#ivE READ A LOT MORE LIKE SECRET PLAYLIST AND TO LOVE YOUR ENEMY BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER THE REST HSGSJA

[thelastofhyde]

⏤ para sentir el calor del sol, series masterlist.

pairing. joel miller x fem!reader

series synopsis. the story of a man riddled with coldness, struggling to let in the warmth he's hidden away from for years, and the ray of sunshine he calls his sol.

series warnings. no use of y/n ( reader has the nickname of sol ), enemies-ish to lovers, slow-burn, sunshine!reader, queer!tess, miscommunication/no communication, toxic approaches to love/feelings, obsessive behaviours, pining, undefined age gap ( reader can be interpreted as late 20s/early 30s in the canon timeline ) discussions of s.a., depictions of grief, child-loss and canon-typical violence, limited fluff, angst, smut ( lots of it ).

series wordcount. 30.9k ( thus far. )

series playlist. dia de enero - shakira, fallingforyou - the 1975, he gets me so high - beabadoobee, hate to see your heart break - paramore, out of the woods - taylor swift

disclaimers. 1) this series will roughly comply with the canon of both the hbo series and the video game but i have taken the liberty of changing certain scenes, events and dialogue to better suit the fic’s plot. 2) this series will have no official update schedule because i suck at sticking to them. no link = not posted yet.

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a word from hyde. i never intended for the likeability paradox to turn into this, it was simply meant to be a brainrot drabble of joel being on his knees. now here i am, willing to put my life on the line for joel and his sol, no hesitation because they mean that much to me.

i. the likeability paradox.

synopsis. joel miller is not a man who strives to be liked, with a chip on his shoulder and a scowl on his face, until his world is flipped on its axis when the pretty young thing living under bill and frank's roof, with an irritatingly unwavering smile and the literal sun shinning out her ass, says those five damned words: i don't like you, joel. warnings. pining, unrequited love, canon-typical violence, smut ( oral- f receiving, fingering, degradation, panty stealing, hair pulling, dirty talk, dubcon. ) word count. 12.9k

ii. the revving of engines.

synopsis. joel miller’s not made it this far in the age of the apocalypse just to die at the hands of some adrenaline-crazed, no-brain-having fool who barely knows where to place her hands on the steering wheel. hind-sight fully intact and ever-so eye opening, he should have said no before frank could even finish his question: can you teach the girl to drive? warnings. panic attacks, perv!joel, slightly dark!joel, soft!joel ( for like a second ), a smidge of fluff, gun violence, murder, smut ( unprotected piv sex- don’t be silly, wrap that willy-, public sex, car sex but also not, exhibitionism, possessiveness, murder kink [ kinda but not really, joel just gets... more enthusiatic at the thought of protecting the reader], mentions/implications of panty stealing, male masturbation, sex as a form of payment, glory-holes, dubcon. word count. 16.8k

iii. the butterfly theory.

synopsis. two seasons pass before joel's very eyes and, without the presence of his sol, neither the spring nor the summer seem to heat his aching soul. what's meant to be a simple drop off at bill and frank's becomes a whirlwind of events that sends you barrelling right back into joel's arms, and all it takes is a horrified shriek: otis is missing! warnings. mentions/implications of sa, only-one-bed trope ( with a twist ), smut. + more warnings to be added ! word count. ( unknown ).

iv. the weight of silver.

synopsis. joel should have known better than to trust that woman to keep her mouth shut. it’s not that tess servopoulos is bad at keeping secrets but, rather, that she views them as a way to connect, to share a precious gem among those she cares about. the added affect of embarrassing joel is merely the cherry on top. she may have put her foot a little too far into her mouth with this one though: joel’s got a new woman. warnings. jealousy, possessiveness, hints of sexual ownership, smut. + more warnings to be added ! word count. ( unknown ).

(+ more parts to be added. )

timeline outtakes ! aka drabbles

11:11 ( infected, 2008 ). 14:57 ( unshaken, 2011 ). 22:22 ( lookalike, 2016 ). 18:22 ( leashes, 2022 ). 20:34 ( tuxedos, 2023 ). 05:48 ( sunrise, 2023 ). 03:33 ( terror, 2023 ). 02:13 ( delirium, 2023 ). 08:03 ( routine, 2023 ). 19:17 ( overheard, 2023 ).

#joel miller smut #joel miller series #joel miller fic #joel miller x reader #pedro pascal smut #joel miller fluff #joel miller angst #𓄹 nav;

[hannie-dul-set]

speaking of, please give me some romance manhwa recs ive literally devoured everything i could get my hands on i need new things to read . plS .

#ive read #the classic cheese in the trap more times than id like to admit #a guide to proper dating/romance 101 is literally so fucking GOOD i went to read the korean raws even though i can only understand the gist #of things LMAO #also read something about us . gatabatuta . bunny and her boys (LMAO TITLE ISNSO JHSJ) #i dropped all i want is who because i didn't like . how it was progressing :') #ivE READ A LOT MORE LIKE SECRET PLAYLIST AND TO LOVE YOUR ENEMY BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER THE REST HSGSJA #allex yells

[mermaidmafia-official]

“Some moment when the moon was blood / then surely I was born;” —g.k. chesterton

Name: Popa Chatelet  

Title(s): Queen of Iphis, officially Queen Popa IV

Age: 15

FC or Features: Larsen Thompson + golden canines (upper and lower only) cut to little fangs and embellished with esoteric symbols of blessing and strength, cut by Thalestris herself when Popa was still a small child. They’ll be pulled and replaced with silver and rubies soon. Piercings all along both of her ears. Thatched hair (like the McQueen image in her section of our board) is typical for her. Deceptively dainty in overall appearance.    

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Likes: jewels and shiny ornaments (a lot of gold but that will soon change- ), neatness, her privacy, silence, reading, talking tactics with Caiaphas, archery (though she excels more at swordplay, she likes archery best), her golden bow (taken from an enemy general who died in the Arena), tormenting Violaine-Iris, milk baths, meditation, gold-leaf sweets

Dislikes: disorder and chaos, small children, birds, rodentia of any sort, bugs, heat, any authority other than her own, “Chaos Queen” Violaine-Iris, illness (in her as well as- if not especially- in others), surprises, parties and drinking, her freckles

Goals: To maintain her current situation as Queen and defend Iphis from the great threat of being overrun by beast-men. As well, to some way take her secret of infection to the grave with her.

Fears: Being caught in a situation that she has no control over. Somehow being dethroned (and/or losing any influence) is a large concern of hers since it was almost too easy for her to end Alexon who was King until he was Arena fodder. In the end, she fears not having the power to protect herself.

Rumours: Often, if not always, Violaine-Iris is called Popa’s conspirator in planning the death of their brother Alexon, and Popa is content to let people think so. There’s the werewolf blood-drinking- which is also true, but it was one occasion and not an on-going thing like some believe. The notion of blood-drinking- particularly werewolf blood- disgusts her and is considered by her one of the many, many grave sins Thalestris committed against her.

Scale of 1-10, how likely is your Chatelet to kill a family member: 12 10

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Wardrobe: Mostly black and/or gold, with the occasional Arena Reds. The more demure dresser of all her siblings- it would be unusual to see her shoulders or back bare. Like most royal garments, hers are in-sewn with symbols of protection and blessings by Noble Seamstress who is well-versed in the Empyreal Texts. She does wear ornate armour while outside the Wall and light gladiatorial armour while fighting in the Arena but never within the palace (unseemly). She likes to wear lots of rings and the “claw” jewellry on the tips of her fingers as well as light jointed metal gloves set with precious stones, perfume necklaces, armlets and rows of earrings in each ear. She likes to hide her freckles beneath makeup to make herself look less like a child. No florals.

Places most likely to be found: her apartments, the Arena (mostly spectating but there is the rare gladiatrix performance), away- defending the Wall

People most likely to be with: Damali and/or Smeme when home, Lord Captain Caiaphas when on defense missions outside the bordering Wall

Strongest character trait: Controlling

Mannerisms: Popa likes to be precise and neat in any endeavour, very private (even more so lately), a bit finicky- bit of a micromanager (really things must be just-so, even others’ clothing or it will be promptly pointed-out and rectified), easy movements- very controlled. She smiles at strange times during conversations, is habitual eye-roller, and calculates thoroughly before ever opening her glistening-gold mouth. Otherwise, she’s prone to some immaturity which is understandable given her age- for example her need to pick on Violaine-Iris and engage in arguments with her four-year-old sister.    

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I need to add onto all of these !

with Anxélica: Popa believes her mother was justified in sending Anxélica away- she’s a blight, as far as Popa is concerned. Her visits to the main palace since Thalestris’ death aggravate Popa.

with Violaine-Iris: Popa enjoys picking on Voilaine-Iris- in fact, it’s one of her favourite amusements outside of the Arena. “Ah, there’s the Widow Lady Chatelet!”, “Where’s your husband? Ah, forgive my poor memory- you turned him into a flatcake,” “We were out by your late husband’s resting place...”, etc.

with Sabela: Sabela is the sister Popa minds least because she gives Popa the least amount of trouble.

with Otrera: A loud, grubby creature that Popa likes to avoid and has been attempting to send away from the main palace for the past year.  

Damali & Smeme - Popa’s gang of handmaidens. Her only confidantes since she was a very small child. They’re both trained soldiers who keep her company as well as protected when on missions outside the Wall.

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- Bio -

Not nearly as delicate as she appears, Popa is perhaps the most blood-soaked of all her siblings. Popa was her mother’s youngest child for eleven years of her life, and it is well-known among the sisters that she was Thalestris’ favourite even following the birth of Otrera. Her brutality, even at such a young age, she comes by honestly- Vitalion used to call her “Little Thalestris”- and it’s said that the girl was fed the blood of a werewolf by her mother when she was still a small child with the only effect being heightened senses. But this is only speculation. While most might believe that Popa loved her mother, it was in fact the opposite, and the rumour goes that she was truly the one that ended Thalestris’ life and framed her brother Vitalion to save herself. Then, in order to become a Queen, she did away with Alexon by accusing him of, not only treason, but also being a werewolf himself. True or not, her ambition has been clear from the start, and these days, she looks after military affairs and has even been known to engage with the enemy on the field from time to time. Her spare time is taken up at the arena- mostly as a spectator but a couple of instances as a fighter. But young Popa might find herself in over her head with a new threat- a mighty lycanthrope Queen from the north who is not-so-secretly uniting a massive force of her kind to overrun Iphis once and for all.

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- Extra -

Playlist: 

the devil & the daughter by daniel pemberton

we appreciate power by grimes, hana

become the beast (predator remix) by karliene

if i had a heart by fever ray

bad moon rising by mourning ritual, peter dreimanis

control by halsey

the devil within by digital daggers

Headcanons:

In a strange way, Thalestris coveted certain aspects of werewolves that she hoped she could gift to Popa without transforming or “damning” her completely. The werewolf blood she gave her as a child did provide her with some elevated hearing and sight, as well as some improved stamina and strength. Popa always denies any such thing occurred, but it’s fairly obvious when she partakes in the Arena, that she does possess some superhuman abilities.

Even if she dislikes you, Popa will adjust your out-of-place clothing out of compulsion. I suppose she would do it especially if she disliked you since she does prefer to humiliate subtly.

She enjoys showing off in the Arena for the people because she believes the displays give them confidence in her ability to protect them.

Popa has a bevvy of spies to play her eyes and ears around Violaine-Iris when she cannot be present in the palace. For now, she also has them watching Anxélica after a report that missing Arena werewolves were showing up at her private residence for so-called secret gatherings.

#sac: popa #sac: bio #fanfan's writing #i n c o m p l e t e #but ! close to being done #so i thought i would go on and publish it if anyone needs a bit of inspo ^^

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah i suppose ur right. yeah i think quarentine has had that sort of effect on a lot of people :( sorry to hear abt ur strict parents, hopefully ur friend will be able to come back soon. small outings (even with family) are still good tho, make sure ur taking care of urself toff.

youre totally right! ah yes thats good advice (/gen) ill try and use that when im in a slump ty. any music suggestions?

lol sames. even some of the stuff abt seungmin, innie etc is a little uncomfortable, like theyre grown ass men for sure, but at the same time, theyre still young, still just over being a teenager in the grand scheme of things. (on that note, i do struggle with worrying that im infantalising them, obviously theyre adults but at the same time, theyre still young. i do treat all fictional characters as my children, but i guess its different when its real people. idk. what do you think?) yeah some stans rlly need to take a chill pill, some are rlly walking the wire between 'ah theyre attractive/that look rlly suits them' and making fucking smut fics abt minors, like... they do not see a problem with that?? yeah tbh i feel like unless theyre 18 they shouldnt be put into the spotlight, weve seen what it does to peoples mental health, but modern day kpop industry is a lot like old hollywood with a lot of popular child actors -_- hopefully the big companies will learn but i agree, its unlikely

suuuuure toff haha. ill go searching for them, but idk if ill be able to find the fluff needle in the angst haystack (jkjk) yeah, fair i groan and complain but you do write angst etc rlly well, so if its what ur comfortable with, then pls continue, it is one of your strong suits, well as you write fluff aside

ah okay good! ill continue to send you essays then

THE ALBUM YES. so ive been looking forward to it for literally months, this is actually my first skz album release as a stay (since the last on was 9 months ago) i was sitting there hitting refresh on my spotify the second 6pm kst came around. (speaking of which, how did you do the release? i couldnt decide whether to watch or listen first but i ended up on listening cos there would be more material) okay: so cheese was super cool, very skz ya know? tho i almost wish theyd made domino the title track, tho obv it was a more experimental track and would have been a bit controversial (much like whistle for bp) i looooved domino and thunderous was absolutely impeccable. all the songs were amazing but standouts were- secrets, secrets which lowkey made me tear up idk why, red lights which almost killed me (it did not have to go that hard, but it did) and OT8 WOLFGANG omgggg i wasnt sure if hyunjin was going to be included in it but i was hoping and, ya know people had said hed be in there, but the further i got in, the less i was sure and then BAM hyunjin started what had been jisung's part and i just sat there grinning for about 5 minutes. surfin was absolutely adorable and gone away almost made me cry AGAIN. star lost was so touching, almost a nod to hyunjins little star? silent cry was relatable beyond anything. SSICK was funny? for some reason I was laughing while it was playing, idk the combination of added cheering and minhos aggressiveness and the totall seriousness they sung it. but i rlly enjoyed it. sorry i love you showcased their vocals like nothing else. the view is THE BOP of 2021, absolutely going to be stuck in my head for the next decade, that hook is genius. what did you think?

also did you watch their grow up performance? with all the stays and ALL THE TEARS? ;n; i feel like this is the end of an era of skz and tbh im kinda happy but also sad. super excited for their promotions but super bummed they wont get to tour. ah well

<3 w.a. 🐺

answer under the cut bc i gave an equally long answer to this already long ask HAJSH

oh yeah, abt quarantine having an effect. my friend and i talked about this earlier actually. i didn't realize the world was moving so fast until the pandemic happened. being in quarantine gave me time to think and i got to know myself more. it's just the sole good thing i got out of the isolation lmao. and abt my strict parents, ironically i got to go out today so i got to hang out with a few of my bestfriends. i had fun but my legs are a bit sore from walking. but they're a different set of friends. i'll get to hang out with the others when my getaway driver comes home in december.

hmm music recommendations for writing? depends on the plot you're writing. care to share what story you're working on and i'll try to rake my brain for a song that might match the vibe. i listen to classical / lo-fi if i don't have song inspo for a fic because lyrics sometimes distract me.

i don't think that's infantilizing tho. for me, it has something to do with my environment and the way i was raised. maybe it's the same the other way around? like this certain age (for the ones above 18 but below 20) is thirst-able for them. idk really. it's just not for me ?n? what i do NOT condone is writing smut for minors??? like get checked : D // i agree with everything with the idols being 18+ before they debut simply because it's for the best for their well-being like. how can young idols decide that this shit is the thing they want to do for life? or at least until their contracts last. idk :// it's unfortunate that it's unlikely to happen.

WELL. i have a list so you won't have to go search for them! in class (minho), in the rain (seungmin), gladius maximus (chan) and you've read five star already. and i just realized that most, if not all, of my upcoming fics are fluffs and i'm fond of all of them :D i used to focus a lot on angst because fluff disgusted the living shit out of me. i think things changed when i wrote champagne problems and hurt myself so bad i wanted to drop angst entirely. i didn't, of course, but i allowed myself to be self-indulgent now.

for the release of the album, i was on twt and watched the vid at 12 views (if i remember correctly, i watched back door at 14 so HASJH) i’m gonna talk by track so it wont be too confusing? bc i wrote this in paragraph format and it just ???? beware im very picky with tracks even if they’re my ults. so no offense if we have opposing opinions and i’m not fond of reading lyrics so these are all music wise.

cheese - oh god i hated cheese at first listen but it grew on me easily. i was singing the yeahyeahyeahyeah bit all day today :D

thunderous - i cant say that it’s my favorite title track. it felt really dry sometimes, both mv and music wise. but at the same time, it’s not that bad. the choreography carried the song tho o.O it’s so fucking cool. but like go live, another track has my heart and it’s

domino - AND YES I AGREE THAT THEY SHOULDVE MADE DOMINO TITLE TRACK UGHHHHH WHAT A WASTED FUCKING OPPORTUNITY. WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS HOW FOND I AM OF THIS SONG. it stands close to the level i love easy.

ssick - was a skip on first listen too because i found the chorus underwhelming but it grew on me? not that much but i can bear listening to it.

the view - it’s something the gen public like, hence its something i dislike. im not fond of songs that are structured like this? it’s not a bad song, just not the type of song i like. but i agree that the hook is very not catchy but it would get stuck in ur head.

sorry, i love you - it’s not as sad as i expected but i actually like it??? i can’t wait to write a fic out of it (1) HAJSHAJ it’s like a 3/5 for me. it’s angsty but chill?

silent cry - i’m pissed at this song bc it hits but sometimes it doesn’t?@?#!? but it’s starting to grow on me but definitely not my fave track.

secret secret - glad i found a secret secret enthusiast because my irls thought it was a skip?$?#@$? it gives me ikon vibes and i’m a huge fan of ikon’s discog so this was a win for me T_T +

STAR LOST - gives me bigbang song vibes and now im very sad :(( in case u didnt know, i’m a hUGE yg fan and 2ne1/bigbang introduced me to kpop so when i heard this track that gave me yg feels i just <3___<3 and it’s one of my favorite tracks anw moving on,

red lights - I WANT TO SKIP THE FIRST TEN SECONDS OF RED LIGHTS EVERY TIME IT PLAYS LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL AWKWARD KDSJFSK but fine. i’m adding this to props and mayhem’s playlist LMAO it’s more aggressive than sexc tho. more enemies to lovers o. O

surfin’ - this coming right after red lights just wasn’t the best decision arrangement wise because how did we go from ooh sexc to aigh pARTAY. felix saying sheesh T___T it’s such a fun song i want to go to the beach ;n; do you like beaches?

gone away - i have yet to read the lyrics because i’m using this as inspo for a jeongin fic jskjash it’s not the type of ballad i like but it’s so fucking sad to listen to :’ ) the pitch change caught me off guard? still does. it’ll grow on me prolly.

wolfgang - I YELLED WHEN I HEARD HYUNJIN IN WOLFGANG. i didn’t like this song until recently. it gives me the confidence boost i need to pick myself off self-esteem crashes.

and no i haven't watched that performance and i prolly wont because i’ll cry. i’m excited for the promotions too. do you think they’ll still have a repackage?? i cant fucking believe that i just finished waiting for 12am kst for skz teasers and now i have to look forward to 12am for nct 127??@?#? NOT A SINGLE DAY OF REST FOR THIS STAYZEN

#toff.asks #wild anon 🐺