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#its hard to comunicate with others
volinare · 2 months
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It's kinda like before anti-psycotics I experienced my innerworld, my subconscious, the observable world, and other people innerworlds all on top of each other. They mixed together and when information was missing it was hard to tell as it was all so messy.
All those realities still exist, and they still exist all at the same time. Now, they are all the same world, instead of layered realities. Delusions no longer exist in bubbles that I get stuck in but as a part of the world that contradicts or doesn't contradict other parts.
The world is like nothing else. I'm still depressed, suicidal, and delusional. But now I can like sorta feed my self and keep my body clean. I had all the tools before to do so, but my entire life I couldn't keep up and I never knew why. I thought maybe trauma and autism, those still play a part but like literally my life is just. Exactly the same but I shower and pick up things I don't want to step on off the floor.
My self awareness too. It's always been a struggle for me to understand how I'm perceived. I'm constantly, as I think most people do, reflecting, making changes, and grieving. But now progress is more satisfying. I can make plans that have more moving parts and understand situations without that sliding reality feeling. Even if my actual follow through is the same.
I dissociate a lot still
I tend to react well to medications and antipsychotics are nothing to mess around with. But I but a lot of thought (I was lucky to be able to) into starting them and the results just. They weren't what I was expecting. Like, I expected them to work, but like. like look at this I wrote this long silly post that stays on topic and moves between subtopics. I didn't even plan that. My thoughts are just. Literally organized. And I was able to write in an organic way before my delusions got worse last year, but it still wasn't like this and I wasn't always able to.
#mania and alters make the whole thing hard to work out#also have WAY less intrusive thoughts now and im able to walk my self away from 'evil' thoughts#amd comunication is better with my system!!!#well some parts other are like woosh#theres a few alters who came out of dormancy too because I guess the delusions got too intense when i was 20 or so.#POV: u can now make long posts like all your fav DID blogs because you can write in a straight line now.#im gonna read this to my therapist and im going to make him clap at the end because therapy makes me go mad with power#im going everyother week now o-o#i think i could actually have a routine now. omg does this mean i get to ax murder all the doctors that didnt believe m#me when i said i couldn't keep a routine?#what about the ones that didnt believe that i was experiencing delusions? idk why. I guess I was too articulate still?#i had one therapist tell me i was in the arly stages of schitzoaffective#tried some antipsycotic for a week and they made my corner of the eye halusinations worse! so I stopped them#then everything got worse a little over a year ago and i was like#Its just so funny I feel like Im staring at everyone on tumblr with big huge eyes now like 0_0 -_- 0_0#i dont even know how that is related but that how i feel#i thought my inability to write was because i was embarrassed from the truman show!! literally#and im still embarrassed sometimes but#and im sure this is a little difficult to read but its stream of consciousness and like#duuuuude like you know
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pizzapizzadickz · 1 year
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I feel a lil bit better today after getting some rest in. I always feel better when I can spend a day at home. I think tomorrow I'll wear my noise cancelling headphones or something so I can chill even more.
...funny how my way to chill is just trying to eliminate all external stimuli
(Pt 1 for description rant)
#diary#personal#i rly wanna book a therapy appointment but im having a rly hard time trying to get myself to do that bc i need to check i can vid call#cuz my computer monitor is broke and havent fixed it yetttt ugh.#i rly feel like researching autism again. idk. i saw a video about communication badges being used at furry conventions#and by god that sounds so fun ;-; like. i really struggle with interaction with others and talking is sometimes really hard.#mainly bc if theres a lot of noise i usually wanna block it out and if i gotta take my earbuds out to comunicate all the time its not fun#idk. i just wish i could go around writting shit out for ppl to read and thats that. no need to speak to clerks or crap.#bc imma be honest. i have a hard time hearing too. like in crowded places. its so overwhelming all the time.#its both a good and a bad thing that im giving myself the permission to be overwhelmed in situations#but its also making it much more difficult to actually be in those situations.#idk. i used to force myself through it. tell myself i like it or whatever. but by god everything just hurts nowadays#like. i dont like leaving my house mostly bc of the sensory overload.#i wonder how things'll change in the future. just how much more accepting will i and society be. i dont know.#but i hope i learn to cope more. bc life is really hard and imma be honest im struggling at best.#idk. i find it so hard to work lately. i love my thoughts. they are so fluid. and just. language doesnt keep up.#everything i say or write isnt quite right. and it bothers me. i sorta wished telepathy existed just soley so i could comunicate#idk maybe someday ill learn sign language. and maybe that could help. but it wouldnt help when im shut down. or having a meltdown#yknow. i find face to face human to human contacr really scary. i worry theyll want to do something and i wont#i worry i wont be able to get across my reasoning as to why. i worry that theyll see just how odd my behaviour can be.#and above all i just sorta worry they wont work with me to meet me halfway. like. im stuck with my family i dont want that with friends too#i hope if i visit them itll be okay. that like. i wont cause a problem or accidentally offend them or something?#idk. i wanna make friends n hang out. but as ive gotten older ive discovered just how much i hate that.#like i saw a rly cool tik tok about how they set up their home for all their autistic friends when they come over.#like. its established you can just stop talking and remove urself if you wanna. and theres stim toys n plushies n shit. and low lighting#and just. that sounds like heaven. i struggle so much in social situations. bc i eventually get tired.#and it makes me feel sorta burnt out/depressed. so itd be nice if i could just remove myself from a stituation whenever.#or just lay my head down on someones lap and silently observe.#i wish i knew what to do when i get overwhelmed in public. bc it happens a lot. and i freeze. and idk what to do.#and ill cry and get overwhelmed and shutdown or meltdown. and i start to aimlessly wander and its sorta dangerous tbh?
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kaivenom · 1 month
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Bar fight
Summary: you have been on Kidd's ship for a while now but you always seem to be a very calm person until the crew decides to go into a bar for a "fun" night and your feelings for your captain start to show.
Pairing: Eustass Kidd x reader
Warnings: bad language, violence, jelausy, reader being a little menace to the society, Kidd being the bastard he usually is, a little bit of sexual innuendo at the end (but no smut)
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The crew, especially your captain decided to go get some drinks to a bar. It was the first time since you got in the crew that you're going to pass the night on land, enjoying some time outside the ship. You don't say that it wasn't good but sharing every space in there with men it's not the best, especially with Kidd. You two had a thing going but for the time you guys are keeping it in secret. In fact, you need this night to relax and spent some time a little far from him. Maybe you had the oportunity to talk to other female, if your crewmates doesn't start a fight before.
The local was cool, with many people, perfect to go unnoticed. You got to the bar when they got their drinks so you can have your time alone. Kidd and you fighted sooner that morning, for something stupid, because he was jelous or something about that reading your feelings it's hard. It's true that you are calm, because you think about what to do, unlike him who shouts and uses violence everytime he can. You like him that way but he made you think that maybe you need to start being a little less calm and a little more comunicative, and you don't now how to be like that.
A woman got next to you, somehow you ended up talking, thanks to the waiter not serving you both the drinks you ordered.
"So, you are here alone?" she asked.
"No, i'm him with my crewmates and my ..." you couldn't continue.
"Wow, someone is having troubles with a man? How is him?" at first you were suspicious but then you decided to tell her.
"It's like two meters, i know its big, red-head, big muscles with a metalic arm," she made a sound of excitement, "really loud, shouts a lot and it's a little unpredictable."
You two talked a little more time until she had to return to her group. You decided to go to the bathroom and asumed it was the time to return with your crewmates. It wasn't difficult to find them, the problem was what you saw when you got there.
The girl you were talking on the bar was sitting between Killer and Kidd, and having a more than innapropiate closeness with the second one.
"Oh, Hi," she said really happy, "you were right, he is really unpredictable."
She looked really innocent but her words declared her real intentions, considering what have you told her, it was no room for a mistake. Kidd face wasn't really surprised like he was expecting someting.
"What are you doing?" you try to stay as calm as posible but every second she passes her hand thru Kidd's arm it's more difficult.
"I'm enjoying the company of these amazing men, especially this one," that woman it's reaching your limits.
"Oh really? and our previous talk?"
"Maybe if you weren't so numb, you would get more of his attetton."
That's it, she reached your limit. Kidd seemed like he was about to get up and say something to her but you couldn't wait for that, your emotions are controlling you. One step and you slapped that woman on the face, maybe with a little bit of extra strenght thanks to your armament haki.
"That's what you get for being a whore, don't ever try to get near me or my man again or i will kill you and believe me, i have a big bounty that shows my capacities."
The woman was on the floor with a red cheek and some tears starting to appear. She got up and slapped you back, the impact wasn't very strong, you spitted to her face and prepared to start a fight. Somehow you admired her strenght and determination to be a bitch and a pain in the ass, but you are going to break her face, it was decided. Before you landed the first punch something lifted you from the floor.
"End of these cat fight, go try to fuck some idiot of this club because we are going out and i don't want to ever see your face again."
Kidd threw you over his shoulder and was carrying you away from the woman. You coudln't help but laugh and say goodbye sarcastically to that woman.
All the journey back to the ship, everyone was silent, you started to be scared to be kicked out. When they do these type of things everyone was excited but now they are speecheless, even looked a little scared. Even when you got to the deck, Kidd didn't put you down. You don't have the mood to ask him about it, the adrenaline it's starting to go down, so you let yourself get carried away to his room.
Once the door was shut, you expected something but not what he did. He put you down against the wall, with his body against yours and his hands pressing your thighs. His face was close, lips brushing but not entiretly touching, a torture. He smelled a little like alcohol and his cheeks were a little red.
"You know what you did there?" you started to noticed his crotch pressing against you, "that's what i was talking about when i said that i wanted you to express emotions, i know perfectly when you are happy or sad... i wanted you to get jelous, to mark me as your man," he was quoting you and it looked that he loved it, his mouth went to your neck fast and desperate, "seeing you all violent to defend what's yours made me get instantly hard, i wanted to fuck you right there in front of that bitch's face... fuck, i loved seeing you like that, i love being your man."
Well, it's looks like you now know how to get Kidd excited.
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ironstrange1991 · 1 year
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Too Tired
+18 smut
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Pairing: Doctor!Strange x Fem!Reader
Synopsis: Stephen is tired from a mission and after two rounds with you, you still want one more. Will he be able to met with your expectations?
Word Count: 2k
Warnings: Its a smut, but a soft and romantic one. P in V, Oral sex with female and male receiving, mastrubation with female and male receiving, lots of dirty talk.
A/N: Guys I have been thru a lot in my personal life so thats the reason why I have disappeared but I love be in here, I love this comunity and I love to write for Stephen, right now its the only thing that is keeping me alive LITERALLY. So belive me when I say I wrote this from rock bottom and took this words from the bottom of my heart. I hope you enjoy it.
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Stephen rolled onto his side of the bed, body sweaty, breathing heavily after two rounds with you, the second being a particularly long one. He was spent.
You were apart for two weeks and when he got home that morning you simply attacked him demanding to be sated of all the love and desire you felt for him.
Stephen had a relatively high sex drive, but sometimes he was surprised by you. Positively of course. That morning he made you come three times, once on his face, twice on his cock. He came hard twice himself, the first time in your mouth and the second inside you and yet as he threw himself back on the pillows trying to regulate his breathing you crawled into his chest placing kisses on his neck, moving up to his face, his cheek, rubbing your face against his goatee and  squeezed your thighs together like a cat in heat and he knew it was going to be a long day and he wasn't complaining, he loved that about you but to be quite honest he didn't know if he could meet your demands and expectations.
Stephen was tired. The mission had been a long one and although he came back in one piece this time with no bruises or broken bones, he could feel the weariness getting to him and as much as he wanted to immediately go for a third round he doubted he could get an erection that fast.
You cupped his face pulling him to your lips and stuck your tongue in his mouth kissing him so hot it brought a moan from the back of his throat. "Oh sweetheart..." He caressed your face watching as you bit your bottom lip "I love it when you kiss me like that"
You grinned and kissed him again, this time giving his bottom lip a little nip. You took his hand and brought it down between your legs. He sighed feeling how wet you were again when minutes before he had cleaned you up. "You're insatiable, sweetheart, look at that, all wet for me again" You lay back on the mattress and spread your legs wider for him "I've been without you for two weeks Stephen, do you have any idea how hard that was? I I had to resort to other methods, but it's not the same as having the Master of the Mystic Arts fucking me."
Stephen chuckled, he propped himself up on his elbow as he dipped his middle finger deeper inside you, slowly fucking you with rhythmic strokes. You moaned louder. "Is that why you called me in the middle of the night? Because your toys alone weren’t enough to make you come?"
He added a second finger to draw a passionate sigh from your lips. You shook your head, your eyes were closed "I needed to hear your voice" You confessed.
"Aham, just my voice or all the dirty things I whispered to you on the phone?"
"Both... Ah Stephen I want you to make me come again"
Stephen kissed you. Not a simple kiss, but that kiss where his tongue wandered to each corner of your mouth, sucking your tongue hard and biting your lips in the process. You could have sworn that only that kiss was capable of making you come.
You groaned loudly, your hand on top of Stephen's hand showing him exactly what you wanted. He managed to put his thumb on your clit and started circling it slowly. "Like that?" He asked in your ear in that wonderful whispered voice. You could only nod your head in approval, your mouth went agape.
"Oh I know sweetheart. I know exactly how you like it. You need to have just the right amount of pressure here, don't you?"
You shook your head vehemently.
"I know. Just let go then. I know you so well, my love." He put a little more pressure on his thumb as he moved both fingers in an intense rhythm and he could feel your walls tightening around his fingers. Oh he loved that feeling. He loved it much more when it was in his cock, but it felt powering. Knowing he was responsible for leaving you in that state made him feel more powerful than any spell.
"Oh Stephen, you're going to make me come..."
Stephen hummed in your ear and nibbled your earlobe reveling in the way your skin prickled "Come on, sweetheart, come hard for me, show me how much you love me"
He didn't have to ask twice. The combination of the intense penetration of his fingers, the friction of his thumb on your clit and his voice whispered in your ear was explosive. You came. Hard.
Your moan was almost a whimper, but Stephen insisted on swallowing it with another breathtaking kiss.
He took his fingers out of you and brought them to his lips, sucking them provocatively "You taste so good"
You smiled charmingly at him opening your arms and he throws himself into them giving you a crushing hug and biting your neck rubbing his goatee there making you shiver and giggle. He rolled to the side, but kept you firm in his arms, your head on his chest, your hand caressed his chest and went down to his belly and kept going down, not satisfied you started giving light kisses on his chest that quickly went from Innocent to provocative, your hand grabbed his cock which was only half hard.
"I dont know if I can do it again sweetheart, even though I want it, I am tired."
You hummed undaunted by the challenge ahead and held it tight in your hand stroking it up and down slowly.
He squeezed you in his arms and you turned to kiss him and God, that kiss alone would be more than enough to make his cock hard if he wasn't so tired. Even so, the way you moved and your kiss was enough to bring some life to it, though still not enough.
"Put it in your mouth sweetheart, make me hard for you."
You were moving to put it in your mouth when he pulled you past his head, putting you on all fours and bringing your pussy up to his head giving him a privileged view of your soaked slit. You didn't wait a second to put it in your mouth and he didn't wait to grab your thighs and pull you to his mouth sucking and surprising you with delicious voracity.
Stephen wasn't small even half flaccid, but as he hardened in your mouth he grew and you loved to see that transformation. Stephen had a delicious cock, but more than that, his cock was beautiful. Just like him. Big, thick, with the pink tip and bulging veins that pulsed in your mouth.
Stephen loved to suck you. He could be hard just by smelling and drinking all your fluids, but he also loved the way you rolled on his face without any shame. You had a hungry clit, he loved to take it between his teeth when it was all swollen and red from your arousal, to flick his tongue on it or simply suck on it and feel his entire body quiver in response. Pleasuring you was always the best way to get Stephen hard.
He loved your moans, he loved the way you reveled in your own pleasure and he especially loved knowing that he was responsible for leaving you in that state.
Stephen knew all your weaknesses, he knew for example that you came faster if you had friction on your clit along with the penetration, he also knew very well that getting you face down from behind pinning you against the bed with his body weighting above you as he rubbed the beard on your neck and whispered all kinds of filth in your ear was the most delicious way to make you come and fall head over heels in love with him.
Just like he knew that, like now, you loved being able to wiggle in his face and rub your pussy in his goatee.
But he didn't want you to come yet, your next orgasm would be on his cock which was already rock hard for you again.
"That's right sweetheart, you are awesome, look how hard you left me again. Come here, ride me. I want to feel you bouncing on my cock"
You were more than happy to comply with his request. And a second later you were directing his cock at your entrance completely soaked by your lubrication and Stephen's saliva.
You moaned as you lowered allowing him to go deep inside you, your walls stretching to accommodate him inside you. It didn't matter that he'd fucked you twice already, it was always quite a challenge to contain him inside you.
"Fuck you feel so good, love. Move please, ride me hard" You leaned against his chest and started rocking on his cock, alternating between back and forth and up and down movements. Increasing your pace slowly, the noises of his cock moving in and out of your soaked pussy was always so delicious, it made you extremely horny for him.
Stephen took one of his hands around your waist and grabbed your tit with the other letting you do all the work.
"Oh sweetheart you do it so good, I love it when you fuck me like that"
It wasn't common for Stephen to relinquish control in bed, usually he did all the work being dominant all the time and you loved that about him, but sometimes when he was tired he chose to let you be in control and the result was always extremely pleasurable for both  and you knew he was a lot more tired than he let on.
Even from that and from the way his cock was throbbing violently inside you, you knew he wouldn't last.
"Fuck, if it continues at this rate I'm going to come, sweetheart, I can't hold back, you feel too good"
You were so close to your orgasm that stopping wasn't an option. "I am almost there, Stephen. Hold it" You bit your bottom lip bending forward to get just a little more friction "Slap my ass"
Stephen grinned and complied.  You moaned loudly "Again"
He did it. "Again" He did it again and then it happened. Your entire body shook on top of him, your walls squeezing his cock so hard and pulling him to his too. "Oh thats right sweetheart... oh fuck, fuck..." Stephen spilled inside you and you loved that feeling.
You collapsed on top of him and Stephen wrapped you in his arms putting you on the bed but keeping you in his arms.
"That was... intense" You finally said and then you both giggled.
Stephen kissed your lips lightly and got up going to the bathroom and came back with a cloth. He cleaned you up and then cleaned himself up and then came back to bed holding out his arm for you to lie comfortably next to him. You rested your head on his shoulder and caressed his face lightly watching him. His eyes were red with sleep.
"Poor thing, I took advantage of you a lot, didn't I?"
He smirked, but his eyes were practically closing by themselves "I pretty much enjoyed every second of it"
You smiled cupping his face and pulling it to your lips. You kissed him softly.
"Yeah I know. And you were amazing as always, but I will let you sleep now, Stephen. You deserve it."
He hummed squeezing you in his arms "Thank you sweetheart"
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rzyraffek · 1 year
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Let’s say Micheal wanted a child, can you write something where Michaels wife/girlfriend gets pregnant with his child?
Love your writing btw!
Micheal Myers with Pregnant s/o
guy gets overprotective asf, like if you thought that he was protective before oh boi check him out now
Guy has no clue how to family
Like he will try to be good father figure for his future kid but like-Micheal didnt really have good parents either :/ he has no idea how "normal" parenting should look like
But he understands one thing-He loves his gf and he will try to lisen her out, mostly about her problems or needs. Gurl you crave icecream at 3am? watch him rob gas station for you babe B). You're favorite necklece broke? See him bring litteraly almost the same one next day
Talk to him some stuff isn't so obvious for him, especially family stuff, better to be straight forward and just tell him what you need and how you feel
In late pregnancy stage he will litteraly be like "hold up no way im leting you do all this stuff you better rest queen" or something idk, but for real he would get a little stressed when the baby starts to kick. Kinda creeps him out tbh
If Myers and S/o will work hard on comunication and undestanding each other i think kid will be fine (as fine as kid might be with serial killer dad ofc)
oh and if its like suprise pregnancy, when you tell him he will just freeze for good minute and leave. NOT FOVERER DON'T WORRY my man just needs to go outside to rethink his life choices
He seems like guy who doesn't really want kids but if his gf really wants some lil gremlins in house ig he will think about it
just dont make him babysit while you at work cuz he will fail miserably
(also its gf, not wife cuz for legal reasons he can't really get married cuz hes litteral serial killer :0 but they litteraly act like old couple most of time) Also shout out to google translator for fixing like 298491041grammar issues I made in this post
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fornasedensgudar · 6 months
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Hii 🤗 Hope you are well. I love your art! Will definitely get a print or two when I get the chance.
I was wondering if you would tell me (your vision) about Sigyn and Hela?
Sigyn has been with me for some time now, and though she doesn’t communicate much, I feel very connected to her. Through her I had a couple of meaningful encounters with Loki, even though I don’t work with him directly. I would like to strengthen my bond to her but not sure how.
Hela recently made herself known in things I’d been carrying for easily over a year. It never occurred to me that she was there until she came out almost shouting. I feel like she’s expecting me to give her her due but I don’t know what to offer her.
I’m hoping that hearing about other pagan’s ideas and relationships to these goddesses might help me get a clue.
Thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful day ✨
Hi 😀 thank you Im doing good. And thank you, always warms my heart that so manny pepole seemes to like what I do ❤️
Ok sure thing. I dont work with Sigyn much but perspectives are good.
So Sigyn. For me shes a goddess of strenght in tuff times, a goddess of strengt and light in the dark. This is also why for me she is included during Disablot, when the nights are long and the the world still cold, to find strength in the one that stod for endless nights awaiting light and reelife.
I find her also as a goddess of victory, makes sense do to her name meaning "female friend of victory". I find her surprisingly innocent compared to her husband, with a good nature, but very choosy of who she helps. Like, less active. I love that you also, just like me, finds her also not comunicating much haha. In short I see her, as a burning start, The one that burns the britghtes in the darkest moments. Idk if this helpes sense I dont work with her much, but hope its of some help.
Idk what would would be the perfect offering for you to give her, its more what the offerings means to you that matters, the symbolic meaning.
But I offer her just good foood, bread, baked goods and a lot of drinks, wine, mead, honey water and hard alcohol. But try what feels right for you.
But if i was you, I say, maybe the best thing you can give her is your time.
She is one of the least talked about goddesses and with not that manny who do rituals to her often, most pepole are all about her husband or Thor or Odin and Freya. So I say, just sit down in a Nice place and think and feel, dont expect her to comunicate a lot or something grand or mind blowing magical thing. But just sitt and be, and have her as your focus. Let that time and moment and space, be a offering to the one all to manny forgotten.
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And then we have Hela. Or as I call her, Hel.
Hel I worked with a lot. For me she is maybe not death it self, but death centric, or the one that rules desth. I see her as the one that watch over bones and graves, queen of the dead and to whom all shall go to sooner or latter. Like the one that watch over those in the grave and your ancestors. As well as her being a direct line to them.
When I hold rites to her around Alvablot, I often wear a wodden or ceramic mask I made, something other local hesthens sometimes do as well, but a cloth works just as fine to hide your face. Its to honor her during the blot while also protect yourself and not bring death in to your life. We also have a statue of her in the Temple year around, but coverd her up with a cloth, do to the whole temple just feeling diffrent and well, full of death after we put her statue there. But I dont see her as bad or evil. More of a, loving embrace, like a wathfull kind hug that I one day get to trully feel. So its not that Im afraid of her, just carefull and respectfull of her.
Its hard to describe without getting to personal. But I hope you get it.
To her I often decorate the altar with dead colourfull leafs, a lot of candels and bones and teeth and animal parts. Offerings to her may include dried flowers, something ones alive but now dead, yeat still remaining its beauty. As well mead, wine, baked goods, candy, fruits and meat from the hunt.
A thing that I do tho, thats not really for her but that I like to do, is happening soon tbh.
Around all souls night/all saints night here in Sweden when the graveyeards are filled with candels, I go supper dupper late and often also the night after. Like when there is no one there but like 1000 candels are lit. I just calmly walk around and relit each and every candle that for some reason or other gone out during that one night. Someone was there earlier so the person is belloved and special to someone. I dont light my own on strangers graves, but I make sure that all those candels put there with love and sorrow get to burn to the very end and ligt up the night for both the dead and the living. Its not for everyone, but its a thing for me.
You also get to see a bunch of spooky stuff if you are lucky haha.
I find it intresting that you find her as shouting, I see her more as quiet and always in controll, with a calm in mind. Not in form tho. Thats more loud. My fiance who do a lot of Sejdr work describe her as flashes. Not half a corps and half a healthy woman. But like if you were in a room of blinkning lights and she go from looking dead to looking alive over and over again, no one of those forms was true to her being, because she is fully both at the same time, the living death.
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Now you dont have to do it the way I do. Try things out and dont be afraid. Try the offerings I give her if you like, but its ok to just experiment and see what works for you.
And as always, the way I see them is not absolut or "the true way". Everyone see them and work with them diffrent and I always want pepole to try to find what works for themself. But I hope my perspektive was of any help.
Sorry about my english btw, engelska är inte alls mitt bästa eller mitt första språk och dyslexi är en riktig jävel haha.
And thank you again, and I hope you also have a lovley day ❤️
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pizzapartyma · 11 months
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[Trans] L’ Officiel Hommes Thailand 
“opinion; i like it when they referring themselves as po/mile 🥰”
The line between personal space and public space
😼: in my persecutive, po thinks that everything has to be exchanged. For po being here , i have to accept the fact that i need to exchange some personal space. In some part, po needs to keep some space for my own happiness.  For that reason po didn’t feel uncomfortable or too close to fans. Po knows that there’s no way round we get everything we want because at the end po want to meet them all. Po want to meet them, they want to meet po that’s natural. Po just living po life. if anything feel more like invading, just have a conversation adjusting it. 
🎸: Mile want to use the word “adequacy”, it can be used in everything. For sth called personal space, i think no matter which industry if you’re known you have to give up some of personal space. But in some part, mile wouldn’t be able to show everyone everything unless mile can’t live my life. So, adequacy is very important. It’s hard to tell because its about comunicating to each others. Some ppl giving mile this much and mile thinks that its too much OR mile giving them back and they think it’s not enough. Thats how balancing matter, must have to look carefully from case by case. If seeing it as big picture, it might be difficult to set a line. At the end having s1 who admiring/appreciating or respecting mile, should be sth that mile + fans are already happy about. 
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thigh riding - captain syverson
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Captain Syverson x Fem!Reader
KINKTOBER DAY 21 - THIGH RIDING
18+ ONLY! MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!!!
TW: thigh riding, use of pet names (bug, darlin’, sweet girl, big daddy), unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), daddy kink. If I missed anything please let me know and I’ll update the warnings. 
You start inconspicuously at first, just a squirm here and there. Sy thick thighs radiated scorching heat beneath, searing the backs of your thighs through his utility pants. You had really tried, honestly. Sy had manhandled you onto his lap about 20 minutes into the movie, his hands planted firmly on your hips, his thumbs rubbing little circles on your spine as he focused on whatever rom-com you’d chosen for the night. So Julia Roberts flick you’d seen a million times because it always inevitably ended up this way. One of you would tease the other until they broke and it looked as if Sy had taken it on upon himself to take the lead in that category tonight. 
Every so often he’d lean forward and press a kiss to your shoulder or your neck after he’d been home late every night and gone early in the morning, you’d barely been touched by him all week. Clearly Sy was taking of this fact, teasing you with touches and jostling his thigh every now and again, the second time he’d done it. He’d conveniently slotted his thigh between your legs. Now all he had to do was flex his thigh and it rubbed against your clit. 
You knew he could probably feel the wet spot that was rapidly spreading across the front of your panties. Once again he flexed his thigh and you could no longer contain yourself as a moan spilled from your mouth as he flexed his thigh and bounced it up and down. 
A deep rumbly chuckle escaped from Sy as he tightened his grip on your hips. “Took you long enough to break it, didn't it, bug?”
“Daddy,” you whined, bracing yourself on his free thigh. 
“What is it, darlin’. Tell Big Daddy what you need.”
You whine again, starting to rock against his thigh. “I need to cum.”
“Oh yeah? You need to come little darlin? How about you make yourself cum right now my thigh? Can you do that for daddy?” 
You whine again, rocking yourself faster. 
He grips your hips, forcing you to stop. “Darling you need to use your words.”
“Yes! Yes, I can!”
“Good girl,” he purrs into your ear, kissing the sweet spot on your neck. 
You can feel him rock hard against your ass as his grip moves from your hips to your tits, cupping them through your shirt as you resume your previous rocking, whimpering as the cotton your panties pulled tight against your folds, providing much needed friction. 
“That's it, darlin’, I can feel you making a mess on my thigh,” he murmurs, pinching at your nipples through the fabric of your dress. 
“Daddy, I’m close,” you whine softly, humping his thigh. 
“Cum for me, sweetheart. Cum for daddy,” he says sternly and even through the haze of lust that has settled itself upon you, you know that its an order. 
You cry out as you cum, crumbling forward in Sy’s hands as you tremble with your climax. 
Sy pulls you to him and cradles you to his chest, cooing in your ear as he kisses your cheek. “Such a good girl for me, aren’t you?”
You nod, turning your head and meeting his eyes. 
He tilts your chin gently, capturing your lips in a scruff coated kiss. “Sweet girl, let’s move this to the bedroom and I’ll take good care of you.”
“Yes please,” you whisper, relaxing into his warmth, safe and secure in his arms. 
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mimiteru · 1 month
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I ACCDITENTLY PUT MY NITARA HC OUT OF THE DRAFTS WHAT I DIDNT EVEN FINISHED WRITING 😭😭
dude this is what happens when you have shity internet Dx i know there was a option to edit but before i realize that i deleted the post 🔫 idc anymore i'm gonna write it again
how tf does this app work i'm sorry mutual who reposted my draftJDKS
ANYWAYS MY NITARA DELULU HC LETS GO
tw: death of a character, mentions of vomit
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• Remember Kahil? You know the vampire who once was user of the datusha/kriss and bc of it's power he kill most of the Vaeternus, moments later he commits suicide trapping the sword with him?
Well lets put more emotional damage and say this was a relative to Nitara, maybe a brother why not
(i rewatched the Nitara intros and her mother also died damn, that's rough buddy)
they had a really strong bond, so Nitara was broken and devastated by his brother's tragic end, and after a long time of grief, this "revelation" as she would say, came to mind. From this time she tries so hard to save her so no Vaeternus could face the fate of death
And you know, "trying" is a strong word, the coven at this point are kinda tired of her all the time visiting them and bringing her failed ideas
The coven are like: "yeah yeah you know why don't you go and try to take over outworld or something" as a joke just to get rid of her.
And she did go to Outworld so..
• Now, her voice... It's not the best, it's so monotone and she doesnt realize it
But now i can't stop thinking about her with a valley girl accent, the way she would say the word "like" repetitively in one sentence is insane
There were times when Havik just rip of his own ears to not hear her, she talks a lot
She likes to do monologues, i feel like it's normal for Vaeternus to have this... Theatrical way of speaking, that goes on and on
Nitara does not know how to lie, if you dig enough she would accidentally say the truth or let out her plans without knowing
• At first the interactions Nitara has with Rain were harsh but later he starts to understand the big problem that the Vaeternus were living in, so maybe these two will be allies in the future??? Please??
Tho at this point she is trying to persue ppl to help her cause, whether it's from the good guys or the bad guys, and not even god itself wants to make a solution to help the Vaeternus yeah she's fucked
With the fictional dead family i create around her it makes a little bit of sense when she's trying to make Smoke a vampire too, Nitara sees herself since the guy also lost his mom and sister
or instead he sees her brother in Smoke, which is kinda creepy and dark but thats how my girl copes <33 /j
• The Vaeternus have a way to go to Earthrealm from centuries ago, this could mean that the vampires have more noledge of human traditions, slangs and even technology than Outworld does
This can also includes Earthrealm pop culture, influencing the way they dress or act, there could be Vaeternus who moved to Earthrealm permanently, hiding in the shadows
Imagine miss girl tries to make chitchat with Havik, Darrius and Sareena making a Earthrealm references and everyone just look at her like "wtf r u talkin about?"
This is chronically online comunicating with normal people
Nitara finds Earthrealm movies about vampires fascinating by the way of how they portrayed her kind, bc sometimes those movies are so wrong and sometimes they are so accurate its scary
She finds the "familiar" character to be very useful, she will have it in mind and maybe find one of those to help her look for food and other plans
• There was a time when the vaeternus didnt need blood to maintain their survival (idk if it was on Liu Kang or Geras intros) and there was were other things they could have feed on, but little by little vampirism began to be part of their nature that it was impossible to change their ways, condemning their own species.
Trying to get back to a normal diet probably would take another millenia
And if they eat or drink something no blood related i imagine them vomiting A LOT and with a horrible stomach pain, not the best moment for a vampire
• Her eyes glow in the dark
Once Nitara tried to sleep upside down bc she saw it in one of those movies, and she find it so comfortable??? It's kinda embarrasing for her but she keeps sleeping on that position from now on
She's a failure, she's a loser, and i think that's beautiful
Yeah i don't have more to say, also
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WWDITS MENTIONED‼️‼️
Yeah that's it bye
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barbaralunar · 7 months
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twice's brief chart reading
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so i made a video (in portuguese) interpreting a few points on twice's debut chart and decided to transform the script in a proper text here.
a quick look at twice's history and you will discover that they became viral a few months after they debuted and since that the group has huge numbers in plays, awards, popularity, profit and everything. it's even considered the sucessors of SNSD.
with no surprise we see, then, Venus, Jupiter and Mars all in Virgo in the 2nd house. althought, Venus and Jupiter are in debility, they're still benefics and are conjuct and applying to Mars, giving it strenght and expanding its action in the map.
2nd house is everything money related, profit being one of them. for a k-pop group being popular = making money, especially if the company behind them do a good management. and that is the case of twice.
Venus in this placement reinforces the gaining from arts and women, and it rules (by exaltation) the 8th in pisces, also ruled by Jupiter. so we can see another indication of profit gaining whereas the 8th also represents money that came from others.
the applying conjuction of Jupiter to Mars by only a degree of diference expande Mars action, the money making. it rules the 4th in scorpio and the mid heaven in the 9th in aries. 4th represents your roots and your home, converting in the popularity of the group at its origin country.
3 of the members are japanese, and it contributed heavely in the sucess of the group in japan. they have full albums in japonese, media strategies and content all aimed to the japonese audience. the 9th can signify foreing matters and the the mid heaven there reinforce the popularity and money making in other countries.
(note: next 10/20 the group will enter their 9h profection and seems the company is planning on invest in the foreing market, besides japan. also, i know its commum for kpop groups to dedicate themselves to japanese music maket, but the thing is twice is really huge there.)
Venus is the ruler the 10th in taurus and the 3rd house in libra. in libra we have the Sun and Mercury. Venus and Mercury are in a mutual reception, and it mitigates a bit of Venus fall in virgo. but it also translates the popularity throught their talents, voice and looks, let us be honest here.
and they all sing well, for real! truth be told, that's a rare thing in a group, we all know this. Mercury is one the represents of voice and its being supported by Venus sign, 3rd is a house of comunication also and media (shy shy shy viral). 10th is a house of sucess also.
but not everything is flowers. the group's Moon is also debilitated in the the 6th house in capricorn. the 6th is fucking hard work as hell, health and rotine. and the Moon trines all the planets in the 2nd. so they work very very much and very very hard: an album per year, mv's, ententerneiment content, media content, tours, side and solo projects, singles, ost's, promotion and more, everything at the same time, non stoping.
all this work contributes on making money? yes! but also contributes to health questions. few years back, 2 members had to be in a hiatus because of mental and physical issues. this 6th house moon rules the 12th where we can see the struggle with mental issues and may be the reason of the collapse of the group if not continued to be cared off over time.
we know for a company to allowing a member to take a hiatus like this and be open about why is kind excepcional. and it seems the group is being taken cared of and i hope it's for real, you know?
so i hope you guys like it! sorry for any mistakes and nonsense sentences, english it's not my first language. feel free to add more interpretations as this is a deeper text derived from a short script. if you are a fan, i'd love your feedback too. thanks a lot!
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hi daisy!! i need to ask about it's jail time!!
heeey lia
so this is a very old idea where barty and reg have been a thing all their lives cuz their parents r criminals together but when they get murdered and the cops come running barty takes the blame (they were already being initiated in it, Sirius left and Regulus hated it so Barty usually got his hands dirty for him) so he goes to jail and to protect reg he sends him to the college sirius ran off too, so this would go over barty's time in prison where he meets Evan and tries to survive in there and reg in college finally learning what freedom is and meeting james but they're still holding on to each other cuz they've always been each other's safe place, but its hard to comunicate while Barty's locked up trying to run things from there and keep reg safe and there's these weird new feelings they might be having for new people and the guilt over it
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lloydfrontera · 2 years
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i am being haunted by a kimi no na wa (your name) au with suho and og!lloyd where they keep swapping bodies and have been doing it for years.
like maybe they start doing it when they're kids and by some miracle they manage to keep it... mostly a secret. meaning no one actually really knows what's going but their families are aware something strange is going on with them. but because both refuse to say anything they can't actually do anything about it?
and after the initial freak out (because there would be a massive freak out by both of them they’re kids of course they’d freak out) they start comunicating in little hidden notes, maybe eventually a journal they keep on themselves at all time, so they can go on with the other’s life as naturally as possible when they swap.
but of course as the years pass, its not longer the other’s life, it just their lifes. after all its a constant switch, every few days suho has to live as lloyd and lloyd as suho, so the distinction gets more and more blurry with each swap. they’re still separate people obviously. they just happen to share bodies, names, parents, friends, home, etc. y’know, normal.
(read more because this got really long)
og!lloyd is still sort of an asshole because no amount of good parenting or not can change if someone is deeply unsatisfied with their life and chooses to take it out on everyone around them. but being able to go to seoul and experiment a world so different from his does soften him up quite a bit. also having to actually take responsability of something as he does while having to live suho’s life, eg, going to school, doing the military service, helping their parents with the bills whenever he could, does much to shape him up as a decent person.
he’s still rude and moody but he’s no longer abusive to julien and the staff and he and javier are in,,, not especially good terms, but also don’t outright despise each other. the only weird thing is that people seem to assume they’re friends? despite them basically ignoring each other pretty much always? it’s only mildly annoying so lloyd doesn’t pay much attention to it.
and suho gets to go to a place that’s pretty much out of a fantasy book (which,,,, little does he know) where he gets to learn something that’s basically magic, a little brother who adores when his big brother pays him attention, and two more parents that care so much for him and are so enthusiastic about everything he tries out.
also he gets to spend time with javier who’s really cool even if he’s a bit younger than suho and he thinks they’re friends, because javier always smiles when he calls out to him and they spent a lot of time together which is nice because he doesn’t have a lot of friends back in seoul.
of course everything starts going downhill when suho’s parents get in debt. things start getting a bit tense between lloyd and suho because they sorta blame each other for not looking out for their parents but ultimately they agree they’ll just have to do better at school and maybe look for a part time job to help out.
and then their parents die.
and they’re both just absolutely devastated. lloyd especially because he was in korea when it happened, he was right there and he couldn’t stop it and he’s all alone and he’s going to have to tell suho with a fucking note that their parents died and he won’t even be able to comfort him because they’re a dimension apart.
it’s really rough.
and back in the frontera estate, everyone knows something is wrong, because the young master looks like someone died and either looks on the verge of tears or like he will start tearing everything apart. and their family tries their best to comfort them but it's hard to comfort someone when they don’t even know what happened (and they won’t say anything because what could they even say how do they even start explaining what they’ve been doing for almost a decade now how much they’ve lied how much they’ve hidden and they both agree its not the right moment)
and javier keeps looking at lloyd with something that is probably compassion but it feels too much like pity for him to handle and he wants to scream and yell at him until he goes away but settles on locking himself in his room for the rest of the day.
and when suho comes out the next morning, javier takes a look at him and just opens his arms, letting suho walk into them and hug him as long as he wants.
but time passes and things keep getting worse and worse for them back in seoul and because of it lloyd starts drinking when he’s in lorasia and it causes massive tension between him and suho, until it gets to the point that suho straight up asks javier to stop “him” the next time he sees “him” going for a drink. and despite being prepared to avoid all the awkward questions that’d probably get him, javier just stares at him for a moment before agreeing. so lloyd finally agrees to cut back from drinking as much, partially because their grades had started slipping because of him and part of him just refuses to give up on everything they had worked on for so long even if at times it feels useless.
and then their family gets in debt.
it’s all they can do to not have a massive freak out.
they’re both panicking because this feels way to reminiscent of what happened to their parents in seoul so they’re just a mass of nerves and anxiousness the entire time.
finally one day, lloyd can’t handle it anymore and sneaks out to go for a drink to the local pub.
and meanwhile suho tries to distract himself in their shitty goshiwon by reading a novel he found online and that caught his attention because the protagonist sort of looked like javier.
and then the real plot begins lmao
#the greatest estate developer#lloyd frontera#og lloyd frontera#kim suho#tged#afterwards it'll would be more or less the same? except they would keep swapping at really incovinient times aksjdklfsa#so it'd be like: one of them is in the middle of a really important fight or event. black out for a second. and then they're back in seoul.#and they have to wait days to know if the other managed to catch up in time to. y'know. not die and save the future of their family.#it's nervewracking for everyone involved#also the not at all subtle plot twist is that javier already knows#he's know since they were kids#he probably found their journal by accident and learned the truth#so now he only has to hear one word from either of them to know which one is it#he doesn't feel anything particularly strong about lloyd but he really likes suho#julien picks up on how javier acts and while he doesn't fully understand whats going on he pays attention so he knows when its safe to#approach his older brother because he also likes spending time with suho (who as an only child is thrilled to get a baby brother without#actually having to go through the baby stage lmao)#so because of all the changes in their personalities they don't struggle so much with their reputation and don't have to act like a thug#most of the time. they are still assholes tho asdjkadskl#just not complete hooligans#and finally we would skip [SPOILERS] the whole bit about lloyd being in hell and everything#oh and of course when they go to seoul they would absolutely go for whoever was stuck in there and bring him back with them#finally deciding to come clean with everyone about what was happening not so much because they want to#but because they simply dislike the idea of one of them being in seoul in their miserable life even more#so that's how the frontera family get a whole new son except they already had him he just needed a body of his own in this dimension#this got soooooooo long oh my god ajksdka#i talk a lot <3#kimi no na wa au#javier asrahan
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rainderthesomeone · 16 days
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Its official :>
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I know I've said it here and there on a few posts on transgender stuff, but its a official, I'm trans :D
TW: I talk about abuse and body dysphoria in this post, you dont have to read the rest, this section is just me sharing my experiences in my teenage years with a homophobic as hell republican as a father.
I've known for a while like ever since I was in Middle School, I had a really hard time fitting in with other girls, I tried making friends with them but they were all into make up and dress's and talking about boys and other stuff, I made at least one friend in middle school but they left me for a group of girly girls, and I wasn't interested in what they liked, I was into a lot of things they were not interested in, I was a huge nerd, I liked games, Godzilla, movie production, comics, marvel, star wars, fnaf, dinosaurs, bendy, (not saying girls dont like these things, girls can like anything guys :D women are amazing I know a lot of amazing girls now :>) nothing they liked and when they saw that they weren't interested in me anymore, but I connected with the guys a lot more, but they always saw me as the girl who tagged along and needed to be treated gently, at first I had no interest in the lgbtq community or the idea of being something else other than what I already was, I couldn't even really talk about, since the topic of gay and gender ideology wasn't allowed in the house I used to live in, my father hated gay people, said they were wired, and shouldn't be his words not mine "frolicking around and being queer" da hell dose that mean? im still baffled by that, he's also that kind man who thinks lesbians are cool and gay men shouldn't exist, it was that level of misogyny and homophobia, looking at it now, it was really disgusting and disturbing, but I was 12 I didn't know any better.
but than as I got older I became more aware, and started questioning things, I was 13 in my room, on my phone, and I found this artist who was drawing deltarune characters, deltarune was also a huge eye opener to the lgbtq comunity for me, since kris identified as none binary, but I found one of the oc's the artist made and they identified as A gender, and I was like whats that and looked into it more and more, and than I went from I dont know who or what I am, to maybe im a demi girl, maybe im A Gender, maybe im none binary and than boom, it clicked, I went with they/them/there's for a while, but I began to feel uncomfortable, by being refred to as her, she, I started hating wearing a braw and how scratchy and annoying it felt, I began hating my chest, I stopped wearing shorts due to my legs being abnormally hairy and that girls arent supposed to be hairy, at one point my dad was going to put me through a hole body hair removal process which would have removed all my body hair, and he was going to do it without me knowing, until my mother told me, she was the most supportive person I had while going through this, I was litteraly terrified to say no to my dad, but eventully he didint go through with it, but I still wasnt allowed to have body hair, every time we went shoe shopping he tried to get me pink shoes, and brands women would only use, we went on a cruise and we had to dress up, but I didint want to since I would have had to wear a dress, blue jeans were the only thing I had that was close to guy clothes, I wasnt allowed anything remotley masculine, only my mom would let me have products like old spice, and she took me guy clothe shopping but it had to be in secret from my father, who would hurt me and my mother if he found out, not physically well he would probably slap me, but only yell at my mother, which still wasnt good, eventully we left his sad ass, and now me and my mom live in a apartment together, and from there I could freely explore who I was, a month later I came out as trans to my mother right after we left, and im in therapy with an amazing therapist and I have amazing friends who dont fully understand but support me in every direction, only triggering thing Ive experinced so far was not being able to change my pronouns to he him lol, Curse you school bored! XD
anyway sorry for the lenghty slightly depressing post, I just wanted to share my story here since I have the platform to do so now, the freedom of speech is very rewarding and validating lol, origanlly this was going to be a post about "guys I got my first chest binder oh and btw im ftm" but I wanted to get this off my chest no pun intended and open myself up more on here, the trans comunity on tumblr has been amazing so far, especially the tf2 comunity on here, I truly feel welcomed and comfortable being here.
lot of grammar issues in here, grammars not my strong suit plus its 11 pm for me right now, im heading to bed lol, good night everyone!
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hello!! this is just a simple ask blog for my genshin oc's because i wanted to. heres little intros and how you can tell whos who. i get remembering names is hard so this post is pinned for your quick understanding. also images of faces putting here are not confirmed confirmed how they look, its just most recent pictures of them. lastly just pls plss ask anything i am brain rot ehehrjdbsjc
Liane: ace captain of the hydro archons guard. but works more as a scout. dosent have much power in the ranks because shes pretty new but shes pretty good at hand to hand combat and keeps the best interests of people at heart. shes a spunky softie that shows her truest affections through pranks, and helps negotiations between the protestors and the state by being a bridge to work on understandings. she also has a cryo vision and is a spear user, but because theres only one tumblr blue she gets orange cause thats also part of her color palet.
Arata: honnors judicial student, he is working on his academics to some day join the court as a judge. he is an admirable student, but dosent really get along with his class mates. all exept his ex class mate Liane. he seems very stand off-ish on the outside to others, but to those hes close to hes a kind, albeit blunt friend. hes great at keeping up with others jokes and pulling them down to earth, but also gets heavily flustered very easily if you hit him just right. hes the biggest negotiator in the revolution and uses his extensive knowledge of the law to argue for the people. he also uses the wording to bend and challange sentances that are unfair. hes also a electro sword user and so gets purple cause purple :>
Mary: also know as Mary Anne, or the pure archons lady, is the public head of church. she is hard to explain, not many people have gotten close enough to her to understand her true motives. what is known tho is that she is one of the deciders for anything that relates to the past hydro archons religion. she calculatws out most of her moves and dosent let anyone touch her unless she fully consents. the holy wall of pure flame she summons makes sure of that. when she assumed her position she swore her life to the old archon and to make sure the spirit of justice stayed true in fontaine. she also never expected to meet that said dead archon. with her heavy power with the church and influence on the state she gives leverage to the protesting side and keeps regular donations from the church to the poorer towns in fontaine. shes also a pyro catalyst therfore red yes.
Lucien: public leader of the revolution. aka a confused guy that woke up a few years ago and learned that hes living in a past archons body. hes just a guy that wants the best for people? and mabey to like, not have people wanting his head? hes pretty smart and when it comes to militaristic planning or board games but other that that dosent have many chances to aply his skills. he also dosent trust anyone exept for his 3 'concubines'(friends but needed to give them that title for their protection). as head of the revolution to the public he helps a lot with protests and comunicating the wants for the goverment to have and take into account. like less poluting in smaller towns water suplies and proper wages so people dont get arested for stealing food to survive. hes a hydro bow user so hes the one that actually gets the blue and hopefully mabey a nap at some point? let this boy get a break-
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raid3r-r4bbit · 7 months
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THE OC LONG LIST THAT MADE ME WANT TO CRY THINGIE!!!!!
@fuzzydreamin this was so much worse than i anticipated. IM TAGGING NOBODY BECAUSE I HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND SIT ON MY PORCH FOR 15 WHOLE MINUTES AFTER MY COMPUTER CRASHED AND I LOST THE WHOLE THING :D!!!!!)
HOWDY! AS of posting, I'm on my way to the airport and going to be traveling to wasteland weekend, and while my posting's already been a little erratic in the last few days its about to do that again lol. I might have time to do some stuff while hanging out at the airport and while in air, not sure about actually at the air bnb and shit, but whatever. so no promises, no guarantees, treat it like a Wishlist, drop an ask or two (fr idc) and i might draw something. I will even make memes. OK Das it for announcements
(Lmao i typed this whole thing up and then my computer fucking crashed, saving none of it, so take two ig.
Fair warning, I make more drug references than probably needed in this, and made a fun little list at the end for you all. There's def a bunch of spelling errors, sorry I dont have the time to fix it all. I've also jumbled details about all of them together because of overlap, so if you really want to know you have to read the whole goddamn thing) Ok have fun reading.
JOLT ✧˖°. PERSONAL $ Financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty ✚ Medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged / non-applicable ✪ Class/Caste: upper / middle / working / unsure / other ✔ Education: qualified / unqualified / studying / other ✖ Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but not caught yet / yes, but charges were dismissed ( The four of them aren't nessiciarily impoverished, or living in poverty, but it's hard to expand when you're either living in a small city or traveling in a small trailer, life isn't the worst, nobody's strugling to make ends meet (not that anyones charging them rent, though.) but at the same time, they arent living in some kind of mansion. Jolt mostly manages money in the group, and all together they do pretty well.
Jolt is muscular, but he tends to over do it with training and fighting, occasionally skipping meals, definitly fit though. there isn't much of a caste system within the story, you've either got someplace to stay or you dont.
Jolt, like the rest of them, hasnt had a "proper formal education", but he's the most well written of the group, able to read and write in both spanish and english, as well as being fluent in both. His mathmatical skills are enough to get by with, simple maths. He's also read a lot of history books in his free time, so he knows a suprising amount of US history, not that most of it matters anymore.
Most of the time, the crimes he's commited have been done in places where it doesnt really matter- around other raiders, killing people in arena style fights, ect. He's not got the stickiest hands, but he's swiped a few things in his life. Over all, he's intimidating and skilled enough to swipe stuff without gettign caught.)
✧˖°. FAMILY ◒ Children: had a child or children / has no children / wants children ◑ Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased/?????? ◔ Affiliation: orphaned / abandoned / adopted / found family / disowned / raised by birth parent(s) / not applicable (Jolt is worried about the idea of raising children in the wasteland without a solid comunity or stable way of life, and he's also concerned about his own addiction and behavior affecting them, but he enjoy the idea of being a parent and raising kids.
Before everythign happened, his family was a very close unit, definitly closer to his mother than his father, though. His father rough around the edges, but overall a good man. His mother wanted to make sure her kids were intelligent and capable, and enjoyed passing on information from her life, and her family, history, to them. His siblings and him were also quite close, often depeneding on him when his mother passed away.
Jolt's mother died when he was around 14-15, and his father passed away a few weeks before he turned 19, after which he left his siblings. Over time he eventually found himself tangled with a few people and groups but never really found a home until he was tangled with Bux, Keres, and Rikki. The four of them make up a somewhat weird but very close family.)
✧˖°. TRAITS + TENDENCIES ♦ extroverted / introverted / in-between ♦ disorganized / organized / in-between ♦ close-minded / open-minded / in-between ♦ calm / anxious / in-between ♦ disagreeable / agreeable / in-between ♦ cautious / reckless / in-between / highly contextual ♦ patient / impatient / in-between ♦ outspoken / reserved / in-between ♦ leader / follower / in-between ♦ empathetic / vicious bastard / in-between ♦ optimistic / pessimistic / in-between ♦ traditional / modern / in-between ♦ hard-working / lazy / in-between ♦ cultured / uncultured / in-between / unknown ♦ loyal / disloyal / unknown / highly contextual ♦ faithful / unfaithful / unknown ((yea im not explaining all of that))
✧˖°. BELIEFS ★ Faith: monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic ☆ Belief in Ghosts or Spirits: yes / no / don't know / don’t care / in a matter of speaking ✮ Belief in an Afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ✯ Belief in Reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ❃ Belief in Aliens: yes / no / don’t know / don't care ✧ Religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious ❀ Philosophical: yes / no / highly contextual ((spoilers?) Jolt's belief's are similar to Kere's somewhat pagan in nature, but also a bit alternative. One of his major beliefs is that most people are inherently evil, and people who claim they aren't are often far worse.)
✧˖°. SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION ❤ Sexuality: heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual ❥ Sex: sex-repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable / naive and clueless ♥ Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable / naive and clueless / romance suspicious ❣ Sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious ⚧ Potential Sexual Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all ⚧ Potential Romantic Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all (Jolt is demi Romantic and Pansexual, He doesnt really have a prefrence sexually, but romantically he isnt really insterested in dating women, (on top of not already being interested in dating.) He's previously been promiscuis, having hooks up and one night stands but mostly as a result of need or drunken mistakes. He's pretty tied to keres, however.)
✧˖°. ABILITIES ☠ Combat Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ≡ Literacy Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✍ Artistic Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✂ Technical Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none (Jolt has pretty extensive training and combat experience, and is likely not someone you want to pick a fight with, he does loose advantage in ranged combat, not being skilled with guns, and not being very fast and flexible, but he's pretty much gaurenteed to at least break limbs (at least ) in hand to hand combat.
There a few things he forgets how to spell, and occasionally forgets words in english/spanish, but nothing outside the normal relm of someone who's bilingul. He's decently literate though, and enjoys reading and writting.
Jolt paints fequently and paints things like aniamls and plants to catolauge them, writing down information as he learns about them, either for saftey, hunting, or foraging, sometimes even receipes. He's not super skilled at it, and struggles to draw people, but it's still a hobby of his.
He's skilled with things like cooking, construction, and he's pretty good at taking care of weapons/ maintaining them. he's not great with machinery, things like cars and what not, he is decent at wiring though, and can hot wire cars in case of emergency. )
✧˖°. HABITS ☕ Drinking Alcohol: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / alcoholic / former borderline alcoholic turned sober ☁ Smoking: tried it / trying to quit / quit / never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / chain-smoker ✿ Recreational Drugs: tried some / never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / addict ✌ Medicinal Drugs: never / no longer needs medication / some medication needed / frequently / to excess ☻ Unhealthy Food: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / binge eater $ Splurge Spending: never / sometimes / frequently / shopaholic ♣ Gambling: never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / compulsive gambler (Jolt isnt an alcholic in the same what your mom isnt an alcholic but drinks 2-3 glasses of wine every night, except it's whiskey or burbon. He doenst really drink to get drunk, maybe a little bit buzzed, tipsy at most, but over all just enjoys the warmth from alcohol.
Jolt smokes pretty regularly, often smelling like it too. Nicotine is one of the only things that helps his hands from trembling, but also makes it worse in the long run.
He's got pretty hardcore psycho addiction. while using he's either highly aggressive and manic, but often is subject to bad trips becoming emotional and mostly inconsolable. He also uses day tripper and marijuana, but less recreational and more medicinal, using them to manage his psycho addiction and mental health issues.
stimpacks, med x, rad away, rad x for all of them, jolt also uses buffout but like a pre-workout/training situation, often only taking half a dose. He also uses Calmex but as directed.
Jolt dies most of the cooking, cooking a lot of mexican and native dishes (or as close as he can get) so mostly things fluctiate from extremely healthy to very deep fried. He really enjoys spicy food more then sweet food, and his favorite foods are often served over rice, or fried. Some of his favorites are Pemmican (my mom made this a lot as a kid and its like a larabar with meat. highly reccomend), Tamales, and menudo (personally, i hate tripe, it makes me want to crawl in a hole and die, but my mom loves and says its very good for you.)
He's pretty stingy with money, budgeting everything, drugs, drinks, cigarettes, food, everything is included. Every so often he'll splurge on new spices or food, paint suplies, or on something as a surprise for Keres (which is usually new herbs or candles.) He also enjoys buying and trying unique cuts of food or veggies or meats he's never tried before.
as for gambling:
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gambled once, and vowed to never do it again. He does do betted fights, but he's rarely lost a fight, picking his opponents carefully.)
KERES (im switchin up the placement bite my ass i dont care) ✧˖°. PERSONAL $ Financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty ✚ Medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged / non-applicable ✪ Class/Caste: upper / middle / working / unsure / other ✔ Education: qualified / unqualified / studying / other ✖ Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but not caught yet / yes, but charges were dismissed (Keres is a little chubby, but not really over weight, just kinda thicc, but over all they are healthy.
Keres has proably had the best education of the group, learning both "traditional" subjects and also more alternative once (natrual medicines, and other things)
Surprisingly, Keres isnt really into the whole stealing things thing, and will pretty much only use violence as a means to protect themselves or their friends.)
✧˖°. FAMILY ◒ Children: had a child or children / has no children / wants children ◑ Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased ◔ Affiliation: orphaned / abandoned / adopted / found family / disowned / raised by birth parent(s) / not applicable (Keres isn't sure if they want kids, or can even have them. Keres is intersex, and with their specific condition it isnt impossible, just highly unlikely. As for wanting kids, keres hasn't really been around enough children to know if that's what they want, basically raising Rikki and taking care of Bux pretty much fufills that need for them.
Keres had a close but strained relationship with their family, their parents being strict, but not rough or hateful. They chose to leave after taking in Rikki, seeing that their family wasnt really capable of feeding more people. Keres has five other siblings, none of which they're particularly close with. Over all like the rest of the group, its mostly a found family type situation.)
✧˖°. TRAITS + TENDENCIES ♦ extroverted / introverted / in-between ♦ disorganized / organized / in-between ♦ close-minded / open-minded / in-between ♦ calm / anxious / in-between ♦ disagreeable / agreeable / in-between ♦ cautious / reckless / in-between / highly contextual ♦ patient / impatient / in-between ♦ outspoken / reserved / in-between ♦ leader / follower / in-between ♦ empathetic / vicious bastard / in-between ♦ optimistic / pessimistic / in-between ♦ traditional / modern / in-between ♦ hard-working / lazy / in-between ♦ cultured / uncultured / in-between / unknown ♦ loyal / disloyal / unknown / highly contextual ♦ faithful / unfaithful / unknown ((yea im not explaining all of that))
✧˖°. BELIEFS ★ Faith: monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic ☆ Belief in Ghosts or Spirits: yes / no / don't know / don’t care / in a matter of speaking ✮ Belief in an Afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ✯ Belief in Reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ❃ Belief in Aliens: yes / no / don’t know / don't care ✧ Religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious ❀ Philosophical: yes / no / highly contextual (again, very pagan like, but keres holds more beliefs than Jolt, believing things like almost anything pre war, with some exceptions (mostly the trailer and shoes if needed, other vehicles, and some simple things like abandoned tins, jars ,mugs ect.) are inherently evil and useless, and that items that are prewar are not to be used.
They spend a lot of time meditating, or crafting spells for the others, things like talismans and pocket spells.
Their over all belief is a bit similar to traditional Native American beliefs, celtic and/or norse paganism, and a few other things that have, like everything else in the wasteland, evolved or changed over time.)
✧˖°. SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION ❤ Sexuality: heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual/Other ❥ Sex: sex-repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable / naive and clueless ♥ Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable / naive and clueless / romance suspicious ❣ Sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious ⚧ Potential Sexual Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all ⚧ Potential Romantic Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all
(Keres is androsexual, preferring men/masculine individuals.)
✧˖°. ABILITIES ☠ Combat Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ≡ Literacy Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✍ Artistic Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✂ Technical Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none (not traditonally trained in combat, but decently skilled, enough to defend themselves or others, or potentially ward off potential threats.
Keres is mostly blind, having severe cataracts in both eyes. they could read previously, and with some aid still can. Jolt and Rikki often sit down and rewrite books using extra pressure so that keres can read the indents (like braille but none of them know it.) have several books they can use. Other wise, they are literate. they also know some spanish, not enough to be considered fluent, but enough to hold private conversations with Jolt right in fron to rikki and Bux.
Keres isnt the most technically skilled, they can sew decently well, can crochet and knit at alarming speed for someone with little to no vision, and again, despite being blind, makes a decent medic.)
✧˖°. HABITS ☕ Drinking Alcohol: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / alcoholic / former borderline alcoholic turned sober ☁ Smoking: tried it / trying to quit / quit / never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / chain-smoker ✿ Recreational Drugs: tried some / never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / addict ✌ Medicinal Drugs: never / no longer needs medication / some medication needed / frequently / to excess ☻ Unhealthy Food: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / binge eater $ Splurge Spending: never / sometimes / frequently / shopaholic ♣ Gambling: never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / compulsive gambler (Keres drinks occasionally with the others, but otherwise rarely drinks. they enjoy the taste of alcohol, but they dont enjoy the feeling of being drunk, or getting disoriented. On occasion, they may get a little tipsy, provided someone is there to help them get back home.
They enjoy the smell of cigarette smoke on other people, but not the taste of inhaling smoke. they've smoked before, but never really enjoyed it.
Keres smokes a lot of weed, but also has a decently high tolerance to it, rarely actually getting high. They dont have a lot of anxiety but they seem to be a bit inattentive without it. They also use Jet, a lot, it helps again from being disassociated, or over stimulated, using it to regulate themselves.
Most medicinal medicines keres uses are once they've made themselves, and are usually tinctures, teas or topical ointments. Keres loves anything Jolt cooks, being unable to cook themselves, rikki being unable to handle spices very well and Bux incinerating everything he "cooks". His style of cooking is nearly identical to their families' and Jolt's curiosity for trying new receipies is exciting to keres, as it mean flavor and textural variety. They enjoy savory and bitter foods, and also fermented dishes. Keres doesn't really have any particularly favorite dishes, but anything with seafood, jerky, or fried is likely to be enjoyed. All that being said, they won't eat anythign pre-war. Probably for the best.
Keres is not allowed to buy things. They will spend all their money on candles or yarn.
Keres has never had in interest in gambling, but is inexplicably good at dominoes.)
RIKKI ✧˖°. PERSONAL $ Financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty ✚ Medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged / non-applicable ✪ Class/Caste: upper / middle / working / unsure / other ✔ Education: qualified / unqualified / studying / other ✖ Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but not caught yet / yes, but charges were dismissed (Rikki in on the underweight side of things, being incredibly thin. her anxiety makes it oftenndifficult to eat of keep food down. She's had no education, and Keres and Jolt have attempted to teach her how to read and write, with very little success. Jolt often sits down with her, making little work sheets for her. She picked up math pretty quickly however, and enjoys doing the various math problems the pair have her work out. Rikki is a little bit of a kelpto, and her small size and bubbly personality make it easy for her to get away with taking things, caught or not.)
✧˖°. FAMILY
◒ Children: had a child or children / has no children / wants children ◑ Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased/unknown ◔ Affiliation: orphaned / abandoned / adopted / found family / disowned / raised by birth parent(s) / not applicable (Rikki is scared at the thought of having children. It's not that she doesnt enjoy children, it's just the idea of the entire proccess is traumatic for her.
Rikki doesn't know if she has siblings, She thinks she has a brother or a cousin. She knows she has a father, but she knows very little about him. the relationship between them is nonexsistent.)
✧˖°. TRAITS + TENDENCIES ♦ extroverted / introverted / in-between ♦ disorganized / organized / in-between ♦ close-minded / open-minded / in-between ♦ calm / anxious / in-between ♦ disagreeable / agreeable / in-between ♦ cautious / reckless / in-between / highly contextual ♦ patient / impatient / in-between ♦ outspoken / reserved / in-between ♦ leader / follower / in-between ♦ empathetic / vicious bastard / in-between ♦ optimistic / pessimistic / in-between ♦ traditional / modern / in-between ♦ hard-working / lazy / in-between ♦ cultured / uncultured / in-between / unknown ♦ loyal / disloyal / unknown / highly contextual ♦ faithful / unfaithful / unknown ((yea im not explaining all of that))
✧˖°. BELIEFS ★ Faith: monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic ☆ Belief in Ghosts or Spirits: yes / no / don't know / don’t care / in a matter of speaking ✮ Belief in an Afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ✯ Belief in Reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ❃ Belief in Aliens: yes / no / don’t know / don't care ✧ Religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious ❀ Philosophical: yes / no / highly contextual (Rikki doesnt hold an particular beliefs, but enjoys watching/listeing to Keres and Jolt talk about things, and occasioanlly participates, enjoying having her palms read, or using tarot cards with keres, or listening to jolt ramble about nature while they forage together.)
✧˖°. SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION ❤ Sexuality: heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual ❥ Sex: sex-repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable / naive and clueless ♥ Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable / naive and clueless / romance suspicious ❣ Sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious ⚧ Potential Sexual Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all ⚧ Potential Romantic Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all (Rikki is Aceflux, she fluctates through various states, but over all reamains asexual, and is sexually replused. She isnt oppsed to the idea of being romantic with someone, but is often to anxious to persue a relationship.)
✧˖°. ABILITIES ☠ Combat Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ≡ Literacy Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✍ Artistic Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✂ Technical Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none (She isnt the best in an actual fight, but she's a phenominal sniper.
Rikki is surprisngly good at math, but also not very great at reading.
She can maybe draw some stick figures, but enjoys doodling with Bux.
Rikki is great at sewing, and also extremely talented at maintaining and fixing guns, and other mechanical weapons.)
✧˖°. HABITS ☕ Drinking Alcohol: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / alcoholic / former borderline alcoholic turned sober ☁ Smoking: tried it / trying to quit / quit / never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / chain-smoker ✿ Recreational Drugs: tried some / never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / addict ✌ Medicinal Drugs: never / no longer needs medication / some medication needed / frequently / to excess ☻ Unhealthy Food: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / binge eater $ Splurge Spending: never / sometimes / frequently / shopaholic ♣ Gambling: never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / compulsive gambler (Over all, most subsance use on her end is pretty casual, rikki basically enjoying her freinds being around her and partaking a little bit here and there, or enjoying a drink on a nice after noon. She's the "designated driver" who cant actually drive.
Rikki is a very picky eater, typically subsiding off of simple sandwiches, or soups that are made specifically because of her squeamish nature to texturally adventurous foods, and she cant handle spicy foods to save her life.
Rikki likes to buy herself nice things sometimes, occasionally going overboard and buying mostly uselss trinkets.
She's a pretty decent gambler, and most of her money is made gambling people who clearly aren't great at what they're trying to do.)
BUX
✧˖°. PERSONAL $ Financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty ✚ Medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged / non-applicable ✪ Class/Caste: upper / middle / working / unsure / other ✔ Education: qualified / unqualified / studying / other ✖ Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but not caught yet / yes, but charges were dismissed (Other than the excessive drug use and munchies, Bux's pretty active, and stays pretty thin. He's got a good bit of muscle, and he sometimes has a little chub, but he's definitley not as fit as he could be.
He was in school for a bit before his parents divorced, he father then pulling him out of school to work on the farm. Bux has probably the stickiest fingers of the group, he could steal an entire cart of stuff and not only would you not see him do it, youd have no idea where any of it went. )
✧˖°. FAMILY
◒ Children: had a child or children / has no children / wants children ◑ Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased ◔ Affiliation: orphaned / abandoned / adopted / found family / disowned / raised by birth parent(s) / not applicable (He's not keen on the idea of having kids. he'd rather avoid them entierly.
He's got a complex relationship with most family members. He doesnt resent his mother, but he's upset with her for not taking him with her when she and walter divorced. Then she married Perry. Perry's great, super nice, and seems like he actually enjoy's Bux's enjoyment of machines and tattoos. But he still had two kids with his mom and didnt think to invite him over even once.
His two sisters adore him, having an older brother who got in trouble for sneeking out and hanging out with a bunch of raiders seems cool to them. He however, does not want to spend time with them. He doesnt hate them, but he feels a twang of envy and sometimes guilt everytime he sees them.)
✧˖°. TRAITS + TENDENCIES ♦ extroverted / introverted / in-between ♦ disorganized / organized / in-between ♦ close-minded / open-minded / in-between ♦ calm / anxious / in-between ♦ disagreeable / agreeable / in-between ♦ cautious / reckless / in-between / highly contextual ♦ patient / impatient / in-between ♦ outspoken / reserved / in-between ♦ leader / follower / in-between ♦ empathetic / vicious bastard / in-between ♦ optimistic / pessimistic / in-between ♦ traditional / modern / in-between ♦ hard-working / lazy / in-between ♦ cultured / uncultured / in-between / unknown ♦ loyal / disloyal / unknown / highly contextual ♦ faithful / unfaithful / unknown ((yea im not explaining all of that))
✧˖°. BELIEFS ★ Faith: monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic ☆ Belief in Ghosts or Spirits: yes / no / don't know / don’t care / in a matter of speaking ✮ Belief in an Afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ✯ Belief in Reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care / in a manner of speaking ❃ Belief in Aliens: yes / no / don’t know / don't care ✧ Religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious ❀ Philosophical: yes / no / highly contextual (jesus himself could decend from heaven and bless this boy personally and he still wouldnt believe, but he swears up an down he's seen mothman.)
✧˖°. SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION ❤ Sexuality: heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual ❥ Sex: sex-repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable / naive and clueless ♥ Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable / naive and clueless / romance suspicious ❣ Sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious ⚧ Potential Sexual Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all ⚧ Potential Romantic Partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all (he's bi, leaning prefrence towards women.)
✧˖°. ABILITIES ☠ Combat Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ≡ Literacy Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✍ Artistic Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none ✂ Technical Skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none (Bux is not well trained in combat (despite Jolt's attempts.) but is still pretty skilled. Mostly melee, and using his terain to his benefit, prefering to ambush or corner people.
Bux can read, just not well or quickly; on top of needing to focus to read, he has no ability to focus, so he often seems illierate, but he's just a little stupid. He (and Rikki) only speak english, so hearing jolt constant swearing in spanish, or jolt and keres talking "serect older adult stuff" right in front of them is frustrating. Rikki's tried to pick up spanish, but picking it up from two affulent people (who aren't trying to teaching you) is harder then it looks (sounds?); Bux on the other hand, has chosen to ignore it.
Jolt is normally the one considered the artist of the group, and sure, when it comes to drawing plants and animals, he's better than Bux, but when drawing people Bux is usually better. Bux likes making more abstract desgins, anyways. He's maybe not the best with paint and paper, but he can tattoo something else.
On a technically level (on all levels except physical) Bux is pretty impressive. with machines, anyways. He seems to speak to the hardware, and know where it goes. software is a little trickier for him, which isnt saying much cause you could probably hand him a peice of technology he's never seen or heard of and be able to fix it after about five minutes of inspecting. ✧˖°. HABITS ☕ Drinking Alcohol: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / alcoholic / former borderline alcoholic turned sober ☁ Smoking: tried it / trying to quit / quit / never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / chain-smoker ✿ Recreational Drugs: tried some / never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / addict ✌ Medicinal Drugs: never / no longer needs medication / some medication needed / frequently / to excess ☻ Unhealthy Food: never / special occasions / sometimes / frequently / binge eater $ Splurge Spending: never / sometimes / frequently / shopaholic ♣ Gambling: never / rarely / sometimes / frequently / compulsive gambler (When it comes to drinking, smoking, and drugs, Bux makes the others look like they only rarely or barely use. He's so constantly high or drunk that the few times Jolt has seen him sober he's been genuinely worried. If he's able to come down from it all gracefully, he hits a major low pretty easily. Often mopey, quiet, avoidant, and typically irratable. If not, He's more likely to have a shakey, screaming meltdown. Keres and Rikki cant handle the meltdowns, and Jolt is freaked out by the mellow (even if his highs can be annoying) so the group does not prevent him from indulging in his habits. He'll pretty much drink whatever, smoke whatever, but in general, Jet is his drug of choice. Jet, weed, and maybe a little calmex (generously spared by Jolt at the request of Keres when they travel.) other than the occaisonally calmex, he's taking mostly uppers.
Bux enjoys a good bit of Jolt's cooking, but he's not a fan of the more 'explorative' dishes, and isn't quite accustomed to other culture's foods, so he can be rather picky. He however, will devour anything prewar, very happily. His favorite are the yum yum deviled eggs. Jolt has attempted to make him fresh, homemade, non irradiated, likely moldy, and properly seasoned deviled eggs, but Bux still prefers the stuff out of the box. He does think Jolt's pork n' beans is better, though.
While not quite as bad as Keres, Bux is also not allowed to spend his own money. He gets an allowance though. He enjoys gambling, too, so that adds on to the "List of Reasons Why." posted on the fridge by Jolt. He mostly spends on drugs or food, but will also spend on tattoo and pericing supplies, or bust it all gambling. He likes dice games, and betting games. He's not great at it. )
(fun fact about the various drugs of fallout; they're inspired by real world drugs/medications, and when writing stories you can apply the real world affects and repercussions :D I've seen a few different interpretations, but here are mine personally (having worked in (and currently working for) various biomedical pharmaceutical distributions or management companies, and while not being a doctor, I know more than the average person about these drugs. (I've mostly included the ones that are important story wise.) Psycho: Methamphetamine Jet: Jenkem (I've seen some people say its an amphetamine, and i think the effects of jet are pretty similar canonically, but it's definetly jekem.) Med-x: Morphine Buffout: roids. Calmex: Ketamine. Daddy-o: Xanax or adderall. (Or something similar.) Day Tripper: LSD or shrooms but bottled for your conveinence. (some people say that day tripper is weed, going off the effects it could be, but i'd rather just have my characters smoking weed. )
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 • loves 80's-70's classic and hard rock (i have a sptify playlist of what he would like https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3s6GY5npU1o0XRJkIWYKo0)
 •Vance likes pinball because it helps him get rid of all his anger he chanels it all into winning and when he beats a highscore its like seritonin overload
 • he dosn't like beating people up but with his neglitive abusive father all the builds up so he plays pinball and when someone messes him up instead of putting that anger into the game he cant because that anger is going to the person letting that anger excape
 •he has this thing he calls "downtime" where he sits on his bed lays on his back and listens to all his favorite songs so he can recoup
 •he probally has bpd, adhd and add (got diagnosed around 5)
 • hes really smart but dyslexic so he has really good ideas but a hard time finding the words to use he also has trouble reading outloud
 •he wears glasses but hes broken so many pairs that he just dosnt wear them so he squints at lil numbers and letters exc.
 •Vance will NEVER hurt a girl no matter what and will never call one a slut he was taught manners by his mother, he might have anger problems but he knows when to stop
 •vance likes art, ik it sounds weird but hes crazy good at drawing and clothing design, he made the spade and club on his jacket himslef cus he didnt didnt like any of the other ones so he made it how he wanted it
  • he likes to wear rings alot
 •all the policemen in town personally know him not for bad reasons tho when he was younger he used to do comunity work but when his dad started abusing him more harshly he turned into current vance
 •vance is really nice accually he dosnt open up much to ppl tho because everyone is scarred of him and usually only his friend out of fear so he gets really lonley
 •he has little rege/panic attacks where he cant think straight or talk right and he just repeats words mosly "why..why..why" or "no..no..no..no.." usually he remembers something his dad did to him and for him its like the world is spinning and he cant even see right
 •vance loves blue razberry because of the little sour kick he also thinks its cool because razberrys arent blue so its like an orignal flavor
 • whenever vance gets a new highschore on pinball he takes his friends and they go to the diner across from the grab n' go for milkshakes vances favorite is chocolate
hope you liked these if you have any sugestions of what i shoud do next plz send them to me and ill tell you if ill do it or not! tyy have a amazing day<3
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