#its so fucking close im scared

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

any 'wait for it' girlies out there? nice nice just wanted to drop by and let you know that you are mentally unwell!! me too :) we can unpack why you latched onto those lyrics as a kid together <3

#elli i am staring at you 👁👄👁 STARING DIRECLTY AT U #i relistened the other day after our convo and HOLY FUCK NO WONDER I ATTACHED TO THAT SONG AS A CHILD BJADLSFDJKSL #the lyrics BRO ARE WE OKAY #I DONT THINK SO #anyways heres a very niche off brand callout post . if this speaks to u hmu #we can do some group therapy #aka play that song on repeat and sing all the lyrics still embedded in our brains from 5th grade #thats a lie we all know u didnt stop in 5th grade #hamilton #i guess #im always scared to tag outside the byler tag/my mutuals because 🥺people on the internet are scary and need to calm down most of the time #wait for it #almost said wait for me originally because thats ALSO another banger and i need to add hadestown to my intro post bc BJAKLDSJKLJVS #formative middle school experience frfr #that musical slays omg #and i actually went and SAW that one #the flashing lights directly aimed at audiences were absolute HELL for me but its okay bc i could just close my eyes and recite the lyrics #this is way off topic my b #hadestown girlies stand up and hmu #we can just jam out to way down hadestown and chant and wait for me reprise and also cry to flowers together #ok thats enough tags

[zeddertop-bugster]

i almost posted this in doatkcord but i think i just got scared and ran away. I dont remember. but i did get scared. BUt some of you are here so i will offer this to the smaller...smaller audience on Tumble. thanks

#doing it scared doing it scared #gonna instantly post over w artfights dw #doatk #diary of a tourney kid #digital art #digital artist #fandom art #jake from state farm #THE INNOCENT #girl im gonna be real i habe no idea what the actual lore is and there are so many docs in the dicord and it goes back so far #im in love but idk if i have that brainspace while going to college going into work but it seems cool #ANyways doing it scared doibg it scared doing it SCAREEEDDDSS #IK THE PAPER EFFECT ISNT THERE ON THE GASTER BLASTED GUYS BUT I WANTED TO GIVE ITS A SHOT #AUGH SCREAMING CRYING BC IDK WHAT IM DOING i just wanted to ummmm ....try #ill do better later probably but i gotta draw my besties blorbo first post artfights scream go to work go to school explose and DIE or smth #(oh yeah some of the lYers got. fucked up and dont look to close basically) #body horror #body horror cw #← i forgor

[lycanthian]

i need to fuckign explode

#i need to talk tohim i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i need to tlak to him but i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaant bc im too scared of that lol #it was on my mind two months ago it was on my mind a month ago and its on my mind now and it is driving me insane #bjt k dont want to say what it is because thats a can of worms of potential for people to Know i dont want #so glad the guy in question is locked out of tumblr and the other guy involved barely looks at tumblr #only fucking place i can get this thought out even vaguely #i need to talk to both of them bt i cant because i feel like i will die trying to. heart attack on the spot #as much as i dont want him to i hope he gets a notif for this and asks me sbout it #even though theres no way hed knownim specificslly talking abt him #bc at leas that way it spares me the fucking nightmare kf bringing it up to someone #and its like. objectively not s problem #if i just used my words and talked it out it would be done so fast.but the problem is even though i talk to both of them so much #the thought of talking to them abt this specific thing scares me so bad that #i think if i sent a text about it i would close discord snd not open it for 2 years #sighghhggggghhghgghhhggh ive been rlly good abt not venting on tumblr lately bc i didnt like doing it in the first plsce but #there is literally nowhere else for me to complain about this in a spacethat i am comfortable complaining sbt it in #that does not include one of the affected guys #lycan howls

[fxogno1]

imagine waking up to 238 messages haha that would suck probably lol lmao lolol

#the only thing that scares me is that the first message sounds like: “so i had a dream last night” #and knowing them #its something completely wild and somehow still close to reality #that scares me the most. i dont want to know that the nearest galaxy will collapse in 3 days or something like that #please why are this guys dreams so fucked up get this fortune teller away from me #this scares me to death #they had a dream about how I texted them about the fire a few days ago #and guess what #MY NEIGHBORS HOUSE CAUGHT FIRE AND I ACTUALLY TEXTED THEM ABOUT THE FIRE ABOUT A DAY OR TWO AFTER THEY TOLD ME ABOUT THEIR DREAM #THIS IS SO FUCKED UP #okay im normal now #rambling #nonsense #random finley posting

[jadeclaymoresworld]

I don't trust Disney.

I would not put it past them to have just killed off Kit.

Especially one week after Kit and Jade just admitted to feelings for each other and an almost kiss.

That being said, I am patiently waiting for next week already.

Because Kit can't be dead. She just can't be. I refuse.

#willow #kit tanthalos #jade claymore #tanthamore #ruby cruz #erin kellyman #i am so fucking scared for next week #i dont want her to be dead #but its disney #and while it would be epic to see J #jade fight everyone and thing #because if the grief of losing kit so close to finally being able to have her #i am not about this life anymore #ive seen this story before and i didnt like the ending #ive fought this battle so many times in the past and im tired of it #i just need kit to be fine and to get back to jade asap

[eyedove]

does anybody have tips on overcoming rejection sensitive dysphoria. it is so bad i cant even play games right because if the video game tells me i made a decision that was not even objectively wrong but non-optimal i freak out and close it and cant come back to it for days. this has always been an issue in my general life at large but good fuckin lord. im tired of feeling like this.

#rsd #playing bg3 has been a fucking nightmare. #its such a good game. but i nearly have a panic attack every time there are dialogue options. my heart goes crazy #i have to minimize the game and wait a couple minutes before returning #and then if its Wrong i get so upset!!! and disheartened! #on good days im able to push through and laugh it off #on bad days i have to just close the game. #this happens irl. obviously. im working on it there too #but god #theres something that feels especially fucked up about being scared of the pixelpeople in my video game. #real people are scary and judgmental. i can forgive myself for some of my feelings irl while still trying to better them. #in a fucking computer game with NO ONE watching me i just. break down. like. why do i feel that way. UGH #i figure more tips on rsd at large will help me out in the long run. but if u do have more info about THIS specifically...... #mmmm might be nice to shaaaare....

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

SENDING MY FIRST ASK FROM THE NEW BLOG!!!! i feel like i am sending a letter from a new address... crazy. ANYWAY HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! i hope ur havin a good day!!!! kicking my feet like a teenager at a sleepover rn tell me abt ur day who r the blorbos in ur mind rn what kinda art r u workin on lately how's it going friend!!!

HIIIIIII HI HI . HELLO SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG- i mean catboy cellbit!!! . dude i am. dreading the coming week tbh but it is fine !! we will get thru it we will survive!!! i am so sleepytired but alas i also cannot sleep so i may just have another night of reading and music ahead of me . wah. i hope u are hsving a good night <3 IVE BEEN COMPLETELY ART NERFED TOO BTW. my laptop died on me a couple days ago and while i was able to find a new one affordably it will not be here until the 13th 😔 so no digital art from me for a while. sigh. i DID just decorate my new sketchbook with stickers tho so im hoping that will get my brain in gear for traditional art again. AS FOR BLORBOS. oh . u know. the usuals. vash the stampede. zacharie from off . masky marblehornets (also tim marblehornets) . to name three of them.

#who are ur blorbos rn. i dont watch qsmp i think sering ur posts abt it are really funny bc im like. guy walks into the room on fire gif. #i have no idea whats going on in here congratulations and/or my condolences <3 #thank u thank u i love the sleepover vibes. literally had gossip talk w one of my other friends earlier #(name withheld for reasons but if u see this u know who u are and i love u ) #so the vibes are so correct #i have 2 work tomorrow :( not looking forward 2 that. #however it IS my last day of my long term overnight job which means i will be able to sleep in my own bed tomoerow night. #this is something i have not done for like. close to a month now. whcih is why ive been sleeping so awfully! so hopefully that fixes me #also have. job interview on wednesday for another aquarium place.. #fingers crossed this goes better than my last one but also part of me is kind of hoping it doesnt go well #bc i hate transitional periods and i dont want 2 go thru the moving process again #and i dont want 2 meet a bunch of new ppl all at once again. and do the while job training thing. #alas that is the anxiety talkimg and i do actually want the job bc it would be good for me <3 #sorry it is late and im soooo fucking sleepy so im rambling !!!! do not feel like u have to respond to . gestures vaguely at all that #its blorbo talk time. i desperately want 2 warch more mh right now #however the house im.staying in IS in the middle of the woods and very isolated and i have been so scared and paranoid #so i am OUTTA LUCK sigh. i will simply watch smth silly instead like gg tmph or david attenborough or perhaps spongebob will b on the tv. #asks #friends!!! #false-anachronism #<< oh fuck new url!!! i got like halfway thru typing ur old one before i was like WAIT SHIT.

[kn11ves]

Do you have any sonas I would love to see n draw :>

YOU WANT TO DRAW ME???1//?!/!?????!111!!!!!!!

heres a stupidthing i did quickly...

alternatively

me^

#i originally wanted to draw myself with my centipede changshan outfit but i.i felt bad this was taking so long. #so L outfit it is #in all honestly though the bunny is probably a far more accurate version and it is what i use for my youtube videos #at least. INTEND TO ive been trying to get over myself and redo the character design video i made because i hate it but the fucking the fuc #i was making it while suffering my stupid ocd rules for drawing that took me like 5 years to get over #anyway i like my sona design its stupid... #if i could get away with wearing that many bandages in real life i would #i need to dye my hair again maybe next weekened ill try to bleach my ends white #im just scared to burn it and lose it hashtag native #anyways SNIFFLE #I LOVE YOU ANON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖 #anon #ask #pleaseplease dont let me forget to rb this to my stupid art blog #i llv u #i honestly dont even really know what i look like i had to trace myself to get somewhere close i look different every day and from every #angle #this makes me look taller than i am. i am 4'11

[butchviking]

i think. perhaps when ppl talk about a teenager being murdered it is not necessarily the best time to try and pull them into debates about feminism and gender. i know ppl are saying wrong and stupid things. i know i know i know. but. i think perhaps maybe just give it a little while. sometimes when someone is scared or upset & lashing out abt it... sometimes u just leave it alone sometimes u just let them go thru that.

#not comin in hard on this take cause i know theres a spectrum of how ppl have responded #anywhere from fear & lashing out to like. really trying to drive home a point that ppl should be violent to feminists as like. retaliation #and im not gonna criticise anyone for responding to 'kill all terfs!!' with 'what the fuck is wrong with you' #but ive seen some posts where its like. can you just leave op alone can u give them a sec #im mega biased tho cause warrington is so close 2 me like i go past warrington allll the time #nd i cant stop thinking man if this had happened 6yrs ago when i was trans-ided i would be so scared & angry too #sometimes just. just give people a minute.

[haemosexuality]

i cant sleep and im anxious and feeling emo and scared that our friendship is going to end

#unfortunately for me ive always felt replaceable and boring to talk to and now that shes dating im like. clearly shell realize what its like #to be close with someone whos actually fun and will stop talking to you forever. i recognize this is irrational and just me being insecure. #im not like gonna be annoying about it #also sucks cuz we are online friends and he is obviously there physically w her #so again clear choice on whos better to talk to #i maybe could talk to her about this bc a few years back she admitted to feeling insecure when i made a new friend and we talked ab it and #it was great its good to be open. but im scared of being thinking im like jealous #ive also made clear before im against her dating him (TEN YEAR AGE GAP) so i think she might think this is why. which it isnt #her thinking im being jealous* that phrase came out fucked up

[sixftmp3]

would it be dumb and impulsive of me to adopt a cat? yes. am i tempted by a petfinder listing for a stupid looking little guy anyway? absolutely

#me.txt #listen as adorable as my rats are. its like. they arent v affectionate with me #they dont provide the type of Companionship i want from a pet #and my roommate's cat is. hm. there is a solid reason for why my roommate calls her a bitch but i think thats a tad extreme #she is scared of Everything #she wont let anyone get close to her at all w/o running away #she'll hide under my bed but she doesnt like Me she doesnt like my Roommate #honestly my roommate is. i dont know. stubborn??? for keeping her even tho she's an asshole??? #anyway all that to say i would adopt my Own Cat but i fear. she'd like actually lose her mind if there was another cat in the apartment #my roommate's mentioned not knowing if getting another cat is a good idea too so. #AAAUUUUUGHHH #im such a cat person at the end of the day and i Do want a cat but like. fuck man.

[ouchhq]

seeing my therapist for the first time since before christmas in a couple of days 🫥

#sh mention tw #i am here in bed just thinking of how i can break it to her that i had a terrible few weeks and i did some /bad/ things to myself because as #much as i know it takes time to talk about certain things i know that i am getting worse very fast and im scared of and for myself and i e #feel like i really should talk about the sh but man. is it difficult #i feel so ashamed of myself for it. i tried to talk about it many times already and every time i do my throat closes and i start tearing up #and i just cant get the words out #i feel like a coward for not being able to do it. its just so humiliating. i always think of the act and how insane and innatural it is and #i dont want my therapist to picture it #but im getting worse and that is definitely my main problem and has been for a while so i guess its also no use to keep avoiding the subject #im literally trying to convince myself here hah #jesus…… how fucked up is this

[astranauticus]

idk what is it about that one throwaway line from han sooyoung about her writing 10 chapters in one day that finally broke me but oh my fuckin god i love her so much

#orv liveblog #asto speaks #orv spoilers #(for the tags ->) #i KNOW theres more to her character in the epilogues. let me get to it #but also. god i love her.... #insane edgelord tsundere writer <3 #like especially in the past year or so being someone who *creates* art besides just consuming it has become such a big part of just #like its just a part of me. if i stop creating i die #so like... hsy the writer.... predictive plagiarism.... kdj witnesses yjh experiences hsy imagines.... alksdfjhlahsdlkfhslkdjf #okay also cuz i dont read much tbh KJFDHKSJDFH im an artist and theatre kid at best #but also like. yknow. the tsundere edgelord refusal to express affection like a normal person but doing it through your art #both her casting kdj in the journey to the west remake scenario as 'guy who needs to chill the fuck out and get carried by his teammates' #and also her asking him to read her novels like i want to create stories you love and stories that make you happy.... #lmao lets see how well all of this ages when i hit the epilogues #i have a very very vague idea of whats gonna happen and im very. well not even scared tbh just confused KJSDHFKHSDKFJH #lol my webtoon only friend keeps getting confused at like. yoohankim in general cuz hsy hasnt rly had that big a role in the webtoon yet #she keeps going 'is this orv or link click' cuz like a lot of yoohankim art gives off lowkey lc trio energy if you dont look closely LMAO #me (newly minted yoohankim enjoyer): WELL-