#its still another test

[kaogens]

theyre all ive been thinking about recently

#trigun #vashwood #trimax #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #wolfwood #also i drew this on iartbook im testing it out its so fucking good?? the brushes are so nice oouhhg #still thinking abt the trimax hospital scene like???? where am i #why are you as a man blushing thinking abt another man

[plulp]

yknow kylar isnt my favorite character but the owl plushie really raised the bar by like maybe 30%

#my art #dol #harper the doctor #whitney the bully #kylar the loner #colors are a little WACKY because i was using a brush thats CRAAAAZY (not crazy. pretty normal but its okay) #sorry i dont post EVER #i have more dol sketches but im just a guy and i get embarrassed if i dont like the drawing enough LMAO #every time i have to test draw something i always draw harper #if i save every harper i draw this account would never be dead ever #anyways im having my own personal dol renaissance (playing it again) #if you want to reblog just send me an ask and ill unlock it but im a little nervous about people rbing my art still :( sorry #thank you for everyone who was like 'please let me rb this' for my harper thing i appreciate it so much but i dont like that piece enough #to set it free. #i drew another harper as consolation but i never posted it because i didnt like that one EITHER. im crazy #turning rbs on. for you.

[the-final-sif]

I'll be honest, having seen a lot of the boil over, I think the thing that keeps catching a particular subgroup up about the finale is that the finale unequivocally says two things:

c!Dream was not always this way, he was at one point, just a 20 something year old running around in fields with his friends.

c!Dream was, and still is, unmistakably and indisputably human.

I feel like these two facts, being presented in such a way that there's no way for it to be misunderstood, are sticking points for that group because it forces an understanding that they have been actively been working against.

c!Dream did horrible things, but he was still human. He was human the entire time. He wasn't born evil, he wasn't a one-dimensional purely malicious villain that existed only to fill a role. He was human. He was human, and he did horrible things, and those horrible things did not negate his humanity. c!Dream was a human, and he was hurt, and he handled that hurt poorly, and he hurt people as a result. He wasn't always this way, he ended up this way because of how he was hurt and the poor choices he made to handle that hurt.

It's vicious towards people who've been stuck on this idea that c!Dream is inhuman, that's he's a monster, that he was always selfish, evil, "the problem". Because they need that simplicity in a narrative and can't handle the implication that anyone can end up being horrible. That there isn't a neat little line between good people and bad people, and that anyone can both be hurt and hurt others.

c!Dream is an ugly, vicious reflection of what someone can become when they believe their goal is worthwhile and they don't care if what they're doing is wrong. He is though, above all else, a human. Just a person. Who was hurt, and made bad choices. Nothing more, nothing less. Familiar and terrifying.

I feel like there's a certain group out there that absolutely cannot stand this idea that anyone can do horrible, irreparable damage, for much the same reason that some people don't like mirrors.

#c!dream #dreblr #dsmp #c!tommy finale #dream smp #sif speaks #I'm just thinking about the deep irony of a group known for sending death/gore/rape etc threats #to another group for liking a fictional character #would hate a finale that points out that even someone who does horrible monstrous things is still human #and by extension any human is capable of doing horrible and monstrous things #an abuser is not another species you are incapable of becoming #its a human making cruel choices #a human that could be you if you don't put in active effort towards being kind and unlearning toxic things you may've learned #anyways my blocking system has been incredibly effective so far but this post will be a test of it

[sailorfailures]

One eerie frame for every classic Sailor Moon episode, OP, & ED

🌙🖤 Happy Halloween!

#Sailor Moon #descriptions in alt text #the visual design of the first season really was something #in my heart I feel like it's not Sailor Moon yet bc it was still finding its feet but that also allowed it to be more experimental #I don't think it's better or worse because while I do enjoy the novelty of earlier episodes #they also don't feel like Sailor Moon episodes. A lot of them feel like another show with SM characters randomly in them #which is not a good thing necessarily but they're so interesting it's also not a bad thing. It's just a thing #which you don't really see as often with current anime #you can just really see how they were kind of taking a gamble with Sailor Moon and testing the waters to see what angles would do well #I think it started to understand its actual target audience at around the Rainbow Crystals arc and shifted focus there #which is also when Jupes arrived so the team dynamic really started to take hold & the true appeal of it as a Magical Girl codifier emerged #ANYWAY it was just interesting to note that while Sailor Moon could consistently achieve moodiness and tension visually #the WAYS they achieved that were pretty different in the first half of classic compared to any other season #HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! BLEEHHH!!!

[pocketramblr]

Ask Game AU: Where Nao grow suspicious of her husbands "friend" and his constant need to involve himself in their lives so she does her own investigation of the man.

1- Nao was glad, at first, that Kotaro was befriending people at work. He's always been slow to trust. With this friend, though, he wasn't. Kotaro ended up working later, and when he wasn't, going out to dinner or drinks with his coworker. Nao didn't want to bring anything up, didn't want to discourage him, and it wasn't like she had been abandoned to watch Hana all day by herself- her parents were there, and Kotaro wasn't out every single night. Just a lot of them.

2- Still, she doesn't say anything, until one night, Kotaro is back and in bed next to her, only a bit of wine left on his lips, when he brings up trying for a second child. She stares at him, and he withdraws, but she tells him it wasn't a bad thing- just, she had no idea he was thinking about it. They were both only children, and Kotaro had spent some years in a home with many other kids and didn't speak fondly of the experience. Kotaro tells her his friend brought it up, is all, and Nao nods, but is more worried.

3- Kotaro's office is hardly difficult to find things in. She discovers that he was the one to hire his friend, which she notes is weird, because he never mentions that detail. The address on record for him doesn't seem to be a place someone lives. The numbers on his bank account are... fine. But she doesn't find any trace of him online. She asks a few questions to Kotaro here and there, what his friends qualifications were, where he went to school. He's not even found there, on any list of graduates or alum forums. It's odd. but maybe he is just very private.

4- Hana brings up having a little sibling. Nao asks her if her father said anything, and she says no, they had a substitute teacher that day who'd told some stories and said he used to have a little brother. When Kotaro comes home late from work, he's unaware of what his daughter said when Nao asks if he's been thinking about it still. He says he has, and she says she still doesn't know. Two kids after all is a lot of work. and he's not home very often anymore.

5- Nao looks at the package of pills, the last row of seven, and opens her next box instead. She's done it before, once, for a vacation to the beach. She'd spotted a little then, but this time its more. Her birth control's been tampered with. Kotaro couldn't have done it, she'd just gotten the new box the day before she'd opened it and what'd he know anyway about it? What had that pharmacist looked like? Perhaps it was a defect, something she should notify the manufacturer about. She resolves to do so. Kotaro doesn't eat dinner with them that night, and when she asks how it went, he tells her that his friend told him such a funny story about his little brother, listen, he'll tell her and she'll laugh. She asks about the brother, Kotaro goes quiet and says his friend talked about him in the past tense. He's got enough dead family of his own to not press more than that. But really, the story was funny. Nao thinks about Hana's substitute- but clearly, Kotaro's friend was at work that day, must be another coincidence. In a line of many bad ones. Kotaro asks her if she'd like a second child. Nao thinks she might have, before all this. Now, she isn't sure what she'd like. Instead, she tells him that he barely sees Hana. is he really sure that he wants another kid? Kotaro goes quiet again, realizes she's right. He offers to take the next day off. Nao tells him she just wants him home on time for dinner.

+1- Kotaro agrees, and the next day Nao's parents watch Hana for an hour while she meets with her friend Shirota Akiho at the park. Akiho gives Nao a hug, and an unopened box of birth control. She tells her that her sister Beru's bridal shower is in a few weeks, and she can give her another box then. She agrees everything sounds weird- but Kotaro probably isn't to blame. Nao goes home. Kotaro on time for dinner that day. But he realizes when he reacts to Hana telling him she is playing heroes before bed (and Nao and Hana react to his reaction) that maybe he should spend more time at home before welcoming someone else into it.

#the pharmaceutical company like. tests her packages and is like 'hm yeah must have been an error in manufacturing with that sorry would you #like to settle this out of court' and then they can take another lovely little vacay #and maybe Tenko still comes around just... later #....... maybe two years later. sort of third year age while izuku's a freshman. maybe- #ok post is long enough and im sure afo is going to be plotting more anyway when he realizes his plan backfired #and nao isn't suddenly getting pregnant planned or unplanned and also kotaro is slowly warming up to the idea of his daughter having #fancies of being a hero. she's so young after all its no harm. they can talk more seriously when she's older. he wants to protect that #innocence longer than his own was protected #maybe afo can be fuming about kotaro not dropping everything to go on a date with him that he goes to kill some people to work out his ange #and that leads All Might right to him years early or something #that'd be nice ig #pocket talks to people #anon #ask game #hm. not sure what the warning for garaki tampering with nao's meds should be but if you know let me know #ask to tag

[girlblocker]

spent around 8 months applying for this doctor appointment and they literally told me to take more ibuprofen 👎

#im super angry but its whatever i guess #i also didnt want to do all this bc i think doctors suck but my parents wanted me to #bc theyre dumbasses who still like. believe that doctors are good at their jobs #im like cassandra the profit the way i was like 'theyre not going to help at all' and i was fucking right #they also fucked up my blood test scheduling and want me to drive another 2 hrs to get it done #like. ive made 3 trips there in the past week. u could have had a blood test ANY of those times. kys

[oatbugs]

idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second. #remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one. #make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard. #you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper. #she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down #and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep. #there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more #and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true. #you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her. #the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers. #your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts. #learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again. #i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir #youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this. #right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full. #youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother #im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg #just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts. #breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful. #the lack of her is still beautiful

[starswallowingsea]

I just woke up from a nap but didn't Kanata used to take naps on Kaoru when they were in school in the Marine Bio club and they both individually needed to decompress from life? I'm just imaging a Kaoru who can't sleep or doesn't want to sleep gently playing with Kanata's hair, loosely braiding it or wrapping it around his finger while Kanata is softly snoring and leaning into Kaoru's touch.

Or one of the rare times that Kaoru is the one sleeping, Kanata just being there to watch over him and make sure he isn't disturbed because Kanata can tell Kaoru hasn't been sleeping well and wants to give him the time he needs to rest.

Or both of them napping together, either on top of each other or just in the room, separate but basking in the comfort of a familiar and calming presence as the whirring of the fish tanks lulls them to sleep

#shay speaks #enstars #kaoru hakaze #kanata shinkai #kaokana #kaokana nap pile in the marine bio room. kaoru actually lays his head on kanata's chest or stomach #and lets himself be intimate with another guy just this once (its the third time this month) #they are each other's comfort person. to me. #this could be romantic or platonic tbh #i think. in high school its platonic kaoru still has a lot of internalized homophobia to work through #but after they graduate and kaoru is a little more honest with his feelings #i think thats when he'd want to slowly test the waters of dating another guy for real #they hold pinkies :) more casual touching of the hands and arms #that kind of stuff #still takes like 6 months for kaoru to kiss kanata though dksbsjsjwjwbw #he's really shy and kanata is like dont worry kaoru i have never kissed anyone #this does not make it easier but its still a cute moment on the beach at sunset for both of them #even if its a little stilted and awkward

[catboybrain]

studying tips

ok so i keep seeing posts saying do a shit ton of work but let's be real, you're an engineering major and you have 5 classes and a lab, you don't have time to read through every little thing before an exam.

the main idea is studying is not confined to a specific time period, like before an exam. to properly study, you passively do it when you work on things for the class! the bulk of the studying i do is NOT in the week before the exam, it's in the downtime i have between exams. i also normally don't call it studying, to me it's just work on a subject. the fun thing about this method is it means you get to generally be lazier over a longer period (my executive dysfunction is very happy @ that) since the work is spread out but more thorough!

your goal should be to fully understand and apply the concepts! to do this most efficiently and seamlessly, you want to master them (or at least be able to wield them) as they come up in lecture. doing problem sets is studying. doing prereading for lectures to give yourself an initial footing on a topic, if that helps you, is studying! if you're trying to put the scaffolding in place some set time before a test, you're eventually going to get into a situation where you can't put it up, and then you're going to be in trouble.

here are some things i do to "study"/ master topics as they come up in class.

go to class. this seems silly but yk I should put it in here. if you need to skip, try and skip on a day where you think you already know what's going on (and it's ok to skip if you need to! just don't let it stop you from mastering the concepts)

do the assigned homework. if a class assigns work but it's not due, do the FUCK outta that work. my basic rule is do 75% of the work that's assigned (100% of work due obvs) if you already feel like you have a type of problem down. but don't stop doing problems until you feel like you completely understand how to do the problem!

rubber duck debug your own learning. talk to people, explain how to do a problem. if you don't know why you're doing a step, you probably don't have a strong enough understanding of the concept yet! talking out loud will help you see much easier.

ask for help. sometimes textbooks legitimately suck. sometimes professors suck! if you're struggling to understand a topic, seek out a bunch of different sources of explanation. normally it just takes one good perspective to click, but it's hard to find that perspective sometimes.

when a test is coming up, be realistic with yourself. oftentimes in this period there will be topics where i'm like "oh, i don't have a great success rate for these problems." that'll be what's important to review. don't spend your time studying for everything if you already know most of it.

if you're right before a test and you haven't been doing the above, pray. no, i'm just kidding. there's a concept in the pikmin games called dandori, the art of organizing your time. become a dandori master. think about which topics (and or ask around! always feel free to ask a prof what will be on the exam, i find they always give you at least some useful information if you're not like "uhhh what problems are on the test" LOL) are most important, and prioritize learning those. cover as much ground as you can, instead of just starting at the beginning.

this one might be controversial but. study to learn, not for the grade. if you're in college, this information will directly help you in your field. obviously if you're in a GE or something this doesn't apply as much but if your only motivation is an A, you aren't going to go as far. if you can nurture your inner curiousity and connect with the content you're learning, it'll be way more fun and it won't seem as much like a slog <3

ok that's all i got. knock 'em dead, kid. and always remember: C's get degrees <3

#studyblr #engineerblr #study tips #d.txt #wonder if this will help anyone #probably not but i see a lot of studying tips as in . study before tests and im ngl #i almost neever hella study before tests except for one dumb english GE i took but even then this still applies! #you can forget it all after the class if its unimportant but like thats another post for another day (wrt keeping info in ur brain LOL)

[batemanofficial]

hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice

#speak friend and enter #i can appreciate mothman as much as the next guy but can we stop treating appalachia like it's the subject of a richard attenborough doc #i come from a long line of hillbillies and i like to think i've got a good sense of humor about it but sometimes i am tested #like. this is not a lawless land with a moonshine still in every holler and nameless voices in the woods!! this is a normal town!! #idk maybe i'm reading too much into it but i'm just tired of the cultural fetishization of appalachia by people who aren't from here #and who don't know anything about it. like yeah you know mothman and what hooch is and that's all well and good #but do you know what the opioid epidemic really is. do you know about the structural injustices that keep people like mcconnell in power #i'm not saying you have to apply dialectical political analysis to every issue that occurs in the region to be able to have an opinion #but also like. i'm tired of people looking at places like where i grew up and making them into things they aren't #like. on the one hand we have ''ooh spooky hills!! run if you hear the trees whisper your name'' #and on the other we've got ''isn't appalachia so depressing...so hashtag ethel cain core...shame it's got no value beyond aesthetics'' #and on yet another hand we have ''i - a person with no ties to the region - am going to take up the cause of every social issue #occurring across the entire appalachian region so the world will see just how bad these poor hill people have it. i am very smart'' #and like. it's frustrating #i'm not saying you should never speak about appalachia if something we have is interesting to you #nor am i implying that i want to gatekeep discussion of the region's issues to the community bc that won't accomplish anything #i'm just saying that like any place it's complex. it's got its good things and it's got its bad things. #and you shouldn't isolate the good from the bad or vice versa - especially if you don't know the context in which those things happen. #and for the love of god dont let your own ignorance cause you to boil down those issues into a reductive and inaccurate set of stereotypes #learn about us from us. not from tiktok not from movies and for christ's sake not from hillbilly elegy. i hate that fucking book #anyway that got weirdly serious but i mean it. putting appalachia as a talking point up on the shelf until y'all can speak intelligently #ok to rb

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[idle-compy]

camp fam but it's 2022

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#tested a different style and I'm not sure how i feel ab it yet #but too many hours went into this to not post it #jurassic world camp cretaceous #camp cretaceous #'im a creative genius' i say as i put them in outfits really close to what they already wore #the order theyre in isnt specific or anything #its just the order they got designed in #i also ran out of pose ideas by the time i got to ben so he's standing kinda weird #also i redrew his face like 4 times and it still looks off?? it is what it is ig #brooklynns cardigan and darius' hair are loosely based on concept art #and idk why sammys pants look so grey on my phone when they were blue on my laptop #i had to put aside what i wanted some of them to wear and put them in what i think theyd actually wear (cough ben cough) #anyways enough rambling #fanart #my art #another day another slay #and by slay i mean still cant draw hands #c posts

[soldier-poet-king]

Might as well just live on the fuckin public transit at this point, I spend so much of my time commuting and I'm constantly exhausted and depressed and it's just!!! Fuck!!!!

#and if i move and have to pay insane rent #i will not be quilting #because MORE CRAFT SUPPLIES??? #i dont have ANY of the basic tools #i only have embroidery stuff not hand sewing stuff #i could get some stuff from my nonna #but also quality fabric and such #PLUS like have u SEEN the cost of groceries #and i EAT VEGETARIAN I DONT EVRN PURCHASE MEAT #i was gonna buy a bundle of fall candles from that organic soy brand as a treat. thats not fuckin happening #i HAVE money in the bank but if this continues im gonna have to use it to move #i set aside a chunk for tattoos and besides that #we are on no purchase lockdown out of paranoia and fear #because i have terrible trauma around childhood financial instability!!!! #and it never goes away!!!! and i hate not being in control!!! #and i still haven't gotten my full license but who can afford a car anyway #and every time i fail the test thats another 90$ #not to mention i have to take a day off work to do the test #since its only open mon-fri!!! #FUCKIN LITERALLY LIFE SHOULD NOT BE LIKE THIS

[marklikely]

rip to the person who was like "id survive in saw because im good to other people so jigsaw wouldnt target me" you still might get trapped :-/

#jigsaws morality on what he thinks needs to be punished is kind of... #plus sometimes he puts totally innocent people in traps to die as part of another persons test its all a hot mess. #avpost #he might very well put you in a trap cause you got sad or annoyed once #and if he doesnt. he still might put you in someone else's trap and u get killed anyway #he'll like put you in a garbage compactor and u just have to pray this random other guy will save you and 90% of the time he wont.

[ectonurites]

man i rlly do need to watch the new fionna and cake stuff... seeing posts abt it on my dash is makin me so nostalgic... throwback to when i cosplayed her a MILLION years ago (2014) and basically just carried my best friend as Gumball around the con

#that bra. was not the right choice with that shirt though LOL 16 yr old me made some mistakes #i think when i wore it to another con after this i picked a better one. this had been the small local con test run before anime boston #i still wear tht shirt all the time though. its comfy #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

[aria0fgold]

Yaknow what? I'll just post my lil isat au fic here instead. After I eat.

#aria rants #idk why ao3 became intimidating to me somehow but am also like-- i shoouuullldd upload it to ao3... but-- #tbf im still indecisive bout the au with it being in its baby stages so ig the lil fic idea i got is like-- testing the waters #if i write this and upload it to ao3 in the next moment ill be having ANOTHER oafb moment in my hands. i can feel it #so ill do planning First by a Lot before i set off to the wild with a possible longfic au idea #also its cuz that fic idea i got ends in a somewhat cliffhanger tone in a: to be continued? kind of way #so its obvious that i got mooorre plans for it than just a oneshot but the thing here is that i also got nothing else rn #so yea. to tumblr it goes! until i can figure out my isat au some more then to ao3!