#it's worth striving for. it's worth it. i want it

[merbear25]

For the event, Maybe kid (one piece) for #3. SFW and fem or gn is fine.

Hey, hey! Thank you for sending in this request! I haven't written much for him, so I hope I did alright. Hope you like it 💜💜

A love worth fighting for

CW: SFW, fem!reader, some angst, some fluff

You'd always been told to be less brash, that such behavior was unbecoming for a lady. Such comments made you scoff for you had no interest alligning with what others expected from you. Standing out from the crowd wasn't always looked on fondly; the glares from the crowd would morph together, not a single individual among them.

When you crossed paths with the Kid Pirates, their personalities were unlike anyone you'd ever met. To add to their uniqueness, the captain, Eustass Kid, was quite the character. Your encounter gave you something worth while, to strive for. Luckily for you, your boldness and abilities caught their eye, which led to Kid extending an invitation for you to join them.

With your time onboard extending, you'd earned your keep. Rubbing elbows with Kid came with flirtatious exchanges, steamy nights, but also flare-ups of anger and jealousy. The man had you in an iron grip, ringing out the heart you'd put on the line for him.

You'd had your fair share of problems when it came to your confusing relationship with him. You both had been dancing around the possibility of being exclusive for what seemed like forever; the hope you had was being dragged along, becoming tattered.

Yet you were drawn to his resilience, and despite the fact that he often acted before thinking, you could admire the passion which accompanied his recklessness. He was captivated by your unwavering devotion and even though you were frustratingly stubborn at times, you knew what you wanted and were goal-oriented enough to push for it.

That night was a rerun: a rehashing of old arguments, picking at each other's insecurities further snowballing towards the inevitable clash of your personalities. However, with the storm came the calm when you found yourselves wrapped up in the whirlwind of shared passion.

You felt torn on how you should continue this give and take with him. On one hand, he ignited a flame that, at the best of times, seemed it would burn for eternity. On the other hand, he was the only one to cause the world around you to come crashing down. Regrettably, you were leaning towards calling it quits, although the thought of it pierced your heart.

You bore your heartache to him, and uncharacteristically, he panic washed over him at the reality of you slipping away. He was noticeably distraught from your words, yet still attempted to push down any physical clues alluding to his innermost fears.

"You can't leave me."

"What do you mean I can't?" When he didn't respond, you doubled down, "It's not like this is going anywhere. You don't feel the same way as I do."

"That's not true!" The anguish and want he had for you mixed as he shouted, "I love you but I can't say those words."

His chest heaved at the raw display of his own vulnerability. "Do you have any idea how crazy you make me? How hard it would be to lose a woman like you?"

"Why are you just now telling me this?" The lump in the back of your throat was becoming more painful as you pushed through, "Now that everything has become so distressing between us."

Taking a brief moment, you attempted to shove the rising strife aside, "You must know what you do to me, you idiot." You couldn't help but let out a chuckle at your tear stained insult.

He brushed off the name calling, being able to pick up on the affection laced around it. Motioning towards you, he yearned to hold you closely but was still unsure how to properly comfort you.

Looking at him with dried tears speckling your cheeks, you gave him a quivering smile. Such a gaze made him throw away his prior hangups as he tugged you into his lonely arms.

As you stood there holding the other, the previous rows grew distant and time held no meaning―getting the chance to reveal your love for one another shook you to your cores. That being said, it was a risk worth taking for anything that came afterwards paled in comparison. Knowing where the other stood would serve as an indefinite source of faith, while you faired against all odds hand in hand.

#follower event #one piece #x reader #one piece x reader #one piece imagine #one piece x you #op #eustass kid #kid one piece #eustass x reader #kid x reader #kid x you #eustass kid x reader #eustass kid x you #one piece fluff #eustass kid one piece #eustass captain kidd #eustass kidd #kidd x reader #eustass kidd x reader #eustass kidd x you

[traincrashs]

He ain't deserve it

Nah he ain't deserve this fate, I'm happy that they are bring him back because so many people like him.

But in my opinion, Puzzles just wanted to make a good show and get the praise he never got as a child. Trying to strive to be like all the people he's inspired by on tv and become part of his escapism. Feeling as if he's worth it, since he was ignored his entire childhood, trying to prove to himself and others that he is worth 5 stars.

Cutting off his head to become one with his escapism to cope with what happened during his childhood. Likely wanting to become a star in his own fantasy's.

The SMG4 gang killed his dream by crushing his 5 stars and getting 6 stars (thank you fred/zero for telling me this), fair enough for them honestly. He did yk traumatize the life out of them and tried to kill them same time SMG3 did this same thing lol. I don't think puzzles is dead, just very deep into the forest behind the showgrounds since his body is inside his head, and his tv head is pretty much like a shell. so he's likely fine just very damaged.

I honestly feel awful for puzzles, he didn't deserve that and truly should have been redeemed or at least put back but with anti cast or smth to use instead of main cast. Anyways live laugh love mx.puzzles he's so silly and deserves all the love in the internet and world.

#smg4 #smg4 puzzlevision #smg4 mr puzzles

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[scummy-writes]

I think everyone needs to constantly remind themselves that fanfiction is for fun, and that your words towards writing can have an impact.

I don't like this shift I keep seeing as more people come to fandom spaces wanting everything 100% IC and harsh on people who write any character 'ooc'. I am very tired of people publicly berating others for anything they believe is 'ooc'.

It's stressful enough to share your writing with others, but its even more stressful to be made to believe you can't explore a character in different scenarios due to arbitrary rules that randos on the internet believe is more important than just. Having harmless fun.

#scum talks #i keep seeing this shit everywhere and its so exhausting. every social media platform #its fine if you personally want to strive for want you believe is 'in character' #but people need to realize that everyone believes different interpretations of characters to be 'in character' #this is just for fun. its not worth harassing people or intentionally making people feel awful

[vigilskeep]

Whenever I think about your Keir I think about Bethany telling Anders he reminds her of Malcom. I’m sure that won’t ever affect Keir ever.

bethany is my favourite mage bc she never misses with that psychic damage

but really he and anders aren’t even a thing in act 1 so it’s less like “PLEASE stop comparing my crush to our father” and more like “oh fuck off i spend my entire life trying to act like our dad and one (1) mage rolls up and suddenly he’s dad??”

#the bethany anders keir weirdness about malcolm is so real #because bethany says ‘you remind me of him (generally positive)’ in act 1 #but in later acts i think she’s still seeing the same thing just with a different uhhh mindset #seeing the way her dad wanted her to be something she wasnt and strive for something she was never sure was worth the sacrifice #how he tried to make decisions about what was best for other people. how he risked lives etc #whereas anders also has his own perception of malcolm which i think is quite... idealised #it means a lot to him that a mage raised a family that loved him. and hes envious of it #but thats definitely a standard anders is making up. if anders and malcolm really met we’d have to cast a barrier between them within five #minutes. for their own safety. #whereas keir in some ways saw a more complete version of his father from the beginning #but he also believes those more uhh flawed abrasive damaging sides are necessary. of course he does he repeats them #his father may not have been the easiest man in the world to live with but he always did what he had to #and kept his word and held himself to the same standards as others #but oh wait here’s the legacy dlc with the steel chair— #anyway my point being that u get these 3 in a room and theyre talking abt 3 entirely different malcolms. carnage #i dont think it would naturally occur to keir to compare anders to malcolm #but hed be like. ‘i GUESS?’ when bethany said it #honestly anders one of the things that’s kind of disillusioning abt malcolm bc like #i mean say what you like about my man anders but he was never all talk #not to dismiss the courage it took for malcolm to escape & raise a family #but thats one thing. insisting on using your abilities to help people & to go BACK for those still in the circle is kind of another #a lot of dialogue implying malcolm talked a big game about mage rights #but apart from raising a daughter who hates herself what did he actually do. #sorry thats mean but you see my point #and its not just justice that makes anders like that. sure he was more scared and hopeless about the circle #but his instincts are to help. you wouldnt catch malcolm going back to help against darkspawn even when told to run #and my malcolms also. gruff. stoic. serious. a man of few words. he does not do bits or tell you about his cat #if keir hears bethany compare anders to malcolm and at all agrees it’s not really anything about personality #he’s saying yeah i guess anders does seem like a good mage and a good man. thats the only commonality he would jump to #these tags got incredibly away from me

[rhaenyradelights]

i really want alicent to be involved in ottos death somehow. like he's going to escape with aegon and larys and its obvious he hasn't provided for alicent or helaena at all and she just. snaps. has him handcuffed to his desk or something. if rhaenyra is going to take her head then otto is going down with her

i think that would be satisfying for us as an audience because we've had to watch her suffer at his hands for so long (and much longer) but personally with how i think about alicent, i don't think this would be satisfying for her. "snapping" in that way is something alicent dreads and abhors, she is surrounded by people who take out their emotions on other people, through violence. she doesn't want to be one of them! if she's been put through so much for so long, holding on to herself and trying to make meaning and significance out of the pain of her life.... what would it mean to throw it away for momentary glee when at the end, she'd be a kinslayer, still mired in blood and loss and tragedy but now responsible for the death of her father. i'm not saying i wouldn't love for her to take control and exact some sort of punshiment for the position she's been put in... but i think having a direct hand in ANY murder, but especially her father's murder, would make alicent lose a really integral part of herself. of course this may change as the story goes on and alicent changes in the dance, but i think this sort of scenario would be much more beneficial for us than it ever would be alicent.

#like she needs to be righteous she needs to be working towards a cause bigger than herself #so how could she turn her back on that #we shall see #that post i made weeks ago about how alicent does not even consider happiness to be worth striving for #it's kind of like that #why would she get satisfaction from her father's death #when it would change nothing about her situation #and all she ever wanted was his protection and respect #asks

[doedipus]

I've already talked everyone who cares' ears off about this but there was a pretty big ladder/matchmaking style tournament yesterday that I've been buzzing about for the last 24 hours

like the deal is that they set up a start.gg page so that for a period of 4 hours people could sign up and hit a "ready" button that would pair them off with another readied player with a similar win/loss record. there wasn't like a required number of matches or specific schedule beyond that, it was just free play for 4 hours and then at the end the TOs grabbed the 8 top players and ran a regular elimination bracket as a finale

it seems like such a cool tournament structure! it's got everything I like about the swiss format (lets lower ranking players get more match experience, makes sure each match is as close as possible) but because of the unstructured nature of things it seems like it might be interesting to set one up and let it run for like a week or more as like an open supplement to our regular tournament series

like it's probably something that would be less intimidating to beginner/intermediate players than an elimination bracket, and it would lend some flexibility to people who are usually busy/tired during our regular programming block. plus it would be a great way to collect data on the players to aid in processes like seeding, and -ideally- make the players see the spaces we're providing as something more community-oriented

I'd be curious to see whether it would work as smoothly as I'm imagining in my head, or if it would be super empty until the last second, if there would be issues with the data in scenarios where like, only two players are on at a given time and the website keeps making them play each other and skewing their results, etc.

but still. lots to think about.

#none of the other tournament series seem to be doing stuff like this #everyone who does strive besides apparently CLG is married to either double elim or exhibition matches #and the same seems to be pretty true of +R #so it's something we'd have over can opener/weebcup/panda/etc #it would probably end up being a lot of work to play moderator on a tourney that's always running though #I'll have to see if there's some way of jury rigging it so it's only open from like 6-10 or something #so I wouldn't have people bugging me at 3am to resolve a connection dispute #or otherwise just tell players what my office hours are and then handle everything else at my convenience #honestly it might end up falling into the same realm as doing my own stat tracking where it would be worth doing if I was getting paid #but maybe kind of questionable otherwise #I really want to to a test run anyway though

[miamicommune]

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#think far too many mental health resources focus on the idea of ambition #like ofc if u have something to strive for all your mental health issues are a barrier to overcome for that but like #what are u supposed to do if u don't have any #what are u supposed to do when there's nothing that u have to do at some point #there's nothing for me to look past this is all there is im directionless and finding a direction is never going to be meaningful to me #i can't just overcome some shit and suddenly be capable of being productive because everyone capable of that has something they want to do #i straight up just don't i don't want to keep living in this shit world and there's nothing that could ever make it worthwhile #i want to die because the alternative is a miserable shit life where im suffering for the rest of my life like always #nothing could make that worth it

[madamescarlette]

ok if not whisper of the heart then it's gotta be....The Wind Rises?

1.) The Wind Rises 2.) Cinderella (2015) 3.) Roman Holiday 4.) Sense and Sensibility (1995) 5.) A Cinderella Story 6.) Sleepless in Seattle 7.) Interstellar 8.) Begin Again 9.) 10.) Penelope 11.) Pacific Rim 12.) 13.) Fellowship of the Ring 14.) Tron: Legacy 15.) The Hundred-foot Journey 16.) The Farewell 17.) Bright Star 18.) The Intern 19.) 20.)

ALL THE POINTS TO YOU, CATHERINE. Yes!! very very proud of you for getting this one, you get a special virtual cake sent your way this instant!!!

guess my top 20 films! (hint list here)

#ask #i love the wind rises dearly and have for a while but found it very sad so had a hard time returning to it #but last year something clicked into place and now it's just?? the core of my soul in a way #there's something about it that's like. you dream dreams but can't quite reach them yourself so you'll help someone else to do so instead #you try to stay good and kind and faithful and can still lose everything to calamities or fires or wars or illness #you can love somebody and lose them to what has always been coming for them #but it's okay despite that. it's still worth it to strive to be kind. to dream and to love someone despite it all #maybe they'll teach you a song of sorts and you'll keep singing it through the rest of your life #so you will never truly lose them nor they you #and it's enough that your dreams will scrape the sky even if you yourself no longer can #it just is A LOT and something about it constantly makes me want to grow and strengthen and strive. #to grieve if i must but continue onwards once i have recovered #and it means a lot to me!!

[pinnithin]

on that subject i still havent finished greywaren but its been really odd how as ive aged adam's character development keeps veering weirdly close to my own issues as an adult

#like i got over the self worth issues and the fact that i was just surviving the day to day #i stopped trying so hard to be perfect and feeling like an impostor #and now im like #at a comfortable monetary state in my life but at the compromise of my own values #and i just want to go back to my landscaping job and not have to strive or pretend or be on top of things all the time #im tired of having to be ten steps ahead #adam parrish stop being prophetic challenge #pin talks

[shatterthefragments]

I fear I go along with it too much

I fear I don’t stick to my beliefs as soon as I feel I don’t have a choice

As soon as I

Freeze

Choke up feel strangled anxious dead zombie paralyzed

It makes me fear

Make me feel loved once and you. Can do

Anything

#unfortunately this is about the fear that I’m being driven to eat at an indoor restaurant (uncle’s birthday) #vent #the constant Trying Not To Worry mixed with Trying To Take Care Of Myself and not be out of commission for another month is. tenuous #that being said I will absolutely keep my mask on except to eat and if they question it I’m just going to be honest and I can’t afford to #I can’t afford to get sick again - either financially or in time or wellness #I have a life I want to live that I’m striving to make worth living and something I find joy in outside of little pockets

[qumiiiquinnquin]

i know that i am not improving and always making mediocre drawings, so i want to give up

#vent #i really feel stupid for having this mindset because its always draw for fun dotn draw to be perfect #because striving to be perfect makes doing what you love unfun it instead feels stressful #because now you put such an enormous task to be perfect on yourself #its not just wanting to be perfect i cant think of anything to draw #and its not worth putting in the time and effort anymore #not because im tired. well you probably get it #jealousy again? #i cant make anything worthwhile #im burnt out but i really want to stop now #how many times will i say it until i finally do coward #i think about it all the time for several years now to be very honest #i really dont know why i keep trying #and now with a i running rampant why not finally give up #im so frustrated

[fulgursmediaanalysisdrama]

Nihilism is a positive, life affirming philosophy. Something my christian mother couldn't, or didn't want to, understand

And Schoppenhauer is interesting but only worth anything when you conclude he is wrong

Berserk as a Nietzschean Tragedy — Art, Morality, Affirmation by Jonas Čeika

#when I was 16 in the face of my friends still being close to christian morality and therefore by extension fascist thought (something I was #incapable of naming back then and only fully getting out of in my 20s after falling out with all of them) #I invented the term of ''positive Nihilism'' on my own. this in turn was a thought that spread throughout our very depressed and more #hopeless shunned by other students friend group and synergized well with the hedonistic freedom we gained by getting old enough to buy #alcohol and other drugs. but didn't lead to all of us moving away from moralistic and judgy world views. for most it only changed #what the rules and who worthy targets of morality and judginess were #and influenced by this bad philosophy taught in school and right wing influencers having the biggest presence online I also #didn't manage to free myself from christian moralistic and fascist world views. even if I developed an #understanding of how racism and science were related at the time and thought myself to be a true liberal (I wasn't) ( andthat's kinda true #for essentially all liberals. because they denie collective action for the greater good. and thereby denie that collective action for the #bad can already exist. implicitly without any great plot to be necessary #and I used the terms bad and good here. but not to describe any conviction of anyone. to describe a result of action/inaction taken #back then I struggled heavily with self worth because there wasn't any system in which I could get ranked that affirmed #my worth or my virtues. my talents. because it can't. and if there was it would need to denie someone else's value #that's inevitable. being good at something is great but has no implications on other people #alone for the fact that they might have different standards. different goals #the complexity of humanity and the inability of us to weigh one another against each other. to compare ourselves amongst one another #is what truly reveals the worth of each and every one of us. we're alive and nothing can be worth more. so we should strive to keep everyon #around as long as they want to be around. and we should always denie anyone who wants to denie others ability and right to live #and I'm not some Kantian Idiot believing that the laws of nature mandate you aren't allowed to kill yourself or something #I'm just here to say even if I hate you I'd rather you're alive so that I can decide not to talk to you than for you to be dead. #someone else will love you and cherish every moment with you and I'll love that you're spending that time together. #I kinda lost the thread and my brain is producing thoughts I wanna write down but can't make sense off or put into words. #I don't know what the thoughts are myself. I forgot at least one of them after formulating it correctly because there were so many #kissing you (only if you want to/allow it) #Youtube

[americascomic]

I talked to a trans femme teen yesterday who told me to not use slurs (faggot, tranny) and I think people like to blame social media for these kids being so tenderqueer-y, but this kid also told me that of the 1,400 kids in her art school, there is lots of out gay, trans masc and non-binary AFAB kids but only 10 t-femmes, and I saw in her and this other trans femme teen I know this harsh assimilationist streak (they want to go stealth, strive for conventional beauty standards, jealous of the cis het white blonde girls) because they barely have a community and so it becomes a place to survive.

The internet is this boogieman that distorts what is the consensus. It has a selection bias of hyper isolated, neurodivergent, and anxious people who are just looking to survive

I look at queer kids with annoying conservative opinions I don't see the solution being "internet stop sucking" - the assimilationist woodworking "Cross Dressing Quarterly" trannies of the 90's didn't need TikTok to get this way, it was the violence of the closet.

I see the problem being them being scared kids - what bell hooks calls "the most oppressed class" and I see the solution being a more porous, safe community between kids and adults (outside of the nonprofit industrial complex that uses queer youth spaces to condescend, infantalize, and give resources in a nondemocratic way)

We always say "protect trans kids" and it's worth queer adults of all types toughing through bigotry and accusatory stares to find these kids, build relationships, give resources and love them. All we have is each other. We protect us. Us tranny faggots

#slur discourse #protect trans kids #trans #trans femme #tenderqueer #no kink at pride

[sammydem0n64]

I love lingering when it comes to introducing oc story and lore because ohh oh ohhhhh it’s fun seeing reactions to plot points and discussing them and what not. But it’s also scary because I won’t like it if I’m judged for a story direction because people don’t like a character or smth. But also who caresssss I call it a jumpscare to see horrible people fully comprehend that they’re horrible and try to fix themselves and build themself from the ground up. I call it that fucked up people can realize their wrongs and change themselves for the better. I call it nuance. I call it look at these ocs boy

#I say this specifically because I have plots that I cannot share right now because the haters will sabotage /J #no but forreal listen to me #imagine you’re a piece of shit. and it’s largely because your parents installed their pompous and bigoted views onto you #and from day one you seemed to be the favorite child. your parents adored you. your parents insisted you’d go far. #they acted as if you acted just like them then you’d succeed. and you were succeeding. no one worth your time treated you badly #even though you treat most people badly. INCLUDING your own siblings. if anything you’re encouraged to treat your siblings like ass #so they strive for greatness. but you refuse to see them as anything but great. because THEYRE not YOU. they’re nothing like you #you’re special. you’re perfect. you deserve so much in life and you will go so far in life because of your parents #but then you follow your heart. you were given freedom in life so why not decide to try and date people not on your level #but your parents HATE this!! and when you get your heart broken they refuse to comfort you #they demean you. insult your intelligence. ask where they went wrong raising you. treat you like they treat your siblings. #You did nothing wrong objectively. you just did what you wanted which you had always done! but now it’s wrong! #and you realize... your siblings and other family members also weren’t doing anything wrong. we’re they? #because if this is enough to make your parents treat you like dirt underneath your feet then what did your siblings truly do wrong #are they truly different from you? we’re they truly worthless and deserved to be mistreated? #were you wrong this whole time? #Yes. You were. You fucking sucked!!!! you were horrible for no reason!!!!!!! #So how do you go about trying to make amends? to righting your wrongs? #when you only realized your mistakes through selfishness? because you only realized this when YOU finally got treated like shit? #oh yknow. fuck around and find out I guess

[arotechno]

i live with two friends who will soon be married, and the three of us intend to eventually buy a house together. when i discussed this with her, my mother said to me, "are they ever going to want their own place?"

and it's a fair question, right? the "normal" thing for a married couple to do is to establish a nuclear family unit, apart from other family and friends. and her instinct is to look out for me, and make sure i am not walking into financial agreements that are untenable.

but that's the tendency allo people, particularly cishet people, have: their first thought is always, aren't they going to get rid of you? won't they leave you? won't everyone?

and they don't see the hurt it causes. because it's what they'd do, so what?

that's the subtle manifestation of arophobia. if your worth is defined by your romantic prospects, then you're worthless on your own. someone else will always come first, surely. you're lacking in some universal truth, and everyone can see it. marriage is forever and divorce equals failure and friendship, well, it isn’t something you ought to negotiate.

and why wouldn't we have talked about it?

it's times like these when i cling to the phrase (subject to change). there is no permanent state of the self, no guarantees that life will go one way or another, no use in striving for permanence in a world that's constantly changing faster and faster every day. i won't make myself smaller, couch-surf through people's lives living out of an emotional suitcase, just because they may leave me one day. and why should i? forever is (subject to change).

#aro #aromantic #op #koisenu futari #(kind of) #techno's jdrama era