#ive just been seeing a lot of it recently

[b1mbodoll]

hihi ! i’m sososo extremely sorry for bein a bit ia lately!!! i recently celebrated my 21st bday n have been busy with birthday plans and just life in general !!!! but i have a few lil announcements bcus ive received lots of asks n dms recently n have a lot to discuss so i would appreciate if you all took the time to read this 🎀

first of all, i am super iffy about sharing my private life on here and do not appreciate questions regarding my hometown / where i’m from / even asking my ethnicity is a big no because you can nvr be too careful online. i’ve also gotten questions asking about why ive been so busy / not been writing and i hughly dislike them bc they seem intrusive and demanding. i have a life outside of tumblr and will not be sharing private details about myself with people i’m not close to!!!! i love my anons and followers so much n u guys know this but please respect my boundaries.

secondly, i’ve also received asks regarding a situation between an ex mutual of mine and i from a few months back and would greatly appreciate if they stopped!!!!! i wont go into detail about it because i honestly just want to forget about that person and the situation due to the mental distress it caused me and the negative feelings brought up when they / the situation are brought up, so again, please refrain from asking me about it because asks will be deleted and i will block you from sending anonymous asks if this persists.

third of all, i’ve been doing a lot of thinking regarding this and i won’t be taking official requests anymore. i love writing and fulfilling your fantasies n thoughts about idols but i’ve received too many demanding and hateful asks from people when their request is not posted. my asks will always be open for thirsting and suggesting ideas n if i enjoy it i’ll elaborate!!!!! but please do not expect a reply to every single ask sent it, i am only one person :( it breaks my heart to stop taking requests but it’s ultimately the best thing for me and my mental health.

lastly, PLEASE read my rules before sending in your thirsts / ideas / suggestions. time and time again i’ve had to reiterate boundaries and things i won’t write about because people are not taking the time to check my pinned posts and it’s tiring having to see multiple requests for kinks / scenarios i absolutely do not write for. it isn’t hard to check an author’s dni / byf and overall rules before asking something of them!!!!!!!!!!

oh one more thing!!!! i absolutely do NOT write for stray kids. they make me extremely uncomfortable and i don’t even have them listed in my “who i write for” section of my pinned post so, kindly, stop sending asks about them or i will have to block you :(

#♡.gabi barks #im so nervous to post this please dont hate me guys :( #i promise im not posting this to be mean or to shade anyone or anything like that! ive just been a little tired of having my boundaries #constantly disrespected and it’s really disheartening to receive asks demanding for their rq to be answered or #being reminded of such an awful experience that occured on here

[hiemaldesirae]

Since the death of God, there's been a vacancy open.

an angel!vox drawing from @kevin-ibw's salvation hotel au because i wanted to try my hand at drawing stained glass (never again, dear god)

#ive been having a lot of fun experimenting recently #this is one of my proudest pieces i think lol usually when i post its just something im like eh ig ill post #but i like it this time! never doing it again tho i think ill bash my head into a wall if i ever have to do stained glass design again #sigh. all that work and you cant even see it because vox is in the damn way... #🌗 art tag #hazbin hotel #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin vox

[protagonist-art]

redesigned creek cuz im sick of feeling rage every time i see him

#a lot offff this is based off rps with him :3 so if ur like why. that's why #im sick of rping him and seeing his ugly canon icon and having a physical visceral reaction #i want to see him in the new movies style SO BAD!!!! RAGRHH #also i went thru a lot of effort to make his trousers NOT neon yellow only for the filters i applied to turn them neon again #creek #trolls #redesign #art #fanart #my recent art has been so sketchy and non refined but i truly just cant b bothered atm #now realising ive hardly posted it here HOLD ONNN I will b posting all my recent art eventually #he clacks when he walks cuz i think its a very relaxing sound. namaste or whatever

[awakenthebeing]

Placing for storage even more things!!! Mix of general stuffs and doodles of some concepts I've seen and think about, and all that !! :>

#snufmin #yet again bc man.. thats all ive been drawing recently😭 #they make the heart feel kind and comfortable. creachers. #i really ought to post the long comics ive been doodling but they have a lot of mushy things and kisses. #it depends on my mood but we will see!! overall those 2 are just on my mind🙏😭 #notably i post a lot of said comics on my insta stories so if you did want to see them theyre in my highlights for arts :3!

[mutilatedmass]

i love cannibalism!!!

#🫀.txt #i just have to get it out #ive been seeing a lot of cannibal hate recently

[starielwastaken]

Streams and School #1

Those who know me know I love to watch streams, (longer) videos, movies and listen to music in the background while at school.

In particular I love watching streams, hermits (besides Grian as he's my main) videos and vids from G's second channel (like GIGGS Phasmo).

Today's been so cool though as I've watched Joe and Cleo stream together and Iskalls (on silent mostly) for a bit, watched a few GIGGS, some Jacksfilms, and hour of Pearl's stream, a little Martyns and now Impulse's stream.

Wednesday is normally a weekend for me however I'm behind on some work and we're moving in a few days so I need to do some extra work. So I've been able to watch stuff while working and now take a proper break to pay attention to the streams for a while which is great!!

#hermitcraft #stariel posts #stariel convos #zombie cleo #pearlescentmoon #iskall85 #joe hills #online school #ive watched the hermits for ages but its only recently now that im working online that ive been able to watch the others a LOT more #which just makes me SO happy!! #jacksfilms #streams and school #i love just seeing people in chat or when diff hermits 'cameo'/visit eachother during the stream its just great #rendog #grian #scott smajor #impulsesv #falsesymmetry #martyn inthelittlewood

[comidyye]

ART DUMP

+ comments n talkin about chars!!.. everything from father figure bob to happy fella and chucky : 3 (still.. still mostly just bob though)

whiteboard doodles/just him doodles ^

very important !!! do you understand me .. what do you think

i seriously think the cult fucked bob up real worse than he was before.. and i think him and skiddad should have interactions : 3

i dont think bob and lila were related.. but even if it wasnt likely in canon id like think he was some kind of guardian for her

CW FOR gore in this last one (its dextr portraits next to bob absolutely munching on smone + a corpse) Because i just cant stay away from draiwing fun gore apparently

+ ranting in tags !

#doodle #artists on tumblr #spooky month #spooky month fanart #bob velseb #streber #spooky month streber #skiddad #dexter erotoph #dexter doll #spooky month dexter #spooky month lila #tender treats #chucky is.. my fav slasher : 33 #i think?!?! i just rly like slashers n hes the one i kno most about but ive been branching out recently #u cn see a hellbilly bob doodle hidden in the whiteboard.. couldnt stay aaway #i realy like how i drew streber n skiddad there. streber looks so soft #i dont ship ratmeat but its neat if u do never change : 3 #ive been REAALY thinking about how the cult would mess with bob actually. a lot of ideas. will rant if asked !! #theres that doodle with streber and dex holding that rat and #theyr actualy my rarepair !!!!!! ratbat... i love them dearly.. #it stirred up in mhy mind as Soon as i found out strebers fav animal is Rat (from pelo qna) #too bad they both died #cw blood #cw gore #gore #blood #bobs mug in the lazy weeknd thing says i <3 lobotomies #i have exams soon.. wish me luck : 3

[truelyaccuracy]

DustBunny thoughts

Okay i know that this is a small ship and i get why ppl would ship Mirko and Shigaraki but also, as someone who has re-read/re-watched the anime n manga… Shigaraki and her would not get along- lemme explain-

First of all, ppl can ship whatever they want! I just want to talk about the ship bc ive been thinking of it a lot lately

So, lets start with; Miriko would def put herself to a high standard cuz thats obv. Now, her and tomura r prob masochists and have high durability, but, she literally calls shigaraki (prob other villains too) “things” and “it”, shes the hero to dehumanize villains and shigaraki would def not like her 😔

Like shes cool and shes fast, shes actually one of the few heroes who actually do their job snd hurry to the scene, example being Hood (a nomu) vs Endeavor while other heroes (annoyingly enough) just watched from the TV

Mirko wouldn’t like Tomura either, she’d prob say shit about him (not so blatantly tho) while just referring him as a thing. Shigaraki prob expects that from heroes but godd, we know he still gets pissed off at things he says hes moved on from, and we know he gets annoyed with how heroes r towards villains, its in his whole speech during the first war. He’d just use Mirko against other heroes and herself

Idk just put miriko with hawks or smth, two toxic heroes should stay together and not degrade villains by dehumanizing them and their disabilities yknow?

I mean, they’re literally barbie and ken.

#I just had to say all this cuz ive been seeing dustbunny a lot recently #and i want them to be as heartfelt as ppl make them out to be #everytime i see them like that after kicking my legs about them i think (no way she’d do that - i wish she’d do that) #ppl can ship them im not saying to stop- im judt saying what ive been thinking of for months on end lol #someone said on twitter that ppl just want a strong woman to peg tomura #and valid #but it’d be so degrading bc of how she woulf be towards tomura #he’d hate it #he wouldn’t like anything coming from her mouth #tomura definitely hates to be degraded too #that much is obv- #bnha #mha #tomura shigaraki #mha mirko #rumi usagiyama #dustbunny #keigo takami #hawks

[responsiblelemon]

It actually does not diminish anyone's identity if an ace-spec or aro-spec person identifies as queer. What do you think the A in LGBTQIA stands for? What is the point of trying to withhold the label of queer from our ace, aro, and aroace friends? Do we all need to submit queer applications to the queer police to make sure we're all the right amount of queer? That would benefit no one in the real world.

#ive been seeing lots of aphobic bullshit recently #just stop #ace #asexual #aro #aromantic #aroace

[tinukis]

thinking about when i first read dressrosa, i couldnt stop thinking about trans sabo

i just looked at him and went "yeah. gender."

i still hold thsi hc to my heart .. none of the asl bros are cishet

#one piece headcanons #revolutionary sabo #sabo #ive been thinking abt sabo a lot recently #i have no thoughts just sabo #i want to get another figure #god i wouldve loved to see film red sabo #tin talks

[southieparkie]

one thing that i find very funny in fanfics is when i can tell when something small like a character’s appearance/general personality is written as something the author genuinely enjoys vs a major thematic plot point incorporated solely to be a contrarian

i see this in multiple south park fanfics but i think the ship i’ve seen it in the most is style. i will read a description that says “6’10 kyle broflovski is bored one day after spinning his 150 lb. basketball on his pinkie finger when suddenly!!!! omega onlyfans goth stan marsh who loves chess pops up on his twitter feed!!! will they fall in love?” i can. i can tell what you’re doing here 😭

#sp style #obviously ive never actually read a description exactly like that #but there will be times where i search the style tag and i just go. huh. #that’s extremely almost irrationally different from what i usually see here #i mean it adds variety to the kyle broflovski/stan marsh tag so. write away!!!! #also ive been seeing a lot of tall kyle recently. that is cool 👍🏾 #so does this mean short kyle lovers can be left the hell alone now???

[questionablealibi]

What if you lot woke up and checked on my blog to see if im still on or not and you just see that i completely modified oneil and elias that theyre quite literally unrecognizable what would you lot do then

#/silly #/gen #I have been #thinking of completely giving both of my stanley and narrator a makeover because #NOT THAT I DIDNT LIKE THEIR DESIGNS BEFORE #Its just that ive #The longer i stare the more #“not mine” they look #So i MIGHT REDESIGN THEM #COMPLETELY #HAIR FACE CLOTHES AND ALL #I WILL BREAK THEM DOWN AND BUILD THEM INTO SOMETHING NEW #Now that i actually feel comfortable with my artstyle /pos #I wanna branch out a little with designs! #And I am still VERY MUCH invested in tsp!! ^^ just ran out of a bit of creative juice recently #But i AM active on discord (server) ^^ you lot can see me there #Nyways thats all for now! Maybe you lot will get sneak peaks who knows ;] #Alibi!

[deoidesign]

Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference. #like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour. #ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before. #and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!! #super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot? #so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

[tunapesto]

_(:3」∠)_

#if anyone cares ive been recently watching dr related things.. so like drphs1 (bec s2 sucked production wise ngl i checked out immediately) #then dr:ukvtw because mrina summers was there n i like her a lot #then i finished watching s7 #initially started for violet chcki because i saw her grand performance a few years ago and its rewired my brain since #i have also watched the trixie mttel + ktya webseries a bit so thats another reason #and i really love all of them wow.. particularly w ktya i think shes so cool and goofy #to the point that i have actually started drawing realistic portraits or. attempts at least #u know. u ever see some1 so beautiful u fall to ur knees . Etc #shes swag thats that #anyhow i just wanted to ramble zzzszs #also also. plans to watch s5 ? i forgot which. whatsver the one that has bianca dl rio on it. cause i saw a bit of her stuff back then too #then all stars s2+3 for ktya and trxie yeas #after that idk we'll see..

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought. #i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks. #nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder? #but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student. #everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path. #one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it. #maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for. #unrelated

[spidergirl-fibula]

listening to any music lately?

Trans women yelling at me, mainly

#actual answer Femtanyl has been on loop since like august #a lot of Changeline & Issabrokie & Machine Girl too since their stuff is pretty easy to listen to casually and they have. so much. #ive been listening to some of the stuff i see recommended here which has creates a nice variety #i saved some in a playlist including Zand; lustsickpuppy; Goblin Daycare; My Dead Girlfriend; TWINK OBLITERATOR; and Ada Rook #but generally i default to hip-hop or anything loud or both #i finally started listening to MF Doom recently #and ill listen to anything on youtube recommended that looks interesting (usually that means uhh conventionally bad or ugly if ur boring) #oh shit and most recently ive been listening to dungeon synth cause i started a Rune game and wanted music that wasnt just dark souls #i think Poppet was one i found on a rec post here #oh and i recently decided to check the wayback machine for Isserley because i found her music in october and then she mustve wiped out all #of her social media presence in the next few months so anyway im glad i found that again #oh and also Youth The Rich and also Food House and also Newgrounds Death Rugby and also Yameii Online and als #why did i say all that. sorry. uhh yeah i dont really listen to much music #music