#ive never been political and I never will be

[handweavers]

i never talk about it bc it's embarrassing but also bc everything about it is just "you had to be there" but i've been roleplaying with one of my best friends since we were 15 and we come up with these intricate worlds and plots and schemes and political machinations and character arcs and rp them all over text (each text written first person pov with internal monologues and everything) and have done so for literally over a decade now and i have so many oc's from this and some are like. from YEARS long rp's and they're like old friends to me at this point and im always thinking about them but i legit just don't talk about it w anyone other than her bc the whole thing feels so internal and private in a way that's hard to articulate and the characters ive played are so important to me i can't risk telling anyone else about them bc my feelings couldn't handle it if someone was mean about it or didn't "get" it lol. anyway

[eskildit]

okay so silas knew that gideon was a fake cavalier from day one. he knew ortus had died and that gideon was a serf of the ninth sent in his stead. but silas chooses to hold on to that information until act four! meanwhile he openly calls palamedes an unfinished inbred and camilla a mad dog with an illegitimate claim to the title of cavalier primary. silas says nothing about gideon until hes speaking to her in private. interesting!

#silas is such an interesting character to me #like i think this serves to suggest silas is being honest when he says he views gideon as a victim of the ninth #he wants to expose harrow he has less of an interest in taking down gideon #also this contributes to my belief that even if cytherea had never come canaan house still would have gone sideways #it just would have been political backstabbing instead of literal backstabbing #or at least slightly less literal backstabbing #ianthe is still there after all #anyway food for thought! #and im sorry for all the locked tomb posts ive had my first day off from work in a while and apparently this is how i want to spend it #the locked tomb #silas octakiseron #gideon the ninth #eskildit posts tlt #ok to rb

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.

#like maybe its just that ive been too influenced my senju propaganda but i just think the uchiha as a clan kinda fucking suck #at least by the time we get to sasuke's dad leading things. they seemed fine when madara joined with the village #so its just that the resentment at feeling pushed out has risin by then. and maybe im not remembering things right but like Tobirama #made them the cops right? and they got pissed that they weren't given any political power but like u get so much fucking power as the polic #? and also it just seems like the worst fucking idea to put that all on one clan. like THE WORST job u could give to 1 clan of fucked up #eyeball freaks. and i can never tell if they r legitimately being prejudiced against but like they kida have good reason not to trust them #bc they were legit gonna overthrow the government. so like where did it start? i just kinda feel like they think theyre entitled to power #but r also intentionally standoffish to outsiders. but again maybe im just biased bc i dont like Sasukes dad and the nameless uchiha so muc #ugh. its too messy and its all built on the back of what may or may not have been a slight against them. and the rift just kept getting #wider. i mean knowing Tobirama it was probably a slight... but idk im not power hungry enough to understand y they got so mad abt it #konoha. the village in which everyone sucks and the children suffer. #naruto ramblings #naruto

[crimeronan]

listen kevin mccarthy being ousted as speaker of the house because his nazi party is cannibalizing itself isn't GREAT for the state of american politics. but MY GOD IS IT FUNNY

#IVE BENE YELLING BITE EACH OTHER'S DICKS OFF FOR WEEKS BUT NEVER DREAMED THE VOTE WOULD ACTUALLY PASS #the people who voted him out are led by matt gaetz who is a violence-endorsing fascist who encourages neonazis to protest pride so #i hope everyone involved in this story dies etc. PASS THE POPCORN #politics #american politics #current events #ive never been fast enough to make one of these before. but

[peachcitt]

actually if goncharov were real it would never live up to the standards the insane tumblrinas have built it up to be. there is a triangle of homoeroticism, political commentary, and inevitably tragic in which any live, real adaptation would only conceivably be able to achieve two of to their fullest extent. added on to the fact that this is a film that supposedly is filmed and takes place in the seventies makes the possibility of it truly containing all aspects of what we have made it out to be even more far fetched. however, tumblr has been able to spin gold on far more real and disappointing media than goncharov through its analyses of media such as supernatural, sherlock, and a secret third piece of media that the subsequent creation and analyses of the ‘greatest mafia movie of all time’ goncharov is simply a natural step that tumblr as an ecosystem is willing to take. in this essay i will,

#goncharov #unreality #peach stuff #goncharov 1973 #someone accused me of being an english major (true) (god forbid women do anything) so this is also the natural step to take i suppose #anyway i do think i have a point in that we’re all already so used to performing in depth media analysis on media that simply. is bad. that #creating media from almost literally nothing and performing media analysis on it is just . i mean how can anyone be surprised #also before anyone says anything about it i didn’t mention doctor who in my list of bad media because well ive actually never seen #any episode in its entirety and i do know (as an english major) that science fiction is a fantastic way to deliver political commentary #ive also heard that the most recent season has been doing important work (at least from a meta standpoint) in gender politics #sherlock is. well. other iterations of sherlock holmes have certainly been better. and we all know supernatural is bad #i only listen ‘a secret third thing’ because traditionally it’s good to list three things to cite in your thesis. oldest trick etc #and anyway. that’s all my disclaimers. expect the essay never because im already overworked and underpaid<3

[spitblaze]

I'm not a psychologist or a politician or anything approaching an expert about literally anything except a few specific video games but I feel like so many people wouldn't be agonizing over the moral implications of one (1) vote if we as the less-than-uppest-of-upper-crust had the ability to meaningfully affect change in ways other than 'spend money/do not spend money, vote for the red or blue tie'

#spitblaze says things #im aware its significantly more complicated. but i think this is whats driving a not insignificant amount of posting #biden has been doing a godawful job with foreign policy. i am under no illusion that trump will do better #you can still just THREATEN to withhold your vote. i get why some might not want to but its an option. #every presidential election since 2008 has been the most important election in american history. im tired. #idk man. i havent been super engrossed in politics since high school but ive never seen this much agonizing over whether or not #pwople should vote like. at all #personally im of the opinion that you should. its a good thing to do. but you should also exercise your power to put pressure on politician #and threatening to not vote for them is a pretty good way to do that #i gotta stop posting abour serious shit. but maybe id do it less if shit sucked less. so here we are #free palestine. if federal level politics is driving you insane then pay more attention to local level stuff. join a mutual aid org #and donate esims and food money to gaza. do things besides agonizing about november

[imflyingfish]

This isnt a crazy statement but i still think that there should be better diversity on the life series. I mean specifically there should be more woman creators and creators who are poc.

Like 3rd life had ONE woman!!! WHAT THE FUCK?

Theres only ever been TWO non-white members of the life series! What????

Only 4/17 of the secret life members are women! Thats like 4 and a bit men for every woman! THIS IS THE SEASON WITH THE MOST WOMEN????

Like i know the gaming space is a bit messed up on this front but like cmon....

I dont think that the life series is like. Intrinsically bad or anything, but it would be cool if Grian/the team and such could take notice of these facts and help to change the server just a bit more.

#trafficblr #traffic smp #okay originally this post was only going to be about women and then i realised also how messed up it is that theres only two black #people on the server #fuck i dont even make posts like this like. ever. #but i feel like it would be really you know. COOL to get some more diversity in this particular minecraft gaming sphere especially #idk im trying to increase the diversity in the last couple of months in what i watch and listen to since i realise that its not good enough #and i realised these facts and im like. shit this isnt just like a me thing this is deep in our fandom #same goes with most minecraft series #heck i watched a random up-and-coming minecraft youtubers video today on a competition server. #not a single woman???? really??? #hey maybe if theres enough backing it would be worth like. sending an email or something idk #so long as people are polite about it ig #idk ive never really talked about this stuff before but its been bothering me #grian #grian critical #also sorry if my maths is just totally wrong idkim bad at it

[rohirric-hunter]

There's this woman at work who gets outrageously offended at signs. I put up signs on some pallets saying what they were for -- things like, "[Department] Damaged Product," and "To send to [other building]" and she didn't know I put them up because she hadn't come in yet, and when she did come in she started ranting and raving against whatever passive-aggressive asshole had the GALL to put up SIGNS and after a while I was like, "Actually I put them up. :) Because I'm tired of coming in every day and wasting two and a half hours of my life sorting the pallets because someone doesn't know what they are. :) I don't know who's putting things on the wrong pallets so I can't address them directly about it. :) And to be honest it's terribly unfair to expect people to just know what unlabeled things are. :)" and then she shut up and backpedaled but like. Calm TF down. She went on to rant about some other signs that had basic reference for doing returns. Things like relevant printer numbers and operating codes. "Passive-aggressive." Yeah

#'passive aggressive' is a phrase made up by people who want an excuse to be mad #ive literally never seen anyone complain about 'passive aggressive' and it didnt turn out to be like #someone politely explained to them that theyve been doing something wrong and showed them the right way to do it #and most of the time its nothing at all #you know what? im not sorting the pallets anymore #YOU can sort them #i will be passing it on to all the supervisors that she has volunteered for this duty

[youarealwaysenough]

I managed to soft no my way out of being put on the spot to speak in front of my whole (very small) company today and you know what I'm proud of myself

#ive never been very good at saying no #much less refusing to do something in that round about way company politics sometimes requires #but i think i did a decent job at this one #hell yeah boundaries

[pepprs]

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

#purrs #but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so #fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done. #like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong #enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long #and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and #consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that #everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered #out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am #forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR #FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY #FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am #the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i #HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help #and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL #delete later

[fivefeetfangirl]

All I need is 30 minutes alone with the actor men. I need to grill them slowly like a pig over fire

#even j*red #just like a political debate i actually need to do that #i would pull up stuff they cant even remember saying i would ask question theyve never been asked before its time someone challanges these #mens views on the show tbh enough letting them say whatever they want more 'okay what do you mean by that? please explain more' 'oh really?' #'why?' 'why do you think that?' etc etc #spn #yes ive been watching some panels recently 🙃 #challenges*

[jattendschaton]

holding back tears when your 47k fic hits 80 kudos but you cant like celebrate with anyone because thats literally not even an accomplishment but you thought it would never actually reach 80 kudos and you're being an emotional little baby :') :') :')

#it's literally only gotten 5 kudos and 2 comments since it updated a week ago so i know this is what it's going to cap out at #and i just didnt think it would actually make it to 80 kudos and ive been very emotional the past few days so i'm just #actually holding back tears this is so fucking stupid akdsjkld #other actually good writers are like wow! look my fic hit 1k kudos! #and that's such a cool accomplishment but like. i will literally never write something that gets that many kudos #so if i waited until i hit real accomplishments i would just never celebrate anything! i'm sorry i'm so bad at things 😭 #so anyway clearly we are not made of the same stuff and you folks are all lightyears ahead of me in terms of ability #so i will politely take myself out of your airspace because i am not worthy to be around y'all #but i will privately celebrate my stupid little milestones :') <3

[spider-man-2o99]

Just wanted to say that I have been thinking of you and pre-emptively empathizing with the nonsense you are no doubt being flooded with and the psychic damage it must be causing. Keep stanning the king ignore the weirdos <3

thankg u.,, i feel like ive been trapped in a fuckign . Torture Labyrinth these past coupl days . but. wwe will. We Will Yet Persist onwards w/ our hand on the left wall till we;re either out or at the center i swear 2 fucking GOD,

#talking tag #asks #th pain is forever the Horrors r unending the lack of media comprehension on all sides is Disappointin But Also My Goddamn Life I Guess lol #though i will say ppl in my inbox have actually been.. surprisingly polite overall? if not outright rather kind as a whole. um. post-atsv. #but. god. i have not Talked About so much of that movie because i kind of just. #..ok actually i realize this is gonna sound rude as hell lmao. but. hhaha i Kinda Just. was fool enough to Assume that everbody would yknow #like. Comprehend The Film yk yk yk. since it is a well-written movie that doesnt try to Hide any of what it;s abt? yk? #i come On Here onto tumblr dot bumblr and i make my stupid esoteric gddamn complaints abt 2099 Themes for Me Only so my head doesnt blow up #n silly ol me i really do like earnestly honestly in my Heart think. like. we all saw the same movie. right? mayb thingsll calm down. #but oh oh oh oh oh no no no No No. they do Not calm down they get So Much Worse. #and now hypothetical Internet Strangers might be Passing Judgement bcuz we look like an Apologist 4 assuming Everyone Knew Media Literacy #CHRIST. do people think i think mig was. like. In The Right. in atsv. no ive known he would be Wrong for years dudes. #why do yall think i was so low-key Disappointed he was placed in a role that couldve better suited. like. Superior Spider-Man. #public image. DING-DONGs. man he is Never Going To Be In Movies Again After This Hes An AU SPIDER-MAN FROM THE 90S. LORD! #i had SO MUCH FUN watching atsv!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i dont like the choices it made to put miguel in the situation that it did. Bizarre Thematic Changes to 2099 that Only I Care Abt. but like #that is SUCH a fuckin SMALL and insanely autistic nitpick like i earnestly loved the hell out of the film and its mig is-- #--Earnestly One Of His Better/Best Adaptations despite bein within the limited confines of th plot nd setting he is In & w/o his inner mono #..i just. Hate So Much That This Movies Version Of Miguel Will Be The Only One That Anybody Knows For The Next Seven Years At Least. yknow. #i lov watching that fuckers trainwreck of a slowmotion mental breakdown for two hours but the movie gave practically Zero Context 2 newbies #BTSV please save me BTSV please save me BTSV PLEASE save me PLEASE please please please PLEASE BTSV youre my last hope.... #(arthur clenching his fist meme) ppl r Already so shitty 2 ppl w/ Messy Symtptoms i could Handle losing MK but SM2099 means too much 2 me..

[winglesshopeful]

Im like holding back tears typing this, bc i just came out as nonbinary to my parents and i just,,

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Parental Redemption Arc Complete?????

im v happy ;u;

#one of the most marginalized queer identities and they just... immediately supported me abt it in this political climate????? #i may have been sobbing #in a span of 7 years going from uber religious and telling me i was the worst child and that i never should've been taken in- #-to them accepting me for who i am and wanting to do right by me and respect who i am #THIS IS WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY ANYONE CAN BECOME A GOOD PERSON IF THEY TRY 😭😭😭😭😭 #ive been getting so many w's today and im so happy about it #coming out #coming out story #nonbinary #transgender #my art

[kebriones]

The Internet is something else. You could post "murder is bad" and someone will say "op I can't believe you forgot about people with a murder kink. I cant believe we're still kinkshaming in the year of our lord 2023"

That's why we must go a different direction and start replying to "murder is bad" with "morality is fake, there is no good and bad in this world, murder disrupts the social order we have forced ourselves into in our attempt to find happiness in this horrifying existence is the phrasing you're looking for."

#this is what I do in IRL polite conversation and my friends start groaning #but yes to get back on topic I know exactly what you're talking about #this isn't an internet only thing in my experience #people do this in real life #people want to find something to call each other out on really really badly #because we have supressed other means of asserting dominance over each other but never adress the need itself I AM GETTING OUT OF TOPIC IM #SORRY IVE BEEN WRITTING AN ART SCHOOL PRESENTATION i will shut up now

[hella1975]

hella idk what to send to you for aftg im either bored or annoyed and I don't wanna just say bad things about it 😭 like that's just rude and yall obviously like it I DONT WANNA BE SOME DEBBY DOWNER MDMWKEM

I looked at the anti aftg tag too to see if I could intermingle there and last I checked it was a mix of fans obsessed with the series and haters being just a tad harsh imo, so i couldn't even do that RIP. I'm so lonesome in what is maybe a whole group of people gaslighting me 😔👊

honestly ive said this before and i always have to tread a very fine line with it because this isn't me saying it's OKAY or like. promotable. but i do think to an extent that aftg's problematicness is actually an aspect of what draws people in a lot. like the characters and their reactions to things feel real for who they are, what they've been through and the environments they were raised in if that makes sense? and then you go in the anti-aftg tag and it's just again and again 'they said THIS thing and acted THIS way in response to THIS scenario and it was PROBLEMATIC' and like. yeah. outside of the internet bubble you're in people do actually do that. like that behaviour exists. it IS problematic, well done. you pointed at a wall and called it a wall. but like? in real life people - PARTICULARLY deprived, traumatised people that typically don't ever get therapy or community or someone telling them why something is bad - DO act this way. ive said half of my love for andrew is literally just because he took an awful backstory and let it make him a complete cunt and ive NEVER seen a character do it as shamelessly as him before. and yeah there's the argument for how it's never resolved in the book where nora ties it with a bow and points at the bad behaviour so the readers can go 'see, this is wrong' and we all clap, but idk it just for me feels that when people point at the aftg characters and go problematic! problematic! problematic! it's like they're missing the point a bit.

the point being? that we need to be putting WAY more heat on the author. i really dislike her and a lot of her writing choices and her insistance of using slurs that aren't hers to reclaim and just because it happened to make the characters feel just that bit more authentic i can still acknowledge that she CLEARLY wrote it without characterisation in mind and just added all that problematic shit anyway. like i never get why there's so little focus on nora's writing decisions and thousands of posts just fucking CRUCIFYING the characters themselves and 'let's explain in detail why this behaviour is Morally Reprehensible and they should be Locked Up Forever'. like if u want to focus on the characters so bad and pretend they're the sole reason why aftg is Problematic and Bad then why is it so hard to acknowledge that someone raised the way they were might have some misinformed, ignorant beliefs. idk lol

#but i do also think im prone to viewing these characters as TOO real and i understand there's a line to be drawn between media and reality #like at what point does 'life imitates art' become just a genuinely shit piece of media #and at the end of the day im fully aware which end of the spectrum aftg is on LMAO but this is my 2 cents #like ive met so many people that have said absolutely heinous things that the internet would eat them alive for #like homophobic sexist shit you name it they've said it and it IS problematic and uncomfortable to listen to #but i also know that while teenagers online that would call them problematic were busy claiming some new fucking buzz word to throw around #those people were actively just fucking trying to survive. like they weren't learning about why misogyny is bad #because they were fucking addicted to drugs or living through poverty or some shit like they had BIGGER PROBLEMS #like not everyone got the education or life experiences you got and while it's valid to assume someone saying horrible things #is horrible themselves there's also the times it's just genuinely a misinformed ignorant person #like they'll say 'problematic' things and i'll point out why it's bad and they'll literally go 'oh i never thought of that.' that's it!!! #like i have this childhood friend whose life has been an absolute circus start to finish like COMPLETE instability i wont even get into it #low and behold she had NO ONE educating her about things and one time i had to explain to her why having abortion rights was important #bc she just out of nowhere said she was against abortions. and i initially was outraged and disappointed that this came from her #but i didn't patronise her or shout i just explained my angle on why i think they're good and she was on side immediately #cause she always had bigger problems than researching ethics and no one to guide her so she just absorbed the first opinion she came across #and in a small town from a working class family that opinion is typically not the nice woke answer the internet demands #and with aftg particularly andrew bc he's the one who gets a lot of slack for being violent and generally unreasonable #you have someone who has literally not had someone treat him kindly a single time in his life and each new person is a genuine safety threa #like the average person just does not have to deal with that! ofc they have more time to decide their political and moral compass! #and that's so relevant to real life! popularity for the monarchy is highest amongst the working class! the people voted for brexit! trump! #the lower classes and marginalised simply do not have the resources that higher classes do #and someone fighting for survival is not going to be reading twitter threads on cancel culture in their spare time #so many issues in the world can be eased so much quicker by kindness and patient non-patronising education #than just. pointing and calling 'problematic' at anything remotely uncomfortable #idk where this came from its 2am i should go to bed and instead im ranting not even about aftg anmore this is completely it's own thing now #i feel like i worded this badly too im gonna wake up to anons in the morning accusing me of like. condoning spiking #also gloomy i am SO sorry you are the true victim of this i went ENTIRELY off piste on this one please ignore this 😭 #ask