#its more of an 'oh :)' now and i hate it

[sugarcoatednightshade]

thinking about how Humans Are Space Orcs stories always talk about how indestructible humans are, our endurance, our ability to withstand common poisons, etc. and thats all well and good, its really fun to read, but it gets repetitive after a while because we aren't all like that.

And that got me thinking about why this trope is so common in the first place, and the conclusion I came to is actually kind of obvious if you think about it. Not everyone is allowed to go into space. This is true now, with the number of physical restrictions placed on astronauts (including height limits), but I imagine it's just as strict in some imaginary future where humans are first coming into contact with alien species. Because in that case there will definitely be military personnel alongside any possible diplomatic parties.

And I imagine that all interactions aliens have ever had up until this point have been with trained personnel. Even basic military troops conform to this standard, to some degree. So aliens meet us and they're shocked and horrified to discover that we have no obvious weaknesses, we're all either crazy smart or crazy strong (still always a little crazy, academia and war will do that to you), and not only that but we like, literally all the same height so there's no way to tell any of us apart.

And Humans Are Death Worlders stories spread throughout the galaxy. Years or decades or centuries of interspecies suspicion and hostilities preventing any alien from setting foot/claw/limb/appendage/etc. on Earth until slowly more beings are allowed to come through. And not just diplomats who keep to government buildings, but tourists. Exchange students. Temporary visitors granted permission to go wherever they please, so they go out in search of 'real terran culture' and what do they find?

Humans with innate heart defects that prevent them from drinking caffeine. Humans with chronic pain and chronic fatigue who lack the boundless endurance humans are supposedly famous for. Humans too tall or too short or too fat to be allowed into space. Humans who are so scared of the world they need to take pills just to function. Humans with IBS who can't stand spicy foods, capsaicin really is poison to them. Lactose intolerance and celiac disease, my god all the autoimmune disorders out there, humans who struggle to function because their own bodies fight them. Humans who bruise easily and take too long to heal. Humans who sustained one too many concussions and now struggle to talk and read and write. Humans who've had strokes. Humans who were born unable to talk or hear or speak, and humans who through some accident lost that ability later.

Aliens visit Earth, and do you know what they find? Humanity, in all its wholeness.

#humans are space orcs #humans in space #earth is a deathworld #earth is space australia #tagging this so that ppl can find it even though the space shit i write about always feels like its in direct opposition to all the pop tag #also my biggest pet peeve in all of writing - all writing. everywhere. not just in fanfic but books and tv and movies too - is when people #write off an injury by saying something like 'oh nothing bad just a couple of scratches some bruising and a minor concussion' like girl WHA #MiNOr ConCuSSioN is such an oxymoron and I hate it so fucking much. like i dont care how minor it was thats still brain damage. #especially when the same character does this more than once. like im sorry ms. but uh. you can no longer read. or talk eloquently. sorry #evidence: my brother has had two 'minor' concussions and now cannot read write or speak without tremendous effort. And like its totally #ruined my ability to watch action shows/movies because now i just sit there and count how many concussions there characters are getting #after a certain point it becomes totally impossible to believe that these guys are able to function. (still fun to watch tho im not a hater

[felsicveins]

His heart belongs to another

And no other heart will do

#no other heart by mac demarco : D #I drew this a couple of days ago because i was feeling crazy and i just love the idea that #these two should be great together!! they should!!! but #theyre not together #theres just . theyre missing something #and thats okay!!! its not meant to be #and theyre friendship is very valuble to both of them!! #their* fuck my baka keyboard #trolls #yall are gonna be mad about this one i feel it ... #i think we all know who jds gonna end up with now right ... #i just gotta .. draw them more 💀 #i actully have the perfect ruveal i just have to finish painting it #urrgg i HATE painting #trolls oc #trolls oc cory #trolls movie #trolls john dory #trolls jd #john dory #jd ex husband #oh uhh i imagine this feels like a new years thing. or something #something that happened like right after they reconnected #before floyd and cory started going out #on god one day im gonna put all my tags lore into a post #i just shy 😔 who wants to read all this in a caption #not me brother!! I'm not reblogging that shit!!! #and im not finishing this cause i dont wanna give false hope 😘 #although jd dating sim ... is pretty real #i would love to do endings with all his exs

[yrsonpurpose]

Every single one of my credits to date have been royals. I have a niche!

#nicholas galitzine #nicholasgalitzineedit #mary and george #rwrbsource #userninz #chrissiewatts #usergayppl #mine* #tiny child #momentarily pausing my hate on his stylist to appreciate the fits today #the whiplash of it all #why's he so broad #whatever. its fine. im all fine. #thank u sky for providing the promo goods #him and julianne's banter is something i never knew i needed #anyway thats enough gifs for today lmfoaslkdjfl #my colouring made this more purple (unintentionally) and now i need him in more colours like this #oh i almost forgot #THE FUCKING JEWELLERY HNNG OKAY

[harbingersecho]

mission prep

#rvb #locus #red vs blue #samuel ortez #sam ortez #rvb locus #mine #*23 #voted prettiest man in rvb with a face reveal BTW! lets not ever forget that #i saw that short hair locus thing and now im thinking abt it. i have a whole Thing abt locus cutting his hair yada yada but now i kinda #wanna draw smth abt it. its infesting me. but before i do that i have to draw locs with long hair 1 more time. #also eww i hate going into the locus tag and seeing all my art there. embarrassing. oh well.

[fernsensei]

you're in love when you see the colours of the sky in their eyes

#trying colouring inbetween the suffering(tm) w/ my silly comics featuring them #im so fucking done i cant stand these two bitches anymore #its at least 5 more pages and that wouldnt even be the culmination AAAAAHHHHH #'it's gonna be a quick comic' she said 'it won't take long' she declared while the comic took her as for now almost a month #i hate drawing [continues to draw constantly] #i love the colours but oh what a pain it is to colour #<-lie #anyway. how are you #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #gabv2el #gabriel/v2

[deankarolina]

♪ ~ It's hot when you're going through hell And you're hating yourself, I'm feeling myself ~♪

#I was supposed to be prepping for an important pitch I have in a few hours #Instead chappell mv on the brain #I now have 3 hours to try fuckign figure out this pitch oh god kill me #imagine if I used tags for their intended purpose instead of just my train of thought #Chappell Roan #Chappell Roan Art #B.Art #I did two more sketches of this mv but this is the only one I coloured so #god looked at this on mobile and forgot how mych i hate tumblr sizing works its so blurry on mobile

[b4kuch1n]

IT ARRIVED IT ARRIVED IT ARRIVED

DESPITE EVERYTHING DESPITE MY CHRONICALLY CURSED INTERNATIONAL MAIL PROBLEM I AM STILL THE ZONE RPG

#bakuspeech #and I guess this counts as #bakuspecial #ouuuuuu #my art! on cards! characters I kinda got to build with my visuals!! #also upon getting this which I had mailed to the senpai's place instead of mine in an effort to break the curse we immediately #ran a game. that was supposed to be short. but ended up extending past midnigt #AND had to stop for the night before act 2 even begins #but. its SO fun. the game pieces do just the right amount of heavy lifting for u that it frees u up to make up Real out there stuff #like. we ran a game on the browser version. and while it was also Really fun it got stressful to make stuff up #now if we're stuck we just pick up cards #and like. idk for kinda the first time really? I get the appeal of roleplaying with someone else #I'm usually such a control freak about the stories I tell lmao #with the visual aids in this set I get to imagine the character dynamics so much more easily #like this time around the senpai picked the scientist archetype #and he made that guy a white guy with some means who has been sending people to death to serve his science #and my character's an asian guy who was with a pest control service (yes I picked the trevor henderson character lmao) #who got drafted into the bureau and works as like cleanup/fodder #so immediately I got to go like oh so I hate your guts. and you condescend at me #which turned out to be a Very fun dynamic to roleplay lmao #throughout act 1 we've made this dynamic steadily Worse. one of them envies the other into oblivion #while the other can now communicate with No one except his mission partner #and we're gonna craft the second act as chase. a predator and a prey. gods. it was SO fun #its so funny both of them were touting to be smart or good at their job. and then they went into the zone and Immediately got fucked up #this game really gives u that satisfaction and fascination with like. when things go wrong in way too thematically fitting and messy ways #lmao my contract's fulfilled I do not have to talk this game up. its just really fun. man I enjoy that so much #sadly my pool of english speakers who can play this game with me is not big #I'll try and find time to run a few small games in the near future... maybe during lunar new year #I was over at the senpai's today to toast out birthdays lol. to get that out of the way we've been planning something like that for weeks #weve been both way too busy. with different sliding scales of uh. how pleasant that busy's been

[mamawasatesttube]

swear to fuckign god sometimes im like 👌 This Close to taking down sotm. and every single time i get a comment from someone with no reading comprehension who goes "I know you said no clark bashing in your authors note but hear me out: im gonna bash clark" i get a little closer

#rimi talks #to be clear its an ''i want to rewrite this bc it could be So much better now ive read more comics'' kind of desire to take it down #but i can't lie it's also an ''OH MY GOD SHUT THE FUCK UP'' desire #i do rly wanna redo it tho. with like chris and kara and [mentions of] linda now that i Know how i would handle the mae S patch thing #mmmnmnmnmnnghghghhthhrrhhrghrhghrg #''this fic is sooo good!!! i hate clark so much btw'' This Is Not For You. Leave #its always the people who go off on dumbass tangents about bruce too. like. IT AINT ABOUT HIM. FUCK OFF

[definitelynotshouting]

i literally can't stop rotating hunger au worldbuilding and lore in my head. forgive me if you've ever touched on this in an ask before, but... re: the existential horror of being a parasite that has the sense of self of the host it ate. if one of grian's friends ever did get taken and used as a watcher larva host. how do you think he would feel about the watcher that came out the other side? would he want to see them as still the same person as his friend, or...?

Ive been staring at this ask since i got it with like. I need you to picture the most comically heartbroken expression right now okay. like this is me reading that and thinking about it in great and terrible detail:

Gods he would be devastated if this ever happened. He knows what thats like. He knows just how much it hurts-- and that its not a hurt that can be quantified, because its just that intense, that scalding, that encompassing of an experience to go through. I think, genuinely, Grian would be so utterly horrified and grief-stricken for whichever friend went through the Watcherification process that it would trump every other potential feeling on the list

But i think, ultimately, he would still view them as his friend, and treat them in the same way. There's a little bit of hypocrisy in Grian's character that i enjoy engaging with while writing him, and a good part of that in hunger au is centered around how he's firmly designated himself as the monster, and everybody else is the victim, and theres no room for nuance because he sucks and theyre the only people who are valid. When in reality, yes he hurt them, yes he did terrible and invasive things, but he did them out of pure survival rather than maliciousness, and that does make a subtle difference. And... hes not the only one who has fucked up, either!! The entire point of hunger au is how everyone has fumbled the bag in various ways and now they're all trying to clean it up together. Its just, yknow, Grian is so wrapped up in his own pain that he cant see those grey areas yet

And the thing is, if one of his friends got Watchered™, so to speak, and was standing in front of him, i think he would treat them with SO much compassion. Theyve been through possibly the worst thing anyone can experience and come out the other side-- at his core, Grian is i think a character who wants to do good, and do good by other people, and in this hypothetical that would translate into a lot of kindness he doesnt usually afford for himself. Honestly i think he'd spend the time trying to show them the ropes, get them set up in a better position than he found himself in, and provide his own fumbling emotional support as best he could, just out of sheer solidarity. Like, he gets it. He's been there. He may as well help out.

And i think he wouldnt even realize how hypocritical he's being until someone else pointed it out to him, about how he treats this friend with so much care but is simultaneously cruel to himself. I dont think he'd know how to handle that-- he's sort of dug himself a rut in the road with the way he thinks about and treats himself, and the cognitive dissonance would be really uncomfortable for him. Ultimately a good thing!!! Growth is often very uncomfortable. But imo Grian has a tendency to run from things like feelings of discomfort, so i think it'd take him a while to reconcile his previous ways of thinking with whats being presented in front of him essentially in the form of a mirror.

So uh. tl;dr: he'd be a little hypocrite about it and would feel a lot more compassionately inclined towards the friend than he does himself, and would try to help them out as best he could. Thank you for the incredible question that has given me the opportunity to rotate this worm at even higher speeds than usual inside my brainpan DKNFEKNDSKDJKDKD

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #compliments #theres also like. the factor that a lot of grian's self-hate stems from the games #he was always a bit unstable about his self-perception after he became a Watcher #but he wasnt as actively loathing himself until after the life games started #like he took GREAT pains to ''eat ethically'' and try to manufactor joy more than fear #which is why he starved. its harder to wrangle those emotions out of people than it is to shove them in a box; scare them; & eat the buffet #idk i have so many feelings about him as a character. oh hunger!grian my blorbo of blorbos. we're really in it now #txt

[dolldefaced]

it's so wild that the priest part is what people latched onto and remember when flashpoint!jason both was a drug addict and then was in brother blood's apocalypse cult before he died. and then resurrected again.

#sometimes i see people just freaking out about the priest part and its like there are more bizarre things afoot! the priest is the normalest #now if its to forget those other two things i completely get it #really hate the backstory though cause it just feeds into the Without Bruce He'd be A Criminal which is classist as hell #as it stands none of that needed to be there. it doesnt matter to traci's story imo #so why say any of that and not just do oh yeah the church helped me when i was young. like very sus dc #anyway. yeah #jason todd #dc

[elfcollector]

[ wave politely ]

#gamingnetwork #vgedit #videogameedit #gamingedit #dailygaming #gameplaydaily #bg3edit #bg3 #bgedit #bg #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate #HATE the colouring in this scene but if u think i wasn't giffing this ur deraged #i think delight reads as neutral good more than chaotic good 2 a lot of ppl but then they do stuff like this and its like #oh ok i see it now #delight

[skunkes]

#gnnn ^_^ #reblog locked bc its wip #a doodley #i need to get better at that rib flare #also i dont think his face is super accurate here but im jst messin around and also i hate i felt i had to clarify that ykwim #like who caresss if he's Off im still learning to draw (him) and one drawing doesnt define me or him etc but idk. idk! idk #ill get better... #thje funny thing about this doodle is im freaking out bc my wrist hurts a bit and i was struggling to draw ppl again #after a few days of Blobbish Furs #so forced self to churn this out before sleeps like oh ok maybe it is just the pain thats affecting me (wrist now hurts a bit more) #ever since that one those feratu doodle ive been trying to give him more like. sinking sagging jowls (?) #as contrast to the bone landmark of his chin #i also have to give him more neck fat/loose skin there ykwim #but also have to learn to draw necks. lol. #ok ill fix dis later im so tired

[fauvester]

time honored garak-bashir tradition of dangerous holosuite romps

#dee s 9 #garashir adoption au #iskra encouraging her friends to play in her stupid little space with her #and rulada getting to let off a little hand to hand combat steam in an acceptable setting #tbh iskra is Not strong and Does not like fighting but she does like swinging around on ropes and monologuing #also some poor crewman is going to be triaged by a doctor in 1720s naval uniform #rura never really cared much for fake fighting until iskra begggggged her to keep her company in the holosuite #rura like Oh. this is much less fighting and more Committing to the bit. ok maybe i can try this #iskra: ok you're gonna be the good guy. on account of your Ethics. and im going to be the SEXY PIRATE QUEEN #chauncey hates holosuites bc none of the characters have thoughts that he can hear and its very off putting #lisseia sees no point to them. shes got enough shit to do irl #NOW i can draw hannibal au.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah, now that october is octover i can queue up a backlog of all the scribbles ive. uh. scribbed over the last month or so

#there were a couple baseless-panic-filled nights in there where i filled the hours with frantic doodling #break month over! lets see if brain takes the bait! #pspspspspsps heyyyy art motivation cmere pspspspspsps #perhaps more dragons will be in this month! #OH FUCK NEVERMIND ITS NANOWRIMO AND IM DETERMINED TO PARTICIPATE #im pretty deadset on actually doing it this year! #i have a partially done outline and everything! #fuck art all my homies hate art. writing is my best friend now #absolutely unprompted #cmoonnnnn roughest rough draft lets see if i can Get You Done! #or at least mostly done! 50k is a lot of words! #but i like to ramble and that carries over into my writing unfortunately #i dont know when to shut up... #i have 17 posts queued!

[toxifoxx]

truly at the end of the day its all about receiving validation

#<- was having a lot of fun drawing fat william till he stopped to think about what other people might think #<- very important that people like him just as much as i do #<- incredibly important (i love him so much and his character is so much more nuanced than the fandom ever gives him credit for #and he already gets shat on way too often by people who don't understand what they're talking about) #truly the amount of hate based around him being a murderer is insane. Brother he's not a real life murderer. he's not going to #come out of the screen and hurt you #I NEED PEOPLE TO AT LEAST LIKE HIM A LITTLE BIT *bursts into tears* #and i need validation #and getting people to simp for him and think oh hes hot 😳 is one of the easier and more entertaining ways to get nice comments #what i lack in skill and talent i can make up for in character design and suggestive subtext right? #ugh #i dunno it feels like the only way to get people to say sometjing nice about my art sometimes #don't get me wrong i adore drawing him slutty but. ougggghhhhhh #hope it doesnt sound like im implying he's less attractive if hes fat personally i think hes hot as fuck #its mostly about stupid ass conventionally attractive shit #and also that people get bullied for portraying him fat... That too #anyways #im normal again now #toxi.txt

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

This. This. This entire conversation with Morrigan actually makes me want to sob. She and my Tabris always becomes close friends over the course of DAO; that, paired with the fact that my Tabris always romances Alistair, makes everything about this hurt so much more when you take DAO's ending into account.

Her confusion over why my Tabris didn't send her away. Why she didn't abandon her after they learned of Flemeth's plans. Why Tabris went out of her way to slay Flemeth and bring her the true grimoire. She asks Tabris why, and is baffled when the answer is, "I did it because I'm your friend," as if it's that simple.

The way Morrigan looks at the warden, the way her voice cracks when she says, "I want you to know that while I may not always prove... worthy... of your friendship, I will always value it."

She knows how this will end; Flemeth sent her with the wardens with the end goal of stopping the blight and obtaining the old god soul through the dark ritual. Morrigan knows that Alistair and Tabris are the only Grey Wardens here, and assuming they don't find more, one of them will have to die defeating the archdemon unless they agree to do the dark ritual.

With that context, her asking Alistair, "And what if a Grey Warden has forced to choose between the Warden he loved and ending the Blight? What should his choice be?" suddenly has so much subtext weaved through the words that I'm gonna start foaming at the mouth. She's practically telling Alistair that a warden has to die. She's scrutinizing his reaction to find any hint that suggests he would agree to the dark ritual in order to save himself and the woman he loves. And when he doesn't choose, she has her answer.

Morrigan made comments to Tabris about him, almost hopeful that their relationship was just a physical thing between them and not actually riddled with feelings... and then gives disapproval when Tabris says she loves him.

She doesn't want the warden to die; hell, she doesn't want Alistair to die, either; whether because she does actually care about him or because she knows it'll break her friend's heart if she loses him, or both!

Things would be so much easier if the only two Grey Wardens left to defeat the blight didn't fall in love, wouldn't they, Morrigan?

She knows that in the end, no matter the outcome, she will lose the woman she called sister and it's devastating.

Morrigan, who has never known true friendship. Who grew up isolated in the woods with an abusive mother and terrible implications for her future. Who discovered said mother planned to take over her body just as she did with her other daughters. Who doesn't understand kindness as it was rarely given to her without a catch. Who isolates herself from the others in camp. Who finally has a companion she cares about... and in the end, if her plan works and the dark ritual is completed, she'll end up pregnant and alone and wearing Tabris' resentment like a tender wound on her heart.

Or Tabris will reject the ritual, and will die to the archdemon.

Or her lover will.

I just- the dynamic between the warden, romanced Alistair, and Morrigan is so good and painful and rich that I'm gnawing on furniture as we speak.

#dragon age origins #dao #alistair theirin #dao alistair #dao morrigan #dao tabris #warden tabris #i'm replaying dao right now in case my recent written posts haven't made that obvious #the relationship dynamics the warden has with each of the companions is so so soooo good like there isn't a companion i dislike #i play into the slow burn with alistair's romance but it's not even just the romance aspect it's also their friendship too #playing dao and not romancing alistair would feel wrong at this point for me it's so crucial to the entire story and its development #and i love morrigan's friendship with the warden and how gutted tabris is when she comes clean about everything and offers the ritual #and then bails once everything is over and tabris is torn between hating her and feeling hurt and not wanting morrigan to be alone again #i talked more in depth about morrigan and the ritual in a previous post but it's a lot... especially when it comes to the witch hunt dlc #oh and then there's the friendship between tabris and zevran like don't even get me started on that sksksks i won't be able to stop #even a character like oghren who is the last person you'd think tabris would ever become friends with since he's y'know *oghren* #but i'll go on the record and say there's more to oghren that gets overlooked and overshadowed by his glaring flaws #and i don't wanna talk about leliana... she makes me too sad like ever since my last playthrough where i accidentally triggered her romance #while i was deep in alistair's romance i have a really hard time not reading into the things she says to tabris #in my last playthrough i dunno what i did but she confessed to tabris even though she was fully aware that tabris and alistair were togethe #and it was a *mess* okay like it really felt like we killed marjolaine and leliana was in a vulnerable position yet was hardened enough #to be like 'i know she and alistair are together but i'll take my shot anyway and attempt to break them up' like.... noooooo leliana D: #and the rest of the game it felt like she was bitter and still in love with tabris and i felt *horrible* #i just said i don't wanna talk about it but hhhnnngggg i'm taking extra precautions to not have a repeat of that this time #excuse my tag ramblings i'm just very passionate about dao and the companions okay #also want to note that this is my interpretation of morrigan's motivations based on how i play the game and my warden #so others might view this reaction and the warden/romanced alistair/morrigan dynamic differently and in that case #i would be interested to hear that different interpretations because those are always fun to read