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#ive been stuck as a very effeminate 12 year old boy for over half my life.
gaycatastrophe
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3 years
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#cw: some passive suicidal ideation
#cw: dysphoria talk
#one thing about living by myself through All This
#is in being forced to confront others’ perceptions of me much less often than i did pre covid
#i have learned that my internal perception of physical realities of myself is just. SO skewed.
#in my head when i dont have to confront Being Perceived i am much more masculine looking and have a deeper voice than i actually do
#like the internal voice narrating my thoughts is deeper than i hear my own voice
#and the way i hear my own voice is deeper than my voice actually is
#and stronger than my voice actually is at this point too
#so when i hear a recording of myself im like who the fuck is that
#but also. im 28 years old and yet
#ive always had a touch of peter pan syndrome and i think
#i genuinely think part of me feels like a child bc i didnt go through testosterone puberty
#ive been stuck as a very effeminate 12 year old boy for over half my life.
#im trying very hard not to get suicidal about it bc what i actually want
#what i actually want is not to cease but to start over
#bc even going on T now like im not gonna get taller and im not even in the range of normal heights for short men to be
#and my dad is 6’
#and idk i like being me but i dont want to be a tiny twink forever. fuck.
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