#ive been itching to indulge in drawing eyes again this'll be a good excuse; & if i fix it up ill have a good reason to actually ride it lmao

[meistoshia]

wheres the “do i contribute anything to the rpc no but here i am” post bc thats been a mood for at least a few weeks now

#i wanna write but also my energy's been getting swallowed up my other things like keeping ma company in the kitchen & playing games #hell ive even been reading more lately #im still cleaning my room after starting like gotta be two weeks ago at least #i still havent finished dealing w my bookcase & ive still got all my drawers pulled out & in stacks & it's a mess #arguably a bigger one than before i started #but at least my bookcase is looking halfway presentable now so thats good #im. pretty directionless rn bc im on break from uni for the sake of my mental health which is likely why im less. anywhere lately #ive been directionless for a long time but it's been hitting me the most the past month or so #ykno what im gnna kick myself to really focus on my room tmrrw #maybe clearing things up in my surroundings will help sort some other things out in my internal spaces as well #i could just keep moping & crying all the time but honestly it's getting boring like cmon brain switch it up a bit #i need to do something stupid & reckless. & soon. #or at least productive but not pressing #oh i could fix up my skateboard & give it a new paintjob; it's got a sick skull on it but ive got enough things w skulls as is #ive been itching to indulge in drawing eyes again this'll be a good excuse; & if i fix it up ill have a good reason to actually ride it lmao #first my room tho. ive got too many pets to keep towers of drawers around. drowers if you will #i keep finding myself come to solid conclusions & decide on solutions in the process of writing tags on posts like this #yall have no idea how many posts ive deleted in the middle of making them out of realizing the answer to my problem sdkfjhg #guess i know now why so many people talk to themselves to get through something; reminds me of programmers & toy ducks #* !! pkmn is autistic culture.