malenias 7ft tall ass #I jus love them #they r the best of roommates #art #my art #digtal art #elden ring #elden ring fanart #cleanrot knight finlay #finlay #malenia fanart #malenia blade of miquella #malenia the severed #malenia x finlay #general radahn #starscourge radahn

[fcb-mv33]

He’s so funny I can’t😭😭he genuinely doesn’t give a shit I love him🥰😭

#max is jus THE driver #vroom vroom is all he hears #max verstappen #rambles #f1 #formula 1 #red bull racing

[didderd]

Sona ref! :D

Details n lore rambles below:

They're 4'10, their pronouns are he/they/it, n ofc they do have Tourette's. :3

He is a shapeshifter, made of goop that can morph into any shape, but this is the form he takes a majority of the time.

He lives in Underfell's Waterfall, in a hidden cave.

(warning: possibly uncomfy topics. including mild stalking (? not quit?). and death to heat/cold in the last big paragraph.)

They've always stayed hidden out of fear of being dusted, and when they do go out, they stay camouflaged and close to the walls. So he's a big hermit and rarely interacts with people, but he does like to people watch (at least. when someone isn't killing another lmao), and it is usually the only reason he will leave his cave at all.

People sometimes hear random noises in Waterfall, and feel like they're being watched, but when they don't see anything, they usually just chock it up to them losing it. Sans (Red) however isn't so sure of that when he keeps getting that feeling, and hearing those sounds consistently in Waterfall, and Waterfall only, just about every time he's there.

Sans is it's favorite to watch, and it will even follow him around Waterfall. They don't do this in a creepy way (or at least they try not too lmao), it's more like how a very curious animal might follow someone from a safe distance. :3

They wish they could follow Sans outside of Waterfall, but really cold weather makes their body very stiff, and makes it hard to move and shapeshift. If they're in the freezing cold long enough, they will literally freeze solid and dust (they are also cold-blooded, so they can not warm themself up). On the other hand, really hot weather will have the opposite effect. They will start to melt, and it will become very hard to keep any form. If hot enough (like in Hotland, literally above lava), they can even start to boil, and will dust that way too.

Both of these can also put them in a vulnerable position, which can be extremely dangerous, living in Underfell.

(Okie okie, am done rambling now lmao.)

#(referred to red as sans here bc 's how they refer to him #bc 's his own au) #might. make it a skele form :3 #i mean. i /will/ #'s jus a matter of when #also. they hav a forked tongue hehe #and sharp teefs #(their teefs r smaller than red's) #woulda added that stuff n a few other things to th ref but i jus wanted to get it out :3 #lore rambles #monstersona #sona #sona ref #undertale #underfell #didderd ocs #didderd art #(second try lmao! posted to th wrong blog at first)

[justmwahstruly]

I FINALLY FINISHED IT ASCIDBCH

blehp i kinda died on the patterns and the glasses

ofc the beautiful Will Wayward belongs to @kandavers

is jus molly an will vibin

#sooooooo #the song was happy by Pentatonix #idk if you think it fits him but he jus seems like a happy guy to me #so yea #anyways i cannot DRAW #idek how i managed to finish this i feel so unmotivated #bleeeehhhhhp #also i like to think he would be either a tenor or baritone #it seems like it would be scary hearing a bass note from him #im leaning a bit more towards tenor though… #think of it! he could harmonize with Basil! #i also think Basil would be a baritone lowkeyyy #THE HARMONIESSSS #it would be great #WAIT WHISKY AS A COUNTERTENOR TOO MAYBE?? #the harmony would just be so *chefs kiss* #ackh ive been rambling #excuise me and goodbye :) #wait nvm maybe the wetten dass..? medley would be better… #GAH TOO MANY SONGS I MUST LEAVE NOW #will wayward #molly melancholy #welcome home oc

[quixtrix]

let's talk BL manga lore; on grooming, identity, and racism

spoilers for the official captain laserhawk bl manga ofc, plus brief discussion of grooming I've refrained from speaking about it because of spoilers, but it's been well over a month and I believe that it's time to openly discuss it. if you would still like to read the manga before reading this discussion, here's the link to buy a physical copy and you can search up 'Captain Laserhawk: Crushing Love' in your digital book store for it. okay time to talk about two, basically three subjects; racism, identity, and grooming. i'm starting with the grooming first, because that's the main focus of this manga. i would have to preface this by saying i've already discussed this topic in an earlier post (albeit it is a prediction, but it is a spot on prediction.) i'll briefly elaborate on it right now with what we know.

dolph's very first day with alex was carefully calculated to where dolph would be exposed to the world, but heavily rely on alex. he is shown around to alex's friends and is able to buy his own clothes, but it is under the heavy scrutiny of alex. alex ultimately decides what dolph wears, alex decides how the day goes, alex leads dolph. even when they have a beach day, take note of how alex holds dolph, dragging him around.

even the romance and the events leading up to when alex takes dolph's virginity are calculated. note how alex grasps dolph's hand, grabbing on tight enough to almost press down on his knuckles, loosening his hand, making dolph relinquish control. the context for the fight page is that after their sweet lil beach day, alex takes dolph down an alley where alex knows that he'll come across people who aren't the fondest of him. this event was calculated, alex knew it was going to happen, and he used it to test out his new lil boytoy.

also, alex taking dolph out to fight isn't just so he can get in the pants of a barely 18 year old. while holloway notes during this flashback that adrenaline is the greatest aphrodisiac, this is a test to see how good the new weapon he picked up is. how the new boy works, to see how eden's boy robot can benefit his group, not just him. its literally in the morning panels we get where alex talks with that woman, anna. they're talking about how loaded he is with tech, and while alex does consider that, he still actively thirsts over dolph.

also im jus saying if i personally was talking with one of my greatest confidants and they refer to someone i'm thirsting over as KID, i would personally be icked out. i would have a conscious and not do some weird shit, like literally refer to dolph in passing as kid in the next page. dolph aint even the first one who alex has done this shit to, as evident by this line by one of his friends, grace.

alex is a groomer and groomed dolph, case closed.

anyways! time to get on with what i really wanted to talk about, how racism and loss of idenity ties into dolph's character!

in this manga, during pillow talk between dolph and alex, we get dolph's backstory. dolph literally has only known this man for a day and he's giving him lore because alex treats him more normal than eden did. god. ANYWAYS ENOUGH DWELLING ON DOLPH BEING A VICTIM IN ALL WAYS INCLUDING BEING ONE OF THE OXFORD STUDY, we get to know about his brief life before eden took him in.

now let me turn for a moment to the show, and how we were told about dolph's backstory. this is VASTLY different than what we got in the show, with it being implied that dolph's parents were a white prostitute and a darkskinned immigrant man. this adds onto the idea that this supposedly impoverished, crack addicted boy came into this world not as an act of love, but as a mistake. not just a mistake though, his parents are supposedly the epitome of immoral, a prostitute and a criminal. not to mention that this also ties into the idea of the uncultured brown man and pure white woman, basically a racist idea that the scary immigrants who aren't like us good white christian americans (and honestly jus any homogenous group in general, though in america its ofc more applicable to white people), are corrupting our mother marys, our women. eden takes on this perspective in order to subconsciously frame in the minds of post american viewers the idea of this man as an other that they are helping and didn't at all snatch up from his mother for child experimentation. the concept of other is something that finds it's origins in fascism, and in order to mask the presence of said fascism, someone who is seen as apart of the other is given a seat at the table with the collective us, (as in the majority, or the ones that are supposedly superior), and will ultimately serve as an example of why the other are labelled as such. i go into this more with my rayman analysis. I brought up the specific portrayal of dolph's backstory from eden's documentary to showcase how eden has manipulated the view people have of this man. eden has not only manipulated the view of the in universe audience, but eden has manipulated our view.

in the propaganda documentary, we are shown photos of this man being a captain, someone of relatively high rank in the military. you can't even normally earn that through having an education, you'd have to have years of experience. he's portrayed as older than he is.

another thing, dolph fans, let's be honest with ourselves; before the manga, it was not uncommon to headcanon that man as a FREAK. with both the supposed images of dolph at a nightclub and the flashback of alex and dolph meeting outside a club, it wasn't too hard to think that the hottest man alive in that show who was fully born human was a freak. a sexual deviant. someone that a christian mother would be horrified enough by that she faints. the manga however, shows us that dolph really isn't any of that. hell, he didn't even get to go to a club before he met alex. in reality, he's around 18 years and his only sexual experience is his groomer.

say that again with me, he's around 18. he's just around 18, he's a young adult, and the environment he's grown up in has stunted him by treating him as a subject, a thing, cutting him off from anything that would humanise this child by not allowing him to see his mother. hell, even his childhood best friend serves eden by being the one in his ear, having him at her beck and call all in the name of eden.

we get none of dolph's true backstory in the show for any number of reasons. maybe it's on purpose, maybe it's a result of having to possibly cut down episodes, who knows? what matters though is that this adds a layer to the core problem defining dolph's life; the perspective others have on him warping who he is.

back to the pages with dolph's memories of his mother, we see dolph as he was when he was just a boy. he's his mama's boy, her son, a child. even when eden takes him in, he stubbornly clings to that bit of him that's pure, untainted by the idea of him being an experiment, a tool. this bit of him, this hint towards who he is supposed to be as a person, is something he clings to desperately. it leads him to follow eden's orders again because they promise that they've found his mother.

and yknow what happened with who dolph was told was supposedly his mother?

she was just a random ass indian woman.

wasn't even the right woman. they just used his identity issues because he's indian, and she was indian and in a cult that eden needed to take care of.

this, while admittedly is kind of funny, (like the confusion is funny in the moment look at ts) is actually fucked up crazy racism. they literally said that this random ass woman who happened to be indian was his mother like HELL!?!??!?!?

this insane fr. lucy didn't even double check LIKE GIRL THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR FRIEND'S MOTHER WHO HE HASNT SEEN SINCE HE WAS LIKE 6 AND YOU DIDNT EVEN DOUBLE CHECK IF SHE'S THE RIGHT PERSON?!?!?!?

moving on from that, this actually brings up a deeper layer of dolph's identity issues; the lack of cultural identity.

i want to preface this by saying that i am not entirely sure if this is the right term for this identity issue nor am i claiming to be an expert on the type of identity crisis that i am about to discuss. that being said, this specific disconnect of cultural identity that dolph has is actually reminiscent of those adopted from other countries, or transnational adoptees. there seems to be a need within these adoptees to find out more about their own heritage or their own mothers and families that they now struggle to find. while dolph does not actively go out to reconnect with his heritage, he does exhibit desires to find his birth mother. this type of identity issue seems to ask the question of 'what could I have been if...?,' and it tends to mess with the idea of the self. adoptees that struggle with this question hold a desire to go back, to almost reclaim what would have been. yes, dolph is not adopted into a family, but he is still a child under the care of eden, which became like his family, which is why i believe that this kind of identity issue could reasonably be applied to dolph. it explains why he does what he does in the manga, and how it's ultimately wrapped up by him losing this desire and moving forward. albeit he moves forward by alex instead becoming his main purpose, but this serves as the first chain of the past that he leaves behind. with this, he severs a tie that would have made him continue to be stuck under eden's control, and possibly find himself. he answers the question of what could have been with 'it doesn't matter anymore.'

but actually, he doesn't answer that question. he leaves it be.

i am reading way too into this tho lol. i would say that he doesn't explicitly say it, and that we do see a lack of dolph's past being used against him in that way because dolph has freed himself from that part, but in reality, it's because eden can't pull the same trick twice. im aware that the manga focuses HARD on dolph's grooming, but i feel like they really could have properly wrapped up dolph's identity arc with his mother if it was acknowledged at the end, but i fear we are left unsatisfied. that's one of my gripes with the manga. it gives us things that tie up loose ends, but some of these ties have entirely missed the holes they were supposed to secure. but what is done is what's done, and here we are.

tl;dr, dolph was groomed by alex. dolph's identity has also been warped by eden heavily, by how they dehumanised him as a child to be a weapon internally, to how he's shown to the public to be a case that they've saved, and yet he still becomes something that is "disgraceful." textbook example of this poor boy that we have saved that is actually jus like all the others that we know. dolph also suffers under similar identity issues as adopted children do, and this specific issue of his is let go in order to allow him to begin moving on and finding himself.

as always, im open to discussion and critique! my askbox is open as well if you want me to yap abt smth else in the show :P

#cw: grooming #captain laserhawk #dolph laserhawk #character analysis #analysis #admittedly rushed through the grooming analysis but its like. #read the manga #literally jus read the manga #its spelt out for us #i might honestly do something with the sexualisation of dolph next #its been bugging me lol #like that man could be in ym ap classes with me #hes literally my age #anyways this is a long analysis lol #long ass yap session #i have a lot of thoughts abt this manga can you tell #also sorry this isn't as clean as my other analyses are #its a ramblely one

[cineju]

I have so many Jojo AU ideas I don't think I'm gonna write because I'm terrible at writing long fics (commiting to a long work is so hard and I never finish) but I really wanted to share these ideas :(

I have such a cool take on Suzi Q that only makes sense entirely inside an AU that would mean rewriting most of Stardust Crusaders and like. do I want to rewrite sdc?? No, it's 48 fucking episodes, but I want to get these ideas out in the open so baddddd

#ju rambles #im just ranting really #jojo is the only fandom ive gotten hiperfixated on that i wanted to write so many AUs its not usually my thing #and like i have an entire new backstory for a few characters and changes to arcs and so many ideas #ugh i wish i could commit to finishing fics and not feel bad if they end up wips forever #jjba

[charlotte-of-wales]

just found out that my mom's sad sisters didn't invite her for Easter lunch AGAIN I am beating them and their bum husbands and their losers kids when I go home

#they SUCK but my mom is an angel who still wants a relationship w them #fuck them all #and their failed businesses and their religious hypocrisy and their bratty daughters #ju rambles

[theproblemcallednight]

only had the energy to color skk cuz i got lazy but it was still fun to doodle. plus skrunkle sigma cuz skrunkle sigma

oh yeah @fyodorkitkat btw this is how i imagine u. ur now the anime man

#i luv themmmmm #their outfits are so silly #nikolai is the embodiment of “i fucked ur mum last night” and i will die on that hill #also lue ik u have like blonde-ish hair or smth but to me ur the cool anime man #cuz ur cool like the anime man :D #oh no i forgot to do my duolingo #if i don't come back tmmr jus assume the owl got me #anyways #i should stop rambling in the tags like this shouldn't i #maybe one day #but today is not that day #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fyodor #bsd nikolai #bsd atsushi #bsd akutagawa #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #skk #soukoku #bsd sigma #night does art

[juwnbi]

I find it funny the only place I actually, fully, consistently upload is here on tumblr. Idk why, it's just very stress free

#ju talks #ju rambles

[pinkmirth]

i’m becoming a chousou girl, i fear . . .

#jus look at himmmm! #he’s hot in an adorable way #his hair’s so cute! & i love his brows >< #my new babyboy #dark haired men with pretty eyes will ALWAYS get me (yes im talkin abt suguru too!) #୨୧ — mira yaps! #❥ — choso! #— (jjk!) #chousou #❥ — chousou! #❥ — rambles!

[apatheticallyromantic]

a lot of people paint mizu as some kind of sex god in their fics and honestly that’s so real however comma I am of the opinion that mizu is super vanilla and enjoys only the gentlest sex with a loving partner. She enjoys slow kisses and a lot of emotion. She wants to take it slow with someone who touches her softly. She’s probably at least a little repressed at this point in the story, and I don’t think she would be super quick to trust someone enough to have sex, she would take some time to feel comfortable with them I fear

#rambles #mizu blue eye samurai #that’s not to say it’s not something she doesn’t want because clearly the show lets us know she does #but she’s repressed about it #she’s a sexually repressed baddie #she jus like me fr

[ms-tacokat]

new hyprfixation unlocked lets go chat

#baldis basics #bbieal #bbieal null #filename2 #playtime baldis basics #playtime bbieal #giggls theyr so sibling core 2 me #playtime problby talks abt skibidi toilet lore for hours on end while null jus listens 2 her ramble #he gives me older brother vibes idk #tacokat.art