#itsbeenawhile

[jugs4u]

#itsbeenawhile

[linksugiecookerneal]

Hi, I haven't been on Tumblr in a while

#heyyall #itsbeenawhile #doctorwho #tenth doctor

[fushia1198]

#me #my face #zoinks #itsbeenawhile

[nietr]

who surprised im still alive and not in jail or some shit like that

#itsbeenawhile

[g-cado]

Ummg,,, hiii

#itsbeenawhile #lmao hi guys #digital art #colored art #oc art #my art #original character #my persona #cado the real #real!! #yea i need to post here more often haha lol

[hawksanctuary]

So apparently last time I logged in here was 4 years ago.

In Summary: Finished Bachelors Degree Did Masters Degree

Moved to Latvia, taught English

Moved to Hungary, taught English

Moved back to the UK

Started current job of which I cannot speak!

And that's about it.

#itsbeenawhile

[raestickler]

I did an art. “Sunriseeyes” Happy Sunday. #artistsoninstagram #itsbeenawhile #doodle #writingpoetryinmyhead #spaceambience (at North Las Vegas, Nevada) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cok8NWeSQ5G/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#artistsoninstagram #itsbeenawhile #doodle #writingpoetryinmyhead #spaceambience

[fujihime-litg]

OMG! It's been a while guys. I'm so busy lately. Thanks for the tag my friend @jamal-is-my-caffeine

Name: Nadia/Fuji

First fandom you became a part of: Anime Fandom (Naruto,Bleach, etc)

What was the first TV show fandom you joined: Stranger Things

How old were you: Old Enough

Latest TV show/movie fandom you joined: Not really a show but maybe KPOP fandom because I got so hooked with Jay of Enhypen and Mingyu of SEVENTEEN huhu T_T

Favorite fandom: LITG

The TV show that gives you the most brain rot: Stranger Things

The fictional couple that gives you the most brain rot: None

Guilty pleasure fictional couple: MC/Tim / MC/Noah

Guilty pleasure TV shows: Doctor X, Lovely Complex, Gokusen

Something that made me happy this week: Playing Otome Games and Visual Novels during my free time to relieve stress.

Not sure who to tag probably everyone have done this.

#not litg #tag game #itsbeenawhile

[ne0nnet]

Did my makeup, thought it looked pretty sweet, little edit as the lighting wasn't great. Glad I managed a bit of colour at the end of a very grey year. More colour in 2023, in life, not just makeup (but, maybe, both... please?) Ps. Wish I'd put on lip balm, damn dry lips 💋 . . . #Makeup #rainbow #rainbowmakeup #eyeshadow #NYE2022 #NYE #selfiesaturday #selfie #itsbeenawhile #moreadventures #moreinstagrampoststhisyear #makememories #morefun #morehappytimes #withgoodpeople #kthxbye #lovelovelove #me #itsme #HiItsMe #ne0n #ne0nnet (at London, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm7MXO2Ig6L/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#makeup #rainbow #rainbowmakeup #eyeshadow #nye2022 #nye #selfiesaturday #selfie #itsbeenawhile #moreadventures #moreinstagrampoststhisyear #makememories #morefun #morehappytimes #withgoodpeople #kthxbye #lovelovelove #me #itsme #hiitsme #ne0n #ne0nnet

[azeene]

Hey, It’s been a while, hope you’re all ok!!! … 🤓🙋🏽‍♀️✨ - - I’ve had zero motivation lately, students have wiped me out. My bathroom has the best lighting … forever in there! Ha! 🫠 - - #sailormoon #homagetees #homage #payhomage #itsbeenawhile #selfie #hithere #japaneseanime #anime #sailormoonanime #ａｅｓｔｈｅｔｉｃ #aesthetic #kawaiianime #kawaiiaesthetic #oldselfie #discoverunder5k #microblog #azeene #soznotsoz (at Newcastle upon Tyne) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjLcXR0IiDg/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#sailormoon #homagetees #homage #payhomage #itsbeenawhile #selfie #hithere #japaneseanime #anime #sailormoonanime #ａｅｓｔｈｅｔｉｃ #aesthetic #kawaiianime #kawaiiaesthetic #oldselfie #discoverunder5k #microblog #azeene #soznotsoz

[ohgawditskpop]

should we go back to tumblr? hahaha

#itsbeenawhile

[ladyotakukiut]

The early ladies~💕 #ayyy #itsbeenawhile 💜 (at I Lotus Restaurant) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ci4xS6mBVn_V4eadCSjwgfPnCK9DMQolUDsTQ00/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#ayyy #itsbeenawhile

[typebyhandblog]

Daily affirmation . . . #dailyaffirmations #handlettering #itsbeenawhile #sidehustle #changeisgoodforthesoul #handmade #lettering (at Newton, Massachusetts) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChCdAXzr8yv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#dailyaffirmations #handlettering #itsbeenawhile #sidehustle #changeisgoodforthesoul #handmade #lettering

[beautifulsoul247]

I’m gonna post some singing videos sooner or later again just gotta come up with the content I’d like to share

#itsbeenawhile #diverseart #tiktok #singer

[taaggn0608]

工事中の通天閣も悪くないかも。 Closing eyes and feeling Osaka vibes! . #大阪 #新世界 #通天閣 #光らん #osaka #itsbeenawhile (通天閣) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqMjOmSyqkt/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#大阪 #新世界 #通天閣 #光らん #osaka #itsbeenawhile

[thiswildheart]

Its been awhile...

Its been awhile, but im still here. Just...

Life has been anything but cruisy. On the outside we would seem like a happy little family who has it all. The reality is, I'm worse than ever before. I thought I would get stronger since trying to heal myself but I feel like I'm only making it worse. Surely there is a bright side to all this darkness. I've lost myself completely and despite having the most beautiful girls ,I cant stop the thoughts of just succumbing.

I nearly lost one parent to a monster who tried to take their life and leave them with scars they will never heal from. Jumping from one lover to the next in hopes of filling the space that they was meant to fill themselves. God, that sounds dirty, its not intended that way i can assure you.

The other parent is stuck in their old ways. Too dependent on making sure their partner is happy to make themself happy. Looking in from the outside, it would seem that they don't care, the new family is all that matters now. I know that to not be true but it still stings when I'm the one constantly making the effort to avoid a war of words. My siblings are their own worst enemies. One is identical to our mother, who plays the victim and relies on the need to feel loved by others. The other craves love but on their own terms. Believing that they are not good enough to attract the right person. And here I am, trying to get through it day by day, no support apart from my best friend who also shares similar struggles. We share common pain and I believe that's why we care so much for each other. We understand. I'm in a loveless marriage, my husband gets his thrills from sneaking around my back and if, what I think is going on is truly happening, he may be fathering an additional child that sure as hell isn't with me. We're pretty much just room mates at this stage. We barely talk or touch and I snap at him at the drop of a hat. He makes me feel like what I do is never good enough, he's very manipulative and patronising, gaslighting me at any opportunity. I'm not sure if it truly is him or if its a cycle of paranoia that my childhood trauma has caused me to have. Either way, it sucks balls. Add in a large amount of debt, trying to run multiple businesses and keep everyone alive, its truly a recipe for disaster. My resentment towards him for my misery is growing everyday, yet I still cant leave. I'm not ready yet.

My girls are incredible, I feel so bad for them however. I yell at them all the time and get so irritated with them. But I know that's not their fault, they are children who need to be taught how to love and heal themselves from any trauma I may leave them. I'm trying my hardest not to but the world is not perfect and I'm far from it. So polite, well behaved and smart. I cant handle the thought of being the one to ruin that for them.

I've been to a doctor to for some help, apparently all I need is to schedule some time for some self care. That could well just be the answer, but its not that easy when your whole world relies on you. Plus, if I got some self care, do you really think I'd need the fucking doctor? I'm sure there's something physical going on, ADHD, hormonal imbalance, low cortisol. Maybe my mental health is manifesting physically. I don't know, I'm not the doctor here. All I do know is something ain't right and no matter what I do, I cant get the help I need.

It seems like I only ever post here when shit gets rough. Well, its never been rougher and this ship is sinking fast. Until the next crisis...

X

#itsbeenawhile #crisismode #domesticviolence #gaslighting #trauma #mentalhealth #selfcare