I was born 5 weeks early.
I couldn’t wait
to join the rest of the world,
and that is
exactly
the moment
my enthusiasm ceased.
The nurses tried to take me so my
“mother could sleep.”
But she refused to let me go.
I’m sure ultimately,
I ended up
in a common room for newborns.
And I’m sure ultimately,
I lay there comparing myself to all the other babies.
Wondering if I were as smart as they were.
Or as funny.
Or as beautiful.
The average baby weighs 8 pounds.
I weighed 5.
The average baby is 20 inches long.
I was 14.
And it was on my first day on Earth
that I realized I didn’t measure up,
and I never would.
Due Date by Halsey, from I would leave me if I could
The muse is bratty.
She is smug.
She wiggles her fingers around defiantly.
She displays her palm expectantly,
waiting for a present i will drop into it.
She brushes and tickles the walls of my skull.
The muse is a flirt,
She'll always tease but never put out.
Fucking bitch