#it's still just summation sort of stuff i haven't like properly written anything yet

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

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#i have done an absolute shit job of existing today #well ok physically existing ok yeah i did that #but that was the bare minimum #its almost 6 pm and all i've eaten were some grapes a slice of sandwich meat with nothing else and a couple skittles #i only just had my first glass of water #i should've been at work today #but i didn't get out of bed til 2 #so now i just feel guilty and like i can't enjoy myself cause i haven't done anything productive even within my own house #i know i don't have to be productive to 'deserve' to enjoy myself but that's just how i'm wired right now #and i hate it but that's how the brain goes sometimes ( a lot of times) #kee speaks #in other news i have still been adding to that whump fic idea i've mentioned this week #it's still just summation sort of stuff i haven't like properly written anything yet #but it's like 900 words now and I've rewritten a couple bits twice now adding new details #and maybe i can convince myself to actually start writing it in earnest tonight #maybe i'll get some pho and make some tea and get cozy