GHOST TRICK: THE BIG FINALE
so I finished the game yesterday all on my lonesome without internet
why yes I am perfectly fine and not emotionally compromised in the slightest
enjoy my screaming
IT'S GHOST TRICKING TIME
which is to say it's ghost tricking time without internet so I'm doing this in wordpad
tumblr really needs an 'import rtf' function >_>
SO from what I remember, when last we left off I was about to try to figure out how the fuck a knitted cap and a helmet are going to help me stop a bullet
LET'S DIVE RIGHT BACK INTO THIS FOLKS
I still love how Sissel just ignores the dog's little 'WHATS A HOSTAGE O NO' instead of digging into explaining it
oh thank god the game DOES remember ive read this text before
...oh, I forgot how I did this the last time
O WELL
all right, so I remember swiveling the lamp and dropping the hard hat, then when the knitted cap is over here I can swap it with the book and get it on the hook
but how did I get the knitted cap over here
aha, he looked away for a moment, the helmet part is done
what the fuck do i do now
AHA
okay, so now i very quickly cart the ladder back and forth, I think I remember this
fuck, he noticed me, okay
don't swivel the lamp while he's watching, swivel it while he's still looking away
I gotta note the 'I don't know why you're wearing my face' part
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
fuck, nope, I can't swivel the lamp back at that moment because he notices it clattering and turns right around
FUCK OKAY LET'S TRY TO DO IT WITH THE LAMP THERE
ugh, if only I could do shit during the cutscene while he rolls away >_>
OK I SHOULD HAVE HAD MORE TRUST IN MISSILE
HE IS GREAT AND A VERY GOOD DOG
AND CAN AIM FOR SPLIT SECOND TIMING OF A BULLET BEING IN THE AIR OKAY
haha, and the knitted hat still hit Cabanela with enough velocity to knock him over
I love this
and I particularly love his dramatic leg up in the air
he doesn't evne know what's happening he just aims to be the most dramatic possible at all times and it's really helping us out <3
'i love knitted hats... so warm, and most of all, so SOFT' <3 <3 <3
god Missile is so good
this is pain
IS THE DAWN DEADLINE A LIE MAYBE
DID RAY JUST SAY THAT TO GET SISSEL'S BUTT MOVING
I DON'T KNOW
oh yeah Cabanela's still got broken bones all over I kind of forgot about that
oh ok, looks less like broken and more like just really fucking bruised, becuase in that movement he's put pressure on all limb bones and nothing bent out of shape, so that's good
lmao and Cabanela's just like 'BUT IF I WAS KILLED IN THAT EXPLOSION THE SITUATION WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER'
I
I don't think it would necessarily work out that way, considering how much difficulty our protagonist was having saving just the professor :x
oh hey we've got our next source of information! should be quite a wellspring if Sissel remembers everything he should ask
yeeep Cabanela you FUCKED UP
oh, the gun :x
HON IM PRETTY SURE THE FIRST PART IS MORE IMPORTANT
THE PART WHERE YOU TRIED TO SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF HIM
CORNERED RATS BITE
THIS IS COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY YOUR FAULT, ALL OF IT
aha, those cases, okay
and Cabanela was doing the thing because of Jowd
that makes sense -_- kind of
yep, that one little snag kind of puts a question mark on the whole thing
alright, that almost makes sense? kind of? makes Cabanela kind of a selfish butt doing this for his own obsession rather than for personally Jowd but makes sense
ok, the bringing him to justice minister to buy time thing actually does make a lot of sense
it wasn't A LOT of time that he bought but it was just enough and that's what counts
oh hey, this guy used to have the job that the blue fake stole?
(and yeah sounds like blue guys are just foreigners -_- bc they couldnt find spies that didnt stand out visually or anything)
hum
not a scratch, huh
regenerating dead body, okay
oh come ON Sissel don't be surprised now that part was obvious from the moment he said the corpse disappeared
the meteorite's radiation, okay, quite interesting :D
"it was like a meteorite had struck me on the head" so, has that been a cause of death today yet, because if it hasn't, this looks like foreshadowing -_-
hum, so the gun would have been loaded because he controlled Kamila, which she then wouldn't have a clear memory of
makes sense
HI LYNNE
JUST IN TIME
arrest her to keep her safe, that actually makes perfect sense
IF ONLY IT HAD WORKED LMAO
no wonder pigeon guy roasted him for that in the deleted timeline XD
"while he was at it" <3 <3 <3
awwww pigeon guy was friends with him too <3
hee
right on top of his striped jumpsuit
honestly he looked less escaped-from-prison-ish in the paint-splattered robe thing XD
a present, huh?
awww
see Sissel you don't feel lonely and that's what counts
ALRIGHT THEN :D
LET'S FUCKING GO :D
AND, UH, DO SOMETHING, I GUESS
I love how out of proportion Sissel's powers are
rewind time, talk to dead people... and move small objects a little
so, uh, Sissel, are you sure there's answers for YOU over there or did you just get into habit of telling this to yourself to feel better
okay well how the fuck did Jowd infiltrate a fucking SUBMARINE
like, I just want to know the physics of how this happened?
omfg the bullet had a radio transmitter
well, I have a newfound respect for Cabanela, I gotta admit
like I already respected him but I just figured he shot the guy out of a desperate 'can't do anything else might as well try this' urge to do SOMETHING
but nope he had a plan (which would have worked even with him dead)
wow, and he actually gave the thing to Jowd beforehand
n i c e
wow, okay, that's stealthy
aha, and he can totally leave his body and wander around freely
I think that was already confirmed but it's nice to know for even surer
wow, okay, what the fuck re: that thing reaching up from below
that definitely looked like... something else for a moment there 0.0
aand okay the meteorite is possible to extract from his body
I wonder if evil!Sissel actually knew that... or if that actually did anything to him :D
okay, what the FUCK and how many more people are dead now
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
MISSILE IS HERE TOOOOOOOO
the phone is ringing, how convenient :D
ooohkay this is tricky
so, why the fuck were there baseball and basketball balls hanging in nets under the ceiling on a submarine
...
...
you know what I don't want to know
wait, Kamila can't hear him?
oh, right, over the phone
ghosts communicate by close range telepathy
aaand this makes the FIFTH time Lynne's dead tonight!
or is it sixth? did i lose track somewhere?
AWWWW
THIS SCENE IS LIKE AN OVERDOSE OF CUTE
'i wonder what happened THIS TIME' yep lmao
no actually 'i dont remember what happened after that' sounds like evil!Sissel to me, personally
but do you know what this wheel does Sissel
are you sure turning it is a good idea
"I just sort of blacked out, the next thing I knew, I was dead"
<3 <3 <3
"now it's all making even less sense than before" AND THAT'S SAYING *SOMETHING*
but actually okay yea this does kind of sound like an explosion that killed Lynne and knocked Kamila out
aaand nope
I was absolutely correct )=
can this guy only puppet one body at a time? couldn't he have just possessed Lynne and had her slit her own throat or shoot herself or hang herself or something? that sounds a lot more productive than having a little girl fight her
I mean, even if he only can puppet one body at a time, puppetting Lynne would have been a lot more productive overall, is there a reason he can't?...
or does he just love to do things in the most convoluted and roundabout manner typical to villains everywhere -_-
"nobody ever calls the dead" ARGUABLE
a number of phone calls has been made this night specifically for the purpose of putting our!Sissel on the line
aand okay :D
looks like the blue assholes saved Lynne just in time, sort of
...for a certain definition of 'saved'
so anyway this guy said something like 'you cannot possibly comprehend my suffering'
so it would be funny if he was just a random dumbass that a bad thing hapened to one (1) time, which granted also killed him, but all the misery since then has been of his own making and he's put every single person involved in the events through worse just over the course of tonight, and simply has no sense of scale, perspective or proportion
I think that would be great if the story went there XD
EDITOR'S NOTE IN RETROSPECT: the story didn't go there and that was not fucking okay (it's dead women in the fridge again!)
and Sissel can't understand revenge as a concept SOUL TWINSIES WITH ME OR WHAT
lmao Lynne is starting to get touchy about how many times she's needed rescue lately XD
OH FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY CAN'T I REACH FOR ANYTHING YET
also, interesting to note that in the 4 minutes ago past, neither Lynne nor Kamila have a core
looks like Sissel's interaction with this realm is limited after all, and not only by phones
there's v interesting existential fuckery going on here, of the exact sort I ABSOLUTELY LOVE
oh THERE we go
'nobody ever calls the dead' ARGUABLE again
and I love Lynne's signature instant-snap-into-hands-over-head animation + pose
Good Reflexes
ALRIGHT, FIDDLING WITH RANDOM SHIT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT IT MIGHT DO TIME
...and that sure worked fast
hum, a random mechanic, alright
oh hon that's a, um, what's the opposite of exaggeration
I know this word in Russian >_>
over...littlification?
that
'restless ghosts onboard' THAT'S ONE WAY TO PUT THAT
lmao that was one odd fate change
alright, found the temsik fragment capsule, I see
yay unexpectedly strong wastebucket lids (seriously, that's a whole freaking basketball, there's a reason the nets worked like that lmao)
alright, just watching the cutscene for now, that's fair
this guy sure looks like he's going to abandon his entire crew and blow up the sub or something
"farewell, sir" WELL THAT DID NOT SOUND QUITE RIGHT
alright, and we're left in the capsule rather than the fragment which apparently did not have a core of its own for some reason
OMFG THERE'S A LITTLE RAT IN THE TORPEDO
ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A RUBE GOLDBERG MACHINE INVOLVING A SMALL RODENT AGAIN BECAUSE THOSE ARE THE BEST KIND
BUT ALSO THIS IS NOT HOW TORPEDOS WORK
BUT ALSO HI RAT!!!
yeah exactly thanks Sissel! how the FUCK did it get here
also I love that the characters DO pay attention to the wellbeing of innocent rats in this game <3
well, you COULD just try to get it to blow up earlier, in the water
you'd be stuck but you'd be heroes, or something
well, Lynne would go back to her body, Sissel would be stuck :D
oh, and the rat would die, that's the bad news
YEAH LET'S SAVE THE RATTIE FIRST
if this time the rat is going to be in the way rather than helping, well, I REALLY DO RESPECT THAT
LET'S SAVE THE RAT
alright, after some trial and error I DID manage to get both weights in the same position (mostly by luck) and throw off the rat
NOW TO SAFETY
alright, this looks promising
OKAY IT ALSO LOOKS LIKE KAMILA AND LYNNE MIGHT BE SAFE FROM EVIL!SISSEL NOW THAT'S GOOD NEWS
yusss
caring about rats ftw <3
that's what missiles do, huh
they're unstoppable
i dont know who it is i hear there but Missile is great yes
well, whatever this is, our!Sissel just turned it on
maybe it's pumps to remove water!... not that they'll do much against an unplugged breach but
aha, okay, won't move for long
this movement through a machine's gears feels like the purest expression of the game's premise since the junkyard tricks at the very beginning <3
the way Kamila's speech kinda fades in from white? that worries me
...eeeyup
god but I love this game's animation. this little one of Lynne hoisting Kamila up on her back? it feels, like, PERFECTLY balanced with their weights and Lynne's strength and everything <3 <3 <3
oh my god Lynne why couldn't you just... be able to swim
not that it would help much with Kamila unconscious but
oh my god Lynne is literally right here why do I still have trouble moving around freely???
oh, found it!
wow, she's climbing one-handed while carrying Kamila, that's some serious upper body strength <3
W E L P
YEP THAT'S SOME SERIOUS STRENGTH THAT SHE DIDNT JUST FUCKING FALL
NOR DROP KAMILA
yeeep okay WOW
ARE YOU BOTH GOING TO DIE NOW OR WHAT
okay, no, just fall, and not even in the water
that's good news
LYNNE
THIS IS NOT A POSE YOU WANT TO BE IN RIGHT NOW
unless you're actually holding yourself against that shit in the background with your left hand and I just can't see it I guess
...nope, she was holding her chin
LYNNE
NO
MISSILE
HURRAY
okay, the fan thing makes sense
now to swap around a bunch of broken pipes so they don't get in lynne's way, got it
FOR FUCK'S SAKE
I REALLY DON'T SEE A WINNING COMBO HERE
aand I fucking lost
but at least I got Sissel in position -_-
alright, now with one pipe turned off it actually works out easily
it just... took me really long to realize I'd need Sissel for this one -_-
Lynne honey but have you considered: you have no fucking clue what's behind that door
although presumably submarine has only been breached in one place and it's this room?
holy shit with the hook Sissel managed to hoist the combined weight of Lynne and Kamila
now THAT's a nifty trick
SISSEL FOR FUCK'S SAKE
SHE CAN'T MUSTER LEVERAGE FOR THIS BECAUSE SHE HAS TO HOLD HERSELF AND KAMILA UP
AND SHE'S TIRED
SHE CAN ASK FOR HELP EXCLUSIVELY IN SWAHILI SWEARS AND IT'D STILL BE A WAY THAT YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH
aww, someone's saving us!!!
someone who commented on unstoppable missiles earlier, perhaps?
right, the truth... that's still relevant. while on a sinking submarine. yep
haha sinking submaries i have just been playing oxenfree haha
oh wow
that's an improvised mechanism made out of garbage sticking in a close range telekinetic field
nifty shit
oh
oh okay
that
explains absolutely nothing
evil!Sissel is not evil now, or what?
lmao
this is getting more confusing, but like... in a very satisfying way <3
evil!Sissel still seems to have SOME amount of powers, at least, though possibly not the manipulating humans ones? but this amount of telekinesis is still incredible
so okay our Sissel's name possibly IS Sissel, but this dude's isn't
I'm more confused than ever before
I doubt there are three of them, so...
ahh, Lynne making Kamila more comfortable <3 <3 <3
and again, animation is fucking excellent. just, the timing of everything? it's better than 90% of all 3D animation I've ever seen in games
power and time, okay, got it
so the dawn deadline IS real, just not for him
wait, possibly not for Sissel and Missile, either?
I see he still fell in his signature ridiculous pose
it's less funny now, overall
ah, okay, so the time effect is different too
it seems to have been the same for Sissel and Missile though? is this a personality powers deal?
I love that Missile is perfectly comfortable with weird shit because as a dog, that's about the amount of understanding he has of his everyday surroundings, too <3
oh, hum
so the moment this guy actually 'died' is the moment that blue guy took out the fragment?
wipe out everybody, huh
okay, so the shooting is as we knew, kind of
the first shot missed the mark, huh? quite curious, quite curious
stray bullets are known to be deadly :D
alright, so that's a conversation that mostly confirmed what we already knew
we have a new ally though, sort of
aand Lynne's empathy saves the day -_-
like I said earlier, this guy's feelings aren't like... unique or anything, he just sucks at theory of mind
Kamila!!!
so hey kiddo this guy in front of you is the guy who killed your mom
anyway, I'm still pretty sure Sissel hadn't yet introduced himself to you when you started calling him "Sissy" so there's that lead
and Kamila makes herself comfortable <3 I love this Little Lady so much <3
AWWWW
THE RADIO THING <3 <3 <3
'and what about a torpedo' WHAT ABOUT A TORPEDO LYNNE
THIS SOUNDS EXTREMELY UNSAFE
KAMILA ARE YOU KIDDING ME YOU'RE TOUGH AS FUCK
OMG IT'S A GRAPE SERVING MACHINE
I LOVE THE LUXURIOUS FUCK THIS WAS MADE FOR
alright, torpedo room, that works
swap the switches to get them unstuck!!!
so I'm going to guess everyone there died, too, and Sissel's going to have to prevent that, too
that makes perfect sense
that 'understand exactly how he feels' thing
our!Sissel and evil!Sissel are really fucking different in this particular respect :D
awww and the girls convince the doggo <3 <3 <3
so, does Kamila know about the dawn deadline for all ghosts, or
oh thank god I didn't need to control that hop
this game really has a policy of not having a permaloss option <3
Yomiel, huh
so that's his name
alright, and 'Sissel' is an alias
...I'm just going to keep using it for the protag, just to make things slightly less confusing
ah, so this guy had access to national secrets, and that's how he did the singer thing
and he was proven innocent offscreen <3 <3 <3
stylish
stylish animation, nice
didn't help anybody? did you ever try? because our!Sissel sure figured that shit out quickly
welp, the blue guys are assholes
but then, they were also kind of dealing with an asshole
I can imagine why they didn't think he was reliable to deal with :x
awww, I like the leaflet guy so much <3 <3 <3
I love how Jowd's like 'well, I'm dead, are you happy now'
and Sissel's like 'so anyway about that'
FUCK death
not tonight, not when Sissel's here
<3 <3 <3
alright, and this guy's a robot
that still doesn't quite
he's pretty human-like
>_>
I am not a fan of the blue guy in charge is all I'm saying
also lmao I nicknamed this one 'iron man dracula'
i didn't mean it that way but
ah, remote-controlled, alright
that 'farewell' was odd then
'your country's use of technology is just plain off'
I LOVE THIS
could there have been two pieces of meteorite in this guy's body?
okay, nope
still!
OH WOW
FOUR MINUTES BEFORE HIS DEATH
THAT'S
THAT'S ACTUALLY EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED FROM THE VERY BEGINNING EVEN THOUGH I THOUGHT THIS BODY BELONGED TO THE WRONG 'WHOM'
THIS IS SOMEWHAT MORE AMBITIOUS THAN PLANNED BUT
...okay, no, his 'death' would actually be before the control room was launched, not all those years ago
STILL
THIS IS THE -EXACT- THING
alright anyway
this is plenty of buildup
WHO THE FUCK IS OUR PROTAGONIST
it's funny how so far absolutely 0 of what we've seen has pointed to that
I have plenty of odd thoughts in my mind ofc
'that guy from another point of time' being the prime one
as a homestuck, the possibility of there being multiple ghosts of the same person doesn't faze me in the slightest
in fact it seems like an intuitive conclusion
BUT THEIR PERSONALITY SURE IS DIFFERENT
anyway, :D :D :D
Final Chapter
...aha! so it counted ten years ago after all!
dang :D
aha, I see that mascot thing
I see baby Lynne!!!
I note how for someone threatening to shoot the kid, Yomiel's gun sure is pointing in the wrong direction
AND he's holding out the kid to the side, not between himself and Jowd
SOMEONE sucks at hostage taking lmao
a kitty, huh
and then a meteorite, okay
I note the lamp
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Yomiel is thinking 'so maybe I'll die in another way and all this will have not happened, that's a better outcome anyway' isn't he
god
his faces are Sissel faces and look this game knows EXACTLY what it's doing with its visuals
exactly one facial exression of Yomiel's has not matched Sissel's
I doubt it's because of lazy artists
alright, so a good plan would be swapping the mascot and the lamp
but seriously, WOW Yomiel sucks at taking hostages
this game's animation is always stellar and brilliant, there's NO fucking coincidence there
he was absolutely not willing in any way to put baby Lynne in actual danger, even if he pretended he did and it worked on Jowd
anyway how the fuck do we get to the lamp
'we can talk about all this later' ARGUABLE TBH
the entire, like, THING is going to change
oh man is everyone going to go back to their bodies 10 years ago with their new memories because that's fucking hardcore
was Kamila even BORN yet
augh
I DONT KNOW
I CANT REACH I THINK
I CANT REACH ANYTHING WHAT DO I DO
MISSILE IS IN THE SWEET POTATO ON THE FOUNTAIN
SISSEL IS IN THE NOZZLE BUT NOT THE CENTRAL ONE AND CANT REACH THE CENTRAL ONE
WHAT DO I DO
okay sounds like I missed my chance
let's try that again
ghhhh
okay I think I have figured this sequence out even though I have to rewind again
1) rock the basket
2) jump into nozzle to launch the potato
3) Sissel jumps into the potato and then from the potato to the central nozzle
4) Missile jumps into the potato
5) launch the potato x2
okay, Mino fell into the fountain, not that I know how this can help
because AGAIN, Missile can't reach Mino from the lantern :x
and Sissel can't do absolutely fucking anything
annd the finale is a cutscene
alas
alright, let's try that again...
hum
we didn't get a FATE CHANGE registered after dropping Mino
might this mean we have to do something right in the process?
AW YEAH
THAT DEFINITELY JUST HAPPENED LMAO
are we going to kill everyone by dropping Mino on them instead XD
trick time, huh
Sissel still can't reach anywhere
Missile can swap two identical lanterns, not that this does anything
he can talk to Sissel, for what THAT's worth
aha, the lantern dropped, Missile can move around now, that's good
Sissel still can't do shit though
well, that's the detective's LEG, not... anything else or anything
oh man, yeah... YOUNG JOWD IS A DUMBASS
man, even Yomiel isn't aiming at him anymore, he's like 'hey dude are you okay'
so the theory that Sissel is alternate!Yomiel is really gaining steam in my head
not that it wasn't the primary one all along but
AW FUCK YEAH
MISSILE THE BULLET CATCHING BADASS DOGGO!!!
anyway sweet potato?
BOO YAH
um
or not
OR YES ACTUALLY THAT WORKS
OH MY FUCKING GOD
YEP
THE LAMPPOST
FUCKING MINO
awwwwww
and finally the trauma of remembering your death is brought up!!!! Sissel cares <3 <3 <3 (and Yomiel doesn't at the moment NOT THAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND THAT IN CONTEXT) (then again I'd understand it if Sissel didn't either but he's the purest being in existence so)
awwww
Yomiel is finally going to contribute!!!
omfg lmao
"Make it spray as if your life depended on it!"
"Uh, I'm dead though"
Yomiel is winning ALL the sensitivity awards tonight <3 <3 <3
I
I think that Yomiel hasn't done anything yet
oh, okay, we're still winning time
holy FUCK Yomiel
that was
definitely a thing you just did
dear Young Jowd,
Yomiel is the one who saved her. Not gods
awwww
and he gave baby Lynne a detective's badge <3 <3 <3
he's so good with children <3
so, can Yomiel be alive please :x
ALRIGHT, HE IS
THAT WORKS
THE KITTY
DID THE METEORITE KILL THE KITTY
wait wait wait
is
is Sissel the kitty
is that why he has no idea how guns work or anything else like that
that
that is truly fucking incredible f y'all's i
AND I GUESS IT FITS WITH HIM AND MISSILE JUST GOING AROUND SAVING PEOPLE TOGETHER LIKE A BADASS DUO
AND IT FITS WITH HIM GETTING KILLED BY LYNNE'S FIRST SHOT ON ACCIDENT
I HONESTLY CONSIDERED A RAT OPTION FOR LIKE A SPLIT SECOND THERE
OMG
OMG OMG OMG
YE
S
AND HIS NAME REALLY IS SISSEL
god
jesus fucking christ
this
this fucking game
i just
im howling
this
this definitely
is a thing that just happened
it owned me so hard
im so fucking owned right now
yep
hes the cat
he's Yomiel's cat
aaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww
there's a good reason he had identity confusion in all this
they WERE confusable as one being for a while
'her' huh?
oh man
wow THIS particular part of the story sucks
so Sissel was a girl's name all along? okay
but also, FUCK
no wonder he went bonkers specifically about being unable to die
'his powers couldnt help anybody' more like they couldn't help ONE SPECIFIC PERSON
so that bag is a kitty carrier huh
and Lynne's miss accidentally killed the kitty
LMAO THE PART WHERE WE ALL THOUGHT LYNNE HAD KILLED THE PROTAG WASN'T WRONG
I DAMN FUCKING REMEMBER THAT CAT
JUST FOR YALLS I
I ABSOLUTELY REMEMBERED THERE WAS A CAT THERE
I JUST NEVER LINKED IT TO ANYTHING I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS A VERY PRETTY RANDOM STRAY
anyway Yomiel that's what you get for playing with guns
they're deadly weapons and result in death
you're fucking welcome
so anyway who the fuck is Ray
but anyway kitty Sissel saved everyone...
okay but hold on hold on hold on
I didn't quite get the implications about the fiancee the first time around
WHAT THE FUCK CAPCOM
i was just recently thinking how fucked up it was that I remembered the last name of Polly Jenkins, just because of how much her brief story shook me
and uh
I think
is that also the implication here
because that's not fucking okay
anyway so did Yomiel die as the result of that or nay
bc that looked fucking deadly if not instantaneously so
god but
this ffucking game
this fucking... game
oh Missile I'm pretty sure YOU are going to see HIM alright lmao
wasn't Jowd taking him home
but also damn
the original events of these ten years, as remembered by
- a dog and a cat
- Detective Jowd and Kamila (but not Alma, who never was brought back to life directly)
- Lynne
- Cabanela
- the medical examiner
- the minister of justice
AND NO-ONE ELSE
...wait, no
ALSO
THE GUY FROM THE FUCKING PARK
...yep
that's a thing we're doing
so another important thing is that the rock star kid is going to be okay
and the curry guy, too
nothing bad happened to them in this timeline, right?
ALRIGHT
HI RAY
WHAT/WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU
(right now my bet's on 'a rat')
oh, Sissel also killed two people tonight, that happened
lmao and in this version of evens Missile died in the presence of Temsik
omfg and Ray is alternate!Missile
this is fucking amazing <3
lmao his ghost aged and lost its powers?
also the dawn deadline was a lie he just wanted to get Sissel's butt moving I FUCKING KNEW IT
I love how Sissel's just "I DID WHAT" even though he's been doing that all evening this time around too
yup doggie's a fucking liar
the only real time limit is the lifetime they would have had if they were alive huh
damn
but seriously I called that before I started this section of the liveblog even if I think I never actually made that post
'what are the odds Ray is a fucking liar' I don't think I ever wrote that
I kept getting distracted
but yep I fucking called this
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART
GOD
I AM ;U;
THIS DOGGO
anyway one participant of the events who definitely wasn't born yet 10 years ago is indeed Missile 0.0
how's that... gonna work...
but I do love that just... the justice minister, of all people, is also going to be in possession of those 10 years
OH MY FUCKING GOD
LYNNE IS ABOUT TO HAVE A FUCKING HEART ATTACK
I KNOW THERE'S NO GUN BUT
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST
KAMILA WHAT THE FUCK DON'T FUCKING DO THAT
THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING
aawwwwwww
IT WORKED THIS TIME AROUND
'nice to meet you' OH BOY
OH BOY I GET HOW IT WORKS NOW I THINK
...uh, I'm not sure how Lynne knew to flee from the junkyard then, but either way
it looks like they're only getting back their memories at the PRESENT
and that's why Kamila didn't fUCKING KNOW AND REMEMBER WHAT THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH DOING THAT JUST NOW
LMAO SOMETHING'S GOING TO EXPLODE TONIGHT
oh, nevermind, it's not that yet :D
but it really does sound like it's going to :D
right... about... dawn? :D
aww Jowd actually carries toy badges with him everywhere <3 <3 <3
'child handling tools'
still a kitten, huh
yeah, that whole Temsik thing :D
aww, and here's her, all alive and everything
SO
BIG MEMORYSPLOSION
PLEASE
(at dawn)
(it's fucking coming that's my headcanon and you can't beat it)
(a bunch of people are going to become really fucking traumatized tonight)
hey!!! Missile!!!
Cabanela brought him, huh
so, what's up with Yomiel, anyway
COME ON SISSEL MAKE NICE WITH MISSILE
HE CAN'T CLIMB UP THERE
that guy's imitating Cabanela lmao
Memry <3 <3 <3
very best customer, huh
AWWW
ITS THIS GUY
HI GUY
YOU'RE OKAY NOW
WITHOUT YOMIEL TO RUIN EVERYTHING YOU'RE JUST FINE
hah, and these two
.............................................yup. they died
'the indescretions of a minister perhaps?' I LOVE THIS FUCKING LADY I LOVE HER I LOVE HER
ah, these two
what deal is it this time
the little rock sinter guy!!! yeah!!!!
hi medical examiner guy <3 guess you're not doing medicine after all huh
HI LEAFLET PARK GUY
YOU ARE STILL CUTE
HI BAILEY
oh man
oh man
Yomiel :D
hey are talking about Yomiel :D
SHOW ME HIS FIANCEE YOU COWARDS
lmao he's the painter this time
even the robe sits the same
SO
SHOW ME
OH YEAH
OH YEAH HE REMEMBERS
THATS THE PICTURE OF THE FUCKING CAT AND NO MISTAKE ABOUT IT
YUP
YUP
THIS IS IT
lmao that crane
i sure do remember it well
it murdered two people tonight
<3 <3 <3
kitty <3 <3 <3
aw yeah! in that picture with Missile!!!
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I quit online dating...ok dating in general
Definitely taking a long hard look in the mirror, my new job starts soon so I can start seeing a therapist and finally figure out wtf is going on with me mentally but also
I NEED BETTER HELP WITH FIXING MY ATTRACTION OFF OF TOXIC MFS WHO CAN LIE WAY TOO GOOD AND ME ACTUALLY BELIEVING IT BECAUSE THEY LOOK GOOD AND I LIKE THEM LIKE AFTER BEING VULNERABLE
WTFFFF
I met Jay at work, so now I'm worried about blocking myself off too much if I happen to meet someone new and they sound like a nice person, good fit, but then the relationship and family trauma history comes up....wtf do i do? Run?
Like everything that I went through wasn't all my fault, but still I think it would be unfair for me to neglect someone as a potential date if they have everything that I'm looking for, looks good, but they have this, this, and that mental health disorders from trauma or they're just surviving....
But Idk, I think it would be best to get some guidance off the horny, desperate, need somebody to talk to because I can't come out to my parents about what happened to me with Jay and Ayunna because they're not cool about their kids being gay...
Its like "hey, dad I was sexually, mentally, and emotionally abused by someone..."
"Wow...why would you stay in something like that? By the way was it a girl or a boy?"
I think my dad knows. But I did not like the way he responded and said that it was my fault for having sex with them...Like wow, how was I supposed to know they would have took advantage of me and did stuff to me that I wouldn't even like...without consent?
Wtf Dad.
And this is why I never talked to my mom about it either...they think alike to victim blame and doing the oh, well you should have known better way of talking down to their kids about being fucked up by their best friend...
Yea great role models.
I told him and he didn't even hug me. Cause he thought I was going to far when I said I wanted to fight her and get revenge.
He just said you should find a way to release that aggression and looked at me crazy as if nothing bad had happened to me and everything I was feeling still after, was all in my head, blown out of proportion.
Why didn't I tell him I was disappointed in the way he handled that?
It just made me close up on him and mom even more after he said that. Its like why should I have to debate out why it was so wrong of my friend to hurt me to somebody who would rather talk about something else, being all nonchalant and passive as usual.
I don't wanna talk about it until after I move out, cause I feel like he would explode on me if I was to say Dad, I don't like what you said and it hurt me to know that my own father didn't have my back when I was looking for support.
Cause I've been in pain all year, thinking, and being reminded of Jay and Ayunna's actions towards me. I hate them officially to this day. And I'll never love or trust the same since them.
They'll never know what its like to be me, not Jay, not Ayunna, not my mom or dad...so why even bother discussing, then later on debating about why I even stayed in an abusive relationship like that where I people pleased and didn't say stop. I just took the pain, like the good girl-sex-slave/doormat Jay wanted me to be.
He'll never understand it, and thats why I don't like the idea of telling my parents everything that happened, because I don't wanna lose my parents.
Cause I feel like even if I was to open up to my crazy bipolar mom and my passive ass dad, none of them would overreact about wanting to kick Jay and Ayunna's ass like I do right to this very day.
They would have got hard on me, tell me their disappointed in me, and told me everything that I did wrong in the matter instead of actually asking me "are you okay" which Dad never did after I told him the snippet.
Never would have asked me "how are you feeling" "do you need a hug" cause yea, its all my fault huh? For staying with a dumbass abusive friend who was already engaged to someone who treats them like a child too?
Yea they would have judged the fuck outta me...so I don't say anything. And every time I feel a ptsd episode spiraling or mom triggers me, I stay locked up in my room and scream and cry silently until I hear my voice crack. Shrilling the sound like, broken metal guitar strings cause I've been suffering in silence all year long. Hiding my depression from my sisters and my parents, because mom and dad want us to be happy about being alive and living in this house that I stopped giving a fuck about, because well grandma's dead and you can't make people happy about it when it was literally in July and her dead body was carried down our living room steps.
This bitch is crazy, you act like everything is supposed to just go back to normal? After everything that I've seen and been through this year? You think I'm supposed to be happy after finding out your a crazy, selfish, asshole who wanted me to fall down the steps just for pissing you off, my grandma was miserable and depressed all the way up in that house and delusional about healthcare that she didn't visit a doctor for years until it was too late, my dad hides everything he feels from us and mom unless it comes out in an aggravated assault on my little sister when she pissed him off, and now mom is basically forcing us to get back on cleanup schedule and act like everything is normal.
WHEN ITS FUCKING NOT
I bet deep down this is why Grandma moved to live in a cabin in the woods, for idk how long. She even painted the house she bought later on, the exact same colors. Burgundy and Sea Mint Green. Cause she loved how peaceful it was and there was nobody there but just her. Her family, her abusive ex, her abusive baby daddy, her children, and her friends all drove her nuts trying to be there and take care of them....when nobody was there to take care of her.
Except when I was there, it felt like we had the whole house, the whole world to ourselves, and we could be just as still and silent as the wind passing us as we sat on the couch, watched movies, ate popcorn, and enjoyed a hard lemonade with her. She missed being by herself after I moved in and so did I.
No wonder we kept butting heads. We don't like being disappointed by our family and friends, and we sure as hell don't like people making us work for them, and not caring about our emotional, mental, and physical stability.
I would prefer to go to the library for hours and just watch movies on the internet, than to live with my family while I'm still digesting the pain and drama I went through.
And realizing just how toxic, abusive, and crazy your family really is...really made me hate reality. Once the research on why I felt like I was suffering so bad with jay and ayunna started to add up, it all made sense why I didn't see some of the things that actually hurt me, as not as bad. Because I'd been through it already with my mom and my dad. Where I'm forced to take every negative comment or action they said and did, and just deal with it without retaliating against them or I was punished or told I was too sensitive to be told the truth. Gaslighting me.
Like I'm not allowed to feel pain if my mom tells me that my stomach is poking out too much in that dress and that I need to go change or wear some spanx. Then if I didn't want to change there was pinches on my skin from when she would force my shirts into my pants and make me feel stupid for not knowing how to tuck in my pants.
I'm supposed to always appreciate everything my parents did for me, even when the person standing in front of my face wants to be right all the time and I'm supposed to not get upset, not get angry, not cry, not whine or complain when my parent, my guardian does something unfair to me, says something rude, disrespectful, and controlling to me that they know that if I did the same thing to them, then they would slap me across the face, flick me in the head, knock me back to being a kid, just because they said so and just because I still live here.
I hate this place. And I thought Athena would be my escape. I thought I found someone to build real love with after going through so much trauma and realizing the crazy I've been living in for all these years.. The facade is over.
And I don't know what to do except cry and scream for myself in my room, and now I can't even talk to them about me losing my faith and trust in God because everything bad that happened and keeps happening. And why in the hell did he decide giving my grandma cancer was the best way for her to go? She was in so much pain all these years and it was from cancer. Her head and her body was twitching from lack of oxygen. And she was unresponsive as I sat upstairs with her all night on the very same couch I'm sitting on right now.
Its September now. She passed on July 30th and dad called me from upstairs after I had stayed up there till like 11:30 cause we were writing down how much morphine to give her each hour. And the nurse had just told us that she might not have that long left to live. Like maybe saturday or monday, cause it was already friday the 30th.
But after the nurse left, Dad told me to go through her pictures and find his favorite photo of her. I didn't even cry like he did, I had already cried at 10am when I saw no matter what I did, she was still shaking and not responding to me talking to her like before. Still grunting. It was like me being on nurse mode, made my heart, my emotions feel numb. But after I left the room and called Hospice, I finally let it out.
Grandma passed at around 1:30 or 2pm. And two of my aunts and my cousins were over. My cousins playing a game of Uno in the dining room as if nothing traumatic was going on upstairs. None of them reacted at all until they all joined us in the living room as she being carried down the stairs by the funeral service guys. It was amazing to see how insensitive at 1st the kids were, then to see my mom cry about not being strong enough for my dad, when I was sorta pissed off and confused and still in shock about grandma. LIKE WTFFF MOMMM FUCKING CRYYY THAT'S THE REASON WHY YALL HAVE PROBLEMS IN YALL RELATIONSHIP AND OUR RELATIONSHIP NOW
STOP HIDING YOUR FUCKING SADNESS, ANGER, AND GRIEF FROM YOUR FAMILY BY BEING A CRAZY ASS PSYCHOPATH WHO EXPECTS PEOPLE TO ACT NORMAL AND BE HAPPY WHEN SOMETHING SHITTY LIKE THIS HAPPENS
GODDAMN IT MOM FUCKING CRY. YOU'RE HUMAN. IM HUMAN. WE'RE ALLOWED TO FUCKING CRY. WE'RE ALLOWED TO GRIEVE. WE'RE ALLOWED TO FEEL OUR PAIN AND SUFFERING.
AND IM ALLOWED TO BE DEPRESSED AND UNSATISFIED WITH MY LIFE AND MY RELIGION THAT DOESN'T LET ME DO WHAT I WANT AND BE HAPPY WITH WHOEVER I WANT TO BE WITH.
AND MOM IM GAY. I FELL IN LOVE WITH WITH A GIRL WHO LATER ON DECIDED TO BE A THEY, AND NOW A HE AND I'LL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN AS A THEY, CAUSE NOW HE'S GROWING A BEARD, A DICK, A NEW VOICE AGAIN, AND SHE'S GETTING MARRIED TO ANOTHER CONTROLLING PSYCHOPATH THAT REMINDS ME OF YOU AND I HAD SEX WITH HER TOO, BUT I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE CAUSE I DON'T KNOW IF ME AND HER WANNA KILL EACH OTHER OR IF SHE'S ACTUALLY A COUSIN OR NOT WHO REMINDS ME OF MY TRAUMA WHEN I WAS A KID. AND WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T ANYBODY SAY ANYTHING ABOUT INCEST POSSIBLY BEING A GENE OF TRAUMA IN THIS FAMILY.
I LITERALLY WATCHED MY COUSINS WHO WERE FAMILY, HAVE SEX AND THEY WERE KIDS JUST BECAUSE THEY WERE WATCHING PORN AND NOBODY BROUGHT IT BACK UP TO EVEN EXPLAIN WHY OR WHAT HAPPENED. AND ALL I SEE IS FLASHBACKS OF SHIT WHENEVER SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS TO ME IN MY LIFE. CAUSE I KNOW INCEST IS BAD.
AND THATS WHY I STILL AM GROSSED OUT BY THE IDEA OF AYUNNA AS A WHOLE BECAUSE SHE SMELLS WEIRD AND HAS GROSS MORNING BREATH, SHE SNORTS FOR 45 MIN TO AN HR EVERY MORNING SHE WAKES UP LIKE ITS NORMAL TO NOT BE ABLE TO BREATHE NORMALLY LIKE THAT IN YOUR SLEEP AND SHE'S ABNOXIOUS AND GROSS AND IMMATURE BUT JAY PRETENDS LIKE SHE'S MATURE AND IM NOT EVEN THOUGH IM SMARTER, IM BETTER, MORE EMOTIONALLY CAPABLE TO HANDLE THEM BEING DEPRESSED TO NOT JUDGE THEM FOR IT, CAUSE I KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO WANNA DIE TO ESCPAE MY PAIN AND MY REALITY CAUSE ITS NICE AND EASIER TO HAVE AFRIEND WHO WANTS TO GO BACK TO BEING TAKEN CARE OF LIKE A BABY AND HAVE FUN JUST LIKE YOU TOO.
I feel like i lost a lot this year...including my sanity...thanks a lot Athena for triggering me. Now going back to talking to grandma as if she was here like I did when i was on the flight for the very 1st time after 911 and I had a silent panic attack because I was holding it in for the kid and the obnoxious older black lady next to me on my flight.
I cried my tears out and everything felt tight up on my back, making me scared and numb and tingly like I was on a rollercoaster. and mom thought I was just overreacting.
I need someone who understands me and knows exactly how it feels to be me, and I thought that person was this crazy bitch on the internet, who's gay and trans and lost a bunch of her family due to trauma. Because she's autistic, and not the one where they cant talk and do things for themselves. She talks to me just like I would to myself when I wasn't feeling good.
And idk, if I might have some sort of autism or spectrum thing too. Or did my family brainwash me into thinking nothing was wrong with me, the way they treated me, and how I was behaving...just because they didn't wanna believe it either.
I wanna know what's wrong with me, my life, my family and how do I fix it so it doesn't keep happening. I wanna know how can I avoid becoming like my parents and ending up in a controlling, aggressive, petty relationship like my dad who became passive just so he could deal with it and hide his pain from her.
I dont know what a healthy relationship looks like with no confrontations that leads to fights, arguing that leads to yelling at each other's faces and getting distracted with emotions to where we throw things at each other or just walk out without saying anything...
Because I dont know how to be angry. Cause I was never allowed to. and the people who birth me, don't know how to control theirs either without hurting the person they care about, someway or some sort.
I still to this day don't know how to communicate when I get angry. Because I feel like I was adopted from all the daycare people who used to take me in at night time when mom would drop me off and I never knew when she was coming back cause she didn't tell me.
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