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aurheatum · 8 months
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toa anniversary mun day
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Name: 
Nel, i mean it’s Sarah technically, but once you start getting multiple notes in the mail with Nel on them I think it counts. Nelfes works too. I respond to most anything tbh
Pronouns:
she/her or they/them
Birthday (no year):
Dec 6th Saint Nicholas Day : )
Where are you from? What is your time zone?
Chicago. CST [GMT-5].
Roleplay experience:
Over ten years, started on Neopets and other forums. Moved to Gaia Online and then Tumblr indie space some time in 2011.
Got any pets?
Baby boy
Favorite time of year:
Springtime or Autumn
Some interests and things you like:
I’ve always been super into mythology, all of them. I used to think that Carl Jung was onto something with the collective unconscious but then Anthropology and the reality of multilineal evolution ruined that for me (college will teach you things); but that’s alright because humans their ability to create and interpret their surroundings with equal parts love and fear is still pretty cool.
Some funfacts & trivia about you:
-Agnostic but i work in an occult library (it’s pretty quiet; the new age bookshop across the street has all the events)
-One time on Gaia Online I was kicked out of an Okami RP bc I didn’t make my posts aesthetic enough, and I thought it was just the most heart wrenching thing -I’m not sure what people stand to gain back in Ye Old Runescape luring new players out into the wild and PKing them but I was gullible enough to follow some other players at like 7 yrs old and this would have happened to me if i wasnt SUPER good at clicking my mouse and running out of there. Surviving such a harrowing experience made me think i was truly invincible.
-I was supposed to write my final paper for my Japanese Buddhism class on… surprise, Japanese Buddhism but I really wanted to talk about Kenji Miyazawa’s writings instead so I spun it through a lens of his Nichiren conversion and its impact on his poetry. My prof saw right through me but I still got an A.
What non-Fire Emblem games do you play?
Tales of RPG series raised me as a person so u know. I like Persona 1-2 era SMT though I’ve played Nocturne and IV as well. What else? Okami, LOZ: Twilight Princess, farm sims and visual novels. Genshin, on and off.
Favorite Pokemon type & Pokemon:
Psychic; wooper family (clogsire im so glad u joined us)
How did you get into Fire Emblem?
My neighbor would bring over Path of Radiance so I could play it on my gamecube with my own save back in the day
What Fire Emblem games have you played?
Tellius duology. Sacred Stones, FE 13-16; currently doing Blazing Blade. Archanea one day.
First Fire Emblem game:
POR
Favorite Fire Emblem game:
Tie between 3 Houses and Radiant Dawn
Any Fire Emblem crushes? 😳 
It’s rhea okay. I wont lie and i wont pretend it isnt evidence of my spectacular taste either
If you’ve played the following games, who was your first S support? Who would you S support nowadays? - Awakening: Tiki (first S support was olivia bc i wanted a pink haired kid)  - Fates: honestly i’d have to revisit, i know i first married niles as m!corrin - Three Houses: I married each lord on their route tho it’s much funnier if you dont i think (First route was Crimson Flower but I saved at the split so I could marry Rhea first lmao) - Engage: Saphir 🥰
Favorite Fire Emblem class:
War Cleric or Qi Adept
If you were a Fire Emblem character, what would be your class?
I’d be the mage you have to drag around and treat with baby gloves only to learn like a single good spell I think
If you were a Three Houses character, what would be your affiliation?
Leicester Alliance tbh
If you were an Engage character, which Emblem would you Engage with?
Based purely on mechanics bc i love them all prob Soren dlc, Sigurd, Celica, and Lyn.
How did you find TOA?
End of 2020/beginning of 2021 I was really trying to get back into rp but couldn’t get into the various systems on discord. One community that I was trying was affiliates with The Officer’s Academy and an active tumblr community rly caught my interest. The rest is history!
Current TOA muses:
Rhea 3H, Micaiah Radiant Dawn, and miss Hortensia engage
Who was your first TOA muse? If you don’t have them anymore, could you see yourself picking them up again?
This blog right here! I put her down for a bit and probably will again but. It’s not like she ever leaves, instead of brain there is Rhea u see (i bear this burden so u do not have to)
Have you had any other TOA muses?
I played Sephiran for a hot sec and Ingrid for around a yearish iirc. Both very fun
Do you think you have a type of character you gravitate towards?
Not really? I need to be able to connect with them on some level obviously, and I tend to prefer characters who have like a clear childhood or background for why they are That Way. Micaiah was actually p difficult for this reason but being able to really shape her based on what little we know also made me ever more fond. ♥️ I love to stare at pegasusknight and serenesforest supports pages late at night tehe
What do you believe you enjoy writing the most?
I don’t particularly plan ahead but I really love when threads reflect past character development whether in a thread with the same muse or different. TOA extended universe… I’d like to do that more I think but first I have to actually make a support page huh? Since Rhea’s back she’s made more bonds though and that makes me happy.
Favorite TOA-related memory: Definitely Unlocked 2021! It was my first event after really starting to warm to the TOA community and i was an awe of the scope of the events. The mods thought this far ahead?! We can do this?! Every event since has just been even more fun but the surprise and intrigue i felt then really stayed with him
*How do you pronounce TOA?
Toe-uh. Like Dee-En-Dee. you know.
Got any delusions that didn’t see the light of day that you’d like to share? 😉 
I think I mentioned I muse Hubert before, and also that I can't really seeing myself maintaining a blog for him? So other than that, no. I do think Nimh could be quite a bit of fun though *laughs*
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asiogie · 1 year
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okay fine drops the dream bodyhair manifesto in ur askbox. fine. if u really insist. maybe i will. Okay i’ll do it. starting off strong we have the drarmpits (dream armpits). i always feel like pits r underrated on here and maybe just generally bc i dont ever see people other than me specifically talking about them most of the time. but i just think theres something so … idk how to put it into words but theres just something so human about them that i love likekee i just don’t know. anyways yeah buries my face in them or whatever. next!!! his chest. i dont think its like rewallly super hairy or anything but there’s enough there for me to think about and feel lightheaded doing so. his hairy fucking tits ….. moving swiftly on to one of my favourites. the happy drail :3 one of these days hes gonna reach up or stretch or something on camera that’ll give me a glimpse of his hairy stomach that i then just won’t let go of. it’ll be like that one photo of him sat in a laundry basket but a billion times worse which brings us onto his legs. his beautiful legs. one of the only sections of this that ive seen outside of my own uh Visions shall we say anyways i fucking love his legs theyre the perfect amount of hairiness and i want to floss my teeth on them who said that .. i’ve already mentioned it but that laundry basket photo is my favourite droto of all time i think (id put it here but im sure u know exactly the one i mean). i love all of em but that one is really special to meee. AND I ALMOST FORGOT. the drubes. again i need to bury my face here on my way down to- anyways Anyways. his beard .. idk if that counts but like its hair and on his body soo. i love the colour of it (i think that colour transfers to everything else ive talked about here tbh like that makes sense i think?) anyways something about beard burn goes here. and lastly his hair .. again maybe doesnt count but it’s hair on his body and i want to play w it as he catnaps on my lap etc. i could go on for hours like i could seriously wax poetic about dream and. his beautiful hairy tits. and there we go!! i hope this was enjoyable to read i had the best time picturing all this as i went. urm. dream my boyfriend who i kiss and bury my face in the chest of everyday Yippee!!!! im gonna write and publish a poetry book entirely about. the drody hair and nobody will ever know. except me and u and anyone who reads this. idk im just typing words at this point i feel rly dizzy i need to bury my head in his chest inneedd to smell him <- crazy person thing to say (tagged on the end of this okay. sure). anywaysss hands u the deepest darkest part of my brain drinks some chamomile tea and goes to sleeb for 10hrs zzz <3
really good fucking work anon just really great literature in the askbox today
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racmune · 5 months
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heyyyy im racmune, i use he/him pronouns. i draw a lot and write fic sometimes! im a weird n i post whatevers :P
my inbox is always open n im pretty friendly, if you wanna send in an ask u dont gotta be shy!
art commissions: not open atm, subject 2 change
dni, excluding what should be obvious: support israel, te(rf), swerf, truscum, exclusionist, etc
i also block very liberally, if you dont fit this criteria n ive blocked you it aint personal
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more about me
current hyperfixations: the scratched universe (STRAPS YOU TO A CHAIR AND FORCES YOU TO WATCH IT), scoutpauling, tf2
likes include but not limited to: music, anime, fanfiction, video games, chattin w/ buds, sleeping, drawing, computers, ftm history n such :P
dislikes include but not limited to: rude people, intense unfamiliar tastes n textures ..... uhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk what else tbh
sideblogs
@last-seen-in-wonderland - pastel/cute aesthetic sideblog. for the art (somewhat inactive)
@gnu-metal - 90s-00s (some exceptions) internet/computers aesthetic. for the gender.. AND THE AUTISM.
tag list :P
blacklistable tags
#blood
#gore
#unsanitary
#body horror
#flashing lights
#eyestrain
#loud
#unreality
#liminal spaces
#fnaf movie - for spoilers
#spto - scott pilgrim anime spoilers
personal tags i guess?
#queue - my queue tag, mehh ill make it a pun at some point
#fave - fave posts tag
#favefavefave - super/ult fave posts tag
#andy rambles - my text post tag
#ask - ask tag
#anon - anon tag (non-anons are tagged by username but tooo many to list here)
#tagged/sent - posts sent to me via dm or that ive been tagged in :3
#racmune art - my art tag
#racmune fics - my fic tag
#commissions - art commissions ive done and posts relating to my commissions
#clips - tag for game clips
#scoutposting - my scout tag :3c
#mongusposting - mongus tag
#friend art - art made by friendsss
#trans scout - tag for scout being trans (i dont use this tag as much anymore)
#ftm stuff - tag for ftm related stuff :P history, art, etc
#rule 63 - genderbend tag
#art inspo - tag 4 my art inspiration
#later - tag 4 posts i want to come back to
#gif - gif tag
#gifset - tag 4 posts with more than one gif... this is not what a gifset is but its what ive been using this tag for oops
#stim - stim tag
#mecore - stuff that is genderful.... "MEEEEE"
#important - important posts (i dont use this as much anymore either)
#bangers - posts w over 100 notes :p
#1k - posts w over 1k notes
#2k - posts w over 2k notes
old dtiys
#racdtiys15
#racdtiys16
fandoms/stuff im into
#the scratched universe
#nope 2022
#emesis blue
#lil pootis
#uramichi oniisan
#danshi koukousei no nichijou
#cool doji danshi
#math
#poetry
#webweave
#john k samson
#mf doom
#re - resident evil
#aphmau
#mlb - miraculous ladybug
#tadc - the amazing digital circus
#paradigm game
#fnaf
#beetlejuice
#brokeback mountain
#i love you phillip morris
#dog day afternoon
#romeos 2011
#portal
#half life
#spiderverse
#the boondocks
#enstars
#hi-fi rush
#legend of zelda
#disco elysium
#scott pilgrim
#brba - breaking bad
#death note
#hbomberguy
#eftf2 - escape from tf2
#bully game
#dungeon meshi
#sally face
#creepypasta
#thief and the cobbler
#ultrakill
#gay shame
ship tags
#scoutpauling - scout x miss pauling
#heavymedic - heavy x medic
#freedom fries - soldier x spy
#boots n bombs - soldier x demoman
#flash fire - scout x pyro
#hop scotch - scout x demoman
#heavyscout - heavy x scout
#pyrosoldier - pyro x soldier
#soldierheavy - soldier x heavy
#helmet party - soldier x engineer
#fruit scones - soldier x medic
#american aviators - soldier x sniper
#demopyro - demoman x pyro
#texas toast - engineer x pyro
#pyropauling - pyro x miss pauling
#burn ward - pyro x medic
#bushfire - sniper x pyro
#pyrospy - pyro x spy
#demoheavy - demoman x heavy
#demoengie - demoman x engineer
#jagerbombs - medic x demoman
#sword van - demoman x sniper
#bomb voyage - demoman x spy
#engieheavy - engineer x heavy
#spoovy - spy x heavy
#science party - medic x engineer
#sniperpauling - sniper x miss pauling
#trucks n vans - engineer x sniper
#bushmed - sniper x medic
#napoleon complex - engineer x spy
#medispy - medic x spy
#adminhale - administrator x saxton hale
#zhannascout - zhanna x scout
#soldierzhanna - soldier x zhanna
#scoutmaspy - scouts ma x spy
#zhannapauling - zhanna x miss pauling
#adminsniper - administrator x sniper
#zhannascoutpauling - zhanna x scout x miss pauling
#tf2 deep fried desire - scout x fried chicken lady
#tf2 lady and the tramp - miss pauling x fried chicken lady
#swing and a missfire - scout x miss pauling x pyro
#engiedemoheavy - engineer x demoman x heavy
#soldierdemozhanna - soldier x demoman x zhanna
#masked mechanic - fixer x jumpsuit (the scratched universe)
#fruit punch - foster x p.rick (the scratched universe)
#purplephone - purple guy x phone guy (fnaf)
#scollace - scott x wallace (scott pilgrim)
#toddallace - todd x wallace (scott pilgrim)
#kowalkins - pete kowalski x jimmy hopkins (bully / canis canem edit)
^other tags 2 be added but tumblr doesnt let me add any more hyperlinks so sorry abt that 0_o
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archonsabyss · 17 days
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no but sunghoon though 😏 first of all, beautiful beauty marks on him~ second of all, style and grace from his ice skater days def carried over. third of all!!! he's constantly buffering like iconic king behavior! but also he's so funny and kind. i too am a victim of homie hopping and i don't mind; sunghoon is def the prince we need in these trying times 🥰
like i had to think about why haven't i noticed heeseung before it's because he looked too baby for me. which is rich considering sunoo has ALWAYS looked baby, but a different kind of baby? like babygirl baby is not the same as baby baby. babes what am i even saying D: but yes, i am looking at heeseung reels and photos, consuming so much heeseung headcanons like HORRENDOUSLY down bad c: i love it tehehe~
it's so funny how you said to wash my hair bc that day you replied i was in desperate need of a wash day ಥ_ಥ but yes pls take care of yourself~ a little goes a long way
babes blade's banner came and went! tbh i thought about pulling for him, as i use him as support for calyxes and echo of war. but... i have too many destruction characters, and what i really need is a better lightening character. i swear whether is genshin or hsr i always need a better lightening!! 〴⋋_⋌〵i'm skipping the current banner to save for acheron. also penacony has been so much fun to play!
awww babes (✿ ♥‿♥) i'm just giving you the bare minimum~ your works are divine, illustrious, engaging, and so so sooooo beautiful. i've been around fanfics for awhile now but none has captured my heart the way yours have. you truly deserve the world babe <3
okay and!!! your recent l&ds work!!!!! why am i barking!! i don't even know these men!!!!! how did you do it!!!! what did you say, "The whimpers that escape your lips are like the melodic notes produced by strumming a guitar and the hands that orchestrate you are as adept and efficient as the music they craft." like POETRY BABES I WILL NEVER LIE the words you use! the story they create!!!! i squeal!!!!!!! downloading the game right MEOW!
₊⊹ Sunghoon is literally perfect. He embodies the feeling of a kdrama moment. What I mean is when time stands still, hair tousled by the breeze, the gleaming sun's warmth radiating perfectly, and your heart fluttering with that giddy feeling. But also his personality, he's probably the only (bias) I bias that is alot like me. Loud introverts! He's just so fun and chill and comforting I really can't express it. Tho, him and San both make me want to run into their arms, hug them and never let go. They look like the give amazing hugs.
I totally understand, Hee stood out the second he entered frame for me but I think it was also heavily because of his singing. Sometimes a member only really capture ur attention later on, like at the right moment. What ur experiencing rn is exactly what I'm going through with sunghoon. Ive always noticed him or knew him by name and face, but only after blessed cursed era did I start having complications with biasing. Since then, it's been a constant back and forth. I start watching every sunghoon clip I could get my hands on! Edits, fics.. Devoured. ENJOY it hehe❤️
I LOVE DESTRUCTION characters🤭 I love things that go boom and bang!! (like Caleb) I need to play hsr! Ur hyping me up towards it
If I deserve the world, just know you're right there within it! Only reason I'd ever accept my own world is to create a safe haven and comforting home for people like you! Us together.
I feel ur a destructive character of ur own because my heart... All ur compliments are going straight to my head and heart, an arrow hitting its mark and a wound open and oozing. I'VE always thought poetry was absolutely beautiful and magnificent so I love trying to incorporate pieces! And getting a response like this makes it all the more worth it. I'M GLAD I GOT U HAHAHA. But I'm struggling sm with addiction I need to go on a serious break 🙌
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whumpshaped · 2 months
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Hey, hier ist der deutsche Anon von gestern!
I'm so sorry, I thought german was your native language — didn't want to passive-aggressively pressure you into picking up DuoLingo, of all things 😅😬 (the update that removed the skill tree made the appbso godawful..)
Sadly, I don't have any great german whump recommendations either - german writing onkine seems rare, I know a bunch of german creators but they all exclusively write and chat in english (which is why I mistook you for one, LOL).
The actual reason why I asked you, is because in my experience, reading unexpectedly whumpy stuff in your native language in a book for example just *completely* overruns you. I tend to feel more strongly when hearing/reading in my native language.
But on the other hand, german is notorious for having absolutely disgusting, unappealing dirty talk/sex words in general ('breast warts' for nipples and 'sheath' for vagina, urgh). So it's a fickle thing, ha ha.
Sorry for teasing and then not delivering! 😅 Maybe someone reading this *does* know good german whump that is meant as such!
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IM SO GLAD UR BACK.
it is in fact not my native language, im hungarian :) but yeah theres a BUNCH of german whumpers here who all write in english, and from my experience u guys have a particular talent for it😭 its so good.
also this is super controversial but im loving all the updates theyre rolling out........ also no im glad u did. again, yesterday was the first day in maybe 5 yrs that i spoke any german and it rly reminded me how much i adored the language and wanted to pick it up anyway. then apparently by complete coincidence u sent that anon and my pattern seeking mammal brain was like this is a sign
i do love well written hungarian literature that has whump, but all the shit online makes me cringe so bad. and i know its in my head mostly (or the fact that im not looking in the right places?) but yeah. what usually gets me is poetry. hungarian poetry is extremely good. im still looking for that one poem of the guy listing off all the things he loves abt his muse and he goes into incredible detail and starts getting unhinged w it and starts going on abt how he loves her organs and her guts and etc etc. its visceral. literally. we have such good poetry and well all poets r depressed so its always a little whumpy /j
it definitely hits different. i mean, its my native language. that always hits different. i should rly read more hungarian stuff bc my vocab is honestly deteriorating-
IVE HEARD THE DIRTY WORD COMPLAINT BEFORE. i used to follow a german kink blog (it was all in english i found out later that the blogger was german) and she always said she doesnt even ever dirty talk bc its just Bad😭😭 rip. im very bad w any dirty words tbh in any language. thats why i dont write smut ever <3 IT JUST MAKES ME CRINGE I REACT TO HAVING TO SAY/WRITE THOSE WORDS LIKE A REPRESSED CHRISTIAN HOUSEWIFE. but! i think hungarian has decent words? idk! hungarians who have sex please sound off, is the dirty talk good? /j
bro that woman sounds awesome. i wish her the best forever and ever.
AND... what did i wanna say. wait. OH YEAH. i did go looking for german whump and .... i found tatort whump??? i mean hey.
bonus, i took the duolingo test and i skipped ahead a bunch bc apparently im still extremely good and talented and amazing /j bonus bonus, lily should mind her business. dont look at my suitcase
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bealovesmarauders · 1 year
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hii honey <33 could i get a
🧜🏻‍♀️mermaid - send me a description of yourself (personality-wise, hobbies, favorite things, physical characteristics, or all of the above, whatever you’re most comfy with!) and i’ll ship you with someone :) pls include gender preference and fandom!!
for either gilmore girls or the dead poets society please? omg im so excited to see who u ship me with!! 🤍 im bisexual/bicurious with a male preference x
my name is eva rose (although u already know that lmao). i'm a ravenclaw and an enfp <33 im a sagittarius in vedic astrology and a capricorn with a libra moon in western
i'm 5''3 with auburn curly hair and a pretty petite hourglass figure. i have freckles pretty much all year round - but only on my cheeks and the tip of my nose. my eyes are blue but look green in certain lighting. ever since i was abt 5 or 6 ive always wanted to get a couple of tattoos but im not old enough yet 😭
i would describe myself as observant, fun, genuine, intuitive and witty. i like to get to know people & ask them questions, im pretty open personally. how much i talk changes massively depending on my mood although i do end up rambling about nothing once i get invested in the conversation lol. i like talking about philosophy and politics and talking about stupid imaginary scenarios with my friends lol
i can be quite anxious & insecure sometimes, but i just need someone to talk to & then i'll be ok. i cry a lot, just because i need to let my emotions out <3 despite all this, i think i'm pretty confident.
i've been described as jo march & lizzie bennett & i agree, but i also think im a bit like meg tbh.
i feel most at home during autumn & during starry nights - i always glance up at the moon & take notice of its phases. <3 i like adventures and old cities - but at the end of the day i prefer being at home. i love art galleries, classic fiction, (fave poet is yeats although i i haven't actually read much poetry lol), astronomy, late night conversations, biking and listening to music - i like the beatles, fleetwood mac, abba, david bowie and the smiths
i love it when a person feels like home to me <3 i'm also a massive hopeless romantic and my love languages are quality time & physical touch
tysm bea :))
hi lovely<33 i ship you with tristan dugray!
he probably has a little nickname for you (and he'll play it off, but whenever you call him 'pretty boy' or something he just melts). he's pretty cheeky so the teasing might get a bit out of hand sometimes. i think he'd be so so interested in talking politics and philosophy with you!! i like to think that tristan's actually really academically smart (and lowkey a ravenclaw like you but chilton screams ravenclaw so maybe im projecting here), he just doesn't use his potential. but i think you could give him a little nudge in the right direction- the art gallery dates and the fact that he's constantly looking over your shoulder at your books helps.
tristan loves making out. like i cannot express enough how much he adores it. so the physical touch love language plays out really well- i think he struggles a bit more with quality time cause he uses a sort of mischevious persona some of the time to hide his genuine qualities. but you'd probably develop some banter, you'd ask him questions and he'd answer (whether he's a good liar or not is up to you), and thats how you'd grow close. he'd also carry your poetry books everywhere and he'd be really sad if your moon phases didnt fit together (like the tiktok trend lmao).
also just the entirety of gilmore girls is so autumn so right away, assuming you lived in stars hollow, tristan would pretend to hate all the autumn events but he'd secretly love them (he probably got lots of attention from ms patty).
idk if you'll like this or not but i genuinely think tristan's a good guy, albeit one with bad boundaries (but he's also like really rich so it kinda makes sense). i really wish rory had gotten a chance to date him in the show tbh, he had so much potential.
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castielsparkle · 1 year
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hii angelsdean here, i saw you reblogged my art ask game so i wanted to send you a few! palette, inspiration, crayon
omg angelsdean hi!! thank u so much, and thank u for making it its very cool!! ^_^ sorry about the late response, was working on a piece actually lol!
palette: ooh, this ones tough, im like split right in the middle with two choices hehe. i quite love using varying shades and hues of blues! but most of my art ends up being kind of a peachy, almost rosy orange-pink-purple kind of palette :P it always starts out very blue but if i fully finish a piece it usually ends up shifting towards the latter. i love blue seeing as i am a blue guy myself but i can def appreciate both of those palettes!! very fun to work with :)
inspiration: OOH this is so so dear and special to me,, i draw inspiration from most anything that i can!! which includes but isnt limited to: davinci's sketches, baroque art in general, 70s-80s and 2000s retrofuturism (tbh 50s-2000s retrofuturism entirely is just so<333) i was big on the deviantart 2010s like, furry and mlp scene as well LOL so i get insp from there too from time to time! i also have an appreciation for other forms of art such as music, makeup, poetry, dance, etc, and i love kind of translating stuff from there into physical/drawn art :) i also take huge inspiration from my day to day life, the things around me, and my friends, and ofc, all of the media im interested in! (spn, mlp, dexter, stranger things, teotfw etc!) i think i am most inspired/motivated by my life experiences and animals and my passion for biology/anatomy :) i love to create just to create!
crayon: ive been drawing quite literally as long as i can remember! there wasnt ever a time where i wasnt in my memory, i am very very passionate about art in all of its forms and a strong believer that there is so much soul and life and Humanity in creating and sharing and viewing/observing/experiencing art, whether its telling stories or dancing or singing or drawing, i just love love love art. dont get me started on ancient cave drawings LMAO. but anyways sorry that was a tangent, point being that art is very intrinsic to my being, but to get back on topic, ive been drawing for my entire conscious life :) i remember as a wee boy i won an art trophy in my schools district for like, some water safety contest i made a poster for lol. my elective in high school was art, and i spent most of my time physically *in* high school spent in my art teachers classroom, any spare time i had, whether it was supposed to be my spare time or not 😭 as a small small kid i did horse riding, and was very passionate about horses, and had many horse anatomy books and how-to-draw horse books etc etc, was big into bella sara and i adored drawing horses. (later that manifested into an mlp special interest when g4 came out which fueled my art even more, i even run an mlp art request blog w my bf to this day!) but anyways! in my youngest days id draw horses, my family, any animal i could, webkinz, and as a tween-teen it was a bunch of furry art, then youtuber art, then fandom art, etc etc... now its mainly my original stuff and im very into spn right now so! lots of that too :)
sorry for going on such a long rant ahh! 😭 these questions are so cool i just had so much fun answering them lol!! thank you again!!!<3
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interlagosed · 2 years
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Hi hibs, Ive been wanting to get into writing alot recently, and just wanted to know how you Got started. Your work is literally iconic
Hello!!! I'm so glad you want to get into writing! I'm not sure if you want to know how I got into writing period, or how I got into writing fanfic. I'm going to assume the former :) (also thank you for the compliment!!!)
TLDR, I started writing because my mother invested in my ability to express myself. I kept writing because I couldn't live without it. If you want to start writing, you need to maintain discipline (actually write), write because you want to not because you feel like you have to (from the heart!!), and engage with other written works (reflect as you read).
I've been writing for as long as I can remember. Honestly! I was a voracious reader as a child. My mother was a massive proponent of my reading habit, and she basically gave me book after book to devour. I also watched a lot of cartoons, so I had a massive imagination from a young age. I also, uh, was a maladaptive daydreamer. There were a lot of stressors in my life and in retrospect I have realized that I was a really, really anxious child, so fiction and fantasy offered me a world to escape into. As a result, I think I really did start with writing fanfiction. I used characters from stories and cartoons I loved and created stories in my head involving them and myself!! I was a little self-insert baby LMAO but I don't think there's anything wrong with that! Especially when you're a child, you're your own point of reference, right, necessarily? So I used to put myself in my own stories, whether acting them out on my own with my imaginary friends or drawing art and comics or writing things. (I also really enjoyed converting fictional characters to Islam as a child AKLJGKLAJGLKA fun fact!)
When I got older (like 6 or 7), I asked my mom for writing prompts. I took any opportunity I could to write. This is around the time I think I got into writing non-fiction as well! I LOVED writing persuasive essays (also on prompts my mother would give me, or as part of homework I got for my English or social studies classes). She also really emphasized the importance of reading widely, and I think that's a huge reason my vocabulary expanded as much as it did. She never really stopped me from reading books, no matter the genre, which...in retrospect, maybe not great, LOL, but it did mean I was getting exposed to complex writing and advanced vocabulary very young. She would give me long words and tell me to make shorter words from the letters, buy me tons of logic puzzle books, crosswords, etc, and she actively fended off other adults who were concerned that I was spending too much time on my hobbies and not enough time, idk, doing sports. I really appreciate how much she protected me from other people. She always had complete and utter faith that I would turn out just fine, and that my hobbies (writing, reading, painting, arguing lol) were going to be a huge reason why. Also, she pretty much read everything I read too, so we were able to actually talk about the books I was reading! I think this was huge tbh.
I fell off the writing train for several years, largely because I was suddenly surrounded by people who didn't think my ideas were interesting or complex or worth exploring. I was told my writing was too flowery (I now think that person was just jealous TBH.....), that I wasn't imaginative or novel enough, that I should just stick to writing poetry. So I convinced myself I was a persuasive writer and poet, but nothing beyond that. And there's nothing wrong with that!
Throughout, though, fanfic kept reeling me back in. I was 10? when I wrote and published my first fanfic (GENDERBENDED BEYBLADE), and I wrote on and off ever since - sometimes to publish, but mostly just for myself. Whenever I was dissatisfied or emotional over a book/piece of fiction, I'd let myself write fanfic to process it. I also had original characters that I created with some friends that we would roleplay through and I really do think that helped me understand how to create distinct characters who react to different stimuli in different ways. This is so important!!! And I think the early 2010/2011 tumblr landscape that offered OC tag games REALLY helped with this too. And again, none of this writing was really going anywhere...which was also really key. I was writing to my own satisfaction, no one else's, and I found that I was really critical. Throughout, I was still reading books. So my understanding of what good writing was changed and developed. It never stayed stagnant - and yet there were books I kept coming back to, no matter my age! What was compelling about them? That also really helped me figure out what timelessness in writing might look like.
But I still didn't see myself as a creative writer. I was a poet and an academic writer. Maybe an essayist. But I certainly didn't have the imagination to write original plot. I had been told that enough times my certain people. I believed it. When I wrote fanfiction, it was porn without plot. I could write smut. Really well, too! But that's not the same thing as being a creative writer (this is what I thought - it's not true at all).
It wasn't until March 2021 that I started regularly writing fanfiction to be published again. But it wasn't until late last year, when I started working on Carlando fanfiction, that I actually realized that I might really be a creative writer with the capacity to come up with plot. And now I'm really pissed off because who the fuck was anyone else to say that I wasn't, or that anyone else isn't, a creative writer? Writing is a muscle! No one is born a runner. No one is born an athlete. Some people are predisposed to certain activities and maybe are more naturally talented, but talent atrophies! Talent is useless without discipline! And you don't have to be a childhood savant to be good at something! You can start writing at 4, 11, 18, 25, 32, 40, it doesn't matter, so long as you are disciplined and curious and open-minded and dedicated to the craft, so long as you do it for YOURSELF first and foremost because it's something you enjoy and something that makes your heart happy even when it's difficult, because if you don't write it, you'll always feel like something is missing, because if you don't write it, it doesn't matter who else does: because you didn't write something when you wanted to write it.
Writing is a muscle you exercise. Writing is also an internal compulsion. And it is also an interactive process. If you want to start writing, you need to be able to do all three things:
Be disciplined in writing (not that you need to write a certain way or be organized in a certain way, just that you need to be able to write! period! no matter what! set goals and try your best to meet them! this will help SO much later on)
When you write something, write it because you NEED to, not because other people have told you you should write it or because you want to get views (that's important and it'll come later, but not early on!). Good writing really does come for the heart. It's very obvious when you read writing that isn't heart-felt. And it feels worse when you write something you don't want to write.
Engage with other works. I'm not saying you need to take a pencil to everything you read (though you can and it doesn't hurt lol) but really, reflect as you read! Why did this work? Why didn't it work? What might have made it better? How did it make you feel? And then incorporate all those lessons in your own writing!
Sorry. Wow. This got very autobiographical. And super long. I do not have a degree in English or creative writing. I'm a political scientist and proto-lawyer by training lol.....but I hope this helps anyway!
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agirldying · 2 years
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it is a disgusting looking creature, no typical animal. gruesome features and breath that wreaks of decay.
it walked up to me- the very first time ive ever seen one- it came up to me...slowly...with a closed smile. I was naively looking up at it as if I had found something nice and friendly to keep around while offering a smile back. seeing it now from a clearer lens, I know it was planning my downfall and how it fantasized about preying on me. no creature that comes from a devious personality can come from a place of love or security. its a contradiction. every smile was malicious. every squinted eye studying me across the room, watching carefully was never staring out of love. it has been evil since it was birthed. it studies its prey with a type of watchfulness, looking for a way in.
it won't ever have its way with me again. it or I will die before that happens.
I associate my abuser with demonic creatures sometimes. im sick of waking up to the same abusive shit everyday. im high right now (I just rolled 3 blunts lmao) so I dont have to deal with my abusers but they're always around. i might die soon some day but maybe ill be back to say hi before I go. I found your page a long time ago but only ever read asks. -Sabrina (they/she)
Hi Sabrina,
I just want to say that your description of your abuser was really beautifully crafted from a creative writing standpoint, and I really encourage you to try writing poetry or prose if you don't already.
I also think it's totally justified to associate your abuser with demonic creatures, because tbh they literally are sometimes.
Thank you for following my blog (I mean this more figuratively than anything else) and for using it as your own space as well.
I hope you are able to get to a safe place and live a long happy life. I think you know you deserve that. It can be unbearable to live with your abusers, so I feel for you. Like I said, I hope you can get away from them soon.
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beachesgetpeaches · 10 days
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thinking about how easily people can see my like mid-shallow surface self because i talk so much. about all of it. my colleague shared this story of his favourite game and how it was developed and why he enjoys it so much and i remember listening to his story and seeing this more hidden part of him... and then ofc i made it about me in my head and thought how in the span of a few days ive only learned he likes this video game and has watched always sunny.
while the team (including him, tbh he and the other guy) learned about my favourite band, and that rhcp was the first band i discovered by myself, that i love haunting of hill house and can quote nells monologue, that i write (a lot), theyve read some of my amateur poetry, seen books ive brought with me, learned i love movies i mean
like not to romanticise myself but how open am i? how unfiltered? and all i know is the video game and whatevs
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salaciousslut · 2 months
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Thats sweet of you to say, i dont think im a good flirt but i do try. With that said though, would you believe me if i told you that i used to write poetry? And that i thought my poetry was mid but everyone around me said my poems were good? 😌
Ive got a good nose, so if you distracted me for a lil too long and the food even got a little singed i could save it (kinda saved the thanksgiving turkey a few months ago bc of this 🤭) plus i think that kiss tax might make me want more than just some kisses im also really handsy. I promise the food wont burn tho, i care too much about culinary art to let it burn hehe <3
Getting you in stoned in my lap would fix me more than just a lil <3 shotgun kisses can be weird at first but its ok, i can hold in the smoke for a bit so i might get a little too into the kiss part before getting to the shotgun part 🥰
I dunno if i have an accent tbh? Maybe a slight hispanic twang when i get excited or feel comfy enough around the people im with, but when i feel comfortable to message you and hear some voice notes i'd be more than happy to send some myself <3
Also you know the way to a butch's heart, salmon and rice!? I would love some 🤭<3
A POET!!!!??!!??!???! hi my knee are weak. is the ac on bc the room is getting a lil hot ☺️. im sure your poems are absolutely amazing!!!
oh me too! food first always!! well not always but u know what i mean. u can pay ur kiss tax and handsy tax while we wait in between!! i promise i wont be too needy when you need to go back to the stove
hehe okay!! ur a lot more experienced than me so ill let u take the lead and just tell me what to do!! ill be good!!
aww hispanic twang!! that reminds me of my friends!! but of course, no rush and take your time babe!
it was very very yummy! and had some veggies too so it was well balanced. and i also have an idea for dessert but shhhhh 😇
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hyunverse · 1 year
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see the rambling just happens 💔😭😭 i cant contain it. also same i literally used to say to my ex like all i want for my bday or anything like that is a card or just a little note anddddd nope never received one 😁 like i don’t want gifts at all or anything just a note or smth 😭 it’s the bare minimum yk 😐. hyunjin would 100% write you them all the time but also poems all the time that are literally just about you. so stan skz all day every day they’re a million times better than any man ever will be
ik 13 hours is too much 😩😩 i hate it. it is snowing where i am!! we have like 3 feet on the ground rn and i fkn hate it. ALSO SO COOL YOU LIVE IN MALAYSIA ?? LIKE SO SO COOL. i bet you’ll see snow someday and you’ll totally at least visit one of those places. (if not you can just come visit me hehe) it’s always possible :)). and yes i don’t see my half siblings often but when i do they’re def a lot of work bc they’re 10 and 13 years younger than me 😭
i’m a scorpio so it makes total sense that we get along 😎 i absolutely despise leo men but luckily you are not one of those <333 leo everything else are amazing. yes yes yes racha vlog literally made my week. i love them sm it’s not okay 💔 there’s one clip of jeongins pupils like blowing up while he’s playing and i swear i watch it everyday 😭 he’s just so cute i can’t help myself (also 100% understand seungmin forehead resolution. i wouldve totally done the same)
also ur cuter 😇😇😇😇 don’t even fight me on it bc it’s true and you just are bc i said so 😇😇😇
- 🐈‍⬛ apologies for spamming again hehe
hyunjin would go to the depths of attempting to write u a SONNET and i STAND by that fact. he would. tell him u like sonnets and he will personally try to reach out to shakespeare in his dreams and learn how to write one 🙏 what other form of poetry do you like? haiku? ok he's gonna watch a haiku tutorial and read haiku writing tips from a random blog. he is the man 💯
cool would be the entire OPPOSITE of malaysia, darling. quite literally. it is always summer here </3 which is suiting for me tbh. back in december, the temperature dropped to 19°C and i was in PAIN. i was constantly whining abt how cold it was to kana only to find out she’s suffering from -1°C weather LMAOO i could never survive that kind of temperature 💀 i will visit u one day bae I WILL ‼️
i’ve heard all kinds of hate on leo men 🤠 i get it tho i mean. . . it’s men. no matter what zodiac, they are all questionable 🧘‍♀ AND IVE SEEEEN THAT VID OF JEONGIN i was physically cooing. felt pathetic bcs WHY AM I BABYING A GROWN MANNNN LMAOOO. in 2023 may jype stylists let us see seungmo forehead 🙏
no need to apologize, my angel. lovelove seeing you in my inbox <3 sorry for replying so late, i’ve been out all day!! FINALLY PLAYED BOWLING and i swear i am so good at it. i’m like gordon ramsay of bowling. like frfr. also watched a movie and it was so so good. how about you, how was your day?
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highonbandcandy · 3 years
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Happy Spike: Whenever he talks about blooming onions. Another feel good is when everyone claps for his poem - 🏜
I LIED I forgot to answer this. Then I'm going to bed.
Yes the poem!! It's one of my favourite scenes in the whole show. Babe earned it!!
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liriostigre · 3 years
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hey! I wanted to ask what your favorite poetry books are? I have a few but I want to read new and interesting stuff, and I trust your taste :D
hiii ♡
tbh i only started reading poetry collections like,, last year. i'm subscribed to poetryfoundation's newsletter (poem of the day) so i usually just read random poems
anyway, i'm not sure my recs could be considered new (cause i'm gonna start with Mary Oliver ♡) but feel free to message me if you want to know the themes, style, feeling (vibes, if you will) or anything you want to know about these collections. for now, i'm linking my favorite poems in each collection, i hope this helps you choose! ♡
here you go:
Dream Work ���Mary Oliver (“Wild Geese.” “Dogfish.”)
Red Bird —Mary Oliver (“Summer Morning.” “Love Sorrow.”)
Blue Horses —Mary Oliver (“To Be Human Is to Sing Your Own Song.” “Loneliness.” “Little Crazy Love Song.”)
The Wild Iris —Louise Glück (“Sunset.” “Retreating Light.”)
Haruko/Love Poems —June Jordan (“On a New Year’s Eve.” “Mendocino Memory.” “Toward a City That Sings.” *under the cut)
Extracting the Stone of Madness —Alejandra Pizarnik (“Primitive Eyes.” “Summer Goodbyes.” *under the cut)
Ariel —Sylvia Plath (“Tulips.” “The Rival.”)
Prelude to Bruise —Saeed Jones (“Postapocalyptic Heartbeat.” *under the cut)
Absolute Trust in the Goodness of the Earth —Alice Walker (“Coming Back from Seeing Your People.” *under the cut)
I Must Be Living Twice —Eileen Myles (“Edward the Confessor.” *under the cut)
Teaching My Mother How To Give Birth —Warsan Shire (“Conversations About Home (at the Deportation Centre.”)
The Black Unicorn —Audre Lorde (“Hanging Fire.” “Sister Outsider.”)
Bright Dead Things —Ada Limón (“The Riveter.” “Glow.”)
Night Sky With Exit Wounds —Ocean Vuong (“Thanksgiving 2006.” “Logophobia.”)
Postcolonial Love Poem —Natalie Diaz (“Manhattan Is a Lenape Word.”)
Crush —Richard Siken (“Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out.”)
Once —Alice Walker (“So We've Come at Last to Freud.”)
“Toward a City That Sings” by June Jordan
Into the topaz the crystalline signals of Manhattan the nightplane lowers my body scintillate with longing to lie positive beside the electric waters of your flesh and I will never tell you the meaning of this poem: Just say, ‘She wrote it and I recognize the reference.’ Please let it go at that. Although it is all the willingness you lend the world as when you picked it up the garbage scattering the cool formalities of Madison Avenue after midnight (where we walked for miles as though we knew the woods well enough to ignore the darkness) although it is all the willingness you lend the world that makes me want to clean up everything in sight (myself included)
for your possible discovery
“Primitive Eyes” by Alejandra Pizarnik
Where fear neither speaks in stories or poems, nor gives shape to terrors or triumphs.
My name, my pronoun — a grey void.
I’m familiar with the full range of fear. I know what it’s like to start singing and to set off slowly through the narrow mountain pass that leads back to the stranger in me, to my own emigrant.
I write to ward off fear and the clawing wind that lodges in my throat.
And in the morning, when you are afraid of finding yourself dead (of there being no more images): the silence of compression, the silence of existence itself. This is how the years fly by. This is how we lost that beautiful animal happiness.
“Summer Goodbyes” by Alejandra Pizarnik
The soft rumor of spreading weeds. The sound of things ruined by the wind. They come to me as if I were the heart of all that exists. I would like to be dead, and also to go inside another heart.
“Postapocalyptic Heartbeat” by Saeed Jones
I. Drugged, I dreamed you a plume of ash, great rush of wrecked air through the towns of my stupor. And when the ocean in your blood went toxic, I thought fire was what we needed: serrated light through the skin, grenade in the chest—pulled linchpin. I saw us breathing on the other side of after. But a blackout is not night; orange-bottled dreams are not sleep. II. I was a cross-legged boy in the third lifetime, empire of blocks in my lap while you walked through the door of your silence, hunting knife in one hand, flask in the other. I waited for you until I forgot to breathe, my want turning me colors only tongues of amaryllis could answer for. It owned me, that hunger, tendriled its way into my name for you. III. In a city made of rain each door, a silence; each lock, a mouth, I walked daily through the spit-slick streets, harbingers on my hands in henna: there will be no after Black-and-blue-garbed strangers, they called me Cassandra. (I had such a body then.) Umbrellas in hand, they listened while they unlistened. there will be no no. after
the world will end no.
you are the reason it no. ends
you no. IV. I didn’t exactly mean to survive myself. Half this life I’ve spent falling out of fourth-story windows. Pigeons for hair, wind for feet. Sometimes I sing “Stormy Weather” on the way down. Today, “Strange Fruit.” Each time, strangers find me drawing my own chalk outline on the sidewalk, cursing with a mouth full of iron, furious at my pulse. V. After ruin, after shards of glass like misplaced stars, after dredge, after the black bite of frost:        you are the after, you are the first hour in a life without clocks; the name of whatever falls from the clouds now is you (it is not rain), a song in a dead language, an unlit earth, a coast broken— how was I to know every word was your name?
“Coming Back from Seeing Your People” by Alice Walker
Coming back From seeing your people You were So wonderfully Full Of yourself.
But now You have supped With vampires They have fed Feasted On you.
They arise Bright-eyed Fit.
You alone have lost Not only Your sleep But also Your glow The luster of Affection Heart welcome Your people Sent home With you.
Beloved You must learn To walk alone To hold The precious Silence To bring home And keep the precious Little That is left Of yourself.
“Edward the Confessor” by Eileen Myles
I have a confession to make I wish there were some role in society I could fulfill I could be a confessor I have a confession to make I have this way when I step into the bakery on 2nd Ave. of wanting to be the only really nice person in the store so the harried sales woman with several toned hair will like me. I do this in all kinds of stores, coffee shops xerox shops, everywhere I go. And invariably I leave my keys, xeroxing, my coffee from the last place I am being so nice. I try so hard to make a great impression on these neutral strangers right down to the perfect warm smile I get entirely lost and stagger back out onto the street, bereft of something major. It’s really leaning too hard on the everyday. My mother was the kind of woman who dragging us into stores always seemed to charm the pants off the cashier. She was such a great person, so human though at home she was such a bitch, I mean really distant. I imitate her and I don’t do it well. She didn’t leave her wallet or us in a store. I’m just a pale imitation it is simply not my style to open the hearts of strangers to my true personhood. I hope you accept this tiny confession of what I am currently going through. And if you are experiencing something of a similar nature tell someone, not me, but tell someone. It’s the new human program to be in. It would be nice for at least these final moments if we could sigh with the relief of being in the same program with all the other humans whispering in school. I can’t quite locate the terror, but I am trying to be my mother or Edward the Confessor smiling down on you with up-praying hands. I am looking down at the tips of my boots as I step across the balcony of the church excited to be allowed to say these things. Outside my church is a relationship. On 11th street this guy and this woman are selling the woman so they can get more dope. All their things are there, rags and loaves of bread and make-up. And there was— this was incredible. Two men lying by the door of the church giving each other blow-jobs. They were sort of street guys, one black one white. I said hey you can’t do that here. They jumped up, one spit come out of his mouth. If you don’t get out of here I’ll call the cops. Don’t call the cops we’ll go, we’ll leave. That was a shock. That was more than I expected to see in a day. Something about seeing the guy spit come out of his mouth. He didn’t have to do that. I guess I scared him. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I was scared too.
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furymint · 2 years
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11 prompts | wc: 6,918 |  Reflections & favorites of my peers under the cut!
#01 Foster
#02 Aberrant ✨
#04 Baleful 
#06 Avatar
#08 Adroit
#10 Heady ✨
#11 Preaching to the Choir
#15 Thunderous ✨
#21 Feckless
#23 Illustrious
#25 Silver Lining
#01 Foster
i like jos. he has alot of history, and when ur son has protagonist syndrome (and is a protag after all), it's easy to be further effaced from a person to a role
#02 Aberrant
I ended up rly liking this one. i always like writing parents tho sdkjfhsdf. the snapshot format helped me think of exactly what i needed n no more, and i love love love writing soldiers being impatient and entitled around luciane
#04 Baleful
i started off somewhere on this one and then it got away from me n became something else. i rly enjoy nol and jos' stand-offish comfort w each other and how they can act like different men around each other. jos is more blunt and rude while nol is more honest and expressive.  
#06 Avatar
i like how cobbled together nol, eli, their dads, and elena are. their image of a coherent family--if they ever had one--comes apart at the seams the minute they run their mouths. unfortunately the dialogue is the weakness here, but i got the message i wanted across abt them
#08 Adroit
im not gonna pretend the pacing isn't insanely bad, but i still like the language and overall concept of this one a lot. the dialogue is good too and im in love w little zero
#10 Heady
this one felt so so good to write. i love writing nol like this. its incomprehensible to others but that's part of the point, n i rly like the overlap of his senses from the present into his memories.
#11 Preaching to the Choir
is it really religion if ur not one word away from committing blasphemy at all times, esp when ur bff is a mad scientist that likes to dabble in splitting her own soul so she can let the darkness inside of her go autopilot and talk in other ppls minds. no?
#15 Thunderous
why did this become my fav thing i wrote this month. tbh usually my fav writings are built out of poetry, and this one was too--which was convenient bc the only way ive written sex is in poetry bc of the strength of suggestion. sex repels me in any shape or form except in writing, but even then most of the time it’s repetitive and unengaging bc the writing is focused on the act n not the Feelings. i guess i wrote it by skipping around, but idc i'm just happy i got this far jmhgjhg
#21 Feckless
wrote this 10000% bc i wanted the img of elliot doing that awful thing where ur already in the car and someone bodily climbs over u to get into the seat next to u, and also bc elliot is 10000% the one who hugs nol in uniform .0003 seconds after being told not to
#23 Illustrious
i feel strangely detatched from this clo piece even tho its well written. id like to expand on him contemplating why he always runs into creepy shit like a british detective series protag (bc hes a detective series protag)
#25 Silver Lining
i feel like nol is a p predictable person. he says weird shit but he's dumb and burdened by expectation, so he doesn't stray too far in public from The Ideal Norm. xan prides herself on knowing how ppl work so her getting nol to do what she wants is a natural but rly interesting scenario
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@aethernoise​​ #10 Heady
YEAH!! YEAH!!!!! magic and #battlewounds and inopportune kissing, we got it all!!!!! i like this v much. ur ability to describe touch is also mega insp, and every time i think of healing magic now im gonna think abt the peculiar warmth that was more than warmth
@autochthonousone​​ #11 Preaching to the Choir
hi i like petty drama in my fiction. i also really really love how jules and barry interact. their dialogue is so tight that its easy to imagine their little cozy gossip corner and feel urself in it with them. barry adjusting to dumb ishgardian-isms is also one of my fav genres 
@blackestnight​​ #25 Silver Lining
i didnt think there was much better than flabbergasting the unwitting with limsa lominsa nonsense, but doubling that nonsense with hanami zombie-ing her way along while aymeric is stranded watching is definitely much much better
@brave-horizon​​ #2 Aberrant
hgghgrrrh brave starting off strong w the IR angst. love me some IR angst. love to hate seeing ms boss lady get sucked into The Bad Crew. i love how gradual it feels--from disarming to spite to curiosity. it makes me think abt the monetarists :eyes:
@endangered-liaison​​ #25 Silver Lining
shoot gun battle staccato. im rly bad at short sharp sentences because i crawled out of a victorian grave + its comes across as too melodramatic when i attempt it. guns are also shoot gun when i attempt them. i rly admire how u manage to avoid both those things and make a rly contained piece
@high-and-away​​ #13 Oneirophrenia
vicky back at it writing like the next remarque. ur imagery is so exact and impactful and i want to steal it. spotted w burning ceruleum, work-broken horse, armored knee. it's cinematic.it really stretches and fleshes out what could have been a sentence's story into smth that sticks w u.
@karoiseka​​ #13 Oneirophrenia
 mmmmmmmmmmm i love calamity content!!! i love!!! calamity content!!!!!! i rly like how something as physical as the moon exploding is so internal for karo. the echo takes her home n family before the fire gets the chance, and that's such a cool contrast.
@kukurubean​ #8 Adroit
i had the words pleasantly buzzed, slightly stunned stuck in my head for the entire day. the snapshot-ness of this works so well with the timing of all the sentences. its like theyre counting down too
@nuclearanomaly​​ #15 Thunderous
i want to live in this au i love it sm. all the little references, the exact details about sharing the booth, the absolute awkwardness of nini and esti. so many characters and all of them feel like they belong in the room. ty for my life
@norhimorovine​​ #10 Heady
seeing baby norhi is so cute, and seeing baby norhi start to recognize her separation from the core of gridania is so chefs kiss. i also lay on the floor abt her attempts to be gridanian nonetheless.
@onwesterlywinds​​ #24 Illustrious
THE BONES OF TRAITORS WERE IDENTICAL TO THE BONES OF THE BELOVED THE BONES OF TRAITORS WERE IDENTICAL TO THE BONES OF THE BELOVED THE BO--heaves. i loved the rabid snapshots of the body fragile yields and now i get MORE
@steak-n-popotoes​​ #28 Bow
i liked getting to know ur charas!! i esp rly loved this piece and the directness of its style. this fool. it was insulting. it gives him such a presence, all brazen intrusion and intimidation.(and unrelated to this piece, ur skill at writing npcs is extraordinary, esp getting their dialogue styles on point)
@tea-and-conspiracy​​ #2 Aberrant
oh shit. ohhhh shit. we been knew im always :eyes: over war shit and medic shit, and im not here to be unpredictable. the precious secret delivery at the end rly nailed it for me. after all his hemming abt logic he’s got a tempered at his door. sign me up
@tonberryslantern​​​ #21 Feckless
xan's capacity for one liners is unmatched but so is her ability to turn anything into Xan's Opinion Hour. i love Xan's Opinion Hour. i like to think that everything out of xan's mouth is memorable, too, but here she doesn't even talk n im still left thinking abt it an hour later.
@yunkinko​​​ #1 Foster
yun writing is always a treat for me n i was hooked right off the bat w this one. i love this awkward family and their giant little girl. the specificity in ur stories, like the vacationing nurse and more alchemists than rats bit, is always so perfect to combine description w humor
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okay so since you know more than sarah could u give more info?? because i love learning about pete and his blackness as its literally never talked about ANYWHERE else. like thank god for tumblr tbh. sarah is genuinely the only reason ive ever known anything about him in that way but its always been limited so thats why i sent her the ask. i didnt even know ur blog. sorry for sending to her instead of you!!!
oh its fine!! im pretty new on the scene technically. while sarah and i were in the fob fandom at the same time in 2015 ish, i actually left tumblr completely and recently came back!! but anyway, lets talk about petes melanin (my beloved <3)
theres a pretty pervasive narrative, not just around pete but around any black and especially biracial celebrities that theyre ashamed of their blackness or arent "really" black. theres like. a looooooooooong conversation to be had within the black community about this, but to tldr it, the assumption is if you dont look black, you arent black, which for a lot of reasons isnt exactly the case. with him in particular theres a lot of stuff that contributes to this.
most people do not associate the alternative scene and emo especially with black people, so its easy to overlook a lot if someone isnt SUPER obviously black. pete has other ethnic features, like his nose, and is recognizable visually as black except for his skin color. except thats because hes been artificially lightened in photoshoots due to editing and (ALLEGEDLY AND POSSIBLY) lighter foundations. further, he relaxed his hair, which takes away another ethnic feature of his.
there is another aspect to this, which is that black people tan, noticeably and by several shades. you will not notice it if youre like seeing them continuously throughout the year, but as someone who lives in the caribbean and has spent some time in the states, the difference is stark enough to be noticeable. a lightskinned black person may look MUCH paler in the winter compared to in the summer.
in addition, the wealthier you are, the less time you tend to spend in the sun, so ive noticed that black celebrities tend to get lighter as they gain notoriety just because they have like more resources. the reason people from the caribbean tend to become lighter when we go to the states isnt because of less sun, during the summer thats not at all the case, its because the US is more developed so you dont HAVE to spend as much time in the sun.
besides that, hes like genuinely very loud and proud about being black, but all of those attempts are met with backlash. there was the reaction to his natural hair, the reaction to him with cornrows, and the reaction to his very emotional rant about the murder of george floyd. it happens in fobs music too!! ioh for example draws a lot of influence from choral and hymnal arrangements and soul music, not to mention jay-z and babyface working on the album itself, which led to them being labelled sell outs. they also just generally work with rappers more, with lil wayne on tiffany blews and big sean on srar, both of which also led to them being called sell outs. ab/ap as an album draws influence from rap/trap and mixtape culture in the way it was written (thats why its got so many samples), and subsequently got remixed. remember what happened next? mania draws a lot of influence from calypso and dancehall music and features burna boy singing in yoruba patois. that one led to the featured artist getting harassed en masse and multiple (worse) edits of the song without him on it. i dont like it here 💞.
that last point brings me to the fact that while pete definitely loves hardcore and metal, he also has always loved reggae and dancehall. hes half jamaican, spent time in jamaica as a child and listened to his grandparents records, which were. well. reggae and calypso and a little dancehall. if anyone ASKS him about it, hell talk about it willingly and candidly, theres an entire interview from during the hiatus (which i can no longer find rip) where hes asked about and talks about going natural and spending time in jamaica and listening to reggae, which heavily influenced black cards. he visited jamaica during the hiatus! although its unclear if he visited family since literally every news outlet that mentioned it was like "oh tropical getaway <3" unaware that thats where his folks are from
also heres that interview snippet sarah mentioned! i have the full page, its about the early days which is funny bc its just before futct.
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theres also some poetry on sarahs blog that she found years ago thats VERY black. i dont like making it easy to find for nonblack people simply because the first time it was unearthed mostly white people were talking about it and the meaning of it went way over everyone elses head so i try to make sure that if people start talking about it they know going in that its about being black and biracial specifically and so that black fans dont feel the way i did when it first surfaced lol
all of this emphatically points to pete genuinely loving his blackness and not trying to hide it and it being something that majorly shaped his life, but genuinely being unable to talk about it bc of public perception.
sorry for talking your ear off!! if you have any specific qs i almost certainly have answers!!
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