#its cause this is my Exact shit

[the-knife-consumer]

While im thinking about women characters being assigned their fandom roles the way the pikmin fandom outside of tumblr treats brittany is fucking horrible. Whats wrong with you people its a children's videogame character.

#i take a stroll into a yt comment section and its like getting fucking flashbanged. the amount of vitriol. god. #idk. suuper weird that louie is just ohhh my poor little meow meow meanwhile brittany #a character with nearly the exact same attitude (self serving) the exact same motives (food) #whos only major difference being that she talks more often (and is a women. hmm.) is treated like the fucking devil #bit funny considering LOUIE is the one that causes 90% of the series conflict but i guess brittany's downright evil. whatever u say #just. #'we need more mean women!' you people cant even handle children's videogame character brittany pikmin #like come on. its a kids game she is disney sitcom bully levels of mean AT WORST. its not that deep #and you know damn well if louie spoke more often hed be saying the same shit. you know he's an ass. look me in the eyes and tell me he isnt

[send-me-a-puffalope]

why did my teachers think it was okay to give us like one single weekend to finish all of our midterm projects and study for our tests.

#slight vent #i have 3 projects and 3 tests #i’m halfway through my lit/history project and halfway through my psych project #and maybe a quarter done with my programming project #which is fucking insane btw cause how tf am i supposed to code a whole video game in like 3 days on top of everything else 😭😭😭 #and some things he hasn’t taught us and just thinks that we should just be able to figure out like HELLO???/?/// #I DONT HAVE TIME TO TEACH MYSELF NEW CODE #ITS THE MIDTERM/FINAL FOR THE CLASS?????? #and once the weekend starts i’ll have no one to trouble shoot my stuff and fix my bugs so literally i’ll be hopeless so 😭😭😭 #my calc teacher JUST finished teaching us everything we need for the midterm TODAY. THE MIDTERM IS ON WEDNESDAY. BRO. #my physics teacher doesn’t let us copy down any of our idk test questions or take our old assessments home to study #*old #so we get to look em over for like 20 mins and hand em back. which doesn’t exact fucking help me when i’m studying for the midterm. #WITH NO STUDY GUIDE. #my teachers even said that this years midterms are worse than previous years cause they’re all in a row instead of split by a weekend #we’ve had 2 delayed openings and 1 early dismissal this week which means we have less time to work on our midterm projects in class 😭😭😭😭 #i’m so overwhelmed i’m gonna explode #by the time i finish these projects i’m not gonna have anymore energy/time to study for my tests. WHICH IS THE HARD SHIT BTW.

[todayisafridaynight]

obsessed with my non-rgg friend trying to bribe me into playing imessage 8ball with kiryu boob

#snap chats #she follows this blog but never uses tumblr HAHA #ALSO DISCLAIMER I SENT MY MESSAGE THE EXACT SECOND SHE SENT KIRYULAKEJLKA #ps she doesnt know anything about rgg. aside from osmosis but we get the point #genuinely love my non rgg friends who do send me rgg stuff when they can tho #VERY heart warming... like thank you champs..... im glad im in yalls hearts... #however aint no amount of doki doki kiryu gifs is gonna get me on imessage 8ball #i dont PLAY LIKE THAT. also i never get notifs when its my turn soooo #oh yeah. btw. i havent drawn shit #too busy thinking about Pure and staring at the fire i lit. after my other candle burned out of course #might just give up on it for the night and watch kyouen for the rest of the night <- absolutley will not and will stare at a blank canvas #boooo my moms home tomorrow so that means i have to leave the house at like. 3AM. cause she ALSO gets up really early #laaame. ok bye

[movedtodykedvonte]

Your au with Miles and Spot teaming up, does it have a name?

Also would Miles change his custom?

Cause on one hand, him changing his custom to be more villainous is cool supervillain 101. But on the other hand there is a statement to be made by not changing the custom and hunting down all the Spider-Man while using his normal spider-man custom, no adjustments to make it more villainous just plain old spider-man.

And lastly: your content’s really funny and cool 👍

I just would call it anomalous cause that's kinda who and what it focuses on.

As for Miles, he plays the long con, making the other spider people think he's still trying to uphold the moniker of Spidey in his own way despite his true motives. It's more Miles making them think Spot is holding him captive and using Miles as leverage so they can't just kick his ass when in all actuality it's Miles laying low while making big moves.

More so, instead of the costume changing Miles slowly warps and changes through all the dimension-hopping. Like slowly and through like the Spot's physical presence infecting Miles, his DNA and genetics start taking on aspects of the multiverse. He's not so much a cosmic threat like the Spot, more so he slowly starts being able to stay on other earths longer and soon without glitching at all. I'd say instead of the normal suit, his suit would glitch to look like a weird patchwork of his and other Spiders' suits, depending on the dimension he's in. (say a mix of his and Gwen's if he was on Earth-65B) but with a lot more visual glitching and weirdness, cause he still is an anomaly that doesn't belong.

Though I think he'd just start looking warped after a while if not in his home earth. It's not a physical part of him but a new horrid ability that surrounds him and affects other worlds when it's active.

(also thanks! I like to think I'm pretty funny when I don't drop of the face of the earth for weeks :p)

#my idea is he becomes like a universal infection of glitches and anamolies #like he can change things that cause the world to glitch out and desintegrate kinda like what happen with miguel #like that effect surrounds him and sorta like a coat of venom around his person #vs the spot is is fused with cosmic science shit and cant get it off #my specific thoughts are he looks like the specific earths spiderman but off or partly glitched #this isnt bad as its a key give away its him if someone figures it out but the problem is the universe registers him as a double of that #earths spidey and things start falling apart because 2 of the EXACT SAME Spiders cant co-exist in the same world #plus it would throw off Miguels watches cause now it doesn't know whos real #i got notes about this baby yall just have to ask #anon #miles morales #ask #atsv #atsv spoilers #across the spider verse spoilers #anomalous au #across the spiderverse #the spot

[legionofpotatoes]

I played Season over the weekend, which if I had to condense "thematic meandering" into a videogame is probably what I would most closely end up with; but it was still a cozy chill time that targeted my very specific niche of robust cow petting mechanics. Followed by journaling the heck out of them.

I do think cute indies living and dying by their sincere desire to paint the human condition should never ever ever fall into the temptation of obtuse and nebulous worldbuilding that desperately needs to explain itself so it can function as an aesthetic blanket for their vignettes. Just keep it loose and metaphor-heavy, fellas.

Cause if you're not extremely, painfully specific about your intention with a story that centers ignorant tourism and historic preservation, you're gonna beef it, bud

#season a letter to the future #I have so many nitpicks but it feels mean lmao. in a very subjective sense I had a good time with it. I am a boring playstyle guy #scrapbooking and cycling in a pretty world is right up my alley. wish it wasn't so #man idk if I can call it what I want to call it cause it's so unclear of its own optics. the intention feels pure #for whatever good that can do in a context this god damn loaded :D but at least I recorded the froggies on my tapes #(a game like this does not need elaborate lore that it then fails to adequately explain anyway. that is a barrier to many of season's #emotional high points. shit just lacks clarity of purpose and happens as a given and banks on its aesthetic and melancholic context to #provide the necessary backbone for that punch. but then you end up revealing your hand and general flippant disposition towards this #nebulously coded cultural backdrop that you've constructed for ultimately shallow purposes. especially irt to the core ethos #like the game ultimately asks us if dispassionate preservation of a dying culture is more valuable than the vicarious experience of it but #then that binary is never meaningfully weighted since the protagonist survives and succeeds in either option BECAUSE of the journal and? #it all fizzles out in thematic incongruity. maybe it's my own hangups with glorification of legacy to such a manic degree #or maybe it's really just meant to be sort-of aimless and 'human' in that way. which again negates the need for this lore-brain barrier #just keep it simple without the oddly pedestrian mechanics of the literal apocalypse and the mass amnesia prayers and tell #the exact same story. with a tighter grip on the context of who the protagonist is in this land. there's your game) #text

[waluigisgaybf]

ngl tempted to let Volo take my fucking eyeball out this time literally just cause having the fake eye that had See Invisibility would be so nifty

#but I also like my lads different coloured eyes v much #maybe I could pretend Volo took his pink and black eye and when he puts the fake one in #it for some reason changes colour to just look the exact same #like that eye has got some weird shit up with it- cause its also the one his smokey weird tattoo is on- #MAYBE I COULD CHANGE BOTH HIS EYES TO LOOK NORMAL OR AT LEAST NOT BLACK- AFTER HE RIDES HIMSELF OF THE URGE ???????????? #BUT IDK???? I LIKE HIS EYES HOW THEY ARE #bg3 #personal

[angelamontoo]

Wait I wanna hear about ur Mortimer Brewster hate.

I never cared for him personally but I wanna hear ur reason, if you don't mind.

Oh I probably shouldnt have called myself a hater, that's a bit too strong and negative a word for how I feel about Mortimer. Tbh with how unsympathetic and just plain boring a lot of leading men(aswell as other characters who we, the audience, are expected to have some automatic, unearned liking for)are in a lot of these old films, I can't truly hate Mortimer just cause hes at least consistently genuinely funny and interesting to watch.

Still, Mortimer has a lot of pretty unlikeable characteristics that it took multiple rewatches of the film for me to really notice, or at least think about fully. It's definitely partially my opinion being influenced by other AAOL fans who's post about why they hate Mort got me thinking more about just what a massive douche he is in the film, but plenty of it is stuff I kinda noticed myself and then focused on more with every rewatch while I was waiting for Einstein to appear.

The most obvious shitty trait about Mortimer is ofc the way he treats Elaine, ignoring her, berating her, stringing her along and being a condescending dickweed, all because of his own internal conflicts and as a Lorre fan, I'm obligated to be somewhat offended by how needlessly mean he is to Herman, but what really bothers me personally is the way he treats his aunts and especially Teddy. He talks down to his aunts like they're little kids instead of the people who raised him, essentially his mothers and has 0 gratitude for everything they've done for him despite Abby and Martha treating him like their golden child, being thrilled to cart them off to happydale with Teddy. Speaking of, the utter lack of empathy Mortimer has for his own brother, who has never done anything more harmful to anyone else than blow a bugle too loud, is vile. He has no moral qualms letting Teddy potentially take the fall for murder when he's never shown signs of violence before just because "everyone already knows he's crazy" and Mortimer was always planning to shove Teddy into a nuthouse when his aunts croaked anyway so it's no skin off his nose.

Also, while I'm happy that Herman makes it out of the film unscathed, the fact that Mortimer let's someone who he knows was at least an accomplice to multiple murders walk free just because he helps Mort unload his inconvenient relatives into somebody else's care, is proof that Mortimers eagerness to be rid of his family has nothing to do with him being worried that they'll hurt more innocent people. For all Mortimer knows, Herman's every bit as dangerous as Jonathan.

So yeah if I was gonna make a tiere list for leading men in Lorre films(not including the few where Pete fills that role ofc) Mort would probably rank relatively high for being fun to watch and having some sympathetic moments, but that is not saying much

Also thanks for this ask. My blogs mainly about pete characters ofc, but I like having an excuse to talk about some other characters I'm interested in from his films

#arsenic and old lace #mortimer brewster #idk with the aunts its kinda complicated cause it seems like they kinda fucked up with how they raised the kids in some ways #and even if they pampered him more then Jonathan it seems like the aunts didnt do much to stop jonathan from abusing mort #idk i feel like you have to really not be paying attention it one of your kids is injuring the other kids nails n shit #but we dont know the exact deteils there so its hard to say #plus even if the aunts weren't good caregivers it doesnt justify how he treats teddy or elaine yknow? #idk its hard to pin piint my exact feelings on mort #hes a jerk but hes not boring

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[aeide-thea]

god i know that complaining abt fic which most of you haven't read, and which i won't, for politeness' sake, identify in this post, is a great way to come across as both dickish and boring—

but i've been rereading a very long, very satisfyingly plotty series that's a fandom darling and the thing is, when you read like 400k of an author's work at once it really starts to become painfully apparent what their priorities are, by which i mean two things:

holy shit they're obsessed with 'what if strong powerful men who could hurt you didn't (but did hurt Bad Guys) (and it was sexy of them),' which leads into

holy shit they do not appear to have thought through the implications of saying 'i will have my heroes take over the same power structures that have enabled abuse, make no real changes to those structures other than swapping out the leadership, and then claim that everything is wonderful now bc Good Men Are In Charge'??

like. i don't necessarily need every passing fantasy to present me with a coherent, revolutionary system of politics and ethics—sometimes things are just fun and sexy and not especially Examined and that's fine!—but by the time someone's written literally almost half a million words, and done a lot of worldbuilding while they were at it, i am going to start squinting if they seem to think a Good Man can e.g. become an emperor by killing off the leadership of multiple countries and installing puppet kings loyal to him and still remain a Good Man, even if the justification was that the original leadership was maltreating its citizens and deserved to be extrajudicially executed. like. this shit was a bad, autocratic move when the US did it in real life and it's still bad now that you're having our mutual blorbo do it in fiction! and that's not even getting into the whole thing where like. they've got servants who the Good Man and his friends ""treat well"" but who very much remain second-class citizens in terms of how the story actually frames them and their concerns. [this was also a huge issue i had with foz m*adows' most recent book—everyone wants to write about fantasy nobles but they also want to make them good people and it's like. honestly i think it might be better to get comfortable writing about flawed people, but also—if your aristos aren't treating their servants like equals and your text isn't either, you haven't actually cracked the Moral Aristo paradox, sorry!] like, there's nothing that says your story has to depict a fully Healed World, nor should there be! but it's troubling if you seem to be convinced you've written one (and have your wide-eyed love interests constantly marveling at it!) when you very patently haven't.

#in all honesty—i've framed a lot of this as political/ethical critique‚ and like‚ it IS‚ but also— #i'm just really frustrated because like. the whole 'what if people were shockingly nice to you' thing feels like it SHOULD be better for me #but in actual fact i find myself totally turning up my nose at it and i can't totally work out why #i mean i guess part of it is that this author's Traumatized Love Interests are always really innocent victims #which i can't identify with emotionally because i feel like a piece of shit #so i need a story that's more like 'person who's been told they were a monster for so long they believe it gets convinced they aren't' #'(lovingly and sexily)' #but also i think a lot of it just. isn't subtle enough. like i need to have to put pieces together so i'm implicated in my own catharsis #being constantly told 'wow it's so amazing i'm not being abused by this person who COULD abuse me!! that's so sexy of them!' #is just. not doing it for me. like. 'not abusive' is not actually sexy to me‚ unfortunately. i need some character traits. #and unfortunately the ones this author tosses in for flavor ALSO don't convince me #because they never actually manifest in the story. it's like 'oh this character is so prickly—but never actually offends the LI.' #'oh this other character is so gruff—but the LI understands that about them from day one and doesn't take it personally.' #like. if the hero's 'flaws' don't actually cause any problems—they aren't flaws #anyway. i've definitely complained about this exact series multiple times on here at this point #but that's the thing—it's compelling enough i keep going back to it‚ so i get extra-frustrated by its flaws #whereas like. there's a lot of stuff that's much worse that i've been much less frustrated by #because i never had any particular hopes for it #anyway. thx for yr patience in this fully self-inflicted Trying Time‚ lmao #i guess this can get filed under #bookblogging

[mejomonster]

the newest Justice in the Dark rumor i heard floating around was that youku may resume airing it once Till The End of The Moon starts airing, since youku thinks its highly anticipated TTEOTM show will take more of the hype allowing jitd to coast by with less press/attention 

#justice in the dark #rant #and my thoughts on all that? is god i am annoyed by youku. just their whole handling if theyd just put out a press release #like 'hey we are delaying to ensure X problems dont happen again' like the scandal #THEN go dark. so ppl know its a purposeful delay and they intend to air later #and attention wouldve lowered like they wanted cause answers mean less for people to gossip and yell about and dig into youku to make rumors #about. and just... word of honor in contrast their press team did SO good with domestic and international fans and promotion and quickening #the airing schedule to get it all out and BUILD interest until it was TOP trending #and making money onwards for MONTHS #but like. i hear youku wants jitd to NOT be that successful so i guess they dont care if the press is shit #but i still think goddamn... just a 'we are ensuring quality control and will delay airing until done' was needed and they didnt do that #im glad tencent owns Sha Po Lang so at least theres a Chance we wont deal with the same exact bullshit again that youku is doing rn

[ozymoron]

literally why am i a perfectionist i actually really dont give a shit

#⚠️ #personal #''this drawing sucks everyones going to notice the eye isnt in the exact right spot'' both you and i know we dont fucking care #vent #rant #genuinely cant put into words how much this shit frustrates me #like everytime i draw i just have this stupid little critic in the back of my mind thats like ''this looks like shit you should just quit'' #and it drives me crazy #like genuinely shut up #i think all those years on art youtube has just ruined my motivation #like all those art roast videos all those ''DONT DO THIS YOU ARE KILLING YOUR ART'' videos #i think i should just go frolic in a field i think that would fix me #like some of the guys making these kinds of videos are professional artists which just makes it worse for me #cause like i wanna be a professional someday and like having that fear in my mind that they might all look at my art and tear it to shreds #for not being perfect or something just feels so demotivating #like ik its irrational like 100% they would not do that but idk im tired of how harsh art spaces online are #maybe its just the spaces ive been in but from the ones ive been in theyre just so harsh and for what #i genuinely dont get the motivation behind it #what is saying ''dont do this its killing your art'' or ''roasting'' other peoples art doing for anyone #who is that helping #god i have to be up at 9 and its nearly 3 am but like god i need to rant about this just to get it out of my system #ik the whole ''DO NOT DO THIS'' thing probably gets you a lot more views than being like ''how to draw facial expressions'' or whatever #but like still who is that helping #idk maybe its all my years of being told not to do things without a reason why that makes me feel this way but it bothers me #i just worry for younger artists who are growing up on art youtube or are on art tiktok #idk if any of this made sense i cant be bothered reading back through it but i just have a lot of built up frustration towards the more i #guess ''mainstream'' (idk if thats the right word) parts of the art community #honestly idk why im so worried about professional artists who title their videos like ''DONT FUCKING DO THIS OR YOU WILL DIE'' #judging my art #i hit the tag limit yippee. if i have more that i think to say ill just add them in a reblog

[beatcroc]

I just wanna say thank you for reblogging all the stuff spreading awareness of recent antisemitism that you have recently. You are the only person I follow who isn't jewish who I've seen do so at all (Unless I'm mistaken and you are jewish too). I know not everyone is aware of every single bad thing happening in the world at any moment, and don't think people HAVE to reboot about negative events or whatever, but how much you seem to care really warms my heart and reassures me we aren't alone (Unless, once again, I am mistaken and you are jewish)

👍but nah i'm not jewish, just pissed off

#doing the talking for this one IN the tags bc i would really rather be answering this privately lol #feels so weirdly like. performative. to say it out in the open but whatver #i just have so much. anger. abt this shit #every time i turn around and learn about some random history/culture event or fixture its like #'oh yeah and originally this got started to shit on jewish ppl' and its just like how is this so deeply fucking ingrained in everything #and like i'm black so. without trying to compare the two too directly for obvious reasons #i do in some ways understand the thing with the whole system being slanted against you like that #AGAIN not comparing 1:1 because the history of jews being scapegoated for everything ever and always getting the shit end of the stick #is like leagues apart and beyond stuff thats gone down w/ blacks' histories #but i get the infuriation and the sting of people just. not fucking caring or even NOTICING The Issues #to be clear i am unbelievably sheltered and ignorant about like every culture ever+ usually unmotivated to search things out on my own #so endless thanks to my jewish friends/mutuals for just bein themselves and passively keeping me like. informed. #abt basics for not being antisemitic and how to respect jewish culture #cause god knows im not gonna hear it out in everyday society or whatever #yeag. and anyway i also have personal beef #from being raised christian and having to get away from [gestures broadly at the whole of christian teachings] #and im like. you killed people for this? to do things this badly? you stomped out their culture and practices to bring THIS into the world? #literally fuck off and die nothing you taught me is even a fraction as... idk. rewarding? as the fragments ive seen of jewish culture #rewarding or like. hopeful or meaningful maybe. its hard to put an exact word to it but to speak it more directly- #i am Wildly Misanthropic but whenever i learn stuff about jewish culture im like. #you know if these sorts of ideals were more widespread i probably wouldn't hate humanity so much. #[i also feel this way abt native americans but thats a whole ass other thing.] #[similarly seeing people whose ideals i also value being consistently treated like shit tends to just fuel the misanthropy soooooo...] #its like these are the people who actually know how to live and this is what the greater populace thinks of them? lmao ok #[to be clear i live in the usa so you can imagine the kind of culture im Actually exposed to lolllll] #at any rate reblogging a post on social media really feels a negligble gesture but im glad it's appreciated nonetheless

[cherry-shipping]

started replaying broken age now after 6 years……… can you believe i felt a pang of jealousy and sadness that a character who is a literal silly knife with a face implied it had dated another character once (a spoon with a face)

#cherry chats #POSTING IT HERE NOT BECAUSE IM ABOUT TO F/O A FUCKING KNIFE BUT BECAUSE ITS TOO INCRIMINATING TO POST ON MAIN #its literally just the accent and the snarky cutthroat (no pun intended) attitude. what on earths my problem #this is the exact same reason i started KIND OF crushing on spades slick last month or whenever it was i dont remember #its JUST the fucking accent and attitude. thats apparently all it takes to hit a weak spot #and this is also so fucking funny not only because of the Everything about it #but also i joked to myself in my head that i was gonna f/o the knife when i knew i just really liked his character cause hes funny as hell #(i love when you try to use him on shay and he goes ‘stabbing myself is NOT the right way to get off this ship’ #and dutch goes ‘might be worth a shot. ya never know’. i love his dialogue im clicking on EVERYTHING with him) #and then he sort of MAYBE hinted at having dated loraine once? u know. the fucking fork. #and for just a moment i got sad and jealous. then it went away after a second and everything was back to normal #thats when i had the realization that. yeah ok im pretty sure i just have a weakness for Ummm THAT particular character archetype #SO embarrassing. im telling you google dutch broken age and see what i mean. its so funnt #that said for the FUCKING record im NOT crushing on a KNIFE in a video game. im not stooping that low despite my reputation #but its funny that i got so attached to him for like. 1 reason #im not explaining this very good anyway i guess i like snarky 20s mobsters or sum shit i dunno -_-

[the-kipsabian]

i also did want to start work today with talking to one of the most difficult, anxiety inducing, entitled customers we’ve ever had!! :)

#im so tired my brain did not register their phone number before picking up and OH BOY #i also like getting yelled at for not providing a service that ive told them. multiple times. depends on volunteers and their free will #i cant force anyone to do anything these are not paid workers they do this out of the kindness of their hearts and during their free time #im paid here but that doesnt mean i can boss them around and order them to do jack shit if they dont want to #and quite frankly knowing how this person is i totally understand why the one person that was almost up to this bailed after calling them #i dont blame them one bit like my god #this person is so entitled. and anything wrong in her life is my fault. and its also my fault for not helping them when i cant literally #do anything about anything i cant magically snap my fingers and make people appear to do shit #im so tired yall sorry i feel like my heads gonna burst #just please let this be the one thing of today i cant handle more than this #even better they cut the call of after being huffy about me not being able to help them (we've had this exact conversation at least five #times now. they still dont believe me) and said they were going to call my employer and make a complaint that im not fit for this job #or doing it properly #yall im getting karen'd shes gonna call the manager #except shes not cause my boss is at her other job she wont answer her personal phone and they most likely called my coworker #who isnt even here yet so i can just double check her phone and be like 'lmao so they called again im so sorry' #as she knows how this person is #sorry i had to vent my brain cant handle anything right now god i just wanted to chill here today ughhhh

[istherewifiinhell]

Problems aside i think its kinda funny going thru life as if i have some curse thats my unique burden to bear cause i will go into a store and they will not have something i wanted and i will say: alas, the curse. But your average costumer will be similarly deluded but they want to know why YOU, MINIMUM WAGE WORKER, have cursed them so and what are YOU doing to alleviate their ancient curse RIGHT NOW.

#some shit #blah blah fighting my eating gruel freezing to death mentality. yes yes ofc. #im just saying. its funny also. to not react to anything ever [<- lie] and be surrounded by ppl who are the exact opposite #[<- nothing happened im just restocking and thinking cause im bored but not enough engery/time to turtle post]

[ff2-soda-pop]

love how the owl house confirmed the belos is philip theory and you’d think i wouldnt instantly have more things im confused about. you’d also be horribly wrong dfghjhgf

#LIKE-?? since its confirmed officially that they're The Same that made me think about 'well shit that means hes been there since the 1600s' #but then i remembered how toh is set in like modern day so im just-?? how is he still alive i dont- human lifespans are Not that long so #like how has he not died somehow someway. and then i was like 'maybe the palisman thing is whats been keeping him alive??' since we see him #doing that shit even back when lilith and luz went back in time and shit but then its like- how would that keep him alive?? and now im just- #they had that thing w/ the palismen spirit thingy in his mindscape but like. tbh im so confused about that like?? is it like a curse thing?? #like we can figure that whatever it is belos is doing is why that thing exists but like. that doesnt explain the how of it and it sure as #hell doesnt explain WHY he does that. like sure i get him wanting to destroy them given his shit about magic especially 'wild' magic but #i'd think if he *just* wanted to destroy them he wouldnt do the... thing he does??? and now im just- why? does he do that??? #like ik his motivations are basically just 'i am an evil terrible shitty person' which like- that checks out that makes sense! but like #im still confused about these other things now. like now that the Big questions of like- 'who actually is belos' and 'what are his exact #motives and goals' have been cleared up its like my brain instantly went 'HEY WHAT ABOUT THESE OTHER CONFUSING THINGS THIS EPISODE DIDNT #EXPLAIN' 'cause like- i dont have any real lingering questions with anything else from this episode i think it was all explained very #clearly (but also. what exactly is a grimwalker. like what exactly Is that). ...except these two things relating to belos #and like im Sure they'll clarify it somehow at some point but for now im just- ??? how is this happening and what is happening in relation #to these very specific things?? #like unless i just completely missed something i dunno sdfghgfds #the owl house spoilers #sorry if this is incoherent also im no good at putting thoughts into words DFGHGFD