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#its. really incredible how my mom always somehow manages to pinpoint EXACTLY whats making me feel like shit
mapleshmaple · 4 years
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#its. really incredible how my mom always somehow manages to pinpoint EXACTLY whats making me feel like shit#and just crank it from a 10 to a 100 without thinking twice about it#and when i tell her that 'hey. maybe can you possibly NOT do that please' shes like 'WELL I SAID IT WITHOUT THINKING#SO THAT JUSTIFIES/EXCUSES IT >:/'#and just. drops that shit and i mean!! ok. thats cool. thanks for that.#i was feeling like shit about how im not gonna live to see 30 at this rate and just. really missing my grandmothers that passed recently#and its my grandpas birthday/her step-dads birthday today and hes 94 and shes walks in on my three hours of sleep having ass#like 'this may be the last birthday we have with pete- both him and grandmom do a lot for us' AND I MEAN#I WAS GONNA GET UP ANYWAY WITHOUT THE FUCKING. THAT. SO THATS REAL COOL. SUPER APPRECIATE THAT.#that and shes going back to work and literally just sitting there all day and our boss is like 'hm. im gonna bring everyone back#and start back up on six days a week. even if we only make like. five sales a day.' and moms just#been going off about that and about how i need to get bloodwork done and its.#i dunno!!! i dunno. im just real fed up with everything right now and really burnt the hell out#cuz i feel like now everythings on a fucking invisible timer and i cant take my time with anything or else mom'll fukcing#go back to treating me like im six and take away whatever it is of mine she doesnt like and just throw it at the donation bin or some shit#so if im. slow to reply im really sorry i just need to kinda vibe for a bit bc im on the ass end of being burnt the hell out tldr
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tsukidotcom · 4 years
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haikyuu characters as boyfriends (hc)
this is my first time doing something like this, so it might be bad! Sorry in advance 🥺
Hinata Shouyou
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If you are shorter than him, even if it’s by less than an inch, he will take that fact with PRIDE!!
He may atease you a little bit but it’s only for laughs and giggles. He knows the frustration of people constantly telling him he’s short. like, No Shit Sherlock! But it isn’t often he finds someone shorter than him, let alone being able to tease anYONE for their height.
Will try to be the best bf eva and still help with reaching the highest shelves. How? Easy! With a little bit of problem solving.
“Hinata, help me reach the top shelf!”
*will feel happy someone finally asks him for help with something he is usually incapable of doing* “Okay!”
he will either give you a piggy back ride or let you sit on his shoulders so you can grab what you want. This could either end really well or really horribly. Worst case scenario is if one of you get hurt in the process but you guys usually laugh it off!
All in all, is gonna be mega soft for you. Treat you like a baby princess. Will always spoon you!! Cuddles!!
Now, if you’re taller than him..?
Total different story.
1000% is gonna be teased by Tsukishima, Kageyama and a little bit by Tanaka. Mostly Tsukishima. But also Kageyama and Tanaka.
You might also tease for laughs and giggles. You don’t push it like Tsukishima, though.
He will use his tippy toes to give you kisses 🥺🥺
Protect him!!! At all costs!! He’s just a baby crow into the wilderness. He’ll surely appreciate you and what you do for him. He will also try protect you back (like he did for the manager kiyoko). It may not be as affective but it’s the thought that counts !!
if you take interest in helping him practice or volleyball in general he may just cry out of pure happiness. If you don’t know a clue about volleyball or how to use the ball HE WILL GLADLY TEACH YOU. IF YOU’RE EYES SPARKLE AT HOW GOOD YOUR BABE IS AT VOLLEYBALL HE WILL S W O O N. You’ll make him feel like the most powerful man on the planet.
If we talk about sleep, he‘s still going to be the big spoon. Yet he doesn’t mind being the little spoon. He likes being both! As long as you’re with him he will sleep soundly like the babey he is.
At this point, height isn’t a factor he cares about. It is all about personality!!!
Really cherishes and cares about you. He’s just a cute bean that loves volleyball. Have a lot of trust and faith in him! He wants to be the best boyfriend ever 🥺 honestly will skip a few practices for you. But you owe him!
He’s very inexperienced. He might not even know how to properly kiss yet! (he’s THAT babey and innocent). You can try to coach him a little bit. If you don’t know much, either, then you guys can work with each other without feeling like you’re doing something wrong. Because y’all don’t know what’s right or wrong. You’re in this together! KDKFK
When it comes to physical attraction he leans towards long hugs and regular cuddle sessions. He likes your warmth 🥺💖 He’ll just lay on top of you. He’s just like a weighted blanket. And he is ALWAYS open to you laying on him, too. Sit on his lap 🥺 he is gonna play with your hair. He has a little sister at home so he probably knows how to do little tricks like braids.
Going to his house for study sessions or just to hang out is sometimes nerve wracking. His little sister can be incredibly annoying and nosy. he doesn’t want her crashing into his room when he can be alone with you. But small playdates with his little sis is always appreciated because he still cares for her (yet its still kinda embarrassing). He prays everytime you come over his mom doesn’t embarrass him, either. Baby pictures? No way in hell is he gonna let you see them. THEY WOULD BE ADORABLE TO YOU BUT REALLY EMBARRASSING TO HIM. He will get really flustered.
Kageyama Tobio
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Before he had feelings for you his mind was crammed with volleyball. There was no other room for anything else. But when YOU came into his life, he felt like things about volleyball was dumped far away.,, Deep in his noggin. He was getting confused about simple things and started overthinking about his movements more. His serves became less accurate/delayed. Safe to say you had an effect on his practice. He kinda got angry at you about it LMAO
Of course the other teammembers figured something was wrong with Kageyama, but they didn’t know why. He’s a very hard person to read,,, that is until he’s around you. He obviously acts differently. His cheeks become a little more pink and he stutrers his words more often. He doesn’t say anything mean to you like he does with Hinata or others. He’s more.. soft around you?? Plus he never stops staring. They INSTANTLY knew he liked you. He was always in denial but they never believed him. This was followed by countless attempts to tease Kageyama. Hinata and Tsuki really got on his nerves at those times.
Once when you guys SOMEHOW got together, he was pretty stoked about it.
Again, the only thing in his brain is volleyball. If you can’t handle him and his passion then the door is right there. Please fully support him with all you have!
He doesn’t care if you play volleyball or not. Just as long as you’re there for him. He‘ll become really bright if you ask him about it, too. Like, his eyes will sparkle and almost show more color. He’ll ramble about it for ages before getting flustered and stopping himself. You could only chuckle,, as you think he’s adorable. You can obviously tell volleyball is his passion.
Cheer him on during matches! Even though he’ll get flustered and will probably be teased by Tsukishima and Hinata, it makes him play better (he wants to look good for you ;]).
It will take a long time until he gets comftorable with you and know what’s okay and not okay. At the start of a relationship he doesn’t want to be wrong. He hates being wrong. Despises it. He wants to always be right so he can be the perfect boyfriend you deserve. So,, to not make a fool of himself, he observes you and takes mental notes of anything you say. He will try to avoid asking directly if something is good/okay, but he will ask if needed. It’ll be a total awkward mess for him but at the end of the day he cares and wants whats best for you.
He isn’t very touchy but in private he digs for cuddles. Being able to sit so close to you like that makes him head over heels for you. He’ll also die if you play with his hair. He’d act like he hates it at first but he could honestly fall asleep as you rub his scalp 🥺
In public he might sheepishly hold your hand. After some time he’ll take your hand without even thinking but at first he’s gonna be scared. ‘was it the right time to hold their hand?’ ‘did i do something bad?’ ‘what if....’ ‘but...’ please squeeze his hand as an act of reassurance. Smile at him, too. He’ll feel a little better afterwords.
With him always observing you, he can tell when something is wrong. He might be able to pinpoint what’s bothering you exactly. He’s that good. He is more of an action than words type of guy so he will purposely give you more attention. He’ll try to hint that he can tell something’s off. If you don’t get the hints he’ll finally ask if you’re okay. Will give you anything that he thinks you want or need. You want to talk about it? He’s listening. Cry on his shoulder? His arms are open. Want to distract yourself? Lets go do something. Movie? Sure thing. Eat? Already on it. Just talk about anything? Okay.
He won’t admit it but he loves seeing your smile so when that’s taken away from him he wants it fixed ASAP.
You guys will have regular study sessions. Even though he’s volleyball smart he’s flat out dumb when it comes to school work (but don’t tell him that). A nicer word would be ‘clueless.’ You’ll help him with notes and homework since you’ll probably have some of the same classes as him. He very much appreciates it. He might show his appreciation by giving you a peck on the cheek or lips (if your lucky).
He will make sure he looks good for you. Make sure he smells good and takes care of his hair a little bit more.
He will also internally freak out if he sees you wearing and smelling his hoodies or shirts. You’re so damn cute he doesn’t know how to handle it. If you ask for a hoodie he probably isn’t going to give you one so you’ll have to steal it yourself. He won’t realize it’s gone till he sees you wearing it. Then he’ll be like;
“........is that my-“
“Yep! But it’s mine now, so..”
*wants to get angry at you but can’t because you look so fucking cute with his hoodie he liteally can’t handle it*
When you two are alone he might just hug you and (if you’re lucky) pick you up off the ground because his instincts says to squeeze you and hold you tight. To protect you. He feels so much aching love for you oh my god it’s oozing out of him. And if he ever gets the hoodie back?? You already know he’s gonna wear it because it smells like YOU now! Your smell makes him so happy and calm.
when he’s in a real soft mood he’s gonna b touching you 27/4. Holding you, hugging you, cuddling you, feeling you. He loves the feeling of his skin touching yours. Like. Your skin is so soft. He’ll just bury his head in the crook of your neck and enjoy your presence. Your body. Your smell. He loves every aspect of you. And when he’s soft he always shows you how much you adore him through hugs and kisses.
And as a setter he’s real good with his fingers ;)
Tsukishima Kei
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Ah, yes.
The myth, the legend.
When he first falls for you, expect for him to suddenly disappear from your sight. Despite being a smart guy he will be very confused/clueless as to why he feels the way he feels. He will think it’s a bad feeling¿ and want to get away from it as soon as possible. At first he wouldnt know it was you who caused him to feel all soft and fuzzy. But when he realized those stupid butterflies were connected to YOU??? He’s gone.
Similar to Kageyama, it hit him hard during volleyball practice. It would take more just to focus on the game. It’s harder for him to move around. He’d get really frustrated and would think this was all your doing. Another reason why he’s distancing himself!!
Obviously you’ll feel sad and think you did something wrong. He most likely wouldn’t consider what it would look like in your perspective. Probably because he thinks your doing this to him on purpose like some sort of witch or mastermind.
THEN he finds himself thinking about you EVEN MORE!! Just the thought of bumping into you again makes his heart skip a beat. He hates it.
The only way for you guys to talk about this is if you go up to him before he can run away OR yamaguchi (or someone else) realizes what’s going on and forces you guys to meet up.
Once when he settles down and realizes it’s because he fell for you there is No Way he is gonna make the first move. You’re gonna be making the first move whether you like it or not. Who cares about toxic masculinity!! Girls can ask guys out, too!
“Tsukishima?”
“hm.”
“I like you”
*chokes on water or his own spit honestly* “W Hat ?”
“i.,. i like you, Tsukishima Kei.”
MEGA RED RN BUT HE’S TRYIN TO HIDE IT. so yOU BETTER PRETEND YOU DONT SEE IT. “tch,. y-you dumbass.”
by then you probably figured out he likes you too because id he didn’t he wouldv’e outright rejected you like the asshole he is 💔 but now he’s your asshole ❤️
Like Kageyama, he believes in actions more than words. Verbal communication when it‘s about love is almost nonexistent while being in a relationship with Tsuki. It’s 👏 all 👏 about 👏 ACTIONS!! 👏
Don’t expect him to be all touchy with you, either. He isn’t much of a fan of holding hands or cuddling. He isn’t really into all the PDA. He just likes standing or being near you. Just the feeling of your presence is enough for him.
But he will sometimes kiss you either on the cheek or head. Mostly the cheek. It’s easy, fast, and subtle. If he’s REALLY in the mood he will kiss you on the lips.
During a match he doesn’t care if you’re there or not. It doesn’t hurt him if you aren’t. He knows you’re human and he doesn’t expect you to be there. But you usually are. Your presence definitely makes him more reliable in a game. He tries a little more and a little harder. He wants you to know you’re boyfriend is the best volleyball blocker on the block. When he successfully blocks a powerful spike he is FOR SURE gonna glance your way to see if you saw. Make him feel like he’s the most powerful thing in the world. He gonna get cocky as hell.
After winning a tough match in the finals/nationals he for sure is gonna feel a little pumped. If not more. You feel really happy and excited that the team won, too. So when you run around the halls to see him alone,, filling up his water bottle, you’re gona RUN up to him and hug him. And kiss him. He’ll be surprised but honestly a kiss from you is the best reward after winning a tense match. Suddenly his shoulders (he didn’t even know that was stiff) loosen. His hands explore your hips and waists. Very passionate kiss!! He likes those every once in awhile!!
If y’all get in the z o n e and just keep on kissing he’s gonna be the first to stop it. Not because he’s not enjoying it. But because he doesn’t want anyone walking in on you guys. He does things like this in PRIVATE. He’d never go down like that in a place where he could get caught.
What’s alone time like with Tsukishima? Well, you guys would probably in his room doing your own things. He doesn’t need study sessions because he’s good at school work. In fact, HE would probably be the one giving you study sessions if needed. If you have trouble on a subject he’s gonna help you, but not babysit you. He explains it once or twice and thats it. You’re kinda on your own after that. But he’s good at explaining things so it works out at the end.
He is really geeky about dinosaurs. Nothing much to it. He doesn’t say anything about it because he thinks it’s kinda embarrassing .. BUT! if you’re willing to have a full on conversation with him about dinosaurs he will be ON FIRE. He’s instantly gonna become super informative and passionate about it. Like a child. He wouldn’t mind watching documentaries with you either.
IS A MEGA TEASE. A REAL, STUPID TEASE!!!!!! He’s a sarcastic bitch so try not to take everything he says personally. This is just how he is. How he communicates and shows his affection. Although he knows he could probably go to far/get carried away. If he does you can talk to him about it. You will have to be right on as to what is hurting you because he doesn’t really grasp how his words can hurt you when he didn’t mean it.
“Kei..?”
“Yeah?”
“I...You know what you said to me a few days ago..? About ___?”
“Uhh, yeah. Why.”
“..This is stupid, but it hurt my feelings a little bit- I’m sorry I-“
“But why? I don’t actually mean what I said. So why would it effect you?”
“I know you actually don’t mean it. But... you do this all the time so it seems so real.. like you DO mean it. Even though I know you don’t mean it, it still...”
Babey probably won’t fully grasp the issue but will try to watch what comes out of his mouth. If something slips out and you show a negative reaction (you become silent, show a painful expression, etc.) he will probably say that he’s sorry. He doesn’t admit to saying sorry often because he hates being wrong (like kageyama). He probably won’t verbally say sorry when you first begin dating. It’ll take some time till he’s fully comftorable around you.
He will know what to do when you’re angry or sad because he always feels irritated. He might leave you alone because that’s what he always wants when he’s mad. If you’re sad he isn’t going to force you to talk to him about it but he isn’t gonna act like he doesn’t notice. He doesn’t really sugar coat things so he’s gonna flat out say ‘hey, you’re not okay. i can tell.’
At the end of the day he cares for you and will protect you. Make sure you’re okay :>
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